2000년 10월 28일    금요일    푸른 가을 하늘

오늘도 대체로 개떡같은 날이었다.

어머니와 희석이를 보러 집을 왔었다.

어머니께 늘 죄송한 마음이다.

점심 먹고 가서 수업 2시간 하고 선생이랍시고 개인적으로 한 애를 가르쳤다.

요즘  들어 그냥 심심해서 하고 있는 일이다.

밤 10시 15분에 오늘 마지막 수업을 끝내고 매실주 한 병 사들고 집으로 왔다.

술 한 잔 하면서 내 요즈음 존경하고 싶은 못생긴, 그래서 더욱 빛이 나는 김용옥 선생님의 공자에 관한 강의를 T.V를 통해서 시청했다. 언젠가 시간 날 때 꼭 한번 직접 들어보리라 마음먹었다.

희석이는 지금 엄마옆에서 한번씩 세상을 뒤척여가며 자고 있다.

저 맑고 순수한 희석이에게 맹서를 하고프다.

나, 너의 아버지로서 자신있고 당당하게 열심히 살겠노라고..

나, 이 시대에 굳게 서기 위해 노력하겠노라고...

내일 아침부터는 아침에 일어나서 강변부터 뛰어야겠다.

그래서 세상이 매일 매일 밝게 다가오도록 내가 우리 모든 가족을 위해 만들어야겠다.

그리고 이제부터는 매일 일기도 써서 나의 반성의 거울로 삼고 나의 향상과 연마의 도구로 삼아 후일 나의 족적이 될 수 있도록 해야겠다.

2000년 10월 28일                    학원 월급날 : 토요일            흐릿, 가을비

오늘은 학원 월급날이었다.

소인인지라 설레임도 있지만 어젯밤 늦게 잔 탓에 오전 내내 피곤했다.

오전에 몸을 씻었다. 학원에 가니 원장은 월급을 책상 안에 넣어 두고 나갔다고 한다.

저녁에는 우리 가족들 가벼운 몸보신이나 시킬 계획을 했다. 고모님 댁에 갈 생각이다.

홍경화, 이기원 두 학생을 개인적으로 공부하는 걸 도와주었다. 경화는 오늘 수업이 무척이나 마음에 드는 모양이다. 꼭 합격시켜야 한다.

어머님이 화가 많이 나셨다. 성연이가 회사 체육대회 가서 늦었다. 이해는 가지만 너무 어린 마음, 무딘 생각이 맘에 늘 걸린다. 빨리 서로간의 마음의 평정을 위해 노력해야 겠다.

집에 와서 피곤한 나머지 그냥 쓰러져 한 30분 잠이 들었다. 깨어나 "DEEP IMPACT"란 외화를 T.V를 통해 감상했다. 허전했다. 나의 삶은 이런 게 아니었는데, 힘이 든다, 지친다, 너무 재미없다.

차를 몰고 진주를 한 바퀴 비잉 돌았다. 내가 돌고 있었다. 나는 서야 했다. 그리고 나를 잡아야 했다.

이제 서른 셋, 최고가 아니라 최선을 다하는 삶의 연속이 되어야 한다. 동생들이 고맙다는 생각이 괜시리 든다. 내일은 동생들과 함께 아버님께 들러야 겠다. 아마 기다리고 계실거다.

오늘은 모처럼 사랑하는 조카 현우가 할머님곁에서 잠을 청했다. 좋은 꿈 꿨으면....

오늘도 하루의 족적을 이렇게 남긴다. 아침 운동은 오늘 실천 못했다. 빨리 실천할 수 있도록 해야겠다.

2000년  10월  29일 .                    일요일.                가을비 뿌리는 날

오늘은 일요일.

가을비가 조금씩 뿌렸다.

어머님은 아직 화가 풀리지 않으신 모양이다.

어제도 컴퓨터 한답시고 늦게 잤다. 부질없는 행동이었다.

오늘도 과외 2건을 했고, 쓸쓸한 아버님 묘소를 셋째 동생내외,그리고 조카 3명과 함께 다녀왔다.

지금 나는 어머님께서 매달 주시는 희석이 우유값을 유용하러 하고 있다. 아내탓에 정말 그러고 싶다.

정말 돌파구는 없는 걸까? 요즈음은 날씨만큼이나 우중충한 기분 투성이다.

내일은 할머님 제일이다. 정성을 다해 모셔야겠다. 어서 잠자리에 들어야겠다.

2000년 10월 30일.      월요일:피곤한 날               흐릿, 으스스하네

From now on, I will keep a diary in English every night.

No matter what difficulties I may have, I will necessarily keep a promise with myself. I swear before my loving family.

Today was Monday. It was a bit windy and I felt slightly cold like my mood.

I was very tired when I woke up in the morning, but I had to go to my work.

In my thought, my four lectures of today were excellent, and I was very happy. I will try to improve my method of class and enlarge my English knowledge. Someday I am to become the best English lecturer.

I arrived at my mother's house at 9:40 p.m.  My family had to hold a religious ceremony in honor of my grandmother. All the members of my family ,including my mother, made a great effort to prepare for a variety

of food. Two aunts, an elder sister and a niece took part in the ceremony,

After the service, we enjoyed a good meal in a very pleasant mood.

My wife, my son and I returned to my home at 1 : 25 a.m. Today was a very busy day, but everything was all right. Now I will go to a beautiful world.

Tuesday, October, 31 : the last day of October, 2000. cold and rainy.

I was very tired this morning, because I went to bed late last night.

In the afternoon, I was taking a nap for about an hour in my home.

My mother sat beside me. My loving son was sleeping in his room.

Suddenly he woke up coughing over and over again. My mother said that we should take hi m to the hospital. I drove to the ka-ya Mother Hospital near my home. A beautiful female doctor diagnosed my son. He caught a cold.

I paid 5,670 won for a medical efforts and I received a prescription from her. I brought it to a neighboring drugstore. I received a medicine from a pharmacist. I want my son to get well very soon and I' d like to appreciate my mother's caring. Mother! Thank you. I love you. I hope that my loving mother will live longer and longer without suffering from any disease.

Wednesday, November, 1 , 2000.                rainy and cold .

Today was the first day of November, and it was rainy like my feeling.

A student asked a grammar question, and I taught her in detail.

I was happy to see my son get better than yesterday when I came to my home to enjoy lunch. Mother! Thank you!

After supper, I hurried to my work and I prepared a lecture so sincerely.

In the class, there are two students. One is a girl and the other is a boy.

Both of them try to study very hard, so I always do my best to make them become the best pupils. I hope that I will be their most excellent master.

Now it is rainy. I'd like to see a shining sun tomorrow morning.

Thursday,       November, 2 , 2000                 rainy and sunny.

Today was my students' preliminary test day. They did their best.

Fortunately, an English test was very easy, I think. But Miss Hong,

my private pupil, received the lower score than I had expected. And another private pupil got a reasonable score. I will try my best to teach them. Now is time for me to go to bed. Today was a tiring day, too.

Friday,          November, 3 , 2000       blue heaven and sunny .

A day was passing as usual, and a night came up to us, my high school predecessor and me, like an expected figure. I met him to repay money I borrowed about a month ago. He seemed to be very pleasant. He said that he had fallen in love with a woman. He is 35 years old and unmarried yet.

We walked into the beer house and drank 3 bottles of it talking over our future and our life.  Then a problem took place. I drank a lot and I blacked out. After all I couldn't return to my home. In addition, I wasted a considerable amount of money. I was sorry to my family and him.

I said to myself that I would improve my liquor-drinking  habit.

From now till my death day, I won't make a mistake because of drink.

Saturday ,  November , 4 , 2000     blue sky and my depression .

As a result of drinking a lot of liquor last night, I didn't go to my work.

When I returned to my home, there was no one in my nest. I went to my mother's house. She got angry and looked very sad. she said,"I am no longer your mother." My wife and my loving son went to her house in the country, she said. I was very sorry and regretful. It is no use crying over spilt milk. I will try not to spill my milk. I didn't teach one student because I couldn't recover my right mind. However,I finished helping the other study English at 8 p.m. and I went to Ban-sung to attend a religious ceremony.

Sunday  ,           November , 5 , 2000 ,   fair , clear and sunny .

I slept in Ban-sung last night. Though My family was not used to sleeping in a strange place, my wife, my loving son, and I had quite a sound sleep.

I got up late. I had to hurry to come to Jin-ju, my hometown, because of a private class at 11 a.m. I drove to my house by myself, with my loving son and spouse left there. So I felt like my heart being in the very deep water.

After I gave a private lesson to Miss Hong, I drove to my father's country alone, and I talked over my problem with HIM. The sky seemed to be so blue.

I felt that fatigue flooded into my mind and body, so that I returned to my home and I took a sweet nap. I woke up at 6 o'clock p.m. and I went to my private pupil's house. These days, he has studied English very hard. Therefore, his grade improved a lot. I was so pleased with his good grade.

I wish him to get a very excellent score in the real test, too.

Monday ,   November , 6 , 2000 ,  the same weather as yesterday

I arrived at my workplace at 7 : 50 a.m. Since I was absent from my work last Saturday, I was so sorry and ashamed to my students and coworkers.

I tried to behave as usual, but I couldn't erase my sense of guilt from my mind. I had the thought that I wouldn't live without conscience  which, as all of us know it, is essential to keep our society right. I made up my mind never to make the same mistake again.  Today was over, so I will wait for tomorrow, because TOMORROW's SUN will rise in the TOMORROW's SKY.

Tuesday ,  November , 7 , 2000 ,         clear and a little chilly .

Today was a very pleasant day. I gave my students a wonderful lesson, and they seemed to be so satisfied with it, too. From time to time, I compare myself with Park Chan-ho,the best professional baseball player in Major League. I am sure that he is the best player who has sincerity, born talent, and ability, but I know that he make a mistake and allow the other team's players to hit Home-run. Though he, once in a while, lose a game, I like him

Even though he is younger than I am, I learn a lot of things from him. The most important thing of them is the power to control his mind and body. I am sure that I have the talent to become the best English instructor and the ambition to be eager to be the successful man like him. Yet, I didn't have a confidence and I couldn't exercise my ability properly.From now on I will be responsible for my life and my family's life.  I BELIEVE MYSELF.

Wednesday ,  November , 8 , 2000,          windy and very cold .

I got up late this morning, hurried to my workplace and reached there at 7:50 a.m. I had a wonderful time, because I thought that my lectures was very good. I returned to my home at 9:35 p.m. which was earlier time than usual. I listened carefully to so great a lecture on the oriental medical science by an unfamiliar, mysterious but good lecturer, while I was eating an instant noodle. I watched it on TV, and I determined to do the jogging.

I have to keep in good shape so as to have the power that I will support my family with. I will try to keep a promise with myself. Now my son is saying to himself in the living rooming. I miss him, even if he is always with me and even though he smiles at me. I'd like to be respected by him.

Thursday ,   November , 9 , 2000 ,           bone-chilling cold.

Today nothing special happened to me.

This is the expression of extreme idleness not to keep a long diary. In fact, now I am writing the past story, 5 days ago

Friday ,    November , 10 , 2000 ,         bleakly sunny and cold.

Since I began to give the students lectures in Jin-ju, I liked him named Park Jung-soo, very much. He was always strong strict, and righteous. He invited my family-my wife, a son, and me-to his home this evening. He wanted my family to enjoy the raw fish with his family, which he had bought it in Sam-chun-po. I was very happy. So I finished giving class to the students one hour earlier than usual. I telephoned my wife to inform her of the news. When I got to my home, she was ready to leave for Mr. Park's house. We took a taxi to go there, because I'd like to drink a lot of liquor.

His family was waiting for us to arrive at his own home without eating dinner. I was so sorry, but soon we was able to enjoy a delicious meal. We drank a So-ju shouting, "Cheer up!" and "To our health and our friendship". It was then that I disagreed to his opinion. I insisted that he had kept a wrong memory, and he persisted his memory different from mine. After all, both he and I turned red in the faces because of anger. I jumped up out of his house without saying good-bye. After I returned to my home, I blamed my wife. I must have drunk a lot. Though I became a sot, I thought that I would send an E-mail to him and apologize to him for my impolite behavior and my ruthless obstinateness.

Saturday ,        November , 11 , 2000 ,            rather cold

I was under the weather and very tired on account of yesterday's event.

In the afternoon, I heard a bad news from my youngest brother.

He failed in the preliminary test for the program, "We Like Quiz".

In the night, my boss gave us, Mr.Lee, Mr.Kim, and me, the worst story of all the things of the day.

He said that he would go to America and entrust our workplace to an unknown man.

I understand him, but I worry about my uncertain future.

Sunday ,      November , 12 , 2000 ,           rather cold .

Today my loving nephew, Hyun-woo, took a very important test for a black belt in Tae Kweon do.

He did his best, so I was sure that he would pass the test. We will be able to know the result of it next month.

My family ate out in the fancy restaurant and went to my FATHER'S COUNTRY. Today was a somewhat happy day.

Monday ,      November , 13 , 2000 ,            windy and cold .

I got up as usual and I arrived at my workplace at 7:50 a.m. Today was the Ending Day of lectures for my class.

I felt a feeling of liberation. I made love with my wife at night. It was so rare an event.

Tuesday ,     November , 14 , 2000 ,            rather cold .

I gave two loving pupils the last lessons. Now I only hope that they will have luck and get very good scores.

In the night my co-workers and I drank a lot with Mr.park over talking about a serious topic, our unclear future.

Wednesday ,   November , 15 , 2000 ,  warm for a fall weather .

Today they took a very important test for their life.

I didn't go to my workplace today, and I stayed at my home all day long.

In the night my private pupil, Lee Ki-won, phoned me to deliver the result of his test.

I sincerely hope that all the students of my class, especially Miss. Hong Kyong-hwa and Mr. Lee, will get good scores.

Thursday ,        November , 16 , 2000 ,            rainy .

Miss. Hong called me up. She had a bad result in the test. I am very sad like her. God must have been dead.

She is very good. Why won't the God help her, if the God is alive? I hope that she will have a miraculous luck.

When I reached my life site to give my younger students lecture, Mr. Lee had already been there. This time, too, he did

not have a good luck. But there is possibility enough for him to enter the department he want to study in.

I met my previous student, Mr. Kim Dong-hyun and Mr. Lee Young-hwan, and we went to a very fancy restaurant.

We enjoyed a very delicious meal. Mr.Kim confessed that he had taken the test. He seemed satisfied with his own score.

After about an hour, they went to the public bathroom and I returned to my workplace to teach my students.

I met them at the bar at 9:00 p.m. and drank, drank and drank. I was sad with Miss.Hong's worry.

Friday ,        November , 17 , 2000 ,                rainy .

These days, there are two serious worries in my mind. One is Miss. Hong's problem and the other is the problem of my future. I try to make a big smile in my face but I always have an extreme sadness in my heart. Today was the same.

In the evening I attended a house-warming party in the newly-wed's sweet home. The bride was my former student.

I drank a lot of liquor and enjoyed a funny talking and plenty of dishes. My previous pupils, Yoon Jae-hong, Lee Young-hwan, Yoo Kyo-sun, and Lee Chang-hoon, saw me off to my home. I thought I was a very happy man.

Saturday , November , 18 ,2000 , It is windy and leaves are                                                     falling.

I got up very late and I hurried to my workplace, because I had a lesson to teach at 11:00. It was under construction like yesterday. Yesterday I realized once again how terrifying money was in the capitalistic society. Yesterday was a very fucking day. I was very unhappy in my workplace today, too. I narrowly escaped from the money-oriented dungeon.

I took my loving son to Kaya mother and child's hospital, even if he wasn't very seriously sick. He had a yellow runny-nose and sometimes had a cough. Like my thought, fortunately he didn't suffer from a serious illness. My wife and I were pleased with it. After I returned to my home, I prepared for leaving to meet my department alumnus for Pusan.

A few days ago, I promised to attend the Homecoming Festival on the phone. I should have kept my promise.

After all, I didn't go to the meeting. I need have thought of my past and future walking on fallen leaves in the campus.

Now I feel very sorry to my old friends and all the people looking forward to my attending it. Next year I will necessarily be there. I will promise with myself. Tomorrow my family will go to my FATHER'S LAND and take a trip.

Sunday ,  November , 19 , 2000 , cloudy and cold

When I woke up and watched the alarm clock on the table, it was at 10:30 a.m. I had to hurry up because I had a terrific plan to take a trip. When I heard telephone ring, I thought that my younger brother might do it. My expectation was right. He had already been there, my mother,s house, with his family. I hurriedly had breakfast with my wife. Then I phoned my loving nephew, Hyun-woo, for I would like to trip with him. However, he was not in his home. My sister-in-law, Hyun-woo's mother, said that he had gone to his grandfather-in-law's house. I was very depressed with that fact. But I could hear his cheerful voice in about five minutes. He sounded very happy. I was very happy even though he was not with me. All the family of mine except  Hyun-woo's family drove to my FATHER's LAND. HE GOT ON MY CAR.

We headed for Jiri mountain to appreciate its beautiful scenery. It had a still and solitary mood of late fall. Only on the foot of it could we see pretty leaves turning red and yellow. We went into a restaurant my father's friend had run for a long time. All of us enjoyed a very delicious meal. My parents seemed to be very happy. It was a very beautiful world.

Sam-hyun took pictures for my mother, his family, and my family. My father couldn't be in the picture because he always was in our mind. We had quite a wonderful time in the nature and returned to my mother's house with a sweet memory in our mind. Today was a pleasant day. I will try my best to have a fantastic day every day. I want to sleep.

Monday ,      November , 20 , 2000 ,         windy and cold .

I met him, Wang Sam-soo, by accident in the bar. He was a real imposter and impudent liar. I haven't seen him for about a year. I thought that he had not changed in terms of character and personality. But his look seemed to be pale.

I was able to forgive his past wrong-doings, including my terrible wedding ceremony, and I hoped that he would find his new way of life. Otherwise, perhaps I will not be able to forgive him forever.

I drank a great deal of beer till late at night in a farewell party for Mr. Yoon Young-tae who had been a best driver in our academy for over 4 years. He didn't acquire a lot of academic knowledge, but he had his own philosophy of life.

He was a strong, manly, passionate and good he-man. He said that he would run his own restaurant in Mu-joo in Chon-Buk province. I promised to visit him sometime. I really hope that he will succeed in business. Mr. Yoon! Way to go!

Tuesday ,      November , 21 , 2000 ,         windy and cold .

I woke up at 9:50 a.m. but I couldn't have a clear spirit, for I drank a lot last night. I fell down back to sleep.

When I got up again, it was at 3:40 p.m. Now I had to go to my workplace, but I was not still in good condition.

After I had eaten brunch, I went to Han-sol Academy, my life site. I was very sorry to my students and co-workers.

My work was over at 9:25 p.m. I drove to my home. My wife was sleeping with my loving and cute son. I was a bit upset. However tired, she shouldn't fall asleep until my arrival, I thought. Today was her payday.

Wednesday ,       November , 22 , 2000 ,           cold .

After I had finished giving the students a lecture, I met Miss Hong in front of my workplace, Han-sol Academy. Soon we went into the restaurant specializing Ssam-bab. I was sorry to her, for she didn't get a satisfactory score in the test.

She had been my private pupil. I communicated with her about that test for examining abilities to study in university.

Now and then I saw her swallowing her tears. I narrowly put up with tears pouring out of my eyes. I really hope that god of destiny will fill her future with a glittering sunshine. Miss. Hong! CHEER UP!

I bought a gift for my wife. It was an inexpensive clothes, but I wanted her to be pleased with it. My expectation got lost. Hee-suk! Your mother always let me down. Your mom is out of harmony with me. I am so sad for your mother.

Tuesday ,         November , 23 , 2000 ,      a bit cold.

These days my workplace has been under construction, so it is very messed up and so noisy. My mind is the same.

I don't know what to do and where to go. I feel a little nervous. I must find my way as soon as possible. Now I am 33 years old. Clearly that age isn't old not to do new thing, but I don't think it is a very young age. From now on I will have to try my best for my future and my loving family's future. Above all, I will get up early every morning, and I will try to be in good shape by jogging every day. Then, I will enhance my ability by studying and studying new idea and knowledge. I believe in myself. I am sure that I will be a competent and many-sided man. I will keep my word.

ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD! BE ALL YOUR EYES ON ME!

Friday ,          November , 24 , 2000 ,            A little cold .

I went to the dental clinic in Good-News Hospital, because I had a decay in my mouth. A woman dentist treated me  and a nurse asked me to come again next Monday. I hurriedly drove to my home. My loving nephew, Hyun-woo, was there, so I was very happy. He always pretended to be very strong and cheerful, in spite of only 8 years old.

I swear that I will take a good care of him forever. He is a very important person to me like my son. I ate lunch with my mother and him, and then I fell asleep. I must have been so tired. However, I made a big mistake, sleeping with my legs and arms stretched beside my mother. Of course, she will understand my behavior, but what could my nephew learn from me? I realized that I should be the model of all the family. From now on, I will never make such a mistake.

My loving family members! Sweet dream! I will look after all of them even in their dreams. It is my life itself.

Saturday ,   November , 25 , 2000 ,  warm for a late fall                                                                   weather .

Today my boss, Mr. lee, and I made interviewees give demonstration lectures, because we had to look through their ability.

A few days ago, my two co-workers left for their own way, so we needed to employ new teachers. In my opinion, new teachers seem to be very good. I want them to work with me. I will help them with a sincere care, unite them and try to come over this predicament. Hey, every companion! Let's keep our chins up, and go forward, forward, forward!

Sunday ,        November , 26 , 2000 ,                     cold .

I drank a lot last night, and in the early morning I had a painful time vomiting. I had quite a severe headache and stomachache. It was a terrible night. I had no choice but to wake up late. It was at about 4:30 p.m. I remembered making a promise with my would-be co-workers. I was supposed to meet them at 7:00 p.m. in the same bar that we had drunk the previous day. I thought that I wouldn't keep my words, so I telephoned them to change the place we would meet. Then my wife, my son, I went to the used-book store to buy books and toys for my cute son. It cost us 430,000 won. When we returned to our house, they had already been there. They said that they had been waiting for me for about half an hour. I hurried into my home with them. We discussed their way in the future. We came to a conclusion that we would work together in the same workplace. I will do my best to lead them to be the best lecturers.

Monday ,         November , 27 , 2000 ,          a little cold .

When I woke up this morning, my wife was not in my home. My mother was taking a good care of my son. I was so sorry. My wife must have been very sad and angry. I had a quarrel with her after the guests had left for their home.

She insisted that the books and toys we had bought should belong only to my son. On the other hand, I maintained that my son should share them with my nephew and nieces, for my son was an infant, 10 months old. I could understand her heart for her only son, but she seemed to forget her greater responsibility as the second greatest hostess in our family.

I thought that no other virtue was as good as sharing and sacrifice and that no other education was better than giving his or her own son a good mind and a beautiful conscience. I hope that she will understand me. I surely know that she is a good, generous, and strong woman. Honey! I really love you and my son. However, I am the eldest son in our family, so I undertake the greatest duty and responsibility. In that reason I can live in this world very happily. LOVE.

Tuesday,November,28,2000, a little warm for the late fall                                             weather .

Today was my payday. At first I was paid 1,742,000 won, but it was the wrong amount. I was paid 300,000 won in advance about 10 days ago. I returned it to my boss. Honesty had been my father's motto, and it have been my golden rule since my dear father passed away. I hate my boss, because he hurt my self-esteem. I think I deserve 2,000,000 won this month. In return for this, he will have a severe sacrifice someday. He doesn't have an eye for a humane human.

I drove to the post office and I sent 600,000 won to my loving youngest brother in Seoul. Then I drove to my house and I gave my mother the rest of my salary. SHE returned 100,000 won to me, and we went to a fancy restaurant with my wife. It was a very delicious meal. We were happy. I made up my mind to bring all family members with me next time. We, mother, my loving son, and I, headed for my father's land, because I missed him. My father appeared to be so happy. After I came to my nest, I cleaned my son's room very seriously. It was my mind for my loving son.

As I had an unjust treatment this morning, I was quite sad. However, I am happy now, for I am always with my good FAMILY. I love my family. I will protect them from all the difficulties in this world. I am in this world for the reason

Wednesday, November,29,  2000 ,warm.

While I took a nap in my home, I heard his voice. He was my loving nephew, Hyun-woo. He seemed to be so mature for his age. I felt so happy, but, on the other hand, I felt so sad. I really love him, and I will shield him from all the difficulties in this world for good. Yesterday was my FATHER'S BIRTHDAY. But I didn't know that fact. I would like to apologize to HIM for my blunder. FATHER! Forgive me! I will remember your true will forever until I die.

FATHER! I'd like to ask a favor of YOU. I hope that we will took a good care of my mother for a very, very long time. Please help me! And I swear that I will try my best to keep all the family members in a very good condition.

Tuursday ,        November , 30 , 2000 ,        a little warm .

Today was the last day of November. I think that the word 'end' means to prepare a new beginning. Therefore, I decided to throw away everything stressful, depressing and disgusting.

I determined to remove hatred and wrath from my heart.

It was not the way to become a saint but the way to go forward to the bright future. I will wake up, open my eyes,

and widen the door of mind tomorrow morning. Try your best, and this world will go into your hands. Way to go!

Friday ,         December , 1 , 2000 ,             warm .

Today was the first day of December. It was very warm for the winter. Beginning is a warm thing, so I like it.

Giving my students a good lecture, I went to the dental clinic to be treated, because I had a couple of decays. A young woman dentist cured my teeth very carefully. The sky seemed to higher and bluer. I was very happy. On the way home, I listened to English tape as usual in my car. I arrived at my home at about 3:30 p.m. My second young brother and my loving nephew were there. I had a delicious lunch my mother served. My son, 9 months old, sang and danced to the T.V music. He was really a genius. Sometimes he shouted very loudly and smiled at me. It was a real sign of affection.

Just then, we noticed him standing up for a few seconds without leaning against anything. He did another good thing.

I am sure that, in several days, he will not crawl with his arms and legs but walk with his legs alone. He is my son.

Saturday ,       December , 2 , 2000 ,          a little warm

About a month ago, I joined the English cafe in the internet. Today I sent members the following message in my work.

It is very warm for the early winter here in jin-ju. Everyone! Did you spend good weekdays? Of course, maybe some people had a trouble in solving a difficult problem, and others enjoyed themselves this week. But whether you were the former or the latter, a sweet weekend visited you. Although we didn't invite him, we should treat him very well.

Let bygones be bygones. It is no use crying over spilt milk. I had so hard a week that I was under the weather.

However, I made up my mind to have a nice weekend. I will eat out with all my family in a fancy restaurant, drive to the near countryside and breathe fresh air there. Another SUN will rise next Monday, I bet. Try your best to enjoy yourselves this weekend, and I'll send you a lucky goddess next week. Some say that they live in the poor and terrible country. Ditto. But, keep your chins up! Way to go! You can do it. I can do it. We can do it. I'll say that again.

"Have a very enjoyable weekend, and recharge your body and mind."

Sunday ,        December , 3 , 2000 ,         windy and cold .

My brother, Sam-hyun, came to my house with his two daughters. He brought very expensive shrimps that he had bought at the raw fish store. I knew that he had had a very hard time in managing his home, because he didn't get paid since last month. But he was considerate of his mother, his brothers, and the other family members. I appreciated it. I hope that he would have lots of lucky days. In addition, I will try to make all my family members be happier and happier.

Monday ,      December , 4 , 2000 ,             a little cold .

My university juniors, Park Choon-hawn and Kim Jae-hyun, came to my job site at the first time. That is, they became my companions. I made them work in this place. I promised to make them paid reasonable salary. I necessarily have to keep my words. I asked my boss that he should treat them quite well. He promised to do so. But, I know that he has been a liar. I am worried about that. I must be responsible for them. I will do my best to keep my promise. It is my life. I will strive not to tell a lie as much as possible, even if it is necessary to tell a white lie.

Tuesday ,         December , 5 , 2000 ,                     cold.

I wrote the following in the English Cafe on the internet where I had joined about over a month ago.

Hello! Nice Guy! I read your writing in the story lists of this cafe a few days ago. If you don't mind making friends with me. I'd like to be your pen pal by E-mail. My name is Jeong Bong-hyeon, and I am 33 years old. I was born in Jin-ju which is famous for education, culture, and silk. In addition, it is well-known for Non-gae, a rightful, courageous, and patriotic lady. I had gone into Pusan National university in 1986, and graduated from it in private academy in Jin-ju. I got married two years ago and I live with my loving son called Jeong Hui-seok and my good wife in my hometown. Furthermore, I have three younger brothers. My youngest brother graduated from the same university as you.

Now he attends the graduate school of the same university. It was the important reason that I made up my mind to be your pen pal by electronic mail. How about me? Would you help me improve my English? I am looking forward to hearing from you soon. I hope that you will stay in good health in the cold winter.  faithfully yours. from ENARO.

Wednesday ,       December , 6 , 2000 ,         very cold .

This is a very famous poem written by Prost in America.

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

in leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence;

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Thursday ,        December , 7 , 2000 ,             cold .

Today I had my tooth pulled out for the first time. When I returned to my home, it was 6:20 p.m. I felt a bit painful After I had supper very carefully, I slept beside my mother. She would perhaps understand me, but I made a big mistake toward her. From now on I will protect her and my family. I determined to be polite in front of her, because I was the eldest son. The better I will behave, the better all the members of my family will do. It was too late. I want to sleep. I will lie beside my son, and meet him in the world of dream. I want to see all my family including DAD there.

Friday ,        December , 8 , 2000 ,           blue sky and cold .

I love my wife, but I am not kind and polite to her due to my character. I frequently get angry to her and I make fun of her. She doesn't retort me. She is like an angel. Yesterday she said to me, " I have a pain in my chest."  I ignored her. I am a very bad man. I'd like to respect and love her, but it is in my mind. Actually I don't express my mind.

In addition, her quietness and abruptness make me nervous and angry. I want to be in harmony with her forever. Tonight I will deliver my true mind to my loving and beautiful wife. I am sure that we will necessarily become a happy couple.

Saturday ,          December ,  9 , 2000 ,             cold .

I met an old friend of mine in the evening. I haven't seen him for a very long time. When I was a university student, he was the most intimate friend. He was a gentle and considerate man. He was very kind to me. His name was Ha Tae-sun. He was a philosopher majoring in engineering. He and I talked about several topics, especially our present lives. He appeared to be slightly pale. I could get a picture about his hard life. He said that his wife was often angry at him.

I could understand him, but I couldn't help him. I know that everyone has his or her own problem and the problem must be solved by himself or herself. I am sure that he will exercise a happy life sooner or later, because he deserve it.

I know there are ups and downs in everyone's life. A dark cloud is followed by a bright sunshine. He and I may be in a serious crisis, but we are very young, therefore we have the energy and nerve to achieve everything we want. Universe is very wide, so there are a lot of missions in front of us. I bet I will fulfill all my duty, so will he. Way to go!

Sunday ,           December , 10 , 2000 ,           a bit of drizzle .

I had promised with my old students, Miss Jung and Miss Hong, to climb the mountain, but the weather was not good, when I got up in the morning. I couldn't help changing the mountain-climbing plan. I suggested to them that we should go to the sea. After my loving nephew and I had bowed to my FATHER, we left for 'Sam-Chon-PO' which is a harbor city. We had a very delicious raw fish there. They seemed to be so pleasant, and I was very happy, too. On the way to my home, I dropped in the clothing store called "Cocabang" and I bought a right cap for my son. At night, I received an E-mail written in English for the first time. Sender's name was Jo Eun-junj, 31. I was very excited, and I sent my reply E-mail at once. I hope that I, continually, will be able to communicate with her by E-mail.

Monday ,         December , 11 , 2000 ,       bone-chilling cold .

This is the writing that I sent my pen pal, Cho Eun-jung, by E-mail.

You are a fortuneteller. Right? It's just a joke. I have tried my best to teach my ardent students English for over 6 years, but I know I have to enlarge my English skill and ability. I want to be the best in this field. I will not stop trying to master my enemy, English, until I go to Heaven. It's so lame?

Now I will send you a lucky Goddess. She will treat your bad cold very quickly and smoothly. Close your eyes and picture your best dream in your mind. "Hooooo..." I sent you Her and Huh Joon. I am smiling. Don't misunderstand me.

I am never a crazy boy.

I keep a diary in English every day. How about you? I'm very sorry. My lunch has just arrived at my office. Scratch my back and I'll scratch your back. See you next time by E-mail.

Tuesday ,          December , 12 , 2000 ,         very,very cold .

Today my students got their own grades about last test. I wondered if they got marks they had wanted to do. However, they didn't contact me, so I was very unpleasant. A student visited me in the evening. I consulted him, and he seemed to be satisfied with my tips. I hope that they had good results. I'm so tired, and I will go to bed early.

Wednesday , December ,13 , 2000 ,The sky is blue but it's very                                                cold .

I know I am very idle, but I don't stop my bad habit. There are a lot of things for me to do in the world, but I don't have the courage to do them. I'm a fool, but I want to be wise. I have a harmonious family, but I think I'm unhappy Everything is in my mind, I know. From now on I will set up myself rightly. I am sure I'll do everything I want.

I think it should necessarily be the honest and rightful affair. No one should be hurt and damaged by my behavior.

Even my thought must not harm other's heart. However, I should be able to punish and fight bad guys who molest weaker and more powerless people than themselves. I have to teach it to all the people I meet and will meet.

Several students came to get useful tips from me. Most of them got quite a good grade, but Miss Hong didn't have a satisfactory mark. When I saw her, I was so sad. She listened to my advice very carefully. "The harder crisis he or she be in, the brighter hope he or she can meet." Miss Hong! Cheer up! You are very young. Last test can never be your end, destination. It is just a process of long life. Now you must begin your life again. I think you'll have a good mind and  pure spirit, so you can still have the supreme dream and fulfill it, I believe. You own infinite abilities. Keep your chin up

Thursday ,       December , 14 , 2000 ,          slightly warm .

I attended a dinner party for co-workers' friendship and unity. We had a very delicious meal in a nice restaurant.

I had a lot of complaint to my boss, who is due to go to United States next month. His only son was very sick in his mentality. In other words, he had kind of mental disorder. My boss wanted to try his best to cure his son's disease, so he made up his mind to leave for America. I thought that he was a very unhappy man. I drank a lot with my two juniors tonight. I had a hang-over in the night. I nearly lost my mind, but I barely returned to my home by taxi.

I hope that a dream of my boss will be achieved as soon as possible and he will be a different man, a good man.

Friday ,           December , 15 , 2000 ,         slightly warm .

Today was a very important day to my family, because we had a religious ceremony in honor of my father.

I had to get up early, but I couldn't do so, because I had a lot of liquor. I couldn't recover my clear mind. At about 3:30 p.m. I woke up, and I hurried to my mother's house. My youngest brother came to Jin-ju from Seoul. He seemed to be a bit thin and pale. He is a very nice and good man. My wife and my mother were preparing for so various food in their careful mind. My two brothers, my nephew, and I went to my father's country, since my youngest wanted to see his father. Due to my wrongdoing of last night, I felt so sorry to my father. I decided not to make such a mistake.

At 11 p.m. my two aunts, a sister, a nephew and a niece came to my home to be present at a religious ceremony for my father. All of us had a very serious ceremony. My father would be so happy. After my father returned to his country, we ate diverse dishes very deliciously. I sworn to my father that I would necessarily develop quality of life in my family.

Saturday ,       December , 16 , 2000 ,              a little cold .

My youngest brother left for Seoul to try his best for his own work. My mother seemed to be a bit blue. My first younger brother drove to the small but beautiful temple, Mun-Su-Am, in Go-sung. It has a very good view. We enjoyed ourselves. When we arrived at my mother's home, my senior called me to meet. I met him at a bat. He had a big plan.

Though I agree to his plan, I want him to succeed in his life. I'd like to believe that he is a good and honest man.

Sunday ,           December , 17 , 2000 ,          a little cold .

My father-in-law and mother-in-law visited my house with their son. But, I couldn't stay in my home, because I had something to do and I didn't like an awkward atmosphere to talk with them. I don't know the reason I don't like them.

I remember my father hating my mother's family. Like father like son. But I will try to correct my bad mind, even if I really love my father. In fact, I will be able to do so, since I love my father. In addition, it's my mother's thought, too.

I feel sorry for my wife and his family.

I watched a movie on TV tonight. Its title was "Devil's Advocate", which was very exciting and instructive. I felt that the message of the film was "Human beings can't help themselves". Everyone has his or her vanity, and it makes every evil. After all, everyone is dominated and controlled by devil inside himself or herself. As long as there is vanity in mind, human race will never be out of hands of demons. But, without vanity, ordinary people don't treat him or her as human.

Anyway it was such a great movie. I will watch it once again someday.  My family ate out in the nice restaurant.

Monday ,       December , 18 , 2000 ,                      rainy .

I think that world is full of bad people. Most of the people are very egoistic, so world is covered with all bad smell.

I'm not a loser in my life at all. But, I'm not a winner, either, because a true winner in the world should forgive all bad people and continually tolerate all bad things. Ordinary person can never do so. Only a saint can do it. I'm not a saint, I can't be a saint, and I don't want to be a saint. I'm a common person. I'm only a breadwinner of a family.

People around me bother me, and they try only to get their own profits. Sons of bitch! Go to hell! Get away!

I will test my ability, and I will get even with them. Sooner or later they will have to kneel in front of my feet.

Tuesday ,        December , 19 , 2000 ,                    cold .

I met my old students at night. They learned English from me 3 years ago. I like them. We drank a lot talking over several topics. I returned to my home at 6:00 next morning. I was very sorry to my wife and my mother. I spent 125,000 won paying for liquor price. It's a big money, but I think it has a enough value. I like and believe them.

Wednesday ,      December , 20 , 2000 ,    cloudy and a bit cold.

Today was my second wedding anniversary. On the way home from my office, I telephoned my wife to know if she can finish her work and go to our home together. She said, "yes". I waited for her in front of her office building. After about 5 minutes, I could see my beautiful wife. She is not so much pretty as beautiful. I know that a beautiful woman is so different from a pretty one, as a strong man differs from an obstinate one. She always tries to keep our family in a good condition. She has somewhat short but good characteristic. I wanted to have a small party in memory of our happy day, but we couldn't. We didn't have much money to do so. My wife called chicken store and ordered a hot grilled chicken.

We enjoyed a delicious meal decorated with affection and love. My son danced and funny and actions. It seemed to us, my wife and me, that they were events to celebrate our second wedding anniversary. My son was a prodigy. He was the most excellent clown in the world at that moment. Now my beautiful wife and my invaluable son are sleeping in our wonderland. I do hope that they will have sweet dreams. My darling and my son! I love you forever.

Thursday ,       December , 21 , 2000 ,                a bit cold .

These days I drink a lot almost every day. Everyone seems to betray me. I detest them very much. I try to have pleasant days, but I often find that I am alone in this world. Wherever I may go, I can't look for "hope". I'm very sad. I think that I have to make my way to the land of hope. I'm very tired. I will go to bed early and have a sweet dream.

Friday ,        December , 22 , 2000 ,              a bit cold .

This is my writing which was sent to a previous student of mine by E-mail. Hi! Ja-joon! Thank you for your present. I live very happily. I'm so pleased with your news. I'm sure that you have had very fantastic days. But, as I told you before, I want you to read as many books as possible. I believe you will carry out your dream in the future. To do so, You should go on trying to improve your abilities. I'd like to appreciate your E-mail and present once again. It's getting colder and colder. Be careful not to catch a cold. Bye!

Saturday ,      December , 23 , 2000 ,                 a bit cold .

Today was very important day to me, but I got up late, as I had been a heavy drunk last night. My wife went to my mother's house. She had to prepare diverse dishes for the religious ceremony in memory of my grand grandfather which was due to be held tonight. My son and I hurried to my work. Today was my last pay day my present boss would give me a salary. If I had got up earlier this morning, and if I had arrived at my office earlier, I could have showed off my son to my boss. He had already left his position. I wonder that what his face would be like, when he gave salaries to his subordinates for the last time. In about a month, he will leave his motherland. He may not see this country again. Now,

I will forgive everything. I hope that his son will get well as soon as possible and he will live happily in America.

Sunday ,      December , 24, 2000 ,                      warm .

I found that there were few students to enroll winter vacation classes. I was very depressed and disappointed. My two juniors, my new co-workers, seemed to be under the weather, too. Today was the eve of Christ-mas, but our office was beyond bless. Above us were only dark clouds. Of course, we feel that we have to make our way out of the clouds.

I bought a secondhand notebook computer in the evening. I invested my precious money for my future. "When you think you are in a serious crisis, invest your more and more wealth and health in your ability, and you'll be sure to succeed in your life." I paid 500,000￦ for it, but I told a lie that I had paid 700,000￦. I'm very sorry to all my family members.

Monday ,     December , 25, 2000,     the coldest in this winter .

Today was a Christ-mas day. I woke up at 12:25 p.m. I hurriedly headed for my father's land together with my wife and my little and cute son. Though it was so windy and cold, we felt very warm in my father's country. While my son and wife was standing beside tomb, I bowed my father. HE drank several glasses of liquor very happily with his friends living in neighborhood. We said a farewell greeting and went out of my father's land. On the way to home, we drop by my workplace. There were my two juniors working in it. After I talked with them for about 2 hours, all of us went out of it. Just then one of both juniors proposed to treat my family a delicious meal, so we enjoyed very good meal at a nice

restaurant. After I had returned to my home, I had a quarrel about her laziness with my wife. I regret it very much.

Tuesday ,       December , 26 , 2000 ,                very cold .

When I woke up this morning, I had a very sore throat. I felt so sick, whenever I swallowed anything. However, today I had to give lectures and tips about attending university. Fortunately I could finish my lessons without much pain. At 3:35 Mr. Lee Joon-hyun, my former student, came to see me. He said that he had 15-day leave from marine corps. I was very happy, but I couldn't have a dinner  with him, because I was very tired and I had to eat supper with my mother. At 6:40 my previous pupil, Miss Hong, called on me. She presented me a very pretty baby clothes for my son. It was a special gift, as her mother knitted it herself. What's better, she sent me a Christ-mas card full of her good care.

I thanked her for her and her mother's warm heart and I felt so happy. When my mother and I saw my son wear the meaningful present, we were very pleased at it. He seemed to be so nice like Miss Hong's heart. It was a wonderful day

Wednesday ,     December , 27 , 2000 ,            very cold .

These days many things bad are happening to me.  Few students has registered my classes, the weather is chilly cold, and I have a terrible pain in my chest whenever I breathe in the fresh air. I want to get over these hardships as soon as I can. I always think that I will be able to do everything coming toward myself. Professionals are very beautiful, because they always try their best in everything they take part in. I'd like to to do so. Of course, I will have to try to be the best man in my field, in the society, and in my country. To me, there is a strong and smart son. Even though he does not mean everything to me, I get the tremendous power from him. I am so satisfied with it. I'm very proud of him.

In addition, I have faithful family, including my loving wife. I have a great many things to do for the sake of them, so I must stay in good shape. Tonight I will eat out with all my family in a fancy restaurant to congratulate all of us end this year without a great misfortune and next year we can all have lucky days. I really love all my family members.

Thursday ,      December , 28 , 2000 ,    It was a very cold day .

I drank a lot with a senior and two juniors tonight. My senior, Mr. Wang, took pride in her workplace, but I knew he told lies. He always tells a lie. He is a bad man. I don't know why I met him tonight. I am a bad guy, too. I have been taking an unpleasant trip in a drifting boat. No one understands me. I feel I am alone. However, I will find a precious thing from this difficulty. However so hard my situation may be, I will overcome it. All my family members believe me. I must keep them in a good place forever. I believe myself just as my loving family do so.

Friday ,        December , 29 , 2000 ,                warm .

I had an important meeting with my co-workers to discuss our treatment such as salary ...etc. We went to a restaurant buying a raw fish. We enjoyed a delicious meal very much, and talked with one another. It was a very pleasant night.

We determined to try hard for the sake of development of our workplace. We made a resolution to do my best to make our life site so wonderful place. I hope that my boss will keep his promise with us.. I believe "Give-and-Take Rule".

Saturday ,       December , 30 , 2000 ,             cold .

My office colleagues, including my boss, had a meeting over a delicious meal, a law fish. It was a very hopeful and pleasant meeting. I returned to my home at 2:40 p.m. My loving mother was with my loving son in my home. She will wear a new coat. At 4:00 I drove to the Je-il life insurance company where my wife worked, because I was supposed to meet her there. She got in the car, and we headed for a fancy dress store. When we entered it, we could look at many wonderful clothes. All of them appeared so expensive, but nothing was more expensive than my wife's mind. My mother tried on several fur coats, and she chose what, I thought, looked very good on her. My wife paid for it by her credit card. My mother seemed to be very happy. Of course, I knew that she was worried about our economic situation.

"Mother, don't worry. Just be happy." We only hope that we will buy the most wonderful one next time. On the way to my house, I dropped by a garage and had my car repaired by a mechanic. At 9:00 I met my first younger brother at my aunt's restaurant which specialized in chicken food. He talked about his worries and I gave some advice to him. He must be my loving family member. I want him to be more broad-minded and to keep his mind and body healthy. Tomorrow I will go to my father's country with my family and we will take a short trip to the countryside to recharge our energy breathing in fresh air. Tomorrow is the last day of this year. I will prepare for the wonderful next year.

Sunday ,        December , 31 , 2000 ,                   very cold .

Today was the last day of this year. All my family members had to make next year's plans, so we left for a beautiful scenery. Of course, in the first place we went to my father's country to apologize to HIM for our wrong behaviors and to tell him our great plan and wonderful vision. My father seemed to be so pleased with our resolutions. We headed for Sam-Cheon-Po, near fishing town - harbor town, to take in the fresh air, to enjoy wonderful scenery, and to have a sweet raw fish. The town was crowded with a great many people, so we couldn't buy raw fish. We had to return to Jin-ju without accomplishing our purpose. All of us were very hungry, especially my wife. We entered a restaurant neighboring my home, and hurried to eat several dishes very deliciously. Then we went to my mother's house, because my wife and I had to sleep there, to get up early next morning and to go to watch New Year's SUNRISE at the near mountain side.

Soon we left for a sweet dream land. This was our last day of this year. Today was quite happy day.

Monday ,      January , 1 , 1 , 2001 ,

It was very cold at dawn but it grow warmer and warmer .

I didn't sleep a sound sleep just as my other family didn't do so, but I had to get up early, for today was the first day of new century and all my family members were supposed to go to the near mountain to take in the spirit and energy of the SUN. My first and second younger brothers' families were not with us due to their own situations, so my mother, my wife, my son, and I headed for Wol-a Mt. My youngest brother was in Seoul to do his own important research. We got there at 5:59 am. It was as dark as one couldn't know another next to him or her. In addition, it was very cold.

But, it was so crowded with many people and cars that I had a hard time in finding a parking space. I barely parked my car just beside the road. It was illegal parking, but I couldn't help it. Even the police had no choice but to connive it. We waited for the sun of the new year to rise above the mountainside for about an hour and half. At last we were able to see it. While all of us watched the rising sun full of hope, we sent our dreams and desires to the sun. I hoped that all my family members would be healthy, be in harmony, and fulfill their own dream this year. This year I will get rid of all my bad habits and do my best to help all my family members to be able to do so. Happy New Year!

Tuesday ,      January , 1 , 2 , 2001 ,    very windy and cold .

I couldn't take my wife a ride to her workplace, because I got up late this morning. She might probably be so angry. I was very sorry to her. I will necessarily become her faithful chauffeur from tomorrow. At 11:35 am I reached my job site.

My colleagues' looks appeared bright like the rising sun. I had three classes to give my students. After I had taught them very sincerely, I felt so pleased. The first working day of this year was very satisfactory to me. I will try to keep on my decorating everyday with so wonderful doings. I met several old students of mine, because one of them took a regular military leave from Marine Corps. He has always been loyal student to me. We drank a traditional liquor over talking about many topics in a familiar bar. I hope that he will be healthy until he finishes his military service.

Wednesday ,     January , 1 , 3 , 2001 ,           windy and cold .

I watched an important soccer match on TV. It was a very exciting game. World Cup soccer matches are supposed to be held in both Japan and Korea in 2002, so this game was held to congratulate a successful event in advance. Two countries' all-star team players played against world all-star team players very sincerely and wonderfully. It ended with 1:1. Go Jong-soo in our team made a goal. He was really a great player. Probably he will be one of the world's best players in 2002, I think, and I do hope so. At night I had a quarrel with my wife. I hope not to do it next time.

Thursday ,       January , 4 , 2001 ,            windy and cold .

Today was a religious ceremony day of my great-grandfather. All my family members held it very sincerely. My mother had a difficult time in preparing for several dishes. I felt so sorry to my mother and decided to treat her very well. The following writing is a reply to E-mail my mail friend, Miss Cho, sent me. Long time no see! I am so pleased to hear you had a nice trip. I had hoped that I might the sun-rising sight on the sea. But, instead all my family members saw this year's sun shining on our bright future on the mountainside. Next year I will necessarily be there, and I will have a great dream watching fascinating sunrise. I did drink like a fish for several days late last year. Now and then I would vomit and have a hangover until next morning. But the meetings gave a special pleasure to me, I think. This year I make up my mind to drink less liquor as well as to stop smoking. "Heaven helps those who help themselves."  No matter how hard it may be, I will try to make it. I really hope that you will have an invaluable aim of this year and accomplish it. Have a good luck! My companions, including the director of our academy, have a plan to go to Seoul and Bun-dang this Friday. We will visit several private institutes there and we have the intention of watching, listening, and learning a lot of things. If you allow us to visit your institute, all of us will appreciate it and think of it as a great honor. How do you feel about our learning trip? I am sorry for my abrupt and impudent favor. On TV I watched many people be in trouble on the ground of snow and icy road. How about you? Be careful and be happy! I really hope that you will have a good luck this year.     ENARO in Jin-ju

Friday ,      January , 5 , 2001 ,                   a little warm .

I made a great wrongdoing today. I told a big lie to my mother. I borrowed ￦2,000,000 from my mother, but she knew that my senior did it. It was my lie. I will not make such a stupid and unduly doing again, I swear. Sorry , mother..

Our co-workers, including the director of our academy, will go to Seoul to watch, listen, and learn a lot of things from other institutes there. I want our goals to be carried out and our trip to be a safe and wonderful event.

Saturday ,     January , 6 , 2001 ,                 very cold .

We started for Seoul by academy vehicle at 00:00 a.m. Though we were in it, we felt so cold because of chilly wind  coming into the small bus through somewhere. But, our heart were full of queer expectations and curiosities. It took us about 5 hours to get to our destination, Seoul. Darkness and coldness were covering there, but, at the fisheries wholesale market in Norangjin, we could watch many diligent people working hard against the tough and severe conditions. In a few minutes, we arrived at Dae Sung Institute, which is the most famous private one in this country. Because we felt so hungry, we headed for a restaurant near it. The restaurant named Jin-ju was very warm and its every food was very delicious.  At 8:30 we could meet the second director of the institute whose name was Lee young-deog. In addition, he was a senior graduating from the same high school as mine. We were able to get many valuable information from him by asking him and listening to his explanation. He guided us to the Dae Sung Digital company, which was a son-company of Dae Sung Institute. We could receive many useful tips from there, too. Then we went to the successful academy located in Dae-chi Dong to observe it and learn a lot things. My first impression about the academy was a surprise, itself. Not only its facilities but also its program was very excellent. Besides, the director of it had a very kind and good character. I hope that it will continue to succeed. At 12:30 we hurried to leave for Jin-ju, for, about 1:00 p.m., Seoul could be in a traffic congestion. From the time, most of Seoul-workers are expected to go out of their workplaces. On the

way to Jin-ju, we dropped by two resting places, and in one of them we had a very delicious lunch. At last we reached Jin-ju at 6:00 and left for each home. I attended the feast congratulating the daughter of my wife's friend on the first birthday with my wife and my loving son. After we enjoyed ourselves for about 1 hour, we came to my mother's house.

My mother had a serious pain in the knees, so she has been to a herbal clinic to be treated by a famous herbal doctor.

She was treated by an acupuncture. I sincerely hope that she will recover very soon and live a long life in a good health.

When I returned to my home, I was very tired and sleepy. So, I went to a beautiful and sweet dream land.

Sunday ,       January , 7 , 2001 ,                snowy and rainy .

I woke up at 9:30 a.m. I stood up out of sleep, and when I looked out of the window, I was so pleased at the snow.

But, on the other hand, I was worried, because I had a plan to go to my father's country and my workplace. After all I didn't go to them, but I knew that my father would understand me. I will necessarily visit him next Saturday.

I thought that the world covered with snow was very beautiful. All the evils in this world was covered with pure white. But I know that if snow melts in a few days, all the devils will appear again in this dirty world. I will fight against them, because I believe it is my own duty and responsibility. It is the reason why I have to live in this world, I think. My loving son is suffering from a cold. He is coughing over and over again. It worries me very much. I hope that he'll get well very soon. I'd like to watch him play in the good health. I'll become a new man from tomorrow. I am young and I feel that there are a great many things for me to do. I'll try my best to complete them one by one. I believe my ability and myself. I must do them. "Yes, I can do them." As I love all my family members, I must do them for them.

The sky is growing darker and darker. I am to finish today for my future. Someday all the world will be in my heart.

Monday ,         January , 8 , 2001 ,                     warm .

I sent Mr.Go Sang-hyuk E-mail tonight. This is the writing I sent him. Now Jin-ju is covered with pure and white snow. I want all the evils in this dirty world to disappear and not to come out again. You are really a good boy. I bet you will meet an excellent and fantastic lady and have a wonderful wedding ceremony this year. Don't hasten too much. I believe you. Have yourself be in the center of this world. Hold all the world in your mind. Actually I have been keeping a diary in English for about 3 months. It will be my most invaluable heritage to hand over to my loving son, Hee-seok, whose nickname is a public prosecutor. In addition, I have a E-mail friend in Bun-dang, and I send and receive English mails with her. I feel I got a confidence in English writing.

I think it is necessary that you should be a copycat, my follower.(^^) I am sorry for my impudence. It is very cold these days. Try to be in a good shape. Good-bye!

affectionately yours      your step-brother in Jin-ju

Tuesday ,         January , 9 , 2001 ,                    rainy .

This is the writing I sent my E-mail friend, Miss Cho Eun-jeong. Thanks to you, I took a very pleasant trip. We started for Seoul by academy bus at midnight. When we arrived there, we felt the bone-chilling cold by all body. We had a delicious meal at the restaurant named 'Jin-ju' near No-rang-jin station. After that, we went to the Dae Sung Institute, met the chief manager, Lee Young-deok, and got a lot of invaluable tips by asking him questions and listening to sincere answers to them. Then, he guided us to a successful institute, 'Dae Sung N School', in Dae-chi Dong. We could learn a lot of things there, too. At 12:30 p.m., we, tourists, set out for our hometown. Fortunately, since we were able to be out of a traffic congestion in Seoul, it took about 5 hours for us to get to Jin-ju. What's better, the heaven was on our side. On account of much fatigue, I fell asleep as soon as I entered my home. When I opened my eyes and looked out of the window, I was so surprised at the tremendous snow. If I had stayed one more day, I might have stuck in Seoul. We had really a lucky trip. I could check your E-mail next morning, Sunday. I wished if I could have checked your E-mail on the Friday evening. But, even though I watched your mail at the time, I could not be in contact with you. I couldn't search for your phone number in your writing. Anyway, I'd like to thank you for your beautiful heart. Now Jin-ju is covered with pure and white snow. I want all the evils in this dirty world to disappear and not to come out again.(^^?) I think you are a good woman like a snow angel. Right? Excuse me, but I'd like to ask a favor of you. I want to have your introduction in the next mail., because you and I have to learn English from diverse writings. I'd like you to understand my rudeness. I appreciate your kindness once again. I hope that you will always stay in good shape. See you next time.    ENARO in Jin-ju P.S.:My cellular phone number is 016-591-3872.

Wednesday ,       January , 10 , 2001 ,                 cold .

Let me introduce myself to you. I was born in Jin-ju, and graduated from elementary, middle, high school here. I majored in french literature in Pusan National University. But it didn't attract me, so I studied diverse subjects for myself while I attended the same university. After graduation, I worked for a large company for about 2 years. But I was not satisfied it, too. I decided to study more and more and make my own way in other field. Now I try to make it. All my family, but my youngest brother, live in Jin-ju. There are a mother, 3 younger brothers, 2 sisters-in-law, 1 nephew, 2 nieces, my beautiful wife and my loving son in my family. Only my youngest brother is single and live in Seoul. He is a graduate student majoring in chemistry engineering i Han Yang University. I like sports, especially soccer and baseball, and sometimes I write a poem. One day I am to publish a collection of my own poems.^^ I wear glasses, too. I am 175 centimeters tall and my weight is 72 kgs. I feel so sad now, since I no more have anything to introduce about myself. I am so sorry. Can you guess my character by informations mentioned above? I'm looking forward to your reply. I hope that you will have a good luck every day.

ENARO in Jin-ju

Thursday ,         January , 11 , 2001 ,                  cold .

Today was a very unfortunate day. These days my mother has had a terrible pain in her right knee. He has caught arthritis, because of her old age. I drove to a herbal clinic with her and my son. My cute and clever son was so sick, too. He has caught a flu. I felt so sad. She entered there to be treated by a herbal doctor. It took about 40 minutes for her to be treated there. I was waiting for her with my son in my car, when I realized my car had a flat tire. I watched it very carefully, and I began to back my car. Just then I heard my little and cute baby hit a hard thing inside my car. He bursted into crying. It seemed to me that he felt very sick. I was so surprised at it that I was embarrassed. First of all, I had to telephone my younger brother, since he was very skillful at repairing the car. After that, I telephoned my sister-in-law to tell her to bring her son, my smart nephew. My son kept crying so loudly. I was worried about it. My mother came out of the clinic, and my younger brother arrived. It took 15 minutes for him to mend my car.

We returned to my home by my car. It was a very unpleasant day to my family. I hope that my mother and my son will get better very soon. I want all my family to keep their chins up! I will wake up and smell the coffee.

Friday ,          January , 12 , 2001 ,             sunny but cold .

At dawn my son had a tough cough and cried very much, so I woke up. My wife was so embarrassed and sad. I knew a cold medicine had not been taken to my son last night by my wife. I was mad at my wife. My son cried more loudly.

Besides, he has a scar on his face, because he was hurt yesterday. I felt very sorry for caring for him very carelessly. I miss his smiling face. I will make all efforts so that he can recover very soon. I feel so sorry to my wife.

Saturday ,January ,13 ,2001 ,I felt a heavy snow and terrible                                          cold .

I got up at 8:20 when my mother arrived at my home to look after my son. My mother said to me that all the world was covered with white snow. I opened the glass door in the living room and went out to the veranda. I was terribly surprised at the heavy snow. All the road and trees turned white. I could hardly look for the cars which ran on the roads. Though it has been snowing heavily outside, my wife had to go to her workplace. She walked slowly there, since a bus didn't run. But I couldn't take my mother to the herbal clinic by my car. I thought it was very dangerous. She had

a serious pain in her right knee. I was very sorry and sad. In addition, my mother, my son, and I caught a bad cold.

My house was messed up. In the afternoon my younger brother called at my home with his two daughters. He told me to have brought them on foot. They seemed to be so cold. In a few minutes, my wife returned home and all of them ate lunch. Because the road condition became a little good, I drove my brother's family to his home with my mother. After I returned home, I had a delicious dinner my wife fixed very elaborately. My cute son was playing joyful tricks around the table. I thought that he was a genius.^^ At 8:00 p.m., I went to a video shop to borrow interesting ones. My wife and I watched them very pleasantly. Tomorrow I will try to go to my father's country. Heaven! Please help me. I sincerely hope that my mother will have a confidence and courage, and get over illnesses very soon. I will do my best for her, too.

Sunday ,          January , 14 , 2001 ,                   very cold .

The religious ceremony for my grandfather was 5 days away, so my family had to prepare for it. My mother and I went to Joong Ang market, conventional one, with my wife and my son. Many venders was showing off their products in spite of a terrible cold. My mother bought several things such as fisheries. But we felt very cold, we headed for E-mart, a newly formed recent shopping mall. It is operated by one of the largest companies in this country. It was very warm inside it and the mart was crowded with many shoppers. I was worried about our town's business, because profits of e-mart would belong to other city. People of this city, Chin-ju, should protect businesses from other cities' companies. I was making a mistake. I was making a great wrong-doing. From now on I will avail oneself of our town's businesses.

Monday ,         January , 15 , 2001 ,                very cold .

Winter of this year was the coldest of weathers ever recorded. Roads and streets all were covered with snow. They all, what's worse, were turning into muddy bog because snow was melting piece by piece. All was messed up and confusing.

I was so confused, too. My boss hesitated to invest our academy courageously and I was not able to put my mind in the right place. I was hopeless and was falling into the despair. It was in the early afternoon that an angel of hope flew to me.  The director of Han Kug Academy telephoned to meet me, but I couldn't go out just then because I had a bad cold. I promised to meet him tomorrow. At 8:00 p.m., an high schoolmate who had been in the same class with me in high school days called me up to want the director of Han Kug Academy to meet me. As I got a little better, I decided to go and see them. I met them in front of a coffee shop. The director said to me he would like to work with me in his academy. I needed several days to think of it.

I promised to meet him again this Saturday, drank with them and returned to my home. Today was very hopeful day to me.

I determined to move into the academy inside my heart.

Tuesday ,          January , 16, 2001 ,                   very cold .

My mother had an arthritis in her knee because of an old age. Her sickness seemed not to get better even though she went to herbal clinic and was treated by acupuncture. I really hope that she will recover very soon. It will be to solve my most serious problem. Today I drove her to the herbal clinic with my son. I couldn't find parking space, so I parked on the roadside. When we had gone out of the clinic and gone to my car, I spotted a blue parking ticket on my car.

I was very upset. I thought that this country was filled with wrong things. Public servants are never servants for people

but rulers of this country. Sons of bitch! Enforcement should not be for enforcement itself. It is to abolish itself, I think.

Wednesday ,         January , 17 , 2001,              a little warm .

I drank with my two sincere juniors and a previous co-worker last night. I said to them that I would change my workplace sooner or later. Though my juniors seemed to be so disappointed, I had to confess my position and hopeless situation. Today I had to do it to my present co-workers. They might think of me as a betrayer(=turncoat), but I couldn't help it. I wish they could understand me. I felt so sorry for my decision. When I returned to my home, I noticed my mother weeping on the ground of terrible pain in her knee. I could find out tears inside myself. Mom! Cheer up, please.

I thought I would try my best to protect my mother and give her a long life without any disease.

I drank with my high schoolmate and my previous colleague and came home at 11:30. On the way home, I dropped by my mother's house. She appeared to be happy and healthier than in the early afternoon. I was very pleased with it.

When I returned to my home, my wife suffering from overall sickness. I hope that she will recover next morning.

My son is sleeping now. Sweet dreams, my son. I'd like to deliver the same hope to all my family, especially Hyun-woo.

I will necessarily go to my father's country this Saturday. I couldn't go there for two weeks because of the heavy snow.

He will have been looking forward to seeing my face. 'Father in Heaven! I'm sorry not to see you for a long time.'

Thursday ,          January , 18 , 2001 ,              a little warm .

I drove my mother and son to a herbal clinic, because she still had a terrible pain in her knee. She went into it and two of us, my son and I, waited for my mother to go out there in my car. I wanted my mother to recover very soon.

In the afternoon I gave my students a good lecture after I had checked their homework. They were taught very sincerely.

I thought they were very good students. I faithfully hope that they will carry out their own dreams in the future.

Friday ,          January , 19 , 2001 ,              a little warm .

After I had brought my mother and my son from the clinic to my home, I hurriedly drove to my workplace. I had to teach my good students English at 12:00 (noon). I will try my best in giving lectures until I stop teaching here in Hansol Academy. Though I don't like mood in teachers' room, I like my students. Though women teachers are very silly, my pupils are very wise and clever. I have been always try to help them to accomplish their goals, and it is not just my own duty but also my responsibility. I will continue to do so. I'd like to be one of their honorable men in the future.

Only my mother had to prepare for a religious ceremony for my grandfather, although she was very sick. The other family

members all were working in their workplace. I was very sad. I felt that money is so important in a capitalistic society one more time. I realized that money was so necessary for me to take pride in myself. I will be the best professional.

Saturday ,        January , 20 , 2001 ,            a little warm .

These days I have been suffering from a bad cold. I have a runny nose and a terrible headache. I hope that my sickness will get better, but it doesn't seem to recover easily. I am trying to improve a condition of my health. It is of no use to achieve everything, if I lose my health, I know. It is necessary for me to have a regular way of life. It is good for my mental and physical health to go to bed and get up early. If do so, I will be able to have a confidence in the world.

Sunday ,         January , 21 , 2001 ,               a little warm .

Today I had a lot of things. First of all I had to go to my father's land with my family, because we didn't visited him for a long time. We used to call at his country on weekends, but because it snowed heavily here in Chin-ju, we couldn't call on him for three weeks. He welcomed us very ardently. He was smiling very brightly. We were so pleased to see him.

A few days ago, an aunt of mine bought a new house and moved there. We all attended a house-warming party to give her family and house good luck. They was preparing for a lot of delicious food for us. We had so enjoyable time there.

At 4:00 all my family returned to our home, and my wife and I went out to buy presents for my family and acquaintances. My wife bought a medicine to heal arthritis for my mother. I was so happy. My wife is really an angel.

Monday ,       January , 22 , 2001 ,               a little warm .

I had a meeting with my high school and university mates at 7:30 p.m. We had a delicious dinner at a nice restaurant named Un-hyun Palace. Children were playing around us, wives were talking each other and my friends and I were talking about several topics over alcoholic drinks. We had a very wonderful time there. I hope they will be my good friends forever. I do want all of them to accomplish their dream next year.

Tuesday ,       January , 23 , 2001 ,           a little warm .

I had a promise with my old friends at 4:00 p.m., so I went to the billiards hall near my home. It was on the third floor. I was able to meet 4 friends there, but the others were not present. My friends who attended the meeting, and I were very angry. We went to the nice restaurant which specialized in raw fish. We had a delicious dinner there, and we took trips to drink liquors two times. To us regret, we spent ￦1,135,000 buying drinks. It was a very regretful night.

Wednesday ,        January , 24 , 2001 ,                   cold .

Today was a lunar new year's day(Seol). Because I went to bed late last night, I got up late. I was so sorry to all my family. We held a religious ceremony hurriedly but very sincerely. We visited the graves of my great grandfather and my grandparents. We, four brothers, bowed in front of their tombs. After we returned to my mother's home, we prepared lots of dishes for my father. We, all my family, went to my father's country to meet him in our spirits. I gave several glasses of rice wine and delicious food to my loving father who appeared to be very satisfactory. After that, we had to call on a few relatives. In the first place we went to San Cheong to visit my greatest aunt. Not until 9:00 p.m., did we finish calling at them. Today was so tiring day, but it was a very significant day. I hope that all my family will fulfill their own dream this year. I want to sleep very soon. I'm very tired, but as there is my loving family, I'm very happy.

Thursday ,         January , 25 , 2001 ,                   cold .

My wife, my son and I slept with my mother, my youngest brother, and my nephew at my mother's house last night. I was so happy because I wanted to do so. We all had a delicious breakfast and then I drove to my wife's old house with my wife and my son which was located in the rural area. At first Hee-seok cried a lot, but a few minutes later he began to smile. He seemed not to acknowledge his grandparents-in-law for several minutes. They welcomed us. We had had an enjoyable time there, and we returned to my home in Jin-ju after we had dropped by my mother's house.

Friday ,          January , 26 , 2001 ,                   cold .

My youngest brother returned to his survival site in Seoul to fulfill his dream. I believe not only his ability but also his

humanity. He is very sincere, faithful, and courageous. He will try his best in performing his duty and responsibility. I will necessarily do my best to help him carry out the purpose of his life. He is the hope of all my family.

Saturday ,        January , 27 , 2001 ,               cold .

I stayed at my home all day long. I was a little bit boring, but on the other hand since my family were beside me, I was so happy. However so humble it may be, there's no place like home. I will dedicate myself to their happiness.

Sunday ,         January , 28 , 2001 ,              cold .

My mother, 54, is very young, but she has a terrible pain in her right knee. I owed my comfortable life to my parents.

She is a woman of an angel. I can promise in the name of my father in Heaven.'I will make her live a long life without any disease.' I stayed at her house all day long. Unluckily I had a bad cold. The sky was shedding tears.

Monday ,         January , 29 , 2001 ,                    cold .

Another week began. Lucky events will happen to me, I hope. Of course I will have to make them for myself.

I had to take my mother to the herbal clinic. While she was treated inside it, I stayed in my car parked on the roadside.

After her treatment, I drove her and my son to my home. Then I went to my present life site, where I won't belong next week. After I had finished a lecture, I checked my e-mail on the internet. I noticed a new mail which my mail pal, Cho Eun-jeong, sent me. Hardly had I finished reading it, when I sent her reply. As my body needed a cozy rest because of a bad cold, I hurriedly came home. After I had taken a cold medicine and a short nap, I telephoned Mr. Park Jeong-soo to make an appointment to have a dinner. My family and my two juniors visited his house. His family welcomed my family, but they appeared to be reluctant to meet my juniors. It was my mistake. They didn't know each other. I thought it would be all right for me to take my juniors to Mr. Park's house, but it was my unwise judgment.

It was an awkward situation. I will try not to repeat the same mistake from now. Human is a profound being.

Tuesday ,         January , 30 , 2001 ,                    warm .

Today was very warm for the winter weather. I was in the strange mood. I had to give resignation form to my boss.

He was not in the academy, so I put it on his desk. On the way to home, I stopped at pet store and bought two packs of food for my pet birds. When I arrived at my home, my first younger brother was waiting for me. He and I headed for Jin-sung with my mother and my son. We had to look into our house there, because previous tenant moved to other city. Though the former residents were a little bit poor, they were bad people. They asked us for a great deal of things. However, I wish them to succeed in their lives. In addition, I hope that the next tenant will be a good person.

I met my companions at the familiar bar at 6:20 p.m. because one of them had telephoned to want to meet me. He said our boss had sold our academy to an eccentric fellow. It was really a sad story. All of them appeared very disappointed.

I had to encourage them and deliver the words covered only with hope but could not find them at all. I know that they are good people. On the other hand, I am sure that two bosses are very bad persons. I will necessarily get even with them some day. I will give a lesson of life to fellows of waste. " In this world, human beings is above money."

I really hope that all my ex-colleagues, except a boss, will have a good luck, make a fortune and succeed in their lives.

Wednesday ,        January , 31 , 2001 ,                       cold .

I had a lot of worries today. One of them was to choose academy for me to work. If I choose Hansol Academy, I will get low salary, and if I choose Hankuk Academy, I will get high pay, but my previous coworkers will lose their jobs.

Though I had already decided to work for Hankuk Academy, the determination was shaking inside my heart. I like justice

and my companions like my father, but I love my family. I don't have a big mind at present, but I will try to do the right things in the future. To do so, I will work hard and save a lot of money. Money isn't the best thing, but it is necessary in this capitalistic society. I will do the justifiable behavior and try to live a wonderful life to help others.

Now I have to increase my ability and power to achieve such a dream. My loving companions! Understand me.

Today was a very sad day to me. My coworkers and I drank a lot at the bar. It was a gloomy farewell party.

Thursday ,          February , 1 , 2001 ,    very windy and cold .

My former boss had a contract to buy our academy with two bad guys. Before that, he offered me to manage the academy under a good condition, but it was too late. I couldn't have a confidence to improve the situation of the academy. I answered, "No". My reply might break my coworkers' expectations, but I had no choice but to do so. I want them to understand. I feel so sad and sorry to them. In other ways I will necessarily help them. I will make an effort to recommend them to other competent and good employers. And, in the first place, I will always be inside their mind.

My comrades! Believe me. I will never forget them and they will be beings like my family. I will love them forever.

My previous private pupil telephoned me. He said to me that he would like to give me a present. He was a good boy.

Friday ,      February , 2 , 2001 ,                     warm .

My previous coworkers were in a coffee house after all of them had handed in resignations, which meant the end of working. They looked so sad and gloomy. Ms. Kim Myung-sun cried and cried. Probably the others but her will sooner or later take another jobs, because they are very competent and many academies will need them But Ms.Kim wasn't a teacher. She was a accounting worker, even though she was called a teacher. She had worked for Hansol Academy for about four years, which were less term than I had worked for it. She is a friendly, beautiful, affectionate and good woman. When I saw tears running down on her face, I felt so pitiful. I hope she will keep her chin up and get a better job. Cheer up! I had a lot of drinks with two juniors, my present director, my boss and my high schoolmate from evening to midnight.

Saturday ,     February , 3 , 2001 ,                 warm .

When I woke up, it was at 11:00 a.m. I hurriedly had breakfast and had to go to my new workplace in the Hanbo building in Sang-dae dong, because I had an appointment to meet my new companions there. A few of them were already there. I greeted them and they welcomed me. I arranged my books on my desk and lots of books on the bookshelves.

At 4:00 p.m. I came back to my mother's home. My first younger brother was there, and my son was with my mother.

My wife had gone to take a bath with two nieces, my mother told. At 6:20 p.m. my wife returned, and set the dinner

table. As my brother had taken his two daughters to his own home, I had a delicious meal with my mother and my wife.

My cute and clever son was enjoying a pleasant dream beside my mother. At 9:00 I brought my wife and son to my home. Soon my two juniors, Mr.Park and Mr,Kim, visited me, and my wife treated them very sincerely. She is really a woman of an angel As for me, she is a being similar to oxygen. After they had talked with me for about an hour, they left for their own house. Now it is 1:50 a.m. on Sunday. My wife is sleeping with my son. I'll go to sleep to see them.

Sunday ,       February , 4 , 2001 ,                    warm .

I got up at 10 o'clock this morning and ate breakfast with my wife and my son. After that, my wife washed the dishes and did the laundries, while I was watching TV. At noon we went to my mother's house, because I took my mother to our country house in Jin-sung. After we had gotten there, my mother was carrying my son on her back, my wife and I cleaned dirty rooms and front yard. When we had finished arranging several things, we could saw a nice house. My mom seemed to be very satisfied with it. She had been worried about cleaning it. My wife and I were pleased with my mom's laughter. When all of us had enjoyed delicious lunch in a restaurant which specializes in china food, I drove to my dad's country. Since we cleaned the house very sincerely where my father had passed away and which he had loved very much, he appeared so satisfactory. On the way home, we dropped by a Parkland store,the name of clothing store, to buy my trousers, shirt, ..etc. My wife bought them for me on installment (by credit card), and we stopped at a conventional market in Sang-dae dong to buy fisheries and vegetables. After that, I took my mom to her house. She had a promise to meet her friends at 6:00 p.m. As soon as my wife, my son, and I arrived at my house, my mother-in-law and my sister -in-law visited my house. They brought delicious Kimchi. My mother-in-law is a good cook. I was not able to be with them, for I had to go to take a bath. Today was a very busy day to my family. Now my son is enjoying a sweet dream my wife is washing a great many clothings and socks. She must be a woman of an angel. I'm very happy.

I told a lie to my mother and my wife. Now I swear not to lie and to be honest in the name of my loving son.

Monday ,       February , 5 , 2001 ,                  warm .

I knew my mother and my brother had been to a herbal clinic when I got up this morning. Without eating breakfast, I hurriedly had to leave my home, because I got up late in the morning. Today was my first public day in other workplace.

I gave two lectures to my new students. There were 9 students in one class, and there were were 14 students in the other classes. I had a difficult time teaching the first students, but in the second class I was able to apply a bit. I hope will improve my ability and teaching skills in this new workplace. Today was a very tiring day. I want to sleep.

Tuesday ,      February , 6 , 2001 ,                        warm .

My second younger brother was supposed to take my mother to a herbal clinic this morning, but he didn't come to my house. He must have drunk a lot last night. After all I had to drive her to the clinic, because she had to be treated by acupuncture. Her arthritis got better than last month. I was very happy. The doctor said she would regain her perfect knee in a month. I'd like to believe him. Parents' illness is the most suffering thing to every son and daughter. After about 30 minutes, she returned to my car which was parked on the roadside and where I was playing with my cute son.

As soon as we reached my house, I entered the room there was a computer, because I had to send a e-mail to my former coworker, Ms.Kim, the mother of Park Jae-hyun. She was a kind, clever, pretty, and good woman. After sending a mail,I ate brunch with my mother and my son in the living room. At 2:00 p.m. I arrived at my office, and I had prepared for this year's lectures for 3 hours. I found a wrong answer in the book I had studied. Now I know there are a lot of wrong answers in the renowned reference books. I will try not to make such mistakes when I write my own textbook.

I sent my English mail friend my new news in my office. To try my best in life is the most beautiful thing of all.

I'm sure that the sweat, the effort, will be changed into the rich and invaluable fruit. I trust myself. Way to go!

Wednesday ,       February , 7 , 2001 ,                   warm .

I was very tired even in the morning today, because I went to bed late last night. However, I had to take my mother to a herbal clinic, and had my cute son's hair cut by a hairdresser at the hair shop which was located at the first floor in my mother's house. My mother's house is the third floor building, even if its width is very small, each is 45 square meters. After my son had his hair cut, he looked like a bright, handsome, and ,what is the best of all, friendly little prince. I ate lunch very deliciously with my mother and my son, I hurried to my office. There were 5 teachers in it, including me. They were performing their own work very hard. In a few minutes, we drank a china, made in china, in my director's room. At 5:45 I gave my unfamiliar students a teaching. I was very satisfied with it. At 9:00 I drank with my childhood friend. He was a very kind person. I decided to get along with him forever. It was a good night.

Thursday ,        February , 8 , 2001 ,                 warm .

I spent a terrible night drinking with my childhood friend. It was a very unpleasant night. I did a bad thing until 6:00 next morning, Friday morning. I had no reason why I did such a thing. I must have drunk a liquor with my friend over a talk. I will never do the same mistake again. I swear before my loving family.  This morning I had a quarrel with my mother. I didn't know the reason why I had done such a bad thing. My mother cried due to the feeling of betrayal about her son. Nothing in the world is worse than to displease his or her own parents. In that way, I'm a bad son. I will respect my parents and won't put my parents in a sad situation from now. Mother! Forgive me. I'm so sorry.

Friday ,          February , 9 , 2001 ,                 warm .

When I woke up, it was 11:30. I had a meeting at that time, but I couldn't smell the coffee. Though it was a very important meeting, I was not able to get out of my bed. I had a horrible hangover. When I got up and smell the coffee, it was at 4:00. Today was a very regretful day. I hurriedly drove to my workplace, because I had to give a lecture to my unfamiliar students. After I had given a lecture, I returned to my mother's home. My wife was with my mother there.

I wrote the letter never to make such a mistake again. I swear before my loving son, " I wont do the same thing."

Saturday ,       February , 10 , 2001 ,              warm .

I worked very hard in my workplace, though it was not my duty. I carried many desks, chairs and several kinds of things from the first floor to the ninth floor. It was very arduous work. After lunch, my coworkers and I folded a great many advertising papers and put them in the each envelope. As the work was very monotonous, I was very bored.

Today was a very significant day to my family. All my family had the first birthday party for my loving son at a nice restaurant. Many relatives and visitors came to the restaurant to congratulate my son's first birthday. My wife and I thanked them for visiting us in front of the door of the restaurant. Because a lot of people were attended the party, my mother seemed to be very happy. Of course, my wife and I felt very happy. I hope my son will be healthy, righteous, and wise. I am sure he will become the best man and perform the great affair for all the people in this world.

Sunday ,      February , 11 , 2001 ,          cloudy and a bit cold .

Yesterday was so pleasant a day that I drank a lot with my high school and university friends until late last night. As a result of that, I got up late this morning. Though my mother went to bed late last night and didn't have a sweet sleep, she must have gotten up early this morning. When my wife and I woke up and smelled the coffee, she was not at home. She went to Ha-dong, near county, to take a bath. She must be a very diligent woman. At 4:40 in the afternoon, my family was supposed to go to my father's country with my brother's family. At about 5 p.m. we could see our father.

We all bowed him very seriously, after we had set the table for him. I had a promise with him to be a right man.

Monday ,        February , 12 , 2001 ,    cloudy and a little cold .

Now other lecturers entered the classroom to make their own livings, and I am alone here in teachers' room. I'm so blue.

I don't know how to manage my life. Not only I but also my companions are in a terrible fix. Of course, I don't know how to solve this hard problem, either. I only live day after day without having a sweet dream. My debts are depressing me. Why have I lived a tough life? Why have I been such a silly man? Darkness is coming toward me, and covering my mind as well as my body. I am struggling to escape from this difficult situation, but I don't so much as know myself.

I would like to avoid this situation of hell as soon as possible. I must have a confidence to be able to accomplish every purpose. I must trust myself. If I fall down, all my family will fall into dirty mire. I must prevent them from going through such miserable things. I'll work harder and harder and become a industrious and responsible breadwinner.

Tuesday ,        February , 13 , 2001 ,very warm for winter                                                               weather .

My cousin came to my house with her mother, when I was with my mother and my son. Her name is Kang Min-sung and her age 23. She took a test to become a public school teacher about a couple of months ago. She got a good grade in the test, and she passed it. But she had to take second test. It included interview, essay exam, and preliminary lecture.

Because she got a good grade in the first test and hardly made a mistake, she thought she would pass the second test, too. However, she failed in it. It was an unbelievable happening. All her family was very sad and kept weeping and weeping. Interviewers should have chosen her as a good teacher. In my opinion, she obviously was a good teacher. I had to comfort her and her mother. I am sure she will necessarily pass the unlucky test next year. Min-sung! Way to go!, My mother didn't go to a herbal clinic today. Somehow, I am so sorry to her. I will always try my best to please her. It is my duty and responsibility. I hope she will live a very long, long life without any illnesses. Mother! I love you.

Wednesday ,        February , 14 , 2001 ,                     warm .

I was born today 34 years ago. In other words, today was my birthday. However, I had to go to my office by 9:00 a.m.

When I arrived there, three teachers were preparing today's work. Then the director came to teachers' room, and told us to change teachers' room right now. It would be a very hard moving. We had to move a great many books, more than 10 desks and chairs from one place to other place. When we finished it, we all burned out. My first younger brother called me up to congratulate my birthday, but I didn't answered the phone, because then I was carrying quite a heavy loads.

A vice-director, a sexy woman, gave me a bunch of rose as my birthday present. I was happy. I came home to eat lunch.

My wife was there. As she had to be in her workplace then, I was surprised and pleased to see her at home. After I hurried to eat lunch, I drove my wife to her office, and took my mother to a herbal clinic, because she had to receive an acupuncture treatment. At 2:30 p.m. we returned to my home. I went to my office again and I spent a very tiring and boring day. I realized the power of money in capitalistic society. Now I miss my previous boss, Choi In-kug, in America.

Thursday, February, 15, 2001, so windy , rainy and                                                                   cold .

Today was the first day to have the first meeting with this year's students. We held a simple ceremony to welcome them and introduce this year's exam system for university entrance. After that, we, teachers, ate lunch in our office. At about 4:00 p.m. the director of our academy told me to be in charge of one class. However, in my opinion, it was a wrong thing, because a vice-director, 49, was older than I and he had rich experiences in public schools and institutes. I asked my director to think twice, but he wouldn't change his thought. After all I came to a conclusion to be responsible for the class. This year, I'll try my best for all of them to accomplish their own goals. After all the teachers had finished their lectures, we went to drink a beer. It was a warm and meaningful meeting. At 1:00 a.m. I came to my house, and I had a wonderful love time. We didn't have such an enjoyable time for a very long time. She was so sensual. I was so happy.

Friday ,        February , 16 , 2001 ,           windy and so cold .

Since I drank beers a lot and went to bed late last night, I felt so tired. But I had to go to my workplace by 8:30.

I had two lectures from 9 to 10:50. Hangover kept on bothering me. I gave my new students my first lecture which was a little good. When two classes were over, I could regain my spirit, but, on the other hand, I was all the more burned out. I was very hungry, but I couldn't go to my house to eat lunch. For I had to tell my class's students to come early next morning. At about 1:00 p.m., I returned to my home to have brunch. After I had hurried to eat it, I took a nap for about an hour. When I came to my workplace again, it was at 3:35. A korean teacher was in teachers' room. Even though she was two years junior to my mother, she seemed so young for my mother. As my mother had a tough time very much, she appeared much older for her age. I will try my best for her to stay in good health from now on.

Saturday ,       February , 17 , 2001 ,                      warm .

As today was Saturday, I had classes only in the morning. After I had finished giving my classes to my new students, I entered teachers' room which had a good view. It was on the eighth floor. If the weather is fine, we, teachers, could see the Mt. Giri in the far distance, which was covered with snow. At about 2:00 p.m., I left my office. When I reached my home, my wife was not in it. I thought she had taken our son, Hee-seok, to the hospital, because she had told me it. When I entered the hospital, I could find her and my son very easily. He was injected in his left arm by an ugly nurse.

We went to my mother's house by my car. She seemed so pale, because she had a pain in her right arm and her right knee. Her boiler needed more oil, so my mother telephoned a gas station, and she had oil tank filled with oil. Boiler of my house needed to be repaired very soon, because its part was out of order. I telephoned a boiler company, and I had it mended by a mechanic. At night we had a birthday for my wife with ￦20,000 which my mother had given me to have a party. He was satisfied with it. I had a very enjoyable time with my wife. She is a beautiful woman.

Sunday ,         February , 18 , 2001 ,                     warm .

It was very warm for the winter weather. I had a promise to go to take a bath with my mother, but I couldn't do it, because I got up very late this morning. I ate brunch with my wife and my son, and while my wife washed the laundry, I cleaned my room very carefully. There were many things for me to do today. First of all, I had to buy fruits, such as apples and oranges ..etc in the fruits wholesale market. Then I had to go to photo shop to have my son's album made. And then I went to my father's country with my mother, my wife, my nephew, and my son. And we went to our another house in the rural area to see it was all right. When all the things were done, we headed for a restaurant to eat out. We had a delicious pork and Bibimbab mixed with rice and several kinds of vegetables. Today was very pleasant day to my family. In addition, to my pleasure, my loving nephew, Hyun-woo, slept in my house for the first time.

Monday ,         February , 19 , 2001 ,      clear skies and warm .

I write the contents of my e-mail sent to my e-mail friend in Bundang in the place of my today's diary.

I appreciate your kind e-mail. You have had very tough experiences due to a heavy snow, I guess. We had so much snow this winter. Probably most of koreans will lose a romantic meaning of the white snow, if they have a snowy day one more time. I hope it will grow warmer and warmer and the white devil will melt down very soon.

You must be a good teacher as well as a true pro. However so bad the weather or so hard the situation may be, you will make your own way without any hesitation, I bet. I know you changed your life-site like me. How about your new one? I have worked for Han-kug Academy, my new life-site. Money is a necessary evil in the capitalistic society. I have been doing my best not to make a living but to enhance my ability and to exercise my potentiality.

Now my son is walking up to me, and asking me to play with himself.  He begins to cry and my wife is washing the laundries in the bathroom. I'll finish this letter. I'm sorry. I'll meet you in the next e-mail.

Watch out not to slip down on the icy road.  I hope you will have lucky days in your new work. Good-bye.  ENARO

Tuesday ,         February , 20 , 2001 ,               warm .

I felt so tired because I drank a lot with my co-workers last night. But I had to go to my workplace by 8 o'clock a.m.

I am in charge of one class. I am a homeroom teacher. It is a very tiring job, but it sometimes gives satisfaction. I am to try my best to feel the satisfaction this year. I slept on the sofa in the morning. Other teachers came in and went out very often. It inhibited me from having a sound sleep. When I slept for about an hour, I felt a little comfortable. But I felt tired again about two hours later. Smoking is bad for my health, and it harms my body and mind. What's worse, I often have a sore throat and a terrible pain in my chest. I'm worried about it. I will quit smoking from today. Nothing is so precious as health. I'd like to be in good shape. Without good health, one can't do anything. First of all, I will take care of myself, my body and my mind. I decided to stop smoking from today. At 10:15 p.m. I left my office.

Wednesday ,February , 21 , 2001 ,  misty in the morning and                                                        rainy .

It was a little misty in the morning and was rainy at last. I was very tired from the morning. I couldn't apply myself to unfamiliar surroundings. Of course I had had similar experience for about 7 years, but last 3 months gave me rest. Though it was real relaxation, it made me a lazy creature. It was very difficult to get up early in the morning, most of all. In addition, I had to go to my new workplace by 8 o'clock a.m. and leave at 10:20 p.m. I had to work more than 14 hours in one place alone. It was a very boring and annoying thing, but I knew I could do it and that I had a confidence. Now I am very sick. It is likely that I have a cold. I have a sore throat and sore muscles, even though I do not have a runny nose, headache and coughing. I want to leave my office as soon as possible, and have a deep sleep.

But in spite of my hope, my university junior bothered me. He told me not to keep his promise. I abominate him.

Thursday ,         February , 22 , 2001 ,

a heavy mist covered all the world and  a warm day

These days I have a problem. It is about eating lunch and dinner. When I went to a previous workplace, I would go to my home and have meals. However, nowadays I can't do that. I have most of the meals in the office, so I have spent much money eating meals. In addition, I couldn't eat delicious food. Noodle made from flour was my main food. Surely, I felt hungry very soon. I wanted to go home and to eat warm food. Today I was able to do it. Cooked rice which I ate in my comfortable home is very good. I am to eat food in my cozy home as much as possible from now.

Friday ,          February , 23 , 2001 ,                      rainy .

Today was a very taxing day. After all my junior broke his promise. The director of academy was so angry. I was a bit

sorry. My junior is so poor and single. He have to make a fortune and marry as soon as possible. But he missed a good opportunity to do that. I hope he will make a wise choice and succeed in his life. Work is very terrible and dirty.

Saturday ,       February , 24 , 2001 ,          cloudy but warm .

All my work in the office was over at about 1:00 p.m. because today was Saturday. I could return to my home. There were my first younger brother, two nieces, my mother, and my son in my house. They were eating lunch very deliciously, so I joined in them. As I was a little tired, I took a nap for about 1 hour. In the evening my family had to go to Kang-yang in Cheolla province. There is my senior's house in it. He had bought a new house a few weeks ago, so his family invited his juniors and their families to her house. In other words, he held a house warming party. His house was much larger than mine. In addition, it was very convenient and very comfortable. But it was not totally his own house.

He rented it with a view to living for 5 years. I hope he will buy a wonderful house as soon as possible. All of us had a very wonderful night. We ate a very delicious raw fish and enjoyed a cozy mood. Mr.Rui, he is a very good senior.

Sunday ,        February , 25 , 2001 ,            a little cold .

After my family had eaten breakfast in my senior's house in Koang-yang which was served very carefully, we left for Jin-ju at 11:00 a.m. His family gave each of us potatoes, and gave our each child ￦10,000. His wife was very kind and good. We arrived in Jin-ju at about 1:00 p.m. We went to my mother's house and prepared to have my son's pictures taken.

At 2:00 the photographer began to take pictures of my son, and finished it at about 4:00. It was a very hard and boring job. We went to my father's country with my wife, my son, my nephew, and two nieces. It was a little desolate, but I could feel warm heart of my father. At 7:00 p.m. my family met Mr. Park's family at the raw fish restaurant. We enjoyed meal over talking with one another. I became a heavy drunker. I made many big mistakes. It was a very regretful night. I decided not to make the same mistakes.

Monday ,       February , 26 , 2001 ,                     cold .

When I woke up this morning, I couldn't have a right spirit. For I drank a lot last night. But I had to go to my work by 8 o'clock a.m. Though hangover kept harassing my stomach and head, I could barely reach it. Most students in my class, except two, were present, so I telephoned two students to come as early as possible. After that, I went to my house. I needed to take more sleep. My mother was there with my son, and my wife seemed to have gone to her work.

I couldn't get up until noon. Without eating brunch, I hurried to return to my life-site. I had a terrible stomachache.

At first I drank liquor, but very soon it conquered my mind and body. I was a very weak and worthless being. I must realize myself. I was blacked out. How miserable I am! From now on I will never lose my spirit. I'm the father of would-be prosecutor. I would like to be a good and wise father. And I want to be a good son and a good husband.

Tuesday ,        February , 27 , 2001 ,     dark, cloudy and                                                                        rainy .

Now it is raining outside the window. It was dark and cloudy all day. At last a drizzle is falling down. Mountains in the distance have already been wet by the rain. All the world is covered with drops of rain. Rain is falling down even in my mind. I try to encourage myself, which is the way I will have to live, I know. Though life avoids me, I will love my life forever. I will continue to challenge my tough life until it loves me. Every teacher tries his or her best to perform his or her own duty and responsibility. I must hurry to join it. Otherwise I can't live in this field. There is one more reason why I have to do so. It is a goal of my life. I will be the best English lecturer. I want to be a being like air.

Wednesday ,      February , 28 , 2001 ,            shiny and warm .

Today was the last day of February. As rain stopped falling down, the air was very fresh and all the world seemed new.

In addition, I could see Mt. Jiri in the distance through window with my eyes. Though it was very far away, it was so fantastic, gigantic and spectacular. I would like to be a great being like it.  Yesterday I got paid the first salary in this work. It was a little more than I had thought before. I knew it would be difficult for my family to live this month with only that salary, but I was satisfied. I will be happy to be paid a salary equal to my efforts forever.

Thursday, March, 1, 2001,                                                               rainy in the morning but sunny in the late afternoon .

Most of the Koreans protested against irrational and illegal control and oppression of Japan without using any violence in 1919. All of them including even old people and little students in uniform cried out, "INDEPENDENCE, LIBERATION"  with the Korean Flag in their own hands. Ruthless Japanese soldiers fired for them and at random shook their swords.

As a result, a large number of patriots were killed on the day in that year. We, descendants, should never forget the unlucky and deplorable day. We all must remember the sad history. We will develop our country and make this country be the most powerful one. Then they, sons of bitch, will necessarily apologize to us for their massacres and wrong-doings.  Today I was on duty. The other teachers took a rest in their comfortable house, but I had to work in my office. It was raining outside the window. I felt a bit solitary, but I thought I should not waste time like gold. So, I performed a lot of tasks very sincerely. When I finished all my work, I was so happy. On the way to my mother's house, I entered the beauty shop to have my hair cut. After that, because I wanted to eat pork meat, I bought it for ￦17,000. I phoned my second younger brother to come to my mother's house, and we enjoyed a very delicious meal. It was pleasant evening. Tomorrow my niece will have an entrance ceremony to elementary school. I gave her the present which was a biography. It consisted of many instructive lives of wise people in the world. I hope that she will be a good woman like them.

Friday ,       March , 2 , 2001 ,                         warm .

I broke my cellular phone the other day, because I drank a lot and was not able to be in the right spirit. If anything is lost, one realize its value. So do I. I didn't know its necessity until I lost its existence. For a few days I have done without mobile phone, how uncomfortable I have been! Today I decided to borrow it again. Fortunately, as previous one had been lent for more than a year, I didn't have to compensate for it. I could borrow a better phone than the former one. It was so small that it could be held tightly in my palm. Its sound, what's better, was very loud and clear. But, I could find its only defect. As it was a second-hand phone, it had many scars on the body. But, it is free. I am satisfied with the fact. I will use it for over a year, and then I'll buy a fancy cell phone. Today was very pleasant day.

Saturday ,      March , 3 , 2001 ,             misty and cloudy .

Today was Saturday, so I could finish my work at 1:00 p.m. When I reached my home, my mother was not at home.

Instead my two nieces were playing in the living room. Soon they met their cousin brother, hyun-woo. He was a good elementary school student. He has just come to my home as soon as his school was over. I prepared a delicious meal for them. It was Kimchi Bokeumbab which was combined Kimchi and rice and fried in the frying pan. We enjoyed the food.

After my mother returned to my home from herbal clinic, I took a nap. My first younger brother's family went to their house. When I woke up, I felt hungry and wanted to eat raw fish. So, I drove to Samcheonpo, near harbor city with my mother, my nephew, my son and my wife. We bought much fresh raw fish for ￦40,000. I would like to eat it with my younger brothers, but they had work to do. We, four people, enjoyed it, but I felt a bit sorry to my brothers.

Sunday ,      March , 4 , 2001 ,

cold and snowy in the morning, but sunny in the afternoon

Today was Sunday, but my family had to get up two hours earlier than usual. We was supposed to go to a famous spa(hot spring) in Ha-dong with my nephew and my mother. It was quite a cold morning. We arrived there at 7:35 a.m. We took a bath for two hours. When we went out of the bathroom, it was windy and snowy. I drove my car very carefully, because I thought road might be icy and slippy due to snow. We went to my father's country.  We bowed to HIS tomb very sincerely, and returned to my mother's house. We had a brunch very deliciously and I took a nap. At 2:00 p.m. my younger brother's family came to my mother's house. By the way, my brother got angry at his nephew. I was angry. I couldn't understand him. After all, his family returned to their home. I was very regretful. I hope that he will be broad-minded. I know he is affectionate and faithful to his family and his parents. I like him.

Monday ,      March , 5 , 2001 ,                                    cold .

My mother needed to be treated by an acupuncture at a herbal clinic, so I took her there with my cute little son. After a while, she came out of it with her herbal medicine. I was driving my car a bit hurriedly, when a patrol car ran just behind my car honking and honking. I drove my car aside quickly and I saw two cars in front of my car stopping since the traffic was red. I stopped my car behind them. Soon the traffic light turned into green, so I started to move my car.

I went across the crossroad safely. By the way, all of a sudden, a policeman had my car stop. I pulled it over on the safety zone. He came up to my car, and told me that I ran the red traffic and that he should see my driver's license. When I went across the crossroad, the traffic light was obviously green. I was sure that I hadn't broken a traffic law.

I was mat at the cop. He must have been ordered to write as many tickets as possible. It often happens in this country.

The officials of this country are never public servants but public masters. I would like to move to other country. I love my country, and there is my father's country in this country, but I would like to leave this country. Fucking traffic cops!

My English composition skills are very poor, I know. I will study English very hard until I am buried in this country.

Tuesday ,     March , 6 , 2001 ,                        cloudy and cold

I brought my lunch box to the office for the first time yesterday. My good wife wrapped it for me very carefully.

I know she is very tired at night because she is a career woman. But she cooked a lot of delicious food in order to give

me rapture. I appreciate her affectionate heart. I will please her tonight. Love is feeling each other's happiness and sorrow. Now there is only a teacher besides me in the teachers' room. She is talking on the phone. I guess who is talking with her. Her voice sounds very cozy. Just then the office door opens, and the science teacher is entering office. He have two sons, who had pure Korean names. One is Hae-nyuk(해녁), and the other is Hae-chan(해찬). I think their names are very beautiful. But I love my son's name all the better, because he is too good, cute and pure. He is my soul itself.

Wednesday ,     March , 7 , 2001 ,         cloudy, windy  and cold .

Today I sent my electronic mail friend a warm writing.

Title:I'm looking forward to your e-mail.

Long time no see! I haven't met you on the e-mail for a long time. You must have been too busy. But I'd like to become your eternal e-mail friend. I want to be best at using English as soon as possible. You have a good command of English. I'll try my best. Please help me improve my English skills and abilities. I'll scratch your back if you scratch my back. I'll look forward to your reply mail.                    ENARO in Jinju

Thursday ,       March , 8 , 2001 ,          very windy and so cold

Today was a very terrible day. I drank a lot with my previous students last night. Therefore, I couldn't go to my work in time. It was a very great mistake. I must not make the same mistake from now on. I will try my best to do it.

Today my e-mail friend sent a kind mail. This is a writing she sent me. Hi! Long time no see. How have you been? I've been so much busy. As you know, I changed my work. There I have much work to do. I work until 1 a.m. and 6 days a week, even Saturday. So I'm very sad and I have no free time these days. I'm very sorry not to mail to you. But I've thought of you, please excuse me..^^^. How about your life? I'm very pleased with your card mail. Thank you so much. And thank you for compliments about me, too. I also want to be your eternal English mail friend. Let's try each other. And I'm sure your English is much better than mine. So I want to be helped. I promise to mail more often from now on.

Now spring has come. But it's still a little cold here. A few days ago, it snowed again. I felt terrible..^^. Anyway, stay in good health and be happy. See you in the next mail.

your friend Debby.

Friday ,         March , 9 , 2001 ,        too much windy and so                                                             cold .

I sent her a kind English e-mail. This is the writing I sent her. I'm glad to feel my English is improving step by step.

Title : At last I met you on the internet!

I would like to say, "Thank you very much for your e-mail, first." I was right. You have had very busy days. Working so hard is a wonderful thing, but having a free time is necessary, too. Probably you are in the process of adapting yourself to the strange circumstances. It will not be long before you have much free time, I think. Way to go! Cheer up!

I have been busy preparing the materials on this year's lectures and studying my textbooks. Now I think I have adjusted myself to my new workplace. Sometimes, I say to myself, "The busier you are, the more free time you must have." And I have a confidence, saying to myself, "You can do it." I'm in charge of a class. All my students graduated from high school and even a few finished working in the university. I'm a homeroom teacher and they are in the same boat that I steer. I'm the captain of the ship. I will try my best for them to achieve their own dreams. I believe myself.

These days it is very cold for the spring weather. Be careful not to lose yourself(your mental and physical health). Let's overcome this terrible weather. I sincerely hope warm spring will visit your palace. Then, I'll meet you in the next mail.

Stay in good shape and take your time.

your permanent e-mail friend, ENARO in Jinju.

Saturday ,          March , 10 , 2001 ,                        warm .

It had been very cold for a few days, but today was quite warm like my mind. Now really spring seems to be around corner. I finished working at 1 p.m. Because I wanted to eat lunch in the restaurant specializing in duck meat mixed with diverse vegetables, I offered my co-worker to come along with me. He was my senior working in the same office. He was really a dandy. In addition, he was handsome, trustworthy, and kind. After we had enjoyed a delicious lunch over talking about our duty and working conditions, he drove to his own house saying to me, "Have a nice weekend." I came to my mother's house, since I had to hold a religious ceremony for my great great grandfather tonight. My mother was taking care of my son and my nieces, my wife was preparing plenty of food very carefully. To me, she looked like an angel. Once in a while I feel sorry to her, because there are a little more religious ceremonies in our family than those in others'. I only hope she can prepare them with pleasure and all my sister-in-laws can be willing to help her. I think it is a very difficult homework, but my and I will try our best to do it. Happiness will be in making all my family members live in the harmony, I bet. Probably it is my father's wish, too. I'll devote all my life to making my family happy.

Sunday ,         March , 11 , 2001 ,                windy and cold .

I got up late this morning. Today was Sunday. I ate breakfast deliciously around 9 a.m. After that I watched TV, and my wife cleaned the house. My cute son played with his several toys by himself. At 12:20 p.m. I fell asleep again. When I woke up again, my watch indicated 1:40. I had to be in a hurry to go to my father's country. When I telephoned my mother, she told me that I might as well come along with my first younger brother. I made up my mind to wait for him to reach my mother's home after he had finished his work in the firm. He arrived at her house at 3:45. I drove him to our father's country with a nephew and two nieces. All of us bowed to our father's grave to meet him through one another's spirit or soul. Though the wind blew very heavily, it couldn't inhibit us from worshipping our loving ONE.

As soon as we returned to my mother's house, I called my wife. But she was not at home. No one answered. I thought she had gone out to buy something with her mother and her younger sister. My mother-in-law was supposed to visit my home. Probably she was angry at my attitude. I don't know why I dislike my wife's family. I think I am wrong clearly.

I will try to fix such a wrong behavior. I feel I am very sorry to my good wife.

Monday ,         March , 12 , 2001 ,         very windy and cold .

When I went out of my house, a chilly wind was blowing through skinny branches of trees and I felt so cold. I was walking up to my car, when I saw a great number of traffic stopping bumper to bumper. I determined to go to my work on foot without giving in to the cold. The bridge I was walking on was crowded with various kinds of vehicles. I walked to my office very strongly. On the way, I met many students who attended our academy. We greeted each other.

An air conditioner inside building was not working from today. I felt cold all the worse for that reason. To make matters worse, I had to work from 8:00 a.m. to 10:50 p.m. beginning today, March 12. But I had a confidence to do it.

No matter how so terrible my situation may be, I made a decision to go through it. For I am myself and believe myself.

Tuesday ,          March , 13 , 2001 ,                          cold .

These days whenever I get up in the morning, I feel so tired. So I take vitamin C two to three times each day. But it can only reduce my fatigue, I am conscious that it can't improve my body completely. Some doctors insist that all the living things have an ability to cure their own illnesses for themselves. I'd like to trust them totally. Consequently I can treat my diseases only by my mind. To achieve it, I must become a strong-willed man. First of all, I will stop smoking and make myself in good shape by regular exercises. In addition, I will have to decorate my spirit with good heart. I can do it. Without my life, I couldn't defend my family from every worry and problem. Restoring health is my most important job. My loving family! Believe me. I will become a strong-minded, healthy man for them and myself.

Wednesday ,        March , 14 , 2001                          cold .

Sloth makes all things difficult, but industry makes all things easy. There is no such word as 'impossible' in my dictionary. I was very tired this morning. It is difficult for me to come over fatigue. But I know I must put up with it. At times I have a little pain in my chest, but I don't know its reason. Probably smoking is the main reason, I guess. Smoking is the most harmful thing to my health. I will escape from such a bad habit. I have to stay in good shape myself.

Thursday ,          March , 15 , 2001 ,                a little cold .

I had a class at 9:00 a.m. After that I studied very hard the right pronunciations of American English. At 12:30 p.m.,I had a delicious lunch with my senior in my office. A bell informing us of starting today's fifth class rang. After I had confirmed that all students of my class had been present at listening to the lecture, I went out of my office. I had to drop by a drugstore to buy an arthritis medicine, because my mother had still been sick and tomorrow would, moreover, be her birthday. Tomorrow she will become 54 years old. But she looks much older for her age. She had four sons and had a very hard time bringing up them. In addition, they had their own peculiar personalities, so their parents had all the more hardships. I really wish that my loving mother will live a very, very long life without any illness. Mom! I love you.

Friday ,          March , 16 , 2001 ,                               cold .

Today was my mother's birthday. My loving wife prepared diverse food for my mother late last night. She got up about an hour earlier than usual even this morning, and cooked so deliberately. I woke up at 7:00 because my mother came to my house. I said to her, " Happy birthday, mom!". She seemed very happy. I hurried to shampoo my hair and wash my face and hands. And after that I ate breakfast very deliciously my good wife had served very elaborately. I was so happy.

All my family members either telephoned my mother to congratulate her birthday or visited my home my mother took good care of my son. She deserved it. Nonetheless, I'd like to appreciate their good behavior as the eldest son of this family and as a breadwinner. Now I picture all members of my family live a very pleasant life in a very beautiful utopia. Of course, the mysterious world is in our mind, I know. I bet all of us will go forward to the idealistic dreamland.

Today I transmitted my first e-mail to my previous boss. I'm not sure he can receive my mail and respond to it. This is the contents of the mail.

Title:Long time no see!

My previous boss! How have you been? I'm worried about your adjusting well to new life in America, whose life is very different from that of your homeland. I changed my life-site to another academy. I'd like to apologize to you for my decision. But I couldn't help it. I want you to understand my situation. I'll try my best to make my life invaluable.

I wonder if your loving son got much better. I believe your sincere heart will save your son from the terrible disease.

Don't be disappointed. Cheer up! The more serious your dream is, the sooner it will be achieved. I miss you.

I hope all your family members will have lucky days and be happy. I'll look forward to your reply even in my dream.

affectionately yours               from Bong-hyun Jung in Korea

Saturday ,        March , 17, 2001 ,       cloudy, rainy and cold .

I had my students clean our classroom and I was eating lunch with my two co-workers in teachers' room, when my mother telephoned me. Her voice trembled very much. She said to me, "Hee-seok is so sick that I will take him to the hospital as soon as possible." I rushed to drive to the hospital. My son was weeping. He seemed to be very sick. My mom told me that he seemed to have a constipation. He was treated by a doctor and he could laugh. I hope he will be in good shape. When we arrived at my home, I felt so tired that I wanted to take a nap. After I had taken a nap for about half an hour, I went to my mother's home to meet my second younger brother's family. We were supposed to go to Samcheonpo port to congratulate my mother's birthday. We dropped by fishery market, and bought very fresh raw fish for

50,000￦. We ate them very deliciously nearby restaurant. It was a very pleasant evening, and we were very happy.

Sunday,          March, 18, 2001,           Now it is obviously                                                                  spring.

Though I was a little bit tired, I had to get up at 7:30 a.m. as usual. I had a promise with my mom last night. My family went to my mother's house. She was waiting for us. I drove to Okjong which was famous for hot spring. We reached there at 8:30. After we had promised to meet at 10:40, my mother, my wife, and my son entered women's public bathroom and I entered men's one. We met again exactly at 10:40. On the way to my mother's house, we stopped at my father's country. Today my son bowed to his grandfather's tomb. My father must have been very happy. Because my mom was supposed to meet my relatives at noon, we hurried to leave my father's land. They was waiting for my mother.

She left to have a wonderful meal time by the car of my uncle. I headed for Ban-seong, near countryside, where my wife's had been living, along with my wife and my son, because tomorrow will be my mother-in-law's birthday. My wife's family and I ate fresh and sweet raw fish very deliciously I had bought at fishery market in Samcheonpo port. I had a good time today. I were very tired this weekend, but I had a very wonderful time with my family. Now I want to sleep.

Monday,          March, 19, 2001 ,

warm outside the door, but cold inside the door .

Because I had gone to sleep earlier than usual last night and slept a sound sleep, I could feel comfortable when I got up this morning. I had much time to go to my office, so I prepared my day with leisure. But it caused a serious problem. On the way to my office, there were a lot of cars on the bridge. They seemed never to move for a few minutes. After all, I couldn't help being late for self-study time. I felt ashamed for seeing my students' faces, but I believed they would understand my efforts to be on time. A heavy traffic was a hopeless situation. Still I decided never to be late for school again, because being late couldn't be forgiven under any excuse. Now it is at 8:06 p.m. Somehow I'd like to see my wife and my son. I'll be kind to them and love them in all my heart.

Tuesday ,         March , 20 , 2001 ,                 a little bit cold .

To my lovely son, Hee-seok Jeong.

I'm your father. Now I'm 34 years old, but I look old for my age, because there is a little hair on the front part of my head. That is, I'm a little bit bald. However, I'm very handsome like you. You seem to resemble me. I have been making a living as an English instructor for about 7 years. I'm very satisfied with my job. For, English is my favorite aim in life. So I have been trying my best to be the best teacher in my field. I'm sure that you will take pride in your father in the future. I arrive at my office at about 5 to 8 a.m. on weekdays and my task begins with taking the roll in my class. I'm in charge of excellent students in this academy. Most of them respect me, I think. In addition, there are a lot of former pupils who have pursued my instruction. They are my big fortune in my life. In that way, I'm accumulating my fortune even today. It brings me a very great happiness. I finish all work in my office at 10:45 p.m. Fatigue attacks me, but I don't give in the satan. I am usually in a hurry to go to see you. As soon as I reach home, I come up to you, but only your sleeping, peaceful and smiling face meets me. Nevertheless I'm never disappointed. Because you have to sleep a sound sleep and have a sweet dream. By doing so, you can grow up strongly, I know. My proud son, you mean everything to me. I, your father, cordially hope that you will grow up rightfully, healthfully, and wisely and that you can achieve your good dream in life. My lovely son! Do whatever you want to, and I will back you up with all my care.

Wednesday ,        March , 21 , 2001 ,                        warm.

I had a sore throat today, so I had a tough time giving my lovely students lessons. I hope it will get better tomorrow.

The following is the writing I received from my permanent e-mail friend and one I sent her by reply today.

Title:I'm really sorry for late reply. I have nothing to say. It's because all my laziness. Please excuse me.^^

How have you been? It became much warmer for a day, didn't it? But it's a pity that I can't enjoy the spring air, because of my bad sleeping habit and terrible working time.

Just when I go to work, only for 30 minutes or so, I just can feel it is spring now. So I'm going to go on a picnic to 춘천  this weekend. Though I have little free time.

From April, maybe I'll be busy preparing the students' test. Of course, I think you are also same to me. So I plan to enjoy myself with nature this March. Why don't you join with me?^^

These days I'm adapting myself to new circumstances. In fact, physically it's a little harder than before. Of course, though I have a mental burden, too. But I'm satisfied with my work more than before.

I hope you are also content with your work and to do your best. And have a good time with your family in good weather. Then, Once again I apologize to you for my late reply.  Good bye.  Take care.  Your bad friend, Debby.

I found a few grammatical errors and improper expressions in her mail, but I typed up without correcting them.

This is my reply mail.    Title:Thank you for your mail.

Now we can enjoy a warm and comfortable spring weather. Though this country is in a serious economic crisis, and the whole world has been suffering from food-and-mouth disease and mad cow disease, we are able to live a pleasant life. Of course, you might in your mind that in the end your e-mail friend has gone crazy because of an awful situation of this world. But obviously I'm in the right spirit. I'm always conscious that the more serious our surroundings are, the more our own time we need, and that the sadder we are, the louder we need laugh. How do you feel about my opinion?

In that respect, you have a good plan. I can't come along with you, but I really hope that you will have a nice trip and that you will put your wonderful dream in your heart as spring sunshine caresses all things in the world.

Now I'm to prepare my next lecture for my students. Today for the first time I will teach them with a 'Time Magazine'.

So I have butterflies in my stomach. To put it in another terms, I feel nervous. But I'll be able to do it very well, for I am myself.^^  I want you to have a good weekend, once again. Well, I will look forward to your reply.

ENARO in Jinju

P.S.:I have something to apologize to you.  I introduced you to my students in my English class about two weeks ago and gave them a lecture with your mail and my reply mail.  They seemed to be very satisfied with it. But I'd like to say, " Sorry", because I didn't receive your permission beforehand(in advance).

Please understand me and I want to make a suggestion. Like me, give your students a special lesson with our mails.

My proud son! The woman mentioned above is no more than e-mail friend of your father. I received her introduction by mail, but I have never met her in real life, and I don't, moreover, so much as have her picture. I wish you won't misunderstand your good father. I'm struggling to improve my English through contacts with her on the internet.

Thursday ,   March , 22 , 2001 ,   breezy , comfortable and warm

It is breezy and I feel very comfortable today. Because I had finished my lecture at 9:50 a.m. and I hadn't had anything to do, I went to my home to see my mother and my son. He was pleased to see me and looked like an angel After a while, my two brothers, the first and second brother, visited my house. They appeared to be happy as tomorrow would be their pay day. I hope they will always be able to smile and be content with their life.

Mr. Jeong Joo-young, age 86, an economic tycoon of this country, passed away at about 10:05 p.m. last night, March 21. He was a strong-willed, audacious, and great man. In addition, he was a very mythical figure in the business world. He was born as a son of a poor farmer. At an early age, he ran away from his house, which was in North Korea then, with money equal to buying a cow. He worked very hard to succeed in life. As a result of his constant efforts, he made a great fortune and became known to all the people all over the world. To make a long story short, he was a self-made man. When it came to his achievements, besides economics ones, he did a great many things in reunification of Korean Peninsula. This land has been divided with two Koreas, North Korea and South Korea, since 1953. He tried to improve the relationship with North Korea. When no civilian was allowed to go across through Pan-moon-jeom, which has been the symbol of division and a special meeting place for decades, he entered the veiled country along with a thousand of cattle. He even enabled South Koreans to see Mt. Kumgang, which is famous for its very beautiful scenery, not by watching TV but by virtually visiting the mountain. But he didn't always perform good work. At one point he jumped into the political world, and even ran out for the election for presidential position. It was his greatest mistake in his life.

Now he has gone to my father's country and won't return to this world. But we, Korean people, will remember him in our minds. I'd like him to become a much greater being in my father's country, too. Sweet dreams forever, Mr. Jeong!

Friday ,   March , 23 , 2001 ,    It is a perfect spring weather.

When I had arrived at my office and switched on computer, I knew it had been out of order. It is a very indispensable machine in this modern society. Therefore, it has played an important role in our office. We, my coworkers and I, tried to fix it, but soon we realized that  a specialized knowledge was necessary to mend it. Then I thought of my brother-in-law.

He was an expert in computer. I telephoned him and asked several questions. He responded to my questions very seriously. I felt a great gratitude for his kindness. My companion, Mr. Kim Yoon-eun, brought a recovery disk(booting disk) and a Window 98 CD ROM from his house. I performed the strange work the way my brother-in-law had taught. At first I had a very great difficulty doing it, but after about an hour, I could make it. I felt very happy that I had repaired it by myself. And I decided to acquire a lot of knowledge and skill about computer as soon as possible. I can do everything.

Saturday ,         March , 24 , 2001 ,                            cloudy .

Since I drank like fish last night, I was very tired when I awoke this morning. However, I had to arrive at my office by 9 o'clock a.m. Today was the first preliminary test day of this year. It was supposed to be taken yesterday. But the Ministry of Education ordered all the high schools in this country not to take the test made by a private institute. Thus principals of each school gathered together and had a meeting about whether they will take it or not. As a result of that conference, they came to a conclusion that almost all the students would take the annoying test this Saturday. Therefore, all the academies in this city couldn't help obeying the decision. It was a very terrible and unpleasant thing. As far as education on this country is concerned, we can't have hope. The students in this country are in despair, and can't escape from this miserable maze. Someday I will write a diary concerning educational problems of this country in details. Anyway I hope all my students will get good grades in return for their efforts in this test. My students! Try your best!

Sunday ,   March , 25 , 2001 ,    cloudy, windy but a little warm .

It was cloudy in the morning, and in the afternoon it was a little warm. I remembered the weather man had announced on TV it would rain today. But, fortunately, it didn't falling down. I decided to go to the Maehwa Town next to Hadong along with my mother, my second younger brother, two nieces, my son and my wife. My brother guided us there.

It was very crowded with a lot of people who came from all over the country. Traffic was bumper to bumper on the country road. It took a car almost half an hour to go 500 meters. Then, an old and kind farmer showed us a short cut. We selected it, and luckily we could reach our destination still earlier than others. All the town was covered with white maehwa blossoms. Under the town was the Seomjin river flowing. It was so beautiful, too. But we couldn't enjoy the fantastic scenery because we had to escape from the traffic congestion and arrive in Jin-ju before the sun set. I hurried to drive my car and at 6:30 we got to my father's country. After we had held a simple religious ceremony for my father, we headed for my aunt's restaurant specializing in chicken meat. We had a enjoyable dinner time there. Today was a very busy day, but all of us enjoyed ourselves very much. I will try to have a very nice day like today on weekends.

Monday ,     March , 26 , 2001 ,    too much windy and very cold .

When I reached my office this morning, I knew my lecture time had been changed on the ground of female Korean teacher. I heard she had gone to Seoul to see her husband. The fact that my lecture had been turned to earlier time worried me. I feel a bit nervous. But these day I have a confidence about my English ability and my teaching. And, what's more, as time and tide passes by, I have a confidence to be able to do everything. After teaching my students two hours of classes, I felt very satisfactory. I am to work very hard without stopping to improve my abilities. By doing so, someday I will become the best individual in the English-teaching field. I can do it, I bet. Father! Believe me.

Tuesday ,     March , 27 , 2001 ,  cloudy in yellow-sand                                                                   phenomenon .

Today is my second pay day in this workplace. It is at 6:13 p.m., but I didn't get paid my salary yet. Just as most of employers in this country are reluctant to give their employees relevant pay, so is my boss. The smaller the company is, the more it has such a tendency. If I will become a boss, I will never do such a bad thing like my present employer.  I have to consult my students this evening. In the process, I will be able to hear their troubles and understand their mind. After consultation, I must search for the ways to help them. I am the captain of a ship which they ride on. I'll lead them to the right direction and make all of them become my followers, for it is my responsibility as well as my duty.

Wednesday ,       March , 28 , 2001 ,     chilly due to cold wind .

Yesterday I got paid my salary, so I gave it to my mother this morning and asked my wife to send my youngest brother￦700,000. I earnestly hope he will get a doctor's degree in biological engineering and succeed in his life. I trust him.

I hadn't received e-mail from my friend, Miss Cho. But today she sent me a nice mail, and I replied to her mail.

Title:The titles of the teaching materials were 'Hi!' and 'Thank you for your mail'. Sadly it snowed again there. To make a matter worse, you have come down with influenza.

I'm so sorry to hear that. I'll send you Huh Joon right now, and I earnestly hope you'll get better very soon.

Now you have been to Chun-cheon three times, but I haven't been there in my life. Of course I watched the beautiful city so many times on TV. Someday I want to take a wonderful trip to it like you. Your story about that hot trip is pleasing me. Thank you for your good news. Last Sunday I took my family to Maehwa Town in Jeon-ra-nam Province. At first we had a good time on the way to it, breathed in the fresh air, and enjoyed a spectacular scenery. However, when we reached our destination, all of us had no choice but to be disappointed. It was crowded with a great many cars from all over the country. We could even notice two cars from Je-ju Island. I was actually able to feel the enormous effect of mass media. Cars outnumbered maehwa blossoms. It is my joke. Anyway we could scarcely escape from it. It was fortunate to return to my home without any accident. What is trip? It means the sufferings or something in our life.^^

Ah, the titles of the teaching materials I gave my students about two weeks ago were 'Hi!', which you had sent me on Feb. 16, and 'Thank you for your mail', which I had sent you on Feb. 17. As I had told you before, I want you to give the same lesson to your lovely students as I gave. It was very exciting, and my students appeared very satisfied with the special class.  I know my English ability, and I am trying to be the best teacher very soon. But now my English is not perfect, so I will only try my best to become your faithful friend. In the next mail, I'll send you my corrected mail and your mail including a couple of grammatical errors(in my opinion) I found in your mail, even though my cheeks turn red now. I'd like you to forgive my impudence and my rudeness. From now on, I'll scratch your back and you must scratch my back without fail every time I send you a mail. You have a good command of English, I bet. I trust you.  I'd like you to get in good shape very soon. I'll meet you next mail.                                                  Your loyal friend, ENARO in JIn-ju.

Thursday ,  March, 29, 2001,    The sky is blue, but it's so cold .

Now there are three teachers in the teachers' room, and an accounting worker is copying a teacher's materials by xerox.

She is a mother of a child, and I was told that her husband has worked for local government. I don't know how much she gets paid as a salary. I only guess it is less than she desire. Regardless of her wage, she work very hard. I can't help her, but I hope she live a happy life in her heart. It may be a real happiness in human world. On the radio, a woman with beautiful voice is announcing several news. At last it is over. Commercials are coming out through it.

I didn't have special events today, so I can't continue to write today's diary. I'd like to take a rest for a while.

Friday ,         March , 30 , 2001 ,             snowy and very cold .

Last night I drank a liquor like fish with my junior and spent much money on it. After all I couldn't get up early.

My wife telephoned my office to inform my senior of my bad condition, and she went to her office with tears in her heart. My mother came to my home to take good care of my son. She was very sad to see my miserable appearance. I had a class at 12:00, so I had to come to my office on foot. It was snowing! Though season was spring, all the world was covered with white snow. I felt a great shame against the pure white. I was hopeless. I could barely finish my lecture, but I was never satisfied with it. On the other hand, I would like to kill myself. I was very sad. When I called my home, my mother told me my son hurt his chin. I was very sad, too. I feel very miserable now. I have to get rid of my bad habit. Unless I remove this bad habit from myself, I can't help committing suicide. There are a lot of things for me to do in this world. I must live for a long time and complete my duty. Now I feel very sorry to all my family. I want them to forgive my misbehavior only this time. From now on I will never make such a mistake.

Saturday ,        March , 31 , 2001 ,       windy and a little cold .

My work in the office was over at 2:30 p.m. When I returned to my home, my mother was looking after my son. Since he was only 14 months old, but he could move very fast here and there, she seemed to be very tired. It was really an arduous thing. By the way, I felt very tired, so I took a nap. After about 30 minutes later, my first younger brother came to my home along with his two daughters. He said to us, " I'll treat you as a delicious raw fish this evening". We was bound to Samcheonpo port to buy fresh raw fish by his car. On the way back, we watched many beautiful flowers bloom along the seaside road. It was a very beautiful scenery. At 7:00 we reached my home, and soon we enjoyed very

wonderful dinner. My brother spent quite a much money on buying raw fish and drinks. But he appeared so satisfied.

I feel so thankful to him. However so hard our life may be, we will live helping each other. It is our aim in life.

Sunday ,         April , 1 , 2001 ,                 breezy, but sunny .

Today was Sunday and April Fool's day. I went on an excursion with my co-workers. The weather was so good. The sky was blue and a cool breeze blew very pleasantly. At 10:03 a.m. I arrived at the academy. My companions had already been there, and waited for me to come. We got on the bus and left for Jiri Mt. In about an hour, we got there. It was a little cold, but we didn't feel cold because its scenery was so beautiful. We played soccer for about an hour on the playground of an elementary school which had been closed a few years ago. It was very exciting. All of us enjoyed it very enthusiastically as if we became children. Since we exercised very hard, we felt very hungry. we went to a fancy restaurant which sold chicken meat and goat meat. We ate lunch very deliciously over a lot of drink. When liquor began to control our mind and body, we went to the playground to play soccer again. The game was all the more interesting on account of liquor. At 5:00 p.m. we left it and headed for Deok-san to go to night club. We had a very good time there singing and dancing. All looked like children. At about 8:00 p.m. we arrived in Jinju and went to another night club. We also all had a wonderful time dancing there. At about 10:00 p.m. we went to the restaurant to have late dinner. We ate it over talking one other. At about 11:30 p.m. we parted. My junior became a sot, so I took him to his house by cab. And then I went to my house by taxi. It was at midnight. I had a very fantastic time today, though my face burned a little.

Monday ,         April , 2 , 2001 ,         a little cold but sunny .

As I had played soccer for a long time yesterday, my leg was a little sick. In addition, my spirit was not clean, either.

But I had to give a lecture from the first class. Fortunately, unlike my worry, I could perform it very well. Obviously I

must be the best teacher.^^ I believe myself. In the afternoon I felt sleepy, and I fell asleep for about 40 minutes on the sofa. Taking a nap is very sweet and refreshing. After I had taken a nap, I did my work with computer. If the job is over, I have a plan to make my own English book. I intend to make a killing in the future by giving lectures to my a great many students with the book. To do so, I know that I must continually and constantly strive. If I try my best to improve my ability, I will have a confidence to be the best teacher in my field. I will become a good man.

Tuesday ,       April , 3 , 2001 ,                      sunny , but cold

Now I'm so shocked that I am embarrassed and depressed. I am very disappointed about my ability. I am suffering from a terrible headache. Why? I made a great mistake in teaching my lovely students. I was full of confidence when I was giving a lecture to them. After that, a student came to the teachers' room to ask me a question. While I was listening to her explanation, I could realize I had made a blunder. I had had a wrong grammatical knowledge. I was so ashamed.

I thought and thought how to correct my mistake, but I was not able to find a good way except for apologizing to my pupils for my fault and telling the truth. If they have a delicious dinner, I will go to the classroom and give them very exact knowledge. I hope that they will understand me and forgive my error. I have butterflies in my stomach. Today was a very sad and annoying day to me. I want to weep, but I know I must restore confidence about myself very soon.

Wednesday ,      April , 4 , 2001 ,

warm outside the door, but a little cold inside the door .

I taught my students a corrected lecture this morning. Yesterday I was much worried about my mistake, but after I had told the truth, I felt very comfortable. They appeared to understand me. Now I feel so grateful to their generosity.

There is one more thing to please me today. My coworker made a promise to be my English e-mail friend from now on.

And today, to my pleasure, she sent me a kind mail. It was reply to my mail I had sent her yesterday. My mail.......

How are you today?

The blue sky is presenting us a gift of hope and the fresh air is caressing our mind and body very smoothly.

I hope you will have a lucky god in your life.

In fact, I have an English e-mail friend who lives in the city called Bun-dang, Kyeong-gi Province. I have been friends with her since last October. I think her English is very good. I don't know what she looks like, but I know by her mail

she is a teacher in a private academy. That is to say, she has the same job as I have. Though I made a promise to be a everlasting e-mail friend  with me, she seems to have been so busy these days. In addition, she usually sends me a mail

once every other week. I want to send and receive mails more often than now. It's very fun, isn't it?

Therefore, I'd like you to be another English e-mail friend of mine. How do you feel about my proposal?

In the extent of my knowledge, I can correct your mail, if you don't mind. Of course, my English is not perfect, and even terrible, but I'll try my best to enhance the ability to express Yangkee's language very fluently. It's my job.

Someday I want to be the best ONE in my field. It will make me a good father as well as a real professional, I bet.

Make hay while the sun shines. It's natural that I scratch your back and you scratch my back. It's very......interesting.

I'll start to perform the work with your next mail.     See you.                                                       ENARO on the 8th floor

Thursday ,      April , 5 , 2001 ,                     warm, but windy.

A great many people in this country planted young trees on the fields and mountains today. Today was Arbor day. But I didn't plant my tree. At first, I got up late, since I drank a lot last night. Fatigue and hangover harassed my spirit and my body. Not until in the late afternoon could I go to the office with my cute son to bring my car. After that, I went to my mother's house, because we were supposed to visit my father's land. My mother was waiting for me. On the way there, we could enjoy very beautiful scenery, especially white cherry blossoms, here and there. My lovely father seemed to welcome us. Green buds were coming out on my father's tomb. He was changing his yellow clothes into new green ones.

Probably, in two weeks, he will finish doing it. I drove to Seon-jin in Sacheon city. It is famous for cherry blossoms in this season. In addition, small festival is held there. We had a good time there and met my previous coworker and her husband who live in Pusan now. When we arrived at my mother's home, it was at 7:00 p.m. I went to beauty shop downstairs to have my hair cut. After I had finished it, I met my previous pupils and enjoyed delicious dinner with them.

Today was very busy day to me. She didn't send me a mail, even though I had looked forward to receiving it. I don't know my real mind. Somehow I miss her. It is very wrong, I know. But I can't control my mind. I really feel spring.

Friday ,        April , 6 , 2001 ,                           warm .

Today there were two bad things to me. One was going to be prescribed by a herbal doctor, because I was very ill. He diagnosed my disease stomach tumor, so I had to buy the medicine for ￦120,000. It was quite a much money. And the other was about my son. After I had bought my medicine at the herbal clinic and returned to my office, I was working sitting in front of computer. Just then my mobile phone rang on and on. When I picked it up, I could hear my mother's sad voice. She said to me,"Your little son locked in your room, and you must be in a hurry to be home". I jumped to my feet, and I hasten to drive home hoping my son would be safe. As soon as my son heard me reaching, he wept and wept.

I was very sad. My mother was weeping and my nephew seemed to be so scared. It took half an hour for me to open the locked door. He was standing weeping on and on behind the door. I hugged him with all my heart and strength. I would like to weep, but I couldn't do so. I had to think my mother's and my nephew's heart. They must have been very surprised. I cordially love all of them as much as my son. Now I only hope they won't be shocked any longer and my little son will be healthy continually. On finishing my today's work, I will go to my home. I miss him very much.

Today I sent an e-mail to my co-worker working on the 9th floor. This is the very writing.

Thanks to you, I enjoyed a very delicious meal.^^ Every day I bring two food boxes, one for lunch and the other for supper. Whenever I eat it, I recollect my school days and smile in my heart. Sending and receiving mails will really entertain you, I hope. I'll be still happier if you can improve your life through the process.^^^ My ability has got better due to your help. I appreciate it. Let's try on and on. It's very fun. When I read you had had a very good Arbor Day, I was so pleased. By the way, instead of planting trees, you must have planted friendship. I think it's more wonderful thing.  The rumor has it that teachers working on the 9th floor make dinner for themselves and eat it very deliciously.

Is that true? If it is true, your co-workers who are hungry on the 8th floor aren't on your side, are you? Betrayers will be punished by the rule of our organization. Don't wait for starving members on the 8th floor to lose their temper. We would like to be invited to your dinner party. It's not a joke but a real situation. Scratch our back and we will scratch your back. We'll look forward to your rapid action. Take care and have a nice weekend.  sucking-fingers ENARO

Saturday ,      April , 7 , 2001 ,                           warm .

My wife took a day off, so she could take my smart boy to the hospital to be injected. When I finished doing today's work and telephoned, she was in my mother's house with my son. My first younger brother was also eating lunch with his two daughters there. After I had hasten to drive to my mother's house, I had lunch very deliciously. A variety of vegetables occupied the table for lunch, and they were very fresh. After having lunch, I felt so tired that I took a nap.

After about one and a half hours, I had gone to my home, and I sent an electronic mail to Miss Jeong Eun-jin.

At 9:20 p.m. I met two juniors at the Korean-style cafe. One of them was Park Seong-yeol, who had been liked in the university days by me. I was very glad to meet him. I had talked with them over drinking for about 2 hours. I could see years of 10 years by wrinkles on his face. He didn't get married, but he was turned into a very nice guy.

The weather is very nice, but I was stuck up in the office. Of course, I had to give my pupils lectures from 9:00 to 10:50. Giving lectures is the best way to reduce hangover. It's just kidding.^^ In about two weeks, my body will be very strong, because I will have taken a very expensive herbal medicine from this evening. In fact, I have had a sore stomach

for two years. Now it is dead. It will not be long before I defeat the weak enemy. If he gives in to me, I want to invite you to a wonderful talk time. Probably liquor will be necessary, won't it? I'll promise to treat you. I'm very grateful to you for the invitation of yesterday. It was a very enjoyable time to me. I would like to deliver words of thanks one more time.  Up to now, I have never been on the plane. In addition, I don't like to ride a plane, even if I want to do it only one time. In other words, don't overestimate me. Just think I'm boastful. My mind is full of shame. Drinking is good and helpful. However, I will try my best to accomplish my goal until I kick the bucket. Everyone needs to do so, I think. Now I am in my comfortable house after I took a sweet nap for about one and a half hours.

Youth is very beautiful. Enjoy your adolescence. If one can't have a good time in his or her juvenescence, only failure will visit him or her. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. Do you know that proverb? Have a nice weekend.

My academy will need me tomorrow. I'm on duty. I feel so satisfied with it. Am I crazy? Yes, I am.^^

I'm sure you will be able to be a good translator. Nothing can prevent one who can be responsible for his or her life and go forward through all his or her heart. I feel hungry. Can you hear the sound inside my stomach? The thing is....um,

I will see you next Monday. Take care.                                                                              from ENARO in the cozy room

Sunday ,     April , 8 , 2001 ,       a little bit cloudy and warm.

Today was Sunday, and weather was so nice. However, I went to my office instead of going to the outskirts. My mother went on a picnic and my two younger brothers did the same as my mother with their family. My wife was working in the house with her son. I felt so sorry to her and my son. Next weekend I plan to leave this city to enjoy beautiful scenery. From 9:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. I had to work in the office. It was a very boring thing. Without a special work, I kept someone from going into the building, and whenever someone ask for help or consult, I had to listen to his or her saying and give a piece of advice. In a word, I had to play a guardian and a consultant. Now it is at 4:42. In about 20 minutes, I will finish the work in the office. I hope all my family had a good day. This was a very terrible writhing.

Monday ,       April , 9 , 2001 ,       a strong wind, dry and warm

I have suffered from empyema since a 3rd grade student in middle school. When the weather, especially, is dry, the disease gets worse and worse. Today was a very dry day, so I had a difficult time giving a lecture in the first class. Moreover, today was Monday. On Mondays people ordinarily feel a little bit tired and feel spirit get a little bit faint. Some people call it Monday Symptom. I have caught it. In giving a lecture, I couldn't be in a right spirit. And, even after that, I'd like only to fall asleep, even though I had slept at least 7 hours. It was a strange thing. If I try to come over it and eradicate the terrible symptom, I'm sure that it will be conquered by me. From tomorrow on, I will try my best lest the unsatisfactory thing should take place again.  The following is the writing I sent my student, Jin-seok Jang.

Thank you for your mail. Half begun is half done. I guess you sent an email in English for the first time. Nonetheless, your writing was good except several errors. And, more than anything else, I'd like to compliment you on your courage to do anything. I'm sure it won't be long before you have a good command of English. You can do it. You can do everything. I cordially hope you will necessarily accomplish your goal of this year and that you will be a competent man to do your favorite work in the future. Stay in good shape and go forward without stopping. I'm very grateful to you for your kind email one more time.

affectionately yours           Mr. ENARO in my cozy room

Tuesday, April, 10, 2001 ,  terribly yellow-sand windy and dry.

To be strong is beautiful, and almost everyone tries to become strong. So do I. The world we live in gets worse and worse as time passes. I believe only strength can defeat evil that spreads all over the world. My lovely son! Your father is trying his best to become strong. You must trust me as I love you very much. Now you are playing with your kind grandmother. My boy! You are 14 months old, but I'd like to hear you call me "Dad", not mom, soon. In addition, I hope you can bow to your grandfather's tomb and greet everyone you meet very soon. Of course I know I ask you to get ahead of other infants of your age much earlier, but you must be strong. Otherwise, you will have to give in to this horrible world. Your father wants you not to do so. You can do it. I'm sure you, my wise son, can do whatever you want. I will support you as long as I can do. You can do your favorite work, not my favorite job. However, you must bear in mind you will have to live rightfully in this hypocritical world without regard to your profession. You must never be a hypocrite. If you were to be the kind of man, I would be sad even inside the coffin. World is to sea what life is to sailing. I will help you make your strong and titanic ship, but I can't sail with you for a very long time. Someday, though I will not be in the same world as you, I will watch you go forward through tremendous waves in the heaven as your grandfather has been watching my behavior. My lovely son! To be strong is beautiful. Once you become strong, you must spread your strength and beauty. It will have to be your ultimate duty and mission in your life. You can do it, I bet. You are my son, and I am your father. I trust and love you.                                                                  from your father

Wednesday ,      April , 11 , 2001 ,               cloudy and rainy .

Today I took a training for civil defence from 9:00 to 12:50 p.m. A great many people attended it. The first class was about "Let's watch out neighboring country, Japan." When it was over, I could realize its tremendous power and bad ambition. Of course, I have always thought of its vicious dream and told my students that we should prepare for getting over the crisis of this country in the future. I abominate them, the Japanese. If they appear before me, I would like to kill them. To do so, I know our nation should be strong. I will try my best to do my part in my homeland. They insist Dok-do, the small island off the west sea of this country, should belong to their country. However, it is a obvious bullshit. The island has been domain of Korea, my loving homeland, for a long time. If the fucking country makes a war on the ground of it, what has this country become of? Even imagining it is a very terrible event. A few days ago, they passed new history textbooks through agreement of their Diet. Most of Asian countries have been protesting against the fact. The fucking country, Japan, small nation, has distorted many historic facts in its new history textbooks. They had done a great many terrible and evil misbehaviors, but they are struggling for repeating them. We must be strong very soon so that they can't think of their bad ambition even in their dream. Fucking Japanese!

We will necessarily punish them.

Thursday ,         April , 12 , 2001 ,                              cold .

I got up at 7:30 this morning. Without eating breakfast, I had to come to my office. Hangover was distressing my mind and my body. Giving a lecture is the best way to lessen the power of liquor, but I couldn't hide my conscience. Scarcely had I finished my first class, I wrote my students the letter which was made up of expressions of confessing my conscience. I made 24 copies and delivered them to my students. I hope they will understand me. Now my spirit is in the right position, I feel. The following is the apology letter I sent my students.

To my good students.

I wished I had not drunk like fish last night. I feel that I have not played a role as the captain of our ship nowadays I really apologize to all of you for that. Great shame fills up my mind. I'll try my best to become your sincere captain from now on. Trust me, please. I cordially hope you all will necessarily accomplish your aim of this year. We are in the same boat. Let's row toward our destination with all our strength. I want all of you to accept my conscience.

from your homeroom teacher, Mr. ENARO

Friday ,      April , 13 , 2001 ,                          a little warm .

Eureka! I have found it. Yesterday a very interesting thing happened to me. It was an English chatting in the cyberspace.

For about 2 hours, I had a chatting time with unfamiliar persons. A few of them had good English skills, Yet I thought my ability was better than their abilities. It was a very interesting and necessary space to me. I made up my mind to have a English chatting time for 2 hours every day. Sooner or later my English abilities will be improved and expanded, I bet. It seems that keeping a diary in English everyday and sending mails to my English mail friends have helped me to enhance my English skills very much. Until my last day in this world, I will keep on keeping a diary and sending mails in English. I'm so thrilled to meet the virtual space. I have a confidence to be the best one in my field. I trust myself.

Saturday ,      April , 14 , 2001 ,                                warm .

Today I had two classes from 9:00 to 10:50. They were listening lectures. After I had given them to my students, I entered my boos's room. His name was Kim Sang-soo. He had a TV in his room. I needed to watch it, because it would broadcast a wonderful baseball game. It was my favorite baseball player's game. He was the very Park Chan-ho, a pitcher in LA Dogers. He had already won two times this year. If he wins today's game, he will continually have three wins.

He pitched very well until 7 innings, but his teammate, Jeff Shaw, a famous relief pitcher, made a mistake. After all, he couldn't get a valuable win. I was very angry. I hope he will get a reasonable return to his efforts next time. Chan-ho!

Way to go! He is giving hope and dream to the Koreans having a very tough time getting over serious economic crisis.

At last she, my English mail friend who live in Bun-dang, sent a mail. It took me 2 weeks to receive her mail. Nonetheless it was written in Korean. It said, " I had a very bad and difficult experience about 2 weeks ago and now I have been suffering from it. Therefore, I will not send you emails for the time being. I'm sorry, but you would like to understand me. If I solve this problem, I will send you mail without delay.  your bad English mail friend, debby."

Immediately I sent her reply mail, but I didn't know whether or not I could receive her kind mail again. I only hope her problem will be solved very soon and she will become my permanent English mail friend again. Way to go! Debby!

After I had finished my today's duty, I went to enjoy lunch to a special restaurant which specialized in duck meat. I had a late lunch with my senior, teachers' manager. He was a manly person. I wanna be a perpetual colleague with him.

Sunday ,       April , 15 , 2001 ,          breezy and quite a warm .

Instead of keeping today's diary, I will jot down the mail contents which I sent my colleague in my home tonight.

Now I'm home with my wife and my strong son. When I woke up this morning, sunshine was very nice and wind tempted my family to go to the countryside. Human being is the part of NATURE. I drove my family, including my mother and nephew, to the spa which was well-known for natural hot water where a lot of sulfur(sulphur) was contained. It is in Ha-dong. After we had relaxed our stress taking a bath, we headed for the park in Sa-cheon city called Mountain Castle Park. My family had been there before, but it welcomed us as if we had visited it for the first time. It was still quiet and beautiful, and it showed off a great many attractions. Of course, we were fascinated with its hospitality. At about 2 p.m., we had to go down from the clean dreamland even though we would like to stay there much longer. We were so hungry. "The belly has no ears." I wanted to have a cold noodle and the others agreed to my proposal. All of us enjoyed the food. It was a very merry lunch time. Today all my family had a very enjoyable and refreshing Sunday. How about you? I want you to tell me your happy weekend. Take care. See you.

ENARO on my comfortable room

Monday ,       April , 16 , 2001 ,                                 warm .

Fortunately Monday Syndrome didn't distress me today, and I could give a good teaching to my students. It was a very pleasant moment. After the first class, I checked their homeworks I had given them last Saturday. Most of them did their work, but a few made several mistakes. I corrected them. Though I force them to do their homeworks, someday they will understand my mind and efforts. Now it is at 6:32 p.m. All of a sudden I want to sleep. Fatigue begins to attack me.

Yesterday I received English mail from my respectable student, Jeong Yoon-keun. This is my reply mail.

To begin with, I appreciate your long mail and your ardent effort. You must have enjoyed a nice weekend, for you are so enthusiastic and considerate. Nice weekend means....^^ Apparently, you are quiet and introversive, but actually you are very passionate and extroversive(outgoing), I think. These days sociable persons tend to succeed in their schools better than shy ones. Do you agree to my thought? Be active whatever you do, and you will be able to fulfill your dream more easily. At last, I earnestly hope you will be able to try your best to do your work and you will become a good man in the future. I would like to be grateful to you for your kind mail one more time.

affectionately yours     your homeroom teacher, Mr. ENARO

Tuesday ,       April , 17 , 2001 ,                                warm .

Now I listening to a sad song from the radio. My favorite singer, the late Kim Koang-seok, sang the song titled "The letter of a private" when he lived in the same world as I did. Its tune is so sorrowful that, as I listen to the song, I feel like weeping. Though he is dead and his body is not in this world, he will live inside our heart forever like his song.

I dare to say to anyone I meet, " He is the best musician and the realest professional. Now I am appreciating his great music, so I'm very happy. My lovely boy! Your father likes to listening to music and sing a song. Someday you will be able to listen to this music. Then, you will figure out your father's character.  This is the mail I sent her yesterday.

You had a good command of English. Obviously I have an eye for telling the person who is accustomed to expressing English very fluently. Now it's at 10:30. In about 15 minutes, I will go to my dreamland. You are heading for your dreamland, I think. Today I made new chic English mail friend in English chatting room. He lives in Cheongju and he is a university student. He is majoring in Industrial Engineering. Today was a very pleasant day to me. Soon I'll be able to receive English mail. It's very fun. In addition, English chatting is pleasing me very much. These days I have a feeling to fly over sky on the magic carpet. Three days ago, when I found English chatting room, I came near(went near, narrowly escape, nearly escape) crying, "EUREKA". It's the part of my everyday life. Have a wonderful night. See you.   ENARO

Wednesday ,         April , 18 , 2001 ,                             warm .

I didn't come to my office in time, because I became a heavy drunker last night. Yesterday evening, when I went to my classroom and called the roll, three students were absent from their self-study time. I thought they had enjoyed a very delicious dinner, but my thought turned out to be wrong. One of them telephoned me and asked me to come and listen to their opinions. I borrowed ￦30,000 from my companion and went there in my car. I could know by their attitude they had drunk lots of liquors over talking about problems of their academy, but I had to listen to the complaints to academy.

They blamed many instructors, my colleagues, for their insincerity and incompetence. These days, as I have taken a herbal medicine healing stomach illness for about a week, I shouldn't have drunk a liquor. However, I had no choice but to do it, since their sayings incited my pride of a teacher. I was very upset, so I became a heavy drunker. Though my work is not school but private academy, students should respect their teachers and obey their teachings. Real teachers should be like TEACHERS and real students STUDENTS. Yesterday was a regretful day to me. Today a student, chae Keum-soo, quit academy. He had a very strong determination, but he was impolite and impudent. Nevertheless I hope he will return to his institute and be in the same boat that I am. Today we, teachers, received questionnaires about complaints to academy.  Most of students said they had been satisfied with my teaching. I made up my mind to keep giving a good lecture. This is the mail I sent my companion, Jeong Eunjin, today. Sooner or later you will be like this picture. Every bride is very beautiful like spring flowers. I am sure you will be the most beautiful of all the brides in this world except my wife. In advance I'd like to congratulate your wedding. Have a nice day.                       ENARO in my office

Thursday ,       April , 19 , 2001 ,                              cold .

Today I copy down the mail I sent my companion instead of keeping a diary. I watched a very disappointing baseball game on TV. It had given me a pleasure of living every five days. At first, I was so excited with it that I was in the mood of dancing to a cheerful music and shouting toward sky. Yet, after about two hours, all the things around me were abominated. It was a very annoying moment. LA Dodgers played against Sanfransisco Giants from 11:05 a.m. Today Dodgers' pitcher was my idol, Chan-ho Park, who was a very good player. He will make all but 10,000,000 bucks(only annual salary) this year. He must have been the best superstar, but he let me down today. I was so upset. It is too hot.

Life is full of ups and downs. I hope, therefore, he will realize a blunder of today, and keep striving for improvement of his competence. "Don't be disappointed, Chan-ho Park. Way to go! You are hope of people of this country. We will watch, cheer, and support you even in the distance." The customs you said in your mail sound unfamiliar to me. Why are 6 months? I really have no idea about it. If you get the information of it, tell me the origin of the strange customs. My tune is a little bit impolite, isn't it. Don't misunderstand me. I'm your kind mail friend and companion. Have a fantastic day!                      from ENARO in my office.

P.S.:I haven't received any mail from shobi007, email address        of my new mail friend, yet.

He will not be able to miss a good chance, I'm sure.

Friday ,          April , 20 , 2001 ,                          so cloudy .

Today I heard a very sad news from my university friend called Ki-sig Min. When I was a senior in Pusan National University, I fell in love with a beautiful and strong-willed woman. We loved each other very much, so I had a plan to  marry her. She visited my house in Jinju many times, though her house was in Pusan which was so far away from Jinju. In those days, my house looked very shabby, and really my family was having a very hard time in making a living day by day. Nonetheless, she loved my family as if they were her family. She seemed to be an angel to my family. All my family knew and liked her. While I worked for Je-il Insurance Company and I received a vacation for several days, I took a pleasant trip with her here and there. On the way, we called on my friend's grave and promised to marry in front of him. But an unfortunate thing happened to us. Her mother objected to my marring her. Her mother wanted me to remain as her step-brother, but I was not able to accept her thought. Because we had loved each other as man and woman. We were never characters in the romantic movie. But it was likely to be my pretext, because I was a very bad and evil guy and made friends with another woman. In the office worker days, I met my present wife and learned to like her. She had a very beautiful heart. Moreover, she was broad-minded and considerate. I couldn't help falling for her. Then, Kim Min-ju(Soon-ok) was studying to become a public servant in a private academy, and she was still in my heart.

A few times I went to Pusan to meet her, but she refused to see me. Of course, to do so might not be her real mind.

However, I pretended to be so angry and blamed her mother for disagreeing to our marriage on the phone. I made a decision to leave her inside my heart and to love my present wife. At 32, I married Park Seong-yeon, my lovely spouse.

Next year, my lonely son was born. Since my wife had a very good personality, she gave a birth to my son very easily.

Of course, she probably was in a terrible pain like cutting off her flesh, I know. Now my son is 14 months old, and my wife and my family have been striving for making our family happy. By the way, a very sad thing occurred to me today.

My friend told me that SHE, my previous lover, had become a nun in temple. That she went out of this world and became a secular was to blame for me, he said. How will I live in this world? She loved me very much. Someday I will necessarily find her. I am not sure when I will meet her, but I will meet her and apologize to her for my fault.

Saturday ,       April , 21 , 2001 ,                              warm .       Last night I became a heavy drinker again. The news she became a nun in an unfamiliar temple was very shocking and astonishing. I knew that liquor couldn't solve the problem and drinking would worsen the situation, but I had no choice but to do it. Not until 11:30 a.m., I returned to my home. However, I was not in the right spirit until then. When I woke up, it was at 4 p.m. and my wife and my son were not home. I could not know where they went. I was so ashamed to go my office, but I headed for it and admitted that I had made a mistake and apologized to my managing teacher, companions and, especially my students for my blunder and fault. I hope that all of them will understand me.

Sunday ,         April , 22 , 2001 ,           windy, cool and sunny .

These days I am so sad that I can't put myself in the right place. On Friday, I telephoned my university fellow who was in the charge of studying room when I was a university student. By the way, he informed me of a very astonishing and sorrowful news on the phone. When I was a senior, I loved a beautiful and strong-willed lady who was 2 junior to me and who majored in history. She was such a beautiful angel that I couldn't help falling for her. We loved each other very much, but an unfortunate destiny made us split up and not meet any more. Then, I had no money to satisfy her family and what's worse, I had no confidence to do anything. Her mother disagreed to our marriage. I quarreled with her mother on the phone. Though I had no money and confidence, I took my pride in my family and myself. And, more than anything else, I loved her like my destiny. Her mother told me that I had better become her kind step-brother, not her husband, but I was not able to become a hero in the tragic movie. It was a real situation. After all we couldn't but part with pain-stricken lovers. Instead of marriage, I chose my family and my pride. After about 3 years, I called her and asked her of her marriage. She said in a sad voice that she would marry someone sooner or later. I had made my present wife an intimate girl friend.. After I had heard about her marriage news, I made up my mind to marry my present wife who was a very broad-minded, beautiful and considerate woman. Now I love her and my son. By the way, the sad thing happened to me the day before yesterday. My friend told me that my previous lover had left this difficult world and become a nun in an unfamiliar temple. In addition, he said that I was to blame for that sad thing. I was so confused that I couldn't know what I should do and how I should deal with it. Yes, to her and her family, I became an unforgivable and forever sinner. Of course, I know she understand me and pray for my happiness. Once I think of her beautiful heart, I am so sad. How should I do now? I have thought of what to do, and decided to be a follower of the same religion that she devoted herself to. When I have a free time, I will visit temples, and pray for her happiness. If I try my best to pray for her happiness, the Great Buddha will give me a good fortune to meet her. I will walk up to her and say, "I'd like you to forgive me" smiling. Now I know her reply. Unless I live a happy life, she won't forgive me forever. I know her. She is the most beautiful girl I ever met. Once she wanted me to be strong, not obstinate and evil. Then, she loved reading books and liked "The little prince" the most of all the books. She had read it 30 times, and she introduced a great many books to me. I grew up through her efforts on me. I could establish my values and my viewpoint of our nation by reading "Taeback Mountains", written by Cho Jeong-rae, which she lent me. I could broaden my heart and my competence by many conversations with her. Now I read her heart.

She also wants me to be strong like herself. I can get over this sadness. I will never be a loser. I miss her.

She will probably have a delicious dinner. I'd like to believe so. She knows me and I know her. Now she is in my mind like my family. It's my destiny, I think. I will love my destiny. Every day I will be sad, but I will try to be happy.

It was my long story.

Today I went to my father's land with my son, my wife and my two nieces. I wanted to see him very much. He knew my previous lover, Kim Min-joo(Soon-ok). But he knew my present wife. He knew both of them were very beautiful women. I'm very sorry to my father for his worrying. Father! Don't worry. From now on, I will live in a right direction I will keep my family forever and make my family be a good one. But understand me. I will keep Kim Min-joo in my deep mind. Father! My loving Seong-yeon and Hee-seok are sleeping now. She Probably will have a sweet dream. Right?

Monday ,     April , 23 , 2001 ,                       shiny but cold .

I am blue and depressed. I know living in this way is wrong, but there are tears in my heart. I'm so sorry to my wife and my son. Someday he will read this writing, and he may find fault with me. He may call me a hypocrite, but I can't erase tear spot inside my heart. I only hope he will understand me and love his father's destiny. My wife may keep weeping, when she read this story. She probably thinks I took in her. Yes, I must deceive her now. She has been a very good woman to me. Yes, she has been a living angel who has been bringing up her son very excellently. I'm a sinner to them, but I don't so much as want to use words such as ' come over this hard time'. In this moment, I'm just so sad.

I can't hide my heart behind my emotion and escape from the truth. One day, I went to the Yong-du Mountain Park in Pusan with my two friends. Then, a female fortuneteller said to me, " You will be a solitary man forever. You should have become a monk or a priest, but you have already noticed a great many bad things in this world. So, you can't do the sacred mission. You had better do the job which can help as many people as possible. By doing the job, you will have to build up a lot of virtues. Obviously you will be lonely forever." Her prediction was right. Though there are many people around me, I feel so solitary. It is my destiny. Now I'd like to accept my destiny. Unless I love my doom, who can love my destiny? By loving my destiny, I can love myself and my family, and I can live a happy life. I'm happy.

Tuesday ,         April , 24 , 2001 ,                 windy and warm .

Human beings must be simple and sly creatures. I am forgetting facts about the beautiful woman in three days. The sad story is coming out of my mind. I am really a bad and vicious guy. On the other hand, it may be a fortunate thing.

At present there are my wife and my son beside me. They love me and I want to be with them, too. If she were in my shoes, what will she do? As far as I know, probably she hope I will live a happy life. Yes, I will live a happy life and will have to try my best like her hope. In addition, I will get her in my heart forever. If afterlife should exist, I would like to meet her and fall in love with her. Min-joo, I loved you. I want you to be happy and be a great BUDDHIST.

Wednesday ,       April , 25 , 2001 ,                            warm .

I was so tired that I kept yawning all day. Though I took a nap for about half an hour, it didn't lessen my sleepiness.

As living in this academy is a very hard work, fatigue increases rather than decreases with the passage of time. Of course I take a day off(Sunday) every week, but only a day-off don't erase waste materials built up in my mind and my body. Anyway I have to find out the reasonable way to recover my health. Most of all, I'll have to recover my mental power. Yesterday my e-mail friend sent a mail asking me a question about the difference between love period and marriage one. So, I wrote this letter to her.

Some people say, "Loving is one thing and marrying is another". Of course, many couples, especially newlyweds, are liable to have a tough time adjusting themselves to sweet but strange surroundings. Lovers meet almost every day, because they love each other very much and they want to see their mate. Afterwards, as you said, they wonder, after they met, why each should head for his or her own house without going to their home together. They wish both of them can get over and finish the uncomfortable situation. That is, they always want to be in only one house, their own place. Therefore, they come to a conclusion that they should marry soon. For some time, most of newlyweds experience mysterious and sweet days and have a thought of being able to understand each other forever. They become ONE both in mental side and in physical one. But they come to realize that everything can't be solved by love alone. To some couples, even love can go out from their minds, even though it is their most valuable property. If they lose it, they can't but divorce. Some couples reveals the distinct gap of character, as time passes. The difference of character is natural, since they grew up in the different circumstances. However, it is not a big problem. It can be solved by understanding and love towards each other. The problem is that they are reluctant to understand, even dislike each other and in the long run lose love and affection, the best bloods in marriage life. I have a good way to solve the problem. But I'd like to teach it to you later, as I didn't get paid a tuition fee yet. Read the contents of this writing very carefully, and make your present sweetheart your permanent MAN. Never lose your beloved. Once sweetheart, forever soulmate? What a beautiful day! Enjoy it. Love is beautiful.

Thursday ,        April , 26 , 2001 ,                 breezy and cold .  I hurried to arrive at my office this morning. It was an usual thing. Every morning except Sundays and holidays, I have to come to my office by 8 o'clock, because I need to call the roll in my classroom. Sincerity and trust are the key to success. I make it a rule not to reach late, no matter how hard it may be. By my doing so, my students will trust me and feel me their own teacher. It is my pride. Today I got to my office on time, switched on copying machine and computer, and went into my classroom. After I had finished calling the roll, I returned to teachers' room. By the way, I knew computer was out of order. It turned out to be infected by CHI virus. For the first time I experienced  computer virus. It was a very annoying thing. Soon it was repaired by a computer expert, it cost 50,000￦ to fix it. Today I got a very good experience by mistake. Mistake is a great teacher.

Friday ,      April , 27 , 2001 ,                             a little cold .   Last night liquor conquered me again, so I had to sleep very late. This morning, though I woke up as usual, I couldn't smell the coffee. Hangover controled my mind and my body, but I walked to my office. At 8:10 a.m., I got there, and slept on the sofa without calling the roll. Not until 12:30 could I get up, my class was delayed 3:40 p.m. I gave a bad lecture to my students. From next time, I will never make such a mistake of being a heavy drinker. My wife told me this morning that she had been pregnant.

On hearing her words, I criticized her and she cried with sadness. I was really a bad guy. She was an angel and I was a devil. I will necessarily apologize to her for my false saying. My beloved! I am really sorry and I would like to congratulate on your having Hee-seok's younger brother. I love you, my angel.  In a few days, my coworker, Kim Yoon-eon, will leave this work and move into another workplace, company developing computer program. I hope he will succeed in his new life-site. Today is my payday.

Saturday ,    April , 28 , 2001                        cloudy and rainy .

My youngest brother came to Jinju, his hometown, from Seoul.

He will return to his boarding house on Sunday. We went to our father's country, met him and had a very delicious dinner.

This is the mail I sent to my mail friend.

Do you wanna leave your work?

Are you really conceiving such a bad plan?

If so, I will be disappointed. You can do whatever you want, but you must never give up your present job. No matter how tough it may be, you have to try your best to get over it.

Otherwise, you are less likely to succeed in your future life-site.

Life is full of ups and downs. It is true of everyone, and I can't be an exception. About a week ago, I decided to accept my destiny.

Obviously, it is not a good fate, and yet I can love my destiny.

From now on I will enjoy my destiny until my body vanishes in this beautiful world. I have to live in this world with two lovers inside my heart. Can you understand me? I can understand myself. I'm never a hypocrite. The sky is covered with dark cloud now. Soon we will be able to notice sweet rain we have looked forward to. If it rains, throw away your weak mind in the falling rain. I hope it will rain cats and dogs so that it can wash away all the evil things in this world. My good e-mail friend! Way to go! Everything is in your mind.

your intimate friend, Mr. ENARO

Sunday ,       April , 29 , 2001 ,                               a sweet rain .

People in this country hadn‘t watched rain for a very long time. That is to say, we had suffered long from drought. However, at last it rained. If one heartedly hope it will be achieved, it will be done so. People in this country, especially farmers, must be grateful to the sweet rain. So do I. The beneficent rain has been raining from last evening to now, 4:32 p.m. Bless is falling down with  gold rain.

This morning my family, my mother, my nephew, my two nieces, my youngest brother, my son, my wife and I, went to the near spa(hot spring) to take a bath. Because my brother had to leave for Seoul to research and experiment in the laboratory at 11:40 a.m., we hurried to bathe. After that, we returned to my mother's house. It was at 11:12 a.m. My brother could take a express bus to Seoul in time. After I had seen off him at the terminal, I drove to my father-in-law's house

and arrived at his home at 12:15 p.m. Today was his birthday. He was my wife's father. To my strong son, he was grandfather-in-law. We congratulated him on his 62th birthday. We presented him a present. It was Sang-hwang mushroom that was well-known for preventing and healing stomach disease including stomach cancer. He seemed to be so satisfactory that we were very pleased. I hope that he will live a long life without suffering from any disease. Now this is his house.

Soon I'm going to have dinner and go to my home before nightfall.

Monday, April,30,2001, rainy in the morning,but clear in the afternoon

I wrote two mails in the place of today's diary.

One is my reply mail I sent to my student, Kim Gang-a, whose favorite pop song was "at the end of the road", and the other is my reply mail I sent to my English mail friend, my coworker.

First of all, I'd like to appreciate your effort and your compliment.

You made it even though it was more or less difficult and stressful writing a letter in English. I think it is important.

When I was a student, no teacher was around me that gave that kind of homework to me. Of course, all of them were very good at teaching their subjects, but I always had a bit of complaint about them. Not until I am in their place can I understand them.

Now I am in an unfamiliar internet cafe. Soon I am going to leave this cafe and go to my home. By any chance, do you know what "internet cafe" means.

Unless you can get a picture concerning it, ask me a question about it tomorrow morning.

Finally I heartedly hope you will necessarily fulfill your goal of this year. No matter how rough and rocky the road you are running on may be, try your best to run toward "the end of the road". You will be able to smile at "the end of the road", I bet.

affectionately yours         from your homeroom teacher, Mr. ENARO

Almost all the people in this country had been looking forward to sweet rain falling down on their ground and in their mind. If one heartedly wants it to be achieved, it will appear before him or her with perfection. To us, people on the street, unless even the simple truth exists in this unfair world, we won't have a meaning to live very hard. What do you think of my argument(whispering)? Yes, at last it is raining. It will bring us only lucky days. Trust me.

Today was my father-in-law's 62th birthday, so my family went to his house and congratulated him on his festival. He was so pleased to see us, especially my son, Jeong Hee-seok. We returned to my home just now and only I came to an internet cafe. My previous student runs this cafe. Once in a while I visit here to use the best computer. After I chat for about an hour, I will leave here. I am satisfied with my way of life. I love my destiny. Last night I made another English mail friend, Yangmi. I met her during English chatting, who married long ago and who was a English teacher in middle school. English chatting, it is very fun. You can try it.

Now it's time I went out this space. Have a sweet dream. Night is your own. Everything is yours if you can try your best to have it.

See you tomorrow.             from Mr. ENARO in the internet cafe, MAX

Tuesday ,      May , 1 , 2001 ,                                    fair .         I drank a lot last night, and didn't return to my home until 9:00 this morning. Vice-president in our institute left his work, since he had been treated as an useless man. However, I know he is a good and competent person. I heartedly hope that Mr. Oh Jung-kug will necessarily succeed in his new life-site. The power of money is great, but it can never beat me.

Today was Buddha's birthday. It meant today was a sacred and blessing day. All the temples in this country hold a congratulating ceremony. She would take part in the ceremony. I would like to pray for her happiness.  My family left for my step-brother's home with Mr. Sim's family at 12:25 and got there at 1:10 p.m. Friends of Mr. Park's wife happened to be there.

All of us had a very enjoyable time playing volleyball on the playground of Kim-Yang elementary school. After that, we went to a fancy restaurant selling raw fish and ate it very deliciously. Because three men, Mr. Park Mr. Sim, and I, drank with the delicious raw fish, we took a walk to regain our right mind. At 10:00 my family arrived at my home. Today was very busy, but my family had a very pleasant time thanks to Mr. Park's family.

Wednesday ,     May , 2 , 2001 ,                                      fair .

I wrote my reply mail instead of reporting my daily routine.

To Yangmi, my kind English mail friend

First of all, I would like to appreciate your good advice regarding desirable marriage life. In addition, you gave me an information on your age by your E-mail address. I feel so grateful to you for it.

As far as a good marriage life is concerned, I have an useful know-how. At first most of the couples love each other with enthusiasm, but they get weary of their spouse, as time passes. To me, obviously there is a good way to overcome the problem. It is to think of his or her spouse not as a woman or a man but as a human being having the same personality like him or her. Everyone can't see only one person as his or her woman or man. When a husband continues to regard his wife as only a woman, he can lose the interest and excitement of her so easily, and vice versa. If he can feel his wife a human being with similar characteristic to him, he is able to come over ennui with regard to her and enjoy a successful marriage life, and the reverse is the same, too. How do you feel about my opinion? Please tell me your thought.

Yesterday was the Great Buddha's birthday as well as Laborers' day.

I could take a day off thanks to HIS(Buddha's) mercy. Of course, as a laborer in this country, I was able to have the right to refresh my mind and body. My family visited my previous co-worker's house which was in the county called 'Ha-dong'. His wife is an elementary school teacher and has been working for Kim-Yang, not Jeong Yang^^, primary school for about 2 months. He was not only a good Korean instructor but also an amateur novelist. All of us had a very pleasant time doing ball-play on the playground and in the evening enjoyed so fresh raw fish at a fancy restaurant under 'Nam-hae Great Bridge'. Its flavor was killing our tongue. I can't so much as forget the feeling raw fish melted in my mouth yet. Is your mouth watering now?^^ At 9:05 p.m., my family said good-bye to the Parks and returned to my cozy home. It was at around 10:00. Buddha gave a worker an invaluable present. My family's holiday was very fantastic. How about your holiday? I wanna know about your good holiday. Soon your mail will entertain my heart and eyes, I bet.^^

Spring has already called on us, and, what's better, a sweet rain fell down in our heart and on the ground the day before yesterday. Now it is time we had a new dream in our mind and went forward to achieve the purpose. My favorite season is 'spring', and then 'fall'. Which season do you like best? I would like to know more about you.

Take care. Have nice days.

sincerely yours

Mr.ENARO in Jinju

Wednesday ,        May , 3 , 2001 ,                      fair but cool .          Two students, Kim Dong-uk and Kim so-jin, in my class moved their study place into another place, Je-il Academy. I was so upset and depressed. Sometimes I made mistakes, such as drinking a lot and being late for academy, but I tried my best to meet their desires. Kim was at the top of my class in the last two preliminary tests, and his grades got better and better as he took tests. However, all of a sudden, an unhappy thing happened to him.  He learned to love a girl student in my class, but the girl didn't like him. After all, he was so shocked at the fact that he decided to change academy. I was so disappointed with him, but I would like to understand his heart. I hope he will enter the university where he has wanted to go.

All afternoon a coworker has driven me so angry and stressful. He ruined my favorite pastime, and the best English studying method. Son of bitch! He has been making teaching materials for about 5 hours. The son of bitch is selfish. In my thought, his materials are very worthless. However, he will think he is on the point of performing a great affair. Hey, son of bitch, fucking guy, a stupid man! Don't waste your time. You had better fall asleep in your room. The foolish guy is hurting my mind yet. I want to beat him with my fist until he will regret today's blunder.

Friday ,         May , 4 , 2001 ,                        cloudy, but not rainy .

My mail from below was one sent to yangmi, my new English mail friend yesterday. She is an English teacher in a middle school and is 38.

I appreciate your kind mail and your compliment.

Without your mail, I would have been depressed all day.

My two lovely students changed their studying-site into the other place today.

I tried my best to help them to carry out their goals this year, but they had to move into other academy because of their personal affairs.

One of them was at the top of my class in two preliminary tests. He got 392 points in a recent test. He was such a smart student that I was very satisfied with helping him to study. However, he learned to love a girl student, though she didn't want to fall in love with him. He fell for her, but it was not his destiny. After all, they couldn't help leaving this institute. It's time I returned to English chatting room. It's at 8:30.

I will write this letter again tomorrow. See you.

The mail from below  is one sent to yangmi today.

He, my student, will be able to get over his trial and enter the university he has wanted to go, I believe. And so will the other student.

How's it going today? I'm fine like clear sky. We will take two days off, Children's Day and Sunday. Do you have a plan to enjoy the wonderful holidays which can be a good opportunity for you to change your routine daily lives. Please enjoy yourself, keep everything in your mind, and experience it in your real life. I wanna hear your good news like thick green leaves in May as soon as possible. From my mail, you will take a refreshment in your monotonous daily life, I earnestly hope.

I have kept a diary for about 7 months in English without skipping only a day and I will keep on until I am out of this world. All the mails I sent and all the reports I wrote down about my daily lives are saved in my notebook computer for jotting down my footprints(history). The title of my diary book is "FOOTPRINT(족적)". Though my son can't read it now, I will hand it down to him as my heritage. Then, we, my son and I, will be able to feel each other, after I disappear in his world. By any chance, do you also keep a diary? Please let me know. Stay in good shape and have a fantastic weekend! See you later.

faithfully yours               from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

This is my mail I sent to my new English mail friend, Jeon Hee-sook, who is a office worker and who is 36. She divorced her husband.

To Empty.

How's it going today? I'm fine like clear sky. We will take two days off, Children's Day and Sunday. Do you have a plan to enjoy the wonderful holidays which can be a good opportunity for you to change your past way of life. Please enjoy yourself, keep everything in your mind and experience it in your real life. I wanna hear your good news like thick green leaves of May as soon as possible. My friend! Way to go! Keep your chin up! By my mail, you will take a refreshment in your monotonous daily life, I earnestly hope. Take care. See you later.

As I said before, I'd like to let you read my letter which was sent to my strong son, at age 14 months old. I have kept a diary for about 7 months in English without skipping only a day and I will keep on until I am out of this world. An essay(letter) from below is saved in my notebook computer for jotting down my footprints(history). The title of my diary book is "FOOTPRINT(족적)". Though my son can't read it now, I will hand it down to him as my heritage. Then, we, my son and I, will be able to feel each other, after I disappear in his world. Please enjoy my writing and send me your feelings, please. Your mail will give me a great deal of pleasure, I bet.

To be strong is beautiful, and almost everyone tries to become strong. So do I. The world we live in gets worse and worse as time passes. I believe only strength can defeat evils that spread all over the world. My lovely son! You father is trying his best to become strong. You must trust me as I love you very much. Now you are playing with your good grandmother. My boy! You are 14 months old, but I'd like to hear ypu call me "Dad", not "Mom", soon. In addition, I hope you can bow to your grandfather's tomb and greet everyone you meet very soon. Of course, I know I ask you to get ahead of other infants of your age much earlier, but you must become strong as soon as possible. Otherwise, you will have to give in to this horrible world. Your father wants you not to do so. You can do it. I'm sure you, my wise son, can do whatever you want. I'll support you as long as I can do. You can do your favorite work, not my favorite job. However, you must bear in mind t! hat you will have to live rightfully and honestly in this hypocritical world without regard to your profession. You must never be a hypocrite. If you were to be the kind of man, I would be sad even inside the coffin. World is to sea what life is to sailing. I'll help you make your strong and titanic ship, but I can't sail with you forever. Someday, though I'll not be in the same world as you live, I will watch you go forward through tremendous waves in the heaven as your grandfather has been watching my behavior. My lovely son! To be strong is beautiful. Once you become strong, you must spread your strength and beauty. It will have to be your ultimate duty and mission in your life. You can do it, I bet. You are my son and I am your father. I trust and love you. from your father.

Finally, I hope you will get a good grade in this TOEFL test.

faithfully yours                   Mr. ENARO in Jinju

Saturday ,         May , 5 , 2001 ,

I drank a lot with my companions, Mr. Sim, Miss Jeong, and Miss Back, until dawn, drove Miss Jeong to her home and returned to my home. I was a drunken driver today. It was a very regretful thing. Today was CHILDREN's DAY. I could take a day off thanks to my son. All my family members went to the Culture and Art Center and Jinju Education University, and all of us enjoyed a very pleasant time. Children must be hope and future of this country. Their laughter is all-heals and the only strength to be able to terminate every evil.

Two writings from below are mails I sent to my two English mail friends today. Yangmi of the two friends sent me her kind mail.

[RE]You are a good consultant to me.

Hi, Beauty!

It was a great fortune to me to meet you in English chatting room.

Your advices are very useful to my working life.

I have no word save "Thanks, Thanks, and Thanks".

Your long experiences as a teacher have made you a competent consultant, I guess.

Now you are my teacher. Master! Please help me to be a good student.

Like you, I had a busy but pleasant children's day.

My son's smiling face entertained me and my family.

Children's laughter must be all-heals.

Frankly speaking, at first, I would keep a two-to-three-day

diary in only a day. Now and then I would delay an invaluable duty, but now Keeping a diary everyday has become my very important responsibility and mission. You, try it and you will necessarily find enormous satisfaction, I bet.

My text will be made (not published^^) at around the end of this year.

It will include a great deal of useful information and knowledge on learning English, even my own writings(diaries, e-mails and essays).

I always want to try my best in my life, for, only once, I can live in this world in the name of "Jung Bong-hyun".

Have a nice Sunday. Take care.

sincerely yours

Mr. ENARO at an internet cafe in Jinju

Title : Hi

All your family members had a wonderful Children's Day, didn't they?

Waiting for someone is very hard work. I am looking forward to your reply. I wanna be your good English mail friend. What do you say to meeting on the net very often? Have a nice Sunday!

sincerely yours

ENARO at an internet cafe in Jinju

Sunday,     May , 6 , 2001 ,                                    a little warm .

My family was supposed to go to the spa in Ha-dong to take a bath with my mother, but I couldn't get up at that time on the ground of fatigue. When I woke up, I knew my mother had taken a shuttle bus to go to the hot spring. We rushed to be bound for it. We had to arrived at the public bathroom, before. she had gone out of it. She was on the point of finishing taking a bath, when we reached there. It was a very fortunate thing. After all of us had finished taking a bath, we went to my father's country. His country was covered with warm and green spirit(energy). I thought he was satisfied with our visit. Parents' Day is 2 days away. Then, I will visit here, my father's land.

After we had gone down from HIS country, we dropped by Chung-ang market to purchase fruits and vegetables. It was crowded with many people. Everyone there seemed to be very active. Market is the heart of economy. Unless it is busy, economic condition will be in fix. I hope such a bad thing won't take place. After we had bought several things, we went to a restaurant and enjoyed a late lunch. We ate 'a iced noodle' very deliciously. Today was a very busy day. There is not a holiday in next week. Even Sunday is my on-duty day. Probably next week may be so boring days to me. However, I must change the tiring week into meaningful days, and I have a confidence to do it.   I will necessarily remove boredom from my daily life, I believe.

Monday ,      May , 7 , 2001 ,                                      rainy .       Today it's raining all day. Probably this rain is likely to fall down until tomorrow. It is a sweet rain. Nearly all the people in this country have been looking forward to this rain. The sound of rain striking my office windows is embedded in my heart. I'm in the mood of dancing. Today is a very pleasant day to me. My co-worker, Miss Jeong, sent me a kind card mail. It gave me a pleasant feeling.

Last week she had a very tough time, but I don't know the reason why she was depressed. I only hope she will come over her sufferings very soon and regain a smiling face. Miss. Jeong! Keep your chin up!

Tuesday ,      May , 8 , 2001 ,                                           warm .

My wife is really a good person. I can dare to tell she is a living angel. I will necessarily become a wonderful and sincere readwinner.

The mail from below is the one I sent to  Miss Jeong yesterday.

Dear Miss Jeong

The other day we nearly killed ourselves.

I'd like to apologize to you for my fault, a drunken driving.

You almost became a virgin ghost. I'm very, very, very sorry.

Please forgive my misdemeanor, not blame me.

Today it has been raining all day. I love this rain. It will obviously wash away all your worries which have been bothering you from last week to this moment. If it stops raining, you will have only lucky days like the bright SUN. Have an enjoyable time.

My family had a very pleasant weekend thanks to you.

You are such a good woman that you deserve to be happy.

Don't be depressed. Make a smile. Laughter is all-heals, as you know.

cordially yours                    from Mr. ENARO on the rainy day

A mail from below is the one I received from my mail friend, Yangmi.

Hi, Jung.

As you know, today is Parents'Day.

I can take a day off. Now I stay in my house alone. After I sent my two sons to their school, I sit in front of my computer to write e-mail to you. Today our school has a special program for students and their parents. Students should help their parents in a day, after that they should hand in their reports about their experiences during a day.

Yesterday evening my younger son who is first grade in elementary gave me a carnation. He said that he didn't have enough money to buy two blossoms of carnation, he could not but buying only one. He was very sorry to my husband. How cute he is! As your son grows older, he certainly will give your couple a lot of pleasure.

It is nonsense for me to be your teacher. The only thing that I want is to talk with you about our daily life and to exchange our informations and ideas in Eng. Please don't say like that. I think your ability of writing is better than mine.

I want to talk with you directly in chat room, but I don't know how to adjust our time. My time schedule is somewhat flexible in our school. And I think your situation is similar with me. If we have lucky, we will meet there by chance.

Take care of yourself.                      See you later.

A mail from below is my reply mail I sent to my English mail friend.

Dear Yangmi

Yesterday it rained here in Jinju all day. The drizzle washed away all the bad things in this world. Probably even my worries are floating in the steam over the clouds. It was really a sweet rain and gave us a real May.

Now you have enjoyed a meaningful sunshine(rest), haven't you?

Of course, your students have been striving to entertain their parents very faithfully without regard to their homework, I can picture in my mind. They know their duty and responsiility very well, for they are children in this country. Your cute children must be just like them. However, my strong son didn't give a nice flower to me and my wife. Instead of it, he kissed me on the lips when I went out of my house to come to my office. I was so pleased to be given the affectionate gift. In addition, he greeted to me, bowing and waving his warm hands. I am the happiest man in this world like the man in a song sung by 'Cho Dong-jin', one of my favorite singers. How do you feel about his songs, especially the song of "I am a happy person"?^^

I gave my mother a basket with three blossoms of carnation and an allowance this morning. My wife had prepared for them. I am also a happy guy.^^ In the afternoon I will go to my FATHER's COUNTRY, his home(tomb). Unfortunately he passed away at an earlier life. Then he was at 57. Whenever I think of him, my eyes turn red and want water. My family visit him every weekend. It has been all our family's mission for over 5 years. I love my father forever. I am a happy man.

When I have free time, I will call at English chatting room.

I want to meet you there very often. Have a nice and significant holiday. Take care. See you.

cordially yours                               from Mr. ENARO in my office

I will visit chatting room this evening.

I drank a liquor alone tonight.

Wednesday ,        May , 9 , 2001 ,                                      sunny .

This is an essay written by myself(Mr. ENARO)=of my own writing.

Some people say, " Loving is one thing and marrying is another". Of course, many couples, especially newlyweds, are liable to have a tough time adjusting themselves to sweet but strange surroundings. Lovers meet almost every day, because they love each other very much and they want to see their mate. Afterwards, as you said, they wonder, after they met, why each should head for his or her own house without going to their home together. They wish both of them can get over and finish the uncomfortable situation. That is, they always want to be in only one house, their own place. Therefore, they come to a conclusion that they should marry soon. For some time, most of newlyweds experience mysterious and sweet days and have a thought of being able to understand each other forever.They become ONE both in mental side and in physical one. But they come to realize that everything can't be solved by love alone. To some couples, even love can go out from their minds, even though it is their most valuable property. If they lose it, they can't but divorce. Some couples reveals the distinct gap of character, as time passes. The difference of character is natural, since they grew up in the different circumstances. However, it is not a big problem. It can be solved by understanding and love towards each other. The prolem is that they are reluctant to understand, even dislike each other and in the long run lose love and affection, the best bloods in marriage life. I have a good way to solve the problem. As far as a good marriage life is concerned, I have an useful know-how.

At first most of the couples love each other with enthusiasm, but they get weary of their spouse, as time passes. To me, obviously there is a good way to overcome the problem. It is to think of his or her spouse not as a woman or a man but as a human being having the same personality like him or her.

Everyone can't see only one person as his or her woman or man. When a husband continues to regard his wife as only a woman, he can lose the interest and excitement of her so easily, and vice versa. If he can feel his wife a human being with similar characteristic to him, he is able to come over ennui with regard to her and enjoy a successful marriage life, and the reverse is the same, too. How do you feel about my opinion? Read the contents of this writing very carefully, and make your present sweetheart your permanent MAN. Never lose your beloved. Once sweetheart, forever soulmate.? What a beautiful day! Enjoy it. Love is beautiful.

My previous pupil sent me a kind mail, so I replied to it by a mail.

선생님 저 동욱입니다..

영어로 쓰야 되겠지만....헤헤.. 시간이 많이 걸려서..

선생님 메일 주소는 윤근이 한테 물었어요...

윤근이한테 들었는데.. 두 명이나 더 왔다고 하던데요

솔직히 선생님 말씀대로 여기 와서 후회가 좀 되네요..

너무 삭막해요..

아는 애들이 우리반에 10명이 넘지만..

이야기도 별로 없고....

형들과 선생님이 그립네요...

하지만.. 이런 삭막한 분위기를 긍정적으로 생각해야죠...

1년 동안 죽었다고,......

저 학원 6시 반에 가요..

6시에 일어나거든요...

학원에 6시반 되면,. 반 정도 교실이 차서.. 빨리 가야 돼요...또 한국학원 애들과 안 마주치기 위해서라도.. 버스편이 35번이 제일 편하거든요

그래서 집에 갈 땐 아예 9시반에 갑니다..

선생님께서 저번에 6시에 일어나라고 하셨죠.. 그렇게 됐네요...헤헤

선생님, 여기 영어 샘들 너무 싫습니다..

제일 안 좋은 과목이 영어랍니다....수업 시간의 반을 헛소리 늘어놓고...

휴,, 선생님의 명강의가 그립습니다 이건 절대 아부가 아닙니다..

선생님 학원을 떠나왔어도 선생님에게 감사하는 마음 변치 않을 겁니다..

앞으로 자주 메일 보내겠습니다..

그럼.. 이만 줄이겠습니다

Title: You will necessarily pass the test.

To dandy!

I appreciate your faithful mail.

I'm so glad for you to have applied to an unfamiliar surroundings with great cordiality. Yes! You can do it. You can achieve whatever you want. You must bear in mind that you must be punctual and try your best anytime and anywhere and that I'm your captain and you are my sailor(man). For we are in the same boat. Take care. See you later.

affectionately yours                        from Mr.ENARO in my office

One of my three English mail friends, Miss Jeong, sent me a very pleasant mail today. It drove me so mad. I'm innocent, never guilty.

The mail of yesterday is exactly same thing that you sent me about two weeks ago. Didn`t you know that? Every time when I write to you ,I think new things and send to you instantly. But this time I know you send same mail to other people with copying. I just want to make friends with you and that makes me happy but you use me only for your English,even though I am poor at in it, so I`m unpleasant. Give me your excuses or something to persuade me. AND if you are upset because of me, understand. I am excited.

Thursday ,        May , 10 , 2001 ,                               a little  warm .

My wife is expecting a baby. That is to say, she is pregnant. But I often drink a liquor. I feel so sorry to my family, especially my sweetheart and my son. I hope they will understand me.

Today I received a kind mail from Yangmi and I sent her my reply mail. And I signed up for a site I can make money on the internet.

Dear, ENARO

Frankly speaking, i am too tired now. Because i slept a little for two days. The total time for two days, i only slept for 7hours.

Yesterday, i chatted with a person after you left the room.

And i was sorry that you left early as soon as i met you.

How about your physical condition now? Do you enjoy drinking? If i live in jinju, i would like to get together with you and drink a little. My father was dead in march this year. So i can understand how sorrow you are! My father buried in Daejeon National Graves. He devoted his whole life for our country. He wounded in a battle, and his rest life is hard to live. We suffered from his deep despair and .... (In addition, he graduated from The Military Academy.)

But now i admire my father and I think that he was a great person.

now i have no time to write long. i'll continue the next time. see ya

Title:Don't go too far.

Dear Yangmi

You are so crazy about English chatting, aren't you?

I am worried about your health. We need to take a sound sleep which helps us stay in good shape and recharge our spirit. It is natural that we visit the appealing English chatting room, make many friends, learn a great deal of things over talking with them, and improve the abilities expressing English eloquently. However, as an Indian maxim goes, 'too much of sweet honey will turn out to be bitter poison.' No matter how interesting it may be, an excessive obsession in one work will give rise to much fatigue, mental anxiety and even serious depression. Then, in the end you are more liable to lose your health which is the precious thing of all your possessions. Don't go too far. You said before,'since I always drive a car for a long time to get to my office, my health is not good.' You should love your mind and body. Tonight, please sleep like a log. It will enrich your life.^^^^^^

Now you are speaking,'Stop nagging at me.' I can get a picture of your feeling. I'm a fortuneteller.^^ Anyway I wanna be your long, long English mail friend. Can you figure out my mind?

You wrote about your FATHER in today's mail. As I love and respect my FATHER, you admire your FATHER, I can feel. Yes, we should look up to our FATHERS. And I feel your father has been an indispensable figure in this country and deserved to be respected by the Koreans. Though it is somewhat late, I cordially would like to present my condolences to your FATHER. I can see our FATHERS meeting and chatting in a comfortable lounge. Can you notice them smiling? One of my high school friends is buried in the You-seong National Cemetery, too. He lost his life in an unexpected accident during his military service. Shall we pray for him?

I was driving to my familiar bar last night, when my cell phone rang. One of my previous students, male and female, called me up. I have known them for over 4 years. He has served in a marine corps in Po-hang. He came to his home in Jinju on furlough and wanted to meet me. I was so glad to see them. We became heavy drinkers. Thanks to them, I was not solitary at all. At around 2:30 a.m. we headed for our own house. It was a pleasant reunion. "The pot calls the kettle black."^^ I will love my mind and body. Now I will send you this mail. Tonight, sleep tight like a log. Sweet dreams! See you later.

faithfully yours

from ENARO in teachers' room

Friday ,      May , 11 , 2001 ,               clear but so windy(stormy) .

Thesedays I have tried to inform my familiar people of my English ability. In its advertising ways, I sent them mails including an essay and a letter of my own writing. I will go on this work.

This is my reply mail sent to my comrade.

Dear Miss Jeong

The day before yesterday your mail made me so exasperated that I wanted to drink like a fish. Misunderstanding rubs the other person the wrong way. That is to say, your mistake got on my nerves. I couldn't put up with wrath. After all I made up my mind to rely on liquor, and I was driving to my familiar bar that night, when my cell phone rang. My two previous students, male and female, wanted to meet me. I have known them for over 4 years. One of them, Mr. Lee Jun-hyun, has served in a marine corps in Po-hang. He came to his home in Jinju on furlough and longed to see me. I was so glad to see them that we became heavy drinkers. Thanks to them, I was not solitary at all. At around 2:30 a.m. we headed for our own house. It was a pleasant reunion. "Every cloud has a silver lining." Conversation with them freed my mind from rage. Since I read your mail, I went on thinking about my previous mails. It had been not only your mistake or misunderstanding, I could realize. I would like to apologize to you for my insincere factor. "The pot called the kettle black." WE can be good English mail friends FOREVER. "After it rains, the soil will be more hardened." Make a smile, not make a face.

TGIF(Thanks God:Buddha It's Friday.) Have a funny day!

faithfully yours

from Mr. ENARO in teachers' room

My previous student sent me a kind mail.

선생님,,메일 고맙습니다.. 근데 저는 영어로 못해 드려서 죄송합니다..

메일 잘 봤습니다..선생님이 저를 믿어 주시니 기분이 참 좋았습니다..

짐 다니고 있는 학원에서는 마치기 10분 전에 두 사람씩 나와 자기 소개나 공부방법에 대해서 말하는 게 있는데.. 엄청 재미있었습니다.. 제 차례가 되려면 멀었지만..

저녁 식사는 부속고 식당에 가서 하고 있습니다. 말이 부속고 식당이지 . 가면 이 학원 애들이 다 차지하고 있답니다.. 그럭저럭,., 친구들도 많이 생겼습니다.

그래도 삭막하답니다.. 쉬는 시간에 밖에 나와서 햇빛 보는게 삶의 낙이랍니다..

어떤 친구가 그러더군요.. 친구가 작을수록 공부시간이 많아 진다..

하지만 도가 지나쳐 따가 되면.. 우울증으로 효율이 떨어진다고.. 조심해라고요

일리가 있는 말 같습니다... 하하.. 그래도 속 터 놓고 이야기 하던 윤근이가 옆에 없으니까.. 조금은 쓸쓸하기도 합니다.. 메일로 연락하고 있지만은요..

요즘 일교차가 큰 날씨라서 그런지 교실에 애들이 감기에 많이 걸렸습니다.

선생님 감기 조심하십시요.. 그럼.. 이만 줄이겠습니다

My mail friend, Yangmi, sent me a mail.

Dear. Enaro.

do you know how much i appreciate to you?

Your good advices will help me. I received your e-mail yesterday night but i spent too much time to chat until around 2:00am

i know it is not good for my health and i feel i am fatigue now. But from next week, i will not be able to use my computer in the evening and night. So i will be in the chat room until today night.

It is the reason why i am in chat every night.

i often find out my dictionary to read your mail. (Please don't look down on me). Because i have been in middle school for a long time and i have not studied Eng vocabularies.

You seem to be surrounded by many people and friends. You must be a good guy whom everyone wants to be together with.

Every friday, i meet an austrian who comes to our school to teach our student. Because he doesn't know korean at all, i should help him to teach well. But i can understand only 60-70% of what he says.

It is a big problem that i get tuesday. But i don't know how to get over this problem. Please help me once more.

From time to time , i feel as if you were my elder brother.

Are you laughing now? Anyway i always thanks to you and your mail.

see you later.

Saturday ,       May , 12 , 2001 ,                                     warm .

My wife took a day off, and brought my son, Hee-seok, to the hospital to have him given a shot(vaccination). After she had returned to her home, she was busy doing the houseworks(doing the laundry, washing the dishes, and preparing side dishes and what not). Then, unlucky accident happened to my son. He was playing on his pram by himself and fell down on the bottom of the balconi. He hurt his chin. Fortunately he  didn‘t hurt much, but he kept crying out. Then, I was having lunch with my co-workers, Mr. Sim and Miss Jeong, in the rural area. My wife telephoned me two times, but I couldn't communicate with her due to communication disorder. I hurried to my home by my car, My mother was in my home since my wife called her up. They seemed to be worried so much and Hee-seok was sleeping. Afterwards, when he woke up, I took him to my mother's house. There were two nieces in my mom's house. At first, Hee-seok didn't change his expression, but soon he began to laughing playing with my lovely two nieces. It was really a fortunate happening. In the evening, we, my wife and I, took Hee-seok to wholesale toy shop and bought a toy musical instrument for him. He seemed to be satisfied with it. We were very pleased. I hope he will get better very soon and stay in good health. Hee-seok, my son, I love you. I love all my family.

The mail below from is one I sent to my mail friend today.

Dear Yangmi

How is it going today? I am enjoying my weekend in my office.

Even tomorrow this place will need me. Tomorrow is my on-duty day.

My office is on the 8th floor. Here I can watch Ji-ri Mt, and when it is clear, I can look at its top called 'Cheon-oang-bong'. It's a wonderful scenery. There is a small but cute mountain right in front of this building. It is covered with thick green trees and seems to be in harmony with everything around it. Looking upward, I can see skies splashed with cotton-white clouds. I think nowhere have I seen skies as beautiful as those of my village. The sun brightens the eastern side of the trees and casts their shadows to the west. A soft breeze gently rustles the pure and white acasia blossoms, carries the sweet scent to me and freshens my spirit. Birds across the sky are whispering my ears, "What are you doing now? Are you fun?" Now I am in a good mood like walking on the fairy land. I would like to deliver all my feeling to you. Close your eyes, please. Hurry up. Spectacular moments pass by so fast. Can you feel my present? Please unwrap it in our heart, and enjoy a wonderful weekend with the beautiful feeling. See you later. Bye.

sincerely yours                        from Mr. ENARO in teachers' room

I have been reflecting on your problem

My opinion will be included in my next mail

The letter from below is the mail an unfamiliar guy sent to me after he had read my essay in the cafe named "E-mail and chat in English".

HI!!

I dropped in the cafe after a long interval and happened to read your writing. How wonderful and right, thoughtful consideration on marriage! I was so much moved by your excellent, thoughtful thinking about love and marriage really..Did you major in English? Maybe..I do wanna correspond with you in English e-mailing..I have corresponded with some people for months; but now I have only one friend who is a bit poor in English..And as you see, I am so poor in English in spite of my majoring in English..I have wanted to improve my English skill through E-mailing. So I wish you'll give me so nice mails and advice, and so forth..I am an English teacher in a private institute and living in Seoul, my native place. And not-married ,32 yeard-old man..I hope you'll give me reply if you don't mind.

Looking forward to getting your welcomed mail,,Have a nice weekend!~~      "mhorus@hanmail.net"

I'll expect your welcomed mail informing introduction on yourself.Wishing your happy,nice weekend!.....

Sunday ,      May , 13 , 2001 ,                                  sunny .

Today was my on-duty day. I sent three mails to my English mail friends. These from below are the very mails.

Title:This is a kind of karma.

Dear English mail friend (To an unfamiliar guy)

Most of all, I'd like to be so grateful to you for complimenting me on my incomplete English essay. You appears to be a fairly kind person. What's better, you have the same job as I do. I'm an English instructor in a private institute in Jinju called "Han-kug". I have worked as an English instructor for over 7 years, even if my life-site has been changed several times. I like my job and try my best to be the best in my field. It is one of my ends in my life. English have a destiny to be mastered by me. How about you? I like English but the country of the Unites States of America is the object of my abomination. The feeling of hatred against egoistic and impudent Americans has made me study their language very hard. It is the purpose of my mastering ENGLISH. I often try to infuse my will into my students' heart. May I ask what makes you study English?

I was born and brought up in Jinju save my university days. I graduated from Pusan National University in 1993. I'm 34 and male. I am married and I have a good wife and a strong son, at age 15 months old. At present I have three English mail friends, all females. We help each other improve English. Through your next mail, I wanna listen to your introduction in detail, if you don't mind.

Scratch my back, and I will scratch yours. Roll my log and I will roll yours. Take care. Enjoy your fantastic Sunday!

Title:Have a nice Sunday!

Dear A BEAUTY^^

Weather is very nice. It goes on tempting me to leave for a green mountain or blue sea and enjoy fresh air, but I can't smell that today. I'm in my office now and have to stay here until 5 P.M. Today is my on-duty day. Though it can deprive me of my freedom, it won't damage any conscience of mine. I try to make this day meaningful. This mail is the part of my joyfulness. In a minute, I will have another pleasant time. It is the very lunch time.^^ Instead of me, breathe in the fresh air with all your heart, and you will get obeser.^^^^ It's just my kidding. Make a smile, not make a face. Have a nice Sunday!      cordially yours   from Mr. ENARO in teachers' room

Title:This is my own opinion.

Dear yangmi

It is today's third English mail sent to my English mail friend.

Today is my on-duty day, as I told you yesterday. Having to work alone without other companions can bring about unbearable solitude. But, I determined to make this serene space the only one for my taste and change this monotonous day into quite a meaningful one. Until now, a good deal of tasks have been done. This mail is the part of the tasks. You are having a great time, aren't you? Instead of me, inhale fresh air of GREEN MAY with all your heart and stay in good health. You are responsible for breathing in even my share as well as your healthful air.^^  I hope you enjoy a nice spring.

You have a tough time working out the solution to your problem as regards a perfect communication with your foreigner co-worker. I'm sorry to hear that. What's worse, unfortunately a good idea didn't occur to me that you could solve the problem without any trouble, but one common method. As you know, it is to WRITE your thoughts with difficulties in expressing in a right way. To begin with, you can tell him or her about your problem, and then if you suggest that you should use the method in your embarrassing moment, the austrian will understand your sincere mind. Of course, you may compose it and summarize only points of it in advance, at least a day or two days ago. I'm sorry not to inform you of better method, but unless you have a great idea, you had better try it. If I should hit upon better idea later on, without delay I will send you a mail. I promise.

The weather outside windows is very nice, but I am really a happy man here inside my office, thanks to my mail friends. See you later.

faithfully yours                     from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

P.S: A kind guy, an English instructor, sent me two mails yesterday.

He said that he had read my essay in the cafe,"E-mail and chat in English" and asked me for making English mail friends with him.

The guy made me a happy guy.

Can't I meet you any more in the chatting room?????

Monday ,      May , 14 , 2001 ,                                      a little hot

Today I received two mails and I sent my two reply mails.

Dear. ENARO

Today is our school's sports day. So i was on the playground until now. it is hard work for me to stay on the playground in such a sunny day. Because i was in front of a computer all through last week. Actually i am a little sick now. But i make up my mind to send you this letter.

I thanked your deep concerns about my work and good advices that will be helpful in my work. And in order to improve my Eng, i will get in touch with you consistently.

I read your mail on last saturday and sunday. The beautiful landscapes out of your office give me deep impressions. And i felt as if i were there around you.

As i told you, i drive for one hour and ten minutes to get to my school. And on the way to my school, the road is nearby lake.

Have you ever heard of the river of SOYANG? The deep waves changed along the angle of lights. Even if i am always tired, i am enjoying the roads. Furthermore now it is May. Deep green leaves and various wild flowers .. I think all of these are a mercy of god.

Enaro, i want to talk in Eng chatting room. but maybe we seem to drop by different time. Enaro, i am a judgement of juldarigi. so i have to go out now. i will attend many kinds of events whish will be held at outdoors on this week. (our students will be trained at special place, but i don't know the place name well) and i give you a congratulation on making a friend with other person. You will also a good e-mail friend with him.

But don't forget that i am your first e-mail friend. (huhu)

see you later.

Dear Yangmi

Your school seems to have diverse meaningful events like others even though you are unsatisfied with it. But nothing can be better than human beings step, walk, and run on the soil and feel nature around them. Consequently it must be best for your mind and your body. Exercise helps relax the tensions and pressures resulting from daily repetitive lives as well as make you a strong and attractive person. I am sorry, but I'd like to tell you to be positive, not negative (Look on the bright side of this world.) Such an attitude will look good on you. Did I took the words right out of your mouth?^^

The beautiful scenery spreading along the road you enjoy while going to your school tempts me to visit there. In fact, my previous mail friend, Cho Eun-jeong, at age 32, had described the So-yang Lake in her kind mail. I confirmed the spectacular view in your mail once again. My mind is already taking a walk around it. If I have free time later, I necessarily want to go to the charming place with my family. One of my favorite traditional songs is "Miss So-yang River?" or "So-yang River Virgin?".^^^^^^

In about 20 minutes, I will enter the English chatting room, "Living English Room". I wish I could meet you there. Always stay in good shape. See you next mail.

sincerely yours                                    from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

Yeaterday, as I told you in the forenoon I went to orchard to help my parents, but after lunch I met my boy friend. We left for Gosung Munsuam. Have you been to there? It was first time to us. It took about 40minutes, it is located in the middle of the high mountain.

There were so many people and many cars. Above all, fresh air came into my heart and all my body. After parked the car we walked ten minutes. It was very beautiful scenes ,in front there is sea (Namhae) , in left lake, behind green trees. Can you imagine? yeah very very great. The temple is not so big. But especially I was interested in the `Thousand Buddhist images` (Chonbuljeon). Around there, there is a house of science teacher, but we could`t see her. She was in the aunts`. It was my after long time trip. Yesterday was satisfactory Sunday, but I`m sorry to you , you were in the office all day because of duty. But I send to you freshness of yesterday. You can feel it I`m sure. Today is Monday new week!!! Let`s enjoy this warmness and suny youth. Have a funny week.

[RE]I am so glad for you to have a wonderful time.

Dear Miss Jeong

Today you sent me the longest one of all your mails I had ever received. I am honored to read the long story. And it inhibits me from writing a short reply mail. I want to control the distractions deriving from Monday's fatigue, but it goes on attacking my spirit and in the end it conquers all my conscience. Sandman is coming. Sandman is calling me. I can't ignore him. I can't find the way to escape from his hands. Understand my condition, please. You can read my long story in next mail, I promise. Good-bye. Have a nice day.        faithfully yours                from sleepy ENARO in teachers' room

Tuesday ,       May , 15 , 2001 ,                                  a little hot.

Miss Jeong sent me her kind mail.

Two hours ago we( me and science teacher) were in the GSNU. It changed in many places, new buildings, cleaner than before etc. Especially restaurant was changed newly. In order to eat lunch, at first we were confused a little later we had to watch other students` act and followed their line. In front of the library, we drank coffee and looked young people. There was also same times to me ; its freedom , youth (of course I`m young and fresh(?) now, too ).

Every people doesn`t know (or though they know ) that present time and present place are the most important. Time and tide wait for no man. When I was student I didn`t know the importance of that time, so l was idle my time away and spent it not using valuably. Watching them I wish them to recognize the value of the time include my sister( she is in this university) Anyway today is the pleasant time. How are you today? Are you playing ball game possibly?

Today is `Teachers` Day`. Have a funny and happy day!!~!

This is my reply mail I sent to her.

Title:Today is not lecturers' day but teachers' day.

Dear Miss Jeong

Today is obviously teachers' day, but we are not treated as teachers. For we are instructors. The weatherman said we would have rain this afternoon, but it was wrong. My coworkers and my students gathered at the large empty site beside the Nam river at around 10 A.M. We played soccer and basketball. Everything seemed to be beautiful. Our river was flowing incessantly, the cool breeze was carrying the sweet odors of all kinds of flowers, the sky was protecting this world with its shining light and human beings were absorbed in their own activities. Everything appeared to be in harmony with one another. All of us was one. However, I had a hole in my heart. It was the feeling of vanity. I couldn't get rid of it from my heart. So far I have worked as an instructor for about 7 years, and my previous directors always helped us,his employees, enjoy themselves and treated us as a delicious food every teachers's day , but our present employer neglected his duty. It was a very impolite thing. He ignored us. I like my job. And I want my thought not to be changed. Today skepticism about this job is controlling me. Of course, you will have the same mood as I have. We are all sad workers. But, I hope you will give a better lecture to lovely students today. It is the only way we can love ourselves.        Good-bye              ENARO

After the event, I came home, took a bath, and took a rest. At 4:50 P.M., my mother told me to go to the Cheon-jeon market, so I went there with my mom, nephew, and son. She bought tomatoes for ￦6,000. They looked very fresh and delicious. After we returned to my home, my lovely nephew went to the gym called 'TYPHOON' to learn Taekweondo and I visited my life-site with my son. He seemed to be happy. We stayed there for about an hour. At dusk, we returned to my home. My soulmate fixed the dinner and we enjoyed the meal. I was supposed to meet my coworkers at 10:00 P.M. and drink alcohol, so I went to my office again, met them and all of us became heavy drinkers. As I was so angry at my boss, I drank so much and my spirit was blackened out. I couldn't remember what I had said and what I had done. It was a very miserable thing. I should necessarily do away with the bad habit. Otherwise, I will remain a slave to the evil one.

Wednesday ,        May , 16 , 2001 ,                                   warm .

My previous student, Kim Dong-ook, sent me a mail congratulating teachers‘ day. He was so warm-hearted a person. He will be my permanent pupil. The mail from below is one he sent me.

선생님.. 보름 전만 해도 오늘을 엄청 기대했는데..

오늘 저대로 재밌게 보냈지만.. 선생님과 형들 없이 지내려니까.. 참 우울했습니다. 윤근이가 오늘 재미있게 놀았다고 하던데요  선생님 맘껏 공 차셨어요? 선생님 축구 좋아하시는거 갔던데... 제가 선생님께 자주 메일 보내니까.. 어머니께서 한국학원에 정이 많이 들었는가 하고 말씀하셨어요.. 저도 그런거 같습니다.

약 2-3달 정도 였지만.. 선생님의 정과 배려에 지금도 감사하고 있습니다.

그리고 저번에 선생님께서 아직도 저를 선생님의 학생으로 생각하신다고 하셨을때

눈물이 핑 돌았습니다. 선생님 감사합니다. 저도 선생님을 계속 현재의 담임 선생님으로 생각할겁니다. 그럼,, 이만 줄이겠습니다.

This is my reply mail.

Title:Thank you for your kind mail and warm heart.

Dear Kim Dong-ook

The weatherman said we would have rain yesterday afternoon, but it was wrong. My coworkers and my students gathered at the large empty site beside the Nam river at around 10 A.M. We enjoyed ourselves playing soccer and basketball. Everything seemed to be beautiful. River was flowing incessantly, the cool breeze was carrying the sweet odors of all kinds of flowers, the sun was protecting this world with its shining light and human beings were absorbed in their own activities. Everything appeared to be in harmony with one another. All of us was one. I wished you could have joined in the event. But I know your heart has always stayed with us. Have a happy life.   faithfully yours        from your homeroom teacher, Mr. ENARO

P.S.:I am sure that you will be at the top of your class in the next        test.

Today I was so late for my office because I drank like a fish last night. I could scarcely finish my classes. My previous students, Jeong Hye-jeong and Hong Kyung-hwa, came to my office to meet me. I ate dinner with them at a nearby restaurant. They gave me a present.

Both of them must be very beautiful and warm-hearted. I like them.

Thursday ,       May , 17 , 2001 ,                                   fine .

I have been tired all day, but I can't know the reason. I only guess as I drank very a lot the day before yesterday and ate the instant noodle late last night, I feel a great deal of fatigue. Life is so boring and monotonous. Only time flies without any meaning. While I watch time and tide flow right in front of my eyes, I don't think I have to hold it and put beside me. I just glance at the flow. My spirit is falling down into the bog of sloth. Sloth makes all things more difficult, and industry makes all things easier. I know the truth. Once I had the thought that there is no such word as 'impossible' in my dictionary. Now I would love to bear the saying in my deep mind. What makes me desperate? Why am I depressed? I am sure the reason I has been falling down is inside my mind. I must believe in myself. I must love myself and I must escape from this hazard. I inside myself appeal to me, "hey, you, Jeong Bong-hyun, wake up and    smell the coffee, otherwise you are already dead. Stop thinking stupid. Never think something like rubbish. I know you. You are strong. You can do it. Yes, you can do whatever you want. Way to go!

The world is waiting for you to regain yourself. Like yesterday, try your best to accomplish your goal. You must lose confidence and courage. You have lovely family and all of them trust  and love you.

Never disappoint them. Cheer up! Keep your chin up! You can be the best specialist in your field. Think of your father. What does he want? Yes, you know the answer. Just be yourself and you can do everything. I know you are a competent and strong guy. Let's go."

Friday ,      May , 18 , 2001 ,                         windy and warm .

My coworker, Miss Jeong, sent me a mail including a unhappy story.

There is a serious problem in my home. So, for a long time I won't be able to write to you. By then, take care.     Mr. ENARO!

I sent her my reply mail.

Dear Miss Jeong

You must have a bad feeling about me. But I don't want to give a rubbish-like excuse to you. If you had thought of me as your good consultant or as your true mail friend, you could have told me about the trouble of your home. Instead, you made up your mind not to own up to your difficult situation. I'm a little sad and embarrassed at your determination. Until now your mails gave me a great deal of pleasure nearly everyday. Now you are thinking about taking away the feeling of happiness from me. Have you ever thought I was impolite. Yes, a bit rude. But you can understand it, I think even now. Think twice. You can change your decision. Finally I earnestly hope that all your family members can solve the problem very soon. Good luck to your home. See you later.  faithfully yours      from Mr. ENARO

I'm looking forward to hearing from you soon.

A very unhappy thing happened in Kwoang-ju, May 18, 1980. Today was the very day 21 years ago. It proved this country couldn't be democratic nation. A great deal of civilians were killed by soldiers of this country, their guards. The cruel soldiers were like hungry beasts. They murdered innocent and pure people of this country with guns and bayonets, including machine guns, given to them to protect civilians and domains of this country from other countries(foes). It was an unimaginable misdemeanor and massacre. Of course, the soldiers was ordered to commit such a miserable crime. Generals who had commanded to them were general Jeon Doo-hoan, bald and undemocratic, and general Noh Tae-woo, stupid and ignorant. However, both of them became the president of this country. We, people in this country, were all fools. I want to pray for the sacred spirits. I hope they can have happy lives in a true democratic land.

Saturday ,       May , 19 , 2001 ,                                     fine .

Today is Saturday. It is the starting day of weekend. I can take a day off tomorrow, but it doesn't please my mind. Frankly speaking, I'm in the mood of skepticism. Somehow sadness is caressing my spirit. Yes, season is to blame for my depression. This month many people wander. They don't know where to go, what to do and how to do their own work, so they hesitate. Sometimes they are suspicious of their existence, are in despair and in the long run even commit suicides. I would love to name May chaotic month, but I won't hope this terrible month will be over so soon, sitting in my chair. It is necessary for me to recharge my energy and refreshen my life, I know. These days I have suffered from sickness. I feel a little pain inside my ribs. I'm not sure whether it is heart or lung, but it is evident that I have to be treated by doctor as soon as possible. I made a promise to go to the hospital with my wife. She has been worried about my health for a long time. I don't play a proper role in my family. I'm a troublemaker in my family. A month ago, I had a confidence on myself, and, in addition to it, I had been performing many tasks for myself and family. But I am so helpless nowadays. I must return to what I used to be. I can do it. Nope! I must do it. Otherwise, I will have to kill myself. I know unless I do live very strongly, my family can't have a happy life. Soon I will conquer this miserable month. And I will never make a mistake, such as being late for calling the roll in the morning due to drinking alcohol. This afternoon I will go to my father's country and tell him about it.

My second younger brother had a quarrel with his wife and she called me up crying, so I went to his house and advised him on a happy marriage life. It was at about 2:00 a.m. I hope they will have a happy marriage life without any fight and they will bring up his only and clever son, Hyun-woo, very well.

Sunday ,     May , 20 , 2001 ,                                      warm .

I spent most of today sleeping in my bed and I went to my father's country together my first younger brother, his two daughters, my nephew, my mother, my son, and my wife. In the evening we ate out.

My poor co-worker sent me a mail including a sad and shocking story.

Title:Have you heard about Esophageal cancer?

I didn`t know that before , but last Saturday my family were all surprised at hearig that. My father has it in his esophageal. That bad thing processed already so much. For one week he was inspected many ways. He`ll go to hospital on Monday in GSNU Hospital. All my family members and relatives are embarrassed, above all my father. Doctor said the disease is very serious and operation isn`t useful in this situation. So they`ll do anti-cancer medicine and other chemical therapy. One of my friends is studying Medicine and working in that hospital. I met her three days ago she said it`ll suffer my father very and even though doctor operate it, it won`t be get well ,that is, the result is not good. What will I do?

I`m not going to cry and there will be a good future in my family obviously. Give me and my family a hope and tell me what you know about it. I`m so sorry to say sad news. Have comfortable weekend!

Monday ,         May , 21 , 2001 ,                                 rainy .

I sent my reply mail to the poor companion.

Title:You and your family, especially your father must be strong.

To my strong mail friend, Miss Jeong Eun-jin

I was so sad to read that shocking story. I'd like to apologize to you for my stupidity and rudeness. You must be a very strong woman. Never be disappointed. Every cloud has a silver lining. Your father can defeat the satan and live a long life.

There is a river flowing down somewhere incessantly, making a sad sound in front of my house now. It is giving off a bad smell and I know it is suffering from a terrible disease. Still, it is running toward its goal. Yesterday I watched it doing its business, and today I am watching it making a strong life without regard to all the bad things. Tomorrow I will be able to feel its power. So will you and so will your father.

Strength is able to conquer everything, regardless of whether your enemy is the most dangerous villain or the most serious illness, if it is, doctors say, an uncurable disease. Whether one can solve the problem depends on his or her own spirit, not on the extent of its phenomenon(symptom) or world's judgment. Willpower is important to be able to remove the evil cells from his own body. I realized the truth from my experience respecting my father.

My father had suffered from a lot of terrible diseases since I had been an elementary school student. He had spent many years struggling to escape from them. He even had been operated no less than three times. There had always been all kinds of pills and medicines put by his pillow. He had been concerned about his unhappy past. He had always been agonizing over his poor and miserable surroundings of past. However, he, together with my mother, tried his best to raise us, his four children, very honestly, despite his tortures resulting from chronic disorder and his agonies from past disaster.

He was really a great person. To us, he was the best father. But when I was young, I had looked on my father as irresponsible one. I hated my father. He drank a lot and quarreled with my mother so often. I couldn't understand him. Not until a high school student could I respect and love my father. Meanwhile his disease got worse and worse and after all, when I was a sophomore in university, he was told not to live a long life by his doctor.

I was regretful of my last wrong thought and misdeed and I was resolved to devote myself to making my father and my mother be healthy and live a long happy life. Since I made the determination, I tried to keep it very cordially, even though I couldn't completely dedicate myself to it. I always had my father in my heart, especially his health. And so did my other family members. Thanks to such an effort and affection, my father could live a longer life than his doctor had said. After a few years had gone by from then, we, family, got to take him for a healthy man. Probably all of us might be tempted to think that way, because he had been afflicted for a very long time and we had taken a good care of him as much as time. The false way of thinking grew to occupy our head as time passes. It was our unforgettable blunder and sin. The weaker our mind and spirit towards him got, the weaker his willpower to come over his disease became. After some time, in the end, he left from us and went to his own country.

I love and respect my father, my parents. I'm to blame for my father's death, I think at all times. So, my family and I make it a rule to visit my father's country every weekend without skipping since his death. More than 5 years have already passed. Though his body has stayed in his own country, I believe his mind has always been with us.

I lost the opportunity to see and love my father right beside me, but you have the great odds to do it. Strike while the iron is hot. Don't miss a good chance. Now it's time your family and you should love and respect your father. Give him courage and willpower to control the serious illness. The most important key to destruction of the physical disorder is his willpower.

Let him realize he still has many things to do for his own family in this world and that all of you need him very much. Only you and your family can give him courage, will and hope. Don't be negative. Look on only the bright side of this world. When he takes some medicine, all of you, particularly your father, must believe it will necessarily be able to treat his illness. Nothing is better remedy than the belief. Keep it in your mind.

Sometime, when your mind is free, I would like to tell you about my father. Every father is the most precious beings to every son or daughter. Cheer up. You can do it. Your father can do it. I trust it. see you.    faithfully yours                  from Mr. ENARO in my home

Tuesday ,        May ,22 , 2001 ,                                  rainy .

It has rained for two days. People had looked forward to its falling down since they, especially farmers, had been tortured because of the long drought. If one wishes with his or her heart it will happen,

it will really carried out. Everything is up to his or her mind. Thus, at last it rained all over the country. It was a very fortunate thing. Suddenly I miss my family as I long for the rain to fall like cats and dogs. They must be my invaluable people. I love them.

Yesterday my companion, Miss Jeong, sent me a mail.

Title:You are so kind and good son.

One hour ago I was beside of my father in the hospital.

It`s very fortunate I am a institute instructor, because I can be with him in the morning. If I have other job , can I imagine this situation. In the morning I prepare porridge for my father. He can`t eat other hard food even rice. This season is very busy time for the pear trees ; we pick the wrong young pear away and choose good pear and then wrap that left thing to protect from the worms and wind ... Many working people come to our farm my mother has to prepare the between-meal and lunch , so she must be with them and work in the daytime. Nowaday my mother is very tired of the working and worry. Many good relatives and friends ,like you recommend good medicines and herbs and foods And give a courage and hope to my family. We believe my family`s bright future. Yesterday seeing the laugh of his grandson he must have a hope and will to get over his bad enemy. We can`t help smiling seeing Seung - han ( my cute nephew ). My father lived very kindly to other people and did a good things to my grandparents. Surely all our ancestors ,especially grandparents watch him an help him to recover his disease. I believe happy future of my family. Thanks for your story and recommendation.

Next I`d like to hear about your left stories. Today I don`t know if my grammar and words are right. Have a happy Monday. Sincerely yours.

This writing from below is my reply mail I sent my colleague.

Title: You must be a good daughter to your parents, too.

Dear the strongest woman

Now it is raining outside the windows of my office. Trees on the mountains are enjoying the sweet whisper, even if it is in the dark. You have a hard time in attending on your father. No other figure is more beautiful than that one. By your carefulness, your father will be able to get in good shape very soon, and protect all your family members for a very long time. You don't have to be worried about your mother that much, I think. Every mother is the strongest person of all the people. No one can love her family as much as she can. Now that she has her own children, she can be strong and defeat all the things which may harm them. As your parents trust you, so must you believe them. Now the pear trees in your orchard are swallowing the blessing rain. It will lessen your parents' anxiety. This rain is a good sign for your family. Cheer up! Make a smile. It may give your parents and family confidence to cope with this tough period. Keep your chin up! You are a great woman, I k! now. Keep up the good work. See you later.   faithfully yours          from Mr. ENARO in my office

Wednesday ,        May , 23 , 2001 ,                                cloudy .

Title:Please appreciate your favorite poem with all your heart!

Dear my kind English mail friend, Yang Mi-ok Nuna

Did you have a sound sleep last night?

To start with, I'd love to thank you for telling me about your real name and mobile phone number. In return for that, I am sending you a beautiful poem which is one of your favorite poems written by Rovert Prost, a very noted American poet. I want you to appreciate my gift with all your heart.

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

in leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence;

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

가지 않은 길

노랗게 물든 숲 속에 두 갈래 길이 있었습니다.

한 나그네 몸으로 두 길을 다 가볼 수 없어

아쉬운 마음으로 그곳에 서서

한쪽 길이 덤불 속으로 감돌아간 끝까지

한참을 그렇게 바라보았습니다.

그리고는 다른 쪽 길을 택했습니다.

먼저 길에 못지 않게 아름답고

어쩌면 더 나은 듯도 싶었습니다.

사람들이 밟은 흔적은 비슷했지만 풀이 더

무성하고 사람의 발길을 기다리는 듯해서였습니다.

그 날 아침 두 길은 모두 아직

발자국에 더렵혀지지 않은 낙엽에 덮여 있었습니다.

먼저 길은 다른 날로 미루리라 생각했습니다.

길은 길로 이어지는 것이기에

다시 돌아오기 어려우리라 알고 있었지만.

머언 훗날 어디에선가

나는 한숨 쉬며 이야기를 할 것입니다.

"숲 속에 두 갈래 길이 있어

나는 사람이 덜 다닌 길을 택했습니다. 그리고

그것이 내 인생을 이처럼 바꿔 놓은 것입니다" 라고

Take care and have a nice day.

faithfully yours             from Jung Bong-hyun in Jinju

눈 내리는 저녁 숲가에 서서

이것이 누구의 숲인지 나는 알겠다

물론 그의 집은 마을에 있지만

그는 재가 여기 서서 눈이 가득 쌓이는

자기 숲을 보고 있음을 못 볼 것이다.

내 작은 말은, 근처에 농가도 없고

숲이 얼어붙은 호수 사이에

한 해의 가장 어두운 저녁에

서 있음을 이상하게 여길 것이다.

내 작은 말은 방울을 흔들어

무슨 잘못이라도 있느냐고 묻는다

다른 소리라고는 다만 스쳐가는

조용한 바람과 솜털 같은 눈송이뿐,

아름답고 어둡고 아늑한 숲 속.

그러나 내게는 지켜야 할 약속이 있고,

자기 전에 가야 할 길이 있다.

자기 전에 가야 할 길이 있다.

제목:샌님,, 질문 있는디요..

1.he talks as if he knew everything.

2.he talked as if he knew everything.

3.he talks as if he had known everything.

4.he talked as if he had known everything.

헤헤.. 샌님.. 가정법 말인데요.. 가정법 과거. 가정법 과거완료.에서요.

짐, 1번 문장과 3번 문장은 확실히 알겠는데요..

2번에서 as if 절이 가정법 과거인데요, 현재에 반대되는 것을 나타내는거 아닌가요,,? 그럼 주절의 시제가 과거인디.. 해석을 우찌 해야 될지 모르겠습니다.

4번도 같은 의문이 듭니다.

가정법 저번에 선생님이 가르쳐 주셨는데 다시 물어서 죄송합니다. 선생님이 저번에 내주셨던 프린트 분실 했거든요...

그리고 윤근이 서울 갔다는 소식 들었습니다. 제가 나온 뒤에 가니까 제가 선생님께 면목 없습니다..

Title:This is my answer to your question.

1.he talks as if he knew everything. 첫 철자는 항상 'capital letter'로

그는 (지금) 모든 것을 알고 있는 것처럼 (지금) 말한다.

2.he talked as if he knew everything.

그는 (과거에) 모든 것을 알고 있는 것처럼 (그 당시) 말했다.

3.he talks as if he had known everything.

그는 (과거에) 모든 것을 알고 있었던 것처럼 (지금) 말한다.

4.he talked as if he had known everything.

그는 (과거보다 그 이전에) 모든 것을 알고 있었었던 것처럼 (과거에) 말했다.

I'm sure that you will be able to figure out my explanation without any difficulty. And, whenever you'd love to ask me a question, send me a mail like this. I trust Jeong Yoon-keun and I bet he will necessarily hit the right target. Take care and try your best

affectionately yours           from Mr. ENARO in teachers' room

When you have free time, visit me and I will be glad to give you my teaching material.

Never forget I asked you to be at the top of your class in next test.

I had such an enjoyable chatting time with my English mail friend, Yangmi, which was her ID, last night that I was very happy. She told me her real name and asked me, "What's your cell phone number?". So, I informed her of my mobile phone number, asked her about her number, and I could know her one. She promised to be my step-sister and I was determined to be her step-brother. Yesterday was a very enjoyable day. Someday we will meet somewhere, whether I will go to see her or she will come to Jinju to see me. I wish the big day will be the very tomorrow. When my lovely son, Hee-seok, read this writing, what will he think of me? I want to remain as a good father.

My youngest brother sent me a kind mail. I miss him very much.

Thursday ,       May , 24 , 2001 ,                               a little hot .

I gave a lecture to my classroom students from 9:00 to 9:50 a.m.. Afterward, I didn‘t have any lecture until 10:00 p.m. as usual. Such a  pattern of life made me feel bored, so I hit upon a idea that had me very busy. It was to invest my time in improving my own ability and English. About 2 months ago, I made my daily timetable and my yearly plan. But it didn’t last long like my thought. My laziness was to blame for failure of the plan and one of my companions spoiled my efforts to carry out it. Most of my work was to be performed on the internet, and he preoccupied computer all afternoon almost everyday. Now and then, I was angry enough to abominate him. He had not operated the computer before, but all of a sudden he began to began to use it. Of course, I know it is not only my belonging. Once his behavior couldn't be understood. He went too far. Now I am trying to be generous to him and, what's better, have a mind to help him.

Frida ,       May , 25 , 2001 ,                                         so hot .

I drank alcohol until at 5:00 a.m., but I came to my office in time.

Today my students took their preliminary test.

I joined new chatting site which was based on America, receiving a welcome mail and senting my reply to it.

Title:Please confirm your request to subscribe to EnglishZone

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Title:This is my reply mail.

Hello

I have just confirmed your mail and I am sending you my reply mail.

I'm an English instructor in Korea. Though I have worked as an instructor for about 7 years, I always feel the lack of my English knowledge. So I really want your group to help me improve my ability and be the best teacher in the near future. Good luck to your company See you later

Title:Welcome to EnglishZone

Hello,

Welcome to the English-Zone.Com Chat List! Let's chat! I will send you news about the English Zone, and I will ask some questions, and you should answer the questions, ok?! You may also ask questions. We can have a fun chat through email.

Please introduce yourself to everyone! What is your name?

Where are you from? Are you a teacher or a student?

Title:These are my answers.

Hello

Thank you for accepting me as your chatting partner.

My name is Jeong Bong-hyun, I'm 34 and I'm married.

I live in a small city called Jinju. It is located in the southern part of South Korea. I'm an instructor in a private institute. I have been trying to love my job. It has been my occupation for about 7 years. But I am not satisfied with abilities of speaking and expressing English. So I want to improve it by joining your site. you can help me broaden my English skills, I bet. Roll my log and I'll roll yours. I like the proverb,"Heaven helps those who help themselves." I am conscious that it is the most important thing trying my best to be the best in my branch. But I need your hand. Give me a hand. I will be your sincere chatting partner. Reading my mail with all your heart will be appreciated. Take care.

faithfully yours        from Mr. ENARO in South Korea

P.S.ENARO is my nickname. It means "truly" in Jinju dialect.

Call me Mr. ENARO.

Saturday ,   May , 26 , 2001 ,                                           so hot .       Today my son was supposed to be given the shot preventing him from being infected by mosquitoes. So, after I had given my students listening classes for two hours, I hurried to my house where my mother had been waiting for me. It was at 11:05 a.m.  As I had to return to my office by 11:50 a.m., I rushed out of my house and drove to the hospital. It was crowded with quite a few children patients. I couldn't help phoning my office to inform my coworker of my not reaching there in time and ask him or her to make my students clean their classroom. At about 12:10 a.m., we went out of the hospital and I arrived at my office at 12:25. In the afternoon, I had an appointment to meet one of my students. I was watching a baseball game on TV in my director's room when he came to me. I took him to the teachers' room and talked with him about his studying place. At last he agreed to my opinion. Afterward, I came to my house. In the evening, I went shopping to E-mart in the downtown with my wife and my son. All of us enjoyed it, went to my mother's house, and had a very delicious dinner. At night I drank alcohol with my university junior. And I chatted with my familiar English chatting friend, Moon Se-jin, until 3:20 a.m. He calls me "hyeong-nim" in the chatting room.

Sunday ,      May , 27 , 2001 ,                    windy but so hot .                   Because I went to bed late last night, I couldn't get up early this morning. After all, only after it was 10:30 a.m., could I wake up and smell the coffee. My wife fixed breakfast very carefully and we enjoyed it. The pork meat she had roasted was really delicious. After breakfast, I took a rest again, while my wife did the house work. At about 3:00 p.m., I took my wife and my son to the zoo, one of  attractions around Jinyang Lake. We had a good time there and  visited my father's country without any food and liquor. For, in the morning, my second younger brother's family had called on him, I knew. Nevertheless I thought I made a mistake, not bring anything.

Monday ,     May , 28 , 2001 ,                                        내 hot .

Today I received several mails and sent my reply mails to them.

One of my childhood friends sent me a mail last Saturday.

쉼업이 달려가는 인생속에 무엇을 얻고자 우리는 달려가고 있을까? 행복 성취 성공 만족 그무엇도아닌 삶의 진실을위해........^^^^^^^!? 어떻께 사는것이....살어가는것이 무엇이 중요한지도 모르고 앞만보고 가고있는 나 자신을 바라보며 돈이면다야 성공이면다야 허공에 메아리 쳐보면 허무와 적막감 만이 나를 감싼다 최선을 다한다는것이 정말 어려운것같아 수많은유혹 능력의 한계앞에 좌절 그렇께 그렇께 하루 하루를 연명하며 내일의 희망 이란 놈에게 미련이남아 내일을위한 도전을 오늘도 힘들지만 희망이란 놈을 먹기위해 열심히 도전하련다 !나의하소연을읽어줘고마워친구................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My previous student, Kim Dong-ook, sent me a kind mail last night.

오늘 선생님 뵈서.. 참 반가웠습니다.. 근데 정숙이랑 있어서..

선생님한테 죄송스럽네요 선생님이 혹시 오해하실까봐..말씀드리는 겁니다.

이제 흔들리지 않습니다. 100%는 아니지만.. 그래서 정숙이한테 함 만나자고 했습니다.

오늘 정숙이한테 채였습니다. 정확히 말하면 끝냈습니다. 학원 옮긴 것만으로는..영.. 똥 덜 닦은 기분이라서.. 확실히 하려고요.. 선생님이 혹시 걱정하실 까봐.. 드리는 말씀입니다. 근데 이번 모의고사에서 선생님께 죄송스럽습니다. 1등 해서 선생님과 저의 존심을 세워야 했었는데..좀 아쉽습니다.. 인문계에서 390이상이 4명이고 자연계에서 2명입니다. 잘하는 사람들이 많은 것 같습니다. 언어에서 듣기 한 문제 포함해서 2개 틀렸고, 수탐2에서 2개 틀렸습니다. 수학과 영어는 다 맞았는데 저번에 영어 듣기에서 1개 틀린것 빼고 저번 시험과 성적이 비슷하게 나온 것 같습니다. 이번 시험에서는 3교시에 답안지 마킹을 잘못해서 선생님한테 꾸지람 들었습니다.여기는 스티커 사용 불가능이고 답안지 바꾸면 교실 문에 그 사람 이름을 적거든요 다음부터는 실수를 줄여야 할것 같습니다. 또 1교시 언어 치기 10분전에 배가 아파서 좀 당황한 상태에서 시험을 쳤는데

생각보다는 덜 망친 거 같습니다. 선생님 부탁드리고 싶은게 있는데요..정숙이한테는 아무 말씀 말아 주십시오. 선생님께서 얘기하면 애가 충격을 받을것 같아서요.. 요즘에 스트레서 많이 받는 모양이던데... 누군가 첫사랑은 안된다고 하더니 그말이 맞는것 같습니다. 그럼.. 이만 줄이겠습니다.

This writing from below is my reply mail I sent him.

Title:I can surely understand your mind.

Dear a good student

You must be a dandy. And I hope you will be able to be a great man.

You can do it. Never disappoint yourself. Now you can find every beauty only by studying hard this year. Keep your chin up! I trust you. Now I have to sleep like a log. Don't overestimate yourself, and be sincere until your big day is over. See ya

affectionately yours         from Mr.ENARO in my room

My lovely mail friend, Yangmi, sent me two mails after a long interval, so I wrote a mail to her.

One:hi, Enaro.

It has been passed many days that i didn't write to you. Thesedays i had to do many kinds of work-school affairs, documents, and my son's homework. so I didn't sleep well. Today on sunday, i slept for a long time-except for meals. I feel better now and good health.

I received your poem well. I thought that the poem was written in your hard thim to live. Frankly speaking , it is difficult for me to understand. But in your poem,, you seems to be a thoughtful person in life. Have you ever published your poems in your school days? You have many kinds of talents . I heard that your major is french. but you can speak french as well as English. furthermore you can writh poem. Wow. your talents are various.   Enaro!   Please don't take me wrong about i prohibit you from coming chuncheon. I think you can understand me. I really want that we are good e-mail friend continuously. Take care of your health all the time.

The other:Dear. Enaro

Yesterday night, I dropped by the chatting room after i sent you a e-mail. But i couldn't find your id. so i thought that you left the room. Did you go to the zoo with your family? It was really good thing to go with your familly on sundays. In my case, i don't like to go out on holidays.becase i have to do much housework on weekends. If i return my house so late, it is another stress to do my work in late time. In some way , i think that i am a bad mother to my sons and my hus. Enaro.  Today is lovely day with proper wind and fine. I would like to go out somewhere not to stay my school. And i feel good with this fine day even if farmer spend hard time to wait for rain. Do you think i am selfish?

On sixth of june, i will go to Daejeon to meet my father. How far is it from your place? It takes 4 hours for me to get to Daejeon by car through Center Express Way. I hope that you can live happy with your family all the time. And I will be happy to meet you in the chat room by accident.            See you later.

Title: I was talking to you in the chatting room.

Dear Yangmi

Why could I be inconsiderate?

Right after I had hit the enter key to join the English chatting, I went out of my room to smoke. In about 3 minutes, I returned and sat back in front of my computer. Just then, I noticed your ID on the screen and I was so glad. But I could find you were whispering. Fortunately, you asked me " Are you there?". I answered, "Yes, How are you today? and I took my wife and my son to the zoo. and We enjoyed ourselves, especially my son..." I went on talking to you. By the way, you left without saying good-bye. I'm very sorry if my previous offer has bothered you up to now. I earnestly hope you will accept my sincere apology. Stay in a good shape all the time and have only lucky days                           From Mr. ENARO

Miss Jeong, who was my student a few years ago, sent me a mail.

Title:참 쓸쓸한 밤

선생님 메일이 많이 늦었지요? 매일매일 컴퓨터를 켜고 확인하셨을 텐데 그때마다 서운하셨죠? 휴~~  땅이 꺼질듯이 한숨을 쉬고 나면 그나마 맘이 놓입니다. 아니 맘이 놓인다기 보다는 조금은 답답함이 없어진다고 해야 할까요.. 뭔가 꼭 해야 할일을 못하고 있는듯이 불안한 이런 느낌을 어떻게 설명을 해야할지.... 매일 바보 같다는 생각을 하고 매일 바보에서 벗어나야 한다고 다짐을 하면서도 또 바보 같이 하루를 보냈구나 ... 그러면서 또 한번 한숨을 쉽니다. 빨리 바보 에서 벗어나야 한다고 또 한번 다짐 하면서 선생님께 멜을 씁니다. 다음에 선생님을 뵐때는 바보가 아니였음 좋겠습니다.

This is my reply mail.

Title:Everything is up to your mind.

Dear Miss Paincurer

I was so happy to receive your kind mail this morning. As you said, because you sent me yhe mail after a long interval, I felt like walking on a fairy land. However, the contents in your mail are hurting me. Keep your chin up. You are so young that you can do whatever you want. In addition, I know you are strong. Strength is beautiful. So I trust you. Soon you will meet the God of HOPE I sent you just now. He will bring you a poem, my present, which is one of my favorite poems written by Rovert Prost, a very noted American poet. I want you to appreciate my gift with all your heart.

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

in leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence;

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Take care and have only lucky days.

And Keep in mind that heaven helps those who help themselves

faithfully yours         from Mr ENARO in my office

My new foreign English mail friend, Kaye Mallory, sent me a mail.

Hello Enaro,

It's nice to meet you. How many students do you have? How old are they?  Kaye Mastin Mallory  English-Zone.Com Teacher

This is my reply mail I sent him.

Hello Kaye

Now I have taught English to about one hundred students, and all of them graduated from high school. In addition, a few students of them are over 30 years old. I think I have responded to your questions, so I would like to ask you a favor. If you don't mind, I want to know about you in a little detail. Can you introduce yourself to me in your next mail? What country do you live in? What line are you in? Are you married?..and so on. I know they can be private and impolite questions, but I would only love to know about my new friend. Please understand my mind towards you. Take care   see you later

cordially yours                  from Mr. ENARO in SOUTH KOREA

Tuesday ,     May , 29 , 2001 ,                                    so hot .

Last night I had a good chatting time with Yangmi, who had changed her ID into May5020, for about an hour. It was a very enjoyable thing. Because I had a class at 10:00 p.m., we couldn't but stop our pleasant conversation. I was able to feel one more time she was very kind.

I felt so tired that I went to a public bathroom nearby my house this afternoon. There I met an English teacher in my high school days who had drunk alcohol. He seemed to be very old. After taking a bath, I served him a cold drink. I had met him at the street bar before, when he drank a lot. When a high school student, he was a good and competent teacher. But the monotonous life as a teacher might change him into a present weak one. Or time and tide may be to blame. When I saw him walk into his school with his shoulders down,   he appeared helpless and mean. Teacher! Way to go! You was my teacher. I can't put up with your humbleness. You had exerted an crucial influence on me and made me what I am. I will live very hard.

This is my reply mail I sent to my English mail friend.

Titles: What makes you be obsessed by May?

Hello

My eternal English mail friend, Yangmi!

As you said, today this country seems to have a wonderful weather.

Our mountains and fields are showing off their beauty under the stage of brightly blue sky as if graceful fashion models wearing the most suitable clothes adorned with diverse accessories made a display of their beautiful harmony in their show. I feel a temptation to rush out of my office like you. But my situation makes me depressed. Are you enjoying a sweet fragrance of May right now? As you are a May lady, you deserve to appreciate the gift nature has provided. May goddess! I really hope you can feel all the spirit and energy around you. I must be a skillful flatter.^^

I discovered by your mail you had changed your ID, all of a sudden, from Yangmi into May5020. If you don't mind, could you tell me why you changed your familiar ID? In addition, I wonder what you look like.^^ Now that I can't meet you face to face, I want you to describe your looks. Presumably you won't be able to refuse this offer. I'm obstinate and rude.^^

Sandman is coming to me. Sandman is calling me. Now I have to be a slave to him. It is another happiness. Siesta(Nap)! It is another name of happiness. What do you feel about of my definition of happiness? Is it strange?

Please love yourself and a good shape will always be smiling at you.

faithfully yours                     from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

P.S.:It takes about 3 hours for me to go from here to Tae-jeon by bus.

Wednesday ,      May , 30 , 2001 ,                               drivvly .

Today it is drizzling in this country. I saw my poems I had written since my middle school days. They are listed in the book entitled 'NOTHNG'. Of all of them, I sent one to my kind mail friend, Yangmi.

And our soccer team played against France soccer team at 5:00 p.m.

Title: Please feel it!

Dear Yangmi

These days a beneficent visitor appears to call at our land very frequently which lacks bliss. The other day she visited here, our country, I remember. And today the lovely guest came to give a pleasure to most of the people in this country, particularly to farmers. I hope she will wet mountains and fields for a very long time. Who can you guess she is?

She reminds us, people in the street, of our beautiful and significant reminiscence. Now I recollect my old days and it makes me read my fading notebook. It is entitled, "NOTHING". Of all the poems in it, I find one. I make a determination to send you the poem right now which was written in my university days, in April, 1989. To my great shame, enclosed please find it. While you are appreciating the lowly work, I want you to reflect on your meaningful memory and smile at yourself. Then, please feel it!

어느 봄날

진홍빛 진달래 꽃잎을 또옥 따서

뭉실 가슴에 후~ 날리면

바람타고 내가 나비일 것만 같다.

오늘도 무너지는 하루를 딛고 서서

뻗어도 발돋워 뻗어도 날개는

이내 다 타 버리고

봄은 피빛으로 아픈 우리들의 계절

다시 블라우스 짓붉은 단추를 꼬옥 따면

나비 한 마리

잠들어 있을 것만 같다

가슴 새 바람 베고

내가 나비일 것만 같다.          1989, 어느 봄날

Scarcely had I sent her my gift, when she gave me her repl mail.

Dear. Enaro

In this cloudy day, i enjoyed from your e-mail and poem. You seem to have much sensibilities to small affairs and tiny objects which people can't notice. You are attractive person to me. I have never written my own poem until now. Compared with you, I must be a dry person. I always appreciate your poem with all my heart and pleasure. These days you couldn't meet me in the chatting room. Actually i feel i am addicted with the room so much. so i restrict myself to get in the room until i can control myself. Even if you can't meet me directly, don't be sorry about that. I need some time to try to test myself. Please understand me. Instead, i will send e-mail more often. Now here in chun-cheon. there is heavy cloudy and strong wind. Maybe it will rain soon or later. It will be so grateful thing to a farmer or other persons who are waiting for rain. Now i will tell about your question. She who mentioned in your mail is rain.

Have a good day and i am always grateful your e-mail and poems.

Sincerely yours               Yang mi ok from chun-cheon.

Dear Yangmi

Every evening I am waiting for you to visit English chatting rooms, First steps in English and Living English.

I will look forward to your entering one of two rooms this evening.

It is not an addition. It is good to use English every day to broaden your abilities. I am obstinate and aggressive(active) Please understand me.

faithfully yours          from Mr. ENARO Jeong Bong-hyun in Jinju

Thursday ,       May , 31 , 2001 ,                                      warm .

My coworker working in an accounting department made me so upset.

She was so rude that I was unpleasant all afternoon. She is like fox.

My favorite baseball player, Park Chan-ho, had a game against Colorado Rockies team and his team won 4 to 1 thanks to him. Today he did a very great pitching. Way to go! Park! Go on! Win! Win! Win! Win!

I sent a mail to my university friend who lives in USA.

Title: Do you have a good time?

Hi!  Long time no see. I'm ENARO, Bonghyun, in Jinju.

I read your writing listed in the homepage of your old club, Sinaraejin. I realize once more the influence of computer is great. You will go forward to achieve your long-range goal. I am fine.

And I also wrote down my essay entitled,"Love ans Marriage" in the name of ENARO. If you are free, I hope you read my writing and send me your kind mail. Stay in a good shape and be happy.

affectionately yours          from Mr. ENARO in your homwtown

Friday ,         June , 1 , 2001 ,                                           hot .

My son! I could not wake up in time because I drank a lot last night, so I was very late for my office. After I returned to my house at night, I apologized to my wife for my fault. I felt so sorry to my family, especially my wife, my mother, and my son. From now on I will take care of myself and love myself. As my wife said, my body is not mine, but my family's. I will never be miserable again.

Saturday ,         June , 2 , 2001 ,                                       very hot .

I didn't get paid my salary of last month yet like all my companions. A pay day passed more than a week. Our employer, Kim Sung-soo, is like beast. He is never human being. I am sure that he will regret his misdemeanor someday. I would like to get even with him as soon as possible. He must realize man is much more important than money. He deserves to be cursed. These days I abominate an accounting worker, Kang Yoon-a, and Kim Sung-soo. Fucking persons! Go to hell!

At 2 o'clock p.m., I had an urgent meeting with my students in our classroom. Though I was so tired and had a slight headache, I had to take part in it. It was held for about 2 hours. While hearing from them  complaints about their institute, I made up my mind to lead my class to the best one from next Monday. After it was over, I felt more or less comfortable. Now I have to create myself again, however hard it may be. Otherwise, I won't feel the needs to live in this world. I have no time to wander. I must go forward without stopping.

Sunday ,      June, 3 , 2001 ,                                  hot but a little windy.

My lovely son, Hee-seok! Your mother couldn't get a sound sleep last night, for you was very sick and went on crying. Your mom had to stayed up nearly all night. But she worried not so much about health of herself as about your pain. Even in the morning, you worried us, your mom and dad. Three days have passed since you caught the disease. In the evening, your mom had to clean the house, wash the laundry, iron the clothes and so forth. She had much housework to do. After you and I took a simple bath in the bathroom inside our house, we met your second uncle's family and went to your grandfather's country by car. On the way there, you had a sound sleep, and you didn't wake up at your grandfather's tomb, taking a walk in the dreamland even on our way home. But an unexpected thing happened to your health. Your body has lost fever which has controlled all your body. I couldn't find it even on your forehead. I thought your grandfather had treated your illness. I really believe it. And your mother and I hope you won't be sick again like your grandmother. Your mother will get a very sound sleep tonight with face smiling.

I made a promise to stop smoking yesterday, which harmed your father's health. Though it is so hard, I will continue to keep it.

Monday ,         June, 4 , 2001 ,                              misty, cloudy and hot.

Today I had a tough time overcoming withdrawal symptom resulting from stopping a bad habit, such as quitting smoking or drinking. I was obviously conscious that I should drive the bad habit out of my daily lives, because it was never helpful of my mind and body. On the contrary, it has damaged my lives since I began to smoke. I had decided to stop it a few times before, but it had survived my willpower. This time, I will get rid of the satan with all my spirit.

For the time being, it will bother me. In other words, I will have to light a cigarette several times a day, but in time it will be overwhelmed by my mental power. Unless I accomplish this purpose, I won't be able to do anything, as my wife said before. Today I feel my head emptied and I want to sleep all day. Now I can't be in the right mind. Everything appears to be faint. But I know I should beat them.

Tuesday ,        June, 5 , 2001 ,                                         drizzly .

Hey Yangmi!

What have you been up to?

These days I am in the toughest period of this year.

Everything is on the other side of my part, even myself.

I knew this world would be so terrible to live in, but I didn't think of a difficult situation like this even in my dream.

"Life is full of ups and downs."

"Every cloud has a silver lining."

"Every man has his day."

I will be out of this fucking fix very soon.

Nothing can stand in my way, 'cause I know that the rougher the route I choose may be, the harder I must work. I'm strong.

I would like to yell at this dirty world with all my voice.

Don't be depressed and keep your chin up!

faithfully yours    From Mr. ENARO on a dizzy corner in this world

These are  invaluable expressions in e-mailing.

<간편한 줄임말들>

ASAP:As soon as possible                 AFAI:As far as I'm concerned

AKA:Also known as                          BFN:Bye for now

FAQ:Frequently asked questions         THX(TNX):Thanks

BRB:Be right back     IMO:In my opinion        Sup?:What's up?

<잘 쓰는 Smiley>

:-) : happy         :-( : upset            :-D : laughing

;-) : crying        :-O : shocked        :-p : sticking tongue out

Now I am ;-) & :-(

My mother had my son's hair cut and took him to the hospital. There were many tiny red goose flesh or something all over his body. But a doctor told us that he was recovering and that soon he would stay in a good shape. After hearing him, we could be relieved. It is drizzly.

Wednesday ,         June , 6 , 2001 ,                                 hot .

Today was the Memorial Day when people in this country were supposed to honor the sacred who sacrificed their lives without hoping any returns and to present condolences to them. But I didn't it. I drank like fish with my colleagues last night and I didn't return to my home until this dawn. It was a very pleasant event.

One of my former students, Kim Dong-ook, sent me a mail including a difficult question. So I taught him by means of my reply mail.

Title: 선생님 질문 있는데요

이거..디딤돌 외국어영역 유형편 149쪽 8번 문제인데요..  본문 5번째 줄에

"However, it was not the kind of explosion (in which) matter flies out space."

문장에서요,, 괄호 안에 in which 에서 in 이 어떻게 왔는지 잘 모르겠는데요..

좀 갈켜 주십시오..

근데 선생님.. 이거는 학생들한테 제발 말하지 말아 주십시오.. 저번에 가정법 선생님한테 질문했는데.. 선생님께서 그걸 교실에 붙이셨다는 말을 듣고 민망해 죽는 줄 알았습니다. 제발 이번에는 그렇게 하지 말아 주십시오..

Title: This is the answer to your question.

Dear Dong-ook  What have you been up to?

I am sure you have tried your best to accomplish your goal.

Now summer, the season of temptation and nap, has been visiting us.

As you know, every student must get over negligence it may trigger.

I really hope that you bear in mind sloth makes all the things far more difficult, while industry makes all the things much easier.

This is the answer to your question.

"However, it was not the kind of explosion (in which) matter flies out space"

위 문장은 "However, it was not the kind of explosion."와

"Matter flies out space in the explosion."이 결합된 것이다.

위 문장들에서 앞 문장의 explosion이 선행사가 되고, 다음 문장의 the explosion이 관계대명사가 되어 하나의 문장으로 결합된 것이지. 그러니까 당연히 전치사 'in'은 문미에 있거나 관계대명사앞에 와야 한다. 그렇지 않으면, 틀린 문장이 된다. 두 번째 문장에서 'in'을 빼면 그 문장은 아예 비문법적 문장이 된다는 것을 너는 알 수 있을 것이다.

두 번째 문장의 해석은 "물질은 (폭발할 때) 우주밖으로 날아가 버린다."이다.

Did you get a picture? Otherwise, call me up.

My cellular phone number is 016-591-3872.

I will promise not to mention your question to my lovely students.

And, as far as last question is concerned, I think you can understand my situation. I'm sorry for that.

Take care and try your best in everything.

affectionately yours                    from Mr.ENARO in my room

Thursday ,        June , 7 , 2001 ,                                 so hot .

It chanced that I met her at the English chatting room. She told me a few days ago that she wouldn't visit chatting room for the time being. But she was chatting with another person. I felt a little upset, but, on the other hand, I was so glad to see her there again.

In addition, she promised to telephone me at 1:00 p.m. tomorrow.

I was so excited at thinking of talking with her on the phone all the morning. At last my cell phone rang and I answered  it at once. We felt a little awkward, but we talked for over 17 minutes in a comfortale atmosphere. I then sent her two mails longing to meet her someday. I am sure, by her voice, she is a very kind and good woman.

Title:Thank you so much for your change .

Hi Yangmi

Thanks to you, I could have a very enjoyable day. As I have thought, your voice was too sweet and attractive for me  to quench the excitement at your first sound. Now the feeling still remains in my heart. I appreciate your kindness once again. It is natural that world should change and that every humankind change, since all of us live in that world. By not denying but accepting the change, we need to make our lives meaningful. Today's change was so positive and desirable, I think. Have only lucky days and take care of yourself whenever you drive your car.

faithfully yours                  Mr. ENARO in my office

I dare to send you one of my old poems despite my great shame.

Though it is a little sad, please feel it.

산 불

불타오르는 산허리엔 아이가 있소

꽃나무 거머잡고 우는 아이가 있소

바위 뒤 불로 덮이어

아이는 보이지 않아도

울음소린 하늘에 닿고 있소

배고파 불을 먹는 울음소리는

미친 듯 불길 잡는 아낙이 있소

헤진 저고리와 빛 바랜 갈색 치마

통곡하는 아낙이 있소

이제 다 타버린 우리들 산

어둠마저 깃들고

저어기 별빛 내리는 곳으로 가면

아기의 주검이 있을 게요

허공을 휘젓던 손은 뼈만 앙상히

식을 수 없는 심장을 내사 어쩌겠소

그냥 가서 울 밖에

아낙과 같이

보일 수 없는 아기의 입술에

젖을 물리고

남편 타령 복타령하며

우는 아낙과 같이

땅을 치며 하늘 보며

울어 볼 밖에                    1984, 4, 22.

Friday ,           June , 8 , 2001 ,                              very hot .

One of my companions, Miss. Jeong eun-jin, sent me a mail.

To : 봉현샘        Title: Long time no see.

Most of your poems are so sad why? You and your life styles are pleasant and positive but your poem is quite opposite. If you write new poem some day , please show me happy ones. While I am appreciating your poem my heart is crying. I`d like to cry any more whatever the reason is.  By the way how`s going preparation for translating test?  You will get a excellent grade obviously. It`s time to ride a bus. See you tomorrow. Thanks for your own writing poem. Have a good night!

This writing from below is the mail Yangmi, my intimate English e-mail friend, sent me after she had talked with me on the phone.

Hello, Enaro

Thank you so much for your letter and your poem.

Yesterday I was so glad to meet each other through the phone. In your voice, I felt that you take a prudent attitude to me and you are kind person to others. If I have time to write often, I will write. But these days I have to do much work. Because our school doesn't have many teachers, so each one has to deal with many kinds of documents and duties in a day. So I felt that I wouldn't have  chance to send you mails as many times as you sent to me, I always sorry for that. But now I don't think about that any more.  Anyway I was so happy to get in touch with you directly.

About your poems, you have been writing poems for many years. I think your poem is very good and thoughtful and well done. How about having a chance to publish a magazine or newspaper or etc....

I think you will be...certainly....

Enaro,

After calling I feel that you are an adult not a brother, it is some funny thing to me. Please have a good day and take good care of you.

See ya.

The following writing is the mail my new English e-mail friend sent me for the first time. She lives in Dae-gu, age 25 and gender single.

hi enaro??? oh my senior....kkk...

how are you today? i'm really good.. it's shiny and windy day..i love that... what a wonderful day..let's go out with me...don't work any more..kkk..just my hope.. how about there?? jinju... sunny day, too.

enaro... how many times we've met before??

well...you look so kind, funny and serious man. i think.. just in my imagination... anyway..glad to meet you so much..really...... we can be good e-mail friends..but actually i'm not good at english..don't expect me..plz~~TT how did you learn your english?? i think your english is so good...what a brilliant guy.. you have a beautiful wife and a strong son. have great job, can speak in english well.wow~~!!

you're perfect..^^* INVU~~~~~~!!

my senior...

let me know about your tips...i wanna be like you..kkk...

i'm going to finish now...have to work again.. bye.. and see you next!!

This long writing from below is my reply mail I sent to my new English e-mail friend, Kim Kyung-min, 25, single who lives in Dae-gu.

Title: Half begun is half done.

Hey, Applemin! (Applemin is her nickname used in the chatting room)

First of all, I would love to appreciate your first lovely English e-mail including your kind compliment and positive thinking of me. You must be a lady with cheerful, active and optimistic personality, I bet. What's better, unlike your saying, you have a good command of English. Probably you will be very helpful to me from now on. I have a heart for telling a competent person from an incompetent one. Obviously you belong to the former, never the latter. Scratch my back, and I will scratch your back. That is to say, roll my log, and I'll roll yours. If we can do so, as you said in your e-mail, we will be able to become good English e-mail friends forever. Shall we dance to our favorite song to make our relationships more and more intimate?^^ In my thought, my first mail appears a little aggressive, doesn't it?  Sweet Apple!  It is a hot day with sunshine here in Jinju. Sometimes gentle breezes float into my office through the windows from the near mountains, but I am yearning to be caught in a shower or something like almost all the people in this country. Yes, I will come up to you like a sweet rain by means of English e-mails. You have already been my sweet rain. I will look forward to hearing from you soon. Have only lucky days!

cordially yours                 from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

P.S.:My real name is Jeong Bong-hyun. But, please call me Mr. ENARO.

Today I have been tired all day despite a long nap. What's worse, I have a sore throat. I wanna take a sound and comfortable rest soon.

Saturday ,        June , 9 , 2001 ,                       misty, cloudy, and hot .

Last night I suffered from a terrible pain in my mouth, and I was not able to have a sound sleep. These days I have a sore throat due to such a horrible inflammation in my mouth that I can't enjoy my daily lives as usual. The weather is, what's worse, awfully hot. I want to get better very soon and enjoy a delicious meal.

The following letter is my reply mail I sent to my step-sister, Miss Jeong, yesterday. At present, her father is suffering from a cancer.

Title: Thank you very much for your card mail.

Hey, Dong-sang!   What have you been up to?

These days it is so hot, isn't it? I don't like this sultry summer weather. I have already been tired of it. If I could take several days off, I would go to a cool valley at the foot of scenic mountain.

What an egoistic world!    I know I don't deserve your step-brother, but I really hope your father will get better very soon. How is your father nowadays? You should love him, even his dirtiest figure, and take good care of him. I believe you have done well. Heaven helps those who help themselves, you must bear in mind. I will send your family the god of HOPE.  Have only lucky days!

faithfully yours            from ENARO in a hot day

P.S.:Without regard to atmosphere of the poem,

would you like to appreciate poems or something?

My new e-mail friend, Applemin in Daegu, sent me her lovely card mail. She seems to be a kind and sincere person.

Title: oh,my enaro~~!!

hi, my friend~~~senior~!!   how are you today?? couldn''t be better to me^^*   you know...it is saturday...wow~!!  every saturday makes me be happy^^*  i''ll go back to daegu as soon as i finish my work..i love daegu..oh my hometown... how about you? do you have any special plan for your weekend or for your beautiful wife and son...??? i hope you have... enaro~~!!  have a ultra wonderful weekend..and see you later...

byebye!!

I sent two reply mails to my English email friends, Yangmi and Apple

Title: Have a fantastic weekend!

Hey, Applemin!  You must be a real dandy. I got carried away by your KISS. Thank you very much. In return for that, I am sending you my heartful present. It is a very delicious watermelon produced only in Jinju. I have just cut it in a proper size. Please just enjoy it and have a nice weekend! See ya.

faithfully yours          from  Mr. ENARO in my office

P.S:I wonder if you like to read poems.

My office will need me tomorrow. Namely, tomorrow is my on-duty        day. My mood is :-(

Hi, Yangmi

How are you today?

I got carried away by your mail. I will welcome your news at all times. In return for that, I am sending you my heartful gift, a  delicious watermelon produced only in Jinju. I have just cut it in a proper size. Please just enjoy it and have a nice weekend!

Since I talked with you on the phone, I have been hesitating whether to phone you and when to do it. Frankly, I am a little shy.

P.S.:Unfortunately, tomorrow is my on-duty day. My mood is :-(                   faithfully  yours      from Mr.ENARO in my office

I took my family, my wife and my son, to my father's country by my car and I pulled up the untidy weeds around his tomb. Probably he might be so happy to feel cleanness and coolness. Afterwards, we met my mother in front of MunHwa Art Center in Chil-am district and we watched a variety of performances there. My wife and I were happy that my mother was so glad to see real professional singers singing, All of us, even my son, had a very pleasant evening.

Sunday ,       June , 10 , 2001 ,                                humid and sultry .

I woke up at 5:40 this morning to watch my favorite baseball player, Park Chan-ho, play in an important game, though I was sick and  tired. Like me, he was not in the right condition. Nevertheless, though he tried his best, he was neither winner nor loser. It's life.

Today I received two kind and lovely e-mails. One is from one of my present students, Lim So-ra, and the other is from one of my English e-mail friends, Yangmi. In return for those, I wrote letters to them. Hi ENARO

Today is hot. How are you? I'm fine. Did you see a movie "Friend"?

I saw it two weeks ago with Ji-eun. It is about four friends. It's very interesting!! Four characters are unique. Two are gang and the others are ordinary. Actors are great and handsome, but screen is cruel. After seeing a movie, I thought about friend.

Do you have true friend?  Bye. See you later.

Title: This is my invaluable present.

Hey, sora

As you said, it is so hot. What have you been up to?

Above all, I feel so grateful to you for your faithful mail. In addition, I am so glad to confirm your abilities to use English. You will be able to speak English as eloquently as native speakers next year, I am sure. Of course, you must accomplish your goal of this year through strenuous endeavors. In that process, your English will be improved without fail. Summer, the season of temptation, sloth and nap, has already visited us. Probably your success depends upon your willpower to defeat such evil foes. I really hope you always have in mind "sloth makes all things far more difficult, while industry makes all things even easier. Stay in a good shape and try your best to fulfill your dream. See ya.

sincerely yours                       from Mr. ENARO in my office

P.S.:As a matter of fact, I have never enjoyed the movie at the             theater for about 7 years.

Dear.Enaro

It is splendid sunday morning. As you said to me yesterday, i think that you are staying your office now. So i tried to get in the living room of the Eng chat several times, but you weren't there. Maybe you are busy some other works. In my case, i have to stay on duty day on sunday, i really hate and bored in a day. How about you?

Now i am alone in my house. Elder son went out to take a bath and the younger one is enjoying his bike and my hus went out to his office.

Now i enjoy my free time and i can use the computer.

Yesterday after taking your e-mail, i was very happy while listing the beautiful music. You touched and moved my mind. I think you are very sentimental person(다정다감한사람). And your wife and son will be happy with you all the time. Thanks again for your mail.

Enaro, i don't know when i will be have my free time afterward . If i be with my sons, i can not use my com. Because they want to use it whenever i sit in front of com. A certain time, i want to be a solo.(huhu) If i have my own time, i want to chat with you.

Today i have no special plan to enjoy sunny day. I will stay my house and do my housechores and read books and take a rest.

Have a good time in your office.  See ya.

Title: How do you feel about my character?

Dear Yangmi

It is very humid and sultry today. How about there? I am asking a silly question. The weather is usually the same in small Korea, isn't it? But even the bad weather hasn't bothered your peaceful holiday, I hope.

Hardly had I arrived at my office this morning, when I powered on the computer and checked my mail box. I noticed new two mails in it. One is from Lim So-ra, one of my present students and the other from you. (Every student in my class is supposed to send me his or her English e-mail on weekends, of course, in turn.) I felt regretful of finding your mail late. Is it a strange thing that I wait for you to phone or send a mail? To be frank with you, whenever I confirm yours of many mails, a happy mood whirls around me. Yes, it is a funny thing. How about you? And what do you think about my character? By any chance, do you think I am childish? When one is sick, he or she turns childish. Anyway I am very much obliged to you. Always stay in a good shape. And Good luck to your family. See you later.

faithfully yours               from Mr.ENARO in my office

P.S.:Today I visited the site you have liked and taught. Perhaps it         will seem to be my main pastime. Thank you for teaching me. My          nickname in the chatting room is "sinasong=시나 노래".

Monday ,           June , 11 , 2001 ,                            so hot .

My coworker, Miss Jeong, sent me a mail and I seme her me reply mail. And there was nothing special to me today.

Title: Hi!

What are you doing now? Did you have lunch ?  How was your weekend?

On Saturday I had to come to the office ,yesterday I met my friend.

We drove along the early summer scenes. In the shadow happy families took a rest, some took a sweet nap , others were playing badminton, riding a rollerskates etc. Though I don`t like the summer ,yesterday was very pleased to see that sights. At first my dad could`t eat anything but he can eat soft food even though rice. This Friday he`s going to enter hospital and he`s going to be examined his condition of disease. All we hope that we will be able to hear good news that day. ASAP we and you can hear happy news about my father I`m sure.

Today is Monday the beginning of the new labor days.

Enjoy your happy life and take care!!!  your sincerely

Title: I am so glad to hear your father is getting better.

Dear Miss Jeong

You must have enjoyed your weekend, though the weather was so humid and sultry. Everything is up to his or her mind. Content is happiness. That's right. Your bright appearance makes your family pleasant. And so do I. In addition, the news your father has been recovering brings me another hope. I would love to congratulate your family and your father for improvement of his illness. Please keep on encouraging your father to defeat the disease.

These days I have been suffering from the inflammation in my mouth. It even made me not speak a word and eat any food. What's worse, the weather was so bad to me. They got annoying and taxing. Now the terrible ailment is giving me a bitter pain, though it has somewhat got better. When one is sick, he or she turns childish. I don't know the reason why one gets narrow-minded in his or her sickness, but it seems like the truth. Therefore, you and your family don't think of your present father as former, healthy, father. It is necessary that all your family members should treat him as not a breadwinner but as only a patient.

Anyway I am so glad to hear your happy news. And I am very much obliged to your mail. Have only lucky days and go on to be happy.

sincerely yours           Mr. ENARO in my office

The following note is the writing sent to me by Yangmi.

hi, there

Maybe you put out your com to give good lectures to your students.

How was your day? i think i spent some boring day..

And my com didn't work well. and the weather was very hot, Especially here chuncheon, everyday is very hot up to 35 degrees.

How about your throat? is it getting better? don't over work.

i hope that you will get better soon.

see ya,

This is my reply note I sent to my English e-mail friend, Yangmi.

hi  I,m fine. Though it is somewhat hot, I can stand it. Though my throat is sore, I can get over it. The room you taught me was very nice in many ways. I will often drop by the room and listen to beautiful songs. If you can be with me, it couldn't be better.^^

Thank you for your note and have a nice day. See you

*I received "note" for the first time.

Tuesday ,         June , 12 , 2001 ,                             humid and sultry .

My new English mail friend, Kim kyungmin, who lived in Daegu sent me her kind mail. It is very hot and taxing. That's all. That's it.

MR.ENARO...!! i can''t believe it.. what a brilliant and what a nice father!! i got your mail...thank you so much for your tips really..

as you know..i''m in age of thinking about marrige..25 yrs old...

it is called "golden age" in our life... but i don''t know how wonderful my life is. now.. i''m so serious about my marrige and i''m on my guard when i meet some man for marrige.ooops!! actually i don''t wanna get marry now... i just need something fresh these days...not a man^^ i hope you can help me to get something fresh..kkk... i''m expecting now..enaro...

well..anyway..

you made me surprise and made me trust you... i trust you like your son^^ i''m really proud of you,enaro..and respect as my senior..

if i need your help about my marrige..i''ll ask you without hesitation...^^* thanks about that...really... what a nice day! have a great day...with your family.. i envy you really..

enaro.. see you next..bye~!! ps. sorry for being late to answer you..

Wednesday ,        June , 13 , 2001 ,                cloudy and drizzly . .

One of my English e-mail friends, Kim kyung-min, sent me two e-mails.

and I gave her my reply mail. At last today it has been raining since this afternoon. It is a bliss of heaven. Thanks Buddha so much!

Title:  mr..enaro!!  how are you enaro? it is too cloudy and a little cold..today...it makes me gloomy... enaro... did you write that??...a poem to your father...how wonderful poem..!! i can't believe it.. i love poem so much..i love yours,too^^ when i was high school student..i infatuated with poem...wrote some.. but i'm not confident of them..i just enjoy writing something...poem,diary..and so on!! it flashed through my mind at that time... are you a poem,enaro?? you are...you are.. so senstive and romatic i think... anyway.. i love you and i love your poem..i love all of thing with me.. thanks enaro..oh my senior... it is a little chilly day..take care..and have fun!!

Title:  Please help me out!

Dear A Beauty!

The sky here in Jinju is covered with cloud and it has been drizzling like your city. But, never be gloomy. Every cloud has a silver lining. In addition, most of the people in this country have longed for rain for a very long time. It is an obvious bless of heaven. It is another name of happiness. Though the weather makes you gloomy, never be sad or angry. Right?

But, I am a little depressed. These days I can't be satisfied with my lectures. Yes, it's so hot. It makes me annoyed. I don't like this summer. The season resulting in several temptation, nap and sloth has been driving me crazy. I wanna escape from this horrible blind alley ASAP. How about you? Do you like summer? Because you are energetic and cheerful, chances are much higher that you can adapt yourself to every season, I think. By any chance, do you have any good method to melt this taxing season? If so, I would very much love to adopt it as my solution. Please help me defeat that evil foe. See you later and have a nice day.

cordially yours                   from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

P.S.:The fact that I can't give you a good news makes me sorry.

And it is fortunate that you have liked the poem I sent you.

If you would like to read my lowly poems, I will deliver them to       you by e-mail.

Title:  enaro~~!!

enaro... i don't like summer,too...but actually i hate winter worst...^^

i'm so senstive to cold..that's not good for me...TT i don't like to rain..actually..but not in this case.. we need to rain..and it made us be happy and gave some hopes...you know.. i love your poem..send me your poems.plz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!  enaro.. have to work again TT..

it's cold today..take care,my senior.. see you next~!!

Thursday ,             June , 14 , 2001 ,                         cloudy .

It rained all day long yesterday. It must have relieved worries of people suffering from a long drought. I wished it had rained a little longer. Anyway it is fortunate that this country is blessed.

What is life? I thought of it, wrote about it and sent it to Yangmi.

Dear yangmi!

As a whole, rain makes people blue and reminds them of their own beautiful reminiscences. Even some ordinary people want to be a poet feeling the messenger delivering the news of heaven. How about you?

When it stops, people are back to their unavoidable reality, as if to forget their past. Time and tide run after them right behind them and don't let even their shadows wander between on the road taken and on the road not taken. In such a process of life, most of the people kill themselves slowly, piece by piece. And, in the end, they vanish beyond this world as though the drops of rain fly to the sky, chased by the spirit of sun. Yes, it is life. We are helpless. No one can escape from this truth. But we must try our best in our life not to love such a miserable destiny but to kiss on the hopeful side of our destiny. Let's have the way of life like that. When in a sad mood, we should weep vomiting all our agony, and when in a good mood, we should reveal our laughter through all our body. Let's do it! No matter how so difficult life in this world may be, we can have a confidence to decorate it with value and significance. It is to be our motto of accepting our life. Now we are ready to sing a meaningful life. Shall we make an enjoyable exploration riding in the wind of destiny? What a magnificent world this is! Smile at your world and have nice days!

See you later.  affectionately yours      from Mr. TRULY in my office

Saturday ,         June , 15 , 2001 ,                    sunn and a little hot .

My companion, Jeong Eun-jin, sent me a mail.

You had better became a writer or poet. Everytime I receive your letter I feel like that. The chief teacher ( Mr. Shim ) may say your are a specially ,that is SONSU. Your sentences are so sweet and make people feel indulged in that words. What do you think of my thoughts? But it is the ability of you and your skill that express your thoughts. In short, I agree with you , thanks your innocent words. With best wishes! Eunjin.

My English mail friend, Kim Kyung-min, sent me a mail in Korean.

안녕...에나로..

오늘은 그냥 한글로 쓰고 싶은데..괜찮겠죠?? 에나로씨...친오빠 같고..학교 친한 선배 같아 대하기가 참 편하네요.. 사실...어제..출신 대학을 물어보셨을 때...뜨끔했어요.. 왜냐구요?? 제가 원해서 간 대학이 아니라..다 떨어지고 3지망으로 간 대학이거든요... 재수하라시던 부모님의 강요같은 권유에도 불구하고 어렵게 선택한 대학이었어요.. 처음으로 스스로 내린 결정이었죠...^^  대학에 대한 욕심이 과했고..또 재수할 자신은 아예 없었고.. 다들 더 나은 도시로..서울로 떠나갈 때..전 눈물을 머금고..태어나 처음 가 보는 울산이란 곳을 왔어요.. 그 잘난 자존심 덕분에 제가 선택한 식품영양학과에서 4년 장학생..5개의 자격증..두 동아리 활동...과대..총무..모든 걸 거뜬히 해냈어요..전 그런 식으로라도 제 자신에 대한 확신과 믿음을 드 높이고 싶었어요.. 전공 덕분에 고향인 대구에서 영양사도 해보고 했지만..제 적성에는 영~안 맞던걸요..그래서 다시 울산에서 새로운 일을 하게 된거예요.. 제 일에 만족하냐구요? 아뇨..아직...제가 정말 하고 싶은 일이 뭔지를 찾아야죠...일을 즐기면서 평생할 수 있는 일을... 요즘은... 정말 제 미래가 걱정이 돼요..남자 친구랑 헤어진지두 얼마 안되고..또 새로운 것에 적응을 할려니.. 당신의 사랑과 결혼에 대한 충고는 제게 큰 도움이 될 것 같아요..앞으로..내 가까운 미래에.. 에나로씨.. 제가 너무 한풀이만 했나요?? 그랬다면 정말 죄송해요..마음 놓고 속사정 털어 놓을 수 있는 분이 당신인 것 같아서...고등학교 때...한창 時에 빠져서 성적관리도 안되고 했죠..^^ 오늘은 날씨가 화창하고 상쾌하네요.. 창문을 열고 이 밝고 화창한 날을 한번 느껴 보세요..그리구..즐기세요.. 당신의 하루하루가 소중한 시간 되길 기원하면서 오늘은 이만 적을게요.. 안녕...에나로...  - 멀리서 애플민으로부터

ps..당신의 時는 제 가슴 가득히 간직하겠습니다..감사합니다..

My students today took the fourth preliminary test of this year.

Their facial expressions looks depressed because it was difficult.

Saturday ,         June , 16 , 2001 ,                  cloudy and warm .       Since I got paid 1 million won in return for my private lesson today, I was very happy. But I drank a liquor with one of my old friends, Cho Jae-keum, very much at night and so I spent so much money, 300,000 won, having a drink. It was really a regretful night. From now on, I was determined not to make such a mistake again. Before I had gone out of my house to have a drink, I sent a few e-mails to my friends, Yangmi, Eunjin, and Kyeongmin. The following writing is one of the emails which was sent to my friend, Kyeongmin.

Title: TBIF(Thanks Buddha Its Friday)

Hi! Have you enjoyed your weekday? I was able to assure by your e-mail you were a pretty competent and confident lady. You can do whatever you want, I bet. I have a mysterious power to measure someone's ability. You need to trust me. I'm your mentor.^^ Tomorrow is Saturday. Have this world for yourselves. Well, see you.

faithfully yours            from Mr. ENARO in my room

Sunday ,         June , 17 , 2001 ,                                  a little warm.

Nowadays I have had the feeling of guilt against my family, because I have fallen in love with some woman. Though I know I should not do such a behavior, I can't help it. I would be faithful of my feeling.

In my death, my son will read my diary, but I only hope my wife and he will understand my mind. And so I am writing down this love email.

"Dear Yang Mi-ok!

By any chance, are you in front of your computer now?

It has been really a long weekend because I have missed you.

Have you had a nice weekend? I hope you have enjoyed this holiday.

Do you know my mind? I miss your everything such as your voice and

your laughter...even your thought. Don't blame me. It is my real feeling towards you. Now in more than 2 hours, we will have a new week. Yes, on Monday. I can meet you and hear your voice, I can't wait it any more. I would very much love to ask a favor of you.

Would you please like to be my affectionate sweetheart forever?

Of course, I don't require you to leave your home. This world seems to be so hard to live in wituout love. Mysteriously, I have fallen in love with someone again. It is the very you. I am happy. I want to respect this feeling. How do you feel about my confession?

affectionately yours             from Jeong Bong-hyun in Jinju"

As I drank like a fish last night and I got up late this morning, I was not able to go to my father's land. Somehow it can be my pretext.

Next weekend I will necessarily call on him with all my family.

Monday ,         June , 18 , 2001 ,                                 heavy rain .

The weatherman said yesterday,“The rainy season will begin from today.” It turned out to be a truth. It has been raining like cats and dogs. Today I received four e-mails and sent three e-mails.

선생님  저 내일부터 학원 갑니다 그 동안은 혼자서 공부했습니다 낼 부터 죽도록해야겠죠? 학교들 방학했을 텐데 애들은 많이들 들어왔습니까? 영어실력도 딸리고 시간도 부족하다 보니 선생님께 영어로 쓰진 못하겠네요 선생님 말대로 쬐금은 후회되지만 그냥 하기로 한거 미친듯이 해야죠 그동안 이제부터 정말 열심히 할려고 지리산도갔다오고 했는데 잘 될는지...... 그냥 아무 생각없이 공부만 하는수 밖에 더 있겠습니까.

제가 학원을 나왔지만 학원에 대해서 좋지않은 감정이 있는건 절대 아닙니다 그래도 선생님에 대해서 좋은 기억으로 되어있으니깐요 이제 저도 일찍 자야겠네요 선생님 건강하시구요 다음에 또 메일 쓰겠습니다 그럼 이만

Title:  Thank you so much for your kind mail.

Hey, my previous student, Lee Byeong-yong!

To begin with, I feel so much grateful to you for sending me your second mail, even though I got angry to you on the phone. I am regretful of that. I earnestly hope that you have understood my real mind. In my point of view, your drawback is that you are so unhealthy and negligent that you don't concentrate on your studying. If you continue to have such a bad studying habit, you won't pass the university entrance examination this year. You must keep in mind the words,"Sloth makes all things much more difficult, while industry makes all things far easier". I have known you are very smart and wise. You must be able to add your new good studying habit to your magnificent abilities, and you will necessarily succeed in your life, I bet. It is raining like cats and dogs now. It is a rainy season. You had better get rid of your bad habit with the rain.

You can do it. You can do whatever you want. Don't let me down from now on. Though you have already known the contents of your classes, you should always pay attention to them. Finally, I really hope you can overcome and control yourself under any circumstances. Self-denial is a necessary factor in your studying. Take care and try your best in everything.

cordially yours                 from Mr. ENARO in my office

Title:  선생님,,

이번 모의고사 허벗습니다.... 언어랑 수탐1은 저번이랑 똑같은데.. 수탐2의 생물2가 좀 어려워서,, 2개 틀렸습니다.. 그리고 외국어에서 2개나 틀렸습니다.  듣기랑.. 문장 중간에 문장 삽입하는걸 틀렸습니다.. 그래서 총점이 90점에서 좀 모자랍니다. 이번 시험에서 성적 하락의 원인은 아마도 생물2를 못쳤다는 생각으로 4교시 영어에 임해서 4교시까지 못치게 된 같습니다. 그리고 듣기가 앞의 모의고사보다 좀 어려운거 같았습니다..

듣기가 요즘 좀 소홀해 지고 있는데 이제부터는 신경 써 해야 겠습니다.

다음 시험에선 앞시간 시험에 연연치 않고 시험을 치르도록 해야 겠습니다.

Title:  Cheer up and keep your chin up!

Hi, my permanent pupil, Kim Dong-uk!

It has been raining like cats and dogs today, as you know.

All of the people in this country, for a very long time, have looked forward to the beneficent visitor caressing all the lands of this country. At last, it called on us. It is the bless of heaven to us and another name of happiness for the farmers. You will, probably, agree with me. Like the grateful rain, your sincere e-mail made me very happy this morning. But the bad news you didn't get a good grade in your last preliminary test makes me think of you once again and write you this letter including my tips. Of course, I know that you are so smart and wise that sooner or later you will be able to correct your mistakes in that test and that you will make them your real knowledge. And ultimately, you will fulfill your final goal of this year. But you must bear in mind that you should acquire such an enormous competence and knowledge that you can go beyond even severe misfortune. Preliminary tests are only preliminary tests.

The more mistakes you can make in those tests, the more things you can learn. Mistake makes one perfect. You can never an exception of that truth, either. Cheer up and keep your chin up! You can do whatever you want. I trust you. And I would ask a favor of you. It is that you should get a perfect mark, 400 points, in your university entrance examination. You can do it, if only you try your best without stopping. Have a confidence to do it. It's the rainy season. Take care all the time and try, try, and try.

affectionately yours           from Mr. ENARO in teachers' room

title:  hiru...my enaro...

hiru....enaro...

how are you today?? i'm doing good..^^ it is raining now...open the window..and look at the outside.. can you see my tears?? *^^* and listening to the raining sound..i like that much..^^ raining in this case give us happiness and hopes..it can be help for farmer..you know... how was your weekend?? had fun with your family? i went back to my hometown..daegu..on Saturday.. i met my friends d talked each other about our problem and about marriage.. yes... it's age to talk about marriage..  enaro..      thanks for your kindness.. about me... so so much.. i mean it..enaro..^^ and your tips for love and marriage will be help for me..really... thanks again..  enaro..  enjoy raining day and have fun your life... see you next..  bbai bbai~~~~~~~!!

ps..please send me your poem.. i love them so much..^^

Title:  sweet Apple!

Hi, sweet Apple!

The titles in your e-mail are always funny enough to make me smile.

You must be healthy and sound not only in physical side but also in mental one. I really envy you. As you said in your e-mail, it is raining like cats and dogs here in jinju. It is, probably, another name of happiness to all the people in this country, especially to the farmers. But all good things tent to have bad side. Yes, it's a rainy season. Take care all the time. You will be my real English e-mail friend forever, if you want. Have only lucky days and be happy!  sincerely yours      from Mr. ENARO in teachers' room

P.S.:To my shame, I will send my old poem to you.

And I am always appreciating to you for praising my lowly poems.

詩

어느 날

어머니께서 내게 詩 한 수를 주셨다.

나는 누가 볼까 봐

내 사타구니에 몰래 밀어 넣었다, 그 詩를

그로 인해 그것은 부끄러운 씨앗이 되어버렸다.

해가 지나고 지나

구름이 몹시 괴롭던 그 날부터, 나는

그 詩를 만지락거리는 버릇이 생겼다.

내가 그 버릇에 익숙해질수록

詩는 자꾸만 자꾸만 커져 갔고,

어머니께선 여전히 그 詩의 주인인 만큼

그건 당신에 묻혀 최고로 아름다웠고

내겐 단지 하나의 이상일 뿐이었다.

다시 세월이 흘러, 당신께선

"이제 완전히 네 詩로 하려무나"하셨다

스물 둘이 되어

詩는 내게 새로운 의미로 바뀌고, 이젠

절대 변할 수 없는 思想이 되어 버렸다

아! 그 날 밤에

그 고운 밤에 그 詩를 반 쪽 떼어 그니에게 주었다,

영원히 간직하라며

그 전까지 그것은 나의 전부였었다.

1987, 7, 10.

Title: 오랫만에 보냅니다..^^

형...  어제 저녁부터 내리기 시작하던 비가 아직도 차분히 내리고 있네요.

헌데, 점심이 다가오자 후덥지근 한 것이 교수님한테 보고드릴 일이 있는데

약간의 긴장을 만들기에 제격이네요.. 우리 교수님은 흐린 날에 특히 도는 회수가 많거든요..(통계상) 지난 주에 배양기 실험을 통한 세포 성장 관찰 실험을  한 번 제대로 돌렸는데 세포의 최고 농도가 원하는 만큼 올라가지 않아서 이번 주에 동일 세포를 가지고 다시 한번 더 돌려 볼 생각이네요.. 그래서 만일 동일한 결과가 나온다면 다른 방법을 강구해서 다시 돌려보구... 50%의 만족을 하는 것은 배양기를 이용해서 한 번 완전하게 돌린 다음 마쳤다는 것이죠.. 지난 번에 배양기 실험을 다시 들어 갔다는 글을(아주 오래 전이지만)보냈기에 이렇게 결과가 나오고 나서 다시 글을 보냅니다... 형님도 잘 지내고 계시죠? 아마, 가끔씩은 술도 한잔 하시면서..헤헤 너무 많이는 드시지 마세요.. 말술에 장사 없다는 말이 있더군요... 형님은 새벽부터 밤늦게까지 몸을 혹사시키는데 약간의 쉬는 시간에 술을 너무 많이 마시면 체력이 무지무지 좋지 않은 한 힘들고 피곤한 생활만 할 것 같네요... 형 건강 생각해서 조금씩 드시구요... 기분나쁠 때는 특히 조금만 드세요... 기분이 좋으실 때는  조금만 더 드시구요... 건강하세요... 형수님과 희석에게도 안부 전해 주시구요... 요즈음은 현우가 많이 바쁜가 보네요... 편지도 안보내고... 아마 현우 아빠가 현우와 스케쥴이 맞지 않아서 컴 창을 띄워 주지를 못하나 봐요... 아님 현우가 무지 바쁘든지... 어머니는 가끔 전화통화 하니까... 그래도 안부 전해 주세요... 둘째형 셋째형.. 모두 잘 지내는 것 같더라구요.. 한 번씩 전화통화를 했거든요... 가족이 많으니 들어가는 이름도 무지 많네요...

이제 시험 감독 가야겠네요... 기말 고사 기간이라 장학조교라꼬 돈 쪼맨 받아노니까

이럴 때 불러서 일 시키네요.. 시간 수당1200원 주면서...헐.. 시간당 1200 이면 중학생이나 고등학생 아르바이트 값도 안되네요..ㅠ.ㅠ 그래도 주니까 받아야겠죠..^^

잘 지내세요.. 오랫만에 쓰다보니 평소보다 더 엉망이 된 것 같네요... 바이바이..

서울에서 막내 현이가..

Tuesday ,     June , 19 , 2001 ,                         sunny and so hot .

The rain stopped this afternoon. I thought it will last for a few days, but it was wrong. It is humid and so hot. In addition, fatigue bothers me all day. I didn't get a sound sleep because I had a good chatting time with yangmi for a long time. When it was over, it was at 2:30 a.m and I couldn't, what's worse, sleep like a log. The thought of her haunted me. I can't know what makes me such a person. The only fact I can be aware of is that I have fallen in love with her. She is 4 years senior to me and she has two good sons and a competent husband. But I can't control myself as well as can't suppress my desire. I want to regain serenity of my mind as soon as possible.

Wednesday ,         June , 20 , 2001 ,              cloudy, humid, and hot .

Today I was received two mails from my two English e-mail friend.

Dear enaro. < Yangmi>

today i met you only a few minute,,i feel some impatient because i can't meet you long. i think that it is possible for you and me to meet any time and every time in this cyber world..but it is my misunderstanding. You and I can meet only a short time in daytime.

now i some confused because my mind is only toward you...

i don't know if that kind of feeling is love or not.. Today i can't do anything in my office..you and I should be careful not to lose our daily life. i can't continue my mail. my mind is unstable now..and i know under this condition i should not have written my mail.

sorry, i can't continue ...      see you later..

Title:  you make me feel always...^^   <applemin>

hi...enaro...my enaro... i like your name...enaro..enaro..enaro.. i like it but don't know what it means.. could you tell me about your name..enaro..enaro..enaro..?? how are you?? i'm not so good thesedays..^^

it is so cloudy here...like my heart.. actually... i met my ex-boyfriend last night.. he told me he still loves me and he is waiting me to go back to him..ooops!! it's not easy problem.. how can i explain about my mind... i like him so much but it's not love...i think... hu~~~~~~~!! sorry really.. i don't wanna you to make gloomy. but i need your help as my real friend..^^ anyway..i'll be okay..soon..

as you told me..i'm so positive person..and i'm trying to be like that..always..^^ don't worry about that.. enaro.. thanks for your poems..all the times.. your poems make me feel something always.. i'll talk to you about your poems next time.. eanro..my eanro.. have a wonderful day....bye...bye..!!                 -from min in ulsan...

The following is my reply mail I sent my lovely Yang Mi-ok.

Title: How do you feel about my opinion?

Dear Mi-ok!

The unclear clouds are covering across the sky now. The dense fog is controlling this world below the heaven. The weather is liable to distract my mind today. But I know it is up to my consciousness whether I can enjoy myself and whether I can love this world or not. You can never be an exception of the truth. Human beings can't escape from the unchangeable principle of life. What kind of life do you want to have? Only you are able to respond to the question and be responsible for your answer to it. The die of life is cast. Choose whatever you want and never be regretful of your choice. As you told me the day before yesterday, a present love is more important than past and future one. When it comes to love, the maxim must be the best expression. Now I entirely agree with your thought. "To sweethearts, today is better and more beautiful than yesterday and tomorrow." Every couple needs to keep its calm meaning in mind.

It must also be one of the everlasting laws in our life. Now I am a servant to it like you. Never! I am the master of the law. How about you?

We chatted until 2:30 a.m. almost every night, and we couldn't get a sound sleep. While driving, don't be sleepy. Watch out. And always stay in a good shape. I am worried about your health. Have fun today. See you.  affectionately yours  from ENARO in Jinju

P.S.:I would love to be only your man forever.

The following is my reply mail sent to my English mail friend by me.

Title: This is my heart to your agony.

In my high school days, I have once been to O-dong Island in Yeo-su. There I noticed a significant rock on which a sad legend had been inscribed. Then, it made me fall in a deep thought. I send it to you.

오동도의 전설

동백꽃으로 피어난 여인의 순정

멀고 먼 옛날 오동숲 우거진 오동도에

금빛 봉황이 날아와

오동 열매 따서 먹으며 놀았더래

봉황이 깃든 곳에는

"새 임금님" 나신대, 소문이 나자

왕명으로 오동숲을 베었더래

그리고 긴 세월이 흐른 후

오동도엔

아리따운 여인과 한 어부가 살았더래

어느 날 도적떼에 쫒기던 여인

낭벼랑 창파에 몸을 던졌더래

바다에서 돌아온 지아비

소리소리 슬피 울며

오동도 기슭에 무덤을 지었더래

북풍 한설 내리치는 그 해 겨울부터

하얀 눈이 쌓인 무덤가에는

여인의 붉은 순정 동백꽃이 피어나고

그 푸른 정절 시누대가 돋았더래

After I had read it, I wrote this writing.

오동도의 전설

비 뿌리는 오동도 바위 무리는

억겁 세월을 끼고

쇠잔한 공간에 매인

설운 사연의 전설 꼬투리

그것을 달래기엔

부족했던 그 무엇이

동백이 되었구나

This is my heart to your agony.

전설 만들기

세상이 공허로 치뜨던 옛날에

몹시도 사랑한 연인이 있었다 하자

가위 바위 보가 지리하지 않을 만큼

열렬히도 사랑했고 포근했다 하자

그 사랑의 깊이로

여인은 사내를 떠나고

절망의 수렁에서 다시 돌아 온 그 여인을

다시 운명마냥 사랑했다 하자

-한 번의 배신은 반복을 요구한다.-

여인은 다시 떠나고

이제 돌이킬 수 없는 골이 생겼다 하자

여인은 세상을 돌아돌아 눈물 뿌리고

사내는 그 눈물따라 가슴을 찢었다 하자

-배신은 배신일 뿐 진실로 감쌀 수는 없다.-

여인의 눈물은 내가 되고, 강이 되고, 바다가 되고

비밀스런 의혹 모두의 바다가 되고

사내의 가슴은 언덕이 되고, 산이 되고

그리움에 매양 바다 찿는 산이 되었다 하자

1991. 11. 23.

It is up to you.

They are only my opinion.

The following is two mails I received today. One is from my English mail friend, Applemin, and the other is from my lovely Yangmi.

안녕...my lovely enaro... <applemin>

thanks for your poem...your poem makes me feel something and think something.. in this case..(i mean 전설만들기,오동도의 전설) they are so special to me.. thank you so so much...in my heart..

당신 詩를 처음 접했을 때...

생신...이라는 시를 처음 접했을때 부터...크나큰 감동의 물결이 제 마음을 뒤흔들어 놓았습니다.. 당신의 시는 읽으면 읽을수록 새롭고 당신의 생각과 진실함이 배어 있으며..

다양한 감정을 느끼게 합니다.. 때론 부드럽고 때론 단호하고..때론 깊은 사랑과 정을 담아 읽는 사람으로 하여금, 많은 생각과 감정을 느끼게 합니다.. enaro...

전 당신의 時를 사랑합니다. 읽고 또 읽고...읽을수록 더 깊이 빠져들며 ..당신과 함께 무언가를 공유한다는 생각이 듭니다. 기다려집니다..당신의 또 다른 매력 묻어있는 당신의 時가 기다려집니다. enaro..enaro..enaro.. 감사합니다. enaro..

당신은 참으로 제게 많은 도움을 주고 계십니다.. 심적으로 의지도 되고, 생각을 정리할 수 있게끔 길을 열어 주시는 것 같아요.. 알아요..알아요..중요한 건 제 자신이고..나머진 제 몫이라는 걸... 아무튼 감사합니다..당신의 친절한 호의와 충고에 정말 감사드립니다... 그리고...당신의 친구인 것이 자랑스럽습니다..enaro..enaro..enaro...

다음 詩 기대할게요...^^ 그럼..안녕..enaro..

ps.. 결혼을 몇 살에 하셨나요?? 그게 궁금해지네요..

Dear.ENARO

i was in my school in the afternoon because my attending for elementary school's opening class was put off the other day. So i was here in my seat. All afternoon what i did is that i printed your mail and poem and read carefully. Do you know that your letter get more and more profound? Did you ask to me what kind of life i want to live? i already said to you that i want to live another life, different life comparing with the one which i have lived until now. i want to live at random. But i also know that i can't live that kind of life....never... therefore, i fall into my dilemma which i can't solve for myself.  Enaro.

It is 4:25pm. Today i actually feel tired. and i have to attend small party at a chinese restaurant in this evening. After that i have to do another housework...take care of my kid and prepare for younger son's homework. and clean my house and laundry ..washing dishes..

i would like to escape from all my works. i know that it is really hard to be a good mom. and i am not good mom. i want to be alone from time to time at my own place. But it is also impossible to me. i was surrounded my family all the time. i know that family is precious to me and everyone. but sometimes i feel that i don't want any burden and any responsibility to others.

Enaro.  i will not get in the chat room at night..i have to be careful not to found out my hus... so...next week, if it is possible, i will go to the internet cafe during students' training time.

always i thank you for your poems..          see u later.

Thursday ,           June , 21 , 2001 ,                   cloudy and hot .

I am a devil. I can't control myself. I feel guilty about my family. I know my behavior is wrong. But I can't escape from that unlawful situation and my obsession about bad love. I am killing myself slowly. I am losing myself. I am ignoring ethics of this world.

I went to my father's country alone to be in right condition of my mind. He said no word. Probably he will blame me for my misdemeanor. I knew his mind, but I couldn't but phone her. Later my son will scold me. I only hope he will understand me. My Park Seong-yeon! I am so sorry to you. Soon I will return to you, but it is not now.

Friday ,          June , 22 , 2001 ,                         cloudy, humid, and hot .

My co-worker, my English mail friend, Jeong Eun-jin sent me a mail.

title:  It`s Thursday already.

Today my father came back and he`ll go to the hospital July 4th again. It was the second anti-cancer therapy next it will the third.

We all think he`s getting well slowly and someday we can see all-right man. What do you think of the money?

It is obviously necessary in the human lives and everybody agree with it. But nowadays it seems money is the most valuable thing.

People fight for the money even parents between sons or daughters, between friends. They deceive and betray each other because of the money. Yes, I know I can`t run away this situation and this environment, but I hate this world that people look up to the money.

There are someone dying since they just don`t have 10,000,000 and others spend billions of money playing golf and cruising all of the world and buying expensive jewel and clothes. Though they worked hard to make money I wonder if they did right things. Maybe they hurt weak and poor people. I don`t know why I became a negative-thinking woman (in fact because I am the devil~!@#$^^)

I hope good people have the happiness and wealth and bad ones get...

You always say right and good words.

But I`m not the opposite. Tell me your opinion. truly yours.

I sent her my reply mail include my opinion about money.

Title: Your bad situation makes me gloomy.

Dear my companion, Jeong Eun-jin!

Today this world is covered with the unapparent mist and cloud. It may be the real appearance of this world. But we should go forward through the unpleasant situation. It may be the purpose we live in this world.

Money! It must be one of the most important and necessary factors to live in this world. some people think of it as the best happiness. It makes people happy or sad. The worst of all, many people commit suicide and cost others' lives, because of its lack. But, no matter how rich one may be, one can hardly be satisfied with the amount of money he or she has at present. From the fact, we can learn one valuable viewpoint of money.  It is only the means to live in this dirty world. we must never accept it as absolute value or the ultimate purpose of our life. We must progress not towards the means but towards the goal of life. It is my point of view of money. And later if I have other opinion of money, I will tell you about it.

Have only lucky days! See you later.

faithfully yours                       from Mr. ENARO in my office

Saturday ,        June , 23 , 2001 ,                                  rainy .

My kind and cheerful lady, English e-mail friend, sent me a mail.

Title: enaro.......thanks buddha it's friday..^^

hiru........my enaro...

how's going?? i'm really good..better and better...

it's friday....i can't believe it...time flies like an arrow.. huh?

thanks for your kind help.. i read your poems again and again.. several times.. (actually i printed them everytime.^^&..)

i got new hobby thanks to you... that is..that is collecting your poems..i love that so much..i mean it.. i'm waiting your poems now.. could you send me yours right now?? if you are not busy...

enaro.. i made up my mind already..and told him... i wanna keep in touch with him as a real friend, as a great senior... at first..he didn't agree to my opinion... i persuaded him barely.. so now.. we keep in touch each other openly... i don't know yet whether my decision was good or not... i just didn't want to get any agony...simply.. the agony has left me..now. what do you think of it? tell me about...

enaro... thanks buddha it's friday....have a wonderful day..!!

bye...bye..   - from applemin on Friday..  ps..i'm waiting your poems..^^

The following is my reply mail I sent her, Kim Kyeong-min, 25.

Title: I am so ashamed at you complimenting my lowly poems.

Dear Applemin!

I am fine today, but I was sick yesterday and so I couldn't go to my work. Now I am all right. I read your kind mail. In return for your good mail, I will send my old poem to you. though it is poor, I would love you to appreciate it with all your heart. And have lucky days with smiling face.

This morning I received a e-mail from my another English e-mail friend, my co-worker. She asked me, " what do you feel about the money?". So I responded to her like this.

Today this world is covered with the unapparent mist and cloud. It may be the real appearance of this world. But we should go forward through the unpleasant situation. It may be the purpose we live in this world.

Money! It must be one of the most important and necessary factors to live in this world. some people think of it as the best happiness. It makes people happy or sad. The worst of all, many people commit suicide and cost others' lives, because of its lack. But, no matter how rich one may be, one can hardly be satisfied with the amount of money he or she has at present. From the fact, we can learn one valuable viewpoint of money.

It is only the means to live in this dirty world. we must never accept it as absolute value or the ultimate purpose of our life. We must progress not towards the means but towards the goal of life. It is my point of view of money. And later if I have other opinion of money, I will tell you about it.

Apple, what do you think of money?

faithfully yours             from Mr. ENARO in my office

I sent my e-mail and a poem to my lovely English mail buddy, Yangmi.

Title: What do you think of money?

Dear my Yangmi!

What are you doing now? I think you are having a wonderful day.

Don't make a face to others but smile at them. It looks good on you.

And, though you want to see me in real world, you have to stand it for some time.^^ I will help you to achieve your wish. Never refuse my favor.

This morning I received an e-mail from my another English e-mail friend, my co-worker. She asked me, " what do you feel about the money?". So I responded to her like this.

Today this world is covered with the unapparent mist and cloud. It may be the real appearance of this world. But we should go forward through the unpleasant situation. It may be the purpose we live in this world.

Money! It must be one of the most important and necessary factors to live in this world. some people think of it as the best happiness. It makes people happy or sad. The worst of all, many people commit suicide and cost others' lives, because of its lack. But, no matter how rich one may be, one can hardly be satisfied with the amount of money he or she has at present. From the fact, we can learn one valuable viewpoint of money. It is only the means to live in this dirty world. we must never accept it as absolute value or the ultimate purpose of our life. We must progress not towards the means but towards the goal of life. It is my point of view of money. And later if I have other opinion of money, I will tell you about it.

My lovely Yangmi, what do you think of money?

종 이 배 접 기

소실적 가슴으로

종이배를 접다가

접다가 접다가 접다가

심장에 구멍 보다

머리로는 돌아드는데

가슴의 역리

용서치 못한다

"너는 악이 너무 심하느니라"

내게 이르신 눈물 방울

그렇다, 그럴까

그럴까, 그렇다

봄시내를 가는 하양 종이배

그건 이제 접을 수가 없다

시방 속이 시리다

1986. 4. 8.

The poem from above was written by ENARO when he was a freshman in his university. despite my shame, I will send it to you, please feel it.       affectionately yours    from your ENARO in my office

Sunday ,       June , 24 , 2001 ,                                rainy .

Today was Sunday and it went on raining all dad long. It has been raining like cats and dogs since today. The rainy season must have begun. All of the people in this country had longed for the rain falling down on our land for a very long time. But now we have to be worried about flood, or deluge, one of the serious natural disasters. I only hope it won't be realized. Yesterday  my youngest brother came to his hometown, Jinju, to attend his friend's wedding ceremony in Pusan today. He had left for Pusan at 9:30 a.m. and phoned me that he would take an express bus to Seoul at 3:00 p.m. And he called me up that he had arrived in Seoul at 8:10 p.m. This time he told his family that he had been making his girlfriend since 3 months ago. I want him to be always in the right direction.

I sent e-mails to my English e-mail friends.

Title: Have a fantastic weekend!

Hey, cheerful lady!   It has been raining here in Jinju. How about your city? The worst weather can't abstain you from making a true love. I am sure because you are thoughtful, you would make a wise determination. If you are still suspicious of your decision, entrust time with yourself and try your best every moment. It must be the best medicine. I am your mentor.^^

Title: This is ?

Dear my Yangmi!

It has been raining here in Jinju. It is the rainy season.

Always watch out on the slippery road and have a nice trip!

커피 한 잔

오늘처럼

몹시도 바람이 불고

더군다나 당신도 머얼리 계실 때면

추억 자락

당신 웃음에

커피 한 스푼

당신 눈물에

프림 한 스푼

당신의 인생에

설탕 한 스푼을

나의 빈 잔에다 넣고

나의 피로 휘휘 저어

한 방울

한 방울씩

마시고 싶소,

사랑 한 잔을

88. 11. 3.

Monday ,       June , 25 , 2001 ,     cloudy, humid and hot.

It stopped raining in the early morning. The clouds triggering the heavy rain retreated towards South, the weatherman said on TV. And he added that they will visit this country this Friday again. I really hope the rain won‘t do much damage like this time.

My poor wife started for Suwon this dawn to acquire very necessary informations for her company life. She must be a good and beautiful woman. But I am obsessed by another woman these days. I feel really sorry to her whenever I think of her. I would love very much to say a prayer to have an enjoyable trip and return to our home without any problem. Park Seong-yeon! I am pretty sorry. Please forgive me!

This morning I was given a valuable present, three cassette tapes, by Yangmi, my lovely English e-mail friend. I was very pleased at it. And she made me very pleasant again by telephoning me this afternoon. Now she is in Ju-moon-jin, Kangwon Province. Her voice sounded like a great excitement. He was enjoying her freedom there.

Though she was in the late 30s, she liked the atmosphere like teenager. It seemed that it proved her to be pure and innocent. My dear friend, Yangmi! Have a nice trip and enjoy your liberty with all your heart. If you are happy, I will be happy, too.

My English e-mail friend, Apple, sent me her kind mail this morning.

It included 19 important tips which I would have to bear in mind in my life. They must be very useful instructions for life.

Title: hi...enaro...not my enaro^^

hi..enaro..

how was your weekend? it was rainy weekend.. i met my friendand drunk with her. ^^ and i spent my time with my family (father and mother)

how about you?? was good?? i hope so ..really.. anyway.. i have to say like this again...thanks so so much for your warm poems. you know what? i read and read..again and again..everyday..^^ i enjoy them..really.. it is hot day,today.. have a cool day!! enaro.. not my enaro..  bye..

I found this very meaningful:

I N S T R U C T I O N S  F O R  L I F E

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve     great risk.

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three Rs:

Respect for self

Respect for others and

Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful     stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to        correct it.

8. Spend some time alone.

9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10.Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer

11.Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think         back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12.A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.     Do all you can to create a tranquil, harmonious home.

13.In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current           situation. Don't bring up the past.

14.Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.

15.Be gentle with the earth.

16.Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

17.Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love        for each other exceeds your need for each other

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

Tuesday ,        June , 26 , 2001 ,                  cloudy and drizzly .

This morning I sent my reply e-mail to applemin.

Title:How are you today?

Dear Applemin!

In spite of the rainy season, the weather is so humid and sultry here in Jinju. How about there? And how have you been doing lately?

I have always been appreciating your cheerful e-mails and keeping your compliment on my poor poems as my priceless asset in my heart. Your warm news entertains me all the time. We can scratch respective back in need. You will know it, I think. Nothing is more beautiful than trying one's best in everything. I want to have a good relationship with you forever. You need to keep in mind that your English e-mails are really helpful to me. Yes, enaro, your senior, is in jinju, but your mentor, ENARO, is always right beside your heart.^^ Have only lucky days! See you.

faithfull yours                          from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

P.S.:After I watch my favorite baseball game on TV, I will send my         shameful poems to you.

My lovely Yangmi sent me her sweet e-mail with a long interval. I had a very pleasant time with her by calling and answering phone  several times and by chatting. The following is the one she sent me.

Dear. Enano

Can you imagine the woman who is sitting at the internet cafe at the age of 38? Anyway i am here in basement internet cafe.

i know i have to go back in a hurry to the place where my co-workers waited me. But i want to read your mail. So i dropped by here.

Enaro.

Until now from yesterday, how many times did we connect with each other by phone or internet? i don't know well. From tomorrow we cannot but reduce our connections. So if time permits. i will be with you even if with mail and phone. i read your poem well. but i can't say my feeling after i read your poem because of the lack of expressions. (I think you must be a good English speaker.)

Enaro.

You are a precious person to me. You are cherish person to me..how can i say to express what i am thinking about you? i believe that you can feel enough. Today i feel some tired because of my often riding buses. i will have a good sleep tonight. i want to be with you all day long and every moment.. now i have to go back to my students. Have a nice day and enjoy your chat with other persons tonight.

with love    yangmiok

Wednesday ,          June , 27 , 2001 ,

The following is my reply mail I sent my lovely yangmi, my permanent soulmate. I know my thought is wrong but I can't help it. I miss her.

T:Your heart towards me is always the most important feeling to me.

Dear my soulmate, Yang Mi-ok!

The world is crying like my heart. Yes, drizzle is coming down in my village. It wilI be the expression of my feeling. Since I would so much love to run to meet you but I couldn't go to you, my tears are falling down on this land as heartbreaking drizzle. Do you feel my love and passion towards you? This writing is the manifestation of my feeling, my thought, my personality and my emotion. It may have produced by my faith and instinct. Now I don't know how to deliver my true voice and what to say to capture your soul in my soul. Hence, the sky is weeping instead of my sorrow. Only your love towards me can change this sadness into the feeling of full satisfaction. Only you can rescue me from the deep sea of conflict. When I don't look at you, my eyes are closed. When your heart is willing to be far away from me, I can't smell any sweet odor. You mean everything to me now. Though we can't meet each other and live in one comfortable space, I would like to combine my soul with your one, and then I wish we will be one. Whatever you want can be mine. I hope whatever I want will be able to be yours. You have already become my most precious human being connected by KARMA. I can dare to say that under any circumstances. It is my true poem written for you. The heroine of the poem is the very you. Please feel my heart with all your heart. Wherever you may be, it will never be faded away from my mind. My consciousness will be for you and your existence will be one of the most invaluable goals of my life. You exist here. Therefore, I am. This world without you won't give me any meaning of life. By only your name, Yang Mi-ok, I can live under this heaven. What on earth is this heart? Do you know the answer to the question? If you have the answer to it, please let me feel it. Only you can be the savior of my gloomy soul. My heart is always running towards you as you know. My sky hasn't yet stopped crying. Please help me to quit weeping. Please support my sky with your heaven. My soul wants to be with you forever. Don't refuse my earnest offer, please.

with true love       from Mr. ENARO Jeong Bong-hyun

Thursday ,          June, 28 , 2001 ,                           humid and sultry .

My English e-mail friend, Kyeong-min Kim, sent me two e-mails.

hi...enaro..!!

how are you doing?? i'm doing well..but it's too hot today...

how about you?? how about there? the weather makes me be tired and sleepy....~.~ thesedays..i'm so so busy.. but actually..i enjoy being busy..i need to be busy thesedays.. you know why...my mentor..^^

thanks for your kind advices and helpness always..all the times..

enaro.. i have a question.. tell me the situation when you wrote "아내는 서울로 갔다" i wonder about that so so much..coz it made me have various thinking.. anyway.. it is very hot day.. take care yourself and enjoy your time like me ^^ bbai bbai..  -from min in cold office..

hi..enaro..

thanks for your cool mail.. i like cold noddles,too.. it was so delicious..^^ i''m so full.. you know..i had two dishes.. how about my card? it can makes you feel cool maybe..i hope so..really..

well..actually.. i''m waiting your impressive poems.. i love them, you know that..^^ enaro.. we can stand steaming heat through our mails as you told me..i bet!! plz take care and have a cool day!! bye~~~~~~~~~

I told a lie to my mother, received ￦1,150,000 from her and paid off my credit card bill. It was really a bad thing. From now on I decided not to make such a wrong doing. Sultry weather made me so taxing.

Friday ,          June , 29 , 2001 ,                      heavy rain, humid and hot .

It rained cats and dogs today. I couldn't go to my work in time since I became a heavy drinker with two my female co-workers until late last night. Frankly speaking, I returned to my house at 4 a.m. this dawn. I made the same mistake as a few days ago. It made me very depressed and desperate. I swear not to make that mistake again.

The following is my love e-mail I sent my English e-mail friend.

Dear Yangmi!

The sky is blue and the waves are singing for you.

Your long hair is smelling the fragrance of a cool wind from thick green trees. You are thinking of something over a delicious beer sitting at the table outside the fancy cafe on the beautiful beach. How do you feel now? I only hope something in your thought is the very me. Whenever you are busy from now on, you need to recollect your pleasant reminiscences. Rememering exciting events always gives us, minute beings, men, comfortable feelings. Do you know how happy I was thanks to you during your trip period? It will remain my precious treasure in my future life. As you said on the phone and in the e-mail, we have no choice but to shorten spiritual meeting time. It makes me so gloomy. But I don't want to feel solitary, desperate, or frustrated, for you will be alive in my heart and I will feel your heart, even if it is your momentary emotion. Sometimes your words make me wonder if you really like me or not, but it doesn't make a difference to my heart towards you. I know the most important thing in relationships with other people is my own feeling. It was acquired through my experience. You may feel burdensome on me,

or you may look upon me as an immature adult. But it is completely your freedom for you to think so. On the contrary, I would like to respect even your false thought on me, as it is my heart. Anyway I don't want to lose you at all. You don't need to be worried about my way of life. I love myself more than anyone else loves himself or herself. I has been aware that self-esteem had led me to what I am and it will lead me to what I will be in the future. It must have had an enormous influence on my life. One armed with self-respect and strong willpower can't be given in to by vicious beings. I trust it. It is my way of life towards world. As a result, I can control myself, hard as it makes me sorrowful once in a while. I long to be strong more and more and I will be strong.

Whatever you want me to do will be my goal. Whatever! You mean everything to me. I don't want to lose your love. Please feel my heart! As I made a confession of love yesterday, I would love to be your only sweetheart forever so that you can put your favorite flowers in front of my tomb. Please accept my true heart towards you! From now on I will try to amuse you and make you feel cozy. I will try my best to be your most cherish man. All your worries will be solved by me. If you were a flower, I would be a butterfly, and if you were a ferry, I would be a ferryman and cruise around the ocean. Whatever you may be, I would be with you and support you. It is the meaning of my presence. I will try my best to make you happy all the time. It is me. That's it. Love is beautiful.

Have nice days and always be happy! see you later.

with true love

from Mr. ENARO, Jeong Bong-hyun, in Jinju

P.S.:The distance between you and me is never far. It will                   necessarily get smaller and smaller so soon. And I will go to          see you. Next time I won't miss a good chance to feel you.

Saturday ,        June , 30 , 2001 ,                          cloudy and humid .

My sweetheart sent me her kind and lovely e-mail.

Dear, Bonghyun.

How should i start? your long e-mail and letter and music which you sent me is very great and they make me happy in this morning. I have to start my class after 15min, until then i don't know i can convey my mind and my appreciations. Yesterday night, i saw your letter in my e-mail box. i really want to see it, whenever i get in my mail box, my com was downed. so i didn't see yours.  Bonghyun.

i think you are really good person to me. And i also want to be your sweetheart forever. and i want myself to an existence who can be happy, pleasant, useful and helpful to you. Whenever i get your mail, i feel your mind and your sincerity toward me. Do you know how much i am happy thanks to you? Once in a while i am worried about myself because of i am thinking of you all day long. i can't concentrate my house and school work. you said you in a degree get overcome . but in my case i fall into the thought of you more deeply. So i am doing my works reluctantly. someone is calling me..so i have to go..when i come back, i will go on my mail.

Dear. Bonghyun

Now i will continue my writing. Today i got up late around 7am. So i had to hurry up not to be late for my school. From yesterday to today our students have some exam. We call it ' national learning evaluation' and i am in charge of evaluation part of our school. So i drove fast. i didn't set breakfast for my elder son. i think that i have no certification as a mom at all. When i am busy in the morning, i get angry at my kids. i also know that it will be bad influence to them. Because i don't get any help form others, i have to do all house chores for myself. When my health is good, everything is all right. but when my health condition is not good, i can't do my house work well. So i got stressed for it, eventually i get angry toward my lovely kids. These days i can hear for something like wind in my ears consistently. I feel that i am in a cave. i think that those sounds come from the lack of sleeping. So i have to deep sleep more than now. Did you have that kind of experience before?     Bonghyun.

From time to time i feel that i can't catch up with you..your inspiration and sense and ability of expression of certain things..In that point of view,,i really envy you. Don't look down on your ability..i think that you have a good sense to express your thoughts. please develope our poetic talent and go on your writing of poetry. i believe that you are a great writer someday..I am not a flatter..this is my real mind. today i was so busy , i forget to bring my phone. So i want to see you in chatting room. i will get there so often. have a good day, i am really happy with your long mail. See ya

Today I received my pay. I gave it to my mother. At about 8:00, my family went to my lovely senior's house in Ha-dong. His family welcomed us and treated us a delicious roasted eels. We enjoyed it.

Sunday ,      July , 1 , 2001 ,                    rainy, cloudy and sunny .

I received a kind e-mail from my English e-mail friend on Saturday.

hi...enaro..!!

how''s my card? it makes us cool and warm..maybe..^^ i got your poems..thanks so much.. you never forget to send your poems for me...

thank you about it.. nice enaro..kind enaro..thoughtful enaro..helpful enaro..^^ that''s why i like you...^^

it is saturday..happy happy Saturday..!! do you have any special plan for your weekend? actually..i got drink last night with my co-worker.. i didn''t drink too much..don''t worry about it..^^ i am really okay..now and forever maybe..^^ but..but.. i need to take a rest for my health..^^ i''m going to go back my hometown, daegu today.again!

I LOVE DAEGU !! enaro.. have a cool weekend and enjoy your life..!!

bye..bye...                                            -min in ulsan yet

Yang Mi-ok sent me her good news she had bought a new computer.

Dear. Bonghyun.

today afternoon, i bought a new computer which has a lot of functions and a little expensive. With this com, i can see TV programs and DVD which is a kind of CD that can see movie or something. And i bought a scanner. but i don't now how can i operate it. In addition, i got a machine of transportation of screen (hwa-sang camera).     Bonghyun, i was pleased with all of these things. but i will not use skinner or hwa-sang camera for me. Because it can give you my whole life and i don't want to let you know all of my trifle things.       bonghyun. did you enjoy with your senior in hadong? until now i was working. At this moment ,,i envy you..your free time. it is 11: 50pm. i dislike making test paper..so i will get out and go to bed.                                  See ya.

The following is my reply e-mail I sent her after I had drank a lot.

Title: I am so glad for you to purchase a new excellent computer.

Dear Mi-ok!

First of all, I want to apologize to you for my not talking with you freely last night. But I believe you will understand my situation. It is at 5:15 a.m. Yes, it is dawn. I couldn't go to bed because I had to talk with my senior, step-brother until 5 o'clock. And I don't want to sleep even now, since I want to send you my lovely e-mail. I hope my e-mail will be the first one you receive after you bought your new computer. Now I will meet you from this evening without downing. It makes me so happy. Now a hen is crying. It is informing me of new day beginning. I want to sleep like a log. This morning when i get up, my senior's family and my family will go to the Sang-ju beach in Nam-hae. And we will leave for my house at about 2 p.m., on the way home we will drop by my father's country and we will arrive at my house at 4:00. Afterwards, I will take a bath and meet you in the evening or night. Probably we will be able to meet at about 9. I miss you anytime, anywhere. Do you know my real heart? Now I will go to sleep. Have a nice Sunday and think of me all the time.

See you later. with true love     from Mr. ENARO in Namhae

I have a plan to write about m pleasant trip this weekend later.

Sooner or later I will write it. But it is not now. I am ver tired.

Monday ,        July , 2 , 2001 ,                 sunny and so hot .

My English e-mail friend sent me a good poem written by kim Jae-jin.

*누구나 혼자이지 않은 사람은 없다*                    written by 김재진

믿었던 사람의 등을 보거나

사랑하는 이의 무관심에 다친 마음 펴지지 않을 때

섭섭함 버리고 이 말을 생각해 보라.

-누구나 혼자이지 않은 사람은 없다.

두 번이나 세 번,아니 그 이상으로 몇 번쯤 더 그렇게

마음속으로 중얼거려 보라.

실제로 누구나

혼자이지 않은 사람은 없다.

지금 사랑에 빠져 있다거나 설령

심지 굳은 누군가 함께 있다 해도 다 허상일 뿐

완전한 반려伴侶란 없다.

겨울을 뚫고 핀 개나리의 샛노랑이 우리 눈을 끌 듯

한때의 초록이 들판을 물들이듯

그렇듯 순간일 뿐

청춘이 영원하지 않은 것처럼

그 무엇도 완전히 함께 있을 수 있는 것이란 없다.

함께 한다는 건 이해한다는 말

그러나 누가 나를 온전히 이해할 수 있는가.

얼마쯤 쓸쓸하거나 아니면 서러운 마음이

짠 소금물처럼 내밀한 가슴 속살을 저며 놓는다 해도

수긍해야 할 일.

어차피 수긍할 수 밖에 없는 일.

상투적으로 말해 삶이란 그런 것.

인생이란 다 그런 것.

누구나 혼자이지 않은 사람은 없다.

그러나 혼자가 주는 텅 빔.

텅 빈 것의 그 가득한 여운

그것을 사랑하라.

숭숭 구멍 뚫린 천장을 통해 바라뵈는 밤하늘 같은

투명한 슬픔 같은

혼자만의 시간에 길들라.

별들은

멀고 먼 거리,시간이라 할 수 없는 수많은 세월 넘어

저 홀로 반짝이고 있지 않은가.

반짝이는 것은 그렇듯 혼자다.

가을날 길을 묻는 나그네처럼,텅 빈 수숫대처럼

온몸에 바람소릴 챙겨 넣고

떠나라.

PS. 제가 즐겨 읽는 시 중 하나예요..

오늘따라..오늘따라..자꾸 자꾸 생각이 나네요..

누구나 혼자이지 않은 사람은 없다...누구나 혼자이지 않은 사람은 없다...

I sent her my reply e-mail including a poem of my own writing.

Title: I would love to appreciate you on your e-mails.

Dear Apple!

while I was reading the wonderful poem you had enclosed in your e-mail on Monday, I felt your emotion and atmosphere of these days. Of course, it may be my own feeling alone. But, although it may be only my intuition, I will have to deliver it to you. If you keep being surrounded in the gloomy mood I have guessed, I really hope you will be able to escape from the heartbreaking situation. When one is in trouble, in particular mental fix, no one but only one person can save him or her from the blind alley. The only one to solve the problem is the very himself or herself. I know you are a strong-willed lady, but you need to be stronger and stronger. Like the poet's maxim, everyone must be a sole being. However, through true love and belief, everyone can be combined into true one, not two people by something. Two strangers meet somewhere, sometime for the first time, and travelling along the river of affection, they know and feel each other more and more and in the end they fall in love. Though bodily unity is, of course, so important, my point means spiritual unity. It can last forever. It is the love of a hump-back. Anyone can have such a true love. You can't be an exception of the truth. Now try to find your sweetheart and make him your permanent soulmate. He will be responsible for your happiness. But never be in a hurry to meet your man. Just continue to live with all your sincerity. And sometime you will be able to spot and feel your man in karma. If you meet your real mate, you will have to love him with all your heart, not with only your brain. I will cross my fingers for your true love now.

It is too hot to do my work properly. Please give me your sweet smile. Take care and have fantastic days. see you.

sincerely yours                      from Mr. ENARO in sultry hell

곱추의 사랑

곱추는 강변도로변 단칸방에 산다

더위를 등으로 느끼며

강변둑에 홀로 앉은

결코 피할 수 없는 모습

강물은 눈물로 연신 흐르고

모두가 그의 등에 업혀 웃음 짓는다

모두가 그의 발아래에서 울음 울고

바람은 인생을 엎지르며 달아난다

곱추는 등이 머리보다 높아서

생각하는 웃음과 울음을 아예 잃었다

하지만, 그는 비웃고 있다

유월의 큰크리트 담장

그 위로 야위어만 가는 장미울

그 속의 우리 머리들을

어느 여름 밤, 이슭할 즈음

곱추는 제 또래 여식애 한 명을 들여

신방을 차렸다

마침내 불빛마저 갉아 먹고

도로를 오가는 차소리도 죽여 버린

곱추의 사랑은 밤을 부볐다

영원히 영원히도 보일 수 없는

곱추네 단칸방 어둠

밤을 부벼 그 밤마저 꺼 버렸다

곱추네 등어리 사랑은

오년을 머리로 사랑하던 서투른 길손이

곱추의 등 아래로 지난다

아,

그 순간에

1988, 6, 18.

I sent my e-mail to my lovely yangmi and I received her one.

Title: I would love to appreciate your lovely heart.

Dear Yang Mi-ok!

When one is in trouble, in particular mental fix, no one but only one person can save him or her from the blind alley. The only one to solve the problem is the very himself or herself. I know you are a strong-willed lady, but you need to be stronger and stronger. Like some poet's maxim, everyone must be a sole being. However, through true love and belief, everyone can be combined into true one, not two people, by something. Two strangers meet somewhere, sometime for the first time, and travelling along the river of affection, they know and feel each other more and more and in the end they fall in love. Though bodily unity is, of course, so important, my point means spiritual unity. It can last forever. It is the love of a hump-back. Anyone can have such a true love. You can't be an exception of the truth. Now did you find your sweetheart and make him your permanent soulmate? He will be responsible for your happiness. But never be in a hurry to make him your man. Just continue to live with all your sincerity. And sometime you will be able to feel your man in karma.

If you meet your real mate, you will have to love him with all your heart, not with only your brain. I will cross my fingers for your true love. In my next e-mail, I will write about my pleasant experience of last weekend.

It is too hot to do my work properly. Please give me your sweet smile. Take care and have fantastic days. see you.

affectionately yours                  from Mr. ENARO in sultry hell

She sent me her kind repl e-mail. And I had a pleasant talk with her on English chatting room in Daum for about an hour. She is good.

Dear.Enaro!

today is very hot without sun. In front of my desk, there is a bookself and on the self, there is a mirror. On the mirror, i can see myelf. i tied my hair with a yellow rubber band and look a little tired. For three month, i gradually have reduced my sleeping time. For that reason, i sometimes would like to sleep in the daytime..but here in my office, it is not possible. Enaro,

Out of window, there are some trees which are shaking their leaves with weak wind. When i see them, i feel that they look so peaceful and don't have troubles. After i read your poems, i feel that i have something to tell about your peoms. but i don't know how to express about your poem. in your early twenties, you looked that you had much experiences your love or your life. Even if you can not be a person who you want to be,,but in the whole life, the time which you struggled with your wish or your desire will be good to your future.

Enaro,   I will not hurry up to make good ralationship with you. i know that it will take time to be good relations with others.

Enaro,  i thought about what you said to me last night. now i feel sorry that i can't express my mind exactly...it is impossibe ... But i will wait until i can say ...and someday i will say all of things that i am thinking and i am feeling in English. Enaro.

have a good day and enjoy your everyday life.       see ya.

Today many new students registered this academy, so I was so busy.

Tuesday ,        July , 3 , 2001 ,                                    so hot .

I received a normal e-mail from my English e-mail friend.

Dear.Bonghyun

To begin with,i will tell you my time table today. as i said to you, i will start my class at10: 50 and will finish at 12:30 So i was gald because i will be able to be with you in the afternoon. But just before i received certain documents from Education center. Until today at 3:00pm, i have to send them back to the education center. so i don't know for sure if i can be with you in this afternoon at the living room. If i can not get there, please understand me and my working. Bonghyun. here in chuncheon, today's morning we had a heavy rain. During to get here, we struggle to arrive at our school safely..Did you see the news which there are so many falling rocks around my roads? yesterday two person died because of falling racks. So we had to drove well. In the early spring and monsoon weather like this, we have some accidents beacuse of falling rocks. Anyway we arrived safely well. Bonghyun.

When i get in this site , to send you a mail, i found a letter which was from the monk who i said to you at last night. It takes about a month for me to get his mail. i was glad to receive his mail. In the mail, he wrote his journey throughout the whole country and decribed the scenary of Niagara Fall, Yellow Stone, and other things. The main reason which i am glad to get his mail is that,even if we met in the internet site, we both had same thoughts , the idea that we cherished our chatting.. Bonghyun.

In this morning, when i heard of your voice , i feel happy. in that point of view,,you must be my fourtune tell to me. i hope that you also will be happy because of me. See ya.

Fatigue built up during last weekend continued to annoy me. In addition, this sultry summer weather made my mood worse and worse. In the morning I had a short chatting time with yangmi, my lovely sweetheart. We promised to meet at the same English chatting room at 3:30 p.m. We met again on our space at that time,  but she had to leave soon to hold a closing ceremony of a day. At 4:30 we met again and we had a pleasant conversation. I am happy that I am with her.

One of my former co-workers, Kang Seong-min, phoned me to ask me for a private lesson for his student. I was willing to accept his offer. He is a good person. I sent him a thank-you e-mail immediately.

Dear 강성민 선생님

전화 정말 고마웠습니다. 그리고 아직 생각하고 염려해 주시니 다시 한번 감사 드리고 싶습니다. 정다운 사람, 보고 싶은 사람이지만, 세상살이를 핑계삼아 연락 못했노라고, 이해하시리라 믿으며 눈에 뵈는 소식 전하게 되네요. 이 학원에 온 이후로 바쁜 나날을 보내고 있습니다. 술도 많이 마시지만, 무엇보다도 영어에 더욱 맛을 들여 영어채팅, 매일 영어 일기 쓰기, 매일 영어 멜 보내기 등등 나의 능력 향상을 위해 달려 가고 있습니다. 더운 날씨에 오랜 만에 소식 전하면서 제 자랑만 적는 것 같아 약간 겸연쩍은 면도 있습니다. 하지만 그렇게 노력하고 있다는 소식을 전할 수 있는 게 저의 기쁨이라 생각합니다. 그리고 함께 기뻐해 줄 수 있는 사람이란 걸 알기에 저의 손놀림이 가벼워집니다. 옛날 적었던 글들도 다시 디스켓에 옮기고 있는데, 언젠가 책을 한번 내 볼 생각인데 부족한 것이 많을 지라도 나의 발자취이기에 그런 용기를 굳게 가져봅니다. 영어 일기도 이제 200p를 넘겼네요. 나중에 이것도 영어 메일과 함께 묶어 책으로 한번 만들어 볼 생각입니다. 후일, 진주에서 영어를 확실하게 가르친다는 소리 듣기를 기대하면서 꾸준히 준비하고 있습니다. 그래서 제가 처음 영어 cafe에 올렸던 글 두 개를 보내 드립니다. 제 기억에는 한 번 보낸 것 같은데 제 노력의 결실이니 한번 더 읽어봐 주시기를 바랍니다. 그리고 시도 하나 드립니다. 감상하시고 다음에 소식 전할 때까지 건강하시고 하시는 일 술술술 풀리시기를 바랍니다.

Wednesday ,       July , 4 , 2001 ,                        so hot .

My English e-mail friend sent me her news today.

hiru..enaro..!!

it is too hot and humid.. look at the outside..sizzling sizzling~~~~~~

you can''t stand this kind of weather maybe..but,don''t get mad coz of it..plz~!! enaro..  i got your mail..thanks so much again..alway..all the times..everyday..^^& we say we exchange words when we meet and through e-mail,but what we really exchange is souls..i think..so we know a lot of things about each other..what do you think of it?? you''re really nice my e-mail friend..and can be forever..maybe.. but you know what? i just wanna talk with you..only you..through e-mail..not in daum site..you know..there are so many people in daum always(including my chatting friends)and they never wanna be serious there.. i think so,too. i wanna get something fresh there...like others..without anxious...can you understand?? i hope so..really.. i don''t wanna reveal my real mind there..i mean just about my deep anxious.. enaro.. you give me some advices and energy for me always..thank you very much..I can''t find the words to describe how moving it was.as you know..^^ enaro.. don''t be affected by the heat..and have a really cool tonight.. bye...bye~!!

From Applemin.

Thursday ,        July , 5 , 2001 ,                          so hat .

I visited my senior‘s house last weekend. The following is my trip record I wrote recollecting about the feelings of that time.

Title: How do you feel about him, his country, and my trip?

Dear ???

There are many good people around me who make me indulged in feeling of endless happiness. They all have such a respectable personality and distinguished propensity that I have learned plenty of teachings from their words and behavior. As far as I go, they must be my individual mentors. To put it in another terms, they must be one of the factors which embellishes the world around me with diverse and beautiful ornaments, such as rich experiences, right know-hows, intrinsic worths, and wise attitudes. Thus, I have looked up to them with all my heart and I sincerely and pleasantly have been trying to make them my mirror which I can watch and by which I can correct my fault whenever my values judgment is put to a test.

They are really important beings to me, but one out of them attracts me every time I meet and converse with him. It is the very my former co-worker and step-brother, Park Jeong-Su, that engraves his broad mind on my consciousness and leads me to the route of right life. He is a lighthouse keeper who gives my boat a bright future. He is neither a know-all nor a pedant but only an excellent ascetic. In a real world, he is a promising amateur writer as well as a competent Korean instructor. He has taught his students not only true virtues but invaluable knowledges. As a result, I also want to be one of his apprentices forever.

He has a house in the rural area called Ha-dong, in South Kyeong-sang Province, South Korea, around which a great number of natural creatures, for example, almost all kinds of plants, stream, a variety of animals, and so on, are enjoying companionship with his family. Even harmful insects like mosquitoes are conceived beautiful and sacred beings within his country.

It is a sort of bliss itself to visit the fairy land. By the way, he invited my family to his castle in the vicinity of Nam-hae town which is well-known for many attractions, Mt. Silk(Keum-san), Barley Temple(Bo-ri-am), two wonderful beaches(Sang-ju sun-bathing beach and Song-jeong sun-bathing beach), South Sea Great Bridge(Nam-hae Great Bridge) which was built in the similar form of Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco, etc. My family, my son, my future baby, my wife, and I, set out in my car from my city, Jinju, at about 8:00 p.m., and reached a fancy restaurant specializing in various and fresh raw fish and eels roasted over soot-fire at about 9:10 p.m. at which my family was supposed to meet his family. It was located under Nam-hae Great Bridge, a suspension bridge. No sooner had his family seen my family, than they welcomed us with bright smiles on their faces. Soon we became only one family. All of us enjoyed a pretty delicious dinner over talking about several topics. After dinner, we had a really exciting sing-along time at a nearby singing place(No-rae-bang).

When we arrived at his nest, brilliant stars were indicating the end of a day. A cozy party was held again. Soon our three princes and a princess went to bed to dream a happy dream, and then their mothers left a party place, a living room, to care for their treasures. There were only two persons, he and I, left in the calm and comfortable space. We talked over several subjects, politics, economics, religion, the boundless universe and the existence possibility of alien, relations of mystery of historic monuments and alien, and what not. Once again I could be aware that he was a well-informed intellectual mastering many fields. He taught me many things in a jade-like voice. At 5:00 a.m. when a rooster next to door cried out on and on, we went to bed. It was a night full of trance and usefulness.

When I woke up, our fairies were running from this room to that room. His country was filled with their laughter and songs. They were in harmony with every sound of nature, especially sounds of a puppy and birds. All of them appeared to be very cheerful. All of us were able to smell the sweet fragrance given out from love. It was happiness itself. After breakfast, we started for the famous beach to watch a sea and enormous waves. It was needless to say that the sea was our birthplace. We could find ourselves in endless tranquility. Each of us enjoyed his or her perfect freedom.

Time passed by like an arrow regardless of our good atmosphere. Though it was inconvenient, we couldn't help it. We had no choice but to return to our respective reality, to each house. My family said good-bye to his family and left for my house. On my way home, I was able to feel infinite energy and power in my heart and made a determination to try my best in my life. Now I am smiling thinking of him, his family and beautiful landscapes and seascapes. How do you feel about him, his country, and my trip?

Friday ,            July , 6 , 2001 ,                   cloudy and hot .

These days it is a rainy season. The weather woman said we who lived in South Kyeong-sang Province would have a heavy rain today. But as usual he was wrong. Of course, I know it is very difficult to forecast the weather. But I think that since the task is never easy, the weathermen deserve to be paid much more money than other people and they should be very careful in reporting the weather news. Nevertheless they are often wrong. Last night the weather woman informed us it would be about 50-80 mm rain. But I have never seen the rain raining until now. They need to research on climate more and more and protect innocent people from expectable natural disasters, such as earthquakes, flood, a heavy rain, terrible typhoons and other natural catastrophes. Anyway we had no rain.

I received a kind e-mail from my English mail friend in Dae-gu.

dear enaro...

thanks for your trip story... do you know what?? when i read something i would imagine about those situations all the times..

in this case...i did also..^^ your trip story was like a fairy tale to me..i could imagine you, your family and his family.. what is more..i had a feeling i were with you, all... your story appealed to my sense of reality..it means...you're a excellent writer..i bet!! how splendid your vocabularies are~~~~~~!! enaro..   you have good luck..really..you need to know the truth.. i envy you about having that kind of brother.. i wanna see him and wanna talk with him about all kinds of things.. what a great!! he and you are...  can i feel that kind of freedom sometime, someday..with someone?? hhh... i'm just wondering about it....you look so so happy..always..^^  anyway.. you made me feel and think a variety of things..thank you about it, enaro. it is too hot and humid these days.. but, we have to stand such a trivial matter(hot weather) as you know..there are many kind of hardships, difficulties and miseries in our life.. there is no comparison between hot weather and miseries..i think..don't you think so? enaro.. take care from the steaming heat and try to imagine you're in cold storage warehouse.hhh... bye..then..enaro..!!       -from min in ulsan

My youngest brother in Seoul sent me his lovely e-mail in Korean.

편지 잘 받았습니다. 무더운 날씨가 어제 밤부터 내린 비로 약간은 주춤한듯 하네요..

하지만, 에어컨에 선풍기가 있으니 그 기분을 느낄 수 있는 것이겠지요.. 아마도, 이번 여름은 실험실이 최고의 피서지가 될 것 같네요...공휴일과 토요일빼고... 빨간날과 토요일 오후에는 에어컨이 가동되지를 않더라구요..ㅠ.ㅠ 형님의 그 에세이는 읽기 무지 어렵더군요... 하지만, 형님의 그 대단한 노력이 이제는 결실을 맺고 있다는 생각에 옛날의 공부벌레이던 형의 모습이 아련거리더군요...  아주 평화로운 한 때를 보낸 것 같아

저도 그러한 생활을 누리고픈 욕심아닌 욕심도 생기기는 한데 아마도 그건 잠시 동안의

행복일테니까요... 아마 가장이 되면 그런 행복뒤에 있는 커다란 의무지워짐에 더 힘들어 할 것같아 이내 현실에서 찌푸린 얼굴을 할 것 같네요.. 무슨 소리지?ᄏᄏᄏ이해 하세요... 형님이 요즈음 많이 힘들어서 술을 가끔씩 드신다는 이야기는 듣습니다.

술을 마신다는 것은 참 좋은 행위일수도 있는데 건강을 생각하시고 절제해서 드시기를 바라고 싶네요... 아무리 생각해도 형이 아프면 집이 무지무지 어려울 것같아서요...

옛날 아버지가 아파서 집에 계실적에 집안 분위기가 아무리 웃음을 가져도 우울할 수밖에 없었다는 기억이 들거든요... 형님의 고민에 도움이 되지도 못하고 지금 도움을 줄 수도 없지만 언젠가 한 번은 제가 형님께 힘이 될 때까지 건강하게 생활하시기를 바랍니다. 그리고, 형수님을 사랑하시구요... 제가 서울에서 이리저리 사람들을 둘러볼 때

형수님처럼 착하신 분도 없는것 같네요... 형님이 사람보는 안목이 있어서 형수님을 택할 수 있었고 그에 보답하듯이 큰 욕심없이 형님과 희석이 보면서 사시는 형수님이 참 고맙기그지 없습니다. 형수님도 형님 건강 걱정 많이 하는 걸 한번씩 통화를 하면 알 수 있더군요... 아무쪼록 건강하게 행복하게 형수님과 희석이와 희석이 동생과 생활하면 좋겠네요... 참, 말이 너무 길었죠? 오늘 조금 전에 다시 배양기를 돌리기 시작했네요...

출발은 어느 때 보다도 좋네요... 제가 확신을 가지면 일이 잘 풀리다가도 결국 안풀리는 결과가 나와서 결과를 볼 때까지는 섣부른 판단을 안하는데 이번은 정말로 좋은 결과를 기대할 것 같네요... 좋은 결과가 나오면 연락 드릴게요.. 암튼, 전 형님이 계셔서 무지 자랑스럽네요... 제 주위에 그리고 이 세상에 형님만한 분 없다는 걸 알기에 건강하시라는 말은 감히 하고 싶네요.. 건강건강하세요... 다음에 연락할게요..

Saturday ,       July , 7 , 2001 ,                    cool for summer weather.        My two co-workers decided to quit this academy a few weeks ago. They will work for another workplace from next Monday. We, almost all of the instructors, had a farewell party for them last night. Since one of both, Kim Jae-hyun, was one of my favorite juniors, I couldn't but drink like a fish, even if I promised to get rid of a bad habit with my sweetheart, Yang Mi-ok. I became a heavy drinker again like a few days ago. When I woke up, it was at 11:30. I was not able to go to my office. I felt the feeling of vanity, the sense of guilt, and the pang of conscience. Like my soulmate Yangmi advised to me, I will have to be a responsible man. It must be my philosophy of life.

My wife and I had a delicious dinner at a fancy restaurant with our stout son.

I received three e-mails today. The following is those e-mails. My sweetheart sent me her sincere e-mail with title for the first time, and I was so happy.  Title:  missing you.

Dear. Enaro.

how are you today? from 9 until now i was waiting for you. maybe you drank too much with your co-workers yesterday night. so you couldn't attend your office today. i would like to phone call to you, i can't. Because you are in your house.. and i wonder if my phone is good or not to your family.. you promised with me about deducing your drinking. i don't know you can fulfill your promise or not. only i hope that you can carry out your promise. because i couldn't see you in the chatting room, so i am not interested in chatting..huhu.

yesterday night,,i had some problems. so i didn't say good-bye to you.. so i waited in the chat room until very late..then i thought that you couldn't get in the room because of drinking with your co-workers..  Enaro..  this is sunny and fine..with some windy.

i would like to go out with my sons..and i will go somewhere this afternoon. i think that it is good for me and my sons. and i will have time to rest. this week was hard for me. have a good day and take good care of yourself.. see ya.

제목  형! 미안해요.

Dear brother! I am sorry.

형! 몇 일전에 방학을 하고 진주엘 다녀왔는데, 형 생각이 나서 전화를 하려했는데, 전화기를 바꾸면서 형 번호가 없어진거 있죠. 학원엘 전화할려다 전화번호도 생각이 안나고 그동안 재미없는 공부하느라 무지 지쳤어요. 안그래도 낼가면 연락드리려 했는데, 제가 내일 학원에 전화를 할께요. -016-591-3872로 알고 있는데 맞나요. 일단 낼 학원에 전화를 할게요. 형수님하고 애기는 잘 있죠? 형도 건강하시구요? 저도 영어로 응답을 해야 하는데, 실력이 짧아 엄두가 나질 않네요. 형! 섭섭해하지 마세요. 형 생각을 항상 하면서도 막상 3학년 생활에 집중하다보니 이렇게... 변명일수도 있지만 친구들도 시원하게 만나보지 못했어요. 낼 연락드릴게요. 안녕히 계세요. 혁 올림

제목  선생님.......

오늘 안오셨지요 처음보내는건데.... 영~~ 어색해서.... 오늘 이런저런 이야기를 많이 들어서 기분이 별로 안좋네요  그래서 잠깐 내려와서 이렇게 기특하게 선생님께 메일을 쓴답니다^o^ .그냥 할말도 있구.... ... 저 월요일부터 7시까지 올거예요~~~~^^ 이번주에도 조금씩 일찍 오기는 했는데 다음주부터는 아~~주 일찍 올거예요 불안해서요.. 오늘 지나가다가 다른학원다니는 친구를 만났는데 점수가 많이 올랐더라구요 물론 그 애는 작년에도 점수가 높았지만.... 그래서 계속 불안하고 초조하고해서 절망만하다가 이렇게........ 작년에는.. 이렇게까지는 불안하지 않았는데.. 새로온 사람들도 많고해서 오히려 더 공부도 안되고... 전보다 쉬는시간에 많이 돌아다니지도 않고 뭘해도 할려고 하는데 잘 되지도 않고.. ...모르겠어요 수능치고 과연 후회를 안할것인지... ...결국 하고싶은말은 못했지만...  좀 많이 노는것같다 싶으면 데려가서 좋은소리.....조~~금만 해주세요 충격을 받아야 공부를 하는스타일이라서.... 내일 말고 월요일날 출석체크하러 오시면 열~~심히 공부하고있는 절 볼수있을거예요......^^ 그럼 안녕히.......

I sent the same card e-mail to 5 persons and registered my another poem on the homepage of Jinju Youth Literature Club. This is it.

여 름 은..

여름은 생각하는 것마저 뜨겁다.

하늘 그늘을 찾아 들어가

책을 펼치고 쓰고 뭉개고

순간, 바람에 실려 다가오는

어느 날 어디서 분신 자살한 얼굴 그림자

간간이 나뭇잎이 열사 함성을 배워

화염병 불꽃 떨군다

터질 때 눈이 부셔 아예 보지도 못한

그래 여름은

이다지도 뜨겁게 다가오는 가 보다

한데 아직도 죽은 하늘에 벌건

당신 던진 통한의 불꽃인가

아님 뉘 걸어 논 의식의 등인가

뜨겁게 뜨겁게 외쳐대는

시방 온 몸이 간지러웁다.     1989, 7, 8.

Sunday ,        July , 8 , 2001 ,

This was my on-duty day. I had to work alone in my office, but I didn't feel any solitude because she was always in my heart and we met on the internet. We had a pleasant chatting time for about 2 hours. I finished my today's work at 6:30 p.m. I was supposed to meet my wife and my son in front of my company. I hurried to go out of my office. But she was not there. I phoned my house, and I conformed she was in my house. Though I was mad at her, I had to suppress my temper.

She was pregnant. She must have been so tired today. She was 30 minutes late. She carried my son on her back. I thought she was so poor. We started for my father's country in my car. I had to bow his tomb alone., as my son was asleep. Tomorrow is my great-grandmother's religious ceremony, so my family went shopping to the traditional market. we purchased several foods, such as vegetables, watermelon, fish, ..and etc. After we had bought necessary things, we dropped by my mother's house. Mother seemed to be so sad. I couldn't know the reason. My mother said, "my wife is to blame for her anger." I was so upset, but I endured it. when I arrived at my house and checked my e-mail box, I found a good e-mail my youngest brother sent me. In it, he informed me of his good news he had succeeded in his experiment. It took 6 months for him to make it. I would so much like to congratulate his passionate efforts. No pains no gains. Heaven helps those who help themselves. I really hope he will succeed in his next experiments. And I trust him. because he is sincere and responsible.

Monday ,         July , 9 , 2001 ,                sultry ( typical summer weather ) .

My cute english e-mail friend, Kim Kyeong-min, sent me her kind e-mail. I think by her e-mails she is so attractive and cheerful.

Title:hi...멋쟁이 enaro..^^   To : enaro

hi....enaro...enaro..enaro.. i got your poems..  GREAT poems... written by you, enaro.. thanks about them..so so much.. you have the ability to write anything..like porm,essay,novel and so on..you're so lucky guy,i think.. most people envy your abilities and be impressed by your poems..(including me..^^*) how was your weekend? i was good..met my friends and enjoy talking with my family.. i love them as well as you love your family..^^ and..thanks for your inviting me.. i'll visit your hometown,jinju someday..maybe..^^ i look forward to have time to visit there..really.. you have to welcome me..if i go there..with happy smile..promise me?? okay..i hope so... enaro.. how's the upper picture? she's so cute..isn't it? she looks like me or not..ha... it is too hot day again... take care,enaro.. bye~~~           From : min

Today was so hot like yesterday. Today's newspaper said that yesterday my hometown, Jinju, had the hottest weather in this country. Sultry weather makes people, including me, terribly stressful. But I am conscious that summer must have the hot weather. It is the law of nature. I can't deny it and don't want to do so. While conforming to innate principle of nature, I cannot help but be in this world. The more I sweat in this season, the better fruit I can harvest in the fall. I will become a summer-loving man from now on. Such a determination will be my best solution to many problems triggered by the hot weather which is an usual tendency of summer.

I was pretty pleased to receive two e-mails sent by Yangmi and Eunjin, my co-worker as well as an English instructor. And I sent them a poem written by Lee Soo-ik who was unfamiliar to me.

나에겐 病이 있었노라

written by Lee Soo-ik

강물은 깊을수록 고요하고

그리움은 짙을수록 말을 잃는 것

다만 눈으로 말하고

돌아서면 홀로 입술 부르트는

연모(戀慕)의 질긴 뿌리 쑥물처럼 쓰디 쓴

사랑의 이 지병(持病)을

아는가.....그대 머언 사람아

Tuesday ,        July , 10 , 2001 ,                              so hot .

This poem written by myself in 1987 was sent to my 3 e-mail friends.

Title: Where is your beautiful reminisence?

철 로 교 차 로 에 서

X자 길목

기차는 과거를 잃고 헤메다 서다

詩人은 전설만 향한 채

한 줄도 꺼적여대지 못하고

기막힌 아우성

바다로 가고, 산으로 가고

제각기 누울 터를 짖으며 떠나고

아, 여름인가보다

X자 길목

운명처럼 모였다 갈라졌다

더 이상 아무 것도 잡히지 않고

서성이는 오후, 과거는

역전에서 마른 햇볕 쬐이며, 애타게

2박 3일을 기다리고 있다

부서진 상실의 쓰레기만 주위를 배회하고

X자 길목

검게 탄 여름 이웃들이 함께 모였다

흔들리며 아우성치며

제각기 떠났던 사람들

또 각자 텅 빈 배낭을 챙겨 귀향 열차로

떠난다, 과거는 매섭게 버려진 채

그네들 머리로 담겨지지 않고

구겨진 여름

詩人의 가슴만 시리고

I received an e-mail from my co-worker, Jeong eun-jin, English teacher. because it included many grammatical errors, I corrected them. I will send it to her again, though she can feel unpleasant.

Title: Trip to Kyeong-ju city, my beautiful reminiscence

Last year I went to Kyoung-ju city with my friend which had been the capital of Shilla dynasty proud of almost one thousand history. It provided me with another important memory. When I was a middle school student, that city was full of all beautiful scenes, even small houses looked like those in fairy tale. And the screaming blue sea in the vicinity of the city were attractive enough for me to forget all the agonies in real world. Time and tide don't worry about human beings. Summer is already beside us and is tempting us to escape from this sultry and mean world into wonderland. I know that the greater my longing may be, the more tremendous my feeling of disappointment can be, but I can't get over temptation towards nature, my true home. I wish I went to see the end of this world, horizon, in a train you sent me in your e-mail. However, I cannot help it, since I can't take summer vacation this year. I am only dreaming such a happiness. Please send me roaring waves, singing seagulls, and golden beach. Please send me the sound of happiness.

Today was the happiest day to me, because I received many invaluable presents, her note, her photo, and a bottle of cognac called AGREMENT. She in the photo was too pretty and looked too young for her age to believe my eyes. And she phoned me no less than two times.

Wednesday ,      July , 11 , 2001 ,                                    drizzly .

Today is Thursday. In fact, I didn't keep a diary yesterday, because I was so busy. Last evening I had to prepare a private lesson for O yoon-jeong in third grade, Kyeong-hae high school. I has taught her English for university entrance exam for almost a month every Monday and Wednesday. She is cheerful and clever, even if she looks a little ugly. I gave her a private lesson from 8:10 to 10:20., so I couldn't keep my diary. After the private lesson when I checked my e-mail box, I was so glad to find that my lovely English e-mail and chatting friend sent me her photos taken in her house via e-mail. She was really a beauty. Afterward I drank a little with my former companion until 11:50. When I arrived at my house, it was 12:05 a.m. and my wife and my son were sleeping. I was supposed to meet her in the photos at the chatting room, but I was a little late. Though I met her at day, I was happy to see her again. I can't help it.

Thursday ,       July , 12 , 2001 ,                              a heavy rain

Today my students took their July preliminary test, so I was a little busy. All of them were so sincere. I hope they tried their best in their test. When it was over, they seemed to be very satisfied with it. I am sure their test results will be so good. In my opinion, today's English test was so easy not only in listening test but also in reading test. I am expecting many students will get a full mark in it. But I know their abilities to speak and write the language is very poor. I have experienced them in my english class. Present English education makes almost all the students in this country poor speakers. It must be corrected as soon as possible, if we want young students in this country go forward on and on. I really have lots of complaints about English education policy of this country. Someday I will write an essay about it. It is raining.

Friday ,       July , 13 , 2001 ,                 cloudy, humid, and so hot.

One of my students got a very high mark in yesterday's preliminary test. Her name is Song Ji-eun, 21, who lives in Sam-cheon-po harbor city. I gave her my present, an English book, and I congratulated on her. She is a little short, but she is broad-minded and strong. She has tried her best in studying without any mental fluctuation, and at last a good result visited her. I as well as she was very pleased with her great achievement. For the time being she wanted to take a rest and think of her studying habit. Now she is in Pusan. I really hope she will make a right judgment and return to our academy.

Saturday ,        July , 14 , 2001 ,                 cloudy and rainy .

This is Saturday. Yangmi sent me her e-mail titled "failed dream."

Dear. Enaro

Just before I opened my mail box to send you it, But it was a certainly problem in com around 4:30pm. There is nothing..so I decided to write again. After dinner, I looked for a book of TOFLE which I bought two years ago. Did I tell you the story which I failed in the exam to enter the postgraduate course in Korea Teacher's University which is located at cheongju? In the winter two years ago, I had a test there.. At the first class, I had to test for listening comprehension test. The problem were made of 30. At the beginning, I couldn't listen what problems were. The second class, I had a test for reading part. After lunch, I had a test for compositions for Korea Education Problems. In middle of the test, I predicted that I had already failed..Because I realized that my English abilities were very low.. After finishing the interview, I was really sad for my lack of capacity. On the way back home, I thought that I will never study English again. After that, I have not studied English until now.. My story will be continued...

Enaro, I hope you will live a life which you want to. If not,,you will regret someday. From my long experiences, I know it. I don't know well if you content your present life or not. If you have a certain dream..please try your best to achieve whatever it is.  See ya.

The following is my reply e-mail including my attitudes of life.

Title:  I am sure I am going forward to my bright future.

Dear Yang Mi-ok!

After I had read your kind e-mail several times, which had already become my long habit, I had a chance to think of my dream. What will I be in the future? Can I accomplish my wish? Am I trying my best not to regret my life? Frankly speaking, I can't respond “YES” to such important questions. No doubt, it is a sad thing. Who will substitute for myself? No one can take the place of me. It is only I that can be responsible for my every behavior. I realize that no matter how tough the process to my dream may be, I must get over it. To do so, there are a few crucial things for me to do. More than anything else, I should have a confidence to be able to do whatever it is and respect and love myself more than anyone else. Without them in my heart, I am already dead. And then, I will have to make enormous and constant efforts to achieve goals of my life. No pains, no gains. Heaven helps those who help themselves. Unless I try my best to fulfill my aims in life, they will obviously beyond me. The third thing is people around me. It is important whether I can make them scratch my back and roll my log in critical situations. Of course, it is possible when I first am considerate of them and help them out in a fix. Do to others as you would be done by. That's right. Then, who is the most precious person to me at present and in the future? I know who the person is. The gender of it is female. She is a generous and lovely woman to me. I want to be her permanent sweetheart. She can make me have the feeling of infinite happiness or have the feeling of heartbreaking agony and torture. She means everything to me today and tomorrow. If she wants me to be changed, I will do so. If she wants me to stop drinking and quit smoking cold turkey, I will obey her asking. Whatever she wants will be my necessary mission to be done without fail. She is the only one to be able to turn what I am into what I will be. What I should be in the future depends on her, nothing but her. Do you know who she is? This is a truly indispensible question to my destiny. I am looking forward to your faithful and frank reply. Last of all, I will cross my fingers to you. Stay in a good shape all the time.

affectionately yours          from Jung Bong-hyun in Jinju

One of my university juniors sent me his favorite English poem via e-mail.

Never seek to tell thy love

Written by Blake, william.

Never seek to tell thy love

love that never told can,t be;

For the gentle wind does move

Silently, invisibly.

I told my love, i told my love,

I told her all my heart,

Trembling, cold, in ghastly fears--

Ah, she doth depart.

Soon as she was gone from me

A traveller came by

Silently, invisibly--

O,was no deny.

Thanks for your poem in a gorgeous card. This is my favorite poem, because this is simple, but remind me of my adolescence. I‘d like for you to enjoy Blake’s heart. Bye for now.. Oops, I‘m Ju-hwan Hwang(11th in si-na). Can you remember me? My major is law.

A cheerful English e-mail friend sent me her lovely e-mail.

Title: Have an ultra wonderful weekend!!

hi..enaro.. thanks for your excellent poem..^^ how have you been?? enaro?? i've been a little busy. still now... i had to translate something about chemicals..i didn't finish it yet.. it is not that easy.. as you guess.. fortunately..i enjoy translating...^^ how's your class doing? i think you have hard class these days..because of terrible and humid weather. this kind of weather makes us be intolerable...right?

enaro.. good luck to your all classes...and be happy with your lovely family.. have a ultra wonderful weekend!!  bye     -from min in ulsan

Sunday ,        July , 15 , 2001 ,                           cloudy and so so hot.

Though I went to bed late last night because of English chatting, I had to get up early this morning. I was supposed to go to the spa in Ha-dong and take a bath with my mother. She couldn't go there for a long time since shuttle bus didn't run any more since on the first of July. We set off from Jinju towards my mother's favorite public bathroom in Ok-jong at about 10 a.m. When we came out of it after taking a bath, it was at 12:20 p.m. There I met my favorite senior and former co-worker, Mr. Park and his family who were having noodles for their lunch. After he and I had talked about business plan of next year for a while, my family headed to my father's land to have his mind in our hearts. Afterwards, we returned to my house. But as soon as I got off my first younger's car, I realized I had no key to my house and my wife went to her old house to visit her parents with my strong son. It seemed to be helpless, but after a short thinking, I found a good way to enter my house. I could go into veranda through window on the second floor. It was a very dangerous behavior. But fortunately I succeeded in arriving without any accident. I ate Zazang-Myeon delivered from a chinese restaurant at nearby my house and enjoyed a nap for about 2 hours by myself. It was  so peaceful. At 5:20, I sent one of my old poems to my lovely friends  via e-mail and had a very pleasant English chatting time with Yangmi. At 6:10, my youngest brother in seoul where people had a hard time because of a heavy rain phoned me not to worry about him. It was a good news. From 8:00 p.m. to 10:10 p.m. I gave a good private lesson to my new student who seemed to be satisfied with my class. I was about to leaving his house called 'Beach Motel", when his mother called me and gave me pay of this month, 1,000,000won, in advance. I drove to my home with it, ate my dinner my wife had prepared for me and had a good English chatting time with Yangmi in the name of MYLIFE, my new ID until 1:30. She seemed to really like me as I liked her. But I know I have to change my present mind. It was a busy day.

Today I received two e-mails. One is from my previous student, kim dong-ook and the other is from one of my old friends, Ryu Hyeong-ho. I sent a poem to my former student, but didn't send my reply e-mail to my friend. Tomorrow I will necessarily send it to him.

선생님 메일 잘 읽었습니다. 빨리 답장 드리려 했는데 늦어 죄송합니다. 사실 너무 길어서 엄두가 나지 않아.. 몇일 미루었다가 읽었거든요 화면 보고 읽어려니까 신경쓰여서 스케너로 뽑아서 버스 탈 때마다 읽었습니다. 휴,, 참 부럽습니다. 선생님 글을 보니까요 헤헤,.. 행복이란 것이 항상 현재에 존재한다지만은 지금의 제 상황도 행복인지..

어쨌던.. 저는 그럭저럭 잘 살고 있습니다. 12일 모의고사는 점수는 올랐는데 석차가 떨어진 기분입니다. 자세히는 잘 모르겠지만.. 아마 그런거 같습니다. 언어 하나.. 수리2에서 3개나 틀렸습니다. 물론 점수는 좋으나.. 이번 시험이 워낙 쉬워서 상대적으로는 좀 떨어졌습니다. 더군다나 이번 시험에서 답안지 마킹을 잘 못했거든요 수리2에서 답을 잘못 썼는데 그냥 바꾸지 않고 그대로 냈습니다. 저번 5월달 모의고사도 그렇고 작년 수능때도 답안지 마킹을 잘못 해서 낭패를 보았기 때문에 이번에 실수를 해서 제 자신이 한심했거든요 물론 장학금이 날라가는 것이 아까웠지만.. 이번 실수를 대가로 깊히 반성해서 진짜 수능 때 실수를 하지 않는다면 더 좋지 않겠습니까.. 실수도 실력이니..

아참.. 지은이 누나 이번에 점수가 잘 나왔다고 하던데요.. 저도 분발해야 하겠습니다.

가끔씩 한국학원 애들 만나는데 선생님 얘기 듣곤 합니다. 구성원도 많이 바뀌고 사람 수도 많이 늘어서 선생님께서 고생하신다고 하던데요..선생님 힘내세요..

이거 제 졸업사진인데요..선생님만 보세요.. 옆에 있는 애들은 제 친구들입니다.

Title:  enaro오랜만이군

우리는 용기있는 사람을 때로는 부러워하고 지금의 현실에 대해 너무나 지쳐있다고 판단하지. 회색빛 도시위에서 자란아이들-우리의 미래-막연하고,불안하고 앞으로 닥쳐오게될 많은 시련과 고통들로 부터 해방되고 싶다. 물질문명과 산업화로 인한 몰개성화, 몰상식화, 너무나 빠르게 변화는 세상에서 나를 지키기란 너무나 힘들고 고독한 것인지... 나의 일상은 너무나 단조롭고, 반복되는 일과와 일들은 개인적인 가치기준을 세우기도 전에 뇌리에서 지워져버리고,경제적인 빈곤또한 세속적 번뇌을 낳고, 정보의 홍수에 빠져 허우적 거리고 있는 내가 싫다. 세상은 너무나 아이러니컬하다. 루이암스트롱이 노래한 WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD 가 영화 굿모닝베트남에서 전쟁신의 배경음악으로 퍼질때처럼......... GOOD NIGHT MY FRIEND!! GOOD LUCK

Monday ,       July , 16 , 2001 ,                       cloudy and cool .

My senior, a chief instructor in teachers' room, told me a striking and shocking news. His and my salary will be reduced by 300,000 won from this month. He and I have got paid 1,000,000 won for homeroom teacher. what a terrible boss! I have already known the importance and power of money by my experiences, but it is never an absolute factor. I think the most precious thing to live in this world is human being. but my fucking boss is not ignorant of it. The day will be when he will regret about his false thinking and behavior. "Justice necessarily wins." I will get even with him someday.

Tuesday ,       July , 17 , 2001 ,                 windy and a little cool .

Today was a national holiday named “Je-Heon-Jeol”. It is said that people had already felt the necessity of Constitution for this country made it this day, even though present one is not complete.

I made love affair with my wife. We had not had it for a very long time. Today because she was somewhat active, I was so happy.

Applemin, my English e-mail friend, sent me her kind mail and I sent her my reply one.

Title: hi..enaro..mylife...^^

hi...mylife...!!  how are you today? mylife?? i'm doing well as usual^^ it is cool day, today..isn't it?? what did you do for your weekend with your family? i was good... i went to swim for my health on Saturday.. actually i love to swim but i had no time to go swim.. but i made it last weekend..^^& that's so funny for me..really... and on sunday...i visited the temple (jang-an temple) in kyung nam.. that was so small but i could feel something fresh and comfortable..yeah...really i was so comfortable there...that's why i visit the temple.^^ you can understand me..maybe..mylife.. i enjoyed driving also..actually i have no car..but my brother permitted to drive for me.. what a nice brother ..he is.. i like to drive very much...to somewhere...how about you mylife? you're tired of it..maybe..kkk..can understand..mylife.. how about your weekend? was good? i hope so..mylife.. anyway.. i had a great weekend as you wished to me..thank you about it... tomorrow is holiday again...mylife.. have a super ultra holiday.. bye bye~~~~~~!! - from min in pc room

Title: Thanks!

Dear Apple!

I am so glad for you to have had a wonderful holiday with your family last weekend. You must be a happy lady. I can feel your heart towards your family. It is not only a very precious mind but also the basic principle of happiness as you know. I hope you will keep that treasure in your mind forever. I am enjoying my holiday with my family thanks to you. I will cross my fingers for you. See ya.

Wednesday ,        July , 18 , 2001 ,             windy and a little cool .

These days I often feel blue. I didn't exactly know the reason, but today at last I could recognize the cause of my deep depression.

I wrote the contents in this e-mail sent to Yangmi and Applemin.

Title: What a great being a poet is!

Now I am regreting sending you so lowly and coarse skins of language. Would you understand my heart if you felt these cores of life from the following poems? I would like to love my life. However, I can't help putting my head down and hiding myself in the darkness.

I realize once again it is a really hard thing to love myself, or my life. I am kneeling and begging every poet in this world to forgive my excessive courage and impudence.

If you have a light to save my spirit by any chance, please send it to me. I want to entrust my life to it and just lie down in it without any thinking. Who would give such hope to me? I want to drink it with all my heart.

I can't deny the fact that these are true poems.

영덕에서

영혼의 시인 정채봉

푸른 바다를 보고 있다가

눈물이 쏟아질 것 같아서

얼른 하늘로 고개를 젖혔다

아,

하늘 역시도 푸르구나

내 눈물도 푸를 수밖에 없겠다

어느 가을

물 한 방울도

아프게 해서는 안 된다고 생각하며

잠자리에 듭니다

내일 아침에는

새하얀 서리가 왔으면 좋겠습니다

I feel so ashamed to read those poems.

Thursday ,         July , 19 , 2001 ,                      cloudy and raniy .

I received two reply e-mails today from my intimate English e-mail friends. They are really good friends, though they are so different in age. Yangmi is 38 and Applemin is 26. They are very helpful to me.

The following writnigs are their lovely e-mails they sent me today.

I can feel their true heart from them. I miss them very much.

Title: Cheer up!! mylife...

hi...mylife.. what's wrong with your heart? you're so proud of yourself..always.. but not these days..maybe..mylife.. you know what...i love your great poems..and your personality..you know that...what made you think your poems are poor? huh? mylife...  mylife you know i don't think so,right? please have a lot of confidence in yourself. that's a matter of course.^^  cheer up!! mylife..

힘내세요..mylife님 ...

mylife님 주위엔 항상 님을 사랑하는 많은 사람들이 님을 위해 응원하고 있다는 걸 잊지 말구요..그리구..지난 휴일(17일)에 mylife님이 5년전 그러니까 1996년 7월 17일에 쓰셨던 "삶"이란 시를 느꼈어요..5년전이라...묘한 느낌이 들더라구요..^^

휴일에 mylife님의 시를 정리하면서..또다시 느끼면서...제가 맘에 드는 님의 시 5편을 꼽아봐야겠다는 생각을 했어요..물론 다들 뛰어난 작품이라..쉽진 않겠지만..님에게 좀 더 새로운 뭔가를 안겨주고 싶어서요..도움이 될지는 모르겠지만..  참.. 그리구..전에 말했던 "산불"이란 시..보내주세요. 꼭 느껴보고 싶어요..기대할게요..  mylife님 ...

오늘도 더운 하루가 될 것 같아요..힘내시구요..순간순간이 님에게 소중한 시간 되길 기원할게요..  그럼 안녕...!!

Dear. my friend

For a long time, i didn't have my free time in my office. Yesterday I finished my work roughly. Tomorrow it will begin my summer vacation for about one month. During the vacation, i have to do on-duty days for three days which is in August 4-7. Yesterday night, no, today's morning, i waked up around 2:30am. On my bed i thought that i didn't keep my promise to send mail to you. So i was sorry for that. As for me, to send you mail is a homework which i am willing to do because it is good for me to improve my writing ability. In the meantime i am reading your mail, i really want to write mails like yours.

But i also know i am not able to do so..i can't follow your feeling and sense which you have. one more things i didn't keep is that i promised you to send my previous chatting friend's mail which he sent me a few days ago. But i will not sent it to you. In his mail, there in no special contents. but i think it is not good manner for him and his mail. Please forgive me. you will certainly understand me. Dear, my friend.

Now i am listening to music sent from a friend whom i met in freechal. I will let you the site address. In this site,there are so many good songs ,what we call, songs for audlts. If you have time to get in, i hope you use this site to relax your tension. Out of window in this Eng classroom, i can hear the various sounds which are made from summer birds and locusts. wow,,this must be a nice place to enjoy our rest time. But my friend..i sometimes feel that i am uneasy to be here. the reason is that i am not acquainted with this kind of peace. Do you think that i have a disease which all modern person have..busy life? at 1 pm, i will be here in Eng classroom to talk with you more freely.  See you then.

The e-mails from above gave me an enormous confidence to begin again.

Friday ,         July , 20 , 2001 ,                          hot .

I am in my office. I can blue skies through bits of clouds like cotton. In the distance outside windows ,there are sacred mountains ornamented with thick green creatures which are tempting me to approach and caress. It must be an unimaginably beautiful attraction. I would so much love to escape from this sultry heat into sceneries of spectacular nature, such as clean water of valley, whispering songs of birds, cool wind from trees and flowers, sweet odor of soil and fresh air containing a great amount of vital gas, namely, oxygen. Sooner or later, when I take a vacation, which is very short, I will visit the paradise with all my family, bury secular agonies under the ideal atmosphere and separate my mind and body from this confusing world, even though you now enjoy it. A burning heat is invading and destroying my empire.

A few of my previous students phoned me to drink a beer at night, so I went to the bar named "Rorkervalley". I enjoyed our conversation with them over a beer and after that I returned to my house at 1:00 next day. Tomorrow I will go to Cho-chi-won in Choong-book Province.

Saturday ,      July , 21 , 2001 ,    rainy in the morning and sunny in the afternoon.

As I had to catch a 7:15 train to Cho-chi-won, I got up earlier than usual. When I arrived at the station by my car, it was at 7:00 a.m. After I had parked my car at a parking lot at nearby Je-il Hospital,

I dropped by a store and bought two newspapers. One was "Sunday Newspaper" and the other "Sports newspaper". It was a fresh morning. As soon as I took the train, it started off. My heart was beating so quickly. On the way to my destination, I wrote two poems to give her as my present with a collection of my old poems which I had made with good care the day before. She called me up two times and informed me of her route. On the second phone, she said to me, " I reached here at noon." Then, my train was passing Taejeon station. As I got there, it was 12:30 p.m. She was waiting for me in her car. A drizzle was falling as if it welcomed my blind date. I walked up to her car and got on it. And I watched her face and greeted her with smile. It was a little awkward. She didn't see my face straightly. She appeared to be shy. Unlike she had said to me in English chatting, she looked older than my expectation. But it didn't make a difference to me. I found her face was covered with worries and agonies. When she smiled at me, I could observe a few wrinkles around her eyes. She was wearing sandal, jeans, and black short shirt. Her feet were bare, small and so cute. We were going to Korea University Seo-chang Campus in her driving, when a medium-sized vehicle rushed towards our car, a small car named Tico and almost crashed. She didn't notice the red light, but, fortunately, we could avoid collision. We nearly died. I proposed that I should drive her car and she accepted it. We entered nearby restaurant and enjoyed our first lunch. She told me that she was a good cook. I smiled at her. We went out of it and headed for Cheong-ju to drink an iced beer in front of Choong-book university. At about 2:30 p.m., we got there. But we had a hard time finding a parking space. At last, we could locate it. It stopped raining and the sun shone us. We spent about an hour spotting a right bar, because students took a summer vacation and most of the bars didn't open.  At 3:30 p.m., we entered a nice bar whose owner was a good-looking young man. She ordered three bottles of stout, a kind of beer, and several fruits. We toasted to our first blind date. I drank 5 bottles of beer and she half glass. I told her many things about me and she listened to me with a smile. I thought she was a really good woman. She hardly spoke of her. It was entirely my fault. I should have listened to her as much as possible. It was my fatalest mistake. At 5:00 p.m., we went out of the bar. We had to return to chochiwon station. Since I had much beer, she drove. In the car, I felt she was poor  and miserable. I wanted to encourage her to have self-respect and confidence and hold her hands. I told her that I would like to hold her hands. She smiled at me and held my hands first. She caressed my hands with her pretty ones. She said to me, "Your hands are really warm". I won't forget the moment forever. When we arrived at the station, it was at 5:37 p.m. Though I had much free time before boarding the train, I knew she would take a long- distance driving. In addition, she had to return to her house in haste. We couldn't help parting each other. I was so sad. I said to her, " good-bye" and vice versa. She left for her city in her car. I was left alone at the broad square before the station. I phoned her and asked her to return to me. But she refused my asking, because she was on the expressway. I called her many times and promised to meet her later, this winter. At 6:47 p.m., I took my train to go to my home. In the train, I phoned her. As I felt a little tired, I slept for a while. Just then, my cell phone rang. It was her. I was so glad, but I couldn't say, "I miss you". There were a great many people in the train. Since I didn't utter words I would want to say and she would love to listen, she seemed to be a little unhappy. I went into the space between cabins to tell her "I always like and miss you". I had words with her on the phone for about 5 minutes. Even afterwards, I telephoned her many times. At about 9:00 p.m., I phoned her but she didn't answer. Though I went on phoning her, I couldn't hear her voice. I began to worry about her. I thought she might have had a car accident. My mind was in a pretty unstable condition. After a while, she phoned me and said to me, "My husband returned home and couldn't talk with you on the phone." Her voice was trembling with terror. Ah, what a poor woman she was! In order to stay away from such sinister thoughts, I tried to read books, a collection of poems written by Hwang Ji-woo and a novel written by Cho Jeong-in, which I had bought at the small bookstore in Cho-chi-won station building before I got on the train, but I couldn't read them. One was titled, "Someday I will sit at the faint bar" and the other titled, "Stickleback". I struggled to fall asleep, but I couldn't do it. My head was full of worries and thoughts of her. At about midnight, I got off the train. It was a really long travel. I drove to my home and met my wife and my son. He was sleeping with a peaceful face and she was waiting for me. I was terribly sorry to them, but I couldn't deceive my feeling. That night I couldn't notice her ID, Yangmi, in the English chatting rooms.

Sunday ,       July , 22 , 2001 ,                                  burning heat.

I woke up at 10:00 a.m., hurried to get up and had a breakfast very deliciously. As my wife wanted to take a bath in a public bathroom, I had to take care of my son. I took him to my workplace. There were a few co-workers in teachers' room. My son seemed to be a little awkward at first, but after a minute he became accustomed to its mood and played with pleasure. I thought I might meet her on the internet. My guessing was right. I met her in the chatting room. I was so glad to have words with her. Since I had something to do with my wife and my son, I had to stop chatting. I was in a hurry to drive to a wholesale toy store to buy a small tricycle for my son. My wife there purchased a nice tricycle and a toy ball. Afterwards my family went to my father's country and there we met my mother, my cousin elder sister, my nephew and my first younger brother's family. All of us honored my father by bowing to his grave. At about 4:00 p.m., we ate out in a fine restaurant specializing in soot-roasted eels. After dinner, my family went to my house and slept for about an hour there

I gave a private lesson to a senior student going to Dae-a high school from 8:00 to 10:30 p.m. I turned on my computer but one in my house didn't work properly, especially English chatting room, so I went to the internet cafe and enjoyed talking with her.

Monday ,      July , 23 , 2001 ,                                      so hot .

On Mondays I feel tired. People call it Monday Symptom. Most of the people have similar symptom on Monday. What's worse, now it is summer. The sultry weather makes people sick and tired of their daily lives. It is the time that they took a vacation. Through the exciting vacation period, they can refresh their body and mind. But I don't have such a right this summer. The chief of our academy doesn't permit me to take a long vacation. He must be a cheapskate both in materialistic side and spiritual one. He treats his employees as if they were machines. I know he will regret his inconsiderate judgment and improper way of thinking someday. In that respect, he is an unhappy, miserable, and poor man, I think.

Tuesday ,    July , 24 , 2001 ,                                       so hot .

Yesterday and today, for two days, I didn't have much chatting time, since I knew my chatting partner couldn't go into the chatting room. She has been enjoying her fantastic trip with her family in Jeju Island since this Monday. She will probably return to her house tomorrow evening. I can't wait for it any more. I really miss her.

Wednesday ,        July , 25 , 2001 ,                        thunder and lightning .

Last night I drank like a fish. So I had a hangover this morning and I couldn't go to my workplace in time. I slept and slept until midnight. I felt so sorry to my family, especially to my mother. I made up my mind to stop drinking cold turkey for the time being. In the afternoon, the computer in my office had a trouble in the system. I couldn't contact the net and enjoy English chatting time. It was a very disappointing thing. I phoned my previous student who managed his own internet cafe and asked him to repair this machine. I thought this computer had been infected by a virus called "Hi! How are you?" He brought a vaccine program to mend the disorder. But soon I realized it was my fault. It was not contaminated by any virus. We were helpless. We couldn't think of the method to fix it. We came to a conclusion that I would phone the communication company specializing in tasks related to the internet. After I had finished my today's work, I took him to my house. My personal computer had a problem in sound. He fixed my computer in a few minutes. I was so glad. After a while, he left for his own workplace and I enjoyed English chatting with several friends, particularly Yangmi.

Thursday ,         July , 26 , 2001 ,                             burning heat .

Four students of my class wanted to change their studying place into next class yesterday, so I allowed them to do so. By the way, one of them called me up to call off their determination last night. I was glad to hear it, but, on the other hand, I hoped to keep their first decision. I wanted them to make a wise decision. This evening, they came to me and told me to stay in my class. I don't know how I should do their problem and what I should do. I only believe the power of time. I want all of them to be in the right position.

Friday ,          July , 27 , 2001 ,                     cloudy and a little hot .

Instead of keeping today's special things, I transfer my received e-mails from my e-mail box into my diary book.

Title:  반가워요..에나로씨..  (Applemin, Kim Kyeong-min의 메일)

안녕하세요.. 요즘..통 편질 못해서 정말 죄송해요... 저는 지금...제 인생에 있어 또 한번의 큰 기로에 섰어요.. 어찌 말씀을 드려야할지 많이 난감한데..그래두..에나로씨 한테 만큼은 늘~그랬듯이 솔직하고 싶어요.. 직장에 관한 문젠데..저희 사장님과 제가 뜻하는 바가 달라..지금 많이 고민하고 있어요.. 하고 싶은 일을 하면서 살리라고..오래전부터 다짐해 왔건만..막상 현실과 저,김경민은 너무나도 다르군요. 그래서..알게 모르게 쌓인 갈등이 많아요..지금..제게 또 다시 고민하고,생각해봐야 할 때가 온 것 같아요. 쉽지 않네요..삶에 충실한다는 게... 아무튼..에나로씨의 소식은 제게 크나큰 힘이 되고 있어요..감사합니다..에나로씨..^^ 오늘 하루도 에나로씨와 당신의 가족 모두에게 행운이 가득하길 빌면서..이만 접을게요.. 다음에는 좋은 소식 가지고 연락드릴게요..행복하세요~~!!

Title: 지은이예요 (my previous student, Song Ji-eun의 메일)

안녕하세요. 좀있음 학원에서도 며칠 쉬겠네요. 선생님. 저 제일학원 다니기루 결정했어요. 겉으론 잘하고 있는듯이 보여도 안그래요. 뭔가 긴장이 필요할것 같아서요. 이런 말씀. 드리기 죄송하네요. 직접 찾아가서 말씀드려야 되는건데. 그동안 차 태워주신거 감사해요. 여름휴가  잘보내시구요. 건강조심하세요. 좋은 결과 가지구 찾아갈게요...

Title:  친구여....... (My childhood friend, Kim Young-myeong의 메일)

기나긴 가뭄이 지나고 뜨그운 태양이 얄미웠는데 장마라는 놈이 모두를 가슴아프게 하는구나 어쩌면 우리네 인생살이를 보여주는것 같구나/? 벗이여 한해의 농사의 마무리를위해 오늘도 꿈 나무들에게 비료와 거름을 그리고 정성과 사랑을 열정을쏟고있을 친구여........! 가뭄을이기고 태양을이기고 장마를이긴 가을의 풍요로움이있듯 친구의제자들 모두 가을의 풍요로움이 함께하기를.........! 부기가 서울 종로에서 5층건물을 신축중 이라네.행호의 도움으로 잘진행중인것으로 알고있네 나도행호의도움을 받고있네 오늘세놈이 모여감자탕에 소주한잔하고편지쓰는 중이네 친구여 농부가 건강하고 희망을 가져야하듯 스승님이 건강해야하네 뜨거운여름 보양을잘하게나친구 가을에풍요로운결실이

Title: This is my first e-mail. (My step-brother, Moon Se-jin의 메일)

I got recieve your mail well. The essay is really good. Thank you for your kind, Hyung-nim. I'm sorry to write reply late because I came back home last night. And I will go to Kyung-joo & Ul-san this week again so I have to prepare business trip. I'm busy today. How about you?? I'd like to write a letter long but I don't have much expression in English. I want you to understand my reply is short.

Title: What's new?  (Moon Se-jin의 메일)

How are you? What's the weather like there? It looks like rain soon here. I usually think of people who are around me whenever it rains. Therefore I like rain. How about you?? I want you to understand for late reply. Have a nice day. My elder brother..

Title:  안녕하시죠?

하도 얼굴 뵌지가 오래돼서 아래 위층에 있다는 사실조차 희미한 기억이 되어 버리는것 같네요. 영어는 체팅친구랑 많이 하니까 저는 한글로 할래요 실력도 안되고 말이지.

점심은 하셨나요? 올라가기 전에 잠깐 들렀어요. 아직도 채팅 정열적으로 하고 있습니까? 대단하십니다. 선생님이 말씀하신대로 그시절에 뭔가에 빠질 수 있다는게 아직 한참 청춘인다봐요. 저보다도 훨씬더. 저는 요즘 수영배우러 다녀요. 일주일 됐는데 피곤해 죽겠는거 있죠. 하루 한시간정도 밖에 안하는데도. 선생님은 수영 잘 하시나요?

나중의 건강을 위해서 운동을 한는건 좋은일 인것 같아요 수영은 배우니까 재미도 있고. 요즘은 술 많이 안하시죠? 항상 건강하세요.

Title: mylife! sanbul is..

hi..mylife..again ^^ i got your poem...what a surprise poem..sanbul is..

thanks so so much..mylife.. especially..i love it..sanbul.. i think you need to know about the truth...i envy your ability. really..i mean it..mylife.. cheep up!! and i hope you write it..continually.. mylife..i'll cross my finger for you,mylife..^^ have a cool day! bye!

Saturday ,         July , 27 , 2001 ,                                       hot .

Fatigue can't invade my kingdom. I slept late last night. I remember it was at 3:30 a.m. this morning. But I gave two good lectures to my students. They seemed to be so satisfied with my listening class that I was so happy, too. After classes, I spent about an hour  in English chatting. I made a unfamiliar female as my new English e-mail friend. She wanted to receive my essay and be my english e-mail friend. I permitted her to be my new internet friend and I told her my e-mail address. In return, she informed me of her e-mail address, 'clint@lycos.co.kr'. It must be a pleasant thing to make a stranger as a new friend. At about 12:20, I finished the task in my work. I proposed to my co-workers that we should go to eat lunch together. They accepted it, and all of us went to a nice restaurant specializing in Duck Shav Shav( a kind of cooking method mixing various vegetables with duck meat). It was very delicious as usual. My companions complimented it. After lunch, I drove to my house. There were three persons, my mother, nephew, and son. My mother and nephew were watching an animation movie on TV and my son was sleeping in the room. It appeared so peaceful. Since I felt so tired, I had a nap for about 2 hours. When I woke up, it was almost 4 o'clock p.m. After I had had an English chatting time for about an hour, I went out for a walk together with them. At about 7:00 p.m., my wife came back from her workplace. I drove to a fancy restaurant to eat out. all of us enjoyed soot-roasted pork meat and iced noodle. On the way home, my cell phone rang. It was the mother of my private student. she told me that he had gone to Seoul and didn't return to his house yet. I couldn't help delaying my private lesson. It was an annoying thing. But, on the other hand, the postponing gave me unexpected free time and I was happy. I headed for a traditional market to buy two watermelons and grapes and on the way home we dropped by a drugstore to purchase medicines to treat minor tumors on my feet and to cure a sore throat. We returned to my home at 9:30 p.m. I took a shower and went out of my house to meet my previous student, Ko Sang-hyeok. We talked about several topics over a traditional liquor. Though mood was good and exciting, I had to come back to my house by 1:00 a.m. For I was supposed to meet my English chatting friend, Yangmi, on the net. I could meet her at 1:20. We had so a serious chatting time until 3:20. I told her not to meet each other any more. It might not be my real mind. But I wanted to say so.

What's more, I spoke her all the things of me with a great frank mind. Though I felt comfortable, she seemed to be so sad. In fact, I hope she will like me forever. Tomorrow I will confirm her heart.

Sunday ,       July , 28 , 2001 ,                               so hot until night .

One of my English e-mail friends, Yangmi, sent me her two kind e-mails and I wrote her my reply e-mail immediately.

Dear. Enaro

Today, i was in my house all day long as i said to you at meeting around 10pm. To stay in my house is another pleasure for me. Because i don't have to meet other persons whom i don't want to see, and don't need to make me up. but i think that if this kind of days last long, maybe i will get tired of it gradually. But now i am enjoying my idolence. Now i am listening your mail which you sent me yesterday and the touching melody played with the violin. It makes me so relaxible and comfortable. Afterward, please don't ask me about my studying. From morning to evening,i have studied. But i only finished 20 pages of the book. I don't know when i can finish this whole book. Now it seems not to be possible to finish it.    Enaro.

To meet many people in chat room has been my great happiness from April until now. When i am in the chat room, l sometimes forget how fast time runs. so i have to restrict my chat time. When i meet you in chat room, i will let you know the time when we part from..please understand me. It is time to meet you. See you there.

Dear. Enaro

When i waked up, i thought what happened to me at today's early morning. Please don't leave me. If you leave me alone, i will be really sad and gloomy. We met just three months ago. and we didn't have much time to know about each other, Don't you think so? You have to keep your promise to stay with me eternally. Don't refuse my request. i have thought that you are my best friend and consultant at the same time. Even if we can't meet in the real world, we can meet through mail and other method. Is it important for you to meet me directly so much? ...Sorry, i know your real mind.. now i am persisting only on my side.. Whatever you have other mind, the only thing i want to say to you,,don't leave me alone.

please write back to me.      see ya

The following is my reply e-mail I sent her.

Dear Yangmi!

It is me. After you had left me alone last night, I did many things until this morning. I didn't go to sleep until 7:30 this morning. I kept a diary as usual and unlike other days I tried to arrange my mind and my past. Though I felt tired, I didn't fall asleep. As the time approached morning, my consciousness grew clearer and clearer. I thought and thought of you. Who are you? When did we meet? How did we meet? What are we? I asked to myself. .........The conclusion is that I need you and I miss you and I like you, whatever your real mind is. I want to keep my promise to be your eternal soul mate. It is my true mind. But, on the other hand, I never want to lose myself and my self-respect. I would love to make someone who likes and wants me with his or her true heart as his or her soul mate. I asked you many times. "Please be my eternal soul mate and love me." But, in my view, you looked upon my sincere asking as a mere and childish one. Do you know the fact that such an attitude has hurt my self-esteem? It is not to blame for you. Yes, it is blame for me. I must answer for my past, present and future. And I would like to be responsible for my true mind towards you. I can make a promise to stay beside you as your cordial soul mate for life, only if you really want me to do so, and if it is your true mind. What is your true mind towards me? Think twice and inform me of it, please. Now I will go to my father's country by myself. I wonder if you can understand my mind I visit his grave every weekend. I really like you. I never want to leave you alone and make you sad and gloomy. I always miss you. Frankly speaking, I have felt a kind of protection instinct toward you, since I met you in the real world. Please misunderstand my feeling!

See ya.    affectionately yours       from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

Monday ,        July , 30 , 2001 ,                       cloudy but  so hot .

It was a terribly dark and hot summer night. My spirit was boiling in the burning heat as if I were in the sultry desert. Obviously this place was a dry and inhumane desert itself. At first, there were two persons, so I was not solitary. Now that I was with him, I could enjoy my daily lives. Otherwise, I might have been buried in a monotonous and meaningless grave of lives. He was a generous and humane person. He was so considerate to me that he always tried to understand me. Thanks to his good heart, I was able to feel a great peace in my heart. Eventually I promised to be his faithful step-brother and strived for keeping my promise. He desperately needed me and vice versa. We depended upon each other and it was happiness itself to both of us. To make a long story short, we were not two beings but one. But now I can't notice him in this horrible desert. He left me alone in this miserable situation. Now I am alone on this sad space. I am shedding blood-tears feeling thirsty about him. I am looking forward to his returning to me. But I realize he won't come to this blood-smelling battlefield again. The director of this academy was a very bad guy. He blamed my soulmate, age 40, with a great bitterness, slandered and even sweared at him. He was a really fucking guy. In the long run, my soulmate lost his temper and quarreled with the cheapskate, my boss. He was determined to quit this dirty workplace. He convinced himself that this couldn't be his lifesite. He packed his books, materials, and a variety of stuffs,  his belongings, in his bag and left without saying good-bye and turning around. I don't like this desolate desert island. I wanted to leave this damned space with him and I said to the cruel wizard, "I would like to stop working for you." But he protested me, "you must not leave here and must be responsible for our present students." I couldn't help thinking twice. And at last I changed my decision. It was a very sad thing. I made a determination to work for my present students until they took their important test, because I thought I was a teaching man and I couldn't abandon my students. I bet my decision was right. What do you think of my determination? In order to relax the feeling I betrayed him, I drank like a fish late at night. I tried to forget everything I had gone through tonight. Today must be the worst day of my life. I needed you tonight and missed you. But to my regret I couldn't meet you. This was my today's story. Now I want to sleep tight and I want to meet you in my dream.

Tuesday ,        July, 31 , 2001 ,                               so hot .

I copied down e-mails I had received yesterday and today instead of keeping a diary.

선생님,제가 잘못 했습니다. ( written by my student, Hwang Tae-hwan)

이말 밖에는 할 말이 없습니다. 그 날,말씀을 드렸어야 했는데,너무 늦었죠..

차마,선생님들 얼굴을 볼 수가 없었습니다.우선,저 자신한테 실망을 너무 많이해

더욱 자신이 없었습니다. 다른 말을 해봤자,제 자신이,변명으로 밖에 느껴지지 않습니다. 그리고,아까 저녁 시간에 선생님이 교실에 잠깐 들렀을 땐,제가 눈이 나빠 선생님

인지 알아 보지 못해 멍하니 쳐다만 본 것이지...다른 나쁜 뜻은 없었습니다..

Title:  Congratulation your unforgettable trip

Dear Enaro (written by my new e-mail friend, Moon Kil-young)

I've got your e-mail and then so happy.. Maybe you like have excellent writing skill, also your poem.. I'm so good to meet such a man who is emotional beings Do you introduce a good mentor who is your best friend to me?.. yeah... I'm kidding you.... will desire you your condition, community environment..umm your best friend was a well-known many fields like professional worker... economist, historian, astrologer and so on.... If I would have your condition, I'm so happy in my life.. I always program for project... on computer... sometimes.. writing poem like you... you'll be a good poet, instructor for teaching english.... so I'll like love you as a my good friend..

Maybe you obsessed my mind.... your past beings.. your belief..... You said me "Fucking americans... hehe" Precocious thought of your best friend is an efficacious medicine of your life... I think so.. You got the happiness and enormous influence through him... I also have learned teachings from you... thank you... And then I'll say my life... briefly Now I'm living in Suwon, studying for technology.. of many fields as a postgraduate.. So can introduce new tech-news.. and professional information for you.. For example computer world, it is very useful mind of us to be convenient and profitable life. It is clear that our life is to be beautiful.... Enaro... Recently developing a part of IMT2000... So communication emulator, terminal is developing and programming so fast... I always study about such a fields... do you figure out my condition.... very busy..umm I particularly program software for experiment simulation on computer This is my life.. what about you.. oops.. I wanna get relaxing term...and great job than before... I've finished 2 semesters so,,,, After 1 year, I'll get a certification for master course... Enaro..... very very glad to meet you... If you would get time enough, May I introduce your best friends.. umm And then have a good time to you life.. God bless you.. so.. see you next time...

To My friendly Poet...            From your new friend, beginner

Title:  선생님!  (written by my co-worker, Jeong Eun-jin)

오늘 아침에 교무선생님 이야기 들었어요. 어떻게 된일인지 무슨 연유인진 직접 안들어서 모르겠지만 왜 그런식으로 사람을 대하는지 하루 이틀일이 아니지만 화가나는군요.

착하고 반듯한 교무선생님이 갑자기 그립군요. 선생님도 단짝을 잃어 버려서 서운하시겠다. 선생님도 이상한 마음 먹는건 아니죠? 왜 그리 내려갈때마다 안보이시는지.

더운 날씨에 안녕하세요. 너무 인상 쓰시지 마시고  좋은세상이 오길 기다려야 할까요?

Title:hi..my senior...^^(written by my English e-mail friend, Applemin)

an nyung...enaro.. glad to meet you again through e-mail..i'm so sorry that i didn't send my mails often.. enaro.. can you see the boy who sit on the leaf? look at his hands and feet..so cute..wanna bite him..really..hahaha!!! try to listend to the music,too..it's so special rhythm.. it can makes you feel better maybe..i bet!! enaro..

something wrong with you? i hope you will be fine soon..i'll cross my fingers for you as you did..^^ you'll get your summer vacation soon..wow~~!! what are you planning to do? i'll visit namhae in this time.."ddang ggut ma ule"..have you heard about it? it called haenam also...how about you? i'm so wonder what you're doing for your vacation..let me know huh? anyway..enaro.. cheer up and enjoy your vacation really.. i'll keep in touch with you enaro.. bbai bbai...^^

-min still in my office

Title: Dear.ENARO (written by my intimate friend, yangmi)

It has been raining for three days. Because the amount of rain is very much, i think that some districts might be damaged. how's the weather around your region? Yesterday night, i was in chat room but i couldn't find your id. Were you busy at last night? Or did you decide not to get in the room? At the deep night, i got a call two times. But my hus was in the living room, i couldn't make my sound. I thought that you got a call to me. Am I right or wrong? I got your kind and useful mail about improving listening and reading comprehension skills. Thank you so much for you. I read it several times and printed it. You must be helpful person to me. Today i listened tapes that i bought several yrs ago, The name of book and tapes is World Section. Did you heard of that material? I bought it at that time,,but i didn't listen them at all. Now i search for them, i use it. My daily life is same as usual..i got up late and make food for my family. The one thing that makes me happy is that i am studying what i want to do. I don't know if i can achieve my goal or not. No matter what is in front of me, i am happy with my studying..haha. I will write you a mail everyday.  See ya.

Wednesday ,         August , 1 , 2001 ,                   cloudy and so hot .

The following is my reply e-mail sent to my faithful English e-mail friend, Applemin.

Dear Applemin!

Your bright e-mails always give me hope and refreshment. You have a warm heart. I can't so much as imagine your sad face. I think you are energetic and determined. I feel the green energy of youth from you. It makes me revive whenever I am in fix. You must be a terribly grateful person to me. When can I face your smiling face in real world? what a coincidence our vacation period is similar! I heartedly hope that you will have a fantastic summer vacation in your paradise, Haenam in South Jeon-ra Province. I have never been there, but someday I am sure to visit there. In the end of this country, you will be able to dream a hopeful beginning. I will pray for your wonderful life. During the summer vacation, I am going to meet my intimate persons and go to a beautiful valley at the foot of Mt. Ji-ri  with all my family members. There I will enjoy "TAKJOG", dipping feet in the cool and clear valley water, like my ancestors. Purity and freshness will whirl around me and I will feel infinite happiness. While watching my family have a good time, I will have a firm responsibility towards them one more time and dream a powerful beginning. This is my summer vacation plan. What do you feel about my plan? Have a nice summer vacation! See ya.

faithfully yours                 from Mr. ENARO in my terrible office

My co-worker, Miss Jeong Eun-jin, sent me her lovel e-mail to comfore me.

Title: 교무 선생님도 이해를...

선생님도 이해 하실겁니다. 이건 배신이 아니라 나중을 위한 준비라 생각 하시면 되잖아요. 배신이나 그런단어 쓰면서 괜히 자책하고 그러지 마세요. 언제든지 만날 수도 있고 나중에 분명 더 좋은 자리에서 만날거잖아요. 8층과 9층 한 계단 사이가 이렇게 멀다니... 무슨일이 있었는지 우린 아묻 모르는데. 산셍님 더운데 더 기운 빼시지 말고 다른건 다 빼더라도 선생님을 믿고 따르고 가르침을 기다리고 있는 학생들을 생각해서 즐겁게 일 하셔야죠. 선생님의 좌우명 있잖아요. 인생은 아름답다, 즐겁게 살자. 기운냅시다. CHEER UP MR. JEONG!

My new English e-mail friend, Kim Mi-kyeong, who lives in Sok-cho which is located in Kangwon Province, sent me two e-mails. she and I are the same age. I got to know her by means of English chatting for the first time, but I thought she was so cheerful and open-minded, because she told me about her cell phone number and e-mail address at the very day. I hope she will be my long English e-mail friend.

Title:  I had a good time

I believe that you went to bed. It was great time, thanks. I'm on a diet ..but I am hungry, now... How about some hot tea?? o~~k. It will makes me feel better. ok ok. Sweet dreams,..and good night!

Title:  heart-warming story

Thanks for your long and pretty essay. Your e-mail is heart-warming story to me. Most of all, I think you are a very polite and good-natured man. Usually, I like to read that essay and poem. If possible, I would like to write an essay. Well... um... I'll have to study english very hard.^^ You might be an my excellent English tutor. I think that you are merciful man. Am I right? Am I right??? O.K... Anyway, you are a really happy man, because you have a wonderful friend. I envy you. I think that he is a very kindly and heart-warming man, too. I hope, your friendship will last forever.

Nowadays, I was a little busy preparing new business. But I often go to the beach with my daughter. It is located near my house. Ten minutes, by car. It is lovely to hear the sound of beautiful waves and walking along the beach with my daughter. My little pretty girl's name is Ha-Ram. The name is pretty too.^^ Anyway, I'll go to the beach almost everyday during summer. I usually go to bed around 1~2 AM. I need the early habit. what time is it? I would like to go to bed. Good night and sweet dreams. I'll write again. sincerely, MK.

I sent her my reply e-mail with one of my old poems without delay.

Dear Jelly!

Your daily lives are so wonderful. Blue sea usually makes us think of many beautiful things and our hearts broadened and lightened. During this sultry summer, you who can put the hopeful sea in your eyes and your mind must be an lucky woman. I envy you. What's better, your princess will be so cute and pretty like her name, Ha-Ram, I think. Both of you looks good on the sea, therefore shy waves will feel clearly happy owing to two beautiful fairies, you and your daughter. Please enjoy your life anytime and anywhere. Take care. see ya. cordially yours   from your kind tutor(?), Mr. ENARO in Jinju

Tonight I met my previous senior at the bar because I was supposed to hold a farewell party for him with my co-workers. I felt so blue, depressed, and even frustrated. He might have had the feeling of betrayal from me. But I am never a turncoat. I will meet him someday and then he will need my help. I will necessarily give him a hand. At about 3:10 a.m., I returned to my house as a drunken man by taxi.

Thursday ,       August , 2 , 2001 ,                                so much hot .

My lovely and good English e-mail friend sent me her e-mail. Though her composition skills were not good, her warm heart in her e-mail touched me.

Dear. Enaro

Today I want to tell you about my unhappy first love story. Because of my foolish action, he left me. When I was a senior in university, I met a man whose major was pharmacy. He finished military service, therefore he was sophomore. I met him in the winter. We enjoyed long dates for four months. He was so poor, but it didn't matter to me at all. Whenever we met each other, we felt easy and comfortable. During the winder vacation, I attended an academy to learn French -now I don't remember any words about the language.-When I finished my class, I often met him on the street. After many months passed, I knew that he waited for me on the street until my classed was over. He pretended to meet me by chance. Anyway our meeting was go glad and pleasant to me. But soon we broke up. Now i would like to say the reason why we had to part from each other. When i met him, i made an appointment with him that i wanted him not to come to my house. and he agreed to my sayings. At that time, i lived alone small one room near my uni. One day at night he visited me. Because of breaking our appointment, i returned my back to him. now i know that my behavior was very foolish and stupid. Before turning back, i had to understand his mind. The reason why he had to come my house at night like these. That day was his elder sister's second wedding ceremony. She failed her first wedding life and devoiced with her ex-hus. When he attended that ceremony, he saw the wedding ceremony was so humble. he felt a pity to her. After it was finished, he went to my house to meet me to have some comfort from me. AT that time, i was, beyond naive, i was really stupid. i had to show my affection to him. but i didn't. the only reason is that he broke our promise not come to my house. The reason i am saying past story is that when you called me the day before yesterday night, you needed someone who can talk with you and stay with you. If i was alone, I certainly reply to your phone and i felt sorry that couldn't answer to you.

Dear. Enaro

If you are in trouble, let me know it by your e-mail. If possible, with my long experiences of life, i will give you good advices and counsels. Today is really hot, Take good care of yourself, and have enjoy your holiday. Have a good time.  See ya

Today was the first day of my 4-day summer holiday. From now I will write an essay of my summer holiday, which will consist of important and special events of every day. To put it in another terms, it will be recorded in the form of diary.

The First Day of My 4-day Summer Holidays.

Only sky will know what happened to me last night. I had a sad gathering with my co-workers and we watched a considerate but solitary guy, my senior, step on a not-taken road. It was a really sad scene, but, on the other hand, it was a step towards true success in his life, which I have realized would be my way sooner or later.

I needed a lot of alcohol so as to honor significant one summer night. As I drank more and more, amnesia began to dominate my consciousness by degrees. Ultimately, I became the captive of liquor like my wish. Like the calm river running down in front of my house, the sacred night disappeared beyond my remembrance.  Like the famous line in the movie, "Gone with the wind", another sun was shining on my life-site. This was the first day of terribly short(4-day) summer vacation. I hoped to wake up and smell the coffee as soon as possible. Oh my god! Hangover was still controlling my spirit and body. In a half-dream condition, I kept on struggling to escape from one faint and cloudy world into another apparent and bright one. Eventually, not until at 11:30 a.m. could I stare at today's sun. It was such a hot sun that I hesitated about what to do today. First of all, I had brunch my mother served with great affection. It was my long habit of the next day I had drunk and become a poet of street as though I had been a somnambulist(noctambulist, sleep-walker). I remembered parking my car at underground parking lot near my workplace and leaving invaluable teaching materials on the desk in my office, so I thought I should go to bring them so quickly. I decided to take my son to my office. Although weather  was like the day of desert, he appeared so happy.(My son likes to go out with other persons. The weather doesn't matter to him at all. When he insists on doing his own way by only crying out, he has 90 percentage of possibility of success in his plan. The rest percentage of his failing in the ruthless plan is my share. Sometimes he is afraid of me. I play a major role in his education related to personality.) Because he wore his pretty yellow hat, he tried to realize his desire. However, it was too hot to put him under fire of the burning furnace. By making face with saying, " When power of the sun uncle is weakened, you can go out with me", I dissuaded him from persisting his powerful tactics. In about 20 minutes, he took a nap with me. In a half-dozed condition, I could feel my mother pull out my gray hair. What a beautiful world this is! She is my holy mother forever and I am only her little son for life. I pretended to sleep with a smile.  At 5:30 p.m., we left for my office on foot, but soon I had to carry him in my arms. Sweat was running down on my whole body. He was laughing at me and I smiled back at him. He was my lovely son and I was his reliable father. At 6:10 p.m., we returned to our home by my car. All of a sudden, I hoped to breathe the evening air of rural area, so we, including my mother, headed for Keum-san Pond which is a large and beautiful one whose size is similar to a small lake. On the way there, we could enjoy really fresh and cool wind. In about 25 minutes, we arrived at the pond which was surrounded by a great many old pine trees and many people was having their pleasant free time. It was a peaceful world without any competition and conflict. Still, we couldn't stay there for a long time, since we had to buy several kinds of fruits at a wholesale produce market and meet my second younger brother's family. I hurried to drive to the market and there we purchased fresh fruits, watermelon, peaches, grapes, plums, and yellow melons. At 7:30 p.m., we met my brother's family and my wife, and then we entered a comfortable restaurant specialized in soot-roasted eels. The restaurant was so clean and its hostess was so kind that we were able to enjoy the taste of the dishes and the homelike atmosphere of the restaurant. It was a really cozy day.

Friday ,          August , 3 , 2001 ,                           so hot .

The Second Day of my 4-day summer holiday

This was the second day of my precious summer vacation. Sloth makes all the things much more difficult, and industry makes all the things far easier. I couldn't get up early this morning, because I slept this dawn. Like yesterday, the sun was still showing off his power. "Hey, you had better leave for cold valley or blue sea right now", he exclaimed. After brunch, I made up my mind to obey his advice. I phoned my two younger brothers, but only one of them answered me. He was under summer vacation like me. However, his wife was in the hospital to attend on her mother who had a serious disease in her womb. A few days ago, my mother told me "now that your second younger brother's mother-in-law has been in hospital, you may as well visit her and encourage her to get over the painful ailment so fast." I know she had a hard time in accumulating her riches, even though she was only 58 years old. In other words, she was a very poor woman. ( I have a plan to visit and comfort her tomorrow.) In that reason, my brother and sister-in-law has been taking turns taking good care of her. It was necessary that I made them feel so pleasant.

Thus, I hoped to take them to the peaceful and comfortable wonderland. But my sister-in-law had no choice but to turn down my offer. Though there was her brothers and a sister to look after her sick mother instead of her, she wanted to stay with her mother all day long. Only my younger brother could join our trip. As my wife was busy doing her work, I promised to meet her this evening. After all, at 2:10 p.m. four of all, my mother, my brother, and my son and I, started off toward the valley around Dae-won Temple which was well-known for a spectacular scenery of nature, a  long tradition of orthodox buddhism and one of the best meditating and training place for a great many spiritual ascetics. (I was about to drive my car, when my mobile phone rang. I could feel it was from the very you. In a few seconds, I answered it. To my sadness, I was not able to deliver my true heart to you in my car, even if I was so glad to hear your voice. Actually I have looked forward to your unexpected call.)

It took us about an hour and 20 minutes to get to our destination. We noticed proper places to enjoy water-sports(?) here and there, but I drove to higher and higher spot in order to breathe in fresher and fresher air. Wow! What a wonderful world this is! The almighty burning heat has already run away from us without saying good-bye. First of all, we drank a bowl of traditional liquor, called Dong-Dong-Ju, with a Korean-style cake, Pa-Jeon, and acorn curd, Dotori Moog. The sound of cool valley was calling us out. "Hurry up and hurry up to feel me." The sky spreading over the thick green trees was very blue and once in a while was vomiting the pure and white bubbles that were changing in the form of hundreds of creatures. Among them were a deer with two horns, a sunflower with a constant smile, and a man waiting for his sweetheart. I could observe the enthusiasm towards her in his eyes. But he looked lonely and weeping. His tears were running down among peculiar rocks and people were enjoying his sadness. Consequently, it may be natural that the water is so cold. I dipped my whole body in the water. It was apparently crying. I can love even such a solitude. All my family members were in harmony with beauty of the valley, and especially my cute son was enjoying himself with his entire body. The sound of his laughter was louder than that of the valley water. His laughter was my paradise itself. Happy time waits for no man. It was darker and darker. We had to be in a haste to return to our house in Jinju. In the distance, a school of dragonflies saw us off with their fantastic flying dance. It was a really wonderful farewell event. Each of us came back with beautiful and everlasting memories in his or her own mind. After dinner my family was going for a walk when my soul mate phoned me. It made my special day still more happy. This was the second day of my priceless summer vacation.

Saturday ,       August , 4 , 2001 ,                           terribly hot .

I sent my reply e-mail to Kim Mi-kyeong, my new friend.

Title:  How have you been doing lately?

Hi, my new English e-mail and chatting friend, Jelly! These days it is too hot. How have you been doing lately? No news is good news. But I wonder if you took a walk with your lovely daughter along the beautiful beach. And sometimes I want to meet you in the English chatting room if you don't mind. How do you feel about my asking? The burning heat seems to last for the next 10 days. Never give in to the sultry weather and please enjoy it. Take care and remember me to your cute daughter. see ya.

faithfully yours                    from Jeong Bong-hyun in Jinju

My intimate English e-mail friend sent me her lovely e-mail.

Dear. Enaro

Today evening, i read this story in a small book. So i sent this story to you. Because i translated it into english, i don't know if you can feel like me, Anyway read it, and feel it.

A wife was a telephone counselor and a hus was a soldier.

like all of couple who have a job, their life was busy everyday.

One day they didn't know the exact time, wife appealed terrible pain of her eyes. After two months later, they went to the hospital to look into the symptoms. The doctor who examined hers said to them that the wife will get better after three days if she got an operation. So they did as following doctor's advices. but unlikely as the doctor's saying, a wife couldn't see any more after two months later. Eventually she couldn't see any lights and anything at all.

After three months passed, a wife said to her hus," i would like to work again, i am a telephone counselor, i will do the work again. i don't like to live like this not doing anything in my house. I can do it. and i will do it." Seeing his wife's attitude, he allowed her proposal. The couple walked very carefully to go wife's work place, and she gradually was used to walk alone. Six months passed. The wife got on the bus as usual. As soon as she arrived at her work place, the driver said to her. " You are really happy woman." But the wife couldn't understand what he said. " Why? as you see, i can't see anything. it makes no sense to me." And then the driver said, " didn't you know that? Everyday someone watches you. you must not know the fact that your hus looks at you very carefully, until you got off this bus. Your hus always watches out you. After you get in your place, he turns back."

I hope that you can live happy life with your lovely wife.   see ya

Sunday ,          August , 4 , 2001 ,          a little cool for the summer weather .

Today was the last day of my 4-day summer holiday, but I spent the most terrible day of four days. I had a great quarrel with my wife, while my son and nephew were watching it. I feel so sorry to them.

I sent my e-mail to my friend Yangmi and received two e-mails from my previous students.

Title:  Thank you for your beautiful heart!

Dear Yangmi!

I came back to my house at around 3:00. I tried to look for you, but I couldn't find you. Your friends informed me of your news. Of course, I asked them about you. I knew by their saying you had left your adult site at 3:00 a.m. I am regretting I would not come into my house a little earlier. I read your e-mail very carefully. It must be a beautiful story like a fairy tale. If I couldn't watch this world, i might feel happy only in my heart. Frankly speaking, i might give in to this world and commit suicide. I want to love beautiful love story, and I would love to have such an experience one more time. But it is only a dream, I am sure. Can you feel what mood I was in, when I buried my past sweethearts in my heart? I sent a pretty woman to a rich guy. Then I hoped to have gone to the place beyond this world. Without a liquor, time didn't pass at all. I thought a day was like a year. Can you understand it? We can imagine a holy love. Only sacrifice and devotion can obtain it. But I can't deny I am a tiny being. That was an impressive story. And I can comfort my wife and place her at the center of my life forever. but I can't love my present wife with my pure spirit. Of course i know she is a very good woman. Still telling her,"I love you." is a sin, because it is not true. I will try to change my mind. Haha! what do you think of my life, my marriage life and your marriage life? I appreciate your kind advice, but I want to be faithful to my emotion. Unless you can understand me, you can never be my best friend. Now it is at 4 o'clock. I miss you all the time. Nevertheless if you don't like me, i will leave you. You must bear that in your mind. It is me.  I don't want to lose and forget you at all. I had experienced true but sad love. I am loving my past. Do you know my feeling? Never lose me. It will mean the failure in your life. Now I will stop it. Sweet dreams! affectionately yours   from a happy guy, Jeong Bong-hyun in Jinju

I will always be with my present wife and don't worry about it.

Title:  선생님

선생님 병용인데요   그 동안 잘 지내셨습니까?   이리저리 하다보니 벌써 100일도 남지 않았습니다  시간 정말 빨리도 가네요  하루하루가 이렇게 빨리 갈 줄이야......

하루하루 고민하면 살아가는 저도 제가 왜 이렇게 싫은지 모르겠습니다  이젠 자신감도거의 상실입니다  요즘에 갑자기 날이 더워졌는데 건강 조심하시구요  선생님 다음에 또 연락 드릴께요    죄송해요

Title:  오랜만에 보내는 것 같습니다.. (Written by Kim Dong-ook)

선생님 잘 계세요? 자주 메일 못 보내서 죄송합니다.. 방학 끝나고 오늘이 아마 94일 인가.. 참 시간이 빠른것 같습니다. 벌써 백일도 안남다니... 앞으론 더 시간이 빨리 갈거라는데  잘 해낼수 있을지 걱정되네요 작년 같았으면 빨리 지나갔으면 좋겠던데... 지금이 100일만 더 있었으면 좋겠습니다.그만큼 짐까지 별로 한건 없는 것 같습니다.

무료함을 좀 느끼기도 해서 방학 때는 지리산 천왕봉에 갔다왔습니다. 갔다오니 그래도 좀 마음상태가 나아진거 같습니다. 요즘에 공부랑 싸우는게 아니라.. 더위와 싸우는 거 같습니다. 학원에서는 에어컨 덕택에 어느 정도 되는데.

집에서는 등줄기로 주르르 타고 내리는 땀방울 때문에 집중이 잘 안 됩니다.

헤헤....그래서 요즘엔 빨리 자고 빨리 일어나고 있습니다.

그러면 좀 괜찮아서요... 그 덕택에 이젠 6시 첫차타고 학원 가고 있습니다.

첨엔 좀 힘들었는데 많이 익숙해 졌습니다.

앞으로는 체력관리도 잘 해야 할것 같습니다.

더운데 선생님도 건강 잘 관리 하시구요,, 그럼 이만 줄이겠습니다.

Monday ,         August , 5 , 2001 ,                       so hot .

Yesterday I received e-mail from my previous student and I sent him my reply one this morning.

Title: Keep up the good work!

Dear Dong-ook!

I want to find you on the top of your class. I trust you. And your e-mails always meke me take pride in my job. Thanks to you, I am a happy guy in this world. I would like to appreciate it. Take care and try your best during the rest of this year. See ya.

affectionately yours              from Mr. ENARO in my office

My co-worker, Miss Jeong Eun-jin, sent me her kind e-mail informing me of the good news of her marriage which was supposed to be held on the eleventh of november.

Title: What a funny and cozy day your vacation was!

You had a really great vacation, didn`t you? Maybe you are a little tired. We are going to have a four-day-holiday from this Thursday.

I don`t have any special plan for my valuable vacation, but I have an intention to visit my friend in Chang-won who got married last April.  In fact I have something to tell you. I will marry my long soul mate on November 11. We reserved wedding hall last Saturday.

Give me your congratulation message. 크크크. Though we have much time until due time, I quarrel with my fiance. We don`t know why we do like that. Obviously wedding is a difficult and complex thing isn`t it? But I`ll have a happy and comfortable marriage life and all these troubles will be solved before long, I am sure. For I love him and so does he. We have the greatest power, love. What do you think of this? It is my long-term letter sent to you in English. My mail is full of faults but can you make sense of my thought?

Today is the starting day of new week.  Have a good day!

After I had finished my short 4-day summer vacation, I returned to my workplace. It was natural that I should have a hard time in getting up early this morning. My work felt so strange to me. I couldn't know the exact reason I felt so, but it was obvious that I didn't like this place. No other medicine is better than time.

My first lecture in the second semester was excellent, but I could n't be satisfied with my second and third lectures. First of all, as I had a terribly sore throat, my English pronunciation was poor. In addition, I was so tired that I was not able to concentrate my spirit only on lectures. They were very boring ones. I must not be what I am. If I go on living such a life, my destiny will necessarily be in the pool of failure. I will be a loser in life, not a winner. So, I will stop smoking cold turkey and reduce drinking as of today.

Tuesday ,           August , 7 , 2001 ,                  a scattered shower .

Yesterday my co-worker, Miss Jeong Eun-jin sent, me her nice e-mail ,which included a good news about her marriage. I sent her my congratulation message by means of an excellent card mail.

Title: Every Jill has her Jack.! Hahaha!

Dear Miss Jeong!

We are sometimes caught in a shower today. Simultaneously, the sun shines on this small village. People call it "the day a tiger is married". Hahaha! Have you ever heard those words? Probably you could hear them from older people around you. Marrige life is like today's weather. It is full of ups and downs. There coexist happiness and sadness in this world. No one can deny the truth. We are a part of the world, namely nature and so we should obey its rule. However, do you realize that "content is happiness"? It is also true. You ought to keep it in your mind forever. The maxim will make a beautiful couple, you and your future hubby, led on the road of everlasting happiness. In addition to the golden rule, you have the most powerful weapons in this world. They are firm BELIEF and LOVE towards each other. They will defeat all the bad factors, especially ENNUI and INDIFFERENCE, in your marriage life. No barrier can be their enemy. Now I will send you a GOD of good luck. Huuuuuuuuuu......! Soon you will get on the coach to wonderland adorned with all kinds of sweet flowers, enjoy a fantastic journey on the way there, reach your life-site and spend unforgettable days with your soul mate as well as sweetheart, your permanent Jack, for life. Congratulation! I will feel your beauty on your wedding day. Be happy!                           affectionately yours           from Mr. ENARO in human world

P.S.: I wonder what present you want.

Wednesday ,              August , 8 , 2001 ,                    a little sizzling .

One of my childhood friends, Ryu Hyeong-ho, sent me his kind e-mail.

Title:  부럽군요 enaro씨

한가하게 휴가나 보내고 좋구나. 그런데 말야 난 독서삼매경(?)에 빠져 휴가도 잊었다

가족들과 보내는 휴가 좋지. 올해도 어김없이 건축사자격시험준비로 시간이 없다.

앞으로 한달도 남지 않았구나 9월2일 시험이니까. 너도 성원해 주길.... 피서가 별거냐 시원한 에어컨이 팡팡한 사무실에서 공부하는 것도 피서다. 안그렇소.친구 시원한 계곡에서 물에 발담그고 소주한잔하는 네모습이 그려진다.  다음에 소식전하마.

No sooner had I read his e-mail, I sent him my reply one.

Title: Longing for your success in your test!

Hi! my buddy! Thank you for your kind news. It is sizzling here in Jinju these days. It often makes me lazy, but I am trying my best to kick it. There are so many things for me to do this year. No one can replace me. Since I has realized they will make me the best man not simply in my field but also in my life, I can't pull up my horse. (Sloth makes all the things much harder, and diligence makes all the things still easier.) Haha! We must bear that maxim in our mind until we are in our coffin. Hoya! My lovely friend! We are just right in the middle of 30's, but we are too young to complete some goals yet. Do you agree with me? There are many oppotunities before us, so I will keep on striving for my great life in order to be responsible for my complexion when 40. This is what I am. How about you? I bet you will pass in oncoming  test  for a professional architect. In addition, soon you will meet the GODDESS of good luck  I send you. She will help you succeed in your life as well as in your test. I am a great fortune-teller. Haha! I can tell you your future. Hey! Congratulation! A famous architect! That's over. It is your destiny.  You must remember a main point on your test day that your goddess and I are right beside you. I will cross my fingers for your test and your happiness. Keep in a good shape all the time and love me forever. It is your destiny, too.  Hahaha! See ya.

cordially yours                  from Mr. ENARO in my office

Thursday ,        August , 9 , 2001 ,                         a little warm .

I had a sore stomach all day long, since I had drunk two bottles of folk wine called 'San-sa-chun' late last night. Obviously, my body must be in the wrong position. These days I drink alcohol almost every day. I feel I can't sleep tight without it. The main reason is that I have been obsessed with(by) the sense of guilt of my apostating him, my senior, Mr. Sim. When I phoned him in order to ask a question, I felt by his weak and gloomy voice that he didn't forgive my betrayal. I can understand his heart. If I were in his shoes, what should I do? Probably I must have cursed him and abominated his personality. So, I am sad. Who can understand me? I hope to rely on someone, but I can't look for him or her. No one can save me out of this depressing blind alley, even if I go out of it as soon as possible. Sometimes I feel like crying out in the shining sun. He must have made a blunder. He should have put up with the sad and annoying moment. Because he couldn't supress his anger, he left his work and me without any plan. At first I thought I would follow his way, but I couldn't make it. To be frank with you, I wanted to answer for my present students until they would take their crucial test on November 7. I only pray he will understand my true heart.

Friday ,          August , 10 , 2001 ,                      a little cool .

I can feel  my season, fall, is approaching me gradually. So today I arranged  goals for me to achieve until I would be at 40 and I made my daily schedule table for me to keep with great sincerity.

ENARO의 2001년 후반기 생활 계획표

AM

7:00    ☺Waking up and Smelling the coffee

7:10    ☺Working out(jogging along the riverside)

7:30    ☺Enjoying breakfast

7:50    ☺Going to my office

8:00    ☺Calling the roll(checking the absentees)

☺Studying teaching materials

☺Checking my e-mail box and reading newspapers

9:00    ☺Giving lectures

☺Studying teaching materials

☺Listening to English and Dictation(for an hour every day)

PM

☺Enjoying lunch

☺Taking a nap for about an hour

☺Giving lectures

☺Making my own textbooks  (①Collection of English Proverb,

(for an hour every         ②Native-style Pronunciation,

Wednesday and Thursday) ③English grammar:Basic + ∝,

④Vocabulary and Sentence structure,

⑤Collection of E-mails and Diaries,

⑥Solutions related to each textbook)

☺English chatting for an hour

☺Sending English e-mails to my friends

5:30    ☺Enjoying dinner

5:50    ☺Keeping a diary in English

6:20    ☺Taking a nap for 20 minutes

6:40    ☺Supervising self-study time, Calling the roll(night class)

☺Sending e-mails

☺Memorizing Living English for about 30 minutes(월, 수, 금)

☺Memorizing English proverbs for about 30 minutes(화, 목)

☺Giving a lecture

☺Studying for professional translator for an hour every day

☺Reading and memorizing 'Living English by English letters'

for an hour every day

10:45   ☺Returning to my cozy home

11:00   ☺Reading a variety of books, especially collections of poems,             and writing a poem while taking a rest

12:30   ☺English chatting for an hour

☞Every weekend☜

☺Taking a rest for a very long time(Relaxing and Recharging energy)

☺visiting father's country and Enjoying beauty of nature outside      home

☺Studying for professional English translator for 2 hours every

Saturday and Sunday

☺Reading diverse books and writing poems

※I should try my best to practice my daily schedule.

Otherwise, I will be a loser in my life

To do so, I must keep my body and my mind in a strong condition.

Nothing in the world is more important than health.

A sound mind in a sound body.

Quitting smoking cold turkey and reducing drinking

2001년 후반기의 나의 할 일

1.교재 만들기(①영어 속담집 ②발음집 ③문법편

④어휘. 구문 정리편 ⑤메일, 일기 정리)

(교재 관련 답안 만들기)

2.HOMEPAGE 만들기

3.번역사 공부

4.시모음집 디스켓에 정리

5.시 짓는 법 공부(시집 읽기, 다독, 다작)

6.영어공부

①'영문 편지 통한 생활영어' 큰 소리로 읽고 외우기

(한 주일에 하나씩 - 매일 30분씩)

②생활영어 외우기 와 English chatting 통한 회화 공부(매일 2 시간씩)

③영어속담 외우기, 문법 공부, 교재 연구)

④Listening 공부(매일 1시간씩 듣고 DICTATION하고 따라 읽기)

♣목소리를 크게 내면서 발음(정확하게, 빠르게, 크게)

♣녹음해서 발음 비교하기(영어의 리듬을 익히기)

⑤매일 English e-mail 과 English diary 쓰기

⑥외국인 친구 사귀기

7.운동과 담배 끊기(매일 아침 20분씩 조깅하기)

Saturday ,     August , 11 , 2001 ,                               cool .

Haha! She was a really great lady. In addition, what a faithful lady she is! One of my English e-mail friends, Kim Kyeong-min, sent me her her long travel writing during her summer vacation. She must be a dandy. What she made me surprised all the more was her excellent habit of keeping a diary since elementary school days. I know that though it is a good habit, it is very difficule to perform. What does she look like, I wonder. She seems to give me many teachings. I will keep my diary until I am dead. For it is my most precious heritage.

<< 민이의 남해 견문록 >>

띠리리리...띠리리리..

'에고고..벌써야?? 벌써 새벽 3시야???' , "친구야~ 우리 30분만 더 자자 응? 안돼?", "안돼!!" 싸늘한 친구의 한마디에 서글픈 표정 감추며 미처 다 식지 않은 잠자리를 정리했다. '왠 새벽 3시 출발이람?' 며칠 전부터 부푼 마음에 신나게 계획을 세워 놓구선 막상 피곤에 휩싸인 내 자신을 깨우기란 쉽지 않았다. 지난밤 팔이 부러져라 말은 김밥 16줄을 서둘러 챙겨 넣구선 캄캄한 새벽 차가 밀리질 않길 빌며 그렇게 바라던 우리의 계획된 장소 "땅끝마을"로 떠났다. 야~호!! 출발이다!! ( food tips 1 : 김밥은 잘 상하는 음식으로 보존성을 높이기 위해 식초를 이용해 초밥을 만들도록 하며 별미로 깻잎이나 참치,김치 등을 넣으면 독특한 향과 함께 약간의 재료 변화로 다양한 맛의 김밥을 맛볼 수 있다. )

새벽공기를 가르며 미끄러져라 달리는 자동차 안에서 바라보는 낯선 세상의 풍경은 정말인지 내 맘을 부풀리기엔 충분했다. 더욱 기뻤던 건 언제든지 먹을 수 있는 충분한 먹거리들..실로 제일 큰 낙이었다. ^^ 이렇게 출발하여 처음 도착한 곳은 [낙안읍성 민속마을]... 오전중에 너무 일찍 도착해서인지 표를 안 끊고도 조심스레(?) 들어갈 수 있었다.  ( trip tips 1 : 가능하다면 이른 아침을 공략하라. 무표로도 떳떳하게 들어갈 수 있다. 단, 정문이 닫혀 있는 곳이라면 말짱 도루묵..^^;; )

아주 오래전 지은 듯한 낙안성문을 통과하니 에그머니..이게 모야?? 전부 먹거리 민속촌이 아닌가...'이게 단가?' 싶어 걱정스레 여기저기를 둘러보니 잘 나가던 옛 정승댁이나 될 만한 고급스런 기와집이 하나 둘씩 시야에 들어오기 시작했다. 그럼 그렇지.. ᄒᄒᄒ 백년이상은 묵은 듯한 큰 나무들과 잘 손질된 푸르청청한 잔디에 흡족해하며 구석즈음에 달려있는 그네에 올랐다. '그네타는 춘향이가 과연 이런 모습이 아니었을까?'하는 혼자만의 멋진 상상을 하며 겁 모르게 생생 달렸다. '근데, 어찌 성도령은 안 보이는 것인감? 이때쯤이면 나타날 때가 되었는 디!' 사또의 명에 따라 관장을 맞는 인형들의 모습이 실제 그 시대를 연상케 해 참 인상깊었다. 햐~~~~~~~여기서부턴 내가 운전하당~!! 친구차를 뺏아 서둘러 핸들을 잡고선, 약간의 긴장과 함께 스릴을 느끼며 신나게 밟았다. 오빠 달려처럼... ( 그러나..나름대로는 신중했음. 내 차가 아닌데다가 면허증까정 안 가지고 있었걸랑 ^^;; ) 눈여겨보니... 좀 전까지만 해도 전혀 신경 안 쓰던 안전벨트를 모두들 꼼꼼히 착용하고 축축 늘어져 있던 자세들이 뭔가에 대비하는 듯한 반듯한 자세를 취하고 있었다. 치이...친구들 마저? -.- 이렇게 해서 운전기사에, 항해사 역할까정 해가며 도착한 [해남 땅끝마을]... 얼마나 소문이 났는지 차가 밀려밀려 겨우 들어간 말로만 듣던 땅끝마을에서 "땅끝마을"이라고 적힌 조그마한 비석하나와 함께 아직은 미완성인 건축물하나만 떵그라이 보고는 돌아서야 했다. 하지만...진정한 땅끝마을의 묘미는 바다! 우리를 기다리고 있는 푸르디 푸르른 바다였다. 가자~[송호리 해수욕장]으로!! 이미 도착한 인파들로 민박 만땅! 에고고...이게 무슨 날벼락이람...-.- 여기서 주저앉을 수 있나..소나무 우거진 시원한 그늘 밑에 환상의 텐트자리를 엎어지다시피하여 아슬아슬하게 잡고 텐트를 치기 시작했다. 이건 모야?? 텐트마저?? 모두들 어찌나 서툴던지 텐튼지, 대충 친 천막인지..식은땀 찔찔 흘리며 바다에 빨리 뛰어들고픈 생각에 참고 참으며 겨우 완성했다. 음...이젠 그럴 듯 하군.. 모두들 자기 텐트 아니라 낯설어서 그렇다며 발뺌은 잘하더군.. 나름대로 꼼꼼히 텐트를 정리해 놓고는 모두들 하나 둘씩 뛰어들었다. 우리를 유혹하는 넘실넘실 파도치는 바다로... ( 아이고 좋아라~~지금 다시 상상해도 넘 조타!! ) ( trip tips 2 : 모른 척 이것저것 상세히 물으면 텐트비 1000원 깎아준당..헤헤헤... ※주의: 질문을 할시 상대방의 도움이 절대적으로 필요하다는 인상과 함께 불쌍한 표정을 지어라! )

거기 남해는 동해보다는 얕고 비교적 물이 깨끗한 편이었다. 푸~하 푸~하...

부력 덕분에 수영장보다는 뜨긴 잘 뜨는데 수영폼이 영~안나던 걸..거대한 바다라는 생각에 겁도 좀 났고 기냥 파도 물결에 몸을 맡기고 노는 게 실은 더 좋았다. 어디서 주워온 만화그림 그려진 튜브하나 들고 해지는 줄 모르고 신나게 놀았다. ( 알고보니 바람빠진 튜브더만..멀리 갔으면 정말 죽을뻔 했당 ^^;; 아찔 ^^;;) 근데..그거 알어? 친구들이 나 모래에 묻고 도망가 생매장 당할 뻔한 거..썬그라스라두 걸쳤기에 망정이지 해남에서 얼굴 못 들고 다닐 뻔했어..멀리서 이게 무신 망신이람?? 허기진 배를 움켜잡고 서둘러 고기만찬에 맛난 밥을 준비해 먹은 후, 우리는 게임에 임했다. 제로(0), 삼육구(369).."369 369......" 벌칙은 부채로 부쳐 주기(너무 더운 나머지), 식사당번, 설거지, 텐트 철거 등..(너무 유치했남? 원래 우리 노는 게 워낙 순수해서리...알묜서)

( food tips 2 : 읽은 도중 죄송! 나 지금 복숭아 먹고 있거덩! 너무 맛있당!!

참고로, 목숭아, 삼계탕은 몸이 냉하고 약한 소음인 체질에 좋고, 몸에 열이 많고 땀을 많이 흘리는 태음인, 태양인은 해열작용이 있고 수분을 보충해주는 수박, 냉면, 지방질이 적은 해물류, 채소류 등이 좋다. 나 애플은 소음인~~ )

8월 3일 여행 둘쨋날

꼬끼오~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~꼬끼오~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

아이고...또 아침이야?? 지난 밤 너무 피곤해선지 모두들 노래 부르다가 스르르 잠들어 버려 비교적 일찍 잠에서 깼다. 아침 다 먹고 출발할려는 시간이 7시 30분이었다면 믿겠어? 엉? 너무 부지런했징?? ^^ 해남에서 한가지 안타까웠던 점은 물이 차 있어 그토록 가보고 싶었던 갯벌 체험장을 들르지 못했다는 것.. 갯벌체험을 올마나 기대했었는데..진흙팩이 아쉽당~~ ㅠㅠ 돌아오는 길에 [드라마 "허준" 유배지 촬영장소]에 들러서 사진도 찍고 이것저것 구경도 했는데, 이거 원...티비 화면발이 장난이 아니더만...( "허준"드라마 팬이었는디...) 아무리 임시로 지었다지만, 집도 조그맣고 완전 눈 가리고 아옹이더군.. 그래두...집 몇 채로..그렇게 실제감 높은 드라마를 완성했다는 것은 실로 감탄할 만한 일이야..정말루..'암..그렇고 말고' (끄덕끄덕) 인정 많고 헌신적인 의사선생님, 허준의 유배지를 뒤로하며 들른 곳은 [백연사]. 가파른 산길이었지만 여러 종류의 차나무들과 열매가 주렁주렁 달린 이름 모를 나무들이 죽죽 늘어서 있어 마치 절에 계신 스님이 우리를 반겨 시원한 그늘 밑에서 맛난 차 한 잔을 대접해 주실 것만 같았다. 백연사는 저 멀리 바다를 내려다보고 있었으며 아기자기한 연못과 함께 스님의 염원이 담긴 생생한 목탁소리와 염불을 들을 수 있는 운치있는 곳이었다. 여유있게 여기저기 경치를 둘러보고는 산을 내려와 정다산 유적지를 향했다. 조선후기의 학자인 [다산 정약용의 유적지]와 [다산초당]을 볼 수 있다는 생각에 가슴이 벅찼으나 지금 생각하면 유적지로 향하는 산길이 너무 가팔라 숨이 벅찼는 게 아닌가 쉽다. ᄒᄒ

아무튼..다산의 일생과 정치, 경제, 의학, 과학에 이르기까지 폭넓고 다양한 그의 견문과 박식함에 새삼 다시 놀라지 않을 수 없었다. 역시 대단한 역사적 인물이셔~~~~다산 정약용 선생님께서는...

다음 들른 곳은( not daum ^^ ) 도로변 현수막으로 우리의 환심을 산 강진군의 "제 6회 강진 청자문화제"가 열리는 [대구 백자도예지]였다. 우선 우리나라 국보,보물급의 청자 80%가 강진에서 생산된 것이라는 사실에 놀라웠고 또 고려청자의 신비한 아름다움을 재현해 놓은 데 성공해 무엇보다도 실감이 났다. ( 도자기 박물관 안의 시원한 에어컨 바람은 그야말로 환상이었다. ) 무엇보다도 젤루 좋았던 건. 청자빚기 체험장!

에고고..초등학생 주~욱 늘어서 있는 데 끼어 차례를 기다리는 데 구경하는 것만으로도 얼마나 신기하던지..물레를 직접 돌리며 매끈매끈한, 부드러운 흙을 애기 다루듯(애기하니까 생각나는 사건이 있어서 갑자기 불쾌해지네... 푸우, 블루언니랑, 다이아 -.- ) 조심스레 성형하는 데 데미무어 저리가라 더라구.. 물론 패트릭 스웨이지가 없어서 뒤가 허전했지만 ^^. (그래두 사진 한 장 찰칵!! ^^& )

( trip tip3. 여행을 가거덜랑 그 지역의 특산물(식품)을 맛봐라..애플처럼 닭고기 좋아한다구 닭꼬지에 눈팔려 목숨걸지 말구용...500원이나 더 비싸구 맛은 땡이야~~!! )

음...다음에 들렀던 곳은 어디게?? 남해대교(처음 가봤는 데 정말 멋지더라구요. 밤에 다리에 불이 켜져 너무너무 아름다워요..)를 지나 마지막 노량해전에서 숨진 이순신 장군의 전몰터..이름하여 [관음포 이충무공 전몰유허지]....지도를 보면 알겠지만 물길의 폭과 물살의 세기를 이용한 그의 전략은 그야말로 대단치 않을 수 없쥐...그쵸? 그 당시의 대접전이 한눈에 그려지던 걸.(believe it or not..hh) 다음..지친 몸을 이끌고 도착한 곳은 남해의 유명한 상주해수욕장.. 으잉? 왠 사람이 그리도 많은지...여기저기 득실득실...어둑어둑해질려는 데, 주차 만땅, 민박 만땅 이라는 거 있지...서둘러 상주보다 약간 덜 유명한 송정 해수욕장으로 향했죠..이크~ 이건 또 왠 날벼락??? 이젠 텐트는 죽어도 치기 싫고 민박은 다 차고해서 발길 돌려 찾은 곳은 공동묘지 근처의 공원..( 저녁해 먹느라구요~) 무서운 공동묘지 입구의 게시판 앞에서 이것저것 뽁닥~뽁닥~ 요리해서 먹었죠..기분이 묘하던 걸요..배고픔과 두려움의 절묘한 교차~...아니 절묘한 조화~ ...식은땀이 어찌나 나던지..^^;; 식사후 다행히 모텔(?)겸 민박을 얻어 이것저것 얘기하며 놀다 코~~~잠이 들었죠.. 잘자라 우리 애플~~~~

8월 4일 셋쨋날

아침 일찍 맘마 먹고 떠난 곳은 [상주해수욕장]. 흰 피부 검게 될 때까지 놀고 싶었지만 아쉬운 마음 접고 돌아오면서 들른 곳은 진주! 그 유명하디 유명한 "촉석루" 볼려구..충무공 김시민 장군이 임진왜란시 적은 군사로 많은 적군을 크게 물리친 사적, [진주성]을 찾았는데 복원이 잘 되어서인지 성이 깔끔하고 남강을 끼고 있어 데이트하기에 멋진 곳이었다. (남강에 오리배두 있더라구..) 논개가 적장을 끼고 남강으로 뛰어들었다는 [의암]도 보고 김시민 장군의 동상과 함께 잘 보존된 정자와 집 등이 몇 채 있었다. 빼놓을 수 없이 들린 곳이 진주성 안에 있는 국립 진주박물관이었는데, 상세한 설명과 함께 현실감 있는 그림과 유물 전시가 잘 되어있어 역사공부에 많은 도움이 되었다. 무엇보다도 눈 여겨 읽은 건 이순신 장군의 "난중일기" 였는 데, 물론 요약판 이었지만 그의 위대한 이름 앞에 늘 고개만 숙여지던 내가 그의 생활과 철학을 조금이나마 엿볼 수 있는 계기가 되었다. (사실 나도 초등시절부터 주~욱 일기를 써 온 터라 일기만큼 자기 자신을 잘 드러내고 깊이 알며, 솔직한 것은 없다고 생각한다 -민이 생각)

박물관을 돌아서서 나오는 내 마음 한구석에는 충무공 이순신 장군의 "난중일기"에 대한 감동으로 왠지 모를 가슴 뭉클함이 느껴졌다. 지금까지도..

'아휴~~~~~~~~~~~이젠 정말 돌아가야 할 시간이네..'

모두들 섭섭한 마음 금치 못하고 마산, 김해를 거쳐 부산 해운대에서 쇼~쇼~쇼를 구경하다가 우리 집에서 불고기 파티를 하며 마무리를 했당...뒷풀이 하나는 정말.. 멋졌당!! ( 배만 부르면 멋진 것이여~~~) ^^&      민이의 남해 견문록 끝!!

참! 거기까정 갔으면서 거제도는 왜 안갔냐고 묻겠쥐? 흐흐흐...그럴 줄 알고 지난해에 거제도, 통영 다 다녀왔지로~~~~~~~~옹!  민이의 남해 견문록 정말루 끝!!

hahaha!!!

How was my summer vacation story? it was really fantastic!!

But I couldn't decript perfetly about my vacation. Because of my poor writing ability. I'm so sorry for that.. Anyway..thanks for reading my long and messy vacation story, guys.. My lovely friends...

Enjoy your life and your days!! Have fun!! ByeBye~~~~~~~~~~

-from your lovely(?) applemin *^^*

Sunday ,        August , 12 , 2001 ,                        cool .

Today was Sunday, but I had to come to my office, because it is my on-duty day. Monotonous and repetitive daily work makes me fed up and irritated. Today was the same. In the morning I studied my teaching materials for about 2 hours and took a nap for about an hour and a half. It was enough to relax my fatigue. But it didn't quench my desire of food, so I ate several fruits I had brought with me. At 3:00 pm, my manager came into teachers' room and told me a great many things related to him. They were shocking to me when I actually heard them from him , even though I had guessed such things. What a terrible and dirty country this is! The temptation of money is attractive, but I know it is wrong and so I can deny it. I gave a private lesson to one of my students, Kim Jeong-soo, from 8:30 to 11:25. Though it was a long class, I was much satisfied with it.

Monday ,          August , 13 , 2001 ,                 cloudy and a little warm .

Another week began, the skies are covered with clouds and I am listening to music from internet music station called stoneradio.com. They are surrounded by sadness and melancholy. This is the beginning of my another week, I can't believe. A woman is weeping in a gloomy voice while she lets him leave from her forever. The background music is echoing against empty space. A heartbreaking song is gnawing her heart and it is penetrating my deep heart. It is a tragic love story like the past of a middle-aged man. It is a sad thing to recollect a painful reminiscence. To continue appreciating this song can't helpful to me. I want to meet a hopeful day, though everything good is not on my side.

Tuesday ,         August , 14 , 2001 ,              cloudy , humid and a little hot .

This is my e-mail I sent my new friend who is at the same age.

Dear Jelly!

Today is Sunday. Others will enjoy their holiday, but I have to do my work. For this is my on-duty day. Probably I seem to have a boring day. However, you can help me have a wonderful day. Do you know the way you can free me from boredom? I am sure you are so witty and wise. But I will let you know the way. Hahaha! It is phone and e-mail. I will look forward to your news with all my heart. Don't betray my expectation, please. See you later on the phone and e-mail. Sweet woman! Have a nice dream! faithfully yours  from Mr. ENARO in my room

My new English e-mail friend named Kim Mi-kyeong, who lives in Sok-cho in Kangwon Province, sent me her kind card e-mail.

To : Dear my ENARO

It was raining all day long... It seems to change the season. It

is rather cold lately... In day time, I visited my friend's house

at a short distence. We were chated about last summertime and

you^^. Firecracker, jellyfish, eating the cup-ra-mun on the beach,

drinking beer till late ...etc. Wow! and.... you-my new wonderful

friend. How did you feel today? How abuot your ears? I think, your ears must be tickled a little.^^ Are you sleepping now? ...Good night my ENARO and sweet dreams.  lovely friend,jelly...

The following is my reply e-mail I sent her today.

Title:In return for your kind e-mail, I send you one of my old poems.

Dear Jelly!

More than anything else, I would so much love to appreciate your kind and sweet e-mail. In return for that, I send you this poem of my own having written a long time ago. Please feel it with all your heart.. And if you like to read more poems, I will continue to deliver my lowly but beautiful ones to you. Hahaha! You said to me in your e-mail," I chatted with my friend about you". I wonder what the point of the conversation was? What do you think of me? Hahaha! And I wonder what kind of business you manage. Am I so curious? Please understand me. As you said, the season is changing. It is the law of nature. I really hope you can adjust yourself and your daughter to the change of nature very well. Be careful not to come down with a cold, the bad visitor of this time. I will look forward to hearing from you soon. See ya.   sincerely yours   from Mr. ENARO in my office

One of my childhood friends named Ryu Hyeong-ho sent me his thank-you note.

Title:  고맙습니다. 에나로씨

너무 고마워서 눈물이 날려고 한다. 그런데 세상이 변해도 너무 변했구나. 컴퓨터 없이는 생활이 되지가 않으니 말이지. 손으로 쓰던 편지 생각이 절로 나는구나. 이제 휴가도 끝나고 또 밀고 댕기는 입시의 전쟁터에서 살겠구나. 부디 건강해라 나이가 한살 두살 먹다보니 체력이 옛날같지 않구나. 나도 어제 가족들이랑 근처 야외수영장에서 하루를 보내고 왔다. 예쁜 계집애들이 비키니 차람으로 돌아다니는 것보니 기분은 좋더라. 비록 내꺼는 아니지만 보는 즐거움도 있어니 말이다. 나도 영어공부 좀해야 겠다. 영어를 손에 놓은지 언제인지 모르겠다. 넌 현업이니 먹고 살려고 해야 될꺼고.. 몇일전 친구 영화를 비디오로 보았는데 옛날 생각나더군. 영어수업시간인데 영어선생의 발음 정말 죽여주더라. 그 때는 정말 그랬어. 요즘 세상많이 좋아진거야 초등학교들어 가기전에 기본회화를 한다나. 지방보다 서울 특히 강남은 더 심하지 엄마들이 극성이야.

정말 짜증난다. 건강해라 에나로    에나로 반갑다 친구야

Wednesday ,           August , 15 , 2001 ,            a scattered shower and hot .

Dear my comrade!

Our country was freed from ruthless rule of Japan, the nearest but the most distant neighbor country, on the 15th of August in 1945. The fucking Japanese invaded our country and controlled our country for such long 36 years using all the cruel means and methods. They tried to destroy cultures and traditions which had been handed over from descendants to descendants for about a half ten thousand years. They also took innumerable historic relics away from our country and even massacred quite a few innocent civilians with their pitiless bayonets. What's worse, they brought not a few young ladies, especially virgins, of this country as comforting women of their soldiers and committed unforgettable and unforgivable crimes. They were no soldiers and human beings with proper reason and humanlike character. In brief, they were uncontrollable beasts themselves.

Despite such all the misdeeds, however, they have never been regretting even at present. On the contrary, they are trying to revive their false spirit towards intrusion. Rehabilitation of militarism, a kind of chauvinism similar to nazism, or hitlerism, will evidently trigger merciless tragedy in history of human race once again and ultimately may drive all human beings into the situation of extinction. It is time for all of us to stop their bad envision from being dreamed. It is time all the koreans were aware of this critical historical situation and knocked down their filthy desires together with all the peace-loving people in this world. We must go forward to keep our sovereignty from other foreign countries. What are you thinking and doing  concerning your own mission at this moment? By any chance, did you read " The chrysanthemum and Sword" and were touched by its mutter? Wake up, please! Never be fooled by their wrong teaching and coaxing saying any more. You must not forget the fact that your forefathers, grandparents and parents were nothing more than their dogs and pigs

in the unforgettable colonial days. Would you really like to be their slaves one more time? Otherwise, what do you want to do to recorrect their arrogant distortion of history and to shield your fatherland from ghost-like imperialism? It is our present homework.    patriotically yours    from Mr. ENARO at the center of this country

Thursday ,           August , 16 , 2001 ,                   fine and a little hot .

Today I sent this e-mail to my several English e-mail friends.

Title: I would like to think of this moment as fall.

Dear Applemin!

This season makes us recollect all kinds of beautiful memories. Sooner or later green leaves will turn red and yellow like our life. We will be able to look up higher skies and smile in a complete stillness. Some people will take out their favorite collection of poems from bookselves covered with dust surrounded by negligence, frustration and despair, read them with all their heart over a cup of tea sitting on their armchairs and dream a happy dream of revival. In this season, it is never a dream and neither is fantasy.

Fallen leaves of holy reminiscence will blossom again as soon as they touch the ground of hope and fruits. Can you imagine the fantastic scenery? Please feel it! If you can do it, this autumn will be on your side. If any sad love in your pupils, don't be gloomy for it any more. You have to make it burst out of your past. It is the important meaning of this season. Are you ready to love this fall? Now I will send your season to you. I earnestly hope you will enjoy my feeling and wish with leasure to drink a cup of black tea.

가 을 엔.....

가을엔

가버린 사람의 파란 행복을 위해

소박한 설레임으로 기도하는 詩를 사랑하자

때론

폐허로 향하는 길목에서 고독한

빗줄기마냥 공허한 미소를 지으며

둘이 살던

도시의 퇴락된 빈 공간을 찾아가 들치면

심장 가득 신음하는 너의 술, 나의 담배

죄다 묻어 두고 가야 하는 남의 하늘 아래

너무나 많은 걸 사랑한 죄로 하여

삶이 찌들어가도

가을엔

추억의 신자로 엎드릴 수 있다는 그 이유만으로도

우리네 잠궈 논 사랑을 풀자

1991, 11, 17.

faithfully yours          from Mr. ENARO in the beginning of fall

Friday ,         August , 17 , 2001 ,                           a little hot .

Though I drank a lot last night, I had to get up as usual, since today my students took their preliminary test for university entrance. All day long I couldn't be in the right mind. I went on sleep on the sofa in the teachers' room. Of course, they were able to take it without any problem. As it was my duty, I couldn't neglect it.

Even in the afternoon, I had a terrible stomachache and headache. Hangover continued to gnaw my spirit and body, so I couldn't have lunch. As I skipped breakfast, I felt so hungry, but I had to bear the torture. At 4:40 p.m., the test was over. I had no classes at night, so I returned to my home, took a shower and came to my mother's house. My wife was not in my home. I knew she had gone out to go shopping with my lovely son. After I had today's first meal at my mother house, took a nap for about 2 hours and went to my home. At about 10:05 p.m., my wife arrived at my house with my mother-in-law and brother-in-law, and my son was sleeping. How cute and peaceful he is! Afterwards I had a good chatting time on the computer with my friendly buddy, looked through English test booklet and went to sleep. Today was a terribly tiring and annoying day.

Saturday ,   August , 18 , 2001 ,       Cicadas on the trees were singing summer.

Because I slept like a log last night, I felt very pleasant when I got up this morning. I enjoyed breakfast with my lovely son and I went to my office. I called the roll in my classroom. From 9 to 10;50, I gave two lectures to my students. Both of them were listening classes. I thought they were excellent. As soon as I finished my lectures, I had English chatting time on the DAUM site for about an hour. I made a woman called Juliet my new friend. She lived in Cheon-an city and her job was an English teacher in a middle school. But she said to me, "I majored in French." What a coincidence it was!

Her major was the same to mine. I sent her my essay and my old poem.

I received e-mails from a few people, so I wrote down them in my diary notebook.

레떼를 알게 된지 며칠 만에 형에게서도 레떼를 통한 멜을 받아 보는군요... 재밌네요...

처음 시의 제목과 첫 소절을 읽고는 어디서 이런 글을 인용했나 싶을 정도더니 술이 나오고 담배가 나오는 것을 보고 아하 형의 자작시구나 하는 생각을 했죠... 그리고 끝을 보니 역시 형이 옛적에 써 놓았던 글이구나 하는 확신을 했죠.. 어떤 시가 좋구나 하는 것은 잘 모르는 공돌이지만 그냥 좋구나 하는 느낌이 들었어요.. 정말 형의 가벼운 소망 중의 하나인 시집을 내어도 될 것 같은데요...헤헤헤 늘 좋은 글을 보내주어 고맙네요...

가끔씩 배양기가 속을 썩여도 형의 편지가 그리고 현우의(요즈음은 아주 뜸하지만) 편지가 큰 힘이 되네요... 어머니와의 통화도 힘이 되구요... 그래서 다시하고 다시하고 그런 마음으로 살아가고 있네요... 이번에 배양기를 돌리는 방법을 나름대로 고안해서 돌렸는데 그래서 좋은 결과가 나오리라 생각했는데 교수님도 큰 기대를 하고 계셨나 본데... 항상 72시간 이후의 배양이 limitation에 걸려버리네요.. 교수님도 원인을 모르겠다고 하시니 헐... 하지만, 다른 문헌도 보구 제 실험을 분석도 하고 해서 반드시 성공을 해 놓고 졸업하려고 합니다.... 손에 잡힐 듯 하는 배양 방법 정립이 마지막의 딜레마에 빠져있네요... 하지만, 낙담은 하지 않네요... 할 수 있다는 생각이 들기에 말이죠... 항상 건강하구요.. 술은 적당히 기분을 최고로 만들 정도로만 드시구요... 그래야 처음 말한 건강에도 도움이 되잖아요... 행복하시구요... 잘 지내세요...(Myeong-hyun)

Title:My step-brother's reply e-mail

I'm sorry to reply your mail late. Hyung-nim. Because I'm so busy for business in Kyung-joo. They(my company vendor) want me to help them a lot. I'm afraid of writing a letters in English, because my English is poor as you know. But, I'm trying to write a letters in English as far as I can. Please don't laugh at me while you're reading my mail...

uk. They call me now..I have to go to help them. I will send you mail again. Take care Hyung-nim. Bye. P.S.:I'm really happy to know you..

Title:My sinior's first e-mail

올 여름 보낸다고 고생 많았겠네. 우연히 사이트에 들어왔다가 생각이 나서 연락한다. 요번에 진주에 가면 얼굴 한 번 볼 수 있을 지 모르겠네. 저번에는 축구화들고 가려고 했는데 사정이 여의치 않아서. 요즘도 축구 열심히 하고 있겠지. 그럼 다음에...

Title: My new English e-mail friend's  first letter

무엇이든지 처음은 늘 사람을 설레게 하죠. 님한테서 이렇게 빨리 멜이 올 줄 몰랐습니다. 굉장하군요. 님의 편지..... 그리고 님의 시....... 무언가 날 마구 혼내는 것 같은 그런 느낌있죠. 아이들을 잘 가르쳐야 되겠구나 반성됩니다. 님이 어쩌면 나의 선생님같다는 생각도 들구요. 지금은 퇴근하셨나요. 불어를 전공하셨다면서 영어도 아주 잘하네요. 전 아직 많이 부족함을 느껴요. 그래서 님한테 많이 배우고 싶습니다. 님의 자신감과 또 시를 노래하는 낭만과 그리고 이 시대의 아픔을 전하고자 하는 님에게 난 무한한 매력을 느낍니다. 원하신다면 앞으로도 오랜 님의 '지인'으로 남고싶습니다.

다음에 또 뵈요. 천안에서 쥴리엣

Sunday ,    August , 19 , 2001 ,    a little hot in the day but a little cold at night .  I went to bed late last night, exactly at 4:20 this dawn. I didn't want to get up at even 9:20 this morning. But I had to get up to go to my office by 10 o'clock, because, unfortunately, today was my on-duty day. All the morning I slept on the sofa in my office. When I waked up and watched my watch, it was 1:00 p.m. I had took a nap for two and a half hours. I felt all the more relaxed. In the afternoon, I had a Korean chatting time for about an hour with my friend, yangmi, who these days have enjoyed chatting over listening to music in the freechal site. Afterwards I studied my teaching materials for about 3 hours. At 6:00 p.m., I left my office, drove to my home, took a shower, brushed my teeth and hurry to drive to my student's house to give a private lesson. I finished teaching it at 8:05. But I had to go to another student's house. I was supposed to give him a lesson for two and a half hours and my work was expected to be over at 11:00 p.m.

I reached his home 10 earlier than due time, but he was not there. I waited for him to get home for about 40 minutes, but I couldn't meet him. I wrote down a short note at the end piece of his notebook. It said, "As soon as you arrive st your home, you must phone me."           I waited and waited, but he didn't phoned me. In the end, I called him up and scolded him for his fault. He said to me, " I am sorry but I forgot to meet you." I told him to call back him tomorrow and hung up. I returned to my home in haste and enjoyed my late dinner. Today was an unpleasant day but I was so pleased for my wife and son to come back. He appeared all the more handsome. I love my son and wife.

Monday ,        August , 20 , 2001 ,                                       hot .

My English e-mail friends sent me their kind e-mails today.

Hi...Enaro..!!

It is a little bit cold at night these days.. It really starting fall season as you told me. What a surprise!! How fast time flies!! Can you feel how fast time flies?? TT I wanna hold on my time..really really..haha~~~ How was your weekend? Had nice weekend,huh? I hope so,enaro.. Well..in my case... I went to library for studying. I need to study more and more..But It''s not that easy to me at present. Actually, work makes me tired always and I have many things to do at home.(cleannig the room,cooking and so on) Can I get the better of my studying? I can do that enaro..I bet!! haha.. I know I have no enough time to study,But i can do both,work and study.. Good luck to myself..ha~~~~~~ Enaro.. Thanks for your great poem..I can feel how nice you are..through your poems..^^ Don''t forget i''m your fan all the time.. Take care and see you next..bye~      -applemin after my lunch

Title: what a lovely day!

멋진 시와 메세지 고마워요. 선생님 메일에는 모두 영어라 한글 멜이 오면 전줄 아세요.

저는 시에 대해서는 잘 모르는데 선생님은 그쪽으로 관심이 많으신가 봐요. 완전 문외한인데 난. 요즘은 정말 가을이 온걸 실감해요. 햇빛이 나도 그게 밉지가 않고 따스하단 생각이 들어요. 주말은 어떻게 보냈어요? 저는 거제도에 갔다왔어요. 날씨가 걷기에는 약간은 더운감이 있었지만 오랜만의 외출이라 좋던데. 해수욕장 주변에 해금강 포로수용소, 실은 외도에 갈려고 갔는데 폭풍주위보라 배가 못뜬다네요 그래서... 식당가서 main dish 는 못 먹고 side dish만 먹고온 기분인거 있죠. 그래도 거제같이 아름다운 섬에 가서 좋은 햇빛만나고 온것만 해도 만족하기로 했어요. 선생님은 어땠어요?

다가오는 가을을 한몸에(?)받으면서                       from  정은진.

Dear, Jeong

today, I was some busy to prepare for my teaching materials and a few documents which i had to deal with. Unlike my thinking, it was a good day for me. So i thought that working gives all of people fresh impacts. During the summer vacations i got up late and went to sleep late. it was also good for me and my health. Do you think that i can adequate myself to environments which are good or not? Maybe i can do it well. In the daytime,it is still hot. but i like this summer. I met some good people in computer sites include you. It is really good experiences for me. In the real world, i seldom say my true mind especially it is realted with my faults. But i feel free to say that kinds of things in the com. How do you think about my saying? Do you think that i have a timid and passive attitude to say in the real world? For a long time, i didn't send you my mail. and as time passes, i felt that it is hard to send English mail. But i will try to write it again. in the afternoon, i listened good and sweet music from the site which i get in. I gradually became to like the room. I will leave this teachers' room after 20 min. I want you to live happy life today. See U later..                        From yangmiok

The following is my e-mail I sent my friends and my acquaintances.

Title: I send you my old day.

LOVERS

운동장엔 철벅 철벅 비가 내립니다

우리는 오늘도 하나의 게임을 준비합니다

애당초 조건은 어울리지 않았습니다

빗소리가 심장 가득 몰려 와도

빠알간 우리의 피를 밀쳐낼 순 없습니다

소리는 인간의 함성 소리, 가장 투명하고

먹구름도 우리의 하늘을 다 메우진 못합니다

가을 노래 마냥, 수업은 끝이 나고

운동장만한 넓은 세계는 찾을 수 없기에

하나, 둘... 반갑게 모여듭니다

우리는 하나의 게임을 치루고 있습니다

그건 정직하고 자랑스런 공차기입니다

돌려 차면 돌아가고

곧게 차면 곧게 날아갑니다

하지만 이 둥근 세상은

서로의 바램따라 움직여주진 않습니다

공의 존재 이유라 할까요

게임은 발놀림으로 진행되지만

우리의 가슴엔 온 세상이 터억 안깁니다

공만한 인생 저울을 대할 수 없어

우리는 오늘도 무던히 하나의 게임을 사랑하고 있습니다.

1990, 9, 13.

대학시절 LOVERS라는 축구클럽에서 비오는 날 공차던 하루

This is one day of complete fall and another day of new week..

This season makes us recall our past, whether it is beautiful or not. No matter how miserable it is, it is dipping into our deep heart in a smiling memory when we can throw a glimpse of dragonflies flying around the blue sky. It is the best attraction of this season. How about you? The gap of the temperature between day and night is quite large. Be careful not to catch a cold. See you.

affectionately yours               from Mr. ENARO in the midst of fall

Tuesday ,           August , 21 , 2001 ,                                so hot .

Dear Yang

It has not rained for a long time here in my village. The hot atmosphere is covering this simple town which is renowned for pure and clean river and mountain. It can be a sort of torment to me, but I can't miss beautiful scenery every evening these days. On the 8th floor I watch the twilights as if it is my daily duty. It is so beautiful that I phone my mom and acquaintances to share the great masterpiece of nature with them. They wonder about my unexpected call, but I don't want them to understand my mind. It is only my pleasure. As far as I am concerned, it is a very exciting thing to distribute beautiful thoughts and emotions to many people. What do you think about my opinion? I met you for the first time in this virtual world which at first was filled with all kinds of interesting and thrilling factors. This world captured my spirit for a few months and I couldn't help falling into cyber world. However, as time passes, I have started to get sick and tired of such a life and now I am having a tough time placing myself in the right position. Soon this evil habit will be conquered by me. Since I know myself very well, and, what's better, since I have realized that this vicious monster might dismantle my future and my life, I can no longer love this fantasy 'microworld' while keeping on staying on this messy space. But it didn't give me all bad things. This machine presented me not merely useful tips but also enormous happiness. The most satisfactory thing of all was to meet you, Yang Mi-ok. You once was my true friend, soul mate, and sweetheart. Probably I won't forget those beautiful and cozy moments. To feel you in my heart, though I got married and loved my family, was my invaluable life. I always wanted to be with you. I wanted to be your permanent soul mate all the time. So we met each other in real world. I have remembered precious 5 hours there and I made up my mind to be with you forever and grow old with you. For it was reality and it was my true mind. Now I confess you are my most important being except for my family. It is my daily mission to meet you on the screen and to communicate with you, to talk with you on the phone, to print out your e-mails and to repeatedly read them with cordiality and to take out your photos from my drawer and to stare at them. Do you feel this man? It is me. I would so much love to remain your true soul mate for life. Please accept my faithful mind. Please don't make me confused. It is all. Now it is your turn. I am looking forward to your frank mind.  affectionately yours   from Jeong Bong-hyun          Wednesday ,          August , 22 , 2001 ,                              so hot .

I thought fall has approached this land, but it was my wrong one.  The high temperature in the day is above 30。 centigrade. It makes me stressful. I made my daily timetable a few days ago, but it was useless. Practice is important. If I can perform it completely, I will succeed in my life. But I know it is very difficult. What's worse, my mind is unstable because of several complex thoughts. I have to come over this tough time, otherwise I will be loser in this world. I never want to be. Sandman is coming to me. I want to take a rest. After this sleeping, bright future will welcome me, I bet.

Thursday ,            August , 23 , 2001 ,                                 hot .

Title: Soul Mate

One hundred years ago, the average life expectancy was about 45 years. With life expectancy increasing every decade and life styles changing, it is unrealistic to expect two people to remain in a harmonious relationship for 50 or 60 years. I am involved with a married woman. The unusual thing is that she is 4 years senior to me. This is not a fleeting, hormonal affairs. It has been going on for 4 months. Spiritual connection plays a major in it.  She gives me what my wife will not or can not give. She is my soul mate in every sense of the word. I used to feel guilty, but I don't anymore. She makes my marriage tolerable. I take nothing away from her family. I have the utmost respect for her husband. I look forward to growing old with the woman.  I am not looking for others' approval. In my view, there are no negatives here. A man has only so much energy. Sneaking around can be pretty exhausting. I hope this will last forever.

Friday ,          August , 24 , 2001 ,                     cool except for broad day .

For a very long time I couldn't write a poem since I was not able to pay heed to only one subject and I was busy supporting my family and improving my English. As a result, I had little time to read a wide variety of books and think of nature and human beings profoundly and diversely. It prohibited me from feeling comfortable contemplating all the torment and anguish in this era. It also made me forget the miserable, such as hungry orphans, helpless senior citizens, homeless people and all the other hopeless people. I couldn't afford to hug them in my heart. It was the greatest reason I couldn't produce my poem. However, this morning I wrote my lowly yet significant one. To me, this gave me a very great meaning. 'I am young enough to be able to do whatever I want and I have a special talent to do them.' Now is the beginning of my life. I know myself now. Haha!

가을 무상

어느 날 부턴가 나는

파도치는 세월에 쫒겨

서른 넷 가을 날 여기까지 왔습니다

다가오던 이를 눈짓으로 흘리며

가려던 사람을 가슴 속 불을 지펴

막아서던 애꿎은 놀음이 하늘에 걸립니다

아무 것도 모른 채

정녕 가시같은 사상도 없이

'나는 나' 라는 빈 껍질만 두르고 살았습니다

출근길 아들놈 하얀 이빨속에서

내겐 미소가 어울린다는 걸,

알면서도 애써 인상 지으며 살았다는 걸...

문득

푸르게 늙어가는 가을 날 아침 나절

작은 내가 웃으며 다시 길을 나섭니다

2001 , 8 , 24 .(金)

Title: 반가워요..에나로님..^^ ( e-mail from Applemin )

에나로님...  에나로님...  에나로님...

시...감사하게 잘 받았습니다... 미처 잉크가 채 마르지도 않은...따끈따끈한 시..정말 진심으로 감사드립니다.. 에나로님의 시에는 참 많은 것이 묻어나 있더군요..읽고 또 읽고..읽고 또 읽고... 어떠한 심정으로 한글한글 적어내려 갔을까..당신의 입장에서 한번 생각해 보았지요..   그 어떤 유혹과 난관이..에나로님에게 닥칠지라도...확고한 자신에 대한 믿음과 신념으로 당당히 버티시길 바랍니다..잘 해내시리라 믿어요...한순간 한순간이 너무 짧아..지금 현재 몸소 느낄순 없어도...하나의 추억으로 자리잡아 비로소 우리 깨닫게 될때...그 때..우리 환희의 미소.. 지을 수 있도록 해요..어긋남 없이..곧고 바른 길로..꿋꿋하게..그렇게 소중한 우리 생을 행복한 미소 가득한 얼굴로 살아요..^^

지금의 삶이 우리를 속일지라도..알죠??  힘내세요..뒤돌아 보지도 말고..그 어떤 늪에 빠지지도 말고... 에고고...여기까지 생각하고 말하다 보니까..또 제 자신에 대한 얘기가 되는 군요.. 에나로님.. 소중한 순간순간 되시길 바라면서..다음에 또 뵐게요..

그럼..안녕히..^^                                 - 시의 여운을 느끼며..애플 드림..

Saturday ,         August , 25 , 2001 ,                            cool .

Today was a very sad day. I broke up with yangmi. I was a bad and narrow-minded guy. While I was chatting with her, I said to her all the worst things I could think. She would have been so disappointed at me. But I was not in normal condition. I hope she will be happy.

Sunday ,           August , 26 , 2001 ,                              fine .

As I got up so late this morning, I didn't keep my promise with my mother. I was supposed to pick her up at the spa called Ok-jong Sulfur Spring. But I couldn't do so. I was so sorry for her.

My senior phoned me to meet each other and have raw fish in Sam-Choen-Po Harbor. I agreed with him. My friend, Ha Tae-sun, came to take me to the city. There I met several friends and a senior and enjoyed fresh raw fish. It was a very pleasant day, but we didn't go to our each home. We arrived in Jinju and went to the fancy bar. We drank 4 bottles of expensive liquors. What's worse, we drank until late at night. I spent very much money drinking. I was a bad guy. It was an unforgettable thing to my family. It was so regretful night.

Monday ,         August , 27 , 2001 ,                               fine .

This morning I returned to my house. It was a terrible night. I lost myself. I felt infinitely guilty and couldn't know what to do and how to be forgiven. I would rather die than look at my families' faces. I found myself in vanity and meaninglessness. Unless I stop drinking, I am already dead. I promise to myself that I will be a new man and try my best for my life and my family. Please forgive me.

Today I didn't go to my office, because my students went to their high school to fill out their application forms for university entrance exam. It was an unpleasant day both in mental side and physical one. I couldn't give my students proper private lesson. I intend never to make the same mistakes again. Act your age! ENARO!

Tuesday ,          August , 28 , 2001 ,                                 cool .

Yesterday I had an unexpected day off. For my students went to their old high school to fill in application forms for university entrance test. But I didn‘t feel happy. All day long I felt blue. The reason was that I split up with her, my friend and soul mate. I don't know what I made such a foolish action. I feel extremely regretful now. Tears are streaming down in my heart. I want to be with her again. Without her, I have no confidence to live in this real world. In the mirror, I find a man of melancholy. He appears very sad. It is me. I need to be comfortable as soon as possible. These days fatigue is controlling my spirit and body. I need to avoid this situation.

Wednesday ,         August , 29 , 2001 ,                                  cool .

There are only two people in teachers' room. One is Korean instructor and the other is me. He is studying his teaching materials. Behind me, an electric fan is sending me a cool wind. My students are performing their work. In other words they are devoting themselves to their self-study time. Everything is in harmony with one another except for me. My heart is wandering without knowing what to do and how to deal with this tough situation. What's worse, sandman is coming. I would so much love to rel on, but I have no one to rely on. A woman teacher is entering this room. she is an English instructor. She is a selfish woman. She act like a professional instructor. But I don't think of her as a competent one. On the contrary, I abominate her. She is a typical christian. I wonder if her God loves her. I don't like even her voice. I am not to blame for it. Today I will finish my today's work at around 12:30. I am so sad.

Thursday ,         August , 30 , 2001 ,                                  cool .

선운사에서

written by Choi Young-mi

꽃이

피는 건 힘들어도

지는 건 잠깐이더군

골고루 쳐다볼 틈 없이

님 한번 생각할 틈 없이

아주 잠깐이더군

그대가 처음

내 속에 피어날 때처럼

잊는 것 또한 그렇게

순간이면 좋겠네

멀리서 웃는 그대여

산 넘어 가는 그대여

꽃이

지는 건 쉬워도

잊는 건 한참이더군

영영 한참이더군

These days I am hating myself. I have no confidence to manage to live in this world. I have recognized enough it am to blame for me. I would like to ask you a favor to forgive me once again. Don't kill me and yourself. History repeats itself as clear as summer slips into fall. I am never a bad guy. Please accept my pure mind. Of course, I know the maxim it is no use crying over spilt milk. But it is true that I loved and love you. Though you could think it is not sincere love, I believe between friends, especially true friends, life requires all the tougher processes. I am sure that you liked me, felt happiness from me and relied on me. Don't forget them, please.

Probably it won't be helpful to your life. Please understand and forgive me once again. I would so much love to remain your cozy friend. I won't bother you again. I will help you live a happy life beside you. I am so much gloomy.

Take care all the time and see ya.            from Jeong Bong-hyun

Today was my pay-day. Huhu..............

Friday ,          August , 31 , 2001 ,                              warm .

Today was my student's birthday. But, on the contrary, he gave me a present, a box of soft drink. So I sent him a congratulation e-mail.

Title: I would so much love to congratulate on your birthday.

Dear my lovely pupil!

Now is fall as you feel it. All the world remains in a great stillness and plans to get abundant harvest with all his or her body and mind. How about you? Are you ready to reap well-grown fruits, good returns by your strenuous and constant efforts. I bet you will get a good mark in your test which will be held on the 7th of November. You deserve it. But I have a big favor of you. It is about your mind to deal with all the things in this world. I believe to be strong is beautiful because it can defeat all the devils, such as negligence, corruption, flattery, wrongdoings and so on. Therefore I like such a strong man. It is the very you. What's better, you are trying to be in the right state. It must be your merit. However, stiffness and strength is a little different. True strength can protect weak people from a great plenty of vice, but stiffness can make them feel timid and uncomfortable. I am sure you are strong, not stiff. Furthermore, I bet you are an indispensable figure in our country, KOREA, our homeland. I earnestly hope you will grow stronger and stronger, become a great man in this poor country and deliver your right mind to all the people in this country. I trust you. And I think there is no difference between strength and flexibility. What do you feel about my thought? Happy birthday to you and I will cross my fingers for your life. Shall we try our best in everything?    affectionately yours   from Mr. ENARO in my office

Saturday ,          September , 1 , 2001 ,                                cool .

Today was the beginning day of new month and weekend. The sky was high hung and blue like sea water. In the distant mountain, leaves were loving change of season and turning read and yellow. I was so fad that I wore a long shirt in the morning and evening and that I put on a short one in the day. I don't like such caprice. It was my most hateful thing. I couldn't accept it as my real figure. This season must be a sad one. Even before fall began, I had had a heartbreaking experience. Somehow I may not be forgiven by my family

and her, my previous English e-mail friend. But I will continue to bother her and make her feel sad, gloomy and miserable. I want to be a satan. It may be real self. Everyone may slander me and want me to be dead as soon as possible. But I would like to do so. Obviously she tempted me first and wanted me to be her man. I could know it by her many e-mails and through everyday chatting. From one day, she began to deceive me and herself and tried to avoid me. She seemed always uncomfortable and wanted to have happiness from someone. But she changed her past friend into present one. What's worse, I bet she will tear the heart of her current soul mate in a few months. I hope she will return to her family, her husband and her two sons. It is her life. Otherwise, I won't forgive her. Though I meet her in the hell and she slaps my cheek there, I won't give up my plan. I would love to be a demon and make her an unhappiest woman in this world.

Please forgive me, my lovely people. I am so sorry to my sons, my wife, my mother and all the other people who have known me. But now I can't help it. This afternoon, I will go to my father's country.

Sunday ,          September , 2 , 2001 ,                                   cool .

I went to eat out with my family, my mother, wife, nephew, and son, to a famous restaurant located in countryside. It specialized in fresh beef and pork butchered on the day. In spite of late lunch time, it was crowded with many peolple. All of us, but my son who was sleeping, enjoyed pork and noodle. They were so delicious that we promised to have a family gathering on the day before Chuseok similar to Thanksgiving Day in America. Then my youngest brother will attend the small party for unity and good relationship of my family members. After lunch, we headed for Da-sol Temple in Sacheon county. It was a long visit. I could notice that more people visited it than before. Soon we were able to the reason. The reason was that there were many people to want to observe legendary flower called Udambara. It was known to bloom in a thousand years. My wife was pregnant and felt too tired to walk up to the sloppy hill. My nephew, Hyunwoo, wanted to play ball alone. So my mother, my son and I stood in line to watch the mysterious flower. In about 20 minutes, it was our turn. My mother and I took turns enjoying seeing it. On the old drum were five blossoms of flower. It was a really marvelous phenomenon. They looked so weak. They were bright and thin green. Some people said that they were a kind of spawn of an insect. But it didn't matter to me. I thought they were obvious flowers. Though they were flowers blooming in my mind, it didn't count to me. While I was watching them, I decided to have a good mind and prayed that my previous friend as well as soul mate would return to me again.

After I had finished my private lessons, I returned to my house at 1:20 a.m. I had a long sex affair. It was a fantastic time I had not had for a very long time. I hope she will stay healthy and give birth to my second son without any trouble. My GOD! Please help her.

Monday ,          September, 3 , 2001 ,                                   warm .

Now it is at 8:50. My students are studying in their classrooms. While I am keeping a diary, I call the rool and supervise them every now and then. Fatigue causes me to yawn a few times, but I don't want to sleep even a short time. I have something important to do. I will try my best to be the best man in my field and deliver my teachings to my future students. It is my dream and I must achieve it without fail. In order to do so, I need to have a peace in my mind. These days I feel so confused and uneasy. I know the method to solve the problem, but it is so hard that I know that it takes much time to do.

Sooner or later I will find true myself. I trust myself.

Tuesday ,       September , 4 , 2001 ,                                a little hot .

My new English e-mail friends sent me their first kind e-mails.

hi Enaro..  very thanks for your letter~ sometimes I feel me like a loner .. maybe It is correct that I am lonely. but nowadays I feel that everyday is not bored. It's aid of you & others in English chat.

I don't very well in English , so I often think that I bother you. but you give a courage to me,, for that reason thank you so much. after this I feel a fall & I will have a composure like your speech. I pray ... blessing your life  영어로 쓴다는건 참 어렵다는걸 새삼 느낍니다. 상상해보셨나요? 제가 이걸 쓰는동안 땀을 흘렸을지도 모른다는 것을... (from Ga-hee)

Hi What's up? How are you today and How is it going?^^ I am so sorry that my relpy is so late.. Yesterday and today I am so busy like ants to prepare foods for winter. hm.... Now, I can't control myself because of my seniors. They always give some stuffs to me and I did and am doing now. Especailly today, I am so tired of working even though I tried to enjoy this situation. So I couldn't have the enough break time. How about you? Are you busy like me? ^^ I was so deeply touched of your letter, which of fall. in my case, I like the fall weather but I don't like the atmosphere of the fall. Yet I agree with your thinking on the fall.^^ hm..I will be back to my work ... I am so sorry about that I can't have enough time to write of my feeling and others. I am going to send you through full contex later.. I really want to be a your faithful friend.

have a nice day. see you~  from Mindy, Kim Min-kyeong

Today I sent my e-mail to my old English e-mail friend. But this may be the last e-mail. The fact makes me gloomy. I hope she will understand me.

Dear Yang Mi-ok

About a week ago I sent you my e-mail via freechal site. I hope you will read it and forgive me. I want to be the man to help you feel comfortable and happy from me. I mean it. Please forget my wrong talkings. It wasn't what I intended. Please forgive me only once. I really hope I could return to you and stay with you without any words. From now on I will be your silent shadow. Please understand my true mind. I am looking forward to your reply. I never want us to go back to the past, but I only hope that we could make a new and pure present again. Dear Yang Mi-ok! Please forgive me and be my friend. Don't leave me, please.

Wednesday ,        September , 5 , 2001 ,                             cool .

Another day is ending in vain. Life is an empty dream. All is vanity in life. Last night I drank a lot of alcohol because my students left me and I felt so gloomy. On the other hand I felt that they betrayed me. There goes my life. I have to find myself as soon as possible. Otherwise, I am already dead. I will stop drinking alcohol for the time being. A sound mind in a sound body. I feel so tired now.

Thursday ,          September , 6 , 2001 ,                           a little hot .

My favorite baseball player, Park Chan-ho, failed to obtain 14 win and I sent my student another academy. He pitched very well but he was not lucky like me. I think it is life. One doesn't succeed in his or her life only because he or she makes an effort. It is only the best policy. No one can know the result of life. Though it gives us terrible lesson of this world, we can't deny it. This is empty world.

My new two English e-mail friends sent me their kind one.

Hi Enaro..

What's up? I'm just fine. I'm so tired because I wake up at 6:30 everymorning for English speaking class at 8. When I read your letter, I think your trip in jin-ju is really good. In my eyes~ you have gone very nice place, and you spent your time uesfully. At me~ It is like your trip. In summer vacation, I go to Jang-sa a bathing resort with my friends. At first I go without any reason just I want to a break. So..during driving we decided go the sea and we arrived in young-duk. In spite of clody day, so many people come to sea. The sea is many waves, I can't into the water because of I don't swmming. However one man(he is my elder) bring me into the wave.. suddenly a big wave come to us (I don't konw that time) and I fine me under the water. How about you can feel my feeling that time? He feel very happy but I'm not fine~ oops! All of us after taking shower, go to eat meal and comeback to sea..a night view is wonderful. A calm, wave sounds, cool wind and a fire cracker, etc.. A fire cracker is really beautiful.^^ We sit on the beach, talking about this and that with drink beer. It's so nice that drink beer having seen a night sea. If you have a chance, you try to that! It's great! *^^*  Through my break, I feel comfortable and it give courage to me. The nature is still beatiful and too many things give to us. Do you think that, too?       I will have time again for go to tha nature in fall. Our country is very beatiful in autumn, aren't you?  Enaro. I want to speak to you very many things but my vocabulary is too short. I don't know a plent of a grammar. So you understand me, please. Anyway! You are good man. May I ask you question? What is class you teach? I just know you are a teacher! ^^ And one more..where are you live? I live in kyoung-san for school. But my hometown is An-kang in Kyoung-ju. I cook for myself now. Um... That's all! *^^* Again thanks for letter.

See you next time. My E-mail friend, Enaro. Bye~ (From Kim Se-kyeong)

Title:  I am sorry..Enaro.

Hi, what's up? How is it going, everything is fine? After reading your e-mail, I could catch your point.. yesterday, I did not have enough time to read it faithfully. I want you to approve my apologizing... Today even though so busy, I drop at the chat room where I met Gahee , it is her 2nd celebration between her boyfriend. I wonder whether you have already known this or not... Anyway she is a little bit upset because she did not meet him. I think you can cheer her up. At last, I am going to wait your reply. And I am so sorry about my impolite reply.. I hope you have a nice days...  sincerely yours. Mindy (from Kim Min-kyeong in Myeong-ji University)

Friday ,         September , 7 , 2001 ,          quite a hot for the fall weather .

It is Friday. I want to deliver TBIF(Thanks Buddha It's Friday) to my intimate friends and acquaintances. This morning I took a bath at the public bathroom nearby my house. It made me feel so pleasant and refreshed. It is a good thing to clean one's body. A sound mind in a clean body. Soon another day will be over. But I have an important gathering, a small farewell party. I know I must not drink much. A female instructor will stop working here from tomorrow, because she will marry this November, 11. She was my faithful English e-mail friend, so I feel a bit sad. I only hope she will enjoy a great marriage life. This evening I read a good book about capitalism.

Saturday ,      September , 8 , 2001 ,                          windy and cool .

I drank alcohol late last night with my co-workers. It was a small party, a farewell party. I returned to my house at around 4:00. My wife and son were sleeping and I went to my bed. This morning I waked up at 7:30 as usual but I had a very tough time getting out of my bed. When I got to my office, it was at 8:05. First of all, I went to my classroom and called the roll. Seven students have not arrived at their classroom yet. Though I had to phone their each house to know the reason they haven't attended, I couldn't do it. I was so tired. I decided to take a rest on the sofa and fell asleep. After about 30 minutes, I got up and prepared for my listening classes. I wondered if I could give good lectures, because hangover stayed in my body and hurt my mind and body. However, I gave good lessons to my students. I took a nap all the afternoon. Tomorrow I'll go to my father's country and give Jeong-su and Ki-won private lessons.

Sunday ,        September , 9 , 2001 ,                       It rains cats and dogs.

I stayed up late last night surfing the internet. At about 4:00. I went to bed. I got up at 9:00 this morning. After breakfast, I wrote a poem using my computer. This is a convenient and useful machine, I thought. It was raining cats and dogs. In other words, it has been pelting down. I prepared to visit my father's country. Though it rained, it didn't make a difference to my decision. I drove there through drops of rain. My son, Hee-seok, who was wearing a yellow and cute hat was humming to cassette tape song right on the next seat. Soon he fell asleep like an angel. It was a very beautiful scene. Because of the heavy rain, I was not able to bow to my father's tomb.

Instead, I promised to try my best in everything before Him with my head down. Until I returned to my car after a short ceremony, my son was sleeping and it lasted until we reached our house. He looked so lovely and premature. I really love him. I miss him all the time.

Monday ,     September , 10 , 2001 ,                                   rainy .

The following is reply e-mail my English e-mail friend sent me the day before yesterday.

Hi, it's me, Mindy.

Long time no see. I was in the full of stuffs which I have to do.

So I couldn't answer your e-mail, I wish you would not wait me so long. I read your letter fully and taught about your opinion. First, I'd like to ask you "Do you know how many Japanese know the realistic situation?" In my opinion, I have 2 Japanese friends, after being a friend I asked them like you but they didn't know about historical background of the past. At that time, after asking, I explain our history related Japanese government's militarism and imperialism. What do you think about it? If they knew about the fact before I explain, they are the fucking Japanese but they didn't know. At that moment I realized that the fact we did not claim about their barbarity action before they move to remake their history. I think that is my fault who has Korean nationality. In addition, like your saying, in fact there are so many fucking Japanese. I agree with you but as I say all Japanese are not Fucking Japanese. And In my opinion, I need to think over it deeply. Thanks your long and so critic letter, which made me think of the our historical situation again.

Take care, friend              Mindy

Today is Monday, the beginning day of another week. Every Monday I seem like having a very hard time coming over this fatigue called Monday Symptom. I know it is due to my laziness. From today on I will try my best not to suffer from such a bad condition. Wake up, ENARO!

Tuesday ,       September , 11 , 2001 ,                          cloudy .

Today was the 7th preliminary test day this year. On the whole English questions seemed to be somewhat hard, though listening test speed was very slow and easy. I could find good sentences in the test paper. So I will write them on my diary.

The following writing is one describing a poet in general and detail.

He has the gift of taking something which people have long looked at and making it into something new; it is as if he sees a diamond in the rough stone which has been ignored by everyone else. He can tell stories; he can reveal a person's love; he can describe the silent touch of a sunbeam. And he can do all this with only a few words. He gets rid of all unnecessary words that would weaken the effect he is trying to produce. He tries to get to the very essence of the experience he wants to portray, and then he choose the best words to express his ideas.

The following is an essay written as the main idea, "Let bygones be bygones".

Personally, I usually empty my pockets into my wastebasket before going to bed. And I enjoy seeing how many things I can throw away: notes, memos, scraps of paper, and so on. It is perhaps more important to empty the mind than to empty pockets. During the day we pick up small important things: a little worry, a little anger and impatience, some disappointment, perhaps even some regrets. Every night, these should be thrown out, for they take away the joy of life unless removed completely. Perhaps that is why God brings down the curtain of night - to forget the day that is gone.

Wednesday ,     September , 12 , 2001 ,                          a little cold .

When I arrived at my house after my private lesson, I heard a very shocking news from TV. It was about merciless terror. The members of an anonymous armed group highjacked several civil airplane and had them crashed into Pentagon building, one for U.S national defence, and world Trade Center buildings, twins structures located in New York. The latter collapsed completely and the former was destroyed partly. According to CNN reporter, it was said that no one knew who committed the ruthless and inhumane crime and how many people died from the accident. I felt much sympathy with innumerable innocent people who were killed by the tremendous explosion, but on the other hand I thought it was necessary that the selfish country, United States of America, should be attacked by some violent chauvinists or radical Muslims. They have tried to dominate this world in their hands both political and economic sides. They have treated other countries' people as their inferiors and ignored even their lives. Now they need to realize that all the people in this world are equally important and should be respected and protected on the basis of parallel level and right. Unless they feel that common truth in their minds, they will have to shudder in incessant and cruel horror. I really hope they will recognize their wrongdoings and regret them and that they will dedicate themselves to keeping genuine peace in this planet which deserves to be preserved by the spirit. By doing so, they will be able to be the real leading country of this world. I would so much love to give my earnest condolence to the holy scapegoats one more time. I pray that they all will live in a pacific paradise beyond this world with all my heart.

Thursday ,       September , 13 , 2001 ,      cloudy and a shower in the afternoon .

Almost all the people around me talked about the terrible and unforgivable events happened in several main cities, New York and Washington in U.S.A. I discussed it with my new English e-mail friend, Danae, in LA, and my English chatting friend, Fanta21 whose real name is Kim Ha-neul, in the daum English chatting room for a very long time, about 2 hours. From the argument, we promised to be English e-mail friends. I was so glad to make them my new friends.

As a conclusion of that discussion, I am jotting down the song words of "Imagine" sung by John Lennon. It is about world peace.

Imagine there's no heaven

It's easy if you try

No hell below us

Above us only sky

Imagine all the people

Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

And no religion too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one

Friday ,        September , 14 , 2001 ,                   rainy .

I sent the same e-mail to my new friends and old ones who are about 10 persons.

Title: This is my first e-mail to you. TBIF(Thanks God It's God)!

Dear Sagacious(wise), Kim Ok-sim! (who lives in Jeju Island)

How's it going today? I am so good. Though special things haven't happened to me, I am enjoying this raining fall. There was no class in the morning, so I went to public bathroom to wash off the dirt( dead skin) on my body and to get rid of agonies in my mind. It enabled me to feel terribly refreshed. However, when I put me on the dial scale, I realized that I had gained weight by 1.5 kg. It was an obvious autumn. Nothing could make me sense this fascinating yet humiliating fall than gaining weight.^^ Sometimes by appreciating beautiful and charming songs in the collections of poems, watching all kinds of leaves turn red and yellow, getting wet by the desolate rain like today, and staring at the indigo-colored sky, I try to love this season with all my heart. I evidently know this romantic season alone has the privilege to offer us them. Nevertheless, strange to say, I felt fall, the time of love and reminiscence, by means of belly flesh.^^ Am I pulling your leg? If you think so, probably you are right. If you can think so, I will call you a sort of wizard.^^ I must be a toad-eater. This is my first e-mail to you. What can't I tell you, if you can be happy with my lame kidding and great compliment? But as you know, a golden-rule in my life is "Honesty is the best policy". Haha! By what do you feel this season, fall? I am looking forward to your early reply. Have lucky days!

See ya.  Bye faithfully yours      from Mr. ENARO in jinju

This is a reply e-mail my new English e-mail friend, Dain, in Koang-ju city, sent me this evening.

dear...enaro...thanks for your affective letter^^ I hope everything goes all right about you.... i've been really worried about u....theseday..you'd looked down awfully.. so it seemed to me if i couldn't see you in the chatting room..i would think you must be gone somewhere(?) like beside the god.. joking..^^ anyway..i 'm happy to see you in good mood^^ be happy all the time ~ enaro~ ^^*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

yes....it's the fall...i like this season... in fact i dont like summer at all.. it was too hard for me to get thru this summer... and i lost my weight alot T.T so i will try to get some weight in this fall..

ah~~the sky is so high and dain will be getting more chubby kkkk^^

bbai~~ see you later  enaro.. until then..       Love from dain

The following is a reply e-mail my younger friend, Kim Se-kyeong sent me this evening.

Title:Oops! (From Gahee)

하이 에나로! 이렇게 한글로 편지를 쓰게 되서 유감이에요.. 요즘은 정신이 없다보니 편지도 빨리 보지 못하고 답장 또한 늦어졌네요. 한글로 쓰니 좀 이상하지만 제가 영어로 답장을 보내려면 꽤 많은 시간이 걸리기때문에 할 수 없이 오늘은 이렇게 씁니다. 남자가 살찌는 계절이라고 했나요 살찌면 배가 나올텐데.. 하하 경각심을 일깨우기 위해서 개미를 보냅니다. 오늘 대구는 비가 왔어요 진주도 비 왔나요 전 TV가 없는 관계로..

날씨도 많이 쌀쌀해지고 비가 오니까 기분도 가라앉아서 그리 좋진 못하답니다.

(한글로 쓸려니까 도통 말을 제대로 할 수가 없네~~ 윽!!) 이 가을 마지막 학기를 이 생각 저 생각하며 괴로워하고 있답니다.원래 사회에 나가기전의 고통이죠 ^0^ 날씨랑 친하지 못한 관계로 약간의 감기기운이 제 몸에 돌고 있구 좀 피곤한걸 빼면 별다른 일은 없답니다. 몸무게를 수시로 재 보도록 하세요 그럼 경각심이 항상 생길테니까요. ^^ 그럼 오늘은 이만 씁니다. 참! you give me a fun. So good! bye~ Enaro See you.

Saturday ,      September , 15 , 2001 ,                          clear and blue sky .

This afternoon I was supposed to meet my younger brothers and take care of my forefather's tombs, or cutting thick weeds on their graves. By the way, my second younger brother phoned me at 10 a.m. that he would do it with his close co-worker and that I wouldn't need to worry about that. Though I thought that such a thing was wrong, I couldn't refuse his suggestion. Above all, I had no time to look after my ancestors with all my heart and what's worse I felt so tired. When I finished my today's work and reached my house, I was able to meet my second younger brother and his companion. I thanked them for their grateful performance. After lunch, I slept all afternoon long. It enabled me to relax my fatigue and strain. At about 6 p.m., I went to my father's land to report him about having his superiors' hair cut by the two men, not me, with my wife and son, even if I thought that he had already known the fact. He appeared to be more or less depressed. I felt sorry for him. I made a decision not to do such insincere thing again. At night I gave private lessons to my two faithful students. Today was a meaningful day.

The followings are reply e-mails my English e-mail friends sent me this afternoon.

Title: Thank you (From Joseph Sang Sou in L.A.)

First of all, I appreciate your letter that reminds me something I lost and being loose. I was so impressed the way you writting a letter, and I was nerves to writting a letter.I rather say that I was scared. Anyway... I just did not know what to say after I received your letter. once again thanks for letter   Joseph Sang Sou

Title:Long time no see!

Hi...enaro.. Thanks for your great mail.. You look happy these days. I can feel it.. You make me happy,also..^^ I would like to select out of your poems which I prefer. But actually I have no enough time..I have an exam on next sunday.. From. applemin in Daegu

Sunday ,        September , 16 , 2001 ,        A sunshine is so cute and bright.

Today was my on-duty day and I had to come to my office by 10 o`clock a.m. My son fell down on the stone floor in the living room this morning. His back head hit it strongly. He must have been shocked. My wife and I were terribly anxious about it. Now I heartedly hope he will be all right. Sometimes he is so pig-headed about his favorite thing, such as operating computer, but he must be usually our angel.

The following is a so good writing I noticed on recent test paper for my students.

Many people have the miserable "I can't" feeling when facing a problem. The "I can't" syndrome has probably stopped more people from living full, happy lives than any of the major diseases. Once you overcome the "I can't" block in your life, there's no limit to what you can accomplish. KNOCK THE T OFF CAN'T. Let that be a lesson to you and never forget it. You can, if you think you can. So always think that you can. When you have the "I can't" feeling when facing a challenge, instantly replace it with an "I can" thought pattern.

Monday ,      September , 17 , 2001 ,                             a little hot .

First of all I copied this great maxim down on my diary book, because I wanted to keep that in mind for life, until I would put on my death coat.

Have you ever heard the saying, "If life gives you a lemon, make lemonade"? Though it may seem sour and useless, a lemon is essential in making lemonade. Remember, there is no situation so completely hopeless that something constructive cannot be done about it. When faced with a minus, do what you can do to make it a plus. Don't be discouraged. Realize that there are no hopeless situations; there are only people who take hopeless attitudes. You will find that you are stronger and even better off for having had tough experiences.

Today was another day of new week. It is disappearing beyond my memory. Soon it will be a past day of my life. I feel a little tired at the moment. I may have unknown disease in my body which can take me to that world. If my students take their test on the dooms' day, I intend to take a physical check-up and treat my illness perfectly. After that, I will make another strong myself without fail.

The followings are the kind e-mails my English chatting and e-mail friends sent me.

Title: Dear enaro.. (written by blueriver who is a Korean teacher)

Thanks for your card mail. I read the text of Lennon`s song and thought the meaning for a long time. Nowadays I think of the life and death and war so and so. I don`t like any war. Who is this man? hhh 'who is this man' is you? I don`t catch the meaning of your writing completely cuz of my poor english. but I can understand your trying to use some essencial words alone. I like your poem written in korean. Anyway thanks for your e-mail again. Bye

Title:This is my reply e-mail.

형! 이번에도 제가 답장을 쓰네요. 전 2학기들어 집을 예전처럼 자주 가진 않습니다. 틈틈히 야구하고 있구요, 다음주엔 치대랑 경기를 합니다. 어제 집을 다녀왔지만 벌초하고 목요일에 유기제약 시험이 있어 빨리 와서 공부하다, 열받아 잠시 메일을 확인하다 형이 보내신 걸 봤습니다. 아이는 잘 커갑니까? 형수님도 잘 계시고요? 형! 항상 죄송하네요. 그동안 약대 전산실 공사관계로 메일 확인을 못했는데, 공사가 끝나 예전보단 자주 형한테 메일 보낼 수 있어요. 건강하시고요. 제가 형을 생각하는 마음이 변치않았다는 말을 하고 싶네요.^^^ (written by Ko Sang-hyeok in Josun university)

Title:Thanks! (written by Kim Min-kyeong in Myeong-ji University)

At first I am sorry I did not contact you. I couldn't have any free time to think about something..but like me, a person who are so late, is given a present. I think it will be helpful me get well. Now I am not in a good condition. And I hope that you have a spare room where you can invite someone who want to take a rest...it depends on you. Never mind, if you don't want...  Take care... From Mindy

Title:어, 정말 추석이네(written by Choi Yoon-cheol, an art teacher in              high school, who was my classmate in Jinju high school days)  아니 아침에 학교에 와서 보니 메일이 세통인데. 그중 하나 광고메일을 제외하고 하나는 정봉현, 나머진 류형호. 왠일들이지. 형호가 추석에 진주에서 니네들 모인다고 하면서 같이 얼굴한번 봤으면 하던데. 이렇게 어울리지 않게 음악과 시와 함께. 요즘도 열심히 시를 쓰고 있나 보지. 아무튼 가을이오긴 왔는데. 느끼지 못하다가 낙엽지는 메일에 가을인가 보다. 추석 때 또는 그 즈음으로 한번 얼굴 봤으면 한다. 아, 그리고 진고 56회 홈이 생겼다고 메일이 왔더구만. 재경 진고동문에서 만들었던데. 추석연휴 토요일인가, 일요일인가에 운동장에서 나름대로 모인다나 어쩐다나. 그럼 잘묵고 잘살아라.

Tuesday ,       September , 18 , 2001 ,                   a little hot .

The following writings are e-mails my youngest brother and my new English e-mail friend, Park Je-seong, a great English speaker, each sent me yesterday.

Title: I love you, my eldest brother. (written by lovely Myeong-hyun)

또 다시 한 주가 시작되었고, 지금은 아침 실험실... 사람들이 아직이라 조용하기만 하네요... 이번 시는 웬지 오색감옥의 색채와 제목은 잘 모르겠지만.. 후후 담배나 사야지... 하는 그 시의 후속 정도로 느낌이 오는데... 짧은 제 기억에 의존한 것이니 나쁜 기분이 들어도 이해해 주세요.. 헌데, 시가 참 좋다는 생각이 드네요.. 일반 시중에서 고르고 고른 시집을 펼쳤을 때의 느낌이랄까... 암튼, 제가 형의 짐이 되지 않을 즈음에는

형님의 시집을 볼 수 있을지도^^ 형의 그러한 여유(?)가 참 부럽네요. 어쩌면 형의 그러한 능력이 부러운지도. 건강하세요.. 저는 모레 즈음에 다시 실험에 들어갈 것 같네요..

건강하시구요.. 내려가서 뵐께요... 바2바2

Title: in the beautiful morning. (written by Fanta21, so clever a guy)

Dear ENARO!

I was really moved by your sincere letters. I regret that I could not find your letters earlier. In fact,a couple of days ago,I installed MEGA-PASS but it did not work well so I could confirm your letters not at home but in my professor's room. I could not help spending my time helping him ,so I was not available almost everytime.Moreover,I could not immediately respond to you,even though I found you sent me a message in daum chat room due to the malfunction of my professor's computer.I dearly hope that you will have a clear picture of my circumstance. I will mend my computer system in a time.now,I am really glad that I can be involved in such a considerate person as you.I felt humble in front of your profound insight in our lives. In that regards, i am still poor.But I have a naive faith that it is important for us not to give up reaching any kind of wisdom by taking an example by wiser people and reading many books and speculating upon whatever is seen to be meaningful for us over and over again. Oh! today's sky is very clear.I wonder how cool it might be if our real world were as clear as the sky over us. Today,as you already felt,I also can taste fall. According to a great english speaker in korea called Kim young ro,fall leads us inwards.I hope that this calm and pathetic and lovely season will lead you inwards and help you have a great inspiration on whatever you want to do. As I told you,I like traslating korean poetry into english.Next time,I will send you what i did,such as it is. My sincere freind enaro! Be happy and enjoy ! Following poem.....is one I quoted from The korea times. I will send you another my letter,soon after I repair my computer system. Have a nice day!

For those who died in Twin Tower collapse.

It could have been me

It could have been him

It could have been them

but

it had to be you

dust and ashes

screams smothered

you lay in their midst

already asleep

no use weeping now

you're already in heaven

probably for the better

no more horror or fear

no more pain from mankind's stupidity

I only pray

the prayer I should have prayed

that god rest your soul

and comfort you in heaven

By julie bang........from The korea times FANTA...드림.

Where are they now..?

after I read a poem written by Julie Bang

(It was about comforting pure and sacred spirits of         innocent civilians, scapegoats of this uncertain and controversial world, destroyed in ruthless terror committed by blind and miserable human beings with sad and poor soul)

A famous poet whispers to me, "they are in heaven now".

Our sky would have turned blood-colored, I thought

with my head up, I stared at it

as usual it was thick blue like a cold sea

but, in it, time stopped

it couldn't flow any more, I felt

Now no one knows

even god heads his head down

what should we do?

how should we live?

when?, where?, who?,

only question marks in this world

no one can find the answer

a small space alone,

a tiny hope alone,

comforts my life

to live in these unclear tears

only the fact caresses my weak heart

is it true?

bleeding, are they really in heaven now?

but in my sight, only the blue sky...

Written by Mr. ENARO                2001 , 9, 17.

Last night I drank alcohol with my former student, Kim dong-hyun, and his girl friend, who was my previous student in her high school days and her name was Gu A-ran.

Wednesday ,        September , 19 , 2001 ,                   a little hot .

The following writings are kind e-mails of my English chatting and e-mail friends.

Title: Dear, friend!

Thank you for your e-mail. How great and beautiful it was! I like that so much. I like your poem. You are a real poet. But I don't know what to say. You make me happy, and shake my mind. So I'm afraid that I'm gonna get to know you. Although you sent a long letter to me, I will send this short words. So I feel really sorry, and have a good night, enaro! bye!!!  from jane (in Taejeon, housewife, 34, Hannam uni.)

Title: Mr. Enaro!

How are you doing today? I'm fine and thank you for your e-mail. Just a few minutes ago, I confirmed your words. It is time to chat in English. Since last June, everyday I enter the room, and meet many people. You are a good teacher and nice friend and excellant poet.

So I'm very very happy to meet you, because you are my age and the same emotion. See you later, enaro. bye, your mail friend, jane

Title: 잔인한 9월인가?

인간의 어리석음이 또다른 재앙을 낳고 그리고 그 분노는 또다른 응징(보복)으로이어지고... 악순환의 역순이다. 죄없이 죽은이들에게는 명복을 빈다. 하지만 미국이 그꼴 난것이 한편으로 고소하다. 우월주의 표상인 미국이라는 나라는 말이야 정말 된통 당한거야 자존심에 손상을 많이 받았을꺼야. 정말 테러집단의 치밀한 작전이 100% 아니 300% 성공한거지 뭐. 어떻게 건물을 폭삭 뭉게버릴수 있니..... 재건축을 위해 철거하는 것도 아닌데 말이여. 우리가 삼풍백화점의 붕괴로 치를 떨며 부실시공을 막자고 떠들때가 어제인것 같은데 말이야. 지금 누구하나 소리없이 죽어간 사람들을 기억하고 있을까?

지금 그곳은 새로운 대규모 아파트 단지가 신축중이거든 ... 우리는 아주 망각의 동물인가 보다 조삼모사가 원숭이에게 해당하는 것이 아니라 인간을 빗대어 한 말 같다. 시험이 끝나고 요즘은 딜레마에 빠진 것 같다. 목표을 향해 열심히 달려갔는데 결승점을 지나고 나니 상실감이랄까 다른 무엇을 위해 또 달려가야 겠지. 건축계의 현실에서 점점 자신감을 잃어가는 것같다. 어쨌던 하늘은 푸르다 정말~~~~~~

Title: Thank you for your special poem.

안녕..에나로..님! 잘 지내고 계시죠?? 저두 가을내음을 한껏 느끼고 있어요.. 아직은 날이 좀 덥지만 저녁무렵이면 노랗게 노을진 하늘과 함께 선선한 바람이 불어 기분이 참 좋아져요.. 이번 시는 참 독특해요.. 물론 한글시에 비해 이해하기가 쉽진 않지만 나름대로의 독특한 맛이 있어요.. 글재주도 참 좋으시네요..^^ 식사는 하셨죠?? 저두 가을이라 그런지 평소보다 식욕이 더 많아진 것 같아요...에고고..애플 살찌면 안되는데..그쵸?? 암튼.. 음악이 흐르는 조용한 오후에요..살며시 눈감으면 금새라도 잠들것 같아요..콜..콜..콜..^^ 그럼..즐거운 오후되세요.. 안녕..에나로님.. From applemin in Daegu

Hahaha! Now I can believe the precious proverbs, "Heaven helps those who help themselves" and "Where is a will, there is a way". I haven't received any e-mail from her, my first English e-mail friend, who lives in Bundang and whose hometown is Daegu. At last she sent me her kind and affectionate news. I was so glad to meet her again. She said to me via her e-mail, "I have experienced terrible situations and hardships." I keep my fingers crossed for her bright future. Hahaha! I was so happy today.

Title: I have nothing to say!!

Long time no see. I'm so sorry. I really have nothing to say. Very long time has passed since I mailed to you last. For last some time I had very busy and unhappy days. Now I get much better than before but I couldn't mail to you again. I thought you maybe forgot me.

Anyway, I'm very surprised to receive your sincere card and poem.

Just one word I can say to you is only " Sorry ". Chuseok is coming soon. I hope you will have good holidays. And always keep your good health. The last,, Thank you very much for your unexpected mail .

Take care and see you next time !!       .. Bad friend, Debby ..

Thursday ,       September , 20 , 2001 ,                         warm .

The following writings are lovely e-mails my friends including my step-brother sent me yesterday.

Title:I am so sorry.

Hi...Sung-nim... At first, I'm really sorry to answer late.. I took charge of new project, so I was busy. I have a million things to do...

How are you these days?? I think it's so easy to catch a cold like nowadays. I've been catch a cold and running nose. It's so terrible..too bad... Take care not to catch a cold...Sung-nim... From your step brother..., Moon Se-jin who works for Mando Engineering

Title: 선생님 오랜만에 보냅니다.

선생님 시 잘 읽었습니다. 몇 부분은 사전 찾아 읽었지만..헤헤 사실 요즘에 선생님께 메일 보내지 못해 죄송스러웠습니다. 선생님께서도 아시다시피 한국학원에서 사람들이 많이 왔습니다. 제가 첨 학원 나온 이후로 계속 사람들이 빠진게 제 탓인거 같아서 선생님께 차마 보낼 수가 없었습니다. 그리고 선생님께서 먼저 이렇게 시를 써 메일을 보내시니 참 고맙습니다. 사실 오늘 서울에 간답니다. 아시다시피 제가 경찰대학교 지망을 했거든요. 1차는 붙었습니다. 영어가 엄청 어려웠습니다.50문제 중에 20문제는 확실히 풀고 다른 문제들은 찍었으니까요... 어떻게 찍기가 잘 들어 맞은거 같은데요 어쨌던 내일부터 체력검사 신체검사 이틀동안 치루고 옵니다.. 다른 것은 별 문제가 없는데 시력이 좀 걸립니다. 운이 따라야 할 텐데요 헤헤 저번주에 모의고사 쳤는데 아주 망쳤습니다. 하지만.. 학원 선생님이 그러는데 결코 좌절하지 말라고 했습니다. 항상 잘 볼수는 없다고 그말을 믿고 낙심하지 않을 생각입니다. 오늘 서울 가서 윤근이도 만날 거 같습니다. 잘 되야 할 텐데요 다녀와서 다시 쓰겠습니다. 환절기에 감기 조심하십시요.

Title:다시 살아볼 수 있다면......

1.

한번쯤

다시 살아볼 수 있다면

그때 그 용서할 수 없던 일을

용서할 수 있으리.

자존심만 내세우다 돌아서고 말던

미숙한 첫사랑도 이해할 수 있으리.

모란이 지고 나면 장미가 피듯

삶에는 저마다 제 철이 있다는 평범한 진리를

찬물처럼 들이키리.

한번쯤 다시 살아볼 수 있다면

나로 인해 상처받은 누군가를 향해

미안하단 말 한마디 건넬 수 있으리.

기쁨뒤엔 슬픔이

슬픔 뒤엔 또 기쁨이 기다리는 순환의 원리를

다시 살아볼 수 있다면

너에게 말해 주리.

2.

한번쯤

다시 살아 볼 수 있다면

그렇게 쉬 너를 보내지 않으리..

밤새 썼다 찢어버린 그 편지를

찢지 않고 우체통에 넣으리.

사랑이 가도 남은 마음의 흔적을

상처라 부르지 않으리.

한번쯤 다시 살아볼 수 있다면

망설이기만 하다 포기하고 만

금지된 길을 찾아가 보리.

사랑에는 결코

금지된 아무 것도 없다는 사실을

모른 사람들에게 일깨워주리.

다시 살아볼 수 있다면

그때 내 마음 흔들어 놓던

너의 그 눈빛이 일러주는 길을 따라

돈에도 이름에도

그 아무 것에도 매이지 않으리......

김재진 시인의 시이랍니다..^^

누군가에게서 받은 건데..참으로 맘에 와닿는 것 같아요... ^^,,,, 맘에 여유가 없을 때 읽음 넘 좋아요..... 누구처럼 나도 나 자신에게 이런 질문을 하게 되요... 다시 살아볼 수 있어서 한가지를 바꿀 수 있다면 무엇을 되돌릴까... 모든 것이 바뀌더라도 한 가지는 그대로 놔둘 수 있다면 무엇을 남겨야 할까... 어떤 사람은 두가지 질문에 대한 답이 똑같더라는 데....전 잘 모르겠어요.. 에나로 님은 어떠세요...^^ 여기는 쾌청한 하루의 시작입니다... 편지 감사하구...좋은 하루 되세요~~~~0 *^^*

Friday ,        September , 21 , 2001 ,                            warm .

My English e-mail friend, Jane, and my high school friend, Choi Yoon-cheol, sent me their own e-mail yesterday.

Title: Dear, Enaro!  (From Jane)

Thank you for your letter. I heard that. Ya i'm always happy without any disappointment, even if life cheats me and makes me sad... I'm so positive.^^ We had a terrible experience 3 years ago, but my husband and I overcame that situation. By the way, Enaro! I failed to use LETTE card... my reply letter. How can I do? good bye, have a good day!

Title:Congratulation!

이런 썩을 노움을 보았나. 욕을 해도 알아 들을 노움한테 욕을 해야지. 지나가는 강아지를 쳐다보고 백날을 욕을 해봐라. 알아 듣기를 하는지. 아무튼 무척이나 한가한가 보군 봉현. 이렇게 자작 영시까지 보내다니. 나는 짧아서 우리글로 쓴다. 알아묵기를

우선, 퍼스트 잉글리시 포윔을 축하한다. 내용은 모르지만, 날로 발전있기를...

Last night I drank a lot of alcohol with my co-workers. I couldn't remember what I had done. What's worse, when I woke up this morning, I was not able to put myself in the right condition because of hangover and disease. I had a terrible headache and unbearable pain in my throat. I couldn't swallow even saliva through my throat. Whenever I gulped it down, I had a very sore throat. So, I didn't go to my office all day long. Though I was worried about my students, I couldn't help it. At night, I couldn't give a private lesson, either.   I had a great and horrible quarrel tonight. We almost divorced. I was so sorry my mother.

Saturday ,        September , 22 , 2001 ,                                 so windy .

Though I got up as usual to go to my office, I realized that it was impossible for me to go to work, because I couldn't say even a word due to a terrible sore throat. I phoned my co-worker not to go to work, and went on sleeping until about noon. And I went to the hospital to be treated properly with my wife and my son, because its pain was too severe to endure. I pray my illness will recover so fast. Today was an unforgettably terrible and tremendous day to me.

The following writings are e-mails my friends sent me today.

Title: The wonderful card-mail titled "LIFE".

Hi, Enaro!!

Thanks for your kind mails with useful tips. ^^  including "if life gives you a lemon, make lemonade." Actually..i like lemons so much..

they''re so sour but they contain much vitamins..we need vitamins for our health..haha.. That means also...I love my life even though I''m defective person..^^ How's it going? I''m really happy now. I feel I am alive recently.. Because I''m so busy preparing something..(something is secret..ha) And I enjoy taking inlineskate at night. I''m a beginner yet, but it will be better soon if i try to practice with my sweat. Why not...^^ I CAN!! I CAN DO THAT..I really enjoy it..That''s so fun!! Enaro.. Enjoy your life and try to feel you''re alive now...

Have wonderful days~~ bbai..enaro..!!   = apple with happy smile..^^

Title: Dear my friend, Enaro.. (written by Gahee, in Youngnam Uni..)

All the time we sailing to life, nobody know their destination. When we reach the death, just that time we can know. all the days, I worry my future but I think that it's up to my attitude. I always trying to do me best of day by day. and now... I have a good friend like you. ^^ sometimes I feel lone but soon I try out of gloomy. I'm fine! In this weekend I will go to my hometown for rest. Maybe you are with family at home. The family is significant. Have a nice weekend! bye~

Title: Dear ENARO (written by Kim-mi-kyeong, 34, in Chokcho)

I'm really thank you for your beautiful heart... In fact, I feel rather bad today. But I feel so good, now ... Because all of your warm-heart mail. Beautiful autumn, beautiful my friend---I'm so happy for you. Good night, my dear..sweet dreams.. very friend, jelly.

Sunday ,        September , 23 , 2001 ,                         fine and blue sky .  Even when I waked up this morning, the terrible pain in my throat kept on harming me. It lasted all morning long. At 10 a.m., I had scarcely breakfast to take medicine and fell asleep again. After I took a nap for about 2 hours, I felt it better. I was too happy to express my mood. I thought I would live again. It was hellish three days. I realized again that nothing is more important than health. From now on I will keep my health in a good condition. Now I am so happy. Now I can't do whatever I want.

The following writings are e-mails and poem my friends sent me yesterday.

Title:  조언을 구합니다 긴급!

안녕하세요 Enaro. 제가 이렇게 글을 쓰는 건 조언을 구할 일이 있어서입니다. 제가 아는 한 고등학교 1학년생이 (여자입니다) 학교를 그만 두고 싶다고 하는데 아무런 이유도 없고 단지 연예인을 하겠다고 합니다. 집안에서도 아무 문제 없이 자란 학생임에도 불구하고 그 아이를 어떤 말로 달래야 하는 지 막막하네요. 이 글 읽는 데로 좋은 말 부탁해요. 이름:김세경   연락처 : 011-9591-4832   E-mail : libe98@i5425.com

Title:  Dear, my friend!

How are you today? I'm fine and you? I have been to the elementary school of my daughter. Today was a field day for my daughter. There are so many parents and grandparents. They supported their children.

We had a good time, and had a delicious lunch there. I played at a tug of war. I really didn't want that game. but my father-in-law pushed me on the back. Anyway my team won. You may know that my daughter is 3rd grade. she had a race, and some dance. Although she was not fast, I took a photo, her smiling face. It's the sunny, windy day, but great day for my daughter. good bye, Enaro. from jane.

Title: A short note. (written by Kim-Ok-sim in Je-ju Island)

Hi, Enaro, how are you? Long time no see! you do remember me! Wow...

I thought you can not remember me because our first chatting time, you told me you drank some beer... Anyway, I am glad to see you again... I hope to see you again.. Have a nice day..bye bye  from Peace

Title:귀천보세요(시라고 부르기엔 너무 부끄러워요) (written by Kim-Ok-sim)

--- 늦가을 소묘 위에 파스텔이 춤추다. ( a poem of her own writing)

자연의 손가락에 쥐어진 파스텔조각하나

뿌옇게 휘도는 거리의 먼지를 일으키며

겨울을 그리려는 매무시가 요란하다

도화지를 누비며 쾌히 지르는 추임새마다

덩달아 춤을 추는 여름날의 초상

플라타너스와 은행잎의 역사가

시린 바람한줄기에 서럽게 채색되었다

세월에 달고다닌 외로움의 흔적이

삶의 덧없음에 부르르 몸사리다 씻겨지고

총총히 출근하는 행인들의 발걸음마다

가을의 절정, 낙엽의 물결이 출렁인다

행여나, 혹여나 간절한 바램으로

두손을 모으며 간직하리라 믿었던

정열의 날개를 이제는 고요히 접는다

빛바랜 생명력으로 은둔한 자연성,

냉엄한 이야기가 가을끝자락에 그려져있다.  (11/27/2000)

Monday ,      September , 24 , 2001 ,                          warm .

Title: Powersalt^^ (sagacious4)의 note (Kim Ok-sim, 32, in Je-ju)

이런, 귀천이 아프다는 말을 들으니 가슴이 아프네요... 그래요, 몸조심하구요, 귀천을 친구로 두게 되었다는 게 내게는 큰 영광이에요... 몸살감긴가요? 그럴 때는 휴식이 최고죠.... 내도 그 동안 쉬지 못했던 몸과 마음 지금 푸욱 쉬고 있는 중이에요... 앞으로 이렇게 쉬는 날이 얼마나 있겠어요.. 주어질 때 누려야지요... 귀천의 詩를 계속해서 보고싶어요, 그리고, 내 어린 친구들에게도 보여주고 싶구요... 언제나 건강이 귀천에게 가득하기를 기원할게요.

Title: 귀천...나의 이 마지막 시간들을...  (a poem written by herself)

--- 21세기 작은 동굴의 병자 ; 病中 想念

새벽을 앞질러 하수로보수공사를 알리는

두두두두~ 포크레인의 진동음이

경직되가고 있는 척추를 뚫고

앓고 있는 서른한살의 병자의 마음을 뒤흔든다

하루종일 두두두두~ 쉼없는 작업소리에

노동자의 마음에 집으로 돌아가

오늘도 어느 빌딩 청소를 마치고

먼저 돌아와 무표정으로 반길 아낙과

내년이면 고3이 되는 막노동꾼 아비가 부끄러워

어제도 고개를 숙이고 지나친 공부잘하는 딸에게

큰소리칠 수 있는 일당봉투가 채워지고 있다

커튼을 내린 지 사흘째 싸늘한 작은 동굴속

21세기 알비노니의 아다지오가 촛불에 흔들리며

삶에 지친 여인의 내쉬는 외로움을 덮는다

동굴벽마다 가득히 칠해지는 공허한 그림들

억눌린 메스꺼움이 울컥 의식세계로 오르며

잠에 취한 의식의 복병을 걷어차며 깨우고

커텐을 젖혀 창을 열어 하나가 된 동굴과 21세기

갇혀있던 원시의 허상들이 시린 새벽에 쏟아진다

침묵의 공간으로 빨려든 두두두두~ 진동음

'잠시 모닝커피를 마시는 시간인가보다

그들은 좋겠다 같이 커피를 마시고, 일도 하고'

힘없는 병자의 어깨에 걸쳐진 무거운 외로움을

바람에 몸실은 낙엽이 덧없다며 노래하고 있다.     (12/09/2000)

One of my previous students, who is Kang Eun-mi, sent me her first kind card e-mail and I wrote her my English e-mail at once.

To : 정봉현샘

선생님 저예요~~~~~~~~~ 선생님 저 누군지 기억하세요??? 저 은미...정은미아니예요~~

강은미예요^^ 기억하시죠?? 잘지내고 계세요??? 저는 잘 있었어요...(공부는 잘 않돼지만요....ㅡㅡ;) 왠일이냐구요???그냥 공부하다가 샘 생각나서 옛날에 샘 영어로 멜 쓴거 보고 보냅니다.... 시간이 없어서 많이 못적겠어요..... 옆에서 친구가 제촉을 하네용......

제 편지 받고 샘이 기억해주셨으면... 좋으련만. 영어로 보낼려고 했는데.....좀 딸리네용...^^ 선생님 건강하시죠??? 답장 기다릴께용 그냥 안부차 보내는거예요...........

그럼 담에 또 쓸께요 안녕히~~~~~~~~~~~~~  From : 강은미

Title: Thank you so much for your first kind e-mail.

Hi, Kang, my previous but eternal student! How have you been doing lately? I am always so fine like this blue and fair fall weather. I think you have got along very well with nature and textbooks(?) as usual. You may be ashamed to read this story, unless you have tried your best in your studying and your future. But you need to keep in mind that proverb, "let bygones, be bygones". I am certain that present is the most important. It is more precious than any other moment. I earnestly hope you will run forward to your bright dream without stopping. It is probably my only wish, but I want you to live up to my expectation with all my heart, that is, to achieve your goal in your life. Can you guess my real mind? My heart is an execllent present for you. It will not be long before another day disappears beyond a small history. Are you satisfied with your today now? Many a drop makes shower. Go on and try, try and try until your enemy kneels before you. I trust you, Kang Eun-mi. This is really fall. People call this season one of harvest. I pray you will obtain enormous fruits in your basket. I would so much love to appreciate your pretty card e-mail one more time. Take care in this changing period and be careful not to come down with a cold. I will look forward to your good news. See you later.

faithfully yours                from Mr. ENARO in my office

Tuesday ,      September , 25 , 2001 ,                           warm .

I sent my lovely e-mail to my friends and acquaintances all over the country.

Title:I would so much love to leave for the lake covered with fall colors.

Dear my lovely wife!

How have you been doing lately? Unlike a few days ago, I feel so fine like this fall weather. The blue sky is so high, all the things in this world are embellishing themselves with a wide variety of jewelry and human beings are dedicated to preparing for harvesting fruits of their sweat. We call this season autumn. It must be season for all of us to be so much grateful to the GOD and the Goddess of richness. Are you feeling about such holy blessings now? Presumably you will get those gratitudes, I think, because I pray for you with all my heart. You are rolling my log and I am rolling yours. It is the reason this world is before us. How do you feel about it? When I have free time, I would so much love to leave for an unfamiliar, nearly virgin forest, lake surrounded by the sweet fragrances and the intact natural colors of fall. In time I want to be in my everlasting hometown which has no cruel terrorism, commercial capitalism, disgusting materialism over human beings but can inhale in the scent of nature itself like heart of our mother. Several unknown birds are enjoying their freedom against thick green lake, myriads of untamed reeds, without any intricate thought, are hugging and caressing while singing their unchangeable love, and spectacular twilights against cozy mountains are tinging my paradise with eye-closing spiritual light. There is only a man in ferry stop which waits never for man. It is me. I am dreaming such a trip now. Though my life is faced with the last day, I won't regret my trace at all. Only a drop of tears are rolling my cheeks twinkling with beautiful sunshine. They are probably like dews at early dawn. Obviously there will be all the happiness in them. Can you imagine yourself in the fairy land? You can be my travel partner to the wonderland only by your mind. This is really fall. Where are you now? What truth are you running toward? I bet it is only your mind. Shall we meet each other at the ferry stop near that lake someday? Respondez S'il Vous Plait. For my ferry to dreamland has no enough room to carry all the human beings. Please bear "first come, first served" in mind. I will look forward to your early reply. See you. Have a nice choice. faithfully yours

from Mr. ENARO, the captain of a ferry of happiness.

This morning I took a 4-hour training for regional defence by civilians of the city.

Wednesday ,        September , 26 , 2001 ,                       warm .

The following is e-mails my English e-mail friends sent me.

Title: Dain's news

...when i think how life used to be... always walking in the shadows

Then i look at what you've given me..i feel like dancing on my tiptoes.  I must say everyday i wake..and realize you're at my side..

I know I'm truly blessed..For everything you give me..

Blessed for all the tenderness you show..

I'll do my best with every breath that's in me..

Blessed..to make sure you never go..

There are times that test your faith..

till you think you might surrender

and i'm not ashamed to day.that my hopes were growing slender..

You waled by in the nick of time looking like an answered prayer..

I know i'm truly blessed for everything you give me

I"m blessed with love and understanding.

Blessed when i hear you call my name..

I'll do my best with faith that's never-endiing.

Blessed to make sure you feel the same.. *^^*

hehe........ 음....노래가사중 하나랍니다....... 하지만 넘 좋죠... 이 노래 들을때마다...제게 주어진 모든 것에 감사하게 되요...^^ 다른 이들과 비교해서...더하지도 덜하지도 않는 듯한..지금이... 넘 좋고...행복한 것 같아요..^^ 에나로님.도........^^ 행복!!!

Title: This is really fall, I'm in the field.

Dear, my friend! Thank you for your gorgeous letter. I was really happy and sad. When I was faced with your letter, I was very happy.

but I have no answer to your question, so I'm sad. I'm dreaming such a trip someday! But I can't help it. Ferry stop and lake, meeting are all impossible for me. I'm so sorry, Enaro! But I don't want to lose my mail friend. Is this my own desire? Thank you and sorry again.

Good bye, my friend!           from Jane (in Tae-jeon)

Thursday ,      September , 27 , 2001 ,                        warm.

Today's Expression:I think I will pass.(음식을 더 먹을 수 없다고 말할 때)

My intimate English e-mail and chatting friend, Park Je-seong, sent me his kind and long one yesterday.

Title: OH! ....I want to take it.  (From Fanta21)

Hi! ENARO. I was very glad to receive your letter, and sorry that I could not send you my reply as soon as you expected. Nowadays, I have been a little bit busy, nonetheless, from time to time, I joined the English chat room run by Daum. As you told in your letter, I also fully taste fall. I wish I could go to a mountain, for I think it is necessary to make myself recharged. I usually get fresh energy from nature. Though humanbeing is so changeable, nature has remained the same feature throughout such a long time. It looks as if she has been my old friend whom I can visit at any time I want to see her, without  burdensome feeling, in spite of “long time-no see”. I love nature, and I am grateful that I am in a chain of nature. As you told, fall is a really good season to leave our routine and head for the place where we have freely longed for what we have dreamed in our deep mind. It seems to be the reason some people in fall are tempted to escape from their routine that has kept on at them. As for me, I do not want to complain about my daily life. I know that, in the viewpoint of physical freedom, I can not deny my daily life has disturbed me from getting freer. Sometimes, we would like to get more freedom by escaping from our daily life, but we can do so only by accepting our daily life as it is. In my belief, how free we are can be measured not by how far we can get in the world but by how much we are lost in our daily life, itself, through which we can get enough attainments to realize what the world in which we are doomed to live is like. That is why we can see the world just as much as we know. I elaborated on(upon) my own insight in freedom , such as it is. On the top of that, if we do not have sound judgement and insight in our life, the meaningfulness that we travel in this world will reduce. But we do not have to worry whether we have such a insight, for we all are in the middle of learning, and on that point, we can say that we were already endowed with great right to make mistakes. Even though we can not avoid the possible mistakes, the fact that we always keep it in our mind that it is more important for us not to forget our duty to do our best everytime makes us hopeful. ENARO! Fall needles(urges) me to hurry to the place where I can be in view of nature. OH! If opportunity serves(allows), I also hope to go where I can fully get the taste of fall. But I am not sure how long it will take me to really make up my mind to leave. Everything depends upon my mind and upon how strong her (fall) temptation is. Enaro! Yesterday.....I was really glad to hear your great plan. I earnestly hope that your dream can come true without fail and our relationship will last forever.   from your friend, Fanta21

Title: You must be a very mysterious human being to me.

Dear Fanta21.  First of all, I would so much love to appreciate your fantastic writing. I am honored to meet you in this inhumane(?) virtual world. What's better, positive and considerate attitude to gaze at your life gives me more meaning than excitement. I will be in another happiness if I were in your shoes. I promise to try to be like you, no matter how tough it may be. Today, I was so sad that I was conscious that it was so difficult to master English, yankees' language. But, on the other hand, I was so pleased that I was aware of my missions, a great many things, in my given life. To try my best up to my doom's day will be my destiny. I know it is the best way I can love myself. In this season of meditation, I find myself. EUREKA! Enjoy this fall with all your spirit until you are nature itself.

See you later.  From Mr. ENARO in the midst of myself

자 화 상

존경하는 진주 청년 문학회 회원님들께

내 남은 삶만큼 할 일도 많았으면 좋겠다

기껏 공기나 바늘로 콕콕 찔러

피터짐 맛보며 나의 목숨인양

사랑 구걸하는 아마츄어 시인보담

내 식어가는 응어리를 꼭, 터뜨리고 싶다

할 말이 많은 만큼 나를 줘패고 싶다

숨기 위해 결혼을 하고, 전셋집도 장만을 했지

"더 달아나는 게 필요할 걸"

항상 자본주의는 내게 얘기를 해

아이 하나 낳고 한 걸음,

곧 한 걸음을 더 달아나겠지

이제 그 곳이 어디란 걸 알아, 나의 종착지

흔적을 지우지 말아야 해

정작 내가 아파한 이유를 두들겨야지

현학의 파편 모서리마다

내가 긁혀 있었어

산소와 수소를 썩혀 물을

만들어 마시니 취하더라구

미친 듯 내가 그 자리에 있더라니까

당신들 뒤에...                  2001, 9, 26.

Friday ,        September , 28 , 2001 ,                           cool .

Today's Expression:I hope I am not asking a personal question.(사적인 질문이라 죄송합니다)

Jane, her ID, gave me her news and a great compliment. She lives in Tae-jeon, a housewife and the mother of two children. I think she is a very good woman. I want to keep a friendly, longstanding relationship with her.

Title: You are what you are!

Dear ENARO!

I said that you were a real poet. And you love this season, to be sure. I like your that emotion. Since I have met you, I  seem to be a girl...not 30s'. Anyway, thank you! my friend! The day before yesterday I met my elementary school friends. How about you? It's really exciting. We felt pure and innocent when we had a meeting. I want you to like my childhood friends. And your korean poems are great!^^ Sometimes I will send a letter written in korean. Ok? See you later Enaro! have a good time. From Jane

The following is a letter my new e-mail friend sent me for the first time. she lives in Seoul and has run her own beauty shop. She is 35 years old, but I don't know if she is married. I want to make my friends as many as possible. After all, it will be my precious property in my life. She sent me two Korean poems translated by herself, which I sent her via my e-mail a few days ago.

Title:I am so sorry to send you my late reply e-mail.

에나로님,,,,,,,,,,,,, 제가 영어를 잘못해여. 울산에 있는친구도 제가 영어를 못하니 젬 업나봐여. 통 연락이 업네여. 지금 명절이라 미용실이 바뻐여. 그래서 좀 늦었어여. 두번째 온 편지는 아직 해석을 못했어여. 미안,,,,,,,,,바이. 제가 못한다고 콩글리쉬로 너무 쓰지 마세여. ᄒᄒᄒᄒᄒ 명절 잘 보내세여. have a nice day,,,,good bye,,,,,,,,,,

무너진 트윈타워안에서 죽은 그 누군가를 위하여

그중에 내가 있을 수 있었다

그중에 그가 있을 수 있었다

그중에 그들이 있을 수 있었다

그러나

네가 거기에 있었다

먼지와 잿더미

날카로운 비명으로 뒤덮인 한복판에

그들은 이미 죽어서 누워 있었다

지금 눈물을 흘릴 필요가 없다

너는 이미 천국에 있다

아마 더 나은

더이상 공포나 두려움이 없는 곳

더이상 인간들의 어리석은 짓으로 부터의 고통이 없는 곳에

나는 오직 기도한다

나는 기도를 해야하는 기도자이다

그것은 너의 죽은 영혼의 휴식과

천국에서의 안락을 위하여       by 줄리 뱅........ (한국일보)

그들은 지금 어디에 있을까?

줄리 방이 쓴 시를 읽고 나서

(이것은 순수한 위안이 되는 일반인의 순결한 신성한 정신에 관한 것이고 이 불확실한 희생자와 논쟁의 여지가 있는 세상, 무자비한 테러에 헌신한 맹목적이고 불쌍한 인간들과 슬프고 불쌍한 영혼들이 파괴했다)

한 유명한 시인이 나에게 속삭였다. "그들은 지금 천국에 있다"

우리의 하늘은 핏빛으로 바뀌었고 내 고개를 들어 하늘을 보니

이것은 항상 그랬던 차가운 바다같은 진한 파란색이었다

그러나 시간은 멈췄고 이것은 더이상 흐르지 않았다

지금 아무도 모른다

신조차 머리를 숙였다

무엇을 우리가 해야 할까?

어떻게 우리가 살아야 할까?

언제? 어디서? 누가?

오직 물음표만이 이 세상에 존재한다

아무도 대답을 찾을 수 없다

혼자 작은 공간에서

작은 소망을

나의 인생을 위로한다

이 깨끗하지 못한 눈물들 속에서 살아가는 것

오직 진실 이 나의 여린 마음을 어루만져 준다

이것은 사실인가?

출혈하는, 그들이 정말 지금 천국에 있을까?

그러나 내가 보이는 것은, 오직 파란하늘 뿐이다...

Scarcely had I received her letter, before I sent her my reply one.

Title:Thanks so much for your first e-mail.

Dear Rose!

I am so glad to hear you are busy. It is a good and lucky thing. But, on the other hand, it is a bad thing to tie oneself to a kind of labor. For it doesn't mean freedom. I really hope you can enjoy your present work which is very important mission to make someone beautiful. Last of all, I would so much love to appreciate you for tranalating two English poems into Korean ones. The work was so excellent that I couldn't help admiring it. But I am sending you my translation poem written by myself. The following is about my genuine feeling when I wrote the poem. . Anyway, have wonderful days and if you have free time, I want you to send me your kind and sweet next news.

그들은 지금 어디에...

쥴리 뱅의 시를 읽고 나서

(그 시는 이 불확실하고 모순적인 세상의 희생양으로서, 슬프고 가엾은 영혼을 가진 맹목적이고 불쌍한 인간들의 무자비한 테러에 의해 살해당한 무고한 시민들의 순수하고 신성한 영혼들을 위로하는 것에 대한 것이었습니다.)

한 유명한 시인이 내게 속삭이네

"그들은 이제 천국에 있다고"

우리의 하늘이 피빛으로 붉게 물들었을 거라고, 나는 생각했네.

고개를 들어, 하늘을 보았지

하지만 아무일도 없었다는 듯

하늘은 짙푸른 바다와 같았네

허나, 그 속에, 시간은 흐르질 않았지

그것은 더 이상 흐를 수 없을 거라고, 난 느꼈어

이제는 아무도 모르네

신마저 고개를 떨구었어

이제 우리는 무엇을 해야 하나?

이제 우리는 어떻게 살아야 하나?

언제? 어디서? 누가?

이 세상에 존재하는 건 물음표뿐

대답할 수 있는 자는 아무도 없네

오직 자그마한 공간,

아주 작은 희망만이

흐릿한 세상, 눈물 흘리는

나의 삶을 위로해 줄뿐

오직 그 사실만이 나의 약한 마음을 어루만져줄 뿐이네

그게 사실일까?

피를 흘리며, 그들은 진정 천국에 가 있을까?

하지만, 내 눈에 보이는 건

(피빛의 붉은 하늘이 아니라)

오직 파란 하늘뿐...

This evening my youngest brother came to his hometown to spend his Chuseok holidays with his lovely family. For two days last week, he was interviewed for getting a job in a company which belongs to LG Group. It was his first interview for work, but I thought he would have done a good job. As for me, its result didn't matter at all. I know he is a very sincere and competent young man. What's better, he has a very generous and warm heart. I only hope that he will be able to do his favorite work in the biochemical engineering institute where he wants to work. And I am certain that it will come true sooner or later. Myung-hyun! Don't worry about your future. I trust you. If you want to go on studying, I can support you

Saturday ,        September , 29 , 2001 ,                         warm .

Today's Expression: What time will suit you fine?(몇 시가 좋겠습니까?)

To : My Elder-brother

Good morning! 형님.. 즐거운 추석 명절 되시길 먼 곳에서 E-mail로나마 기원합니다. 맑은 가을 하늘 아래 동생이..... From : dewsky( written by Moon Se-jin)

Title:This is for the lonely. (written by Jane in Taejeon)

Dear friend! There is no spirit without a scar. This is my favorite poem written by Park-no-hye, a famous laborer poet.

네가 자꾸 쓰러지는 것은

네가 꼭 이룰 것이 있기 때문이야.

네가 지금 길을 잃어버린 것은

네가 가야만 할 길이 있기 때문이야.

네가 다시 울며 가는 것은

네가 꽃 피워낼 것이 있기 때문이야.

너무 힘들어 눈물이 흐를 때는

가만히

네 마음속의 가장 깊은 곳에 가 닿는

너의 하늘을 보아.

Have a nice day! Enaro. faithfully yours.  From Jane.

Title:잘 지내죠?  (written by my former co-worker, Jwong Eun-jin)

수요일 선생님들이 왔었는데. 배 사러 그리고 그냥 놀러도 오고. 선생님도 한번 뵙고 싶은데. 오랜만에 선생님들 보니까 반갑던데 차 한 잔씩 하고 배도 먹고 갔어요. 선생님은 요즘 어떻게 지내시나요? 새로 온 영어 샘은 어떤지... 이제 수능도 두 달도 안 남았네요. 건강하세요. 재미있게 지내시고.

To: 에나로님.. (written by applemin named Kim Kyeong-min)

즐거운 명절 보내세요.. 달님보고 소원도 빌어보고(애플 잘 되라고).. 예쁜 송편도 만들어보고(애플 예쁜 딸 낳으라고)...암튼..가족들과 함께 하는 행복한 명절 되시길 빌게요.. 꼬럼..해피추석..빠이루..^^ =추석명절을 앞두고 잔뜩 부푼 애뿔이..

I got paid my salary late this afternoon. I knew my boss was a very lousy guy. I will never forget his bad behaviors for life.

Sunday ,      September , 30 , 2001 ,                           rainy .

This evening I met my childhood friends at a bar on the second floor. We talked about many things drinking beers and went to a singing place. I was so sad that my few friends had left without saying good-bye. What‘s worse, they broke a promise to go together to the singing room. I wanted to become a heavy drinker only once and so I drank like a fish. It was a terribly unpleasant night.

The followings are e-mails my English e-mail friends sent me to deliver their lovely greeting on merry Chu-seok.

Title: 에나로!(written by Rose who runs her own beauty shop in Seoul)

명절 잘 보내시구여. 가을은 생각하는 게절인 것 같에여. 생각을 많이하는.. 가을에 읽은 책이 있는데 한권 소개할께여. “부자아빠 가난한 아빠” 한번 읽어 보세여. 에나로님 아까는 손님이 와서 쳇을 하다 말았어여. 죄송 꾸벅 ^^** 남편은 국방과학 연구소에 다니구여. 저는 남편이 밀어줘서 일본으로 연수도 같다 왔어여. 미용으로. 음,,, 그리고 좀 다른 것도 하구 있어여. 그건 실패 했어여. 다시 도전 할 꺼에여. 공부를 해서,,, 남편도 찬성하는 일이라,,,ㅎㅎㅎㅎ 음,,,에나로님은 어떤 일하는 분인가여.

저반 너무 투명하게 모든 걸 밝힌 느낌.   그럼 안녕

Title: 가야할 곳이 있다는 것...............

가을이 깊어간다. 서울의 명절맞이는 밀리는 차들의 행렬에서부터일까. 그렇게 인내하며 맞이하는 명절의 아침은 허무하기만 짝이 없다. 가족들과의 재회, 친구와의 해후 등등.... 나이가 들수록 서글퍼진다. 초라한 나의 현실과 미래가 자꾸만 자꾸만 엄습하는 어두운 그림자의 실체는 무엇일까. 불안한 미래일 수도 있고 나약한 인간의 본모습 일수도 있을 게야. 모든 것을 잊고 싶다. 그냥 쉬고 싶다. 모임은 더 이상 없는 거냐.

그래도 모이는 데로 공이나 함 차자.

Title: 메리 한가위 (written by Choi Yoon-cheol, my high school friend)

어 봉현 또 메일이군. 오늘은 연휴가 시작되는 날이라 아침부터 웬지 마음이 바쁘다.

고향으로 한시바삐 가야한다는 의무감으로 아침을 시작했다. 고향가는 길이 고생길이라지만 아직까지는 가슴이 설레인다. 명절이라 해봐야 별 하릴없이 보내기 일쑤지만 그래도 명절이 기다려지고 설레인다. 항상 명절이 되면 고정된 코스에 고정된 일과 그래도 이번 추석에 학교에 가면 몇몇 오랜 친구들의 얼굴을 볼 수 있다는 기대에 더더욱 설레인다. 그날 시간에 여유가 있어야 할텐데 말이지. 아무튼 추석연휴 잘 보내고 가족과 오손도손 좋은 친구도 많이 만나고 즐겁고 보람차고 기대만큼이나 좋은 추석이 되길 바람

Title:  Dear Tarzan! (written by Jane)

Thank you for your mail. Your letter made me happy. How are you today? I am fine , and you? There were so many people in the department store to buy their presents for CHU-SEOK. How about you? I bought socks for my family. And my daughter's korean-dress too. I feel some feetache a little. By the way, Enaro! I'm not a lover of Tarzan because my nickname is my favorite novel's heroine. You should know her, the novel was written by Emily Bronte. But it's not important. Have a nice and special holiday, too. Although I don't know exactly, you were a nice son, and a good friend. bye. Enaro.

Title:즐거운 명절 보내십시오. (written by Cho Eun-jeong, my first English e-mail friend)

지금 막 학원에서 님의 메일을 확인하고 이제 고향으로 내려갑니다. 집이 아니라 여유있게 메일을 쓸 수가 없군요. 요즘 저의 집, 메가패스 접속 상태가 좋지 않아 며칠째 메일을 확인하지 못했습니다. 급하게 한글 답장을 남김을 죄송스럽게 생각하며.. 즐겁고 뜻깊은 명절 보내시고 가을이 한창 무르익는 10월에 다시 답글 올리겠습니다. 아마도 10월 중순, 서울로 이사를 한 후라야 조금은 여유가 있을 듯 합니다. 그때까지.. 건강하시고..그럼 다음에 다시 인사드리겠습니다.  --- 성실하지 못한 친구 Debby 올림 ---

Monday ,     October , 1 , 2001 ,                                       warm .

Today was a meaningful day to koreans. We call this day Chu-seok. It was so nice but I got up late this morning. I felt sorry to my family waiting for me. It was because I drank a lot last night with my friends. I held a religious ceremony for my forefathers and dead father for about an hour. All my family members did it with their all hearts. After breakfast, 4 brothers including me climbed mountain to visit our ancestors' tombs and honor them. At 1:10 p.m. we returned to my mother's house and left for my father's land together with the rest of family members. On the way there we bought two beautiful bouquets of make-believe flower. The road was crowded with cars. They hardly move forward to their destination for about 30 minutes. At last we arrived at my father's country. Many people were visiting their own ancestors' graves. My father's country was enjoying happy but strict mood. After we had finished hearing my father's holy voice, we started for my eldest aunt's house in San-cheong county. As soon as I reached there, I was so hungry. And I enjoyed eating several food. All the food were so delicious. She seemed to be very sick. I felt so sad that I thought she might not have a long life. I really hope she will recover so soon and have a long life. When we returned to my mother's house, it was at 7;15 p.m.

It was a very busy and meaning day, but also a very tiring day.

The followings are e-mails my former students sent me.

To : 정봉현샘 (written by Kang Eun-mi, a night class student)

샘요! 즐거운 추석 연휴되세요~~ 선생님 !!!! 너무나도 잔인하시군요~~~~ 제가 해석하니라고 얼마나 고생한줄 아십니까?(혹시 담에도 영어로 답장해 주실 건 아니지요???)

으으ㅡ윽 그래서 이리 답장이 늦었답니다.. 이해하시죠?? 선생님이 답장보내 왔을때 정말 기분 좋았어요. 아직도 샘이 나를 기억하고 계시구나~~하고 얼마나 기분이 좋았다구요^^ 내가 해석을 다해봤거든요? 쉽게 되진 않았지만...그래도 어느 정도는 해석 됐어요

선생님의 조언 맘 깊이 샛길께요~~~ 추석인데 비가 주룩주룩 내리내요~~ 지금 독서실가다 겜방으로 샛었요~~~히히 선생님 즐거운 추석연휴 되시고 답장 기다릴께요~~~

Title: 선생님도 뜻있는 추석 보내시기 바랍니다...(written by Kim dong-ook)

예 내일이 추석입니다. 사실 추석이 오늘인지 내일인지도 모르지만.. 내일이라고 하더라고요. 그만큼 시간 가는줄 모르게 살고 있습니다. 선생님 격려 잘 새겨 듣겠습니다. 그리고 저번에 친 시험이 너무 점수가 낮아서..주위에서 말이 많습니다. 지금까지는 최상위권을 굳건히 지키고 있었는데 이번에는 게시판에 올라가지도 못했습니다. 하지만 신경 쓰지 않습니다. 그 시험 때 내가 뭘 잘못해서 틀렸는지 알고 그로 인해 다음 시험에는 그 같은 결과를 반복하지 않는다면 실전이 아닌 이상 저에게는 더 유익할지도 모르니까요. 사실 요즘에 걱정하고 있던 언어영역이 감이 떨어졌습니다. 그래서 초심(初心)으로 돌아가 제 스타일을 다시 찾으려 하고 있습니다. 조만간에 정상적인 컨디션으로 만들 수 있을 것 같습니다. 며칠 안 남은 이 시점에서 조그만 것으로 불안해 하는 것보다 지금 제가 하고 있는 것에 대한 자신감이 더 중요할 것 같습니다. 추석 잘 지내시고 선생님 가족분들도 다 유익하게 지내시길 빕니다. 그럼 이만 줄이겠습니다.

Title: Good morning!(written by my new friend, younger step-brother)

Hi! ENARO. Today is Korean thanks giving day. How are you today? Early this morning, I participated in family ceremony to observe my grand father and mother. Do you have a plan for these holidays? As for me, I will be as busy as ordinary times. I dearly hope that you will have great time with your beloved family. Yesterday, it rained so much that today street's scene was really clean and beautiful. The beautiful scene of streets made me pleasant. I expect that you also can have the same feeling as mine. Enaro....At least today or more, take a rest! and after these holidays, return to your routine with more recharged and fresh mind. Have a nice holiday!.....Be happy with your family! Your spiritual younger brother......Fanta...

Tuesday ,       October , 2 , 2001 ,                         very warm .

The following writing was the e-mail I sent my English e-mail friends, acquaintances, former students, my step-brothers, my youngest brother and (my wife) last Friday.

Title: I hope you will enjoy fantastic Chu-seok Holidays.

Dear my eternal sweetheart, Seong-yeon!

Our meaningful day is 3 days away. As of tomorrow, we will have long holidays. I bet you have a nice plan for this bright Koreans' festival day. As you sow, so shall you reap. You will be able to throw your own feast with plentiful fruits. I only hope it will be happy and significant event for all your family members and your sacred forefathers. If you put the holy spirit and power into your deep heart and are committed to spending the rest of your life with such a solid will, all of the misfortunes will escape from your destiny and you will be able to ornament your family, society, country and world with clean laughter. Last of all, I would so much love to give you an invaluable gift for your day, Chu-seok. "It is my real mind." Make the big day your best day. All the time I am keeping my fingers crossed for your beautiful travel, life. Be happy. See you. sincerely yours from Mr. ENARO in my office, Jinju

I send you my lowly old poem, though it is somewhat sad story.

한 가 위 날 에

민준, 현용, 재금, 영명, 형호, 모두

내일의 길로 떠나고

죽은 가수의 인생 얘기만 노래로 흘러 나오는

나의 공간에서

한숨 지으며 그냥 잠들고 싶잖은

한가위 날

설움은 산에서, 강에서 그리하여

하늘에서 스러지며 안기어오고

가슴 속 술을 거푸 마시며

그리움 진한 어둠에 숨어 보지만

결국 홀로 되돌아 오는 울타리 건너

흐릿한 안개 뒤로 나를 부르시는

아 . 버 . 지....

당신의 길로 무작정 따라 나서는 오늘은

한 가 위 날

1996, 9, 26.(아버님을 보내고 첫 명절을 맞아)

Wednesday ,     October , 3 , 2001 ,                            warm .

A long long time ago, our country was established on this day, October, 3. Therefore, we call this day "Gae-cheon-jeol" and take a day off. I got up very late this morning, because I felt so tired. In addition to that, I had a terrible pain in my deep throat. Whenever I attempted to swallow saliva, it gave me much pain. I didn't even want to wash my face and hands. I wore a cap and went out to a restaurant in the near countryside. The dining out was for my youngest brother. He was supposed to leave for Seoul this evening. I wanted him to have a pleasant lunch time. We, including my first younger brother's family, all had a wonderful time and after that looked around for funny things here and there on the site for Gae-cheon Art Festival which is held at around this time every year. It is one of the longest festivals for cultivating local culture and art. During this festival period, a variety of events for developing art are held around Culture and Art Center, such as inside it, on the square in front of it and on the performance site located along the Nam-gang. At about 6:00 p.m., we finished enjoying them and returned to my mother's house. It was tired but enjoyable day to my family.

Thursday ,      October , 4 , 2001 ,                              so cloudy .

Today's Expression:It doesn't make a difference(matter, count) to me.

These days I feel so often tired that I get sick of keeping a diary every day. I know this devilish thought must be got rid of from my mind as soon as possible. Today was the first day after long holidays. So, I felt more and more tired, but at night I had to go to give a private lesson to Lee Gi-won. When I finished doing it and arrived at my house, I knew my son was very sick. He seemed to come down with a terrible influenza. His temperature was so high that all his body felt like a fire when I touched him on his head. It was too painful and heartbreaking a moment to watch him screaming shortly but frequently. He didn't sleep a wink all night long. Likewise, my wife couldn't go to sleep, even though she wanted to sleep so much due to a great fatigue. She had to carry him on her back until next morning. What a beautiful motherly love it is! I really hope he will recover so soon and regain his smiling and pleasant face. My son! Cheer up! I will take you to the hospital tomorrow. I love you.

Friday ,       October , 5 , 2001 ,                     fine but a little cold .

Today's Expression:You've got a point there.(당신말이 일리가 있군요.)

Today, students in other academies took a preliminary test, but my students couldn't take the test, because the principal or boss of our academy disagreed it. I know his real mind. He must have been worried about money. If they had taken the test, he would have paid about ￦600,000 for the test. He must be a very lousy and cunning boss. This evening one of my students brought the test papers to me. So I made a copy and tried to solve the English questions. The questions this time seemed to be very difficult. I thought it was the toughest one of preliminary tests of this year. I solved all of the questions in about 40 minutes, though I had such a great fatigue

that I wanted to take a short nap.  My English must have been improved much more than last year.   Since my son was treated by a kind doctor, he has been recovering by degrees. It was a fortunate thing. I hope my mom and my wife can sleep tight like a log tonight.

Saturday ,        October , 6 , 2001 ,                        a little cold .

The following writing is one describing Chu-seok, Korea's traditional Feast Day with great adequateness.

Korea celebrates its own version of the Mid-Autumn Feast. All stores and businesses take the day off so that families may spend the day together. On the morning of this holiday, most people dress up in their finest clothes - men in suits and women in Korean traditional dresses. For many people, the first business of the day is to visit the family burial place where families give offerings of traditional food at graves. The family then comes together for dinner. And at early night all of the family bring together on the high place like hill, enjoy watching the full moon and make their own wish with all their heart. The scenery must be a very holy one.

To my shame and sadness, I didn't visit my father's land this weekend.

Sunday ,        October , 7 , 2001 ,                                 a little cold .

I met a senior of mine whom I hadn't seen for a very long time. He was 37 years old but he didn't get married yet. He has been studying diverse subjects related to law since he was a junior in university. Though he has spent a very long time in achieving his goal, in this real world, he has nothing to show off. I know he pretends to be proud of himself, and in addition, I can confirm the sense of solitude on his attitude and complexion. He told me, "I will necessarily pass the test for a great kind of license next year." I trust him and I most heartily hope he will carry out his dream next year. After a junior of mine and he had seen off for another pub, I was home. It was slightly past 1:30 a.m. I was on the verge of turning on my personal computer, when my mobile phone rang. It was my private student, Lee Ki-won. "Sir, at last the U.S. began to attack its hostile country, Afganistan.", he said on the phone. I couldn't help bursting out laughter. What is the matter with the fucking country attacking a weaker one? I have anticipated such a situation beforehand. I know enough that it is the survival of the fittest. No one in this world denies the merciless rule. Though, of course, I disagree with U.S.' retaliatory attack against Afhganistan, what is the use of my thinking of it very carefully and protesting against its make-believe peace-keeping effort? I only hope it will be over so soon and that innocent people will be killed as few as possible.

At this moment, I would love to pray for true peace of this world.

Monday ,       October , 8 , 2001 ,                    fine but a little cold .

This evening I translated a Korean poem written by a famous poet of purity and nothing, called Cheon Sang-byeong, into English. At the moment I feel so sorry and ashamed with him and I am aware once again that I am an incompetent human being. But I know now is only the beginning, not the end. I will try, try and try to make it, no matter how tough it may be. Now I am smiling at myself.

I'll return to the Blue Heaven!

written by Cheon Sang-byeong

I want to return to the heaven,

when it bears the light of dawn in its heart,

with hand of dew in my hand

I want to return to my home,

when the cloud calls this humble being who

plays with an evening glow on the hill

I'll return to the Blue Heaven,

on the day I finish a pleasant excursion in this world,

and there I'll say, "how beautiful that world was!"

歸 天(귀 천)

나 하늘로 돌아가리라.

새벽빛 와 닿으면 스러지는

이슬 더불어 손에 손을 잡고,

나 하늘로 돌아가리라.

노을빛 함께 단둘이서

기슭에서 놀다가 구름 손짓하면은,

나 하늘로 돌아가리라.

아름다운 이 세상 소풍 끝내는 날,

가서, 아름다웠더라고 말하리라......

순수와 자연의 시인

막걸리 시인     천  상  병 님

歸 天(귀 천)

하늘도 주인이 있다면

주인님 마음자리 내 양심

조그마이 허락된다면

하늘로 돌아가고 싶다

내 살던 도시와 마주보는 공간에

열 서너 평 집을 내리고

난 마냥 난간에 매달려

세상 구경을 하리라

이제는 위가 아래요

밑이 꼭대기인 터밭에서

꽃으로 가려진 뿌리로 하여

옛 시절 만큼이나

눈물도 떨구겠지만

그때는 다시 화안한 주인님의 얼굴을 보며

떠나지 않고도 살아갈 수 있으리라

혹 주인님이 우는 날,

내 주인님을 단 한번 배반하는 날

주인님 울음에도 내 울지 않고

내 사랑한 이들의 머리위를 맴돌며

말하리라, 사랑하라고

주인님은 그제사 눈물 거두며

나는 다시 그의 충실한 하인이 되고

모두들 ‘내가 죽었다’ 말하리라

부처님의 허한 웃음을

골고다 언덕

예수님의 쳐진 목 십자가에 걸고

주저없이 얘기하리라,

"하늘도 주인이 있다면

내 살아갈수록 죽어가는 양심

주인님 마음자리 어느 구석자리 놓아둘 수 있다면

날 하늘로 데려가 달라고.."

-아, 난 하늘로 돌아가고 싶다.        1988 , 11, 25.

Tuesday ,       October , 9 , 2001 ,                           rainy .

Today's Expression:I'm going to straighten up the living room.(나는 거실을 정리할 계획입니다)

English Composition:너는 청소년 비행 문제에 관심을 기울일 필요가 있다.

※You need to pay attention to the issue of juvenile delinquency.

※Attention needs to be paid to the issue of juvenile delinquency.

Today's key phrase:hotbed of crime(범죄의 온상)

It rained cats and dogs. Since I noticed it about a month ago, it has rained for the first time. I felt a little depressed, but on the other hand I was happy. For I like rain, especially a heavy rain. In the afternoon, I dropped by my house to take a rest for a moment and have dinner with my mother and my son. When I took a nap, my first younger brother's family visited my house. He bought a useful bag for my mother, because she would take a trip to Jeju Island from this Friday to Sunday. She was so pleased to see it. As soon as I set the dinner, they left for their house. By the way, an unfortunate thing happened to his family. He called my mother to inform her of his car accident. Rain was still pelting down. To make matters worse, it got darker and darker. I hurried to drive to the Bando Hospital with my mother and my son on the rearseat. He seemed to be all right. But I thought he needed to feel comfortable. I took his family to his house in no time in my car. I most heartily pray for his safety now. I hope that when he wake up tomorrow morning, he feel healthy as if he had no car accident. Sam-hyun! Cheer up! Your whole family always love you and are beside you all the time and forever.

In the evening, I joined 4 sites concerned with reading and writing poems. One is Pasha's room(http://mypoem.giveu.net), two a town of poets(http://www.simaro.org), third a small town of poets(http://my.dreamwiz.com) and the other Yeon Ho-jeong and Rooms of poets(http://www.spoem.com). Now I intent to go on tring my best to be a good and true poet. It is my another goal in my life.

Wednesday ,        October , 10 , 2001 ,                          a little cold .

Today's Expression:※My left ear is burning.(내 왼쪽 귀가 간질간질해요.)

※You look down.(당신은 우울해 보여요.)

Today I received a few e-mails from my friends and master of homepage I had joined yesterday. Out of them, I jotted two ones down on my diary notebook. One is from my long english e-mail friend, applemin who lives in Daegu, and the other is from the master, a person who has loved poems and made his own site. These days I look down on the mirror I gaza at. All of two gave me a great courage by means of their lovely e-mails. I would so much love to appreciate them for their deep and warm heart. I will live harder and harder.

Title:안녕..에나로님.. (written by Kim Kyeong-min)

밖을 보세요.. 날씨가 너무 화창해요.. 덩달아 맘이 들뜨는거 있죠? 기분 어때요? 오늘?? 혹시라두..그저그렇다면..창밖을 내다보세요..맑게 개인 하늘과 구름..따뜻한 햇살들을 보면 맘이 한결 밝아질거예요..정말이예요.. 에나로님.. 항상 감사하게 생각해요..좋은 시와 좋은 글과...에나로님의 영문편지는 정말 제게 큰 도움이 되고 있어요..실력이 부족한 저에게 많은 자극도 되구요..어휘력이 얼마나 풍부하신지..참 감탄에 감탄이예요.. 에나로님..진심으루 감사드립니다.. 그리구..늘 온가족에 행복이 가득하길 기원해요.. 그럼..오늘두 가슴 따뜻한 하루 보내시구요..화이팅!! = 화창한 날..애뿔이..

Title:저는 연호정과 추억만들기의 운영자 입니다.

저의 홈페이지에 좋은 시를 남기셨더군요. 영시는 미국의 참사에 관한 좋은 시 였습니다. 다름이 아니라 저의 홈페이지의 시인의 골방에 님의 글방을 하나 만들어 드릴려고 합니다. 죄송 하지만 님 께서 사시는곳과 하시는 일등.. 간단한 님의 신상에 관해서 알려주시면 홈페이지의 운영에 많은 도움이 되겠습니다. 연락을 기다리겠습니다. 늘 건강 하시고 주님의 은총이 늘 님의 가정에 행복과 건강을 주시기를 기원 합니다. 그럼...

울진에서 연호정과 추억만들기의 운영자 최종은 드림.

Thursday ,       October , 11 , 2001 ,                        fine .

Today's Expression:I screwed up the exam.(나는 시험을 망쳐버렸습니다.)

English Composition:어떤 아이에게는 통하는 것이 다른 아이에게는 역효과를 낼 수 도 있다.

※What works with one child may backfire with another.

※One child's meat may be another child's poison.

Last evening I sent the following card e-mail to my familiar friends, my former students, a few seniors, my youngesr brother, my three younger step-brothers and my wife.

Title:Now I will leave for my new and bright dream again.

Hello! My friend! Today is Wednesday.

I found out a card which attracted my mind. If you can receive this one and feel hopeful in your life like me, how happy I am! Eureka! As a matter of fact, last evening I could meet two lovely persons, poets, who had been running and have been running their own homepage concerning literature, particularly poetry. When I noticed their beautiful places, I nearly exclaimed loudly, "wow, this is it!". I decided cold turkey to join them without any hesitation.

One is "the town of poets" and the other is "Yeon Ho Jeong(Arbor) and Making Reminiscences". Out of two, the master of the latter promised to make and adorn my own room in his homepage. I have no choice but to believe in those proverbs,"Where there is a will, there is a way". and "Heaven help those who help themselves". When you have free time, I most heartily hope you will be able to have a good opportunity to visit the poet's home and meet my lowly writings. Its address is 'http://www.spoem.com'. I would appreciate you pray for my bright future and new beginning with all your heart. Last of all, I am sending my faithful heart to you by means of my messenger of the goddess of luck. Good luck.

hopefully yours    from Mr.ENARO on the foot of a new mountain

I received a few congratulation e-mails(reply) from my familiar people. I arranged them on my diary notebook with great sincerity.

Title:The reply e-mail from the master of the site,"Yeon Ho Arbor ..."

좋으신 분 이군요. 진주 고등학교면 명문 고등학교로 알고 있습니다. 괜찮습니다.

한국시를 영시로 옮기는 분이 몇 없는 줄 압니다. 영시로 님의 방을 꾸려나가던 님의 시를 올리시던지.. 詩 이면 좋은 것이 아닌가 싶습니다. 덕분에 저도 영어공부 좀 하게 생겼군요. 늘 건강 하시고 며칠만 기다려 주세요. 제가 할 일이 좀 밀려있어서 입니다.

건강 하시고 저도 한 때 학원에서 영어..수학..물리를 가르친 적이 있답니다. 또 뵈요.

연호정과 추억만들기의 운영자 최종은[가톨릭 명:최 알비노]드림

Title: 꺼지지않는 불씨( The reply e-mail from my childhood friend )

봉팔씨 너무 멋있어----잉. 희망적인 야그다. 인간의 습성이 그렇듯 현실에 늪에 빠져 허우적데지만 사실 늪에 빠져있다는 주변상황을 잊고 살지. 그런데 누군가가 빠져나올수 있도록 밧줄이라도 던져준다면 말이야. 역시 자랑할 이야기는 아니지만 지금껏 살면서 몇번의 그런 기회가 있었지 나에게 도움이 된것은 사실이지. 누군가가 일깨워주고 길을 열어준다면 나머지 난관은 혼자 개척해가야한다 이거지. 때로는 결단이 필요하기도 하고 때로는 두려워서 선듯 나서기가 꺼려지지(요즘 맞춤법이 맞는건지 헷갈린다 말이야) 무감각 할 수 있지만 자극에 즉각 반응을 하는것은 우주의 법칙이잖아. 작용반작용 충격파을 흡수하고 다시 그 파동을 발산하는게 이치아닌가. 나도 가끔은 자신의 일에서 벗어나고 싶다는 생각을 하지. 야구도 그렇지만(못하지만) 여러 동우회들이 서울에서 난리들이다. 천리안,다음,프리첼 기타등등 실제로 야구을 즐기며 주말을 보내는 인간들이 많다. 실제로 가입하고도 나서기가 무서운건 왜일까. 이핑게 저핑게 그러다 일주일 이주일 그러다 한달 두달 (노래가사인가). 나의 소망은 다른땅에서 새로운 공부를 하고싶다. 그게 내년이 될지 아니면 후내년이 될지 ...........준비를 해야겠다. 현실을 생각한다면 어렵겠지 하지만 부딪쳐 싸우면 터득하겠지. 네한테 영어을 배워야겠다. 방법을 일러주면 고맙겠어. 정말로. 영어를 손에서 언제 놓았는지 기억도 없어니.한심하지

각설하고 (너무 횡성수설하다. 언제나 그렇지만). 사실 말해서 네한테 미안하지만 추석전날 도망간거 한번쯤 일탈의 기회도 좋지만 순진한 놈 꼬셔서 패가망신할 일이 있어

내 성격을 잘 알거든 처음이 힘들지 그다음은 싶잖아. 도둑이 처음에는 제대로 물건이나 손에 집어넣겠어 그게 한번 두번하다보니 간댕이 부어가는거지. 부기가 그러더라 "나는 pussy를 사랑한다" 그러더라. 아예 노골적으로 말해버리면 되지, 사내치고 여자 안좋아하는 놈있냐. 안좋아하면 병신이지......... 여하튼 꽃들에게 희망을 이라는 그림동화처럼 이젠 단단한 외피을 벗고 탈피하라 친구야. 그러구 마음을 열고 하늘을 보라.(땅만 보지말고) 그럼 잘자레이 친구야.

Title:Congratulation! (The reply card e-mail from Dain, in Kwang-ju)

추카 추카 *^0^* what a fantastic....... enaro..... now i can see your poems anytime i wanna read it... oh........im sure you couldn't sleep well coz of excitment of that^^ hhh now you can give a special gift to others include me by your lovely poem. ^^ now i will look forward to seeing you poems in that side every single day..k have a wonderful and fantastic day...enaro..... bbai...^^.....see youlater

Friday ,      October , 12 , 2001 ,                     blue sky but a litle cold .

Today's Expression:We have to level.(우리 툭 털어놓고 얘기해봐요.)

English Composition:1.지역사회 봉사는 학생에게 강요되어지는 나쁜 일입니다.

※Community service is a bad thing to be forced on a student.

2.교복을 입는 것은 학생들에게 강요되어지는 필수적인 일입니다.

※To wear a school uniform is an essential thing to be forced on students.

Today's phrase:voluntary helper (독지가 )

From now on I will write my lowly poems and I am sure they will be my another self which will necessarily be published in the form of the collection of poems someday. I dropped by my poem room for my spirits many times because I felt so happy when I visited there and watched incomplete but sincere writings. I don't want to be a great poet and have no ability to be capable of making perfect poems. I only hope that I can love myself with cordiality, and that I can test my talent or potential. If I have a good fortune to be recommended by a magagine which specializes in evaluating and criticizing poems, undoubtedly I will be on cloud nine. I will try my best to make it my destiny, but I won't be disappointed at myself.

For I know it is important to struggle for my goal with most enthusiasm. My internet friends visited, looked around my poem room and congratulated me on my first internet room. In my heart, now I would so much love to appreciate their encouragement and faithfulness. As they want me to do, I will invest myself into my life. They must be my true friends. Today was a very happy day.

Saturday ,        Saturday , 13 , 2001 ,                                 warm .

Today's Expression: I put him on the spot.(난 그를 난처하게 했어요.)

I put him on the hot seat. on the spot:(slang)난처하여

The following writings are encouraging e-mails my internet buddies sent yesterday.

Title:안녕..에나로님...(written by applemin in Daegu)

오늘도 저의 기대에 어긋나지 않는..가을의 향기를 물씬 풍기는 그런 날이네요.. 일이 지치고 힘들때면..창밖을 봐요.. 높고 푸르른 하늘..따뜻한 햇살..그리고..코끝을 스치는 가벼운 바람... 세상이 얼마나 아름다운지.. 한번 느껴보는 거예요.. 어때요? 생각만 해두 기분좋죠??  어제밤에는... 다시한번 에나로님의 시들을 정리해봤어요..              그 중..읽고 또 읽어도 깊은 감동이 밀려오는 시 몇편을 골라봤어요.

애플이 좋아하는 시... 물론 다..좋지만..왠지 한번 더 읽고 싶은 시들이예요..등급을 매기는 거 아니니까..오해는 마시구요..

1. 산불   2. 아내는 서울로 갔다  3. 생신(아버님의 사십여덟번째 생신)

4. 가을무상  5.  곱추의 사랑  6. 전설만들기  7. 소나기

ᄒᄒ ....우습죠?? 기냥..한번 정리해본거예요.. 앞으로두 좋은 시들 많이많이 쓰시라는 뜻에서..^^ 오늘 하루 좋은 하루 되시길 바라면서...화이팅!!  -신나는 아침..애플 올림..

Title: It`s a very lovely day (written by Jeong Eun-jin)

Most of all, I`m so pleased with your letter and your poems. As you tell me, I visited homepage of poems and appreciated them. In my imagination, when you are fifty or sixty, you will be in the middle of fresh forest and write poems and essays, sometimes visiting your good people. What do you think of my opinion? In fact, I hope the person is what I will be. Instead of writing poems like you ( poem is really greek to me) I will read books,-sometimes your works-, take a walk with faithful and lovely dog. I like peaceful woods and someday I`ll live in such a wonderful world. Preparing a wedding ceremony is really hard. How did you do? I`d like to take a trip alone and wouldn`t love to return to this place. Now I have to go and meet my friend. I`ll be late because of you. Next time I will come to you again. Take care!

Title: Congratulation! Enaro!

Above all, I'm sorry to send you my late reply. And I'm really happy at your new place for your poem. Yesterday, I visited the place and I read some poems of yours. I'm sure that your poems are pretty good for lovers of poem. So sometimes I will visit your space. Enaro, my real name is myunshin-shin. Did you know it? I say again... I'm glad to meet you as a good poet Nowadays you must be busy. Good luck!

Sunday ,         October , 14 , 2001 ,                      a warm fall sunshine .

Today's Expression:He was in my blind spot.(그는 내가 있는 곳에서는 잘 안 보였어요.)

I woke up late this morning since I had sat up late last night to appreciate the famous movie, A.I.(Artificial Intelligence), on my computer. I felt a little tired, but I had no choice but to get out of my bed because I had many thing to do today. First of all, I had to bring my lovely son, Hee-seok, who had stayed at my father-in-law's house for three days. For my mother who had taken a good care of him took a 3-day trip to Je-ju Island which was noted for its natural beauty. When he saw us, my wife and me, he seemed a little embarrassed and so sad. He was talking to us by means of his cute eyes, "why now do you come to bring me?". We felt so sorry for that. At 2:00 p.m. we left there and left for the Ban-do hospital where my first younger brother was. He had a minor traffic accident a few days ago, so he was hospitalized there. We comforted him and he was happy. After we had talked with him for about 30 minutes hoping he would recover so soon, we were headed for my father's land. Last weekend, we didn't visit his country. It made me depressed. Three of us bowed to him with all our heart and provided him with sweet red wine and delicious fruits. He appeared very pleased at our sincerity. I was determined to visit his country every weekend unless a sudden and urgent thing happened to my family.

Monday ,        October , 15 , 2001 ,                                   warm .

Today's Expression: Let's get to it.(적극적으로 해 봅시다.)

English Composition:나는 도덕적 힘을 사용할 수밖에 없어요.

※I have no choice(alternative, option) but to use moral force.

※I cannot but use moral force.

※I can't help using moral force.

The following poet is one I I translated Korean poem into English poem..

Jeong Dong Jin

written by Jeong Ho-seung   , translated by Mr. ENARO

What made us go through Tae-baek range all night long?

What made us reach here without letting us fall asleep overnight?

Beyond the horizon, we see the train off which carried us,

and we stare at the dawn sea, heart to heart.

The sun rises.

When the sun is about to appear over the sea, we can see it.

But, after the sun rose, we can't even catch a glimpse of it,

because it shines too brightly.

That's it!

For us, who can be whose sun?

We can only be a strand of sunshine to each other.

We can only be a handful of wave to each other.

Who can be whose sea?

The train who was drowned in the sea comes to life again,

and is on his way again alongside of the coastline.

Now though we walk along the seashore next to the railroad,

arm in arm with each other,

Who knows until when it will be able to last?

Look at the pine tree standing towards the east sea.

Feel the heart of the pine tree who has given the sea one shoulder of his, as if he felt tired.

It must be a cozy shoulder I once leaned on,

with my long hair blown off by the sea wind.

Again look at the railroad which runs and runs along the seashore.

The reason the train can move forward in its life without even stopping a night is that it has rolled on the parallel lines.

We must get our trains to go forward in parallel with each other

rather than to try to make them only one train with reluctance.

Jeong Dong Jin sees the train off and always remains alone.

Jeong Dong Jin sees us off, but never cries.

Beyond the horizon, the thick red dawn sea of Jeong Dong Jin is waving his handkerchief.

How beautiful it is!

At the moment, he has already been hugged by the sunshine in waves.

May a sweet seagull, today, love him with all her heart!

정  동  진

-정호승-

밤을 다하여 우리가 태백을 넘어온 까닭은 무엇인가

밤을 다하여 우리가 새벽에 닿은 까닭은 무엇인가

수평선 너머로 우리가 타고 온 기차를 떠나보내고

우리는 각자 가슴을 맞대고 새벽 바다를 바라본다

해가 떠오른다

해는 바다 위로 막 떠오르는 순간에는 바라볼 수 있어도

성큼 떠오르고 나면 눈부셔 바라볼 수가 없다

그렇다

우리가 누가 누구의 해가 될 수 있겠는가

우리는 다만 서로의 햇살이 될 수 있을 뿐

우리는 다만 서로의 파도가 될 수 있을 뿐

누가 누구의 바다가 될 수 있겠는가

바다에 빠진 기차가 다시 일어나 해안선과 나란히 달린다

우리가 지금 다정하게 철길 옆 해변가로 팔장을 끼고 걷는다 해도

언제까지 함께 팔짱을 끼고 걸을 수 있겠는가

동해를 향해 서 있는 저 소나무를 보라

바다에 한쪽 어깨를 지친 듯이 내어준 저 소나무의 마음을 보라

내가 한때 긴 머리카락 휘날리며 기대었던 그 어깨처럼 편안하지 않은가

또다시 해변을 따라 길게 벋어나간 저 철길을 보라

기차가 밤을 다하여 평생을 달려올 수 있었던 것은

서로 평행을 이루었기 때문이 아니겠는가

우리 굳이 하나가 되기 위하여 노력하기보다

평행을 이루어 우리의 기차를 달리게 해야 한다

기차를 떠나보내고 정동진은 늘 혼자 남는다

우리를 떠나보내고 정동진은 울지 않는다

수평선 너머로 손수건을 흔드는 정동진의 붉은 새벽 바다

어여뻐라 너는 어느새 파도에 젖은 햇살이 되어 있구나

오늘은 착한 갈매기 한 마리가 너를 사랑하기를

Tuesday ,       October , 16 , 2001 ,                            windy and fine .

Today's Expression: I wish I could say the same.( = I envy you. )

Today's Phrase: a charactered bus (특별 목적을 가진 버스 : 전세 버스 )

Today my students took a preliminary exam with all their minds. English questions were very busy, but I could find a few instructive

stories in them. Therefore, I copied them on my diary notebook each a day. I feel I will have to live up to those lessons.

Title: We need to look on the bright side of things.

Who controls your life? Well, life in your hands. You can find hope if you want, or you can find despair everywhere you look. Everything depends on you. Why do some people always see beautiful skies, green grass, lovely flowers and astonishing human beings while others hardly find anything or any place that is beautiful? A philosopher said, "You have your brush and colors. You paint paradise, and then in you go." It doesn't matter what colors you are using now. You can always decide on new ones. What is important is to live a positive life of your own.

The following is a writing my step-brother, Moon Se-jin, sent me the day before yesterday.

Title: think about money again...

Money is....

It can buy a House

집을 살 수 있습니다.

But not a Home

하지만 가정을 살 수는 없습니다.

It can buy a Bed

침대를 살 수 있습니다.

But not Sleep

하지만 잠을 살 수는 없습니다.

It can buy a Clock

시계를 살 수 있습니다.

But not Time

하지만 시간을 살 수는 없습니다.

It can buy a Book

책을 살 수 있습니다.

But not Knowledge

하지만 지식을 살 수는 없습니다.

It can buy a Position

지위를 살 수 있습니다.

But not Respect

하지만 존경을 살 수는 없습니다.

It can buy Medicine

약을 살 수 있습니다.

But not Health

하지만 건강을 살 수는 없습니다.

It can buy Blood

피를 살 수 있습니다.

But not Life

하지만 생명을 살 수는 없습니다.

It can buy Sex

섹스를 살 수 있습니다.

But not Love

하지만 사랑을 살 수는 없습니다.

So you see money isn"t everything.

보시다시피 돈이 전부는 아니지요.

And it often causes pain and suffering.

그리고 돈은 ! 종종 고통과 시련을 가져다 주기도 합니다.

I tell you all this because

이 모든 것을 말하는 이유는

I am your Friend,

당신의 친구이기 때문입니다.

and as your Friend I want to

그리고 당신의 친구로서 나는

take away your pain and

당신이 고통과 시련으로부터

suffering...

벗어나길 바랍니다.

So send me all your money

그러니 당신의 모든 돈을 제게 보내주세요.

and I will suffer for you.

제가 당신을 대신해 그 고통의 짐을 가져가겠습니다.

"CASH ONLY PLEASE."

(현금으로 부탁드립니다.)

Wednesday ,      October , 17 , 2001 ,                    a little cold .

Today's Expression: I prefer sci-fi movies to tearjerkers.

(난 슬픈 최류성 영화보다 공상과학 영화가 좋다.)

Title: What is a true happiness?

Do you want to lead a happy life? What is a happy life? Some people say a happy life is a life with a lot of money. Do you agree with them? Before we try to decide what makes a happy life, we have to make clear what sort of happiness we aim to achieve. For example, there is the sort of happiness aimed by those who free themselves from all worldly matters. Such people believe that desire for wealth and material pleasures is the root of all discontentment. They think that as long as one runs after riches and physical comforts, one can't achieve happiness in life. I totally agree with it.

The following is writing my step-brother, Moon Se-jin, sent me yesterday.

Title: Let's take a coffee break...

※아래의 답을 보지마시고 자신의 윤리에 입각해서 대답해보시죠.

※첫번째 질문 : 어떤 여인이 임신중이고, 현재 8명의 아이들을 키우고 있다. 그 중 셋                   은 귀머거리이고 둘은 장님이며 한명은 정신지체아였다.

또한 그녀는 매독에 걸려 있는데... 그녀는 낙태를 해야할까요?

(Q1: If you knew a woman who was pregnant, and she had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis; would you recommend that she have an abortion?)

EXPLANATION:당신이 낙태를 결정했다면 당신은 방금 베토벤을 죽였습니다.

※두번째 질문 : 전세계를 이끌어갈 지도자를 뽑아야 할 때입니다.

여기 3명의 후보들에 대한 사실들이 있습니다.

( Q2: It is time to elect the world leader, and your votecounts.

Here are the facts about the three leading candidates: )!

후보 A (Candidate A)

부패한 정치인들과 결탁한적 있고, 점성술을 가지고 결정을 하며,

두 명의 애인이 있고 줄담배를 피우고 하루 8내지 10병의 마타니를 마신다.

(Associates with crooked politicians, and results with astrologists.

He's had two mistresses. He so chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.)

후보 B

두번이나 회사에서 짤린적이 있으며 정오까지 잠을 자고

대학시절 마약복용한 적도 있고 매일밤 위스키 4분의 1병을 마신다.

(He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon,

used opium in college and drinks a quart of whisky every evening.)

후보 C

전쟁 영웅이다. 채식가였으며 담배도 안피우고 경우에 따라서 맥주를 가끔 마신다.

또한 불륜관계를 가져본 적이 없다.

(He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and hasn't had any extramarital affairs.)

어떤 후보를? (Which of these candidates would be your choice?)

☞아래 설명을 훔쳐보기 전에 먼저 결정을 하세요.

(Decide first, no peeking, then scroll down for the answer.)

(EXPLANATION).당신의 선택하고 선택하지 않은 사람들은 다음과 같습니다.

후보! A : Franklin D. Roosevelt(루즈벨트)

후보 B : Winston Churchill(윈스턴 처칠)

후보 C : Adolph Hitler(아돌프 히틀러)

Thursday ,       October , 18 , 2001 ,           a little cold .

Today's Expression:You've got the nail on the head.(넌 핵심을 찔렀다.)

Title: The changing meaning of death.

Death is a difficult thing for everyone to cope with. And it's normal for the young to feel angry about death because they don't fully understand or accept it. As they get order, however, this anger will change to frustration, then a more general kind of sadness. Finally it will change to a more reflective, peaceful type of sadness that is not necessarily unpleasant. It doesn't mean that the emotion ever goes away. It just changes. It's hard to say the meaning of death in a word but people definitely learn over time.

The following is a useful writing Moon Se-jin sent me yesterday.

Title: Break Time...

오늘 하루도 소중한 하루 되시길....

분명히 아는 것과 희미하게 아는 것은 전혀 다릅니다.

분명히 아는 것은 내 것이지만, 희미하게 아는 것은 남의 것이기 때문입니다.

나는 단 한가지라도 분명히 앎으로 그것을 내 것으로 삼는 사람이 될 것입니다.

분명히 사랑하는 것과 희미하게 사랑하는 것은 다릅니다.

분명히 사랑하는 것은 아름답지만, 희미하게 사랑하는 것은 추하기 때문입니다.

나는 단 한 사람이라도 분명히 사랑하므로 아름다운 사람이 될 것입니다.

분명히 믿는것과 희미하게 믿는것은 전혀 다릅니다.

분명히 믿으면 신뢰받지만, 희미하게 믿으면 의심받기 때문입니다.

나는 분명히 믿으므로 신뢰받는 사람이 될 것입니다.

분명히 떠나는 것과 희미하게 떠나는 것은 전혀 다릅니다.

분명히 떠나면 새로운 것을 얻게 되나, 희미하게 떠나면 과거에 얽매이기 때문입니다.

나는 떠나야 할 것으로부터 분명히 떠남으로 새로운 좋은 걸 얻는 사람이 될 것입니다.

분명히 바라는 것과 희미하게 바라는 것은 전혀 다릅니다.

분명히 바라는 것은 이루어지지만, 희미하게 바라는 것은 이루어지지 않기 때문입니다.

나는 분명한 소망을 품음으로 그것을 이루는 사람이 될 것입니다.

분명히 말하는 것과 희미하게 말하는 것은 전혀 다릅니다.

분명히 하는 말은 나를 앞으로 나아가게 하지만,

희미하게 하는 말은 나를 뒤로 물러나게 하기 때문입니다.

나는 분명히 말함으로 그 말과 함께 힘차게 앞으로 나아가는 사람이 될 것입니다.

분명한 좋은 생각과 희미한 좋은 생각은 전혀 다릅니다.

분명한 좋은 생각은 나를 자유롭게 하지만

희미한 좋은 생각은 나를 얽매이게 하기 때문입니다.

나는 분명한 좋은 생각을 품음으로써 내 삶을 자유롭게 할 것입니다.

Today I made it. I translated a famous Korean poem into English one.

This work will be continued until they are published in the form of book someday. And they won't end with a book. I will run forward it.

선운사에서

- 최영미 -

꽃이

피는 건 힘들어도

지는 건 잠깐이더군

골고루 쳐다볼 틈 없이

님 한번 생각할 틈 없이

아주 잠깐이더군

그대가 처음

내 속에 피어날 때처럼

잊는 것 또한 그렇게

순간이면 좋겠네

멀리서 웃는 그대여

산 넘어 가는 그대여

꽃이

지는 건 쉬워도

잊는 건 한참이더군

영영 한참이더군

At the Seon-un Sa(Temple)

written by Choi Young-mi

translated by Mr. ENARO

A flower

bloomed in such a great suffering.

In a moment it withered, though.

It never provided me with time to feel everything on itself.

It never supplied me with time to picture my old sweetheart.

In a wink, beyond that world, it disappeared.

At first sight,

as soon as I fell in love with you,

I could let go of you from my deep heart,

I only hope.

Ah!

Far away from me, you are smiling.

Ah!

Beyond that mountain, you are vanishing.

A flower,

falls down to the ground, I can stand.

But, to let you leave from my life,

it may take unbearably long time.

it must take eternal time.

2001 , 10 ,18 .

Friday ,       October , 19 , 2001 ,                     a little cold .

Today's Expression: It is a real steal.(그건 그저 주는 겁니다.)

The following is an invaluable writing Moon Se-jin sent me yesterday.

Title:Break Time 2

1800년대 말... 지금의 MIT공대의 전신학교를 다니던 가난한 고학생이 있었다. 그는 지방유지의 딸과 사랑에 빠졌는데~ 여자 집안에선 그 둘을 갈라놓기 위해 여잘 먼 친척집에 보내버렸다. 남잔 그녀를 찾기 위해 몇 날 몇 일을 헤매 다녔고... 그러다가 비가 추적추적 내리는 어느 날 그녀 집 앞에서 반가운 해후를 했다. "나 내일 결혼해... "

"내가 담배 한 대 피우는 동안만 내 곁에 있어줄래??" 여자는 고개만 끄덕였고...

남자는 잎담배를 꺼내 불을 붙였다... 종이에 말아 피는 잎담배는 몇 모금 빨면 금새 다 타 들어갔다... 짧은 시간이 흐르고 여자는 집으로 들어갔구.....그게 끝이었다..

그리고 몇 년 후 우연인지는 모르겠지만 남자는 세계최초로 필터가 있는 담배를 만들기 시작했고 순식간에 백만장자가 됐다... 세월이 흐르고... 남잔 그 여자가 혼자 병든 몸으로 빈민가에서 외로이 살고 있다는 소식을 들었다. 하얀 눈이 펑펑 내리는 어느 겨울날... 하얀 벤츠를 타고 그녀를 찾아갔다... 그리고 말했다. "나는 아직도 널 사랑해... 나와 결혼해 줄래요?" 여자는 망설이다 생각할 시간이 필요하다고 했고... 남자는 다음날 다시 오겠다며 발길을 돌렸다... 다음 날 남자가 그녀를 찾아갔을 때 발견한 건 목 매단 채 죽어있는 그녀의 싸늘한 시신이었다.... 그 다음부터 남자는 자기가 만드는 담배에 marlboro라는 이름을 붙이기 시작했다...

ⓜan ⓐlways ⓡemembers ⓛove ⓑecause ⓞf ⓡomance ⓞver

" 남자는 흘러간 로맨스 때문에 항상 사랑을 기억한다 "

In the morning I took a bath in the public bathhouse, in the afternoon I had a pleasant time chatting with my friends in English and in the evening I translated a Korean poem into English one.

A bird and A tree

written by Ryu Si-hwa

Standing in the deep mountain here without a stream of wind,

Trees stay still without any move,

But only a branch shakes.

The reason is that a bird

flew and sat on it.

Among people on the street living with no star

That only I move alone is

because you flew and sat inside my heart.

A bird builds his own nest on the branch,

Though the tree no longer swings,

That only I continually stir alone is

because you haven't made a bed inside my heart.

Translated by ENARO

2001 , 10 , 19 .

새와 나무

류시화 시인님

여기 바람 한 점 없는 산속에 서면

나무들은 움직임없이 고요한데

어떤 나뭇가지 하나만 흔들린다

그것은 새가

그 위에 날아와 앉았기 때문이다

별이 없이 살아가는 뭇사람들속에서

오직 나만 홀로 흔들리는 것은

당신이

내 안에 날아와 앉았기 때문이다

새는 그 나뭇가지에 집을 짓고

나무는 더 이상 흔들리지 않지만

나만 홀로 끝없이 흔들리는 것은

당신이 내 안에 집을 짓지 않은 까닭이다

Saturday ,        October , 20 , 2001 ,                breezy abd a little cold .

Today's Expression:That sounds like a match made in heaven.(천생연분이야.)

Title: Coffee & Love

좋은 아침입니다. coffee 한 잔과 함께 좋은 사람을 만나 정겨운 일상의 이야기를 털어놓을 수 있다면 좋겠다라는 생각이 드는 아침이네요. 당신의 소중한 하루를 따스한 온기로 채워줄 cofee한 잔과 함께 이 글을 보냅니다.

1. 커피도 사랑도 뜨거워야 제맛이다

그대는 식어버린 커피를 마셔본적이 있는가

그 비릿한 내음.. 역겨운 맛

그대는 식어버린 사랑을 느껴본적이 있는가

그 차가운 눈빛.. 역겨운 정

커피도 사랑도 그대가 원하는 온도로만

유지된다면 얼마나 행복하겠냐만은..

시간은.. 커피와 사랑의 온도를 유지 시켜주지 않는다

모.. 때론 데울수도 있겠지만, 처음 같지만은 않을 것이다

그러나, 커피가 너무 뜨거우면 입을 델수조차 없으며...

사랑이 너무 뜨거우면.....음... 마음을 데일수가 있다

2. 커피도 사랑도 순수해야 한다

그대는 커피에 무엇을 넣어 마시는가

그대는 사랑 이외에 무엇을 바라는가

세상엔... 온갖 종류의 커피가 있듯이

세상엔... 온갖 종류의 사랑이 있다

달콤함을 원하기에 이것저것 넣어본다지만

그 달콤함이 지나치면 커피의! 맛을 느낄수 없다

순수한 커피가 가끔은 쓰게 느껴지더라도

그대는 오로지 커피만을 마신 것이다

사랑도 마찬가지..

달콤함을 원하기에 이것저것 바래본다지만

그 달콤함이 지나치면 사랑의 맛을 느낄수 없다

순수한 사랑이 가끔은 힘들게 느껴지더라도

그대는 오로지 사랑만 한 것이다

3. 커피도 사랑도 지나치면 몸에 해롭다

그대는 하루에 몇잔의 커피를 마시는가

그대는 일생에 몇번의 사랑을 하는가

한잔의 커피는 그날의 기분을 새롭게 하지만

계속되는 커피는 그대의 몸에 해로울수 있다

한번의 사랑은 그대를 행복하게 하지만

계속되는 사랑은 그대를 지치게 할수도 있다

4. 커피도 사랑도 잠을 이룰 수 없게 한다

그대는 커피가 언제 그리워 지는가

그대는 사랑을 언제 그리워 하는가

늦은 밤이면 더욱 커피가 생각나고

늦은 밤이면 더욱 사랑이 그립다

밤늦은 시간 마신 커피는

오늘 밤 그대를 잠못들게 하듯이

사랑하는 이를 그리는 그대는

늦은 밤까지 잠을 이룰수가 없다

5. 커피도 사랑도 중독된다

그대는 커피에 중독되어 있는가? 그대는 사랑에 중독되어 있는가

커피엔 카페인이 들어있어 그대의 손을 놓지 못하게 한다

사랑엔 미련이 들어있어 그대의 마음을 놓지 못하게 한다

그리고 중독된 커피는 처음 그대가 커피를 입에 댔을때의

그 신선하고 그윽한 맛을 느낄수 없듯이

중독된 사랑 또한 어느새 그대의 일상이 되버려

그 설레이고 가슴 벅참을 느낄수 없게 된다

하지만, 커피와 사랑의 맛을 아는 그대는

그 무엇보다도 그네들과 함께하는 시간이

행복하다는 것 또한 느낄수 있다

6. 커피도 사랑도 혼자할때 가장 외롭다

그대는 커피를 혼자 마셔본적이 있는가

그대는 사랑을 혼자 해본적이 있는가

혼자 마시는 커피는 그대에게 외로움을 전해주며

혼자 하는 사랑은 그대를 아프게 한다

7. 커피도 사랑도 한번에 이룰려고 해서는 안된다

그대는 커피를 어떻게 마시는가

그대는 사랑을 어떻게 하는가

간절하다 하여 뜨거운 커피를 원샷할수 없듯이

간절하다 하여 사랑을 한번에 이룰수는 없다

조금씩.. 천천히.. 그 맛을 음미할때 만이

그 둘의 참맛을 느낄수가 있다

8. 커피도! 사랑도 오로지 그것만으로는 살수가 없다

그대는 커피만으로 살수 있는가

그대는 사랑만으로 살수 있는가

아무리 커피를 좋아하는 그대 일지라도

커피만으로 그대의 허기진 배를 채울수 없듯이

사랑만으로 그대의 허기진 가슴을 채울수 없다

세상에서 가장 맛있는커피는 사랑하는 이와 마시는 커피이다

세상에서 가장 행복한사랑은 사랑하는 이와 함께하는 사랑이다

Some people always see beautiful skies, green grass, lovely flowers and astonishing human beings, while others hardly see anything or any place that is beautiful. Which side do you want to choose? It must be a very stupid question. Life is in our hands. Everything depends on us. We need to look on the bright side of things.

Sunday ,       October , 21 , 2001 ,                            a drizzle .

Today's Expression:He is teacher's pet.(그는 선생님의 귀염둥이야.)

I think he was class jock.(그는 킹카였을 것 같아.)

I was a class nerd(geek).(나는 공부벌레였어.)

Title:나른한 오후.....( written by Moon Se-jin)

나른한 오후란 단어를 전 좋아합니다. 따사로운 햇살아래의 벤치에 앉아 좋아하는 글을 읽으며 귀에는 이어폰을 꽂은 채 음악에 맞춰 흥얼거리는 그런 모습이 연상되곤 하거든요. 만약 지금 저에게 지금 시간이 주어진다면 이 나른한 오후를 느끼게 하는

공원을 산책하고 싶습니다. 여러분들에게 이런 편지를 쓸 수 있다는 것만으로도 전 충분히 행복합니다. 비록 지금 삶에 지치고 힘들어도.....

--- 얼 굴 ---

얼굴 속까지는 아무도 들여다 보지 않습니다.

그대가 어떤 생각을 하는 지

어떤 고민을 하는 지..

아무도 그대의 얼굴속까지는 들여다 보지 않습니다.

때론 그대의 가리워진 슬픔이 웃음사이로 스쳐 지날 때에도

그대의 얼굴속까지는 들여다 볼 수 없기 때문에

그대가 짊어져야 할 그대의 슬픔이 얼마나 크고 벅찬 것인지

아무도 알 수가 없습니다.

너무 아파서 아프다고 말할 수조차 없을 때나

너무 그리워 그 사람의 이름조차 부를 수 없을 때나

눈물조차 메말라 더 이상 울 기력조차 없을 때에도

사람들은 이렇게 말합니다.

그렇게 잊고 사는 것이?

아무도 그대의 얼굴속까지는 들여다 볼 수 없기 때문에....

그렇게 사는 것이 인생인지도 모르겠습니다.

행복하세요..

예전엔 미처 이 말이 얼마나 많은 의미를 부여한다는 걸 몰랐습니다.

좀 더 일찍 알았더라면 삶의 결정들을 좀 더 신중하게 했을 겁니다.

스스로 행복해지기 위해...

Yesterday I translated a Korean poem into English one because the poet asked me to do so.

The falling leaves

written by Choi Jang-hee

Leaves are falling

with a concrete wall at intervals

Leaves

falling on the bare ground inside it

Leaves

rubbing themselves on the cement floor outside it

Though lovers walk on the street

with indifference,

To the leaves falling in fall,

even to the death, to keep their purity

on the bare ground inside the wall,

they are wringing their whole body

translated by Jeong Bong-hyun

2001 , 10 , 20 .

*원래 낙엽은 "the fallen leaves"를 많이 쓰지만 여기서의 낙엽은 나무로부터는 벌써 떨어졌지만 아직 죽지 않은 마지막 생명을 다하여 몸부림치는 모습을 느끼고 싶어 "The falling leaves"라는 어구를  사용하였습니다.

*그리고 번역도 제 2의 창작이라는 말을 하지만 아직 제 의도를 실을 능력이 되지 않아 시인님의 의도를 적절히 옮기려는데 촛점을 두었습니다.

낙 엽

- 최장희 시인님 -

콘크리트 담 하나 놓고

낙엽이 떨어지고 있다.

안 쪽 맨 땅에

떨어지는 낙엽

바깥 쪽 시멘트 바닥에

떨어지는 낙엽

길 가는 연인들은

무심하지만

그러나

가을 낙엽에 있어서는

마지막까지 순결을 지키려고

안 쪽 맨 땅에

온 몸을 비틀고 있다.

Today was my last on-duty day of this year and it drizzled like my situation. Yesterday I should have gone to my father's country. I couldn't visit his land even today. I promised with myself to go and see him every weekend. I will keep my promise without fail.

Monday ,    October , 22 , 2001 ,                            drizzle .

Today's Expression:He's ahead of the pack.(그는 남보다 우수해요.)

This puts me out in front.(이건 우리에게 유리해요.)

I don't like to fall behind.(난 뒤처지기 싫어요.)

My friend who has taken a course for an experienced nurse sent me her news with her warm heart. After the learning, she will leave for Saudi Arabia to be a good nurse. I hope her dream will necessarily come true.

Title:Hi! Kwichon, it was Peace, but please call me Iahn from now on.

Dear my friend, Kwichon

How are you? I am not in Jeju island but in Incheon. I am taking a course for working at a hospital in Saudi Arabia, I came here yesterday afternoon and I will be here until 2, Nov. Today was the first day to be here, you know? It was never easy to attend classes. I feel hungry so easily. I didn't know why I felt hungry so much.. but I think my brain needs some glucose for arduous learning, how to speak English, though I didn't skip any meals. There are 40 people who are going to go to Saudi Arabia, so I am not alone any longer. Actually, I used to worry about leaving Korea to Saudi Abrabia by myself. Kwichon! I want to return to blue heaven after I finish some tasks which I have to do in this world, so I will do my best for acheiving that. You are my friend so I hope we will keep in touch continually... okay? I trust you and our friendship... I hope to see you soon by mail or MSN messenger... I will rest after exercisement tonight... Take care...  Best regards     from Iahn

Title: I am sure you will be able to make it.

Dear my friend, Iahn!

It drizzled here in Jinju. I felt so cold this morning that I had to take turtle-neck sweater out of drawer in a wardrobe and put it on. How about there? is it raining yet? This rain will call the winter earlier than we expect. I hope you will stay in a good condition all the time. It is the most important factor to do something as you know. I am so happy to hear that you have already adjusted yourself to other surroundings. You will be able to complete your learning course with satisfaction, I bet. For it is well suited for you. I would so much like you to enjoy your new mission like a sweet love-making. You are a sincere and strong lady, I think. You can do everything you want. In the distance, I will help you out with all my heart, since I am your cordial friend. Cheer up and run forward your bright future. The sun is smiling at you and he is on your side. You can always see beautiful skies, lovely flowers and astonishing human beings if you want to. Everything depends on you. If life gives you a lemon, make it a lemonade. Life is in your hands. It is very significant in your life to love yourself. Now I have to leave my office, but at the samt time I will send you my goddess who bears four-leaf clover which symbolizes a good fortune. Huuuuuu..... Take care and have lucky days. See you.

faithfully yours      from Mr. ENARO in the middle of fall   P.S.: Fate chooses relations and you choose friends.

Tuesday ,       October , 23 , 2001 ,                       a little cold .

Today's Expression:I think you are building a castle in the air.

(꿈 깨라!:헛된 공상 하지 마라!)

Today I translated a Korean poem into an English one because an amateur poet named Bae Jun-seong asked me to translate his poem into an English one. And I received two e-mails. One was from my step-brother, Moon Se-jin, in Seoul and the other was from Kim Se-kyeong, a senior student in Young-nam university.

An Onion

written by Bae Jun-seong

Not to be peeled,

an onion is making an arduous struggle in vain.

He can't but strip the barks from it.

Stripping itself

is only vanity, itself.

Still, he strips and strips the bark from an onion

and at last it becomes stark-naked.

He is shedding tears.

The man who has stripped the onion

is weeping.

The man is looking at the skins of the onion.

He is looking at the removed skins of the onion.

It shouted, "Let me be alive", but in vain.

The man is shedding tears,

with making no sound.

He is sinking into distressful abyss

Over and over again

he is gazing at the stripped skins of the onion.

In his heart, it is still shouting, "Let me relive".

He is only wailing with all his heart.

translated by Mr. ENARO

2001 , 10 , 23 .

양  파

-배준성 지음-

벗겨지지 않으려고

발버둥치는

양파의 껍질을

벗기고 또 벗긴다

벗는 것은

벗는다는 것은

허무인데

허무함인데

자꾸만 벗기고

또 벗겨

마침내 까 재낀 양파.

운다.

양파의 껍질을 벗기던 그 자가 운다.

벗겨지지 않으려고

발버둥치던

양파의 껍질을 보고서

운다

소리없이 운다

허탄에 빠져 마구 운다

벗겨지지 않으려고

발버둥치던

양파의 껍질을 보고서

벗겨진 양파의 껍질을 보고서

그 자는 마구 울어 째낀다.

Title:가끔은....

Enaro님, Apple님! 주말은 잘 보내셨나요?? 잘들 게시죠?? 형님은 요즘 왜 메일 안 보내세요?? 제가 뭐 잘못한 거라도??? 애플님도 메일 안 보내주시구..... 여기저기 출장다니고, 자리에 앉으면 밀린 일은 태산이구... 시간 참 빨리 지나가네요... 벌써 10월도 한 주만 지나면 끝이네요.. 내일 하루는 절 위해서 휴식을 취할려고 합니다. 정말로 오랜만에 산에 가 볼 계획입니다. 단풍도 보구, 산길을 따라 산책도 하면서 이 가을의 정취를 흠뻑 담아 올려고 합니다. 이 가을이 가기 전에.... 오늘 출장갔다오는 길에 고속도로에서 오늘이 서리가 내린다는 삼강이라고 얘기를 들으니까 불현듯 산에 가고 싶다는 생각이 들어서 내일은 실천에 옮겨볼 까 합니다.

저 지금 드렁큰 타이거의 노래 듣고 있는데요.. 노래가 좋은 곡이 꽤 있네요... 나이 먹어서 웬 힙합이냐고 주위에서 핀잔도 많이 듣지만 드렁큰 타이거의 음악은 괜찮은 것 같아요... 이 늦가을과는 안 어울리지만....

형님과는 쏘주 한 잔 걸치면서 이런저런 세상 사는 얘기도 하구 싶은 데 짬이 잘 안 나네요... 언제 시간내서 진주에 꼭 갈께요..

형님,애플님.. 그럼 즐겁고 행복한 하루 되시구요..  다음에 또 메일 보낼께요...

Title:I'm so sorry~

Most of all, I'm really sorry~. --;; I was so busy until yesterday because it is a midterm exam. and I had a report instead of test.. report is about homepage, that is I make a homepage. so I was busy.

so sorry~ forgive me~ but I have seen your poem 산불 in www.spoem.com. It's really good! In my opinion, maybe you might be a poet. really so many capacity you have. I envy you~ anyway,, how about you? I'm ok. good! just a little tired. ^^ Have a luck! Enaro.  bye~~~~~

Wednesday .        October , 24 , 2001 ,                  a little cold .

Today's Expression:He rubs me the right(wrong) way.(그는 나를 기쁘게:화나게 해요)

Today I translated a Korean poem into English one because Park In-suk, an amateur poet and school English teacher, asked me to do it. And my students took their last preliminary test today. I hope all of them will have a confidence by this exam.

PARTING

in the An-myeon Do

written by Park In-suk

Since that day

we were no longer ONE.

From the start

our fairy tale was not in good harmony.

Outside, the autumn rain was falling,

and into an opening of loose windows

a bleak wind was blowing.

I recollect that day we met each other for the first time.

Just like this moment

'A wet wind now and then would make the candlelight shake

and our hands put together got wet with sweat'

Yes, we were in the same place.

Still, you were staring at your way

and I was staring at my way.

As if the wind touched and left us,

we met without any shared purpose,

and soon we turned away against each other.

A white sand field of An-myeon-do turned red.

Even a cold rain was beating our heart.

You loved only yourself

and I loved only myself.

We couldn't be ONE any longer.

translated by Mr. ENARO    2001, 10, 23.

別  離 (안면도에서)

-habaraki 지음-

그날 이후로

우리는 나뉘었다

애당초 우리의

우화는 껄끄러웠다

밖에는 가을비가 내리고

창 틈으로 습한 바람이 불어왔다

우리가 만났던 처음의 그날같이

바람은 촛불을 간간이 흔들어 놓았고

우리의 마주잡은 작은 손에는

축축한 땀이 배였다.

서로가 다를 바 없으면서도

생각은 이역이었음에야

우리를 스치고 지나가는 바람마냥

바람마냥 흘러갈 우리의 해후는

부드러운 안면도의 모래사장이

부끄러울 정도로 외면을 하며

찬 비를 맞고 있었다

우리는 뜨거워지는 자존심을

차가운 미소로 대신했다.

Thursday ,     October , 25 , 2001 ,                         a little cold .

Today's Expression:Don't rub in it.(나쁜 기억을 떠올리게 하지 말아요.)

Today I had two pleasant news. One was about my childhood friend, Ryu Hyeong-ho, and the other was about my youngest brother, Jeong Myeong-hyeon. Mr. Ryu passed the important test for professional architect at the top of all the applicants. This morning I received a good news by means of his mail. And I sent him my congratulation card mail. In the afternoon my youngest brother called me to inform me of his getting a good job. I know these days it is very difficult to have a work. But he made it. He will work for LGCI(Lucky Geunseong Chemical Industry). I would so much love to congratulate two of them on their good feat with all my heart.

In the evening I translated two Korean poems into English poems. One was Lee Myeong-shin's poem, my english mail friend, in Tae-jeon,and the other was Bae Jun-seong's poem, an amateur poet and newspaper and magazine publisher, in Seoul. I moved the former in my diary notebook today and I would write down the latter in my diary notebook.

Title:이젠 좀 홀가분하군.

건축사자격시험 합격예상인원 642명

아래는 연합신문기사내용입니다

건설교통부는 지난 9월2일 실시한 2001년도 건축사 자격시험의 합격 예정자 명단을 25일 대한건축사협회 게시판 및 홈페이지(http://www.kira.or.kr)를 통해 공고한다고 24일 밝혔다. 이번 시험에는 4천886명이 응시, 이중 13.14%인 642명이 합격했다. 최고득점자는 300점 만점에 252점을 얻은 류형호(34. 홍익대졸)씨, 최연소 합격자는 여성 응시자인 조성화(27. 조선대졸)씨, 최고령 합격자는 오정교(57.한양대졸)씨가 차지했다.

여성합격자는 52명(전체 합격자의 8.1%)으로 작년 151명에 비해 훨씬 줄었다.

건교부는 합격자 예정자에 대한 학력, 경력에 관한 서류심사를 거쳐 오는 12월18일 관보 및 대한건축사협회 게시판에 최종합격자 명단을 공고할 계획이다.

Title: CONGRATULATION!

CONGRATULATION! THIS IS A VERY GOOD MORNING. YOUR SUCCESS MAKES ME SO HAPPY IN THIS WONDERFUL MORNING. I'D SO MUCH LOVE TO CONGRATULATE YOU ON PASSING THE TEST FOR PROFESSIONAL ARCHITECT. DON'T FORGET I SENT YOU MY LUCKY GODDESS. ^^ I REALLY HOPE YOU WILL BE ABLE TO GO ON TOWARD YOUR BRIGHT FUTURE WITHOUT STOPPING. MY BUDDY! TAKE CARE AND SEE YOU LATER. FAITHFULLY YOURS FROM YOUR BUDDY, ENARO IN MY OFFICE

Time (and Tide)

written by Lee Myeong-shin

My father always said,

"I hope you live rightly at any time and any place."

"I hope you never tell a lie under any circumstances."

Those sayings made up my blood and bone.

And in no time

I became a mother of two kids.

Now I repeat the lessons once he gave me.

"I hope you live rightly at any time and any place."

"I hope you never tell a lie under any circumstances."

Ah! Time leaves me

like great streaks of rain down.

....................................................

I can't catch up with it at all.

translated by ENARO      2001, 10, 25.

세  월

-이명신 지음-

아버지께서 말씀하셨다.

경우 바르게 살아라

거짓말하지 말아라

그 말씀이

피가 되고 살이 되어

어느새

두 아이의 엄마가 되었다

나는 그 옛날의 아버지 말씀을

그대로 되풀이한다.

경우 바르게...

거짓말은 못써...

하면서

아! 세월이 빠르게

흐른다.

쏟아지는 빗줄기처럼

..............................

아니 그보다 더 빠르게

흐른다.

Friday ,       October , 26 , 2001 ,                               warm .

Today's Expression:Don't make me see red.(나를 화나게 하지 마세요.)

These days I am so busy translating Korean poems into Eng;lish ones. People who have their own rooms for poems ask me for translating their poems into English ones. A few poems are easy to translate, but most of them are very difficult. It takes very great efforts to understand Korean poems and recreate them into English poems. But it is so interesting and gives me new hope. Today I made it. As usual Mr. Bae Jun-seong called Doul solicited me for translating his two poems into English ones. He said to me, "I will publish your translated poems on the column in the his newspaper and magazine." He is a very good person to me. I think he has the same opinion about this Japan and world situations as I have. Anyway I finished them this morning. I will copy them down on my diary notebook each a day.

BUSH( FLINT )

written by Bae Jun-seong

1.

Bush ~ ~ Bush ~ ~ Bush ~ ~

Bush ~ ~ Bush ~ ~ Bush ~ ~

You always fill my poor heart with beautiful dreams.

And, flowers of new hope are in full bloom in my garden.

Friend! Friend! Friend!

A good friend! A true friend! A bosom friend!

Oh! My buddy!

You plant forget-me-nots in my gray garden.

You plant roses in my desolate field.

Bush! You water them with warm affection.

Oh, my buddy! The light of love!

You lighten my dark heart with great love.

2.

Bush ~ ~ Bush ~ ~ Bush ~ ~

Bush ~ ~ Bush ~ ~ Bush ~ ~

Strike a love fire

and Give it to me

For life beside you

I want to feel the flaming love from you.

Bush!

Friend! Friend! Friend!

A good friend! A true friend! A bosom friend!

Oh! My buddy!

Give me the fire of happiness

flaming in pleasures

Bush!

You plant forget-me-nots in my gray garden.

You plant roses in my desolate field.

You shine them with warm affection.

Oh, my buddy! The light of love!

You lighten my dark heart with great love.

translated by ENARO

2001, 10, 25.

부  시

- 도울(Doul)  배준성(裵峻晟) 지음 -

1. 부시 ~ ~ 부시~ ~ 부시 ~ ~

부시 ~ ~ 부시 ~ ~ 부시 ~ ~

가난한 내 마음에

새 희망이 솟는

아름다운 꿈을

항상 가득 채워 준 부시!

친구 친구 친구!

친구 친구 친구!

오! 나의 친구!

가슴 깊이 흐른

뜨거운 정 넘쳐요.

부시!

외로운 내 가슴 속에

그리운 정을 심고

쓸쓸한 내 가슴 속에

따뜻한 정을 쏟아

어두운 내 마음을 환하게

밝혀 주는 사랑의 빛이여!

2. 부시 ~ ~ 부시~ ~ 부시 ~ ~

부시 ~ ~ 부시 ~ ~ 부시 ~ ~

사랑의 불 딩겨요

사랑의 불 부쳐요

영원토록 활활

영원토록 타게요.

부시!

친구 친구 친구!

친구 친구 친구!

오! 나의 친구!

즐거움이 넘친

행복의 불 부쳐요.

부시!

외로운 내 가슴 속에

그리운 정을 심고

쓸쓸한 내 가슴 속에

따뜻한 정을 쏟아

어두운 내 마음을

환하게 밝혀 주는 사랑의 빛이여! <부시!>

Saturday ,      October , 27 , 2001 ,                                 rainy .

Today‘s Expression:She is after your money.(그녀는 당신을 사랑한 것이 아니고 당신의 돈을 바래요.)

It rained all day long. It was a sad fall rain. But I enjoyed it and in the morning I wrote a decent Korean poem, titled 'Dokdo', an Island. While writing it, I decided to shield it from cunning and lousy Japanese under any circumstances. For it is obviously not only domain of our country, but symbol of our pride and our ideal. I met my respectable senior, my step-brother, Park Jeong-su, to have lunch together at the familiar restaurant my old student, yoon Jae-hong, had run since October, 5th. While eating grilled beef and drinking liquor, we had words with each other about a few topics. I could learn many things I had never known. He was a very great person as I had thought of. He told me about poems and poets,  society and religion, and translation and literature. I felt his versatility and competence. We enjoyed our relationship late at night. We two became heavy drinkers but our minds were alive. At last he left for his home, in Ha-dong, in a taxi. It rained all day, but we had a very pleasant day. He must be my eternal brother and master. I will follow him until heaven calls me and return to it.

Thanks to (the first bridge)

written by Doul, Bae Jun-sung

Thanks to the first bridge

I was able to cross the second one.

Thanks to the second bridge

I was able to cross the third one.

Thanks to the third bridge

I could cross the fourth one.

Thanks to the fourth bridge

I can cross the fifth one.

Thanks to the fifth bridge

and thanks to the sixth bridge

I can cross the seventh

and the eighth one.

Thanks to the eighth bridge

I can cross the ninth one

and thanks to the ninth bridge

I can cross the tenth one.

Thanks to the first bridge,

Thanks to the first bridge

the hundredth.....,

the thousandth.....,

and the ten thousandth bridge

I will cross and cross.

translated by ENARO

2001, 10, 26.

덕분에

-도울 배준성 지음-

첫 번째 다리 덕분에

두 번째 다리를 건넜고

두 번째 다리 덕분에

세 번째 다리를 건널 수 있었다.

세 번째 다리 덕분에

네 번째 다리를 건넜고

네 번째 다리 덕분에

다섯 번째 다리를 건넌다.

다섯 번째 다리 덕분에

여섯 번째 다리 덕분에

일곱 번째 다리를 건너고

여덟 번째 다리도 건넌다.

여덟 번째 다리 덕분에

아홉 번째 다리를 건너고

아홉 번째 다리 덕분에

열 번째 다리도 건넌다.

첫 번째 다리 덕분에

첫 번째 다리 덕분에

백 번, 천 번, 만 번째 다리를

건너고, 또 건너 간다.

Sunday ,      October , 28 , 2001 ,                     fine, windy and a little cold .

Today's Expression:The proof of pudding is to taste(eat) it.(백문이 불여일견이다.)

These days though I feel so tired, happiness is inviting me into its world. For I found many things to do in the future. One is to write my Korean poems and make them a collection of poems. Another is to study English very much and master it so that I can express my mind very eloquently. And then I will write my poems in English and make them a collection of English poems. And the other is to translate Korean famous poems into English ones, make them published in the form of one book and then make people all over the world read it and enjoy our nation's emotions and feelings. I know it will take a long long time to do it, but I too know that I have to make it. It will be my mission and destiny. It will be my ultimate goal in my life. Until I am dead, I will run forward it without stopping any moment. Today was the first birthday of my English diary.

Karma leads to karma.

written by Doul, Bae Jun-seong

Under the heaven

all the things,

with karma in a former life,

are born in this world.

Through their whole life,

through their lifetime

they make their destiny, and

with the accumulated karma,

with all the minds and deeds of this world

they depart this life for their next one.

According to their karma,

all the deeds of this world

somewhere in the world beyond

they leave,

with all the karma in a former life

and with all the karma in this life.

translated by ENARO     2001, 10, 26.

업소래 업소거(業所來 業所去)

- 도울 배준성 지음 -

천하(天下)의

모든 만물(萬物)이

전생(前生)의

업(業)을 가지고

이승에 왔다가

평생 동안

한 평생 동안

적업(積業)을 한 후

그 업(業)을 가지고

그 자신이

이승에서 쌓은

업(業)을 죄다 가지고

저승으로 간다.

업적(業績)에 따라

그가

이승에서 쌓은

업적(業績)에 따라

저승,

어딘가로 간다.

전생(前生)에

쌓은 업(業)과

이승에서

쌓은 업(業)을

전부 다 함께 가지고

Monday ,         October , 29 , 2001 ,                           a little cold .

Today's Expression: Mind your language!(말조심해!)

I'm suffering from jet leg.(난 시차 때문에 피곤해요.)

Another week began. When I reached my office and checked my mail box, I found a nice news from Doul named Bae Jun-seong which lived in Seoul. In the mail, he wrote to want to know about my cellular phone number to appreciate me for translating his Korean poems into English ones. I sent him my reply e-mail immediately. During lunch break, he called me and told me many things about his personal information. He was the owner of a newspaper and two magazine publishing companies. He was over 50 and father of three children. He said to me his youngest daughter was attending university. What's more, he known many famous and great men in this country. In a word, he was a tycoon in the cultural world. He complimented my ability and my mind very much. I was so happy but I couldn't have any words except for being honored to meet you. And I mean it. I made a determination to make my way through all the difficulties until I could achieve my goal in my life. Though it claims my life, I will go to great length to make it. I am running and will run forward it.

Tuesday ,        October , 30 , 2001 ,                                     warm .

Today's Expression:The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.

(마음은 따라주는데, 몸이 말을 안 들어요.)

Last evening my youngest brother, Myeong-hyeon, came down to his home in Jinju from Seoul. He was interviewed in his future company(LGCI:Lucky Geumseong Chemical Industry) in Tae-jeon yesterday morning and then he decided to visit his father's land in Jinju. So he started for the city in the afternoon and at 7:35 p.m. he arrived at my house. After work I met him in front of the Hanbo building and we were headed for my familiar pub called Po-seok-jeong. We drank two bottles of Korean traditional wine with the owner of the bar talking about society and work lives. It was a pleasant night. I would so much love to congratulate him on his getting a good job and I hope he will go on improving his ability.

Today was pay-day of our company. A few days ago my co-worker complained me about unjust treatment. The chief of our company had given me ￦1,000,000 in return for homeroom teacher's role and had given him ￦700,000 for that. It was an obvious fault. But the boss promised to give me ￦1,000,000 from the start but he told my companion to grant ￦700,000. It was all. Though my boss was at fault, my companion, Lee Ok-hyeon, got mad at my boss' unfair behavior. But in my opinion he had to bear it. Because he was different from me. I bet I am superior to him. He is a very sincere worker, I know. But he has little originality and he is only a copy-cat. Now I hate him. In about a week, I will quit this work and want to have a long vacation and take a trip to all over the country in my car. While travelling, I will see and learn many things from nature and people I meet. I can't wait it. I hope that I will be able to have my own days so soon.

Wednesday ,      October , 31 , 2001 ,                           a little cold .

Today's Expression:It looks inviting.(그거 매혹적인데요.)

Today was the last day of October. It was really a fucking day to me.

I won't forget one guy forever. I want to understand him, but I can't forgive him. He was like a thief stealing knowledge from the internet. These days I am suffering from life and human beings.

Son of bitch! If I had been in your shoes, I wouldn't have done so.

Thursday ,       November , 1 , 2001 ,                           a fall weather .

Today's Common sense:What is the United Kingdom?

(England, Northern Ireland, Wales, Scotland)

What is the Great Britain?

(United Kingdom에서 Northern Ireland를 뺀 부분)

영국의 Queen Victoria 시대에 대영제국을 건립하여 엘리                           자베스 여왕 시대와 필적할 만한 전성기를 구가함.

I would so much love to write true poems from now on, but it is very difficult to do it, I know. I am feeling the limitation of mine. Today I copied down the good writing on the difficulties of writing easy poems.

쉬운 시의 어려움       (나호열)

시인들은 쉬운 시를 쓰려고 노력합니다. 독자들 또한 어려운 시를 선호하지 않는 것은 분명합니다. 名詩라 일컬어지는 많은 시들, 베스트 셀러가 되는 시집들의 대부분은 낭송하기에 알맞은 가락과 누구나 쉽게 해독할 수 있는 언어로 짜여져 있음을 우리는 잘 알고 있습니다. 그런 연유로 시인되기를 희망하는 사람들은 '쉬운 시'의 매력에서 좀처럼 빠져 나오기가 힘듭니다. 그러나 이 ' 쉬운 시'의 명제는 결코 쉽게 넘어갈 수 없는 생각거리를 파생시키고 있다는 점을 알아두어야 합니다.

인구에 회자되는 소월의 '진달래 꽃'이나 윤동주의 '별 헤는 밤' 천상병의 '귀천'이나 한용운의 '님의 침묵'은 우선 독자들의 일차적인 정서를 충족시켜 줍니다. 일차적인 정서라고 함은 우선 시에 나타난 의미가 독자들의 감성 내용과 일치된다는 점을 알려주는 것입니다. '恨'이라든지 '사랑'이라든지 하는 단순한 관념이 시에 표상되므로서 문학 예술의 두 기능인 '배설'과 '정화' 또는 '교훈의 전달'이라는 목표에 부합된다는 것을 의미한다고 보여지는 것입니다.

그렇지만 위에 열거된 시들은 결코 그러한 일차적 해석에 머무르지 않고 다양한 의미의 확장을 가져올 수 있는 중층 구조를 내포하고 있음을 이해하지 않으면 안됩니다. 이 말은 발화자인 시인의 의도와 독자가 체험한 내용이 일치되거나 독자가 직접 체험하지는 않았다 하더라도 이와 유사한 추체험의 형식으로 전이되는 것 이상의 영역이 분명히 존재한다는 것입니다.

우리는 '님의 침묵'에서의 '님'이 한 개인의 사랑의 대상이면서 그 이상의 존재 의미로 확대할 수 있으며 확대된 상태에서의 시의 구조 또한 그 논리성을 유지할 수 있다는 점에 유의해야 합니다. 시는 분명히 로고스의 세계가 아닌 파토스의 세계에서 진행되므로 시인의 상상력은 비논리적인 직관에 연유함은 틀림 없습니다. 그러나 일반적인 언술과 달리 시라는 틀에 얹힌 언술은 질서정연한 상상력의 통로를 가지고 있음으로 해서 내용과 형식의 조화라는 큰 틀에 자리잡게 되는 것입니다. ' 님의 침묵'은 하나의 연시로 해석해도 무리가 없으며 불교적 세계관의 인식 배경을 놓고 읽어도 그 다양한 의미는 결코 훼손되지 않습니다.

시는 일반적인 진술과는 달리 언어에 옷을 입히는 행위입니다. 시인이 겪어낸 삶에서 우러나는 시의 향기는 어떤 경우에도 사라지지 않습니다.

'쉬운 시'는 그러므로 삶을 벼려내는 시인의 정신이 현실과 부딪치면서 일으키는 섬광과도 같은 것이며, 그렇기 때문에 한 편의 시에는 고스란히 시인이 가지고 있는 삶의 태도가 담겨져 있다는 점을 염두에 두어야 할 것입니다. 외면상으로 평이한 구조와 평범한 진술의 형식을 갖추고 있으면서 시가 함의하는 의미의 내포가 큰 시야말로 진정한 '쉬운 시'의 반열에 오른다는 것은 자명합니다.

시 한 편을 읽어보도록 합시다.

꿈꾸듯 편지를 쓴다①

이민 간 친구에게

짝사랑했던 그에게

가슴 저리도록 그리운 어머니에게②

요란한 자명종 소리에 아침은 깨고③

남편의 성으로 바뀌어버린 그녀에게

가을의 전설이 되어버린 브래드 피트에게

인명구조견이 되어서라도 찾아낼 것만 같았던 어머니에게④

세 통의 편지를

한 통만 부친 채⑤

이 시는 습작기에 있는 분의 <아침을 맞으며>라는 시입니다. 이 시는 매우 잘 짜여진 구조와 명료한 메시지가 도드라지면서 쉽게 읽혀지는 시입니다. ①과③, ②와④처럼 대구법을 사용하여 그리움의 대상을 점층적으로 묘사하면서 시간의 흐름을 암시하는 기법은 예사로워 보이지 않습니다. 숨가쁘게 돌아가는 하루 중에 밤은 안식 뿐만 아니라 꿈 꿀 수 있는 유일한 공간이며, 시간인 셈이지요, 그러나 그리움의 대상에게로 향하는 날갯짓은 인위적인 자명종 소리에 깨이는 아침과도 같이 무엇엔가 끌려가는 현대인의 고독한 심상을 잘 드러내 보이고 있다는 점입니다. ⑤에서와 같이 마음 속에 써 내려간 편지는 부치지 못하는 무위의 행위로 그쳐버리고만다는 내용을 담고 있는 것입니다.

조금 더 꼼꼼하게 살펴 보기로 합시다. ②에서의 친구, 그. 어머니는 현실적으로 나에게서 떠나버린 존재들입니다. ②는 내게 인식된 대상들의 상태를 말해주고 있는데 ④에서는 부재의 상태를 명료하게 하는 구체적인 인식을 보여주고 있습니다. 즉 '이민 간 친구'는 이민을 감으로 해서 '남편의 성으로 이름이 바뀐' 상태이며, 짝사랑의 대상인 그는 영화 '가을의 전설' 에 나오는 영화배우 브래드 피트처럼 가까이 다가설 수 없는 존재이며 '그리운 어머니'는 내가 인명구조견이 되어서라도 찾아야할 대상으로 변화된 듯이 보이는 것입니다. 그러나 이미 ②의 진술에서 ④의 내용을 함축하고 있다는 점을 유의해서 본다면 ②에서 ④로진행되는 필연적 구조가 생성되지 않는다는 점을 지적할 수 있습니다. ②와④는 'A는 B이다'로 지칭되는 은유의 형식을 취하고 있는데 그 A와 B의 의미망이 유사한 관념으로 연결되어 있지 않을 뿐만 아니라 '가을의 전설' 같은 막연한, 즉 가을이라는 심상과 전설, 이라는 심상의 결합에 있어서의 적합하지 않은 유추가 시의 멋을 증가시키는 것이 아니라 오히려 감소시키는 역할을 한다는 점이 드러난다는 것입니다.

또 하나 이 시에서 드러나는 중요한 맹점은,- 이 점은 많은 시인 지망생 여러분이 시적 진실과 사실의 관계를 혼돈하는데서 발생하는 문제인데- 시에 있어서의 순수성을 시의 내용과 사실과의 일치에서 찾는다는 점일 것입니다. 이 시의 작자는 실제로 세 통의 편지를 쓰고 그 중 한 통의 편지를 실제로 부쳤는지 모릅니다. 부쳐진 한 통의 편지는 누구에게 보낸 것일까 하고 글을 읽는 사람들로 하여금 궁금증을 갖게 하는 것도 아주 재미있는 시의 트릭이 될 수도 있겠지만, 한 통의 편지를 부쳤다는 사실로 인하여 이 시가 가지고 있는 일상의 고립감이나 허무감은 반감되어 버리고 말았다는 점입니다. 결국 한 통의편지도 부치지 못했다든가, 부치긴 했는데 그 편지들이 수신인 불명으로 되돌아 왔다든가 하는 결말을 보여주었다면 더욱 큰 감동을 전달 할 수 있었던 것은 아닌지요.

이 시는 한 편의 시가 결코 많은 내용을 담아야 한다는 집착에서 벗어나 있다는 점에서는 좋은 작품일 수 있으나 누구나 일상적으로 느끼는 것 이상의 의미를 모색 할 수 없다는 점에서 시인의 현실인식의 한계를 드러내는 작품이라고 볼 수 있는 것입니다.

창호지에 우러나는 저 복숭아 꽃빛같이

아무 생각없이

창호지에 우러나는 저 복숭아 꽃빛만 같이

사랑은 꼭 그만큼에서

그 빛깔만 같이

- 장석남의 <뻐꾸기 소리>

이 시는 아주 평이한 어휘와 단순한 어조로 아주 쉽게 읽혀질 것 같이 보이는 시이지만 이 시의 올바른 감상을 위해서는 몇 단계의 유추의 단계를 지나가야 하는 시입니다. 현대시의 조류에 있어서 시에서의 주제와 소재의 분류 같은 의도적인 시 해석의 도구를 배제하는 경향도 없는 것은 아니지만, 이 시의 이해를 돕기 위해서 주제와 소재를 찾아보기로 합시다. 이 시의 주제는? 사랑입니다. 그렇다면 소재는 무엇일까요? 복숭아꽃? 뻐꾸기 소리? 그렇습니다. 이 시의 모티브는 뻐꾸기 소리입니다. 시인은 뻐꾸기 소리를 듣습니다. 어느 산에서 우는 지 모습을 드러내지 않는 뻐꾸기 소리는 사랑의 실체이기도 하면서 사라의 메시지이기도 합니다. 뻐꾸기 소리는 어느덧 창호지에 복숭아 꽃빛으로 물듭니다. 시인은 창호지 문 안쪽에서 차단된 저 쪽 세계의 메시지를 분홍 복숭아 꽃빛으로, 그림자로 바라볼 수밖에 없습니다.

뻐꾸기 소리 - 창호지 안에서 듣는 나 - 나에게서 발화되는 뻐꾸기 소리의 관념 - 복숭아 꽃빛 - 그림자로 어리는 창호지를 바라보는 나와 같은 의식의 흐름과 공간의 이동을 보여주면서 사랑을 뻐구기 소리로 뻐구기 소리는 복숭아 꽃빛으로 변화시키는 상상의 질감을 보여주고 있습니다. 시인은 '사랑'이라는 관념을 소리로 빛깔로 치환시키면서 자신이 생각하는 사랑의 관념을 제시하고 있습니다. 일반 사람들이 생각하고 있는 상식으로부터 빗겨 서 있는 시인의 태도는 독자들에게 자신의 메시지를 강요하지 않으면서 사유의 깊이를 제공하는 것입니다.  물론 이와 같은 감상 방식은 이 시를 읽어내는 많은 통로 중에 하나에 불과할 것입니다. 만일 이 글을 읽는 여러분이 다른 방식의 시 읽기를 주장하신다면 바로 그 순간에 이 시는 좋은 시로 평가될 수 있는 덕목 하나를 갖추고 있는 셈이 될 것입니다. 茶道는 보통 사람들이 일상생활에서 즐기기에는 번거로운 절차가 필요합니다. 한 잔의 녹차를 마시는 방법 중에 하나는 인스턴트 녹차를 마시면 될 것입니다. 끓는 물에 봉지 하나만 넣으면 쉽게 우리는 차를 즐길 수 있습니다. 차를 마신다는 행위에 있어서는 다도를 배우고 절차를 따르고, 다기를 준비하는 등의 번거로움은 불필요할 것입니다. 그러나 다기를 씻고 배열하고, 물을 적당한 온도로 끓이고 우려내는 행위를 거듭하면서 마시는 차에는 형언할 수 없는 향기가 베어있게 마련입니다.

'쉬운 시' 는 눈으로 쉽게 읽히고 가슴에 금방 와 닿는 시가 아닙니다. 시의 내용이 독자에게 쉽게 동의를 구할 수 있는 것이라고 생각해서는 안됩니다. 우려낼수록 깊은 향을 풍기는 차처럼 오래 가슴에 담아두고 되뇌면서 새로운 의미를 재생산시키는 시를 많은 시인들은 쓰고 싶어합니다.

Friday ,        November , 2 , 2001 ,                        a little cold .

Alcohol had a control over my body and my mind tonight. My two co-workers wanted to have a drink with me, even if I was reluctant to do so. In a few days, I will quit this workplace because I realized that I couldn't have an affection with my present workplace any longer. They must have had something important to tell me. One of them was my high school and university senior and asked me for helping him next year. At first, I turned it down with coldness, but soon I couldn't help accepting his big favor. It was due to alcohol. Of course I must keep my words and get even with them. They will notice me make an infinite progress next year, I bet.

Saturday,      November, 3, 2001,                             a little cold.

Last night I didn't go to my home. I slept in an unfamiliar inn. It was a very shameful event to me and my family. I don't know the reason I am controlled by liquor. It is a demon. It is a satan. It is a devil. It makes me miserable sometimes. But I know I can't dispense with it. From now on I will have a control over it and my spirit. Otherwise, I won't be able to do anything and I will fail in my life no doubt. I can't let my life in such a position. Today I am a big sinner. I will lead a faithful life so that I can forgive myself.

Sunday,      November, 4, 2001,                                            fine.

I got up at 8 this morning, hurried to have breakfast with my wife and son and I thought of many things to do today - visiting my father's land, taking a bath in a spa in Ha-dong county, and driving to mt. jiri and enjoying beautiful scenery(fantastic and blazing leaves). First of all, I went to my mother's house and made them, mother and my nephew, ride in my car. It was about at 10 a.m. We started for my father's country. It was so beautiful that I could have a feeling of happiness. My father and his neighbors seemed to be very pleased with our visiting. We - my mother, my wife, my nephew, my son and I - bowed to his tomb and then gave them makgeolli and korean traditional pizza( Pa-jeon). In about 15 minutes, we said good-bye to them and went down the mountain to head for oil spring which was located in Ha-dong county. When we got there, it was at 10 to noon. For about an hour, we took a pleasant bath and left it. I drove my car to mt. jiri for about an hour. At about 3:00, we arrived at Daewon Sa(temple), entered a restaurant, had a delicious lunch, went out of it and went down toward the valley. The water was running down in harmony with red and yellow leaves of fall. It was such a fantastic scene that our minds were captivated by it. Since we wanted to remember the attractive landscape for a very long time, we took pictures among nature, such as thick reeds, innumerable red persimmons, clean and loud water and red and yellow leaves. At 4:30 p.m. we started for our city, though we didn't want to leave there. My mother had to attend her important meeting(Gae) for friendship by 6 p.m. I gave her a ride to her meeting place and went to a fruit wholesale center to but three kinds of fruit. We bought a box of persimmon, a box of korean orange and a box of apple there and returned to my house. We all had a very pleasant day. Tomorrow I will go to Cheon-jeon elementary school to see my nephew's performance. I love him and will love him forever. He is just like my lovely son. Hyeon-woo, I love you forever, remember.

Monday ,     November , 5 , 2001 ,                a little cold .

My first English mail friend, Jo Eun-jeong, sent me her kind and lovely mail.

Title: I admire you.

How have you been? I'm always sorry to you. You know why I'm sorry to you.^^ It was not until I visited the site you had said to me that I realized "I am not busy man. There are many persons who are living busily and diligently." I'm very shameful of my idle life. And I admire you for the reason you translate many Korean poems into English. I congratulate on your entry to new world ; poetry world .

And I sincerely hope you will achieve your goal.

As I told you , I moved to Seoul, near my office , two weeks ago.

The house was smaller than before. Though I threw away or gave away many things, but I had a lot of household affairs(chores). Now it seems to be cleaned a little bit. ^^ By the way , the weather got much colder. I caught a cold, now I'm suffering from it. Be careful not to.. and always keep your good health. And I hope all your students will get good marks at scholastic test.

Then,, see you next !!  .. your idle friend, Debby ..

P.S. I'll often visit the room where there are your poems. Go! Go! Go! ENARO ^^

Today I gave the last lesson to my lovely students. In 2 days they will take a test very important to them. They seemed to have such a considerable confidence that I was very happy. I really hope that all of them will get good marks in their test for university entrance and succeed in their own life. While having lunch, I told my lousy boss I would stop working in his institute. I was so pleased with it. From now on I will have free time and give a lecture to my students I want to. I am a free lancer.

Tuesday ,     November, 6, 2001,                                            cold .

Today I gave the last lesson to my two private students praying that they would have a good luck in their test. The mother of one of them, Kim Jeong-su, gave me a full salary,  ￦1,000,000, even if I gave her son a lesson only a half month. I had to return a half of my pay to her, but I didn't do so. For it was necessary to me. Somehow I may love money more than belief. It is a very sad thing. I gave in to a false challenge of my life. I was so sorry for it. I decided not to make such a mistake again. As soon as I finished giving my second private lesson, I was headed for my house. I hurried to arrive at my home, as my family including my mother waited for me. We had to go to my first brother's house as soon as possible. He invited my family and my second younger brother's family to his home. It was a kind of house warming party. All of us enjoyed several meals his family were prepared for us. When I finished the party and returned to my house, I felt so tired. A cold seemed to approach me. I fell asleep soon.

Wednesday ,       November , 7, 2001,                                    cold .

Today was the doom's day to my students. It was a little cold. They took a test from 8:40 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. and I arranged and cleaned all my house. First of all, I rearranged all my books in my study because they were messed up there. It was such tough work that it took a long time to deal with it. My study looked like a library. Since the other room and living room need to be cleaned, I began to do the work. In about one hour and a half, it was over. My house was so clean and neat. But I felt so tired that I decided to go to sleep. Though my study was so cold, I fell asleep in my comfortable study. I couldn't move to another place. When I woke up at 3:30 p.m., I seemed to have a cold and general illness. I called my wife to say that I would need to take a medicine. Though I felt so sick, I was happy because I cleaned my house very neatly. I hope my students will get a good mark and be satisfied with their test result. Thank you for the good work, my lovely students! See you later!

Thursday,        November, 8, 2001,                                a little cold .

Even today I feel cold all over my body and have a very sore throat. I think it is due to fatigue and stress accumulated over past 8 months. This morning I took a medicine my wife had bought last evening. (she is an angel.) As a result my sickness slowed down a bit.

I wanted to feel a cool fall wind, so I drove nearby mountain, Wol-a San with my mother and my son. There we enjoyed wonderful scenery. It was really beautiful. On the way home we drop by Top-mart( a kind of shopping center) to buy a jacket for my son. And in the street shoes shop I purchased three pairs of shoes, and one was mine, another my mother's climbing shoes and the third my wife's one. For their price, they had a very good quality. It was a real bargain(steal). My mother and I were so satisfied with the bargains.

Now my mother has been suffering from arthritis in her knees, but I really hope she will get better as soon as possible and climb many mountains with her family. In the evening I gave my lovely wife climbing shoe as a present, though she is 9 months pregnant. I want her to give birth to our strong baby and go up mountain with me, our two sons and mother. She may not understand my heart, but I love her so much. If only she could apprehend my true heart. At night I met my previous superior, Mr. sim, and drank a little talking about many things. Then I felt all over my body was cold and had a sore throat.

Friday,       November, 9, 2001,                              a little cold.

All night long I has a terrible pain in my throat. Fortunately my wife made a medicine effective to cure throat-pain, so after I took it, I felt relieved. But I needed to go to the hospital. At the hospital, a doctor diagnosed me and a nurse gave me a shot according to prescription. And then I went to the nearby pharmacy with the prescription and pharmacist concocted my medicine. I returned to my house with it. It was past 2:00 p.m. I had to go to change my wife's climbing shoe, because it was too tight to my wife's feet. I drove to the street shoe store, changed it and I bought another climbing shoe for my youngest brother. I felt a terrible pain all over my body again. It was necessary for me to take a long and deep rest. I hope my body can be in the right condition as soon as possible.

My English chatting and mail friend, Lee Myeong-sin, sent me her kind mail.

I wanted to meet you in the English chatting room in the morning, but you didn't drop there. So I'm so sorry about that. Sometimes I wanna talk with you, but it is too difficult to meet each other. By the way... I will go to the abroad next month. Do you remember that I 'm preparing for the emigration? Enaro! I can't help you to visit  national tombs next Monday. Because I'm busy in the afternoon. I don't have any free time. But I want to meet you before leave this country. I have a question, Enaro. Have you met someone who was your chatting friend? I'm waiting for your fast reply.

I sent her my reply mail as soon as I received her one.

I am sorry for not meeting you in an English chatting room like you.

In fact, I have suffered from general illness and a very sore throat since my students' test day. Now I feel a little sick. But don't worry about me, soon I will recover and take a trip all over the country to have a new beginning in my life. During my travel, I will visit your city, Tae-jeon, to go to You-seong county in which the second national cemetery is located. There I will meet one of my old friends who was dead during his military service. Though you can't help me visit there, I think it is my excessive desire to you. Don't forget it(my favor). But I want to meet you in your city in you don't mind. And I have an experience to meet a chatting friend before. I know this world can be ours as much as we think of this world and move forward this world. How do you feel about my way of life?

I want to get best health as soon as possible.

faithfully yours          from ENARO in the late of sickness

P.S.:My cell phone number is 016-591-3872.

If you need to ask a question, you can use this without any worry.

Saturday,      November, 10, 2001,                              fine .

As I had a very sound sleep and took medicine regularly, I felt far better than yesterday. It was a very fortunate thing, because I had a meeting to necessarily attend this evening. I was supposed to meet my students who had taken a test on the 7th of November. At 6:00 p.m. I met them at my familiar restaurant. Most of them seemed to have a hard time in their test and worry about the result of that test. We talked about many things drinking soju. They complimented me for my prediction. I was flattered, but I didn't reveal my emotion. At 9:00 they left there making a promise to meet me after they would receive their grade result sheet. Afterward, I met my previous students and communicated with each other drink soju late at night. I had a very pleasant time but I had a terrible headache. When I arrived at my house, it was 3:00 a.m. I felt so sorry to my son and my wife.

Lee Myeong-sin sent me her reply mail enclosing her cell phone number.

Title:  Dear, Enaro!

Thank you for your reply. Yes, I 'd like to meet you. I have 1 or 2 hours if I meet you. But I couldn't take a phone call to you. If you don't mind... would you like to take a phone call to me?

My phone number is 016 - 409 - 5720. Bye Enaro!     from. Jane

Sunday,      November, 11, 2001,                                     fine.

My previous student, Kim dong-uk, my mail friend, Kim Se-kyeong, sent me mail.

Title: 선생님 죄송합니다. 답장이 너무 늦었습니다. (Kim dong-uk)

건강하시죠? 컴퓨터 앞에 오랜만에 앉아봅니다. 선생님 저 이제 어떻게 하죠? 수능 점수가 너무 낮습니다. 큰일입니다. 평소 점수보다 30점 정도 떨어졌습니다. 물론 시험이 어려웠지만.. 평소 모의고사에 비해 못 나온거 같습니다. 그렇지만..ㅡ희망의 정수박이에.. 들어부어야 하겠죠.. 기분이 나쁘지만.. 아직 구술과 면접이 남아있습니다. 이번주는 신나게 놀고.. 다음주부터 구술 면접 준비에 들어갈 작정입니다. 점수는.. 선생님 다음에 말하겠습니다. 그리고 선생님이 부럽네요.. 선생님 글을 읽고 있으니까.. 전 왜 사는가 하는 의문도 드네요...... 다음주에 전용선 다니까.. 그때부터는 자주 메일할게요..

그럼.. 이만 줄이겠습니다.

Title: 날씨가 참 춥네요.. (Kim Se-kyeong)

잘 지내시죠. 바쁘다는 말 들은 거 같은데.. 추운 날씨 감기 걸리지 않도록 조심하시고 곧 태어날 2세도 감기바이러스에 노출되지 않도록 조심조심... 그럼..이만

굴뚝

윤동주님

산골짜기 오막살이 낮은 굴뚝엔

몽기 몽기 웬 연기 대낮에 솟나

감자를 굽는 게지 총각애들이

깜박깜박 검은 눈들이 모여 앉아서

입술에 꺼멓게 숯을 바르고

옛 이야기 한 커리에 감자 하나씩

산골짜기 오막살이 낮은 굴뚝엔

살랑살랑 솟아나네 감자 굽는 내

My previous co-worker invited me to her wedding ceremony this Sunday.

To : 선생님!

초대합니다.

시험이 어제 끝났으니 아직은 정신없으실 테고. 학생들 시험 결과는 잘 나왔는지 그 동안 신경 쓰시고 마음 고생 많이 하셨죠? 저 이번 주 일요일 결혼식 합니다. 혹시 시간이 되시면 오셔서 축복해 주시면 감사하겠습니다. 잘 지내시고 또 만날 날 이 있지 않겠습니까? 건강하세요.                                             From : 정은진

After all I didn't go to her wedding ceremony because she didn't inform me of her wedding ceremony place and time. It was her fault. Sooner or later I will meet her and give her my fancy present, a panel which mixed my translation poem and a nice painting.

Today I went to my father's country with my lovely nephew, Hyeon-u(9), two nieces, In-hye(8) and Yu-jin(5) and my son, Hui-seok(2) in my car. There we worshiped my father, their grandfather with all our heart. And I told him about my trip which would begin tomorrow.

I will return to my home a more mature and thoughtful man in 6 days.

Monday,        November, 12, 2001,                   blue heaven and wind .

At last my trip day came. I got up at 8:00 a.m. I intended to give my wife a ride to her workplace, but she didn't iron my trousers. It made me annoyed and so I got mad at her. After all I didn't bring her to her workplace. It was a very repentant thing. After she left for her work, I ate breakfast my mother had fixed and took all the things necessary to trip into my car. At 10:10 a.m. I said good-bye to my mother and my son and I drove to my wife's workplace. In front of her office I met her and said good-bye smiling at her. At 10:30 a.m. I started for my today's destination, Ul-jin in Kyeong-sang-buk-do(province). First I had to go to Hap-cheon in kyeong-sang-nam-do. On the way there I answered cell phone. It was from Huh Hong who worked for Hankuk Academy, my previous workplace. He told me that my students wanted to meet me and be consulted by me. But I wouldn't like to return to Jinju and what's better I thought it was unnecessary. My car was running out of gas, so I dropped by a gas station. What a coincidence! My previous student was working there. I was so glad to meet him. For about 5 minutes I talked with him. After that, I set out for my destination again. While driving, I enjoyed the beautiful scenery of fall mountains on both sides. They were just like blazing. Once in a while fallen leaves struck the windshield and passed over my car. It was like life. In a time my car was passing Hap-cheon county and was heading for Dae-gu. On the way there, I found a university named Gaya and I stopped there to brush my teeth and call my mother and my son. At 1:05 p.m., I left there and was driving at the speed of 70 km an hour. Just then a strange dome-style structure was noticed. I came to a rest and visited there. It was a small but holy museum. It was the model of Great Gaya King's tomb. There were many invaluable remains in it even though bad guys had stolen many priceless treasures from tomb. They were unforgivable human beings. I hope that they will concede their faults and return them to the original position. All of them were relics from Ji-san Dong NO. 44 old tomb. Its roof was dome style, diameter, 27m and height, 6m. I thought Kings' tombs of Great Ga-ya kingdom were different from Shilla's in the viewpoint of their position. The former was located on the top of mountains, but the latter was located on the flat ground, not mountain. And I could observe Sun-jang custom-when a king was dead, many people who had worshiped him or her were buried alive together with the king. It was another difference between Shilla Dynasty and Ga-ya Kingdom. I took a note with a great carefulness. It took about over an hour to

report them on my small notebook. If I should finish my trip, I will write about my feeling and great history and ruins of Great Ga-ya kingdom. Though I wouldn't like to leave there, I couldn't help going to my destination. At 2:30 p.m. I reached Dae-gu city. I was caught in a traffic congestion. It was a terrible situation. I couldn't even confirm any direction. It was really a nightmare. I went on driving without any thinking. Fortunately I found out the way to escape from this hellish traffic jam. It was North. I kept on driving my car toward North. Finally I could find open road to An-dong city. Not until one hour and a half could I feel freedom in my trip. At 5:20 p.m. I was passing An-dong city. For a moment I thought I would look for my sleeping place, but I missed sea. I wanted to go to east sea to ease my tomorrow's trip, so I continued to drive to Yeong-deok county. As it has already been dark, I couldn't appreciate beautiful landscape and I had to be careful of driving. In the end I arrived there at about 7:00 p.m. No sooner had I got there, I telephoned my mother in my house and my wife in her workplace. After that I was looking for a nice restaurant to have dinner. I felt so hungry because I hadn't eaten lunch. Just then my senior, Ryu Hee-seong, called me to inform me of my friend's daughter's first birthday party. I went to a restaurant named 'King's table'. I was enjoying sea-food and delicious rice when my youngest brother rang a bell to me. He seemed to be worried about my trip. I was a really happy man. After dinner I drank three bottles of beer in the pub called 'Gaek-seok'. And then I decided to make a bed in the 'Sa-ra-jang Inn'.

I took a warm shower to release fatigue and answered phone from a chief of Seoul Dae-seong Academy in Jinju. He asked me for helping him next semester. But I don't want to do so now. I called my wife and said to her, "Have a nice sleep". My son was already sleeping. I miss him. Now it is at 1:16 a.m. I want to have a nice sleep and sweet dreams. Today was a very pleasant and significant day.

(On TV, I am watching a crashed airplane in New York.)

Tuesday,        November, 13, 2001,                                  a little warm .

Today's Expression: If the shoe fits, wear it.(알아서 새겨 들으세요.)

Today was the second day of my trip. Last night was very warm. When I wake up at my room in Sa-Ra-Jang inn, it was at 7:30 a.m. I rushed out of the house because my destination I had to reach was so far from here, Young-deok county and I had many places to visit today. First of all, I started for Baek-am Hot Spring in Ul-jin at 8:30. At about 10:00 I got there. The water was so hot and clean. I took a bath in unfamiliar public bathroom. There I watched one man who had been tattooed all over his body. It was a dragon picture. He was a member of gangsters, I thought. After about an hour and 10 minutes, I went out of the bathroom and left for Seongnyugul(cave). I reached there at 11:20. Admission fee was 2,200 and parking one was 2,000 won. I entered the cave. The entrance was very low and narrow, but indoors were so large and the shapes of rocks were so mysterious that I could feel the great power of nature. It was really a fantastic experience. I thought I would bring all my family here next time. It was first named 'Taengcheongul', but since Bo-cheon Prince, a son of the 31th king, Shin-mun, in shilla Dynasty kneaded his character and trained his body in this cave, it was named 'Seong-nyu-gul' again. People in that period thought of him as a saint and people made a temple which was called 'seong-nyu-sa' by his order. Therefore, the cave had to be changed as 'seong-nyu-gul'. It meant a saint stayed there. In addition, a very famous monk, the Great monk Won-hyo, kneaded his character and studied many things about nature, human beings...etc in this sacred cave at the Jin-deok King in Shilla Dynasty. And a great many rightful soldiers and 500 civilians protested against merciless Japanese soldiers and were killed in this cave at the Japan invasion of Rim-jin year. Its total length was 470m, was composed of 5 ponds and plenty of wonderful stalactites and stalagmites, height was 1.5-40m, the deepest point of ponds was 30m and temperature was 15 degrees centigrade. Inside it, there lived about 30 sorts of animals(bat, fish, insect...). Its age was estimated about    250 million years old. It was hided under beautiful fall mountain decorated with all kinds of colors and there was a deep and blue lake in front of it. They were very attractive, but I had to leave there. At 12:20 p.m. I left there. And I arrived at downtown of Ul-jin at 1:00. I drove toward the arbor called 'Yeon-ho-jeong'. It was a small and cozy arbor. There are a large pond in front of it and the pond had innumerable lotus. And behind it I could see a great many pine trees and a small tomb. I took a walk for about 20 minutes along the pond. And afterwards I left for Sam-cheok city at 2:00. The road to it was very dangerous and rough. After about an hour, I could pass Dong-hae city and it was very clean and planned city. While I was passing two cities, I watched mountains on the both sides have no trees. I thought it was because of the serious fire of a few years ago. The scenery was so desolate and miserable. At about 4:10, I arrived at Jeong-dong-jin station which had been famous for shooting place for a popular drama titled 'an hour clock : Moraesigae'. I could see a great hour clock which was a monument symbolizing the shooting place on the square. I knew if the sand in it fell down completely to the bottom,

it meant a year flew. I asked certain man to have me taken a picture on the background of white winter east sea. And I had late lunch at a small restaurant. At 4:40, I was headed for Gang-reung city. While I was passing the city, it was getting dark and what's worse rained. The weather was so capricious. At last I reached Sok-cho at 6:20 which was my today's destination. I was supposed to meet my English mail friend there, but first I wanted to go to an internet cafe in order to send mail to my another friend, Kim Ok-sim in je-ju island.  She was to leave this country next Wednesday. It chanced that I met her in the English chatting room and had words with each other for about an hour. At 7:30 I phoned my close friend, Kim Mi-kyeong, in sok-cho and met her in front of EXPO tower at 8:20. She was a little short but pretty. What's better, she was so kind and considerate. At the first sight, I got carried away her. She showed me around her academy which was to be opened in the middle of December. After I looked around her wonderful institute, We went to a nice raw-fish restaurant in the vicinity of seashore. She treated me like her intimate friend. Afterwards we were headed for singing place(Noraebang) in Nak-san beach by taxi. Her friend called Lee Yong-seon, was waiting for us. I sang songs with them drinking alcohol, but I was so tired that I lost myself. It was a rude and miserable event. At first it was a very good day but the end was so bad. I felt sorry to her and her friend. At 4 a.m. I went to bed.

Wednesday,      November, 14, 2001,                                   fine but cold.

No sooner had I woke up in unfamiliar inn, I phoned her, Kim mi-kyeong, over and over again in order that I might apology to her, since I made a big mistake to her last night. But she didn't answer my phone. I missed her so much that I wanted to meet her before I left this city. Just then I realized my wallet had been lost. I couldn't find it at the anyplace. It was a very great trouble. But when I went out of the inn and slept in my car, my cell phone rang. A cleaner of the inn phoned me to tell me that she had found out my lost wallet in the room. I hurried to go to the inn and found it. I was relieved. It was really a fortunate thing. I drove around the city for about 2 hours to find her, but she didn't be watched by me. I couldn't help stopping finding her. In the long run I decided to go to Chun-cheon, my next destination. It was at 3:00 p.m. To reach there, I had to drive my car over very rough and dangerous Han-gae-ryeong. The road was like a long and smooth snake crawled slowly between the bushes. I was passing In-je where my first younger brother had made an strenuous and hard military service. And I went through Hong-cheon and at last I reached Chun-cheon city which was my today's destination. It was at 5:50 p.m. It has already been dark. I telephoned my first English chatting friend, Yang Mi-ok, many times but she didn't answered me. I had to leave my message but I couldn't be sure if I could meet her next day. I went around downtown for quite a long time to find out my sleeping place. Finally I was able to find several inns nearby Express Bus Terminal. Because I didn't eat any food until then, I first went into a restaurant and enjoyed my first and last meal. At 7:30, I entered an inn named 'Man-nyeon-jang'. I felt so tired that I wanted to go to sleep soon. But I couldn't fall asleep so I watched TV for about 2 hours. After that, I slept tight like a log. It was an unhappy and annoying day.

Thursday,       November, 15, 2001,                                            cold.

When I woke up at 7:20, I felt so refreshed and pleasant, because I had a sound sleep. More than anything else, I took a shower and brushed my teeth. I made up my mind to go to Hwa-cheon, where my father had made a very long military service, so that I might meet Yang Mi-ok for the last time. About 2 months ago, we parted, but I missed her and thought I would need to apologize to her for my rude behaviors and words. The road to the county was so beautiful but rough. Since it was near DMZ, I could see many military vehicles and soldiers. At 9:20 a.m. I got to Sang-seo middle school where she was an English teacher. It was very quiet. In front of it a clean stream was flowing and red and yellow mountains surrounded the school. I called her but she didn't answer it. I left message on her cell phone. Ultimately she appeared with two photos I had sent her before. She looked afraid of me. I gave her a photo she had sent me and I was given two photos. I said to her, "Good-bye and be happy." It was our last meeting. I was sad but on the other hand I was happy. I couldn't know the exact reason I was easy. I started for my next destination, Tae-jeon. First I had to come back to Chun-cheon. And then I drove to Jung-ang Expressway which was the fastest way to Tae-jeon. On the way to Tae-jeon, I passed Hong-cheon, Hoeng-seong, Won-ju, Bong-yang, Chung-ju, Eum-seong, and Cheong-ju. I arrived in Tae-jeon at 5:20 p.m. After I parked my car on the roadside, I telephoned my friends, Kim Mi-kyeong, Kim Ok-sim, and Lee Myeong-sin.

Yes! I was able to get in touch with Kim Mi-kyeong, in Sok-cho. I was so pleasant. I really want to be friends with her forever. I promised to meet Lee Myeong-sin at the 5th boulevard in Tae-pyeong-ro. We met at 6:10 on the sidewalk and went into a restaurant to have dinner. While eating it, we talked with each other and exchanged personal information. After dinner, we went to the bar to drink beer. She was a catholic, a little tall, slender, and kind. She was beautiful like my thought. We conversed about many things, such as private things and poems. At 10, we had to go out of the pub. She left for her house, and I went into nearby internet cafe. I had a chatting time with Kim Ok-sim for about 2 hours. When I watched my watch, it was over midnight. I hurried to find inn and went into it. It was a useful and pleasant day.

Friday,         November, 16, 2001,                                           fine.

Today was the last day of my trip. I got up at 8 o'clock a.m., took a shower and went out of the inn. I was supposed to meet my old friend in the national cemetery in You-seong. This was my 3th visit. It was so quiet and strict. After I parked my lovely friend, ATOZ, in the parking lot, I went to the store so as to buy a bottle of soju, side dish and flower. After that, I read the sign explaining its history. The following was a writing I read with sincerity standing in front of it.   "The Taejeon National Cemetery is a holy place where patriots rest who dedicated their lives to the protection and prosperity of their fatherland.    In 1974 the late PARK Chung Hee directed that an additional cemetery be constructed. In 1976 Taejeon was selected as the construction site. The construction work began in 1979 and was completed in 1985.    In this enormous site (794 acres) there are graveyards for patriots, citizens, soldiers, and policemen who died a meritorious death. Additionally, the Hyun-choong Gate and the Hyun -Choong Tower were constructed for ceremonial services by bereaved families and visitors, the Hyun-Choong Hall for funeral services, and the memorial Hall for the exhibition of artifacts and war trophies.     You are reminded that you should dress properly and pay homage at the Hyun-choong Tower during your visit."

I went on walking to his tomb. The street was so clean and trees turned red and yellow that I could feel stern and beautiful mood. Soon I arrived at his home. He said no words and several magpies were flying over my head. The sky was blue and mountains around graveyards seemed strong, but sad. I poured soju on my friend's tombstone and rent dried pollack and put it on the tombstone. And I lighted a cigarette, put it on altar and tried to talk with him but he didn't tell me anything. The tears in my eyes were flowing down on my cheeks and I begged him to forgive my false past and actions during my trip. In addition, I promised to live a right and faithful life from now on. After about half an hour, I left his grave. While I was walking out of graveyard, a magpie was weeping and following me. I thought my friend had become the magpie and saw me off. At about 11:10 a.m. I left the National Cemetery and started for my home. On the way to Jinju, I dropped by Mu-ju for a moment and passes Geo-chang, Ham-yang, San-cheong and returned to my home. It was at 4:10 p.m. My mother and my son were in my house. I was so glad to see them and return home with safety, though I had a few bad things. My 5-day trip was a great event to me. It was my first adventure in my life and I made it alone. I had a many useful experiences during the trip. The most important one was meeting my lovely friend in person, Kim Mi-kyeong, in Sokcho. Now I will begin a new travel. From now on I will make myself good and great man and at 40 I will be a great man who can be responsible for my life, my family, my society and my country. I will try my best to do so. To do so, I will have to read a great many books, think of many beautiful things, write good poems, study English with all my heart and body until I master it and translate great poems of this country into English ones. They will be my goals of my life and I will necessarily make them. I trust myself. And I know unless I love myself, no one will love me.

Saturday,      November, 17, 2001,               fine.                                My wife didn't go to her work today, so we were together in our house. I was so sorry to her that I took a trip alone, even if she was 9 months pregnant. We stayed at our home talking about my trip and my mistake all morning. In the afternoon her mother and brother came to take her and my son to her younger sister. Her sister gave a birth to a baby the day before yesterday. I remained at home alone.

In the evening my first younger brother called me to buy a delicious dinner for me and my mother. We enjoyed a tasteful beef and pork meat in a nice restaurant. I returned to my home at 8:10 and I kept my English diary I had delayed for 4 days, even though I completed it. My wife and my son returned home late at night.  we had a good sleep. The following was mail I sent my English mail friend a few days ago.

Title: I am so sorry.

Hi! How have you been doing these days? Have you been making beautiful reminiscences in this country? Now I am taking trip. Here is Sokcho in Kangwon Province. I dropped by this internet cafe to get in touch with you. Last night Young-deok was my sleeping place.

I was so sorry to you last Sunday because I couldn't communicate with you in the English chatting room. But I want you not to misunderstand me. I was so busy preparing for my trip, and I made my room to meet you at about 10. I saw you in the other room called "I wanna blue heaven", but i couldn't enter there, since it was full of people. What's worse, my student was there. I talked with her for a moment, and after that I sent you my message. However, you had already left the room, even though I watched your name there. I would so much love to apologize to you for my insincerity again. Would you please accept my earnest apology? If so, I want you to phone me as soon as possible. And I really hope you will prepare your long trip with great carefulness and have wonderful days in this country. It is cold here. How about there? Be careful not to catch the last cold in Korea. I don't want to give you a cold as present of my country.^^ Then, I will look forward to your reply.

See ya!   from your eternal friend, Kwicheon.  in the vicinity of DMZ

Sunday,      November, 18, 2001,                                       fine but cold.

Our family got up late this morning, even though my mother phoned me and my wife to go to Jung-ang market to buy necessary stuffs           for religious ceremony for my grandmother. I was so sorry to my mother. I was so tired that I couldn't get up when my mother called me up.  In the afternoon I went to my mother's house with my son. My sister-in-law, my second brother's wife, and my mother were preparing for many kinds of food for religious ceremony for my grandmother. I left for my father's land with my nephew and my son. They were at the rear seat and I drove my car. We bowed to my father's tomb and after a moment we went down to the mountain. At night all my family save my youngest brother held a sincere religious ceremony for her. It was over at 12:20 a.m. Monday. After that, we enjoyed food with my two aunts and a cousin sister and I returned to my home in my car. It was at 2:00. We had a sound sleep.

Monday,       November, 19, 2001,                                  cloudy.

Today's Expression: Right here is fine.(여기면 됐습니다.)

Someone sent me his poem via e-mail today. The following writing was his.

Title: 비울 수 있다면, 버릴 수 있다면 당신은 참으로 용기있는 사람입니다.

어떤 날

written by Pasya

어깨 위에 좁다란 황혼이 걸리고

바람이 흔들리는 어떤 날

사념은 가지 끝에 걸려 위태롭고

시 한 줄 내려쓰지 못한 날

가슴 아득한 곳에 별이 날고

생의 무게가 버거운 어떤 날

비우지도, 버리지도 못해 채울 수 없는

시를 떠올리기에 버거워지는 날

지나버린 시간들을 붙잡아 매어

아슴한 추억거리 더듬어 보다가

지웠던 기억 생생한데 희미한 얼룩에

시를 쓴다는 게 부끄러워 지는 날

"사랑하는 사람을 만들지 말라. 미워하는 사람도 만들지 말라.

사랑하는 사람은 못만나 괴롭고 미워하는 사람은 만날까 두렵다."

못 만나서 괴로울 정도의 사랑하는 사람도,

만날까 두려울 정도의 미워하는 사람도 없지만

사십여년을 살아오면서 참 많은 사람과 만나고 또 헤어졌습니다.

내 의지로 만난 사람도 많지만 선택할 수 없는 인연의 끈으로

만나게 해준 사람이 더 많은 것 같습니다.

내게 버거운 만남도, 지워야 할 인연의 끈이 아닌 만남도 있었지만

대부분의 만남이 날 풍요롭게 하고 살아가는 힘이 되게 했습니다.

아직 살아온 날보다 살아갈 날이 많은 우리는

앞날이 더 즐겁고 나날이 성장할 수 있도록 최선을 다 해야 합니다.

가장 가까이 늘 그 자리에 있는 사람이기 때문에 소홀해지기 보다는

그럴수록 더욱 더 서로를 존중하면서 함께 걸어가야 할 것입니다.

어차피 삶이란, 이 아득한 길에서 홀로 제 몫의 역할을 하면서

고요하게 흔들리며 걸어가는 것이 아닐까요?

I got up at 8:30 a.m., I gave my wife a ride to her workplace. She had a pain in her knee but she couldn't but go to her work. It was an unfortunate thing. After I returned to my home, I played with my son for about 2 hours because my mother went to her house to clean her house and arrange materials used to hold a religious ceremony last night. When she was at my home, I went to bed and I had a sound sleep for about 2 hours. When I woke up, it was at almost 3:00 p.m. I had a Ra-myeon and kept four-day diary in my study. It took about 2 hours and an half to finish it. From now on I will write my English diary every night. Never put it off until tomorrow what I can do today. In the evening I took a walk with my son for about 20 minutes along the riverside. He looked like a happy angel and I was his father. We felt refreshed. In a moment, my mother fixed dinner and all of us enjoyed it. Today was a happy day. From tomorrow I will advance my future.

Tuesday,         November, 20, 2001,                                      warm .

Today I sent my e-mail to my lovely student, Kim Mi-kyeong, in Sokcho.

Dear my lovely friend, Mi-kyeong!

First of all, I would so much love to appreciate you for your kindness and hospitality in your city. In addition, I want to send you my sincere apology for my wrong behavior with a sweet and pretty apple.^^ (It's so lame?) I wish I could have walked on the dawn seashore that day. It could have remained my most beautiful reminiscence in my life. Since I regretted it so much, I selected this card out of many wonderful ones. Would you please understand and feel my heart(missing)? Now I am in my small and cozy study.

Thanks to you, I could finish my 5-day trip, overcome loneliness and confirm myself. In that respect, I am so happy.

My humane, humane friend!

I was so glad to meet you in person and your warm heart still makes me in the dream land. Frankly speaking, I miss you, elegant and graceful lady.^^ May I ask you to send me your picture as soon as possible? My address is "경남 진주시 칠암동 67번지". If you send it to me, I want you to call me up. The winter is coming up to us like soundless spirit. I don't know if it will love you and me. But I am sure that if you try your best to make it your warmest season, it will be your days. It will be true of me, too. I really hope your new business will prosper without any adversity. Cheep up and have a confidence to do it, and you will succeed in it, I bet. I will send you the GOD of luck. Huuuuuuu..........

Stay in a good shape and have nice days! See you later.

cordially yours     From your true friend, Jeong Bong-hyeon, in Jinju

I went fishing to Nam-hae with my three pre-coworkers, Park Jeong-su, Sim Jeong-uk, and Lee Ban-hui. Though we caught no fish, we had a very pleasant time under the night heaven. The night sky in the sea was so beautiful due to clean and bright stars. They looked like flowers. We played pleasantly in the flower bed. And then we had a pleasant time drinking alcohol and talking about various topics in Mr. Park's house.

Wednesday,      November, 21, 2001,                                  a little warm.

Today's Expression: I can put two and two together.(전 척 보면 알 수 있습니다.)

At early dawn my pre-coworkers and I returned to Jin-ju from Nam-hae. When I was home, it was at 4:40 a.m. I woke my wife up and I had words with her for about an hour. she appeared tired and sleepy, but she tried to concentrate on my talking. She looked like an angel. I explained to her about great plans for my life. She agreed with me without any reluctance. From now on I will try my best to realize my dreams, make my family happy, decorate this society with beautiful events, and help fatherland flourish forever. It is my true purpose in my life. I am not sure if I can fulfill my ideal, but I will do my best to turn my ideal into my reality. I trust myself.

Thursday,     November, 22, 2001,                                      a little warm.

Today's Expression: I want to buy the over-the-counter medication.

(전 처방전이 필요없는 약을 사고 싶습니다.)

I ordered a special mat for treating disease advertised by TV commercial program. I thought it would help my mother get better from osteoporosis as soon as possible, because it gave so much calcium out from itself that the calcium could supplement its shortage of my mother's knee. I was so grateful to my wife.  In the afternoon I went to a public bathroom to bathe. After I spent an hour cleaning my body, I drove to my former workplace to meet my students. They were not there, so I had to leave there to meet my senior working for Han-yeo-re academy. He was giving a lecture to his students, when I reached there. I waited for him to finish teaching his students Social studies writing a poem with computer. After about half an hour, I met him and talked with him about daily events. After that I returned to my home. It was at 6:20 p.m. My mother and son were watching TV. Hardly had my son seen me, when he ran toward me with a wide smile in his face. He looked so happy to see me. I kissed him on the cheeks. My mother laughed loudly while she looked at the scene. At 7:30 my wife was home after she finished her work. She seemed tired but she was smiling at us. I was so satisfactory at her broad heart. We must be a happy family. At night I went to meet a principal of Seoul academy. I want to work with her in her institute. We communicated about the matter for about an hour. Mr. Sim introduced me to her. Someday I will help him to make money and we will good coworkers, I believe.

Friday,       November, 23, 2001,                                           warm.

Today's Expression: He goofed off all the time and never did his works.(그는 자기 일도 안 하고 늘 빈둥거립니다.)

Last night alcohol controlled me, so I couldn't get up early this morning. It was a shameful thing. All day long I tried to recover my right condition. Not until at 4:00 p.m. could I be in the right spirit. At 7:00 I was supposed to meet my previous student, Ko Sang-hyeok, who attended Jo-seon university and majored in pharmacy.

We met at a familiar restaurant which my another former student, Yun Jae-hong, ran. We talked about several topics having dinner for about an hour and after that we went to a tea house which specialized in various korean traditional teas. The atmosphere was so good that we could enjoy Omija tea conversing with each other. At about 10:00 we went out of the tea house and we were headed for our own house. When I returned to my house, my lovely wife and my son were waiting for me watching TV. It was a uneasy day, but in the end I could feel pleasure in my cozy house. Be it ever so humble, there is no place like home. It must be true. Now I think of my future way.

Saturday,     November, 24, 2001,                               a little cold.         Today's Expression: He told me to come off it. (그는 나에게 허튼 짓 그만하라고 했습니다.)  In the evening my family had to attend the first birthday feast for my friend's daughter. It was held at the Je-il buffet restaurant. It was a nice party place, but I felt confused because many events were held at the same time at the same place. We hurried to have food and go out of it. I couldn't say proper good-bye. Anyway my family returned to my house at about 8:00 p.m. After I was home, I watched TV for about 2 hours. One was about On-dal general in Ko-ku-ryeo Kingdom and the other was about a series of soap opera. I enjoyed them even though I tired and sleepy. At 10:00, I went out of my house to attend the meeting for evaluating literature works run by the members of Jin-ju youth literature club. Frankly speaking I was so shameful at their serious passion for literature. After that, we went to the bar to drink alcohol. At about 2:00a.m. the meeting was over. I decided to try to study literature with all my heart.

Sunday,      November, 25, 2001,                             a little cold .           Today's Expression: Selling is my baby.(파는 것은 저의 일입니다.)

My invaluable time is passing me without leaving me any meaningful trace. I am only watching it escaping from my heart into insignificant nothing. Negligence is controlling my mind and body, but I don't get over myself. I am dying slowly.  This afternoon I went to my father's country with my family, my mother, my wife, my two nieces, and my son. When we arrived there, it was growing darker and darker. We hurried to give our honor to my father and went down to the mountain. I couldn't know the reason I had to visit him. It was only a formal and worthless ceremony. It was a kind of sin to me, because I knew that I shouldn't treat my father like that. Tomorrow another week will begin. I will have to make myself a new man.

Monday,     November, 26, 2001,                                       a little cold .

I had a very meaningless morning. First of all I got up late this morning, and didn't wash my face. What's worse I didn't even brush my teeth. My mother fixed a brunch with a great carefulness, and I enjoyed it without any gratitude. Such things were continued up to afternoon. I was a terribly bad son to her. and I was a terrible bad father my son. I was a terrible bad husband to my wife. At night I went to meet my previous students. I met them at my familiar restaurant and talked about last test they had taken on the 7th of November. We drank very much, but we didn't go to our own house. We had the second round at the bar near my house. After about 2 hours, I saw them off and went to another bar with the owner of the bar. We drank alcohol until next dawn. When I returned to my home, it was at 6:00 a.m. I was unforgivable sin to my family. I wanted to kill myself. Unless I correct my bad habits, I will die.

Tuesday,       November, 27, 2001,                                      a little cold.

Since I became a heavy drinker last night, I had to sleep all day long. When I woke up, it was at 4:00 p.m. Yesterday was a very regretful night, it was too late. I swore in front of my son that I wouldn't make such a bad behavior again. Unless I remove my bad habit, I will be eliminated from this world. And I know all my family won't forgive me again. Now I will be a new guy and do my work.

Wednesday,       November, 28, 2001,                                   a little cold.

Today I was supposed to be taken a physical check-up at the Ko-reo Hospital. I had to go there by 8:40 a.m., but I woke up at 8:30. I thought I couldn't go there by the time. In fact, I didn't want to get up due to my infinite laziness. I was an unforgivable guy. After all, I got up at approximately 2:00 p.m. I was so shameful to my mother and my son. I can't understand myself these days. I feel I live an meaningless life. sometimes I want to disappear from this world. But I know it is the worst thing and I mustn't do such a bad thing. Now I will go forward without stopping. I trust myself.  In the afternoon I drove to Ja-yu market in Do-dong district with my mother and my son in my car. I bought my son a pair of shoe and a pair of mitten. He was so pleased with them that we, my mother and I, were very happy. He gave us a loud laughter with his mouth open and made us happy. After that, we went to the countryside in my car, went around the beautiful lake called Keum-san pond and were headed for Cheong-kok Sa(temple). Because it was too late, we didn't went into it, but we could smell the fresh fall trees. At about 6:00, we returned to my house and had a delicious rice with a beef soup my mother boiled for me. From tomorrow I will be a new guy and perform my duties with faithfulness. I trust myself and love my family. ENARO! Way to go!

I will get up early in the morning, make a regular exercise, especially jogging, read many books, study English very hard, translate many famous Korean poems into English ones, and write many good poems. I am sure I will be able to carry out them without fail.

Thursday,       November, 29, 2001,                                  rainy.           I received two lovely e-mails since a long time. One was from my previous student, Kim Dong-uk who had taken the exam for university entrance a few weeks ago, and the other was from my first English e-mail friend, Jo Eun-jeong, in Seoul.

Title: 선생님.. 죄송합니다.

선생님. 메일 자주 보내 드리지 못해 죄송합니다. 수능 치면 꼭 선생님 찾아 뵙고 싶었지만. 그것도 잘 친 상황이야 그렇게 되죠. 생각만큼 못 나오니까. 도저히 선생님 뵐 낯이 없네요. 잘 지내시지요? 전 요즘 구술에 모든 희망을 걸고 있습니다. 그렇다고 하루 종일 구술에 매달려 있는 건 아니지만. 친한 애들이랑 팀을 조직해서 같이 도와가면서 공부하고 있습니다. 다른 사람들은 다 잘 쳤는지 모르겠네요. 윤근이는 잘 쳤습니다. 서울에 가서 공부한 보람이 있을 거 같네요. 잘 쳤으면 당당히 선생님께 점수 말해 드릴텐데 못나오니까. 도저히 못 하겠네요. 좀 있으면 점수 발표날이네요. 그때가 되면.확실히 정해지겠죠. 이제 메일 자주 쓸게요. 그럼. 추운데 감기 조심하시고 안녕히 계십시오

Title: Do you what?

How are you? It is getting cold. Do you feel well? Here, in Seoul, we already had the first snow of this year. Than this, more important news is that It has already past one year since you sent me the first english mail. By accident, while I arranged my mails I got to know the date, November 26 of last year. I can't thank you enough. And I'm very ashamed of my idleness. You helped me with my english very much. I've learned a lot from not only your mails but also your poems. And even from your diligent life style.. All that I want to say is only "thank you. thank you. " I am sure you will be a great teacher and poet. And I hope you will succeed in your field. That's about it for today. Please Keep your good health !! I'll write soon again. Then, Bye-bye !!     .. 감사하나 너무나도 죄송스러운 Debby 올림 ..

Title: My reply e-mail

To. Debby, Jo Eun-jeong

Today I received a lovely letter. After I read your news, I thought of my passing year and my yearly friendship with you watching faint skies. Then it was raining all over this small town. It was carrying your smile from distant place to my heart. I smiled back. It was my faithful reply to you. As I told you before, you have given a special meaning to me. I don't want to explain to you about it in detail, for you are already my cordial friend. Thanks to you, my year was so happy that I could have hope and pleasure in my daily lives. Thanks to you, I could feel my life was so beautiful and significant. I only hope you have had the same feeling from me and it will last up to the following year and forever, if possible. We are already at the foot of winter. Soon it may make everything valuable in this world freeze, but  I know a few things it is afraid of and escapes from. One of them is firm and unchangeable friendship. These days I have been in deep agony and have a tough time in getting over it. Though I believe it can't defeat my life and my future, I have been suffering from it. I have no confidence to do anything. My sun rises and sets every day, but I can't stare at it. Would you please direct me the way to my sun?^^ I hope my asking don't make you feel burdensome. I will move forward my bright world, trim this year with great satisfaction and have good plans towards next year. I only want to be your sincere and eternal friend. During the rest of this year, your days will be full of good fortune alone and your next year will be your, I pray. Don't forget your good(?) friend is beside you anytime and anywhere.^^

faithfully yours         from Mr. ENARO at the top of this year

P.S.:What are friends for?

Don't let us say the words,"I'm sorry." any more, shall we?

Friday,       November, 30, 2001,                                     a little warm.

Negligence has gnawed me slowly and slowly, so now I have trouble overcoming it. This was not life I had wanted. Idleness is my worst enemy, I know. If this is going on, I can't do anything. I will have no confidence in everything. I want to live a happy life, and perform my missions, my goals. Tomorrow I will meet my previous companion, Kang Seong-min, who is a math teacher in Dae-a High school. I will ask him for helping me until I am 40. From 41, I will help him with his work. First he will scratch my back and I will scratch his. I trust him and I am sure that he will count on me.

Saturday,     December, 1, 2001,                                              warm.

About at midnight, I went to wholesale fruit center to buy a few kinds of fruits with my mother and my son in my car and after I bought a box of orange, apple, and persimmon each there, I drove to my aunt's house, my father's younger sister's. We had lunch there and met my second younger brother's family and went to a nice restaurant in Sin-an Dong, because my brother told us that he would buy dinner for us. I stayed there until 6:45, and I had to leave for Galaxy Raw-fish restaurant, since I was supposed to meet my former co-worker, Mr. Kang, exactly at seven. I arrived there at 7 o'clock, but I had to wait for him. Almost 20 minutes have passed. At last he came. We had many words with each other enjoying delicious raw-fish.

He promised to help me out. We promised to be good friends to each other. But I drank a lot and spent a lot of money. From now on I won't do such a thing again. I was so sorry to all my family members.

Sunday,      December, 2, 2001,                                         a little cold.

Today's Composition:어떤 한 가지 음식도 신체에 필요한 모든 영양소들을 공급할 수는 없다.

No one food can supply(provide) the body with all the                            nutrients required for (good) health.

I had to stay at home all day long, because I drank a lot of alcohol last night. This dawn I returned to my house. It was an unforgivable event. I felt so miserable and sorry to my family, especially to my mother, my wife, Hui-seok, and my another son. In fact I haven't performed my work for about a month. If this thing goes on, I would rather die. Now I will go through my way. My mother and my wife was so angry with me that my pregnant wife went out with my son, Hui-seok and they didn't return to my house until at 9:30 p.m. What's worse, she had a terribly serious stomachache. I took care of her with all my heart. I felt so sorry to her. She was an angel and I was a devil. From now on I will be a different guy, a good husband and father. I will be a faithful breadwinner. I will make a fortune, buy a good and large house, do my own institute and do my favorite work.

Monday,     December, 3, 2001,                                                rainy.

Today's Expression: Just listening to her silly chatter really wears me out.

(그녀의 쓸데없는 수다를 듣다 보면 기운이 다 빠집니다.)

Another week began. My students got a grade sheet today, but I didn't go to my former workplace, Han-kuk institute, because I didn't have necessity to go there. In addition, my students didn't telephone me. From tomorrow I will go there, meet and consult my students, not that I liked the academy, but that I loved my students and that was responsible for them to the death. First of all, I will get up early, take exercise, take a bath and do my work with a great sincerity. Now I have no time to rest. I have a lot of work to do. To do so, I will try my best. It has been raining all day long. I am sending all my negligence and bad habits away in it now. Tonight I will see white snow. While I am watching the beautiful scenery, I will promise with myself that I will be the best man. Otherwise, I will choose suicide.

Tuesday,     December, 4, 2001,            warm.                                    Today's Expression: I've been through a time.(그 동안 너무 힘든 시간을 겪었습니다.)

This morning I had to meet my previous students who had taken a test for university entrance and got their respective grade sheet yesterday and consult them about their proper university. I met four students and didn't decide their appropriate university, because they had enough time to think carefully. After I saw them off in my former office, I got my last salary in my previous workplace. I was supposed to get the pay a few days ago, but the director of my former academy had no mind to pay us, my coworkers and me. He was a terribly lousy and pretty narrow-minded guy. I will get even with him someday. In the evening, all my family members except for my youngest brother ate out at the nice restaurant. We all enjoyed delicious pork meat. It was a very pleasant time. About at 9:00 p.m. I returned to my home, fell asleep and woke up after about 30 minutes. I watched the program which dealt with a story of successful man on Arirang TV. It was about a elegant and competent woman who was a headhunter. I was so moved by the story that I decided to be such a man. "Success waits for no man. It is an obvious share of man who help themselves." Tomorrow morning I will get up early and jog.

Wednesday,         December, 5, 2001,                                          cold.

Today's Expression: There's been some monkey business going on here.

(이 곳에서 계속 무언가 협잡이 있어 왔습니다.)

*monkey business:협잡, 속임수, 불성실한 행위, 등

*make a monkey of = make a fool of

I stayed up late last night. As usual I was sitting in front of computer until 5 a.m., Wednesday, but I had to get up at 8:30 a.m. to give my wife a ride to her workplace. After I returned to my home, I had breakfast my mother fixed, watched TV for about 2 hours and I went to bed again to complement the lack of sleep. When I got up again, it was at 1:30 p.m. I felt so sorry for my mother. Soon I ate lunch with my mother and talked with her watching TV. It was a very pleasant thing that I communicated with my mother. However, my mother must worry about my negligence and unfaithfulness. I would so much love to please her from tomorrow on and be her good son. In the evening, I went to a restaurant in Ham-yang with my mother, all my second younger brother's family, and my son and enjoyed a delicious dinner. Next morning I will necessarily get up early and exercise.

Thursday,       December, 6, 2001,                      a little cold.                 Today's Expression: Don't try to gloss over your own faults.(당신의 잘못을 은근 슬쩍 넘기려고 하지 마십시요.)

I went to bed late last night, but I had to get up early. My wife suffered from terrible stomachache at about 6:00 a.m. However, she intended to go to her workplace. I was on the point of giving her a ride to her workplace in my car, when she told me that she would like to go to hospital as soon as possible. I took her to Kaya Mother Hospital where my first son had been born. Though I was so tired and sleepy, I couldn't reveal it. As soon as she was diagnosed by a doctor, she had to go to a room where new babies was born. I telephoned my mother and I drove to my house to wash my face, brush my teeth and take a shower. I was to prepare for meeting my second son for the first time. After I finished preparing the significant meeting, I brought my first son to the hospital form my second younger brother's house. My son looked happy. In the hospital, I entered a room my wife was suffering for giving birth to a baby. She was a great mother. She was enduring the enormous pain. I grasped her white hand with my black hand. At 11:21 a.m. my second son went out from his dark world into bright one to enjoy a picnic in this world. My wife was great. She and I were so happy. In a moment her mother was in hospital. My mother and I went to a naming place to give my new son important name. At lunch time and dinner time, I watched my new son. He looked a little unsecure, but I decided to raise him with all my heart. Today was my second son's picnic day.

Friday,       December, 7, 2001,

Today's Expression: My head swam at the complexity of the work.

(일이 하도 복잡해서 정신이 하나도 없었습니다.)

Today's Composition: 미국의 대학들은 수능점수(한국의 SAT)를 보기를 원한다.

The U.S. colleges or universities want to see KSAT(a Korean version sat) scores.

I had a few things to do today. First of all, I had to go to hospital my wife was in. My wife slept with her mother in the hospital. They looked tired. I was sorry for them. At lunch time, we went down to the second floor to see my new baby. He was sleeping peacefully. He looked like his mother. In the afternoon I met my previous co-worker, Jeong Eun-jin, who got married a few weeks ago and gave her my present. In the afternoon my son had his name an amateur philosopher created. His name was "Jeong Ji-hun". The meaning was "to develop wisdom like a flaming fire". I want him to be HEALTHY AND WISE forever. And I will be a good father to him. I slept in the hospital with Ji-hun's mother, my everlasting sweetheart, my wife, because I had to take care of her. She looked like an angel.

Saturday,        December, 8, 2001,                                             fine.

I didn't have a sound sleep last night and neither did my wife.  She ate breakfast made in the hospital and I went to my house where my mother and my son were waiting for me to come early. We had a delicious breakfast and came to the hospital. Today my wife was supposed to go out of hospital and go to her father's house in Ban-seong. My sons and my mother went there in my first brother's car and my wife and I went there in my car. Since we had a few stuffs to buy, we arrived there a little late. As soon as we reached there, my mother and my brother left for Jinju. I stayed there for about 3 hours with my two sons and my wife. At 4:30 p.m. I started for Jinju with my first son because I was home before it was dark. I was unhappy because I left my wife and my second son there. However, I couldn't help it. About a month, she and my new baby need to be taken good care of by my mother-in-law. Sometimes I will visit there with my first son to see my wife and my second son and appreciate my mother-in-law. In the evening I ate dinner with my mother and my son in my home. It was a somewhat dreary night. My mother looked lonely too. I pray that all my family members will be healthy and happy.

Sunday,       December, 9, 2001,                                a little cold.         I got up very late this morning. Fatigue controlled my mind and body. Negligence and ennui were in my life. I can't defeat them. These days whenever I watch my face in the mirror, I feel so miserable. It is a very ugly face. It is not what I was. I want to kill him and erase it from the mirror. Today was Sunday but I didn't spend a significant day. I want to escape from this dull and meaningless days as soon as possible. It is my work, I know.

Monday,       December, 10, 2001,                                      a little cold.

Yesterday my wife phoned me to bring a humidifier and said that she and my second son had a terribly painful night. The bad news made me sad. Nevertheless I got up late this morning and left my home to take a bath in a small spa. When I finished bathing, it was at 2:30 p.m. I reached my father-in-law's house at about 3:00. There were my father-in-law and mother-in-law there, I could see only two persons, my sweet wife and my lovely second son, Ji-hun. I had words with my wife for about 30 minutes while my son was sleeping. Just then he woke up so I carried him in my arms and gave him a milk. Probably my wife is not liable to breast-feed my second baby this time like my first son. It is a bad case but she has no choice but to do it. I think she is a poor person and I understand her. Though Ji-hun can't be breast-fed, I believe that he will feel the heart of his mother.

I hope that she and Ji-hun will stay in a good shape with a great  sincerity. When I returned to Jinju, my first son and my mother were in my home. They appeared lonely and sad, but I had to go out of my home to meet and talk with my former private student. I consulted him and gave him  a piece of advice. I saw him off to his home at 8:30 p.m., parked my car near my house and went to meet my childhood friend by cab. At 9:10 we met on the street and entered his familiar bar. We talked with each other over beer until 1:20 a.m. Because it was so late that we parted. He was a very good friend, I thought.

Tuesday,       December, 11, 2001,                                   a little warm.

Today's Expression: We'll walk down the aisle together.(우린 결혼식을 올릴 예정입니다.)

Today's Composition: 나는 의료 보험을 사용할 기회가 없었습니다.

(I haven't had the occasion to use my medical insurance.)

Last weekend I didn't go to my father's country, so I decided to visit his land today. Happily my second younger brother came to my home and agreed to go with me even though he was so tired , because he worked in her firm last night. My mother prepared an apple and a few parsimmons for my father and my son, hui-seok, appeared so pleased, because he liked to go out. We got there at 1:10 p.m. and bowed my father's tomb. Even my first son bowed. He was very cute. I told him that I had become a father of two sons. He looked happy. He was smiling at me in my heart. I promised that I would bring him up to be a good person. I came down to the mountain and took my brother to the place his bicycle was. He went to his house to have a sweet sleep like a log and I drove to town office to report my son's birth  there and I went to a post office to send my present to my internet friend, Kim Mi-kyeong, in Sok-cho. I paid 6,000 won for a package cost. And I had a very pleasant thing today. She telephoned me. It was a very unusual thing to me, because she didn't like to call persons up. I was so happy. I want to be a good friend with her for long. In the evening my first younger brother invited us to his house. His family treated us with a delicious raw-fish. All of us had a very pleasant time. I love all my family members with all my heart.

Wednesday,         December, 12, 2001,                        winter rain.           Today's Expression: Shall we go out for a stroll together?(산책하러 갈까요?)

It was cloudy in the morning and it rained in the afternoon. Winter rain has been falling down all over this country like cold tears. Probably it will change into white snow sooner or later. When I get up tomorrow morning and look out the window, I want this dirty world to be covered with pure winter snow. I would so much love to see the beautiful scenery. I stayed in my house with my mother and my son all day long. I answered a few phones and called a few times. At night the director of Dae-seong academy phoned me and asked me for lectures, and I told him that I would think of that carefully and call him up tomorrow evening. There was nothing special today. I felt so sorry for my mother. From tomorrow I will treat her very well and take a good care of her. Mother! Please trust me.

Thursday,       December, 13, 2001,                      terribly windy and so cold.

Today's Expression: A cup of coffee really does perk up my brain.

(한 잔의 커피는 정말로 나의 두뇌에 생기를 줍니다.)

Since last Sunday, I have had a tough inflammation in my mouth. What's worse, I have such a sore throat that I can't swallow even saliva. I know that the pain gets worse and worse owing to smoking, but I can't quit it. It is due to lacking in willpower. Unless I get rid of my bad habit, that is, smoking, I won't perform my work properly and in the long run fail in my life. I don't really want such a miserable thing to happen. Therefore, I will stop smoking as soon as possible, regularly do exercise and go forward through a rough adversity. In the evening I went to the place named "Seoul Dae-seong Academy to meet and talk with the director of the institute about lecture schedule. He gave me two textbooks with which I would have to teach. I will have to give lectures to my new students as of 24th of December who have studied to be a public servant. Because I had never taught such students, I became concerned. I thought for a while if I would be able to do it. No pains no gains. Nothing venture, nothing gains. I decided to take an adventure and to have a new experience. It is high time that I tried new challenge, I thought. After I went out of my future work, I dropped by my former co-worker's store, stationery, in front of Cheon-jeon primary school and conversed with him(Lee Gye-chul) for about 20 minutes. He looked well and his wife had a kindness to treat me. After that, I drove to Su-jae Institute to meet my intimate senior, Sim Jeong-uk, and as I drank a cup of green tea, I communicated with him and promised to meet him again tomorrow evening to drink an alcohol. When I reached home and opened the door, my cute and smart son called me "Papa" loudly and ran toward me. I cuddled him tightly in my chest. My mother laughed with happiness and my son and I laughed loudly. All of us were so happy. At 9:45 p.m. I met my friend in the Daum chatting room who lived in Sok-cho. She looked pleased that she was given my present I had sent the day before yesterday. I will take a medical check-up tomorrow, so I will go to sleep hoping my health condition will be good.

Friday,       December, 14, 2001,                                     very cloudy.

Today's Expression: Don't play dumb. You know.(모른 체하지 마세요. 다 아시면서)

Today's Composition:영적 위안을 추구하는 것이 종교 음악의 핵심적 내용이다.

( The search for spiritual consolation is what gospel music is all about. )

I couldn't sleep tight like a log last night because of many worries. I remember going to dreamland only after 4:30 a.m. this dawn. What's worse, I was not able to sleep until late this morning since I had to go to hospital so that I might take a medical check-up. On account of it I have not eaten anything since 9 o'clock last night. I felt so hungry and sleepy, but I couldn't help it. When I arrived at the Korea Hospital in my car, it was 8:55 a.m. It took about one hour and 40 minutes for me to take a medical check-up. When I had my stomach examined by a machine, I had a terrible pain in it. After the test, I returned to my home, drinking a glass of milk and eating cooked rice carefully. It was necessary to take a nap. I entered my room and fell asleep. It was 3:20 p.m., as I woke up. I went out of my room into the living room. My son was sleeping in my room and my mother was watching TV lying on the mattress. In the evening I went out to meet my former co-worker, Mr. Sim and talk with him over a drink. Not until late this night did I return to my home.

Saturday,        December, 15, 2001,                               cold.             Today's Expression:I'm available whenever you need me.(당신이 필요로 할 때는 언제든지 시간을 낼 수 있습니다.)

I returned to my home at 6:10 this dawn. I met my high school friend as well as my previous co-worker and talked a lot with him, but I didn't drink a lot. My mother and my son were sleeping in my room. I lay beside my mother and told her like a child. She smiled at me and said to me, "Hurry up to sleep." I went to my bed and fell asleep. When I woke up and smell the coffee, it was 2:00 p.m. My mother fixed brunch for me and I enjoyed it. In the afternoon I was supposed to go to my father-in-law's house with my first son because my wife and my second son were staying there. My wife's parents had to leave for Pusan to attend an important religious ceremony, so I needed to care for my wife and my sons instead of them. As I reached there, parents-in-law had already left their house. There were only two persons, my wife and my second son, Ji-hun. He was sleeping and she welcomed me with a great smile. I was so happy to meet them. My first son, hui-seok, appeared so pleased at seeing her mom. We all had a very pleasant time. I really love all my family forever.

Sunday,       December, 16, 2001,                                 windy and cold.

Today's Expression: You should not confuse a reality with an ideal.(현실과 이상을 혼동해서는 안되요.)

My wife didn't have a sound sleep because of her two infants, but I slept like a log until 10:30 a.m. I should have looked after my babies in the place of her. She must have been tired, because she didn't recover from the terrible pang of giving birth to a baby. However, she smiled at me. She was an angel of a woman and I was a bad husband. I was so sorry to her. She set the table for her family with a smiling face. All of us had late breakfast deliciously. At about 1:30 p.m. her parents and brother arrived and were pleased with seeing my son and me. At lunch time, my mother-in-law boiled ramyeon and I ate it pleasantly. It was time I left there. My first son was sleeping. Helplessly I had to return to my mother's home alone. I felt a little solitary when I was driving to Jinju without my son.

At night I telephoned my childhood friend, Jo Jae-keum, met him and drink a lot. As I was having beer with him, I wanted to see my brothers and I called them up. They came to the bar we were drinking and I was so happy. On the way to home after drinking beer and talking with Mr. Jo, I dropped by my second brother's house to see my lovely nephew sleeping with several snacks and cookies he liked. As I expected, he was sleeping in his parents' room like an angel. I touched his cheeks and kissed him on the lips. I love him forever.

Monday, December,17,2001,   windy and cold.                                         Today was my late father's birthday. I got up late this morning in my mother's house. She fixed breakfast so I enjoyed it with her even though I had a terribly sore throat. At about 10 a.m. my first younger brother came to my mother's house as he had promised to buy his mother a nice jacket. They went out together and in about 1 hour returned. My mother looked very happy with a new clothes. It was a very wonderful one. I liked it. She looked like a excited girl.         I was so pleased that she was happy. I thanked my brother for it. He was a very good brother, I thought. At 3 p.m. I told my mother to go to father's grave. We were ready to go there at 4. Just then my lovely nephew came so we left for father's country together. It was growing darker and darker. When we got to my father's land, it was 4:40. No one could be seen by us. While I was bowing to my lovely father with Hyeon-u, I felt so sorry for him. However, I determined not to be sorry in front of him again. I will try my best for my family and my life. On the way to my mother's home from my father's land, I took my good nephew, Hyeon-u, to his home. I kissed him on the lips. I will take a good care of him forever like his father. After I came to my mother's house with mother, we ate dinner and enjoyed early sleep. I woke up at 8:30 and came to my house. Tomorrow morning I am to go to sulfur spa in Ha-dong county to take a bath with my mother and will go to my father-in-law's house to bring my wife and my two sons to the hospital. Anyway today was a significant day to my family, it was my father's birthday. Father! I love you forever.

Tuesday,        December, 18, 2001,                                 windy and cold.

Today's Expression: It looks like you're shaky now.(당신은 지금 안정이 안 되는 것처럼 보입니다.)

Today I went to my father-in-law's house and brought my wife and my two sons to my mother's house. At first I thought I would give my wife and my second son to her father's house again after treatment in the hospital was over. But I didn't want to send them there. In fact I wanted to sleep with them in my mother's house. All night long she didn't have a sound sleep because of our lovely sons even though she didn't recover from a pang of delivery(childbirth) yet. However, she looked happy, my mother and I were so pleased with her beautiful heart and motherhood. It was a lovely night. And this night I would so much love to be a man like this.

좋 은 사 람

그리우면 그립다고 말할 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

불가능 속에서도 한줄기 빛을 보기 위해 애쓰는 사람이 좋고

다른 사람을 위해 호탕하게 웃길 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

세련된 옷차림이 아니더라도 편안함을 줄 수 있는 사람이 좋고

자기 부모 형제를 끔찍이 사랑할 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

자기 일에 만족을 가질 수 있는 사람이 좋고

바쁜 가운데서도 여유를 누릴 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

어떠한 형편에서든지 자기 자신을 지킬 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

노래를 썩 잘하지 못해도 부를 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

음식을 먹음직스럽게 잘 먹는 사람이 좋고

철 따라 자연을 벗삼아 여행할 줄을 아는 사람이 좋고

손수 커피 한 잔을 탈 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

하루 일을 시작하기 앞서 기도할 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

하루 일을 마치고 뒤돌아 볼 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

다른 사람의 자존심을 지켜줄 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

때에 맞는 적절한 말 한마디로 마음을 녹일 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

외모보다는 마음을 읽을 줄 아는 눈을 가진 사람이 좋고

적극적인 삶을 살아갈 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

친구의 잘못을 충고할 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

자신의 잘못을 시인할 줄 아는 넓은 마음을 가진 사람이 좋고

용서를 구하고 용서할 줄 아는 넓은 마음을 가진 사람이 좋고

새벽공기를 좋아해 일찍 눈을 뜨는 사람이 좋고

남을 칭찬하는데 인색하지 않은 사람이 좋고

항상 겸손하여 인사성이 바른 사람이 좋고

덥다고 춥다고 솔직하게 말할 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

자기 자신에게 자신감을 가질 줄 아는 사람이 좋고

어떠한 형편에든지 자족하는 마음을 가진 사람이 좋다

Wednesday,      December, 19, 2001,                  so cold.                     Today's Expression: Seoul is a mirror of Tokyo.( 서울은 동경의 복사판이다.)

*복사판:  a copy를 쓰면 완전히 콩글리쉬, a mirror를 쓴다.

*a cosmopolitan city: 국제 도시

*a densely populated city:인구 과밀 도시

I went around the downtown here and there with my wife and my first son in my car. She must have been so tired, but she made believe not to be tired. She must be an angel. My wife is so beautiful that I am so happy. From now on I would so much love to be her sweet shadow.

* 카드메일 사이트 모음

1. 레떼컴 http://www.lettee.com/

2. 레떼 - 크리스마스 카드 http://www.lettee.com/ 문학의즐거움 시카드

3. 붐보카드 http://www.boombo.com/

4. 시네마카드 http://www.cinemacard.co.kr/

5. 씨즈 http://www.ciz.co.kr/

6. 카드코리아 http://www.cardkorea.com/ecard/cardsend/

7. Send2U http://www.send2u.net/

8. Card2Card - 크리스마스 카드

9. http://www.card2card.com/spe/main17.html

10. Card２Card http://www.card2card.com/

11. Dear You http://www.dearyou.com/

12. 바른손카드 http://www.barunson.com/

13. 그리팅스 http://www.greetings.co.kr/

14. 오투박스 http://www.o2box.com/main.htm

15. 유포스트 http://www.yupost.com/

16. 카드카페 http://cardcafe.at21.com/

Thursday,       December, 20, 2001,                                        a little warm.

Today's Expression: I'll keep my fingers crossed that you don't.

(전 당신이 그렇게 되지 않기를 바랄께요.)

Today's Composition: 물가가 2%올라 4%가 되었다. (Prices:Inflation rose by 2% to 4%.)

Konglish Clinic: 난 극장에서 팦콘을 즐겨 먹어요. (I like to eat popcorn in a theater,)

*popped corn(튀긴 옥수수)의 줄임말인 popcorn은 복수형으로 쓰이지 않으며 수량을    나타내고자 할 때는 a box of popcorn을 쓴다. (참고) a cake of soap, a piece of bacon

This world is a inhumane place, I realize once again. Now I must wake up and stand on my feet. At present my belly was swollen like a balloon and my spirit was so weak like a dead octopus. All of a sudden the thought struck me that I should run and run forward without stopping. From now on I will go through all the hardships ,learn from them, succeed in my life and do my favorite work. Now I need to believe myself. I need to give myself audacity(intrepidity). I am never weak. I can do everything. It depends on myself. I don't fall down in front of enemy at all. My biggest foe is myself. I will come over my negligence, get rid of my bad habit, be a man to be responsible for my life and my family and in the end help this society, this country and this world to flourish with beauty.

Today was my 3rd wedding anniversary but I didn't go to my father-in-law's house where my wife had stayed to be nursed by her mother. I feel so sorry for her. I only hope she will understand me. I love her with all my heart. I will be a good breadwinner, husband and father, let alone be a good son to my mother. I am beautiful.^^

My youngest brother came to his hometown to take a rest and meet his good family members this evening. Though he was my younger brother, he was so good. He will work for LGCI as of 2nd of Jan. next year. For the first time he is going to work to earn money. It may be a very tough work to him. However, I trust him. He is so sincere, smart and considerate that he can deal with all the duties given to him, I bet. Way to go! My lovely brother! Now he is sleeping in peace. I love him.

Friday,      December, 21, 2001,                                   a little cold.

Today's Expression: I just had a hunch.(그냥 예감이 그랬습니다.)

*hunch는 원래 혹을 의미하나(hunchback:곱사등이), 여기서는 “예감”의 의미임.

Today's Composition: 나는 새 차를 살 계획이다. (I have plans to buy a new car.)

*“-할 계획이다”라고 할 때에는 a plan을 쓰지 않고 미국인들은 종종 plans를 쓴다.

Konglish Clinic: Soju is popular with(among) Korean people. (소주는 한국사람들에게 인기이다.)

From last night till this morning I sat up without sleeping a wink. I had something important to do. It was the very homepage. I have wanted to make my homepage on the internet since three months ago. However, it was a very hard thing to make it very wonderfully. The thought occurred to me that half begun is half done. I made up my mind to make it by myself while studying computer-related materials. Last night I set out the work and at last I could make my house on the internet. It took about 10 hours to do it. Fatigue, sore throat, and sleep were the worst enemies. But I overcame them wisely and courageously. Now I will begin my new life toward my great goals in my new house on the internet. Last night was a great time to me.

Saturday,        December, 22, 2001,                               cloudy and cold.  Today's Expression: I want information about working abroad.(나는 해외 취업 정보를 구합니다.)

(information은 불가산 명사로 뒤에 s를 붙이지도 않고 앞에 부정관사를 붙이지도 않는다.)

I didn't go to bed until 6 this dawn because I was so busy with arranging my English materials listed in my homepage last night. When I woke up due to a phone, it was 11:30 a.m. The phone was from my new friend, Kang Seong-min who worked for Dae-a high school as a temporary teacher. He told me that he would want to meet and talk with me. At lunch time, we met and ate lunch at a nice restaurant. After that, we entered nearby coffee shop and enjoyed a cup of coffee over talking about a few topics.  In the evening I had to go out of my house, I was supposed to meet my high school and university friends. I met them in front of my mother's house and went to a nearby fancy restaurant. My friends came with their respective wife and kids, but I was alone. For my wife was staying at her father's house to have her body and mind recovered from the pain of birth. All of us had a wonderful and fantastic time there over  drinking alcohol and talking with one another about our funny and interesting topics. After we enjoyed a delicious meal there, we were headed for my friend's new house. His apartment was so nice and big. At about 11 p.m. we went out of his house and I came to my house on foot. And I had a pleasant conversation time with my youngest brother until 2:00 a.m. Today was so busy a day but I was so happy.

Sunday,       December, 23, 2001,                                   windy and cold.

Today's Expression: I'm turning over a new leaf.(전 심기일전해서 살 겁니다.)

I also got up late this morning. In the afternoon I went to my father's country together with my youngest brother, my nephew, my two nieces and my son. I brought a lot of delicious fried chicken and a bottle of sweet Sansachun. His tomb was filled with thick yellow grass. Only dreary wind blew off our hair and a cat was watching us give a ceremony for honoring my father. It was too desolate to stay there for a long time. We went down the mountain and I determined to go to my father-in-law's house and watch my good wife and my lovely son. My wife looked a little gloomy and my son was healthy. I wanted to be with them for a little long time, but I felt uncomfortable when I was there. In about 40 minutes, we left there and came to my house. While I drove my car to my house, I felt so tired that as soon as I reached my home I went to my room and fell asleep. I took a nap for about an hour. At 7:40 p.m. my first younger brother arrived at my house. We had to go out to have delicious dinner. All my family members but my wife and my son attended a family unity meeting. We were pleased with it and enjoyed meal very much, but I couldn't hide my real mind to other people. After dinner, all of the family except me went to a singing place. I returned to my home. I was so sorry for them and my wife. I was a little sad. I sat before computer to drive sadness away. About 10 days have passed since I came down with a tonsillitis. It caused me to suffer from terrible pain. Whenever I swallow saliva or something, I have an extreme pain in my throat. I hope it will get better as soon as possible. To do so, I will stop smoking from now.

Monday,        December, 24, 2001,                                          cold.    Today's Expression: What if my scores aren't decent?(만약 내 점수가 적절치 못하다면 어떻게 되는 걸까?)

I am so sorry for my mother. She went to a dentist's to have her cavity treated this afternoon. Of course I gave her a ride there in my car. But she must have been suffered from terrible toothache for a long time. I didn't know about her pain. Despite being convinced of it, I didn't care about her. I was a bad son to her. It was a very regretful thing. I won't do the same thing again. At 4:40 p.m. I went to the Korea Hospital to know about the result of medical check-up I had taken ten days before. Principal of the hospital told me that I had a bit of problems in my stomach, liver and lung and advised me that I should take a regular exercise at least twice or three times a week, should become a thorough vegetarian from now on and shouldn't drink a lot, overwork, and overeat. On top of that, he advised me that I should quit smoking. All of them were the just opposite to my past living pattern. I know I must correct such bad habits. At 6:30 p.m. my lovely youngest brother left for Seoul by Express bus. In about 3 hours and a half, he telephoned me to inform me of his safe arrival. Though today was the eve of Christmas, I felt so sad and miserable. I would like to live a happy life now.

Tuesday,       December, 25, 2001,                                            cold.  Today was a Christmas day. Today our super star Jejus Christ was born a long long time ago. Almost all the people must have enjoyed themselves singing a merry christmas, but my house was full of gloominess. My mother was worried about my health and my son was not given any present. I slept all but all day long because I was so sick. In the evening I had to give three hours of lecture to my new students who would take the test to be cops. Since I had no lecture for a long time, I was so worried about giving lectures. However, it was over successfully. I have to study English very hard, because I have to teach new texts I have never seen. Probably I will have a terrible hard experience this winter, but if this winter goes by, I will be a good master of English, I bet. However tough the process may be, I will make it. Undoubtedly I will make this winter my season, even though it is very difficult. Merry Christmas, Mr. ENARO.

I received two christmas card mail from my long friend, applemin, in Daegu, and my honorable senior, Bae Jun-seong, in Seoul.

To : 에나로님..

♥ Happy Christmas ♥

We wish you a merry christmas~~ ♪♬

We wish you a merry christmas~~ ♩♪

We wish you a merry christmas~~ ♬

And a happy new year~~~~~~~~~~rrrrr ~~~

-.-^ ))))))))))))

자~아 들리세요?? 애플의 비단결 같고도 톡톡 튀는 목소리를... ㅎㅎ 해피해피!! 메리메리!! 꾸리수마수~~~~~~  더 늦기전에 어서 크리스마스 계획 세우시구요. 펴~엉~생 잊지 못할 멋진 추억거리를 한번 만들어 보세요. (이미 늦었담 할 수 엄꼬.. -.-;; )

벌써 또 한해가 저물어가요.. 연말이다 뭐다해서 술에만 찌들려 계시지 말구요.

한번쯤 여유로운 나만의 시간과 함께 조용히 한해를 정리해봐요. "나를 위한 회고의 시간을 가지자!" 는 말씀..^^ 지금은 이미 추억이 되어버린 이런저런 생각에 아마 피식~ 웃음이 나실거예요. 그리곤.. 휴~~~ 한숨도 나죠..ㅎㅎ (애플이만 그런감?? -.- )

그럼.. 슈퍼 울트라 해피 크리스마스 + 해피 뉴이얼

PS. 새해엔 뭔가 달라진 모습을 보여주자구요..^^ 글구요.. 새해에 뜻하고자 하시는 일       모두모두 이루어지시길 빌게요!!*^^*                    From : applemin

To : 존경하는 정봉현님!

축, 성탄 & 근하신년!!!!!!!!!1

지난 한 해 동안 베풀어 주신 정성과 후의에 깊이 감사드리며 기쁜 성탄을 맞이해 정봉현님과 님의 가정에 하나님의 큰 사랑과 은총이 충만하길 기원합니다.

희망찬 새해에 건강과 행운이 항상 함께 하길 빕니다.

새해 복 많이 받으십시오.                               From : 도울 배준성 배상.

Wednesday,        December, 26, 2001,                    fair and warm.             Today's Expression:1.I swear upon my father's grave that I will be a good                            breadwinner.(전 아버님 무덤을 걸고 훌륭한 가장이 될 것을 맹세합니다.)

2.I swear on my father's tombstone that I will mend my                           way. (전 아버님 무덤 앞에서 제 삶을 고칠 것을 맹세합니다.)

Today's Composition:1. 나는 당신과의 관계를 개선하고 싶습니다. ( I want to improve ties with you.)

2. 나는 그 일이 그럴 가치가 있는 것인지 의심스럽다.(I wonder if it's even worth it.)

Konglish Clinic: 그녀는 화장실에 갔습니다.( She went to pee.) (X) - 무례한 표현

1. She went to the bathroom(restroom, ladies room)

2. She went to wash her hands.

(참고) 화장실이 어디죠? (Where can I wash my hands?)

In the afternoon I took my mother and my nephew to a dentist's near Cheon-jeon traditional fair place(market). It took about an hour for them to finish their treatment. Afterwards we went to a doctor's curing with acupuncture and concocting with a great deal of herbal medicine. My mother and I made a herbal doctor diagnose and treat each of us. When we arrived at my house, it was 5:30 p.m. My mother prepared a delicious meal for us and brought a table full of food to us, while my nephew was watching an animation on TV. I turned the channel into another. He began to cry out, though he was 9 years old. I loved her very much, but I got very mad. In spite of my mother's presence, I threw my spoon away. All of us there were astonished at my bad and queer behavior. My mother was weeping and so was my 2 year old son. My nephew was at a loss. I must have been insane. Now I can't understand my behavior at that time. Today I committed unforgivable misdemeanor. I think it is my blunder. But it was a very horrible thing. I only hope that my mother, my nephew and my son will forgive me. I swear upon my father's grave that I will never make such a bad blunder again. Mother, Hyeon-u, and my son! I am really sorry.

Thursday,       December, 27, 2001,                                    a little cold.  Today's Expression: That's not cast in stone. (그건 절대적인 것은 아닙니다.)     Today's Composition: 대학은 내가 인생에서 4년 혹은 그 이상을 살아야 할 곳이다.  <University is where I will have to live for 4 years of my life, possibly more(longer).>

Important Expression: 정다운 추억-fond memories, 잊혀지지 않는 추억-haunting memories

Konglish Clinic: How long have you worked here?(당신은 얼마나 오래 여기서 근무했습니까?)

I gave the first private lesson to my new student called Su-jeong, who would be the 1st grade student in high school next March. She was so good and clever that I could feel happiness by teaching her.

At night my first English e-mail friend, Jo Eun-jeong, sent me her kind card mail via internet. It was written in Korean, but I was so happy. I really want her to be my everlasting English e-mail buddy.

To : ENARO

감사의 마음과 더불어 행운을 ..

님의 한글 메일을 받아보기는 이번이 처음인 것 같군요. 역시 우리의 감정을 전달하기엔 영어보다 한글이 백배 더 낫다는 생각을 잠시 해보았습니다.^^

또 이렇게 한 해를 유수처럼 보내는군요. 너무나도 삶의 여유없이 바빴던 해였습니다. 저에게는..  님에게 많이도 불성실했던 해이기도 하고 나름대로 많이 일에 쫓기던 한 해이기도 했습니다. 공부란 해도 끝이 없는 학문인가 봅니다. 언제나 늘 부족함을 느끼니 말입니다. 님께서도 올 겨울 한층 더 공부에 전념하신다하니 내년에는 더욱 더 발전된 영작시가 나오리라 기대합니다. 조금 늦어질지는 모르지만 님의 감각과 실력이라면 내년엔 한층 더 발전된 모습으로 님이 원하시는 시의 세계에 다가갈 수 있다고 확신합니다. GO! GO! GO! 를 외쳐드릴게요. 얼마 남지 않은 연말 뜻깊게 잘 보내시고 비록 영어 메일이 아니라 할지라도 서로에게 힘과 때로는 위안이 될 수 있는 그런 글들이 여전히 오갈 수 있는 내년이었으면 좋겠습니다.

올 한 해 님에게서 많은 삶의 교훈을 얻었습니다. 감사의 마음을 전하며 좀 더 충실한 친구로서의 2002년이 되도록 노력하겠습니다. 그럼,, 항상 건강하시고 새해 복 많이 받으십시오. 갓 태어난 둘째 아이에게도 많은 행운과 축복이 함께하기를 기원합니다.

p.s. 연말 workshop을 다녀오느라 카드가 늦었네요. 너무 서운해 하시지 마세요..^^

From : Debby

Friday,         December, 28, 2001,                                            cold.  Today's English: She always blows hot and cold.(그녀는 성격이 변덕스러워 이랬다 저랬다 합니다.)

In the morning I gave two lectures to my new students. As it was ,y first lecture teaching them, it was more or less awkward. I thought I would study the text very hard and try my best to improve their ability to solve questions in their test. After I finished my lectures and returned to my house, I had to prepare for my evening ones. While I was studying the text, I found that it had a few errors. I phoned the publishing company and told a consulting worker about them and corrected them. In the evening I gave lectures to my other students who had wanted to listen to lectures at night. But while I was giving it, all of a sudden, a very strange thing happened. All the lights went off. Classroom got dark like black hell. My students and I were so astonished that we didn't know what to do. I had such an eccentric experience for the first time that I was so embarrassed. After I went out of the institute, the director called me up to apologize to me for it. It turned out that a silly woman worker made a mistake. But I drank a lot that night.

Saturday,         December, 29, 2001,                                           cold.

Today's Expression: We know how to give and take e-mails. (X)

*give and take는 준 만큼 받는다는 것을 나타내는 말로 ‘양보, 타협하다’는 의미로 사용.

*나는 e-mail을 주고 받는 법을 압니다. =1. We can e-mail each other.

=2. We can send e-mails to each other.

Because I drank alcohol like a fish last night, I got up pretty late. It was 3 p.m. when I went out of bed. I was too miserable to look  my mother on the face. My lovely son was playing alone without take a glance at me. I swear on my dear son that I will not make such a bad mistake again. In the evening I went to my aunt's house since a small party would be held there. Almost all the relatives attended the party. We all had a pleasant time there. When I returned to my house, it was 9:05 p.m. I feel I need to turn over a new leaf.

Sunday,         December, 30, 2001,                                            cold.

Today's Expression:*나는 e-mail 주고 받는 법을 압니다. 3.We know how to exchange e-mails.

4.We can get in touch by e-mail.

These days my mother has had a hard time raising my first son, hui-seok, and doing the housework. I didn't help my mother do the work. My negligence was responsible for it. Now I has been taking a herbal medicine and  the medicine to heal stomachache since yesterday. Now I will make every effort to stay in a good shape, such as doing exercise regularly, quitting smoking, stopping drinking for the time being, being industrious and living a frugal life. Tomorrow another week will begin and I will be a new and good man.

Monday,        December, 31, 2001,                     cold.                         Today's Expression: I was disconnected three times today.(오늘 나는 세 번 통화가 끊겼습니다.)    Today was the last day of this year. I finished three hours of night lectures with a great satisfaction at 9:30. Scarcely had I returned to my home, I went to the bathroom and washed my hands and feet very cleanly. My mother looked so tired and sick. She told me that she was likely to have a general illness and headache. She and my son went to bed and I set the table myself and enjoyed it. But I seemed to have had a headache. I took about 10 tablets to help food in my stomach to be digested well. Soon after I felt my body and mind be in right condition. I went to the bathroom to relieve nature(go to excrement:feces) and sat on the toilet stool(bowl)<a night chair>. Just then The poet moved in myself. I hurried to my study, sat in front of my personal computer and began to type my important feeling. And then I trimmed on and on until 2 a.m. I made a determination to stay up all night long and to go to see the rising sun with my mother and my son. After all I didn't sleep a wink, created a lowly Korean poem and did a lot of work, such as sending e-mails to my friends, and enlisting my new poem in my homepage and my net room. The following writing is my new poem and I am to translate below poem into English one soon. The last day of this year I spent very wonderfully and I swear upon all my family members including my dead father that I will live a good life next year.

새해 첫 소풍날에

이 밤 다 가기 전에

바다를 헤쳐 솟아오는 해를 보러 가리라

사랑하는 사람들 잠든 세월을 깨워

저마다 젊은 파랑새 한 마리씩 짝을 지워

짙은 어둠 토해버릴 해를 맞으러 가리라

아픈 자의 병상에 빛을,

가난한 자의 심장에 불을,

고독한 자의 눈에 소망을,

교만한 자의 가슴에 믿음을 잉태시키던

삼백 육십 오일 그 붉었던 사랑을

삼백 육십 오일 늘 푸를 사랑에게 바치는

太初 그 거룩한 의식을 하얀 맨살로 품으리라

바라보는 눈길 하나 하나에

등돌렸던 아픔 가닥 가닥 담고

내쉬는 숨결 한 올 한 올에

들이쉰 생명 모락 모락 심어

숙이는 고개 마디 마디

나 아닌 나를 채우리라

내가 아닌 너를 채우리라

오늘은 어제의 거울, 그 자체로 하여

아름답고,

오늘은 내일의 마음, 그 자체로 하여

풍요로운 새해의 첫 소풍날,

사랑하는 사람들 손에 손잡고

어둠 삭혀 마시며 해맞이 가는 날.

2002, 1, 1.

Tuesday,        January, 1st, 2002,                       strongly windy and so cold.

Today's Expression: I want to try(attempt) new stuff(thing) and broaden my horizons(stretch my range).

(나는 새로운 것을 시도하고 시야도 넓히고 싶다.)

*do one's stuff:자기 일을 척척 해내다.   *have great potential:잠재력이 크다.

This was the first day of new year. Because I sit up all night long doing my invaluable work, I felt a little tired but I was in a good mood. My mother got up earlier than usual on account of the noise outside the door. I suggested that we (should) go to Mun-su-am(a kind of small temple:arbor) in Go-seong county to see the rising sun of hope and she agreed to me with pleasure. She woke up my son and we started there. At first my driving travel was smooth but when we nearly got there, policemen were controlling the road. We could notice three traffic accidents. They were to blame(to be blamed) for an icy road and drivers' carelessness. We couldn't help getting out of my car. My mother and I thought if we climbed a little longer, we could reach there and see the bright sun. However, it was such a wrong thought that my mother and I had to walk up to the mountain for a very long time. What's worse, I had to carry my young son in my arms and he, now and then, cried out to beg for his food, milk. We intended to attain our goal, or to reach our destination, but helplessly we had no choice but to abandon our plan. We decided to go to nearby seashore, Dang-hwang-po in Go-seong, and have delicious and fresh raw fish for breakfast. On the way there, we could see the orange-colored sun on the street while driving. We wished our hope.

After all of us had a pleasant breakfast, we enjoyed a fresh sea wind while I was driving my car along the seaside roar. At 11:30 a.m. we were headed for Jinju. From that time I was driving for about 40 minutes, when I felt so sleepy. My car almost caused a traffic accident. my mother advised me that I should take a nap for a short time and then drive again. After I dozed off for about 10 minutes parking my car on the roadside, I set out for my house again. As soon as I reached my house, I first washed my body, took the medicine and feel asleep on my bed. While I was sleeping, my wife called me up to come to bring her and my second son. However, I told her to bring them tomorrow and went on sleeping. When I got up, it was 8:30 p.m. Today was a very tiring and vexing day, but my mother, my son and I had a great experience. I believe that it will be a good lesson in our life. The rougher our road is, the greater happiness we will have, if only we walk it up to the end. Happy new year, my family!

Wednesday,         January, 2nd, 2002,               chilly stormy and so cold.       Today's Expression: Who is it that rubbed you up the wrong way? (누가 당신을 그렇게 화나게 했습니까?)

Today's Composition:요즘은 삐삐가 거의 사라졌다. (These days, the beepers have all but disappeared.)

*‘거의’라는 말에 ‘almost'나 ’nearly'를 종종 사용하지만 잘못하면 ‘거의 --할 뻔 했다’라는 표현     이 될 수도 있어 동사와 함께 사용할 때는 “all but"을 사용하는 것이 좋다.

* mobile telecommunication: 이동 통신     *carry a cell phone:핸드폰을 가지고 다니다.

Konglish Clinic:당신은 유명하다. - You are famous.(X) , You are very popular.(O)

You know many people.(아는 사람들이 많군요.)

You have many acquaintances.(주위에 아는 사람들이 많군요.)

You have a lot of friends.(친구들이 아주 많군요.)

*famous는 a famous writer처럼 명사 앞에 쓰이거나, 서술어로 쓰일 때에는 대부분 'famous for ~(~로 유명    한)'이라는 형식으로 쓰이며 서술어 혼자 쓰이지는 않는다. famed, well-known 등 유명하다는 뜻의 다른 형   용사들도 famous와 마찬가지로 혼자 서술적으로 쓰이지 않는다.

Today I translated my Korean poem which I created yesterday into English one. It was a great pleasure and a hope to me.

On the First Excursion Day of a New Year

written by Jeong Bong Hyun

Before the tinge of this night disappears totally,

I'll go to see the rising sun through the sea.

I'll wake up the slept time and tide of my loved people,

And make them follow their each young blue bird, their good mate,

Going to meet the sun which vomits a thick darkness.

Having thrown the light onto the bed where the sick are lying,

Having made a fire into the heart which the poor keep,

Having planted the hope in the eyes which the lonely have,

Having put the belief into the chest which the arrogant bear,

That red love of the sun having blazed up all 365 days long,

It will deliver its great calling to the love which is to be green all 365 days long.

I'll worship the holy ceremony with my white body bared.

Whenever I stare at every direction,

I'll put all the sufferings of people I turned back into my eyes.

Whenever I exhale every breath,

I'll plant every life I inhaled deep in my heart.

Whenever I lower my head,

I'll fill my mind with my future self, not my past self.

I'll fill my soul with you, not me.

Thanks to a mirror itself of yesterday,

Today is beautiful.

Thanks to the expectation itself toward tomorrow,

Today is the first excursion day of a rich new year.

Hand in hand with all loving people,

To turn the dirty air of past into the fresh one

I'll go to see the rising sun.

translated by Mr. ENARO

2002, 1, 2.

Thursday,      January, 3rd, 2002,                                         so cold.

Today's Expression: *The reason is that S + V ( O )

*The reason is because S + V ( X )

*'reason'이 원인을 나타내므로 The reason is because는 쓸 데 없는 반복이 된다.

Today was the religious ceremony for my respectable father. A number of relatives attended the holy rite and all of us held it with all our heart. He was alive deep in our heart without dying. Besides, I bet he will live in our heart forever.

The following writings were e-mails sent me on the first day of this year.

Title: HAPPY NEW YEAR~!

그동안 많이 바쁘셨나 보네요... 통 연락이 없었으니.. 하긴 저도 마찬가지지만.

한해 마지막날 이렇게 편지 드립니다. 참 제 홈피도 있으니 시간 되시면 한번 들러주세요.(http://seya.ru.ky) 감기 조심하시고 잘 지내세요.. 그럼.     From : 가희

Title: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

올 한해 재수하면서 선생님 만나 참 뜻있다 생각이 듭니다. 오늘이 올해 마지막인데..항상 그렇듯이..기분이 이상하네요...아쉬운 한편,,기대감도 약간씩 들고..그렇습니다

선생님 하시는 일 모두 모두 잘 되시길 빌겠습니다. 그리고 건강하세요...건강해야 무엇이든 할 수 있으니까요... 저도 새해에는 더 성숙된 자신을 찾기 위해 노력할 생각입니다. 한해 정리 잘하시고 내일 아침 따뜻한 햇살을 즐기시길... (김동욱 학생)

Title: Year Greeting.

그 동안 서운했던 일들일랑 조금 지워주고 새해에는 밝은 모습으로 만났으면 합니다.

올해에는 더욱 건강하고 의욕적인 한 해가 되었으면 하이. (조형호 선배)

Friday,       January, 4th, 2002,                                 stormy and so cold.

Today's Expression: I enjoyed during the holidays.(X) * ‘enjoy’동사는 타동사여서 목적어를 반드시 가져야 한다. 하지만, I enjoyed my time,이라고 쓰지는 않는다.                    (EX) * I enjoyed myself during the holidays.    * I enjoyed my holidays.

In the morning I gave three hours of good lectures to my students, but in the evening I didn't do so because I was not ready completely and I had no confidence to teach my students. After all it made me upset. I had no choice but to drink alcohol even though I had taken a herbal medicine and the medicine to relieve stomachache for a week. People say that wise man learns from his or her own mistake. From now, I don't want to be such a silly man. I trust myself.

Saturday,       January, 5th, 2002,                                         so cold.   Today's Expression: * Someone has robbed all his money. (X) , * Someone has stolen all his money. (O)

* Some men stole a bank last night. (X) ,  * Some one robbed a bank last night. (O)

* 'steal'의 목적어는 ‘돈, 시계, 자전거’등과 같이 도둑이 훔쳐간 물건이 온다. 반면에,      ‘rob'의 목적어는 ’사람, 집, 은행‘등 물건을 빼앗긴 사람이나 장소가 온다.

(cf)그 사고는 그 탓이다. : He is to blame for the accident.(O)

= He is to be blamed for the accident. (O)

When I went out of bed, it was 2:10 p.m. In the first place I ate brunch. My wife got angry with me because of my credit card bill. I was so sorry for her, but I didn't say to her, "I am sorry.", owing to my wrong pride. I must be a bad husband. Just then phone rang. It was my mother. She told me that she would go to see a new house my second younger brother's family would move in about 2 weeks. My eldest son and I joined their short but hopeful journey, while my second son and my wife were staying at my house. It took about 20 minutes to get there by car. Their future house was not completed yet, but looked more or less good. I hope that they will have a harmonious and joyful life in their beautiful nest.

Sunday,      January, 6th, 2002,                                    cold.

Today's Expression: * I let the house from Mr. Jones. (X) ,  * I rented the house from Mr. Jones. (O)

* 집주인인 경우는 ‘let a house' 또는 ’rent a house' 둘 다 쓸 수 있지만,

세를 든 사람의 경우는 ‘rent a house'밖에 쓸 수 없다.

(cf)이 집은 세 놓습니다. : This house is to let.(O) = This house is to be let.(O)

This morning my wife shouted at me because she found my hidden credit card bill and many records in the fancy bar listed on it. My two sons were weeping loudly. I didn't know what to do to calm her down. Tears were flowing down on her cheeks like a shower. she appeared so poor that I wanted to hug her. However, she haven't eaten any food and her eyes were swollen like a balloon. I begged her for forgiving me only once. Not until that evening did she look a little comfortable. She looked so poor. I decided not to look at tears on her face. I was to blame for all of them. In the evening we made up, in other words, she forgave me. I ordered Tang-su-yug in a chinese restaurant, and when it was delivered, my wife and I had a pleasant dinner time with my first son. And my private student, what's better, called up me and asked me for postponing her private lesson, because she had a general illness and cold. Today was in crisis, but in the end in happiness. I love all my family members. Today I didn't visit my father's land. I will necessarily go to his land next Wednesday.

Monday,         January, 7, 2002,                                       fair but cold.

Today's Expression: I used to hang around with them.(난 그들과 어울러 다니곤 했습니다.)

I has been suffering from sore throat for about 4 weeks even though I has taken medicine in order to treat the terrible disease. I know the reason I don't get well. It is the very smoking. I want to eliminate my bad habit which may be a short cut to death, but my willpower is too weak to escape from the bad habit, smoking. Just before I enter a classroom to give a lecture, I all but light a cigarette. It has become my long custom. To cure my illness, first of all, I must quit smoking. Sooner or later I am to purchase cigarettes for stopping smoking called 'Keum-yeon-cho' as a good means of helping my weak will. I will necessarily quit smoking and soon be a healthy man. What's better, to stay in a good shape, I intend to take a regular exercise such as jogging and taking a fast walk along the riverside. Otherwise, I must be a bad father to my two lovely sons who are to read this diary book. I really hope not.

Tuesday,       January, 8, 2002,                                      windy and cold.

Today's Composition:사람들은 하루종일 수많은 전자우편들을 이리저리 보낸다.

People send countless email messages back and forth all day long.

My today's lesson wasn't satisfactory like yesterday. I didn't have a confidence to do it. There were a great number of students including a few old men in the classroom. When I entered there for the first time, I was astonished at heat which oozed from quite a few students. Another reason I was astounded was the hard text and questions. I found it very difficult, but I had to teach my new students with it. It was against my conscience. Nevertheless, I would like to trust my ability. Yes, I can do it very well. I will study and study it very hard and always try my best in giving lectures. I know it is the only way to get over this tough period. Now I have a strong confidence to give good lessons. Cheer up! ENARO!

Wednesday,     January, 9, 2002,                                        a little cold.

Today's Expression: I was tied up in the traffic. (차가 막혀 꼼짝못했어요.)

A wife of Mr. Park's, my respectable senior, telephoned me to have lunch with my family at a familiar restaurant. We met there at 1:30 p.m. My family was a little late. Still, his family welcomed us with pleasure. We all had a very pleasant time having a delicious roasted beef. He treated my family and gave my second son, Jeong Ji-hun, a good present, beautiful clothes and a pair of baby socks. Because he and I drank a little alcohol while eating lunch, it was necessary for us to remove alcohol from our body. And so we went to a movie theater to watch a popular Korean film titled "Dalma! Let's play." It was, he and I thought, very boring but my wife and his wife seemed to be pleased. In fact, my wife had never gone to a movie for almost 7 years. I felt so sorry for her in that respect. After we went out of the theater, my family saw his family off. They got into a taxi and left to regain their towed car. I think all the time he and his wife give my family their generous love. Someday I will return it. I hope that his family and mine will get along with each other forever.

Thursday,        January, 10, 2002,                                            cold.   Today's Expression: You name the day. (당신이 날짜를 정하세요.)

Someday I will learn this poem my heart and recite in front of myself whenever I feel like seeing the sea. From now this poem will be one of my favorite poems. What a beautiful poem this is!

그리운 바다 성산포

- 이생진 -

살아서 고독했던 사람 그 빈자리가 차갑다.

아무리 동백꽃이 불을 피워도 살아서 가난했던 사람

그 빈자리가 차갑다.

난 떼어놓을 수 없는 고독과 함께 배에서 내리자마자

방파제에 앉아서 술을 마셨다.

해삼 한 토막에 소주 두 잔 이 죽일 놈의 고독은

취하지 않고 나만 혼자 등대 밑에서 코를 골았다.

술에 취한 섬 물을 베고 잔다.

저 섬에서 한 달만 살자.

저 섬에서 한 달만 뜬눈으로 살자

저 섬에서 한 달만 그리움이 없어질 때까지!

성산포에서는 바다를 그릇에 담을 수 없지만

뚫어진 구멍마다 바다가 생긴다.

성산포에서는 뚫어진 그 사람의 허구에도 천연스럽게

바다가 생긴다.

성산포에서는 사람은 절망을 만들고 바다는 그

절망을 삼킨다.

성산포에서는 사람이 절망을 노래하고 바다가 그

절망을 듣는다.

성산포에서는 한 사람도 죽는 일을 못 보겠다.

온종일 바다를 바라보던 그 자세만이 아랫목에 눕고

성산포에서는 한 사람도 더 태어나는 일을 못 보겠다.

있는 것으로 족한 존재 모두 바다만을 보고 있는 고립.

바다는 마을 아이들의 손을 잡고 한나절을

정신없이 놀았다.

아이들이 손을 놓고 돌아간 뒤 바다는 멍하니

마을을 보고 있었다.

마을엔 빨래가 마르고 빈 집에는 하품이 잦았다.

밀감나무엔 게으른 윤기가 흐르고 저기 여인과

함께 나타난 버스엔 덜컹덜컹 세월이 흘렀다.

살아서 가난했던 사람 죽어서 실컷 먹으라고

보리밭에 묻었다.

살아서 술을 좋아하던 사람 죽어서 바다에 취하라고

섬 꼭대기에 묻었다.

살아서 그리웠던 사람 죽어서 찾아가라고

짚신 두 짝 놓아주었다.

삼백육십오일 두고두고 보아도 성산포 하나 다

보지 못하는 눈!

육십 평생 두고두고 사랑해도 다 사랑하지 못하고

또 기다리는 사람! 또 기다리는 사람!

Friday,         January, 11, 2002,                    a little warm for winter weather.

Today's Expression:미래에는 결국 두 가지 종류의 사람들, 즉 인터넷에 접속해 그것                      을 어떻게 사용하는지를 아는 사람들과 여타 사람들만이 존재한다.

In the future, you end up with two types of people: the people                        who have Internet access and know how to use it, and everybody else.

It was fortunate that I gave a good lecture to my students. Today I tried to have a confidence to give lessons and thought I could do everything I want to perform. As soon as I entered classroom, I stared at my students and grinned with smile on my face. I sought not to give a trembling voice and unhesitatingly wrote many English sentences on the blackboard with my face turned around from the students. When I said, "Let's call it a day.", a number of students greeted me, "Thanks so much." I was so happy and satisfied with my today's lecture. Now I will try my best to go towards my bright future by studying and studying very hard day in and day out. At 10:30 p.m. I held a religious ceremony for my great grandfather with my family. It was over at 11:05. We all ate food which had been prepared with a great sincerity by my mother and my wife. It was so delicious. After I returned to my home with my wife and two sons in my car, I sat in front of my computer and had a very pleasant English chatting time for about one and a half hours with my new English chatting friend and English e-mail friend whose e-mail addresses were 'meyjin@hotmail.com' and 'huameyjin@hanmail.net'. She was a Korean-chinese. She had her own company which was concerned with selling automation-packaging machines. She was 30 years old and was not married yet. I informed her of my internet home.I really hope that she will be my sincere friend onwards.

Saturday,     January, 12, 2002,                     a little warm for winter weather.

Today's Expression: As storm following storm, and wave succeeding wave, give additional                           hardness to the shell that contains the pearl, the storm and waves of                          life add force to the character of men.

The following writing is a good address passage to be delivered to the students who are to graduate from their high school.

Congratulations, everyone!

And welcome to my home on the internet. You have just started the most important three years of your lives. I know how you feel now. Some of you may be happy and excited. Others may be anxious. These feelings come from what you expect of your high school lives. Soon your expectations will be put in the form of dreams. You must have dreams in order to make your lives fruitful. Life without dreams is like a world without flowers. How dark and boring life would be without dreams! Before you have dreams, you need a variety of experiences. Try to take part in a sports club at school. Climb a mountain or go to the beach. Look at the sunrise or sunset. These activities will make you strong and healthy. Remember the saying, "A sound mind in a sound body." In addition, you have to do lots of indoor activities. Listen to beautiful music. Listen to what others say. Read about what interests you. Have talks with your friends and teachers. These will make your mind fresh and broad. Enjoy experiences both in and out of school. What young people like most is new experiences. The experiences you get through seeing, feeling and reading will always bring you new ideas. These new ideas will grow into dreams. A global village needs many people who have different kinds of new ideas. There should be new ideas not only for science, but also arts. There should be new ideas, too, for all kinds of work that men and women do. However, new ideas are nothing if they are not carried out. You must make plans to make your dreams come true. When you plan for the future, you should try to figure out what you like most. The subjects you learn in high school will be helpful for your future. The more subjects you are interested in, the more ideas you will get. There is a strong need for people skilled in languages, especially in English. The world is becoming smaller and smaller. Businessmen, scholars, athletes, tourists, and others from all over the world are meeting together more than ever before. Though other languages are still important, English is the language they use most frequently. English is the means of communication in international meetings and business. Through English, you can get many ideas from all over the world. This is one of the reasons why we have to study English. Don't try to make your dreams come true in a day. Perhaps it will take many years. You may be a success or a failure in the course of time. Don't be afraid of failure. Remember the English proverb, "Failure is the mother of success." The more mistakes you make, the more chances you have to succeed. If you have dreams, you will never idle away your time. Nothing is more important than time. You shouldn't repeat the mistakes some grown-ups have made in idling. Time once lost is lost forever. Remember again, "Time and tide waits for no man." Congratulations again! I wish you happy days ahead. I hope all goes well with you.

Sunday,         January, 13, 2002,                          warm for winter weather.

Today's words: 사랑, 연상되는 단어는?

01. 사랑하다 : love     02. 포옹하다 : embrace    03. 애무하다 : caress

04. 애인 : love / lover / sweetheart   05. 예수 : Jesus   06. 부모의 사랑 : parental love         07. 정신적인 사랑 : platonic love   08. 나의 첫사랑 : my first love   09. 키스하다 : kiss

10. 미워하다 : hate 11. 증오 : hatred 12. ~ 와 이별하다 : part with ~ / separate from ~

13. 이혼:divorce 14. 결혼:marriage  15. ~ 와 이혼하다 : divorce ~ / get divorced from ~

16. ~ 와 결혼하다 : marry ~ / get married to ~  17. 질투 : jealousy

18. 소유 : possession   19. 집착하다 : cling to   20. 용서 : forgiveness

21.이해 : understanding  22.자유 : freedom  23.신 : God   24. 동성애 : homosexual love

25. 육체적 관계 : sexual relation   25. 사랑에 빠지다 : fall in love with ~

27. 첫눈에 반하다 : be in love with ~ at first sight

These days I has been busy doing my important work and I will devote myself to adorning my life and my future with beautiful and significant duties. More than anything else, I will have to study my teaching texts, or English text for future policemen, English text for would-be public servants, and 'Seong Mun Basic English' for my private student, very hard until I am perfect in teaching them to all my students. What's better, by doing so, I will be able to write my own essays very skillfully as well as translate many great Korean poems into clear English ones. Undoubtedly my English will be improved. In a year, I will be a perfect English writer and speaker. Second, I will have to read as many books as possible at random and it will help me think broadly and considerately. That is to say, it will broaden my horizon, which will help me to write many good poems. All these works will be listed in my homepage on the internet. I manage it very well so that it can be helpful and useful to many people who want to study English, who love literature, and who like me. A few works mentioned above will take me to dream land. Therefore, I will run forward my wonderful world without stopping.

Monday,        January, 14, 2002,                           warm for winter weather.

Today's Expression: I hope I'm not asking a personal question. (사적인 질문이라 죄송합니다.)

Today's Words: 언어와 관련된 단어들

1. 한국어 : Korean  2. 영어 : English  3. 중국어 : Chinese  4. 일본어 : Japanese

5. 프랑스어 : French  6. 독일어 : German  7. 러시아어 : Russian  8. 이탈리어어: Italian  9. 스페인어 : Spanish  10. 멕시코어 : Mexican  11. 네덜란드어 : Netherlandic

12. 인도유럽어 : Indo-European  13. 표준어 : the standard language  14. 언어 : language  15. 언어학 : linguistics  16. 언어 감각 : a linguistic sense.  17. 언어 교정 : a speech clinic.  18. 언어 불통 :difficulty of communication; language difficulty.

19. 언어 심리학 : linguistic psychology.  20. 언어 예술 : language arts. 21. 언어 요법 : speech therapy.  22. 언어 장애 : a speech disorder; a speech impediment  23. 언어 장애자 : a person who has difficulty in speaking  24. 실어증 환자 : an aphasic.

25. 언어 지리학 : linguistic geography. 26. 언어 철학 : philosophy of language.

27. 언어 형태학 : morphology / accidence.  28. 언어 활동 : speech function.

29. 외국어 : a foreign language. 30. 문법책 : a grammar (book).

31. 문법 학자 : a grammarian.  33. 문법 : grammar / rules of composition.

34. 기술 문법 : descriptive grammar. 35. 기술 언어학 : descriptive linguistics

The further I study English, the more and the harder my work is. but I can never give up my goal, to distinguish myself in English teaching field as well as English translation one. I sure can do it.

Tuesday,       January, 15, 2002,                                             drizzly.

Today's Expression: I can't hold my water any more. (난 더 이상 소변을 참을 수가 없어요.)

At 8:30 p.m. my today's lesson was over. A drizzle was falling down from the heaven. It tempted me to drink in a good mood. I drove to my familiar bar called 'Po Seog Jeong'. As a matter of fact, I had no money to drink, but I wanted to drink Dong-dong-ju and eat Pa-jeon as a side dish. The owner of the bar named Kim Byeong-pil said to me, "Step-brother, I'll buy this round tonight and don't worry about money." I felt thankful to him. We enjoyed ourselves drinking and talking about our dreams. Three hours have passed since I began to drink. I had to return to my house before midnight. I borrowed ￦80,000 from him and promised to repay it tomorrow. I came to the building in which my home was, and telephoned my wife to ask her to come out of house. At first she hesitated to do it, but in 5 minutes she came out of her house holding her lovely son, my second son, in her arm. We entered nearby big store and purchased many stuffs, such as many cookies, eight ramyeons, powder milk for my second son and so on. Strange experience as(though) it was, my wife and I were so happy, now that we know that there is not merely straight way in our life and it was not always right one. Anyway it was a pleasant day.

My mother fell down on a slippy road and hurted the back of her head very hard. When I touched it, I could feel it was swollen very heavily. I hope she will get well so soon and be safe from it.

Wednesday,     January, 16, 2002,                     very warm for winter weather.

Today's Expression: I'm all ears. (어서 말해봐!), I am all thumbs.(난 손재주가 없어.)

My close friend, named Kim Mi-kyeong in Sokcho, called me up and we talked with each other for about 30 minutes by phone. I was so glad to hear that her English institute was progressing unlike her anxiety. After I finished communicating with her by cell(phone), I had my hair cut in a beauty shop. In the afternoon, I had to take my son to the hospital, for in the morning my wife told me that my second son should be shot for prevention from liver disease, namely B type of hepatitis. At about 2:00 p.m., my mother came to my home to go to the wholesale fruit market with us. I asked her her condition, because she was hurt in the back of her head due to a sudden slide. She said to me, "I am all right." She appeared to be in a right condition. I thought it was a very fortunate thing. After my second son was vaccinated in the hospital, we started for a fruit market. It was still raining. We bought two kinds of fruit, apple and small orange by the box. In the evening we met my second brother's family and ate out in a fancy restaurant specializing in duck meat. We all had a very pleasant time. We must not waste our valuable moment.

"Time once past never returns and the moment which is lost is lost for ever."

Thursday,       January, 17, 2002,                       shiny but a little cold.

Today's Expression: "There are few things that are more important for the happiness                        of life than to form a habit of taking a cheerful view of the                           circumstances in which one is placed."

Today I sent English e-mail to my lovely friend, Kim Mi-kyeong in Sokcho.

Hi! My lovely friend!

It rained all day long yesterday. I came down with a bad cold on the ground of it. How about you? We had very warm weather for winter for a few days. Though it was out of harmony with this season of snow and cold, we could even have the pleasure premature blossom had gave us. But we know that a bitter cold will visit us so soon. As you know, life is full of ups and downs. As a result, when we are in shiny days, we should prepare ourselves for rainy days. We all must not neglect the truth. It is my true mind I want to deliver to you. Can you feel my sincere heart?^^ If you can feel it, I am sure you will send me your picture as soon as possible. I remember you have been a very courteous lady. In addition, I know you have made and will make it a rule never to break your promise with friends. I trust you, therefore I miss you.^^ Last, I hope all the best wishes with you. Be careful not to catch a cold and be happy.

cordially yours       from Mr. ENARO in Jinju

In the afternoon I took a nap for about 2 hours because of a bad cold. While I did it, I dreamed a very strange dream in which I saw my past lover, kim Min-ju, smiling at me wearing a thin blue shirt and trousers. It was a mysterious thing to me, seeing that I didn't think of her before I went to bed. I laid down all the events on the notebook I had seen in my dream. I have an intention to write a poem about love story with her. Now I know she went to an unknown temple. But when I dreamed such an odd dream, the sad thought occurred to me that she might have died. Wherever she is, I hope she will enjoy herself and live a beautiful life with a beautiful heart.

Friday,        January, 18, 2002,                                               cold.

Today's Expression: I start off the morning having a cup of coffee.(난 커피 한 잔을 들면서 아침을 시작한다.)

I suffered from a bad cold and a sore throat all day long. But in the evening I translated one of my favorite Korean poems whose title was 'A missed sea, Seong-san-po', written by Lee Saeng-jin, a poet of the sea and the island, into English one.

A missed sea, Seong-san-po

- A poet of the sea and the island, Lee saeng-jin -

Seeing he was lonely in his life, his vacant seat is felt cold.

However a camellia may be in full bloom like a flame,

Now he was poor all his life, a space without him is cold like ice.

On leaving the ship with solitude which has always breathed in my life

I drank sitting on a breakwater.

Two cups of so-ju and a piece of sea cucumber.

This tremendous loneliness getting sober, I only snored under the lighthouse.

A drunken island sleeps pillowing its head on the water.

I'd love to live in that island for only a month.

Without sleeping even a day, I'd love to live in that island for a month,

For only a month, until longing for you wears away.

At Seong-san-po, though no one can fill a bowl with the sea,

Out of every hole of it, each sea is made.

At Seong-san-po, despite his nonsense, our sea is naturally created.

At Seong-san-po, man producing despair,

The sea swallows it down.

At Seong-san-po, man singing despair,

The sea listens to it.

At Seong-san-po, no one can see even a man dies.

At Seong-san-po, no one can see the birth of a new baby,

Just gazing at the sea all day long lying on the warmest floor.

Only being there leaves nothing to be desired.

Everyone being obsessed by the sea, everything else is beyond every one's mind.

The sea played with children hand in hand for a day.

After they had returned to their home, the sea was merely looking at the town bluntly.

Laundries drying in the wind in the town, a calm evening was around the corner.

Mandarins were lustrous like a bum, and appearing with a woman,

An old bus was disappearing in the distance with our time carried.

Since he was needy in this world, he was buried in a barley field

So that he might eat enough food in the other world.

As he loved alcohol in this world, he was buried on the top of island

So that he might drink the sea-made liquor in the other world.

Because he missed his sweetheart in this life,

Two pairs of straw sandals were put in his coffin so he might go to find her.

To my regret, I can't see all the things in Seong-san-po with my eyes,

For all trying my best to do so every day all my life.

To my sadness, I can't feel all your heart with all my heart,

With all loving you every moment all my sixty years.

translated by ENARO 2002, 1, 18.

*Seong-san-po : the name of port called Seong-san in Je-ju Island

*so-ju : a kind of Korean liquor

Saturday,        January, 19, 2002,                                      a little cold.

I stayed at home until this evening. It made me feel bored, so I wanted to go out to meet members of Jinju Youth Literature Organization. When I arrived at their meeting place, they were discussing their works with sincerity. I felt sorry for being late. At about 11:00 p.m., it was over. A member of them said, "let's move to another bar." We walked for about 10 minutes and entered the bar named 'Paris Story'. I drank a lot there and, to my shame, lost myself. It was a regretful and shameful night.

Sunday,        January, 20, 2002,                                       a little cold.  Now that I blacked out with a lot of alcohol last night, I couldn't wake up this morning. To make matters worse, I had to suffer from hangover and terrible headache until I took the medicine which my mother had bought for me. I was so sorry to my mother and my family. I was supposed to go to a private student's house to give her a lecture, but my bad condition restrained me from going there. It was really a miserable day to me. I thought I should make myself right.

Monday,      January, 21, 2002,                                          a little cold.

Fortunately, when I woke up this morning, I felt comfortable unlike yesterday. In the morning, I gave three hours of lectures to my students who wanted to be police officers. Seeing that they seemed to be contented with my lessons, I was pleased. In order to have lunch, I returned to my home. My wife fixed lunch for me and my son. We had it very deliciously. From 2 to 4 p.m. I studied my teaching text for evening classes. My night lessons which were consecutive were so good that my students appeared to be satisfied. I was happy.

Tuesday,       January, 22, 2002,                                              cold.

Today one of my previous students gave me a great present which was an old and good wine made in France, so I was so pleased. Since I had to hold a religious ceremony for my great-great grandmother tonight, I went to my mother's house with the gift. All my family members but my second brother and youngest brother were there. I showed it off in front of them and we drank it a little one after another. My mother seemed to be so happy. We all watched an exciting shop opera on TV. It was a pleasant time. But, when my second brother entered my mother's house from his work, an unhappy thing struck our family. He appeared to be a little angry and shouted. I was so upset. I couldn't understand why he got mad at his family. I cried out, too. I thought I must not do so, but I was not able to control myself. After all, he and I quarreled with each other. Then I made up my mind not to forgive his impolite and nasty actions and sayings. But I made an unforgivable blunder. The worst mistake I made was what I had told not to hold the religious ceremonies onwards. My mother wept dropping her tears on her cheeks. I couldn't understand myself and felt so shameful to my other family members. Fortunately, we held the religious ceremony, and my second brother and I made up. I couldn't help forgiving him. But I thought my great-great grandmother and other forefathers including my late father must have blamed me for my bad behavior and vicious saying. Now I would love to apologize to all of my ancestors, my mother, and my family members for my devilish curses and I pray that they will forgive my blunder. I swear that I won't make such a mistake again.

Wednesday,       January, 23, 2002,                                       cold.

Today was my worst day in my recent ones. Like yesterday, I tried my best in giving lectures to my students and returned to my home so as to eat lunch my lovely wife would serve for me. However, it was only my hope. She was so upset because of my old e-mails. While I was in my work, she surfed a variety of sites on the internet, happened to  check my e-mail box and finally read their contents. From last April to last September, I fell in love with a married woman, Yangmi. She got to know the fact. She was so sad and angry. She looked so miserable. For my part, I felt like hiding myself in mole hole. I told her that they all were useless and worthless and that it was a  valueless happening of past. Nevertheless, she didn't trust me. I could help it. Today was so sorrowful that I wanted to go to sleep earlier than usual. I hope she will forgive me as soon as possible.

These days I have a hard time in controlling myself but I don't know the accurate reason. I want to escape from this terrible situation.

Thursday,          January, 24, 2002,                                            cold.

Yesterday my wife wailed in front of my mother and me. It made me feel so sorry and sad. I was determined to love her with all my heart. When I got up this morning, it was fortunate that she had a thought of understanding me. Out of question, she was my lovely angel. Happily I started for my private student's house, gave her a good lesson and returned to my home with happiness. My wife prepared noodle for lunch. We ate it deliciously, even though it was a little swollen. In the evening I telephoned my mother to please her. But I made a great error to her. She must have been sorrowful and cried. I was a bad guy. Mother! I am sorry. Please forgive me for this once. Tomorrow I am going to my mother's house to beg her for forgiving me. I really love her and believe in her. She is my another angel. This time I will no doubt stop smoking once and for all(cold turkey). I have not smoked even a cigarette for 5 days. For all the world I will succeed in quitting smoking. I bet it will be very helpful to my life. These days I have been studying English much further than before. I will go on doing it and I will for certain write my own great essays and poems in English. I trust and love myself.

Friday,        January, 25, 2002,                                                cold.

Today I got paid my salary. It was my first pay after I had moved my job. It was more than I thought. At night I met one of my previous students, Hwang Tae-hwan, age 26, in front of a building I have worked in. We went to a bar and there talked with each other about our future and right life. After about 2 hours, we went out of the bar and were headed for our respective house. It was a pleasant day.

Saturday,         January, 26, 2002,                   a heavy snow, storm and rain.

My family woke up earlier than usual because we were supposed to go to my senior's house in Ha-dong. I jumped out of my bed to the living room. To my strange, it was colder than yesterday. Just then I was surprised to look out of the glass door of the living room. All the world was covered with white cloth like a body. In addition, it was raining with snow. I had to decide whether I would go to Mr. Park's house or not. Before long I determined to visit him. At 10 a.m. I dropped in at my mother's house so as to receive money I had given the previous day. She and my nephew wanted to go to my first brother's house and I drove them there. At 10:15 I started from Jinju for Ha-dong and reached there at 11:15 a.m. On the way there we had a heavy snow, but when we almost got to the town called Jin-gyo, I had to drive through a heavy rain. With all bad weather, his family welcomed us with all their heart. After about 1 hour, Mr. Sim's family arrived. A bad and strange weather didn't hinder us, Mr' Park, Mr' Sim and me, from going fishing. We drove forward through a heavy snow and rain. Every now and then we met a hard blizzard, but it couldn't so much as slow down our march. At about 2 p.m. we reached our destination which consisted of several huge rocks. It was still rained heavily and what's worse was stormy. Soon all of us were drenched to the skin. We felt so cold. In the face of such a terrible condition, we did our best to catch fish in sea water. Though two hours have passed since we began to fish, we didn't have a satisfactory result. Unhappy as we felt, we had no choice bet to leave there. It was 4:30 p.m. We had to return to Mr. Park's house as soon as possible. Our families were waiting for us. They may have been tired from waiting for us and been very hungry, I thought. Mr. Park ordered a delicious raw fish and a hot fish stew called 'Mae-un-tang'. We all enjoyed them over communicating with one another. After that, we drove to a singing place and had a pleasant time there. When we returned to our sleeping place, it was past 11:00. We had a happy time again. Not until 3 a.m. Sunday did we go to sleep. It was a very wonderful and pleasant day. I was happy to be on good terms with good persons. I hope our relationship will last for good.

Sunday,        January, 27, 2002,                                       a little warm.

At 7:30 a.m. my wife woke me up because my second son had kept on crying due to famine. As a matter of fact, I knew that his food, powder milk, would fall short almost this dawn, but I couldn't buy it anywhere last night. His crying made me and my wife feel sad. Although we felt so tired and drowsy, we had to leave there in haste. After saying good-bye, we started for Jinju. I hurried to drive to my mother's house. At 8:15 a.m. we arrived there. My wife hurried to mix powder milk with lukewarm water and fed my second son with it. I knew my wife didn't sleep a wink last night on the ground of Ji-hun, my second son. She appeared to be an angel. Seeing that I had a harsh fatigue, soon I fell asleep. I took much nap. In the evening I gave my smart student named Lee Su-jeong a good private lesson.   I didn't go to my father's country last weekend and this weekend, and so I felt so sorry to him. Next Wednesday I will necessarily visit him with my lovely family. Father! I am sorry but forgive me for once.

Monday,        January, 28, 2002,                                             cold.   Today's Expression: ① I think he lacks intelligence.(그는 지능이 모자라는 것 같아.)

② I think he is lacking in the I.Q. Department. (그는 머리가 좀 모자라는 것 같아.)

③ I think he is a few cards short of a full deck.(그는 좀 모자라는 사람 같아.)

④ I think he's got a few screws loose.(그는 나사가 좀 풀린 사람 같아.)

The following writing is a good address which the chairman of Coca-cola company sent his employees on the first day of January, 2002.

Life is.......

Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling five balls in the air. You name them : work, family, health, friends, and spirit, and you're keeping all of them in the air. You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls - family, health, friends, and spirit are made of glass. If you drop these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged, or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life.

How?

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as your life, for without them, life is meaningless. Don't let life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect. It is this fragile thread that binds us together. Don't be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn to be brave.

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find.

The quickest way to receive love is to give ; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly ; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings. Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been, but also where you are going.

Don't forget that a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated. Don't use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved. Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way. Yesterday is a History, Tomorrow is a Mystery, and Today is a gift ; that's why we call it the Present.

Tuesday,          January, 29, 2002,                                         cold.

Today I had nothing to write about, so I copied down a news listed in the Korea Herald Paper instead of my routine(commonplace) daily lives.

Title: Martin Luther King's daughter recalls his predictions of his death.

Yolanda King, the eldest daughter of the late Rev. Martin Luther King Jr., recalled Monday that her father long expected that he wouldn't live past age 40.  That expectation came true on April 4, 1968, when James Earl Ray shot King at a Memphis motel, one day after he predicted his own death in a speech supporting striking city sanitation workers. He was 39. □He was as prepared as he could ever be,□ Ms. King said. □He was very much at peace with what he said. I don't know if he knew it would be the next day.□Ms. King was the keynote speaker at Boston□s annual MLK Memorial Breakfast.

Celebrations of the federal King holiday were planned across America. In Atlanta, first lady Laura Bush was to speak at Ebenezer Baptist Church where King &#8211; who would have turned 73 last Tuesday &#8211; once preached.  Ms. King, an actress, producer and lecturer, recalled another side to her father: a prankster who related as easily to his children as to his peers in the civil rights movement. □He was a big kid with us. We got to see the fun side. My memories are so full of love and laughter, and mischievousness,□ she said.  In Detroit for a prayer breakfast, her brother Martin Luther King III said his father would be pleased with progress in the civil rights movement, but noted there are issues such as poverty that remain troublesome.  He said he hoped those honoring his father with the holiday would give back to society. □We don't see it as a day off,□ Martin Luther King III said. □We see it as a day on which people can be involved in community service.□ In New York, Mayor Michael Bloomberg planned to attend the Rev. Al Sharpton□s annual tribute to King. That is in contrast to former Mayor Rudolph Giuliani, who had avoided contact with the civil rights leader.

Wednesday,         January, 30, 2002,                                         cold.   Today's Expression: A: Hi, how's your life? (요즘 생활이 어때? = How are you doing?

How's your life going?)

B: Me? Same work same story. (다람쥐 챗바퀴 돌 듯 늘 같아. = I run the rat race.)

The moment I get up every morning, I always think of my today's work like other people. It is a great number of things to do only by myself. They lie before me all the time. I seem to be choked up about them. Nevertheless I cannot but try my best for my life for good and all(for ever) and be possessed with doing them. I think it is my destiny. Owing to my destiny, I feel so happy. Life is very short.

Thursday,         January, 31, 2002,                                             cold.

Today's Expression: I was choked up about his behavior.(저는 그의 행동 때문에 화가 납니다.)

This summer this country will co-sponsor the FIFA World Cup championship with Japan which is a feast for all the people on earth who love soccer. It will, beyond doubt, be the biggest and most wonderful event. Almost all the people loving soccer will watch it in the field or on TV. Korea will have to compete with three countries, Poland, USA and Portugal. I think they all is above my country in soccer. Though I should(영국) like to(= would like to = want to:미국) deny it, it is undeniable fact. It makes people in this country sad and angry. They really hope Korea will be included in 16 strong teams in oncoming competition. I hope their hope will come true, but I can't be certain of it for the life of me. I only want to shout, "Korea! Way to go!". Doing our best is the most precious thing.

Friday,       February, 1, 2002,                              a little warm for winter.

Yesterday I got paid my private lesson fee from my special student's (because she, Lee Su-jeong, is so pretty and smart, I call her a special student.) mother. Seeing that I didn't give lessons three times during the last month, yesterday was not my pay-day. Still she gave me a good reward. I felt so grateful to her. I made a determination to try my best in teaching my special pupil. Last night my previous student, Ko Sang-hyeok, called me up. We met at a small bar and talked with each other over drink. He told me that he would marry a nice lady on the 10th of March who was a science teacher in Dae-a middle school. I congratulated him on her marriage in advance. He appeared to be so happy. After I had conversed with him for about 2 hours, I returned to my home late at night. On the way home, I brought a video tape titled "My wife is a gangster." I watched it with my wife, even though it was so late. It was very exciting that not until we had watched it to the end did we go to bed. It was 3:30 a.m. I had to get up at 8:40 a.m. because I had classes from 9:30 to 11:20. I felt so sleepy, but I went to my work. Tired as I was, I gave my students good lessons. I was proud of myself.

Saturday,       February, 2, 2002,                                               cold.

Today's Expression: Hey, go for it! (이봐, 그냥 한번 부딪쳐 봐!)

I didn't go to my father's country for the last 3 weeks so it was necessary for me to visit him today. First of all I thought that I would take my mother and my nephew to a famous spa in Ha-dong to take a bath. At 8:20 a.m. my mother came to my house. We started for  my second brother's house to bring my lovely nephew, Jeong Hyun-woo. We three left Jinju for Hadong and reached there at around 10. Since it was Saturday, we could see fewer people who came to bathe than usual. (We usually came here on Sunday.) When we finished bathing, it was noon. It was pleasant to clean body. By making our body cleaned, we can have our mind cleaned. At 12:30 we could meet my late father. He welcomed us with an untroubled mind. For the last 3 weeks, I was in a few unpleasant events; that is to say, I went through bad things. While I was bowing to him, I begged him for forgive me and swore on him and my mother that I would unite my brothers and that I would lead them to a right road. They were smiling at me and so was I. A good mission makes a man great and faithful.

Sunday,       February, 3, 2002,                                                cold.

Today's Expression: 당신의 일에 몰두하며 이 해를 보내라. (Spend this year engrossed                                           in (preoccupied with, absorbed in, indulged in) your work.)

*spend years 다음에 수동의 동사 표현을 써야할 경우, 어떤 형태로 쓰면 되나?

☞ '～ 하면서 시간을 보내다'라고 할 때는 spend time 다음에 ～ing 구문을 사용해 작문한다. 하지만 ～ing 구문이 'being + 과거 분사'의 수동의 형식을 취할 경우는 보통 being을 생략한 채 과거 분사만을 쓴다.

EX) I spent my school years (being) satisfied with the studies.

Today I had nothing special so I copied down two good poems written by a good poet, Jo Jong-rae, who was a laborer poet.

[적 응]

而立의 중반에 접어들던

어느 낮은APT에 이사가던 날

땅집에는 별일없이 잠을 잘자던 기억,

아-아 붕뜬 내 몸이 둥실 둥실,

불면의 날이 머물때를 생각하면 아득해

잠을 청하기위해 내가먼저 책을 찾기로 했다

책이 나를 만나면 책이먼저 잠을잤다

어떤날은 책은 또렷한데 내가먼저 잠을잤다

글쓰기를 마음먹은 날

하-얀 아침까지 글과 살았다

학문은 이루기 어려운것

남은 힘이 있으면 공부하라는 말씀 왜 몰랐을까

언제부터인가 창작의 토대를 다지고자

문학공부를 시작했다

아득하게 높은 집에서

붕 뜬 몸으로 책을 만난것은 행운이었다

글을 하루라도 만나지 않는 날의 조바심,

책이 나를 필요로 하듯이 내가 책을 필요로 할때

저문 석양무렵 부터 하-얀 아침까지

잠을 못만나고 글병(病)을 만나버렸다.

[가을에는 자신을 돌아보라]

절박한 사연이 없어도

외로워지는 계절,

가을에는

자신을 돌아보게 하라

고요한 자기 응시는

견디기 힘든 선택 일까

무심히 지나는 계절도

아무도 모르게 자신을 돌아본다

새로운 자기찾기는

내가 살아있다는 것,

가을에는 무거운 일상을 벗어나

내가 어디쯤 가는지 돌아보라

붉은 나뭇잎 하나둘 이별할때

떠나는 그를 보면 이슬에 젖어있어

조용히 내 모습을 돌아보고 생각한다

살아있는것들 모두 고백하는 계절에.

Monday,       February, 4, 2002,                                            cold.

지례예술촌

-조종래-

고독이 다른 곳 보다 다르게

낭만이 되는 그곳에 가면

아득히 빛바랜 시간을 지키는 고택 마당가에

하-얀 도라지꽃,

보라빛 외로움이 핀다

숲 그림자 저혼자서

가만이 호수에 내려오면

예인들의 잔잔한 삶이 여울지는 곳,

아-

사람들은 지난날이 수몰(水沒)된건 알지만

이따끔 수몰되는 구름은 왜 모를까

창작을 위한 산고(産苦)의 안개 겉힐때

호수 수심깊이 보이는 초가지붕은

그리움,

아득한 시간속 수심을 들여다 보면

어린날의 언덕으로 바람이 수몰되고 있다.

변신하는 山

조종래

겨울이 끝나는 숲길을 가면

핑크색으로 우뚝 선 산이있다

지나간 계절에 외로웠던 나무

바람이 꽃잎을 피우는 산이있다

산이 분홍빛 화장하는 것은 그리움

끝없이 떠나 가는것은 계절뿐인가

죽은듯한 나무에 꽃은 피어나고

둥지떠난 새들이 돌아오고 있다

산이 내려오기도 전에

바람이 찾아와 맞아주는구나

산은 꽃잎을 전하는 사랑의 전령사

누군가 사랑을 밟고 간다

수줍은 산이 뿌리는 꽃잎은 희망,

겨울이 숲길을 가만이 떠나가면

스스로 들켜버린 산이

연분홍 빛 첫사랑을 앓고있다.

-할아버지 안녕하세요-

조종래

문학을 즐기시는

할아버지 안녕하세요

아버지는 불암산 부대에

출근 하셨어요

숙부님과 할머니 세분께서

오늘은 저를 찾아 오시는군요

엄마 뱃속에서

할아버지 근황을 모두 알고있는 저는

01.9.21일 21시36분에

세상 소풍나온 채은[彩恩]이예요.

Tuesday,         February, 5, 2002,                                              cold.

-후지산28-

조종래

바람 나그네들 머무는

그 언덕에 가면

지구촌 떠돌이들

지나다 들리는 산이 있다

태평양 건너던 구름이

이따금 지나다 걸리는 산

산이 구름 양말 신고있다

하늘을 떠받치다 지쳐

까맣게 타버린 산

태평양의 떠돌이 바람들

가끔 모여드는 그곳

3779m 산정에 서면

회색 산 길에 석양빛이 얼굴에 반사한다

아득한 산행길에 지쳐누우면

현해탄건너 호랑이발이 보이는 산.

계절이 가는 풍경

조종래

구름 지나다 걸린

푸른 산 너머

외딴집 마당가

산까치 다정한 모습을

감나무 서넛이

한가로이 보고 섰다

바람 가득한 빈터

붉게 달아오른 감나무는

한잎 두잎 옷을 벗고

산까치 날아간 가지끝

수줍은 빛 붉은 새알 몇이

저문 산곡(山谷)을 밝히고 있다.

[백조의 호수]

-조종래-

산 벗꽃 봄 그리움이

호숫가에 피어날때

아침 산넘어 나를 맞는 연못에는

작은 한마리 백조가

산곡(山谷)의 외로움 모두 안고있다

숲속길 풀잎이 햇살에 일어설때

백조는 혼자서 말이없다

느리게 헤엄치던 낯선 시간의 쓸쓸함

푸른 산 그림자 내리는 외로운 호숫가

그리운 꽃잎지는 날

내가

세상에서 잊혀지는 곳에

풀잎이 피어나듯

흩어진 고독은 꽃으로 피어날까

가버린 백조는 가슴속에 있고

아물지않는 아픔은

느리게 찾아간 시간의 그리움

백조 떠있는 호숫가에 서면

사람들은 잘 모른다

산벗꽃 봄 그리움에 흰꽃잎 지는 것을.

후지산(富士山)30

조종래

일출이 석양무렵처럼 외로운

어느산에 가면

6시간 등산길에

6가지 날씨를 모두 만나는 산이있다

태평양에 몸을 씻은

초저녁 별이 나를보고 깜박이면

벼랑에서 하얗게 서성이던 밤안개

바람속 내어깨를 감싸고

갑자기 눈섭달이 구름뒤로

몸을 숨기는듯 하더니

험상궂은 동풍이 비까지 데리고 나타나

찌는 여름 밤, 사시나무되어 떨어보는 신비함,

타는 산언덕에 지친 불청객이 되어

일몰의 착시같은 일출을 만나거든

먼-길 나선 이국의 나그네여

뒤 한번 돌아보라

6시간 하산길에

6가지 날씨를 모-두 만나고 나면

산그늘 벗어나기도 전에

해무[海霧]에 뜨는 산.

[약 속]

-백모님 영전에서-

하-얀

국화 한송이 향으로는

밟히는 흙냄새가 너무 진하군요

꼿꼿한 그 모습을

다시 한번 더

어디서 뵐 수 있을까요

오늘 이,매장이 꼿꼿한 육신이 삭지 않도록

꼭꼭 다져 밟고있지만

찾아 올꺼예요

당신의 환-한 미소가 저희들을 돌아보는 날

영전에 놓은 꽃 한송이 시들기 전에

다시 뵈러 올겁니다

하-얀

국화 한송이 향으로는

밟히는 흙냄새가 너무 진하군요

우리 살던 언덕으로

꼿꼿한 옛날 모습을 되돌려

뫼시려는 날의 약속.

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#조종래:대한민국 근로자문학상 수상

한국문인협회회원

POSCO노무안전부제직

[애채]문학 동인회장

[시를닮은 사람들]동인회장

Wednesday,         February, 6, 2002,                                         warm.

Today's Expression: She always thinks aloud. (그는 생각한 것을 항상 입밖으로 말합니다.: 그는 생각없이 말합니다.)

Today's was my grandfather's religious ceremony day. I know he suffered from a terrible disease in his later life and passed away in an earlier age than common people like my father. When I was born in this world, he was alive even though he was sick. My parents told me that I had played beside lying grandfather. I can, however, by no means remember his appearance. It is an unfortunate and sad thing.    All my family members except my youngest brother, who lived in Tae-jeon where his work was located, attended the strict and significant ceremony. Many relatives came to my mother's house to devote their holy minds to the sacred rite. We all hold the ceremony with all our hearts. My grandfather, grandmother and father must have been pleased with our sincere attitude. Religious ceremony is an important and hallowed event to our family. I will carry on holding the beautiful ritual with all my heart.

Thursday,        February, 7, 2002,                            warm.                 A famous poet and professor, called 'Im-bo', who has worked in Chung-buk University found fault with a poem of mine, titled 'On the first Excursion Day of New Year' and I wrote my opinion with sincerity in return to his criticism.

<임보 교수님의 시평론>

새해 첫 소풍날에

-정봉현 지음[경남 진주 거주.학원 영어 선생님]-

이 밤 다 가기 전에

바다를 헤쳐 솟아오는 해를 보러 가리라

사랑하는 사람들 잠든 세월을 깨워

저마다 젊은 파랑새 한 마리씩 짝을 지워

짙은 어둠 토해버릴 해를 맞으러 가리라

아픈 자의 병상에 빛을,

가난한 자의 심장에 불을,

고독한 자의 눈에 소망을,

교만한 자의 가슴에 믿음을 잉태시키던

삼백 육십 오일 그 붉었던 사랑을

삼백 육십 오일 늘 푸를 사랑에게 바치는

太初 그 거룩한 의식을 하얀 맨살로 품으리라

바라보는 눈길 하나 하나에

등돌렸던 아픔 가닥 가닥 담고

내쉬는 숨결 한 올 한 올에

들이쉰 생명 모락 모락 심어

숙이는 고개 마디 마디

나 아닌 나를 채우리라

내가 아닌 너를 채우리라

오늘은 어제의 거울, 그 자체로 하여

아름답고,

오늘은 내일의 마음, 그 자체로 하여

풍요로운 새해의 첫 소풍날,

사랑하는 사람들 손에 손잡고

어둠 삭혀 마시며 해맞이 가는 날.

2002, 1, 1.

<새해 첫 소풍날에>를 읽고

임보

새해 아침의 해맞이를 소재로 한 작품이군요. 사물을 긍정적이고 적극적으로 바라다보는 자세가 마음에 듭니다. 그러나 부분적으로는 표현의 조화로움에 아쉬움이 있어 지적해 보도록 하겠습니다.

제1연의 1행 '이 밤 다 가기 전에'는 가는 '밤'에 대한 아쉬움이 느껴지는 것 같아서 마음에 걸립니다. '새날의 동이 트기 전에'로 하면 어떨까 싶습니다.

제2연은 연인들의 해맞이 정황인데 1행에서 '잠든 세월을 깨워'는 의미가 불분명하니 없어도 좋을 것 같고 2행의 끝 '지워'는 '하여'가 어떨까요. 그리고 3행의 '토해버릴'은 '삼켜버릴'이 어둠을 소멸시키는 표현으로는 더 적절할 것 같습니다.

제3연은 아침의 태양이 여러 경우에 긍정적으로 작용한다는 사실들을 나열해 보이고 있군요. 제1행은 삭제해도 좋을 것 같습니다. (그 다음에 제시된 상황들과 잘 어울리지 않습니다) 제2,3,4행에서 서로 연관지어 제시된 사물들이 다음과 같습니다. (가난--심장--불, 고독--눈---소망, 교만--가슴--믿음) '불, 소망, 믿음'을 '풍요, 기쁨, 겸손'으로 바꾸고 싶군요. 그렇게 해야 앞의 결손(가난, 고독, 교만)에 대한 보상이 이루어지니까요. 그리고 4,5,6행의 시제들을 현재 시제로 하는 것이 좋겠습니다.

제4연 2행 끝 '담고'는 '풀고'로 3행의 처음 '내쉬는'은 '들이쉬는'으로 4행의 처음 '들이쉰'은 '새'로 바꾸면 어떨까요.

제5연의 첫 세 행은 너무 관념적이어서 삭제하는 것이 좋겠습니다.

지적이 많아서 너무 복잡하지요? 작품 전체를 다시 정리해 보겠습니다.

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<새해 첫 소풍날에>

새날의 동이 트기 전에

바다를 헤쳐 솟아오른 해를 보러 가리라

사랑하는 사람들

저마다 젊은 파랑새 한 마리씩 짝을 하여

짙은 어둠 삼켜버릴 해를 맞으러 가리라

가난한 자의 심장에 풍요를

고독한 자의 눈에 기쁨을

교만한 자의 가슴에 겸손을 잉태시키는

삼백육십오 일 그 붉은 사랑을

삼백육십오 일 늘 푸른 사랑에게 바치는

태초의 그 거룩한 의식을 하얀 맨살로 품으리라

바라보는 눈길 하나 하나에

등돌렸던 아픔 가닥가닥 풀고

들이쉬는 숨결 한 올 한 올에

새 생명 모락모락 심어

숙이는 고개 마디 마디에

나 아닌 나를 채우리라

나 아닌 너를 채우리라

풍요로운 새해의 첫 소풍날,

사랑하는 사람들 손에 손잡고

어둠 삭혀 마시며 해맞이 가는 날.

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건필을 빌어 마지않습니다. 임보.

<지은이의 답글>

우선 바쁘신 중에도 시간을 내어 많은 가르침을 주신 임보 교수님과 그 기회를 주신 운영자님께 감사하다는 말씀을 전하고 싶습니다. 평을 보고 나서 더욱 신중한 자세로 글쓰기에 임해야 겠다는 생각이 가득합니다. 하지만 고쳐 놓으신 글이 제가 이 글을 처음 쓸 때의 마음과는 약간 다른 감이 있어 감히 제 의견도 드리고자 합니다. 배우고자 하는 자세이고 어느 정도의 글에 대한 애착이니 너그럽게 보아주시기를 바라는 마음입니다.

저는 2001년 12월 31일 일부러 잠을 이루질 않았습니다. 이른 새벽 사랑하는 가족들과나의 가족같은 사람들을 깨워 해맞이를 가고자 했기 때문이었습니다. 그들과 함께 해를 보면서 고통받는 사람들에게 희망을 달라고 염원하고 싶었고, 지난 해의 잘못과 얼룩을 털어내고 지우면서 새로운 희망과 계획으로 대체하고자 했습니다. 새해의 아침은 꼭 새 것만을 바라는 것이 아니고 옛 것을 새 것으로 대체하는 마음의 작업을 하는 것, 그래서 새해의 첫 날이 희망만이 솟는 하루가 아니고 지난 해를 떠올려 반성할 수 있고 그리하여 새해의 각오를 더욱 다질 수 있다고 생각하였습니다.

그러기에 한 줄 한 줄의 제 의도는 이런 것이었습니다.

새해 첫 소풍날에

이 밤 다 가기 전에

바다를 헤쳐 솟아오는 해를 보러 가리라

(한 해를 보내는 아쉬움이 담겨 있으며 하지만 이 밤 다 가기 전에 솟아오는 해를 보아야만 과거의 아쉬움과 반성할 것들을 해를 보면서 밀어내고 채울 수 있다는 의도였습니다.)

사랑하는 사람들 잠든 세월을 깨워

저마다 젊은 파랑새 한 마리씩 짝을 지워

짙은 어둠 토해버릴 해를 맞으러 가리라

(여기서 사랑하는 사람들은 남녀 연인들이 아니라 제 사랑하는 가족들과 이웃들이었습니다. 그들은 잠들어 깨지 않고 있기에 한 해(과거)를 반성하고 희망을 가질 수 있는 세월을 놓쳐 버릴 거라고 생각해습니다. 그래서 반성할 시간과 새로운 것을 계획할 수 있는 시간을 그들에게 주고 싶었습니다. 그들이 서로 짝을 하는 게 아니라 제가 그들에게 희망의 파랑새, 그것도 많은 희망을 가질 수 있는 '젊은' 파랑새를 짝을 지어 주어서 지난 해의 어둠을 토해버릴 해, 즉 희망의 해를 보러 가게 하고 싶었습니다.)

아픈 자의 병상에 빛을,

가난한 자의 심장에 불을,

고독한 자의 눈에 소망을,

교만한 자의 가슴에 믿음을 잉태시키던

삼백 육십 오일 그 붉었던 사랑을

삼백 육십 오일 늘 푸를 사랑에게 바치는

太初 그 거룩한 의식을 하얀 맨살로 품으리라

(빛, 불과 소망은 직설적인 대체보다는 의미를 조금씩 숨기면서 드러내려는 의도였고,

4행의 과거행과 5행의 과거행은 1,2,3,행의 일을 지난 해의 태양이 해왔던 것을 나타내고 그 신성한 임무를 다시 오늘부터 시작될 미래의 태양에게 전한다는 의미에서 6행이 나왔고 과거와 미래를 이어주는 의식은 태초의 역사를 가지고 있는 것이라 여겼기에 순수하고 신성한 이미지를 강조하기 위해 '태초 그 거룩한 의식'이라는 말을 사용하였습니다. 그리고 저도 순수하게 그 사명을 받아들인다는 의미에서 하얀 맨살이 나왔습니다.)

바라보는 눈길 하나 하나에

등돌렸던 아픔 가닥 가닥 담고

내쉬는 숨결 한 올 한 올에

들이쉰 생명 모락 모락 심어

숙이는 고개 마디 마디

나 아닌 나를 채우리라

내가 아닌 너를 채우리라

(다른 연들처럼 이 연도 과거와 현재, 그리고 미래가 아우러지게 하고자 했습니다. 단지 미래의 희망만을 얘기하는 새 날이 아니라 현재의 해를 보면서 지난 날, 내가 외면했던 아픔을 하나 하나 생각해 보고, 숨을 내쉬면서 과거에 들이쉰 생명들을 떠올려보면서 반성의 고개를 숙이고, 미래의 다짐을 하는 장면입니다. 이제부터는 과거의 나가 아닌 나, 나보다 더 너를 사랑하는 세월을 살아가겠다고 다짐을 합니다.)

오늘은 어제의 거울, 그 자체로 하여

아름답고,

오늘은 내일의 마음, 그 자체로 하여

풍요로운 새해의 첫 소풍날,

사랑하는 사람들 손에 손잡고

어둠 삭혀 마시며 해맞이 가는 날.

(마지막 연도 다른 연과 마찬가지로 과거와 미래를 연결시키는 새해의 첫 날을 얘기하고자 했습니다. 오늘이라는 현재는 어제(과거)를 반성할 수 있게 해주는 시간이라서 더욱 의미있고 아름다우며, 내일(미래)의 희망을 바랄 수 있는 마음을 가질 수 있는 시간이라서 더욱 좋다고 생각했습니다. 이 좋은 시간을 나 혼자만 느끼는 것이 아니고 내 사랑하는 모든 사람들과 함께 맞고 싶었고, 그들도 과거를 반성하며 털고 새해의 희망을 맞으러 함께 간다는 의미에서 마지막 행을 썼습니다. 마지막 행에도 과거와 현재, 미래가 함께 들어가도록 했습니다.)

(전체적으로 새해 첫 소풍날은 미래의 희망만을 가지는 날이라기보다 과거를 생각해보고 반성하면서 이 해를 과거의 잘못을 바로잡는 희망으로 채우며 살아가려는 날이라는 의미로 담고자 했던 게 제 의도였습니다.)

(저의 이 글을 쓸 때의 첫 의도는 이런 마음이었기에, 전체적인 시각에 좀 차이가 있는 것 같아 부끄러움을 무릎쓰고 답글을 남겨 봅니다. 다시 한번 교수님께서 주신 정성과 가르침에 머리 숙여 감사드리며 글쓰기를 좋아하는 사람으로써, 빈약한 마음이나마 저의 열정을 교수님께 전하고자 하오니 널리 혜량하여 주시기를 부탁드립니다.)

Friday,       February, 8, 2002,                              cloudy but warm.        Today I found out a short but wonderful passage in my text book, and so I wanted to transfer it to my diary notebook. The below writing is the very one.

"The best equipment a young man can have for the battle of life is a conscience, common sense and good health. There is no friend so good as a good conscience. There is no enemy so dangerous as a bad conscience. Conscience makes us either kings or slaves. It is up to you whether you will be a king or a slave in your life. I want to be a king with a good conscience in my life."    When you read the above passage, how do you feel about that?

Saturday,    February, 9, 2002,                      warm.                            Last night I drank a lot, so I couldn't remember my bad behaviors. It was obvious that I should make mistakes. I don't know the reason I blacked out. Anyway it was a very shameful thing, therefore it is, I think, natural that I should correct my bad habit. It is no use crying over spilt milk. I shall be careful onwards before I spill milk on the floor. For the time being(For the present) alcohol will be my enemy, not my friend. Not until I know the foe shall I love it.

Sunday,        February, 10, 2002,                                             warm.

I stayed at my home all day long. It was not until evening that I went out to give a private lesson to my peculiar student, Lee Su-jeong. At around 9:30 p.m. it was over. Her mother gave me a gift certificate as a present for Seol-nal, which is a korean traditional national holiday. It was 2 days away. I was so glad to receive it. I thought I should present it to my lovely mother. I was pleased with the thought and I hoped that she would be happy with my sincerity.

Monday,        February, 11, 2002,                                             warm.

This was the last day of this year in the lunar calendar. Tomorrow we will have the Lunar New Year's Day. Therefore, today was a very significant day to almost everyone in this country. Like other people, I had many things to reflect on. Besides, I had to make good plans for a new year. I will bury all the bad memories in the ground of past or have them flow down the river of forgetfulness. I shall then meet new and precious affairs body and soul from tomorrow and try my best to accomplish them. Thus, I will make next year mine.

Tuesday,   February, 12, 2002,                                                 warm.

Today was the first day of this year in the lunar calendar which is called Seol-nal in Korea. All my family members gathered in my mother's house early this morning. Children had on new clothes called Seol-bim and even adults had on clean ones. First of all my brothers and their family bowed to mother one after another saying, "May she live long!" In return for that, she gave us a small amount of money called Se-bae-don and wished that all of us would stay healthy this year and that we all would fulfill all the dreams we want to. And then we held religious ceremonies over about an hour and half. After that, we had brunch along together and four brother including me and my first son went out of my mother's house to visit our ancestors' graves and pay homage to their past lives. When we returned to my mother's house after that, it was about 1:20 p.m. All my family members started from my mother's house for my father's country. On the way, I bought two bouquets of artificial flower for my father. Though we were in the traffic congestion on and off, we could reach there earlier than our expectation. My youngest brother put new flowers which I had bought into fixed vases on both sides and my wife put down several food on the altar in front of my father's tomb. All of us bowed to him in uniform and afterwards I put delicious food such as fish, fruits .. etc onto his grave. He appeared very satisfied with our harmony and affectionate relationship, even though we quarreled with each other a few days ago and we didn't bring a knife and dishes. At 3:00 we drove down my father's country. After that, all the women including children returned to my mother's house and five men including my first son were headed for my first aunt's house in San-cheong. When we finished visiting her and returned to my mother's house, it was almost 6 0'clock. It was getting dark. We hurried to relatives' houses and bowed to them. When it was over completely, it was 10:00 p.m. We felt so tired that my brothers' family wanted to return to their own house. However, I wanted to stay at my mother's house along with all my family and be with my mother and my youngest brother. We talked with each other until late at night. It was a very pleasant day to all my family members. My family members! Way to go!

Wednesday,       February, 13, 2002,                                          warm.

I went to my father-in-law's house with my family this morning. The moment we arrived there, my wife and I bowed to her parents. Though they didn't like me inside their heart, seemingly they appeared to be happy. I stayed there until 8:30 p.m. Even if they wished that my family would sleep in their house, I wanted to come to my house. After all I returned to my mother's house with my family. It was 9:10 p.m. Before long my youngest brother came into my mother's house and gave a gift certificate to my wife. He told her that he had met his previous teacher in high school days and that the great teacher had given it to him saying, "Please take this gift certificate and give it to your first brother's wife.", for my brother told him that his first brother had helped him to be able to finish his graduate school. My wife was so shy but happy. I felt so grateful to him and his teacher alike. Until then it was a pleasant day, but by and by I confided my complaints on my first brother and his wife. They decided to go their own way on the oncoming big day, my youngest brother's graduate school graduation day. I was sad with their wrong decision, so that I spoke of my grumbles to my mother and my youngest brother. They understood me but somehow I was so ashamed. Now I know the reason why I felt shameful. I AM THE ELDEST SON IN THIS FAMILY. I AM TO BE A COMPETENT MAN SO THAT OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS CAN COUNT ON AND FOLLOW ME. I WILL ENDEAVOR TO BE SUCH A MAN.

Thursday,        February, 14, 2002,                                           warm.

Title: Executioner Has No Regrets, Loves Animals"

Vasily has no regrets about his old job as an executioner, but still cannot bring himself to slaughter animals on his small farm.

Out of work since 1996, when Russia stopped enforcing capital punishment, he told the weekly Argumenti I Fakti that for many of his 25 years on the job even his close friends and family did not know what he was doing.

"I was doing my duty," he said of the 50 convicts he had shot in the back of the head with a pistol. "I have no regrets."

When he quit, he wrote in his resignation letter: "Execution by shooting is no longer practiced. Society no longer has need of my profession."

The death penalty is still on the books in Russia, but former President Boris Yeltsin ordered a halt to executions in 1996.

The Constitutional Court also ruled that courts could not hand down death sentences as long as some Russian regions had juries and others did not. But that hurdle is set to vanish this year when reforms set up jury trials countrywide.

Public opinion overwhelmingly favors capital punishment, and death penalty opponents worry that the Yeltsin-era moratorium may not hold up.

"I confess that each execution left a bitter after-taste. Death was passing through me," Vasily said. "Now at last it is possible to sleep easily and not torment myself with thoughts that I have become a murderer."

Vasily, whose surname was not given and who was pictured with his eyes blanked out and holding a shotgun, said he had been motivated by both the desire to punish and to fulfil his professional duty.

"Before each execution, according to instructions, I studied thoroughly the criminal case. To shoot or not to shoot? Every executioner had to decide that question for himself," he said.

Vasily, who now lives and works on an allotment with his wife, son and daughter-in-law, said that it was difficult for him when he first left his job as an executioner.

"First I couldn't help thinking: it was a dirty job, but it was a job, and I lost it. Then I realized that I had exchanged prison barracks for something much better," he said. "I built a house from red brick and I have a little plot," he said.

"But I have one little problem -- I can't bring myself to slaughter a pig or kill a chicken. So I make my son do it. And he laughs and says, 'Father, you're such a little softy.'"

from The Korea Herald, 02-09-01

[주요어휘]

1) executioner: 사형집행인(자)         2) slaughter : 도살하다

3) capital punishment: 사형, 극형(death penalty)

4) convicts: 기결수, 죄인               5) hand down: 내리다, 언도하다

6) moratorium: 모라토리움(일시적 정지, 연기)     7) after-taste: 뒷맛

8) criminal case: 범죄 사건            9) allotment: 경작 부지(농지)

10) plot: 채소밭                         11) softy: 유약한 사람, 감정적인 사람

[시사용어]

The Constitutional Court: 헌번재판소

한 국가 내에서 최고의 실정법규범인 헌법에 관한 분쟁이나 의의를 사법적 절차에 따라 해결하는 특별재판소. 입법례상 헌법적 분쟁을 일반법원이 담당하도록 하는 유형과 독립된 헌법재판소가 담당하도록 하는 유형이 나뉘고 있는 바, 미국과 일본 등은 전자에 해당되고 독일과 오스트리아 등은 후자에 해당된다. 헌법재판소는 법적 분쟁을 사법적으로 해결한다는 점에서는 일반법원과 같으나 특히 정치적 파급효과가 큰 헌법적 분쟁을 대상으로 하며, 헌법을 최종적으로 유권해석하는 위치에 있다는 점에서 일반법원과 구별된다. 우리나라에서는 1960년 제2공화국헌법에 의해 헌법재판소의 설치가 규정되고 있었으나 실제 구성되기 전에 5 ․16군사정변에 의해 무산되었다. 그 이후 법원 또는 헌법위원회가 헌법적 분쟁을 담당하다가 1987년 개정된 현행헌법에서 다시금 헌법재판소제도가 도입되어 1988년 헌법재판소가 최초로 구성되었다. 헌법재판소는 법원의 제청에 의한 법률의 위헌여부 심판, 탄핵의 심판, 정당의 해산 심판, 국가기관 상호간, 국가기관과 지방자치단체 간 및 지방자치단체 상호간의 권한쟁의에 관한 심판, 법률이 정하는 헌법소원에 관한 심판 등을 담당한다.

[ 직독직해 ]

Vasily / has no regrets / about his old job / as an executioner, / but / still cannot bring / himself / to slaughter animals / on his small farm. //

바실리는 사형집행인으로서의 옛 직업에 대해서는 후회스러움이 전혀 없으나 여전히 그의 조그마한 농장에 있는 동물들을 도살하지는 못합니다.

Out of work / since 1996, / when / Russia / stopped enforcing capital punishment, / he / told the weekly Argumenti i Fakti / that for many of his 25 years / on the job / even his close friends and family / did not know / what he was doing. //

러시아 정부가 사형집행을 금지한 지난 96년이후 실직한 그는 주간지인 아규멘티 아이 파크티와의 인터뷰에서 사형집행인으로서의 25년동안 심지어 그의 친한 친구나 가족들조차 그가 무슨 일을 하고 있었는지 몰랐다고 밝혔습니다.

"I / was doing my duty," / he / said / of the 50 convicts / he / had shot / in the back of the head / with a pistol. / "I / have no regrets." //

그는 자신이 권총으로 머리 뒤쪽을 쐈던 50명의 기결수에 대해서 "내 임무를 수행한 것"이라고 "후회는 없습니다"라고 말했다.

When / he / quit, / he / wrote / in his resignation letter /:/ "Execution / by shooting / is no longer practiced. / Society / no longer has need of my profession ." //

그는 직장을 그만 둘 당시 사직서에 "사살에 의한 사형 집행은 더이상 이행되지 않으며 사회는 내 직업을 더이상 필요로 하지 않는다"라고 밝혔다.

The death penalty / is still on the books / in Russia, / but / former President Boris Yeltsin / ordered a halt / to executions / in 1996. //

사형 제도는 러시아에서 여전히 시행되고 있지만 보리스 옐친 전 대통령은 1996년 사형집행 금지 명령을 내렸다.

The Constitutional Court / also ruled / that courts / could not hand down / death sentences / as long as / some Russian regions / had juries / and others did not. // But / that hurdle / is set to vanish / this year / when / reforms / set up jury trials / countrywide. //

또한 러시아 헌법 재판소는 러시아 일부 지역이 배심원제를 갖고 있고 다른 지역은 그렇지 않는 한 법원이 사형 판결을 내릴 수 없다는 결정을 내린 바 있다. 그러나 이러한 장애는 올해 배심원 재판의 전국적인 실시라는 개혁으로 사라지게 된다.

Public opinion / overwhelmingly favors / capital punishment, / and / death penalty opponents / worry / that the Yeltsin-era moratorium / may not hold up. //

여론은 압도적으로 사형제도를 지지하고 있어 사형제도 반대파들은 옐친 시대의 모라토리움(일시중단)이 계속 유지되지 못할 것을 우려하고 있다.

"I / confess / that each execution / left a bitter after-taste. / Death / was passing through me," / Vasily / said. / "Now / at last / it is possible / to sleep easily / and not torment myself /  with thoughts / that I / have become a murderer." //

바실리는 "솔직히 말씀드리면 모든 사형집행은 씁쓸한 뒷맛을 담깁니다. 죽음을 온몸으로 느꼈습니다" 며 "지금은 마침내 편안하게 잠을 잘 수가 있게 되었고 내가 살인자가 되었다는 생각으로 고통을 겪지 않을 수 있게 됐지요"라고 말했다.

Vasily, / whose surname / was not given / and who was pictured / with / his eyes / blanked out / and holding a shotgun, / said / he / had been motivated / by both the desire to punish / and to fulfil his professional duty. //

자신의 성을 밝히지 않고 두 눈을 흐릿하게 표시한 채 총을 든 모습으로 촬영한 바실리는 징계를 하겠다는 것과 자신의 직업적인 의무를 완수하겠다는 2가지 바램에 의해 이같은 일을 하게 됐었다고 말했다.

"Before each execution, / according to instructions, / I / studied thoroughly the criminal case. // To shoot or not to shoot? / Every executioner / had to decide / that question / for himself," / he / said. //

그는 "모든 사형집행이 있기전, 지시에 따라서 나는 그 범죄 사건을 완전하게 공부했습니다. 쏠 것인가 아니면 쏘지 말 것인가? 모든 사형 집행인은 그 질문을 스스로 판단해야 했습니다"라고 말했다.

Vasily, / who now lives / and works on an allotment / with his wife, son and daughter-in-law, / said / that / it / was difficult / for him / when / he / first left his job / as an executioner. //

그의 아내, 아들 그리고 의붓딸과 함께 살며 경작 농지에서 일하는 있는 바실리는 사형집행인으로서의 직장을 떠났던 초기에 힘들었다고 말했다.

"First / I / couldn't help thinking /: / it was a dirty job, / but it was a job, / and I lost it. / Then / I / realized / that / I / had exchanged prison barracks / for something much better," / he said. / "I / built a house / from red brick / and / I / have a little plot," / he said. //

그는 "처음에는 오로지 사형집행인이라는 것이 더러운 직업이었지만 하나의 직업이었고 난 그것을 잃어버렸다는 생각이 들었습니다. 그런 다음 깨달았지요 내가 교도소 건물을 훨씬 좋은 것으로 바꿨습니다"라며 "나는 붉은  벽돌로 집을 만들었고 작은 채소밭도 갖게 되었죠"라고 말했다.

"But / I / have one little problem / -- I / can't bring myself / to slaughter a pig / or kill a chicken. / So / I / make / my son / do it. / And / he / laughs and says, / 'Father, / you're such a little softy.'" //

"그러나 내게 조그만 문제가 있습니다. 내 자신이 돼지나 닭 한마리도 도살하지 못한다는 것이죠. 그래서 내 아들에게 그것을 시킵니다. 그리면 내 아들은 웃으며 말하죠.. "아빠는 꽤 유약한 어른이군요"

Friday,  February, 15, 2002,                                                   warm.

Today's Expression:He became an employee of the year hands down.(그는 쉽게 올해의 사원으로 선발되었다.)

Hands down: '쉽게, 용이하게, 또는 틀림없는, 의심의 여지 없이' 등의 뜻

(EX) a hands down victory:확실한(당연한) 승리.

employee of the year:회사에서 선발하는 최우수 모범 사원

My had a flat tire this morning, and what's worse I didn't know how to change tires, and so I couldn't walk up to my house leaving my car behind on the sidewalk. After I reached my house, I called my first brother, but I couldn't talk with him on the phone. He didn't answer his cell phone. However, in a few minutes he telephoned me and asked me why I had called him up. I explained to him the reason. He told me to come to me in 10 minutes. I met him in front of my house in exactly 10 minutes. We went to my car in his car. He changed my flat tire into spare one. He seemed to be so boastful. I drove my car to a garage my middle school friend had been running. To me, this morning was an unlucky time, but I was so pleased with my brother's faithfulness to me. Obviously, BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER.

Saturday,        February, 16, 2002,                                       warm.

Alas! I drank like fish last night even though I sweared I would not love alcohol any more. Not until this dawn did I return home. My wife got mad at me very much. I couldn't look at my wife's face head-on on account of much shame. My two sons were sleeping peacefully without any thought. They seemed to be angels. If they come to know my bad behavior later on, probably they will blame me and not so much as forgive me. It must be a fearful and miserable thought. I will endeavor not to make such a mistake again. From now on I will try to be the best son to my mother, the best father to my sons, and the best husband to my wife. Otherwise, I shall be a forever failure in this life. I don't want to be so. I will make my own way through all the temptations coming towards me. I love myself, which I know is the best way to love my life.

Sunday,       February, 17, 2002,                      warm for the winter weather.

Today's Expression: My son is hyperactive. (나의 아들은 너무 극성이야.)

I stayed at home all day long because I had nothing special to do. Even in the evening I didn't have to (need to) go out of my house to give a private lesson. My special student, Lee Su-jeong, told me that she would study for the purpose of the first test for differentiating students and organizing each class by means of their grades. I agreed to her thought.  We promised to meet each other next Wednesday. Anyway this was a boring and meaningless day.

Monday,       February, 18, 2002,                                             cold.

Today's Expression: A funny thing happened to me today. (오늘 제게 별 희한한 일이 있었어요.)

The further and the harder I study English, the more I feel I have to study. Up to now I have been satisfied with very narrow knowledge. In a word, I was no more than the frog in a well. I am already 35. It means I must not neglect my work at all, that is to say, I must not waste even a minute and ought to struggle for my nicer life without stopping a moment. Otherwise, I would be as good as dead. I never want to be so. I will be a benefactor to this world.

Tuesday,       February, 19, 2002,                                             cold.

Today's Expression: I have no girl to go out with. (난 데이트할 상대가 없어.)

Today's classes were so terrible that I couldn't raise my head before my students. If there had been a rat hole, I would have wanted to hide in it. Such a miserable experience must be necessary to me. Without it, I might not enhance my ability and broaden my horizons. In that respect, it must be a good master as well as a great benefactor. What's better, it had me realize myself and strengthened my willpower to do something. Today though I was humiliated before at once my dear students and myself, I was given priceless lesson by today's bitter experience. Now I feel I need to get stronger and more knowledgeable. I trust myself. I can do whatever I want to.

Wednesday,      February, 20, 2002,                                          warm.

Today's Expression: He's gonna make the bars all night. (그는 술집 순례를 하려 합니다.)

I made up preliminary exam questions for my old students who had studied hard to become good public servants or competent and desirable policepersons. Instead of writing today's affairs down in my diary notebook, I reported the questions on it. From now on I will have to make up such questions and undoubtedly publish my own text book later on. It is one of my several goals in my life.

< English Preliminary Exam 1>

<1-3> Choose the word or phrase which best completes each sentence.

1.At night there are displays of fireworks. Not long ago,          people shot off firecrackers all day long on the Fourth of     July, but so many people were hurt doing this that many          states have made firecrackers (             ).

①celebrated     ②illegal     ③noiseless     ④explosive

2.We came (        ) visiting you last night but decided that       perhaps you wouldn't be at home.

①into            ②near           ③above            ④to

3.The health of the human mind is stimulated by change of         scene just as change of air is tonic for (         ).

①the house      ②the animal     ③the body      ④the air

<4-5> Choose the word or phrase which best completes each sentence.

4.Mr. kim has a good (          ) of the English language.

①grades     ②practice     ③conversation      ④command

5.No sooner (       ) the thief caught sight of the policeman       than he ran away.

①had        ②when          ③as         ④has

※Choose the one underline word or phrase that would not be accepted in     standard written English.

6. The pancreas is an organ ①involving in the ②digestion of      food and ③in the regulation of the sugar ④level in the         bloodstream.

※Choose the sentence which best expresses the given Korean sentence.

7.나는 조국을 떠나고 나서야 비로소 조국을 진정 이해할 수 있었다.

①I could not really understand my fatherland for the first      time until I had left it.

②Not until I left my fatherland could I really understand        it.

③until I had left my fatherland, I could not really                understand it at first.

④It was until I left my fatherland that I could not                understand it really.

※Please read each passage very carefully and answer the given questions.

We know very little about Shakespeare, because, in his day, historical stories   were devoted to the lives of king. It is beyond imagining that a common       actor would be of interest in the future. Similarly, in Scott Joplin's lifetime,   it never occurred to anyone that history would want to know what a           songwriter  - especially a black one - was like.

8.The author says that (                ).

①we know about Shakespeare than Joplin

②we know better about Joplin than Shakespeare

③we know little about Shakespeare and Joplin

④we know less about Shakespeare than Joplin

9.According to this passage, Joplin was most probably (        ).

①a general director                  ②a songwriter

③a play writer                         ④a historian

10.Read the following passage and choose the most proper title.

Each of us has probably wanted to live another life, even if only for a brief    time. It is not a matter of being dissatisfied with our own lives, but it is     more a curiosity about the road not travelled. Of course, one way of          satisfying this curiosity is through travel. Just as we may dream of being     an actor on a stage, travel allows us to experience a different world.          Whether we dream of sitting in a cafe in Paris or on the back of an          elephant in Southeast Asia, travel gives us the chance to do things we have    only imagined.

①Life After Death              ②What Is Travel For?

③How Can We Travel Safely?   ④Tourist Attractions In Europe

<ANSWER>1.② 2.② 3.③ 4.④ 5.① 6.① 7.② 8.③ 9.② 10.②

Thursday,         February, 21, 2002,                       cloudy and rainy.

Today's Expression: She is after your money. (그녀는 널 사랑하는 것이 아니라 너의 돈을 사랑하는 거야.)

This dawn all my family members left Jinju for Seoul to attend a great graduation ceremony for my youngest brother who was going to graduate from Hanyang University graduate school today. In addition, today was the 2nd birthday of my first son, who would be 3 in korean age. We lent a car to go there, but it had a little problem. A window didn't work properly. On the way I had it repaired by a mechanic at a garage which was on the side of expressway to Seoul. We passed through tollgate to Seoul at 9:30 a.m. and at last reached HanYang University at 10:10. We had to wander here and there to find an empty parking space. In the end we parked a lent car. My youngest brother went to his department office to borrow his graduation gown and square hat, and the rest of family members waited for him to return to us in front of the building named chemical engineering center. In a few minutes he appeared smiling on his face. He was nice and so handsome. In addition he looked pretty reliable. I was boastful of him like all the other family members. My mother, especially, seemed to be very happy, so I was in a good mood. We had many pictures taken to congratulate him on a gorgeous graduation. My youngest brother himself, who was a hero of the big day, dressed his gown on his mother and my first younger brother took their picture. Both of them appeared so pleased. Our hero guided us all to a laboratory where he had worked on a new cell- a new kind of microbe- in his graduate student days. It was such a wonderful behavior that all the other family members as well as I were impressed. He was a great young guy. I thought once again he deserved to be complimented. His previous co-workers treated us as if to be their dear guests. We all were much satisfied with him and his former colleagues, whereas we felt a little sorry for our unexpected visit. At 12:50 p.m. we left there. (Sadly we had to pay 7,500 won each car for parking for 2 and a half hours. Those concerned with the university were changed into mean merchants rather than those bringing up good students. The fact made us unpleasant.) We needed to be in a hurry to go to lunch. Our hero made a reservation for us. It was a nice restaurant which was very far away from his university. It took us almost 30 minutes to go there by car. All of us, including hero's friend, Jong-hae Kim, and our one-day chauffeur^^, Cheon-ho (I don't know his last name), my second younger brother's co-worker, had very delicious lunch. Besides one of my brothers put forth a cake my wife and I had prepared for my son's birthday party and my youngest brother's graduation congratulation and lit candles on the cake. My nephew and two nieces sang a "happy birthday" song and when it was over we all cheered in unison. We all were in a good mood, though it rained outside. At 2:30 p.m. we went out of the restaurant whose owner was so kind. We started for our home leaving a friend of hero's, Jong-hae, alone. Though he looked lonely, we couldn't help it. My first younger brother's family had a plan to spend their weekend in a resort in Yong-in, Kyeong-gi Province, so the rest of family members had to see them off. While we drove to Yong-in, we were in a traffic congestion, and, what's worse, the road condition was terrible on account of rain and a light blizzard. At the Yong-in resting place we saw them off, even though I was worried about their safety. I prayed that God might help them enjoy their vacation and return to their home safely. In a car coming to our final destination, all the members but my mother and a driver fell to asleep. It was no use trying hard to tolerate sleepiness. In a half-waken condition, I reached Tae-jeon where my youngest brother lived. It was 5:20 p.m. My mother and I got off a car to look around his house for a few minutes. The nest was not so good as I had thought, but strange to say I couldn't help it. I only hoped that he would try his best for his life. Leaving him alone in his house, we departed from Tae-jeon for Jinju. It was still raining. It was gloomy. From there to Jinju it took about 2 hours in a car. At 7:50 p.m. we got to Jinju with safety. It was not only a fantastic trip     but also a wonderful experience. I hope that as a result of that trip all of our family members will have a great dream and fulfill it, stay in a good shape and live in a good harmony with one another for good. And I swear on my father that I will do my best for my family members' harmony, unity and happiness.

Friday,          February, 22, 2002,                           cloudy and a little cold.

Today's Expression: I do know you are a turkey. (난 네가 쪼다라는 걸 너무 잘 알아.)

This morning I had to give three classes, though I was so tired with yesterday's trip. At night I had two classes. I drank alcohol in a familiar bar, but I went to bed earlier than usual due to fatigue.

Saturday,      February, 23, 2002,                            cloudy and a little cold.

Today's Expression: Old soldiers never die, they just fade away.( 노병은 죽지 않고 사라져 갈 뿐이다.)

Today I stayed at home all day long. In the evening I went to my special student's house to give a private lesson, but she didn't know exact class time. She seemed not to be delivered correct appointment day with me from her mother. I remembered telling her mother, "This Saturday I shall visit your daughter to give a lecture." Unwillingly I went out of her house after I made a promise to come to her house tomorrow. On the way home I lent two video tapes. One was an action movie and the other a comic. I entered my house and my wife fixed late dinner. After I had it very deliciously, I watched them I had lent from video shop. The former was a little comic, but it was boring. The latter was so interesting that I was committed to watching it. Just then a telephone rang. Immediately I answered it. I thought it was very sinister. It was from my old friend, Park il-chun. He informed me of the sudden death of an old friend of ours whose name was Dae-seong Sim. He told me that he would call me up again tomorrow and I would rather visit Mr. Sim's death in order to comfort his spirit. Tomorrow morning I will go to meet his soul.

Sunday,     February, 24, 2002,                                              warm.

Today's Expression: You'd better go macho.(너는 적극적으로 나가는 게 좋아.)

(cf)* macho:스페인어에서 나온 말로 박력 있는 사나이를 이름.     * go macho:당당하게 나아가다

This dawn my friend telephoned me. I heard from him about the sudden death of an old friend of mine, Dae-seong Sim. I was much astonished at his sad news. He didn't tell me about the exact reason Mr. Sim had died. I made up my mind to go to the hospital and comfort his family who had been in a terrible gloomy. At noon an old student of mine called at my house to greet me and see my new son, Ji-hun Jeong. She, Hye-jeong Jeong had been faithful to me for a very long time. I felt so grateful for her good heart. I took her and my family, my wife and two sons, to a fancy restaurant. It was the place which specialized in grilled pork meat. All of us had lunch very deliciously. After lunch, I gave her a ride to her house and I thought that I would visit my father's country together with my family because I didn't see him last weekend. On the way there I dropped by a whosesale store, called LG Mart, to purchase a traditional folk wine, Mag-geol-li, and several kinds of side dish. My two sons were sleeping in my car and my wife was watching them. At about 2:30 p.m. we got there. It appeared to be so peaceful, though it was in the desolate mood of a cold winter. I bowed to my father with great sincerity while my wife and my second son were watching me with all their heart. My father seemed to be satisfied with our sincere attitude. By and by we went down the mountain in my car. I took my family to my house and I went to the hospital where my friend's dead body was. An old friend of mine, Bu-gi Park, was waiting for me in front of the gate of the hospital. We entered a room in which there was the dead body of my friend. We bowed to my dead friend with solemnness. I hoped that he would go to the heaven which there are no poverty, disease, and all the other bad things. In the evening I gave my special student a private lesson. It was over at 9:15 p.m. At aroung 10 I met my former students at a restaurant which is run by my previous student, Jae-hong Yun. They welcomed me with passion and affection and so I was so happy. After I talked with them for about an hour, I returned to my home. It was 11:40 p.m.

Monday,      February, 25, 2002,                                               warm.

Today was a pay day. Since I worked for this academy, Seoul Dae-seong Academy, I have been paid two times. When I reached my home, I counted it to know if it was a correct amount. Unfortunately, it was smaller than I thought. I telephoned the owner of the academy and informed him of his mistaken counting. Now I want him not to make the same mistake again. He is to know it is his duty not to make a mistake in counting his employees' paycheck, I think.

The winter olympic games which had been held in Salt Lake City, USA, were over as of today. It was the worst event in about 100 year olympic histiory. I am certain Americans will repent their falsehood later on. Justice, after all, wins all the time, I believe.

Tuesday,     February, 26, 2002,                                     cloudy and cold.

Today's Expression: I'll be burning the midnight oil. (밤 늦게까지 공부해야 할 것 같습니다.)

밤 늦게까지 공부하다 : burn the midnight oil 이라는 표현을 사용. 직역하면 한밤중에 기름을 태우다 라는 표현이지만, 옛날에는 우리나라가 호롱불을 사용했던 것처럼 서양에서도 촛불이나 등잔불등을 사용했기 때문에 이런 표현이 생긴 것 같다.

'밤새다'  :  sit up all night, stay up all night   ,     '밤새도록' : all night long, overnight, all the night through

Title:□Kim Dong-sung□s gold stolen?□

SALT LAKE CITY:  The South Korean delegation protested the disqualification of Korean short-track skater Kim Dong-sung in the 1,500m final which brought U.S. sensation Apolo Anto Ohno his first Olympic gold.

South Korean coach Jun Myung-kyu protested to Australian referee James Hewish immediately after he penalized Kim for blocking Ohno□s path before the Korean crossed the line first in the new Olympic event Wednesday night.

The appeal was rejected by the referee, prompting South Korean chef de mission Park Sung-in to file a protest with the International Skating Union (ISU) against the ruling, Korean officials said.

Kim, a double medallist from the Nagano Games in 1998, surged ahead with seven laps to go and maintained the lead till the end with Ohno tailing him closely in the final two laps.

But after Kim started a victory lap waving a Korean national flag, amid a hail of booing from the packed crowd, the referees disqualified him for □cross-tracking,□ or blocking Ohno on the final lap when the American tried to overtake on the inside.

Ohno clocked 2 min 18.541sec, followed home by China□s world champion Li Jiajun in 2:18.731 and Canadian veteran Marc Gagnon, four-time world overall champion in the 1990□s in 2:18.806.  Short-track disqualification rules. *Intentionally pushing, obstructing or colliding with another racer  calls for the offender□s disqualification. Improperly crossing the course - cross-tracking - is also prohibited. *Lead skater has the right of way and the passing skater must avoid body contact.

*Skaters also are disqualified for changing lanes or altering their   course at the finish. Competitors are required to skate in a           straight line from the end of the corner to the finish line.           Veering inside or outside to maintain the lead is grounds for         disqualification.

[주요어휘]

1) disqualification: 실격     2) sensation: 떠들썩 하게 만드는 것

3) chef de mission: 단장

4) the International Skating Union (ISU): 국제빙상연맹   5) boo: 야유

6) cross-tracking: 크로스 트래킹(진로방해)  7) overtake: 추월하다

8) collide (with): 충돌하다  9) veer: 방향을 바꾸다, (신념 등을)바꾸다

[시사용어]

The International Skating Union (ISU): 국제빙상연맹

스케이트 경기를 통할하는 국제 스포츠 단체. 1892년 네덜란드 스허베닝갱에서 영국․미국․캐나다의 아마추어 스케이팅협회를 중심으로 창설되었다. 네덜란드․독일․오스트리아․스웨덴․헝가리 등 5개국이 참석한 가운데 첫 회의를 열고, 경기규칙을 제정하고 국제 임원을 선정하였다. 또 유럽 선수권대회 및 세계 선수권대회 등의 개최를 결정하였다. 스케이트 종목을 스피드 스케이팅과 아이스 댄싱, 피겨 스케이팅, 쇼트트랙 스케이팅, 싱크로나이즈드 스케이팅으로 나누어 관장한다. 즉, 스피드 스케이팅, 쇼트트랙, 피겨 스케이팅으로 크게 나누고, 스피드 스케이팅의 경기종목은 500m, 1,500m, 5,000m, 1만m의 4종목으로 통일시켰고, 피겨 스케이팅은 싱글과 페어, 아이스 댄싱으로 나누었다. 제1회 스피드 스케이팅 세계선수권대회는 국제스케이팅 연맹이 탄생된 다음해인 1893년 암스테르담에서 열렸다. 이때는 남자선수만 참가하였고 여자선수는 1936년 스톡홀름대회 때부터 참가하였다. 1924년 동계 올림픽대회 때부터 남녀 피겨 스케이팅과 남자 스피드 스케이팅이 정식 종목으로 채택되고 여자 스피드 스케이팅과 아이스 댄싱은 각각 1960년과 1976년의 동계 올림픽대회 때 정식종목으로 채택되었다. 또한 주니어(만 18세 미만) 선수에 대한 선수권대회도 1974년부터 실시되었다. 1999년 현재 55개국이 회원국으로 가입하였다. 한국의 대한빙상경기연맹은 1948년에 가입하였다. 본부는 스위스의 로잔에 있다.

[ 직독직해 ]

The South Korean delegation / protested the disqualification of Korean short-track skater Kim Dong-sung / in the 1,500m final / which brought U.S. sensation Apolo Anto Ohno / his first Olympic gold. //

한국 선수단은 / 한국의 쇼트트랙 선수 김동성의 실격에 항의했다 / 1,500미터 결승전에서 / 이는 미국을 떠들썩하게 만든  아폴로 안토 오노에 가져다 줬다 / 그의 첫 올림픽 금메달을 //

South Korean coach Jun Myung-kyu / protested to Australian referee James Hewish / immediately after / he penalized Kim / for blocking Ohno□s path / before the Korean crossed the line / first / in the new Olympic event / Wednesday night. //

전 명규 한국팀 감독은 / 호주 주심 제임스 휴이스에 항의했다 / 직후 / 그는 김을 징계했다 / 오노의 진로를 차단한 것에 대해 / 이 한국선수가 결승선을 통과하기 전 / 제일 처음 / 새 올림픽 경기에서 / 수요일 저녁 //

The appeal / was rejected by the referee, / prompting / South Korean chef de mission Park Sung-in / to file a protest / with the International Skating Union (ISU) / against the ruling, / Korean officials said. //

이 항의는 / 주심에 의해 기각되었다 / 촉발시키다 / 박성인 한국선수단장이 / 항의서를 제기하도록 / 국제빙상연맹(ISU)에 / 이번 판정에 대해 / 한국 관계자들이 말했다 //

Kim, / a double medallist / from the Nagano Games / in 1998, / surged ahead / with seven laps to go / and maintained the lead / till the end / with Ohno tailing him closely / in the final two laps. //

김 선수는 / 2관왕인 / 나가노 동계올림픽에서 / 1998년 / 선두로 부상했다 / 7바퀴를 남겨두고 / 선두를 유지했다 / 마지막까지 / 오노가 그를 바짝 추격한 채로 / 마지막 두 바퀴에서 //

But / after Kim started a victory lap / waving a Korean national flag, / amid a hail of booing / from the packed crowd, / the referees / disqualified him / for □cross-tracking,□ / or blocking Ohno / on the final lap / when the American tried to overtake / on the inside.

그러나 / 김선수가 승리의 경기장 돌기를 시작한 뒤 / 태극기를 흔들며 / 야유의 함성 속에 / 꽉채운 관중으로부터 / 주심은 / 그를 실격시켰다 / □크로스 트래킹□ 혐의로 / 오노를 가로 막았다 / 마지막 바퀴에서 / 미국 선수가 추월을 시도했을 때 / 안쪽으로 /

*Victory lap: 승리자가 관중앞에서 경기장을 도는 것

Ohno clocked 2 min 18.541sec, / followed home / by China□s world champion Li Jiajun / in 2:18.731 / and Canadian veteran Marc Gagnon, / four-time world overall champion / in the 1990□s / in 2:18.806. //

오노는 2분 18.541초를 기록했다 / 이어서 결승점을 통과했다 / 중국의 세계챔피언 리 지아준에 의해 / 2분 18.731초로 /  그리고 캐나다의 백전노장인 마크 개그넌은 / 4차례 세계 종합선수권 우승자인 / 1990년대 / 2분 18.806초를 //

*Follow home: 결승점을 따르다 (home은 결승점(goal))

<Short-track disqualification rules>  : 쇼트트랙 실격 규정 /

*Intentionally pushing, obstructing or colliding with another racer / calls for the offender□s disqualification. // Improperly crossing the course - cross-tracking - / is also prohibited. //

고의적으로 밀고 진로를 방해하거나 다른 선수와 충돌하는 경우 / 공격자 실격에 해당한다 // 부적절하게 코스를 가로지르는 □크로스 트래킹□이  /  또한 금지된다 //

*Lead skater / has the right of way / and the passing skater / must avoid body contact. //

선두 선수는 / 진로 우선권을 가진다 / 그리고 추월하는 선수는 / 신체 접촉을 피해야 한다 //

*Skaters / also are disqualified / for changing lanes / or altering their course at the finish. // Competitors / are required to skate / in a straight line / from the end of the corner to the finish line. // Veering inside or outside / to maintain the lead / is grounds / for disqualification. //

선수들은 / 또한 실격 처리된다 / 레인을 바꾸면 / 또는 결승선에서 코스를 변경하면 // 경쟁선수들은 / 달리도록 요구된다 / 직선 라인을 / 코너 끝에서 결승선까지 // 안팎으로 방향을 바꾸는 것은 / 선두를 유지하기 위해 / 근거이다 / 실격에 대한 //

Wednesday,       February, 27, 2002,                               rainy and chilly.

Today's Expression: " 재미있습니까 " : Are you funny? ( X )

'funny'를 신나게 쓰다가 외톨이가 된 불쌍한 사람이 있다고 한다. funny에는 '재미있는(amusing)'이라는 뜻 말고도 '이상한(strange), 수상한(deceitful), 무례한(impertinent)'이란 뜻도 있는데, 구어체에서는 후자의 경우들도 많이 쓰여서 심각한 오해가 발생할 수 있기 때문이다. "I'm not funny."라고 하면 "농담 아냐.(I'm serious. I mean it.)"라는 뜻이다.

① Are you having fun?  (재미있습니까?)

② Are you enjoying yourself?  (즐거운가요?)

③ Are you having a good time?  (재미가 좋은가요?)

④ Are you having a good evening?  (즐거운 저녁 시간인가요?)

Title:Chinese economy could overtake Japan□s by 2030: Lehman Brothers

SINGAPORE (AFP) - China can sustain an average annual economic growth rate of 6 percent and dislodge Japan as the world□s second largest economy in less than three decades, U.S. investment bank Lehman Brothers said.

Despite challenges and near-term setbacks, especially as it opens up its economy following its entry to the World Trade Organization (WTO), China should □not be deflected from its chosen path,□ it said in a report.

□Overall, our assessment is that China□s economy has the potential to sustain an average growth rate of around 6 percent over the next 20 years,□ the report said.

At this growth rate, □China□s economy by 2030 will be bigger than each of the major European economies and could conceivably displace Japan to become the largest economy in Asia, and the world□s second largest economy after the United States.□

By 2020, China□s services sector should have overtaken its agricultural and industrial sectors and the purchasing power □could be larger than the whole of Europe□s.□

□However, the key to China□s economic success - as most other Asian countries can now testify - is not to grow as fast as possible. Rather it is to improve the quality of economic growth,□ said the 140-page study by senior economists Alastair Newton and Robert Subbaraman. It noted that despite the fast growth, the improvement of living standards needed to be put into context.

By 2020, gross domestic product (GDP) per capita in the nation of more than one billion people would have grown to only 3,000 dollars which □clearly highlights how crucial it is for China to sustain a strong economic expansion.□

Under the WTO, China has committed to carry out a comprehensive package aimed at freeing up trade and investments in two to five years.  China will cut tariff and non-tariff barriers, limit farm subsidies, provide full trading and distribution rights to foreign firms and open up the services sector, among others.

[주요어휘]

1) sustain: 유지하다, 경험하다   2) dislodge: 제거하다, 몰아내다, 격퇴하다

3) setback: 퇴보, 후퇴, 패배     4) deflect: 비끼다, 빗나가다

5) displace: 바꾸어 놓다, 대신 들어서다  6) overtake: 따라잡다, 추월하다

7) purchasing power: 구매력  8) gross domestic product (GDP): 국내총생산

9) tariff and non-tariff barriers: 관세 및 비관세 장벽들

10) farm subsidies: 농업보조금

[번 역]

제목:□중국 경제, 2030년이면 일본 추월 - 리만 브라더스□

중국은 연평균 6%의 경제성장률을 구가, 30년 내에 일본을 세계 2대 경제대국에서 물러나도록 할 것이라고 미국 투자은행인 리만 브라더스가 밝혔다.

특히 세계무역기구(WTO)가입에 따른 자국 경제 개방으로 인한 과제들과 단기적인 후퇴에도 불구하고, 중국은 □정해진 진로에서 벗어나선 안된다□고 리만 브라더스는 보고서에서 밝혔다.   이 보고서는 □전반적으로 우리의 평가는 중국 경제가 향후 20년 동안 연평균 6%의 성장률을 지속할 수 있는 잠재력을 지니고 있다는 것□이라고 보았다.

이러한 성장률로 □중국 경제는 오는 2030년 내에 유럽의 주요 경제대국들보다 규모가 커질 것이며 일본을 제치고 아시아 최대 경제국이 되고 미국 다음의 세계 2대 경제대국이 되는 것을 상상해볼 수 있다.□   오는 2020년까지 중국의 서비스 부문은 자국의 농업 및 공업 부문을 추월할 것이며 구매력은 유럽 전체 것보다 더 커지게 될 것이다.

알래스태어 뉴튼과 로버스 슈바라만 수석 경제전문가들에 의한 이번 140쪽 보고서는 □그러나 중국 경제의 성공 열쇠는 다른 대다수 아시아 국가들이 현재 보여주는 것처럼, 가능한 빠르게 성장하는 것이 아니다. 오히려 경제성장의 질을 개선하는 것□이라고 밝혔다.   이 보고서는 빠른 성장에도 불구하고 생활 수준의 개선이 그 과정에 포함될 필요가 있다고 강조했다.   오는 2020년까지 10억명이 넘는 인구를 보유한 중국의 1인당 국내총생산(GDP)는 3천달러밖에 성장하지 않을 것으로 이는 □중국에 있어 견실한 경제 팽창 유지가 얼마나 중요한가를 극명히 보여준다.□  WTO 체제하에서 중국은 2~5년 내에 무역 및 투자 자유화를 목적으로 한 포괄적인 계획을 수행할 의무를 갖게 되었다.  중국은 관세 및 비관세 장벽을 없애고 농업 보조금을 줄이며 외국 업체에 무역 및 유통권리를 완전 제공해야 하고 여럿가운데 서비스 부분을 개방할 것이다

Thursday,      February, 28, 2002,                                    fine and warm.

Today's Expression: He recommended me this book. (X) " 그가 내게 이 책을 권했어요. "

recommend는 해석상 '4형식 동사'와 비슷하게 들리지만, '동사+간접목적어+직접목적어'의 어순을 따르지 않고, ‘동사+직접목적어+(to/for+간접목적어)'의 형식으로 쓰인다.

① He recommended this book to me. (그가 내게 이 책을 권했어요.)

② He recommended that I read this book. (그는 내게 이 책을 읽으라고 권했어요.)

③ He recommended reading this book. (그는 내게 이 책을 읽도록 권했어요.)

④ He suggested I read this book. (그는 내가 이 책을 읽어야 한다고 권했어요.)

Now My angel is sleeping together with her two priceless treasures in her nest. The angel is of course my wife. She is as good as can be. She is purity itself. Her heart can be compared to a white flower on pure-white snow. She tries not to have excessive desire in her life. Today she forgave my fault in spite of its seriousness and had a kindness to treat me as her most valuable person in this world. I always feel so sorry for her. In fact I wasted quite a little money drinking alcohol without any proper purpose last December. When she received the report using her credit card, she knew I had taken in her, that is to say, I had used her credit card by stealing it. She must have been disappointed at me but my mother persuade her to forgive me just once. She agreed with my mother and welcomed me with a smile on her face when I entered my house after giving a private lesson. I realized what I should do for her from now. Now I will have her disappointed at me. I will be a faithful husband to her.

Friday,        March, 1, 2002,                                       warm.

I think it is necessary to know a variety of culture and lifestyle of the country to learn its language with perfection. Therefore, every now and then in my diary notebook I will take a note about them of the countries which have adopted English as their first language. Today I wrote about Train Trip in the U.S.A.

Topic:"미국의 기차 여행"

미국의 기차 내부는 상당히 시설이 훌륭하고 깨끗한 것이 특징입니다. 기차 안에는 식당차를 비롯하여, 어린이 놀이방, 휴게실, 영화관 등 다양한 시설들로 구성되어 있는 것이 보통입니다. 기차를 탈 때는 비행기와 마찬가지로 발권된 기차표나 패스를 좌석이 표시되어 있는 Boarding Pass로 교환해야 하므로 시간의 여유를 가지고 기차역에 도착하는 것이 좋습니다. 최소한 30분 이상 여유를 갖는 것이 좋은데 여름 휴가철이나 연휴기간 등에는 더 혼잡하기도 하므로 미리 역에 도착하는 것이 좋습니다. 탑승은 보통 출발시간 20분 전부터 하게 되는데, 탑승시 간단한 기차표 확인절차가 있으며 기차표는 승차 후 열차 안에서 승무원이 걷어 가게 됩니다.

좌석 구분을 보게 되면 일반석은 Coach Class 라고 부르는데 단거리용, 장거리용 구분이 있습니다. 우등석은 Custom Class 라고 부르며 보다 넓은 좌석과 음료 등이 제공됩니다. 마지막으로 일등석은 Club Class 라고 부르며 식사 및 음료, 뜨거운 타올 등의 추가 서비스를 제공합니다.

식당차는 Dining Car 라고 부르는데 장거리 열차 및 야간 열차에는 대부분 식당차가 준비되어 있으며 전문 요리사가 아침, 점심, 저녁 메뉴를 제공합니다. 식당차에서는 간단한 샌드위치나 햄버거에서부터 정식 까지 다양한 메뉴를 제공하며 맥주, 와인 등 다양한 마실 것을 즐길 수 있는데, 침대차를 이용하는 경우 식사가 포함되어 있는 것이 보통입니다.

식사류 외에 가볍게 Snack을 즐길 수 있는 차량으로서  Cafe car 또는 Lounge Car 가 있습니다. 보통 열차의 중간 부분에 위치해 있는데 이 곳에서는 넓은 창문을 통해 창 밖의 풍경을 감상하며 간단한 먹을 것과 음료 등을 판매하며, 기념품 등도 판매하므로 유용하게 이용할 수 있습니다. Lounge car 는 열차마다 운영시간이 다르므로 시간을 정확히 알아볼 필요가 있습니다. 기차 내에서는 원칙적으로 담배를 피울 수 없는데 Lounge car 일부에 흡연구역이 지정되어 있습니다.

요즘에는 Cell Phone 이 보편화되어 있기는 하지만 기차 내에는 공중전화(Rail Phone)가 설치되어 있으므로 필요한 경우에 이용할 수 있습니다. 미국의 모든 시설이 그렇듯이 열차에는 장애자를 위한 배려가 잘 되어 있어, 휠체어 이용자를 위한 별도 좌석과 화장실이 마련되어 있으며 야간 열차에도 휠체어 이용자를 위한 침대 칸이 마련되어 있습니다. 열차 역에서도 역시 휠체어 이용자를 위한 시설 및 서비스가 제공됩니다.

어린이를 데리고 기차여행을 하게 되는 경우 8세 미만의 어린이는 원칙적으로 18세 이상의 동반 여행자 없이 혼자 열차를 이용할 수 없게 되어 있습니다. 또한 미국은 애완동물이 보편화 되어 있고 흔한 나라이지만, 열차에서는 맹인견을 제외한 다른 모든 애완 동물의 열차 탑승이 허용되지 않습니다. 단 맹인견의 경우에는 주인이 항상 동반하여야 합니다.

짐이 많은 경우에는 비행기를 탈 때와 마찬가지로 짐을 부치고 Baggage Tag (짐표)을 받는 것이 좋습니다. 짐을 분실 했을 경우 등의 만일의 사태를 대비하여 baggage tag를 반드시 보관 해야 분실 시 보상을 받을 수 있습니다. 한 가지 주의할 점은  수하물로 부친 짐은 목적지 도착 전까지 찾을 수 없으므로 개인 의약품 및 귀중품은 직접 소지해야 합니다. 또한짐을 들고 탈 때는 머리 위 짐 칸(Overhead Compartment) 또는 각 열차 칸 입구 쪽에 위치한 짐 칸 등에 놓으며 다른 승객의 통행에 불편을 주지 않도록 통로에는 짐을 놓아서는 안 된다는 점에 유의 하셔야 합니다.

My mother went to attend the nuptial ceremony for a relative closely related to my late grandmother. In the evening all my family members were supposed to hold a small party in my second younger brother's new house. It was for a house warming and my and my wife's birthday. For that reason I went to a fishery wholesale market in Sam-cheon po, harbor city, in my car where there were my youngest brother, my wife and my two sons with me. My youngest brother bought a variety of fresh raw fish for his lovely family. We returned to Jinju at about 6 p.m. and went to my second younger brother's new house. We all had a good time eating delicious food and talking about interesting topic. It was a very pleasant union party.

Saturday,        March, 2, 2002,                                              warm.

Today's English: 영국 소설에 가장 많이 쓰이는 단어 1,000개 (유명한 18명의 작가의 작품 29개에서)

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I got up at 8 this morning. Since I had gone to bed late last night, I felt a little tired. In spite of such a fatigue, I had to hurry to my mother's house. I was supposed to go to a famous spa in Ha-dong county with my mother and my youngest brother. I had gone out of the house and had got on my car, when my mother and brother approached my car. They got into my car and at once I drove to the hot spring. We arrived there at 8:50 a.m. My mother entered public bathroom for women and my brother and I public bathroom for men. When all of us finished taking a bath and went out, it was 10:30. My mother and my brother looked so refreshed that I too was pleased. We three wanted to visit my father's country. On the way there my brother purchased a bottle of korean traditional wine called Mag-geol-ri. My father welcomed us with all his heart. My brother and I bowed to him with great sincerity. I swore that I would live to protect all my family members from all the evil things and endeavor to unite them and lead them to the right way. He was smiling at me and my mother seemed to look at his smile sent me. We came down to the mountain and we reached my house at 12:10 p.m. ...At night my wife and I took my two sons to my mother's house to drink wine with my mother and my brother. It was a small party intended to a kind of pleasant life. when it was over, it was nearly 11 p.m. I brought my wife and two sons to my house. My sons were sleeping. Before long my wife fell asleep. I enjoyed watching a video tape. After that I wrote a poem and registered it on the internet site called 'Yeong-ho Jeong and Making reminiscence' where I had my own room to write poems and announce them to people who loved poetry. I went to bed very late at night.

Sunday,       March, 3, 2002,                                                warm.

Today's English: " 한국인들의 어떤 점이 좋습니까? "  What point do you like... (X)

'point'는 '핵심, 요지, 요소'라는 뜻.  '어떤 점'은 영어로 'what'이라고 하면 그만.

① What is it you like about Korean people? (한국인들이 맘에 드는 점은 무엇인가요?)

② What do you like best about Korean people? (한국인들의 어떤 점이 제일 맘에 드나요?)

③ Why do you like Korean people? (왜 한국인들을 좋아하나요?)

④ How do you perceive Korean people? (한국인들을 어떻게 생각하세요?)

솔트 레이크 시티 동계 올림픽, 세계 인류의 평화와 보다 알찬 나아감을 위한 행사라기 보다는 개막식의 찢어진 성조기에 단 하나의 국가를 위해 짜여진 각본에 충실하고자 했던, 그리하여 성조기 이외의 모든 국기에 대한 모멸감을 은연중에 드러내며 일백년 올림픽의 역사에 큰 쇠막대기를 꽃아, 스포츠를 통해 공명정대한 정신을 기르고자 하는 세계인의 정신을 갈기갈기 찢어 발기던 철없는 아해, 골목대장 주도하의 동네 운동회 같았던 그 대회를 보고 나는 울분을 금치 못했던 것을 기억합니다. 아마 이 땅의 거의모든 분들이 저와 같은 심정이셨으리라 생각합니다. 하지만 반만년의 올바른 심성과 나라를 위한 올곧은 충정으로 살아온 우리는 힘만 믿는 저 오만무도한 침략자의 후손들과는 다르다는 것을 확신합니다. 그러기에 무조건적인 쇼비니즘이 아닌 참다운 애국의 시선으로 느끼는 바가 있어 다음 내용을 올립니다.  며칠 전 날 밤에 저는 MBC의 '미디어 비평'이라는 프로그램을 시청하고 있었습니다. 그 날의 비평은 '솔트레이크 시티 동계 올림픽과 관련된 조선일보사의 잘못된 기사에 관련된 내용'이었습니다. 김동성 선수의 경기 오심과 관련시켜 미국을 비판하는 내용과 김동성 선수가 격분하여 태극기를 내팽겨치는 것을 미국을 비난하는 것과 같은 중량감으로 다룬 조선일보의 기사는 제 개인적인 생각으로도 문제가 있는 것이었습니다. 하지만, 잠시후 한때 그 방송사의 '100분 시사토론'을 진행한 바가 있는 한 대학 교수가 나와서 김동성선수가 우리의 얼굴이랄 수 있는 태극기를 내팽겨친 것에 대해 다음과 같은 예를 들어 설명하는 것을 보고 저는 다시 한번 분통을 터뜨리고 말았습니다. 그는 금메달을 빼앗은 미국을 지하철에서의 성희롱범에 비유를 했고 김동성 선수를 해를 당하는 여자에 비유를 했습니다. 미국을 그런 인간에 비유한 것은 저로서도 가슴이 트이는 비유라고 생각합니다. 그러나 그 이후 그는 희롱을 당하면서 화가 난 여자가 그 남자에게 욕을 하는 것을 김선수가 태극기를 차가운 얼음바닥위에 던진 것에 비유를 하면서, 그런 큰 일을 당하면서 그 여자가 욕을 했다고 해서 그 여자를 나쁜 사람이라고 얘기할 수 있겠느냐는 것이었습니다. 커다란 일에 사소한 것을 들추어내는 것은 좋지 않다는 것이었습니다. 사회의 식자이면서 지도층인 분의 올바른 판단인 가하는 생각이 들었습니다. 저는 "그건 아니다"라는 확고한 판단을 가졌습니다. 그리고 그가 명망있는 사람이라고 해서 다른 사람들이 그의 의견으로 자신의 마음을 덮어 버릴까봐 염려가 되었습니다. 그래서 그의 생각이 옳지 못했다는 것을 밝히고자 합니다. 우선 그가 김동성 선수를 성희롱당하는 여자에 비유한 것이었습니다. 아픔의 경중을 따지기에 앞서, 분명 김동성선수는 한 개인의 자격으로서가 아닌, 4천만 민족의 대표로서 태극기를 가슴에 달고 경기에 임하는 사람이었기에 비유가 너무나 적절치 못했다는 생각입니다. 덧붙여서 우리 국가의 상징인 태극기를 내팽겨 친 것이 어찌 욕지거리에 비할 만한 내용이겠습니까? 그 철면피한 오심에 온 국민이 분노하고 그 분노는 국가의 분노요, 그것은 우리의 상징인 태극기의 분노일 것인데 자신의 분신이요, 국민의 얼굴인, 자신을 위해 울부짖고 있는 태극기를 내팽겨 치다니요. 그는 국가의 대표였기에 어린 나이를 핑계삼아서도 안된다는 생각입니다. 분명 그는 우리의 태극기를 앞세우고 경기를 한 '국가, 국민, 태극기대표선수'였습니다. 그런 판정이 날수록 그 가엾은 깃발을 부둥켜 안았어야 옳다고 생각합니다, 찬 빙판에 내던져 버릴 것이 아니라... 욕을 당하는 여자의 부모님이 그 못된 인간을 벌할 수 없을 정도로 무능하다고 해서 여자가 부모님을 원망하면서 내팽겨친다면 나는 그 여자를 절대 올바른 여자로 보지 않을 것이고, 우리의 대표로 보내지 않을 겁니다, 그가 아무리 한 분야에 세계 최고의 능력을 가졌다 할지라도... 그의 연장자로서, 그의 후견인으로서(모든 국민은 김동성 선수의 후견인입니다), 그의 슬픔을 안아 어우르고 그를 위로하고 격려하되, 그가 올바르지 못한 점이 있다면 그를 위해, 힘없는 이 나라의 보다 나은 결속과 발전을 위해 올바른 애국심을 가르쳐주고 심어주어야 한다고 생각합니다. 이것이 저의 마음입니다. 올바른 언론매체로서의 역할을 하지 못하는 것 같아, 혹시 지면 언론과 화면 언론의 사소한 국지전은 아니었나라는 생각이 든 것은 제 잘못된 소견이라고 믿고 싶습니다. 끝으로 김동성 선수의 선전에 미진한 사람이지만 태극기를 사랑하는 국민의 한사람으로서 무한한 찬사를 보내며, 아울러 터무니없는 침략적 판정에 대해 김동성 선수의 깊은 아픔과 슬픔을 함께 느끼고자 합니다. 계속 최고의 자리를 놓치지 않기를 바라며.

I went to bed very late last night, and so I couldn't get up early this morning. I stayed up all night long. I worked so hard in front of my computer. When I finished them all, I was so happy. This morning I awoke at 12:10 p.m. when my mother came to my house. She wanted to borrow some squashed sesame oil to make delicious food for my youngest brother. He was due to go to Tae-jeon this afternoon where his workplace was located. I went to my mother's house with my family. And we had lunch very deliciously. At last he had to leave Jinju for his destination. He set off in a bus at 2:30 p.m. I am sure that he is a man, good, kind, sincere and clever. Therefore, I bet he will succeed in his life and that hope that he will carry his dream.

Monday,        March, 4, 2002,                                      shiny and warm.

Today's English: 1.What is the reason of a rainbow? ( X )

2.What is the cause of a rainbow? ( O )

*대체로, cause는 사건이나 현상을 일어나게 하는 자연적인 원인이나 이유

reason은 논리상, 추론적으로 설명할 수 있는 근거나 이유를 말한다.

I think I gave the best lecture to my students, and so I am so happy as if I were in the heaven. I should like to do so over and over again. It will lead me to the expressway to success. I know it all depends on me. I will try my best to live a strenuous life and necessarily attain my ends. I love and trust myself. Frankly speaking, now I am almost impecunious, but within a few years I will make a fortune(make a killing). I won't of course desire much enough to be beyond my own reach, for I know money is only means to achieve my goals. When I make world beautiful, it'll be change into my home.

Tuesday,      March, 5, 2002,                                     sweet spring rain

Today's English: 1.He is popular to his men. (X)

2.He is popular with(among) his men. (O)그는 그의 부하(직원)들에게 인기가 있다.

Today was my 35th birthday and, what's better, a sweet spring rain fell down over my country as though it congratulated me on my birth. In the morning I gave three hours of classes very wonderfully. I was satisfied with it and my students' needs as to learning seemed to be met. Somehow it may be my ideal in my life. I want every time of my future to be my day. I would like to be in my day all the time. To my regret, rough ordeals, great hardships, will control my soul and body every once in a while, but whenever such untidy things happen to me, I will try to get over them and make them lessons indispensable to me. The proverb goes that "If life gives you a lemon, make a lemonade." That's right. It is unavoidable golden rule.

Wednesday,      March, 6, 2002,                                         a little cold.

Today's English: 내 생각에 그녀는 예뻐. - In my thought, she's pretty. (X)

'내 생각에' 혹은 '내가 보기에'라는 표현으로는 'in my eyes' 'in my view' 'in my opinion' 'in my mind' 'to my thought' 혹은 이것저것도 생각나지 않는다면 간단히 'I think'라고 하면 된다. '전치사+명사'는 서로 고유의 짝이 있음을 명심하자.

① I think she's pretty hot. (그녀는 정말 예쁜 것 같아.)

② I think she's quite attractive. (그녀는 정말 매력적이야.)

③ In my opinion, she's not bad looking at all. (내가 보기에 그녀는 전혀 못생긴 게 아냐.)

④ She's got "the look", as far as I'm concerned. (내가 아는 한, 그녀는 아주 미인이야.)

These days I am feeling once again how tough it is to master English. Recently I has been devoted myself to studying English. In a word, I has fallen in love with English. Nevertheless, I worry about my one-sided love. She, English, doesn't seem to embrace me with her chest. I want to be loved by her as I love her body and soul. In a moment, I realize the reason is that my love towards her has lacked. I will try to make her my best soulmate. As soon as possible, I will master English. Probably it will take about 2 years for me to do it. I know of course it will be an arduous and long travel, and yet I am also convinced that it is my way, my destiny. No matter how rough and bumpy the road may be, I will come over all the hardships, or all the challenges lying in the exploration route. I don't have time to waste in the least. In 40, I shall say looking at myself in the polished mirror, like this; "Hey, great man, at last you made it. Congratulation! Now is your day. Go, go and go, and do anything you want to do. This world is yours. This world is in your hands. Smiling, you may as well love yourself all the more on and on. Anyway you did it. I trusted you. You are I and I am you. I love you."

Without fail I will attain all my ends in my life. It is my unavoidable doom.

Thursday,         March, 7, 2002,                              windy and cold.       Today's English: 아무리 오래 걸리더라도 나는 내 책무를 완수할 것입니다.

*No matter how(however) long it takes, I will complete my task.

운동경기, 포커게임 등을 하다가 '한 판만 더 하고 그만 합시다' 라는 표현으로 Let's call it quit after one more hand. 라는 표현을 사용할 수 있습니다. Hand 는 손, 일손, 방법 등 많은 뜻으로 사용되지만 카드놀이 등에서의 '한 승부, 한 판' 이라는 의미로도 사용됩니다. Hold a good hand 라고 하면 '좋은 패를 가지다' 라는 의미이고, lose the hand 라고 하면 '노름에 지다' 라는 표현이 됩니다.

*일정을 잡아 두었나요? : "Did you get a schedule? (X)

는 시간 여유가 나는지 알아보려고 묻는 말이다. 여기서 '잡다'는 '(일정을) 짜다(make a plan/schedule)'라는 뜻인데, 이 말을 들은 미국인은 "일정표를 받아 보았나요?"라는 말로 오해하고 "What schedule?"이라고 반문할 것이다.

우리말을 영어로 옮길 때는 말하려고 하는 의도를 살려야 한다.

① Do you have any plans? (계획 같은 거 있어요?)

② What's on your agenda?  (일정이 어떻게 됩니까?)

③ Are you going to be busy?  (바쁠 것 같나요?)

④ Do you have any time to spare?  (시간이 좀 납니까?)

Today I had no classes, so I stayed at home all day long. In the afternoon my genteel mother came to my mother to look at her two grandsons, my sons. After about an hour she left my house. I went out of my house together with her and my first son. I gave her a ride to her house. She gave me twenty thousand won saying, "I hope you will buy your wife a delicious thing." I felt so grateful for her good mind. I knew she went broke these days. In a brief, she was impecunious like me, and yet she lent some money from her friend and gave it to me. I am sure my wife will see my mother as her raw one.

Friday,        March, 8, 2002,                                  a little windy.

Today's English: 미국의 Valentine day 풍습에 대하여

미국에서 Valentine day는 많은 사람들이 즐기며 기념하는 날입니다. 크리스마스와 같이  사람들은 카드와 선물을 주고 받게 되는데 바쁜 생활 속에서 친구, 가족, 직장 동료들에게 전하지 못했던 안부인사를 전하는 기회로 활용하는 것입니다. 최근에는 E-mail과 인터넷을 통한 카드 교환이 발달 덕분에 더 많은 사람들이 간단히 카드를 주고 받을 수 있게 되었습니다. 한편 미국의 학교에서는 Valentine day에 즈음해서 반 아이들의 이름이 적혀 있는 명단을 아이들에게 나누어 줍니다. 그러면 아이들은 집에서 부모님과 함께 반 친구 모두에게 줄 카드를 정성 들여 만들어서 Valentine day 가 되면 친구들에게 카드, 사탕, 초콜릿 등을 서로 선물하게 됩니다. 학교에서 돌아오는 아이들은 친구들로부터 받은 카드, 선물 등을 받아 와서 즐거워 하며 친구들의 우정을 느끼는 소중한 시간을 갖습니다. 연인이나 부부 사이에서는 빨간색 Heart로 장식된 화려한 카드와 선물 등을 주고 받기도 하는데 카드의 문구에는 "Be my Valentine!"이나 "From your Valentine!"등의 문장이 들어갑니다. 또한 Valentine day 에는 여자가 먼저 사랑고백을 해도 좋다는 재미있는 풍습도 전해져 옵니다. Valentine day의 유래는 다음과 같습니다. 중세시대에 자신의 신앙을 지키다가 2월 14일에 순교한 St. Valentine은 죽기 전에 감옥에서 간수의 눈 먼 딸의 눈을 뜨게 해 주었다고 합니다. 그리고 그 아가씨에게 보내는 작별편지 내용에 "From your Valentine" 이라는 문장을 적었다고 합니다. 이 문장은 현재 Valentine Day카드에 가장 많이 쓰이는 말이 되었습니다.  이미 유럽에서는 18, 19세기에 이미 Valentine 카드가 등장했다고 합니다. 그 당시만 해도 카드를 직접 전달했는데 그 이유가 우편요금이 수신자 부담이었고 요금도 엄청났기 때문이라고 하니 매우 재미 있습니다. 최근에는 아이디어가 포함된 다양한 카드들이 많아서 향수 냄새가 나는 카드나 멜로디 카드 등 다양한 카드 들이 등장해서 카드를 보내고 받는 즐거움을 더하기도 합니다.

Today's Expression: About the same. (별 차도가 없으십니다.)

A:How is your grandfather?                 B: About the same.

A:Please send my regards to your grandfather. B: He appreciated your sending over that meal.

'예전과 별 차이가 없습니다, 그저 그렇습니다, 대개 비슷비슷합니다' : About the same. 이라는 표현을 사용상황이 매우 똑 같거나 흡사하다는 점을 강조하고 싶을 경우에는 Pretty much the same. 이라고 합니다.

Saturday,      March, 9, 2002,                                       a little windy.

Today's English: 영어듣기능력- hearing(X), listening(X) ; listening comprehension (O)

My mother and I went to the nice spa in Ha-dong county and on the way home we dropped by my father's grave. On Saturdays I did the same work. In the evening there was a private class, but I didn't give it, because my special student didn't prepare it; instead, her mother asked me to help her daughter study English for about 2 years. My two-month lecture appeared appealing to her. I was pleased at it.

Sunday,        March, 10, 2002,                                      a little cold.

Today's English: Knowledge without action is like snow on a hot stove.

(행동하지 않는 지식은 뜨거운 난로위의 눈과 같다.)

Title: About Maternity Leave in U.S.A.

출산휴가(Maternity leave)는 아이를 가진 직장인이 출산 전후에 회사로부터 받을 수 있는 휴가를 말합니다. 우리 나라의 경우 직장을 다니는 여성이 출산을 한 경우 3개월의 출산휴가를 부여하고 있으며 1년 이내의 기간으로 육아휴직을 신청할 수 있습니다. 노르웨이, 네덜란드, 스웨덴 등 복지제도가 잘 된 나라들에서는 가족들에게도 보름 가량의 출산 휴가를 부여하고 있다고 합니다. 앞으로는 우리나라에서도 남편에게 부인이 애를 낳은 경우 10일 이내의 출산 간호휴가가 주어질 예정이며 육아 휴가의 기회를 부여할 예정이라고 합니다.   미국의 출산휴가 제도는 주마다 조금씩 기준이 다르고 회사에 따라 차이가 있지만 보통 아이를 출산한 경우에 6개월 미만의 출산휴가를 주고 있습니다. 이후에는 육아휴가 (Parental leave)를 신청할 수 있기도 합니다. 남편 역시 출산휴가를 받을 수 있지만 직장의 업무 등 여러 가지 이유로 그 기회를 모두 활용하지는 않는 편입니다.   대부분의 미국 가정에서는 맞벌이를 하는 것이 보통이어서, 직장인의 절반 가까운 수가 여성들로 구성되어 있습니다. 이런 이유로 가정에서 집안일과 아이들을 기르는 일도 남녀가 똑같이 분담하는 것이 보통입니다. 특히 최근에는 자녀들을 기르고 돌보는 일에 있어서 남편들의 역할이 점점 커지고 있습니다.

보통 부부는 자녀들을 제대로 돌보기 위해 각자의 일정을 조정하기도 하고 따로 어린아이들을 돌보는 보모(Babysitter)를 구하기도 합니다. 또는 아이들을 하루종일 맡길 수 있는 Day-care center 를 찾기도 합니다. 학교에 다닐 나이가 된 아이들은 수업이 끝난 후에 다양한 After school 프로그램을 통해 여가 시간을 보낼 수 있기 때문에 부모가 아이를 돌볼 수고가 덜어지게 됩니다.    미국과 이웃한 Canada의 경우에는 출산 직후에 4개월 가량의 휴가를 받게 되며 이후 10주간 자녀 육아휴가 (Parental leave)를 받게 되는데 이는 아내,  남편 중 아무나 사용할 수 있게 되어 있습니다. 이 기간 동안에도 급여의 절반 이상을 지급하게 되어 있습니다.

한편 미국의 출산휴가가 우리와 다른 점은 미성년의 아이를 입양한 경우, 정신이나 몸이 불편한 장애아를 입양한 경우에도 똑같이 출산휴가가 주어진다는 점입니다. 입양과 장애인 보호 제도가 잘 되어 있다는 점을 다시 한 번 느낄 수 있습니다.

My wife is at present on the maternity leave. She has taken a rest for about 3 months, so in a few days, exactly from next Monday, she will go to work again. While she had given birth to my lovely baby, Ji-hun, and had taken a long maternity leave, I didn't treat her very well. I was not a good husband and good father. Since I was obsessed with a lot of important work, I couldn't afford to make them feel comfortable, and what's worse I won't have such sweet chance as to help them for the time being (for the present). In about few months when I will have completed my jobs, I will try my best to make them happy by helping them beside their mind and body.

Monday,       March, 11, 2002,                              warm, not to say hot.

Today's English: Could I kibitz? (저도 끼어 들어도 됩니까?)

*도박 등에 끼어 들어도 됩니까 라는 표현으로 Could I kibitz? 라는 표현을 사용. Kibitz 라고 하면 본래 독일어에서 유래된 표현으로 염탐하다, 들고 있는 패를 어깨 너머로 들여다 보다, 쓸 데 없는 조언을 하다, 참견을 하다 등의 의미로 사용됩니다. Don't be a kibitzer. 라고 하면 옆에 끼어서 참견하지 마세요 라는 표현.

Today was a special day to my first son, Hee-seok, for he registered in a day-care center, which is the first educational institution in this country. To put it in another terms, from tomorrow, he will have to attend a sort of pre- kindergarten without parents' accompany. He was 25 months old. Though he was tall for his age, he was not accustomed to expressing his opinion, even saying, "Piss!". I didn't want to send him to a day-care center that early, but I couldn't help it. From next Monday his mother will go to work again, and my mother, who have been suffering knee arthritis, will have to a baby-sitter. In other words, she will have to take good care of my second baby, Ji-hun. I thought my two sons were very valuable to me, but my mother was more precious person than any other ones. I wish my mother will recover completely from her ill disease so soon. Besides, I hope my lovely and strong son, Hee-seok, will apply himself to new and strange circumstances as soon as possible. My boy, I am really sorry. I am always with you and I will protect you from all the evil things until you become a strong adult who can be responsible for your own life. You can count on me.  Trust me, my son! I trust you, too.

Tuesday,    the 12th of March, 2002,                           warm, not to say hot.

Today's English: pass the hat (기부금을 모으다)

Bert: What are they passing the hat for?

Nat : I'm not sure, perhaps it's for some kind of charity organization.

When they pass the hat, will you put some money in ?

버트: 왜들 모자를 돌리고 있지 ?

냇트: 잘은 모르겠지만, 필경 어떤 자선 단체를 위해서 하는 걸꺼야.

모자가 돌아오면 돈을 좀 넣으라구.

* Hot words passed between the two. (두 사람 사이에 격론이 오갔다.)

* I passed a rope around a cask. (통 둘레에 밧줄을 감았다.)

* Your story passes belief. (너의 얘기는 믿을 수가 없다.)

* She passed out. (그녀는 실신했다.)

* make a pass at her : 「그녀에게 추파를 던지다 」

(EX) He always makes passes at girls. (그는 항상 여자애들에게 추파를 던진다.)

My son went to a sort of school for the first time in his life. Then I was out of my house, because I had many classes. Consequently I didn't watch him get on the day-care center bus belonging to Future(Mi-rae) Children's house which my first nephew, Hyeon-woo, had attended. When I pictured the situation in my heart, he must have cried in his full voice. It made me sad. Is this life? I can't believe he has already been on the rough road, terrible life. I will help him to love and enjoy his life. It will be my most important duty. My boy, way to go! Beside you, I am. I love you, my strong son.

Wednesday,      March (the) 13th, 2002,                       warm, not to say hot.

Today's English: “---하게 말해서”의 관용표현들

1.Roughly speaking (대략 말해서)    2. Generally speaking (일반적으로 말해서)

3.Frankly speaking (솔직하게 말해서) 4.Historically speaking (역사적으로 말해서)

5.Musically speaking (음악적으로 말해서)

6.philosophically speaking. (철학적으로 말해서)

7.Psychologically speaking. (심리학적으로 말해서)

8.Economically speaking. (경제학적으로 말해서)   ......................................

*「 ~ 의 입장에서 말하자면 」

1. Speaking as a parent,  ~  (부모의 입장에서 말하자면, ~ )

2. Speaking as a driver,  ~  (운전사 입장에서 말하자면,  ~ )

3. Speaking as a statesman, (정치가의 입장에서 말하자면)

<attention> 위에서 politician을 쓰면 어감이 다르다:「 정치가 」라기 보다는 「 정상배, 정치모략꾼 」라는 느낌. 그러나 , Politically speaking ~ (정치적으로 말해서,~)  즉, 자신은 정치가가 아니지만 정치의 입장에서 이 문제를 생각해 본다면의 뜻.

My mother fell over a stone to the ground and she was wounded on her left hand. Even though she told me that she would be all right, I was worried about her injury. I wish(Would that, If only) she had been more careful. I hope my good goddess will heal her wounds in her dream and when she awakes next morning, even in reality, her pain will disappear. Today my son must have shed much tears. But he looked like a grown-up in comparison with yesterday.  Well-done!

Thursday,      the 14th of March, 2002,                            sweet spring rain.

Today's English: Useful vocabularies and phrases

* 승용차 : a passenger car        * 화물차 : a freight car

* 가방을 싸다 : pack a bag         * 가방을 풀다 : unpack a bag

* 수수한 색: a quiet color, quiet colors  *화려한 색: a loud color, loud colors

* 도서전시회 : a book exhibition       * 미술전시회 : an art exhibition

* 소비재 : consumer goods, consumption goods *생산재 : producer goods, production goods

* 안과 밖이 거꾸로 된 : inside out       * 위아래가 거꾸로 된 : upside down

* 무역 사절단 : a trade mission         * 경제 사절단 : an economic mission

* 돼지갈비를 굽다 : roast the ribs of pork  * 소갈비를 굽다 : roast the ribs of beef

* 약혼 파티 : engagement party         * 결혼 파티 : wedding party

* 인구집중 : population concentration     * 인구분산 : population decentralization

* 떡 : rice cake                     * 부침개 : flat cake, fried food

<vocabularies and phrases related to school>

01. 학교 : a school

02. 초등 학교 : a primary school / an elementary school

03. 중학교 : a junior high school / a middle school

04. 고등 학교 : a senior high school / a high school

05. 종합 대학 : a university    (cf) 전문대학: a junior college

06. 단과 대학 : a college

07. 사립 학교 : a private school / a nongovernmental school

08. 공립 학교 : a public school    09. 시립 학교 : a municipal school

10. 도립 학교 : a provincial school

11. 국립 대학 : a national university / a government university

12. 교실 : a classroom / a schoolroom    13. 책상 : a desk

14. 탁자 : a table   15. 의자 : a chair     16. 책 : a book

17. 공책 : a notebook    18. 교과서 : a textbook / a schoolbook

19. 참고서 : a reference book   20. 지우개 : an eraser

21. 칠판 : a blackboard / a chalkboard

22. 칠판 지우개 : a chalk eraser / a blackboard eraser

23. 펜 : a pen  24. 연필 : a pencil  25. 볼펜 : a ball-point pen

26. 만년필 : a fountain pen   27. 교사 : a teacher / an instructor

28. 가정 교사 : a tutor / a private teacher

29. 학생 : a student / a pupil  30. 학동 : a schoolchild

31. (초등/중학교의)남학생 : a schoolboy

32. (초등/중학교의)여학생 : a schoolgirl

33. 고등학교학생 : a high school student / a senior high school student

34. (고교의) 1학년생 : a freshman      35. (고교의) 2학년생 : a junior

36. (고교의) 3학년생 : a senior

37. 대학생:a college student / a university student / an undergraduate

38. (대학의) 1학년생 : a freshman        39. (대학의) 2학년생 : a sophomore

40. (대학의) 3학년생 : a junior           41. (대학의) 4학년생 : a senior

42. 대학원생 : a graduate student

43. 조교 : an assistant teacher / an assistant instructor

44. 여학생 : a female student   45. 남학생 : a male student

46. 법률 전공의 학생 : a law student / a student of law

47. 화학 전공의 학생 : a chemistry student

48. 학생복 : a school uniform  49. 학생모 : a school cap

50. 학자 : a scholar  51. 학사 : a bachelor   52. 석사 : a master

53. 박사 : a doctor   54. 강사 : an instructor / a lecturer

55. 객원 강사 : a visiting lecturer     56. 대학 강사 : a college lecturer

57. (대학교의)시간 강사 : a part-time lecturer

58. (중학교/고등학교의)시간 강사 : a part-time teacher

59. 전임 강사 : a full-time instructor / an instructor

60. 교수 : a professor                61. 조교수 : an assistant professor

62. 정교수 : a full professor / a professor

63. 부교수 : an associate professor

64. 명예 교수 : an honorary professor / an emeritus professor

Alas! What a difficult thing it is to master English! Later on I should really like to write my own poems, essays, short stories and even novels in the very language that I dislike people of using as their mother language, especially the Americans, but that I want to master necessarily.  The tougher the route is, the more strenuously I will run forward it. I believe myself and I know and love my destiny. To master English is my unavoidable destiny as well as my sacred mission. I will finish the process in less than two years.

Friday,           March, fifteen, 2002,                                     warm.

Today's English:인터넷상에서 사람들은 즉시 그리고 비용을 들이지 않고 해외로 그림엽서들을 전자우                        편으로 보낼 수 있다.(Over the internet, people can e-mail postcards                                        overseas in no time and at no cost.)

*'즉시 그리고 비용을 들이지 않고'를 일관성 있게 표현하려면 어떻게 하면 될까?

☞ 영작문 시, '즉시'는 at once 또는 in no time, 그리고 '비용을 들이지 않고'는 at no cost 로 쓴다.

그런데 '즉시'와 '비용을 들이지 않고'를 나란히 쓸 때는  '즉시'라고 할 때, at no cost라는 표현과 일     관성을 유지시키기 위해 no라는 단어가 들어간 in no time을 써주는 것이 바람직하다.

*기술 혁신: technological innovation                   *첨단 산업: high-tech industry

One of my former students, Cho Hee-ji, presented me a herbal medicine. It is a really pleasant thing to be treated as a good person. At night I drank with one of my previous colleagues. She was the wife of my friend's. She was an amateur but competent poetess. At a little past midnight, she went out of the pub and I returned to my home after about one hour. Today my mind was full of pleasure.

Saturday,     March, (the) sixteenth, 2002,                                     warm.

Today's English: about F.D.A.(The Food and Drug Administration of the United States)

FDA는 The Food and Drug Administration of the United States 의 약자로서 미국 내에서 유통되는 모든 식품,약품 등을 관리하는 기관으로 미국 내에서 제품 판매, 유통 및  다른 나라 제품의 미국으로의 수출에도 막대한 영향력을 행사하는 기관.   모든 식품 (Food), 의약품 (Medicine), 화장품 (Cosmetics) 및 기타 식생활과 관련된 제품의 안전성 검사(Safety inspection) 및 검역(Quarantine)  그리고 그에 따른 법적 조치 등의 활동을 주로 담당하는 기관으로서 연방 보건 후생부(Department of Health and Human Service) 의 하부 기관입니다.  미국에서 가장 오래된 소비자 보호(Consumers' protection) 정책을 수행하는 정부기관이기도 한 FDA는 특히 소비자들의 건강 보호를 위해 미국 내에서 공급되고 있는 모든 의약품(Medicines)에 대한 안전성을 검사하는데 최우선의 중점을 두고 있으며 다른 나라에서 유통되고 있는 의약품도 미국 내에서는 판매할 수 없거나 사용이 보류되어 있는 것들도 많이 있습니다.

FDA는 전국 각 지역의 도시에 지역 사무소 및 지사를 두고 수많은 인원들이 주기적인 검사와 Monitoring 활동을 실시하고 있습니다. 주요 조직으로는 의약품에 관련된 부서인 의약품 국 (Bureau of Drugs) 및 식품, 동물용 의약품, 방사선 안전 등 다양한 조직으로 구성되어 있습니다.    FDA 검사를 마친 모든 제품은FDA규정에 의하여 의무적으로 성분 표시(Nutrition Facts)와 제품 표시(Labeling)를 해서 소비자들이 쉽게 알 수 있도록 하고 있습니다. FDA에서 관리하는 품목을 보면 육류, 농수산물, 음료수 등 모든 가공식품, 채소, 건강 보조식품 (Dietary supplement) 등이 이에 해당됩니다. 이 밖에 의약품, 의료 기계, 의료용품, 인공장기, 주사, 생약, 한약 등 의료 관련제품과 화장품, 건강보조, 화학 물질, 플라스틱, 공해물질, 동물검사 등이 관리대상에 포함됩니다. 최근에 우리나라에서 성행하고 있는 라식 시력수술 장비 등도 이에 포함됩니다.

한편 미국내의 제품은 물론 미국으로 수출하고 있는 외국 제품에 대해서도 미국 내 제품과 같은 기준을 적용하여 품질검사를 하기 때문에 FDA 표준에 어긋나는 외국제품은 수입이나 유통 자체가 금지됩니다. 미국으로 제품을 수출하고자 하는 기업은 반드시 FDA 규정을 준수해야 하며 FDA 규격을 취득하는 것만으로도 제품의 질을 증명하게 되는 것입니다. 이렇듯 FDA는 식품,약품에 대한 철저한 관리와 검사를 통해 국민들의 건강과 안전을 가장 먼저 책임지는 기관으로 자리 잡고 있습니다.

I went to the spa with my mother to take a bath. It was located in Ha-dong county and it took almost 40 minutes for us to go there by car. At 11:30 a.m. we met again in front of the main gate of the public bathhouse. On the way home we called at my father's tomb as usual. He seemed to welcome us with both his arms stretched. We could watch spring coming up to his country. The sun was shining his grave.

Sunday,      the 17th of March, 2002,                                      warm.

Today's English: IT sector showing signs of recovery

Korea's info-tech (IT) sector is showing signs of a recovery after suffering an extended downturn, a turnaround that is going hand in hand with the country's other key industries.

Demand for personal computers (PC) and mobile handsets is picking up pace, suggesting that major IT players may hit a much-anticipated upswing this year.

Korea's IT sector was severely hurt by the dwindling demand for high-tech gadgets after the global economy suffered setbacks resulting from the bursting of the dot-com bubble.

Many analysts and industry watchers, however, predicted that things would get better this year on the condition that the United States, a key export destination for Korean high-tech products, pulls out of a downdraft and heads for recovery.

Dot-com players are also racking up their revenue, albeit slowly, after a number of venture startups went belly up in the aftermath of the high-tech meltdown across the globe.

Network equipment makers are upbeat about the outlook in coming months, as well. Major network gear manufacturers, which have weathered the severe slump sparked by overcrowded market conditions, are rushing to catch up with the new growth-oriented trend, propelled by the Metro Ethernet and wireless LAN (local area network) services.

Analysts said the turnaround in the high-tech industry is largely echoing the upbeat mood in the manufacturing, or smoke-stack, sectors as well as the bullish stock market.

The Korea Composite Stock Price Index (KOSPI) has posted a whopping 21.53 percent gain since Dec. 31, 2001, on hopes for a recovery in the domestic and global economies.

Defying skeptical views about the PC industry, major manufacturers in Korea saw their PC sales go up by as much as 10 percent on a year-on-year basis, or at least meet internal targets.

Back in the first quarter of 2000 when the high-tech industry was enjoying a full-blown boom period, the country's PC market including notebook computers amounted to 930,000 units.

[주요어휘]

1) turnaround: 전환, 선회                   2) go hand in hand: 나란히 가다

3) upswing: 상승, 상승기세                  4) setback: 퇴보, 방해

5) dot-com bubble: 닷컴 버블              6) downdraft: 불어 내리는 바람

7) rack (up): 달성하다(achieve)             8) belly up: 죽은, 결딴난, 도산한

9) meltdown: 용해, 녹음                    10) Metro-Ethernet: 메트로 이더넷

11) wireless LAN(local area network): 무선 랜(근거리통신망)

12) Korea Composite Stock Price Index(KOSPI): 종합주가지수

<Translation>□IT부문, 회복조짐 보여□

우리나라의 정보기술(IT) 부문이 광범위한 침체를 겪은 뒤 회복 조짐을 보이고 있어 다른 주요 산업과 나란히 균형을 맞추는 하나의 전환점이 되고 있다.   PC 및 이동전화기 수요가 상승하고 있어 올해 대형 IT 업체들이 갈망하던 상승세를 탄 것인지도 모른다는 것을 보여준다.

우리나라의 IT부문은 닷컴 거품이 꺼지면서 세계 경제가 후퇴를 겪은 뒤 첨단기술장비에 대한 수요 급감으로 엄청난 타격을 입었다.   그러나 대다수 분석가 및 업계 전문가들은 올해 우리나라 첨단기술 제품의 주요 수출국인 미국이 침체에서 벗어나 회복 국면을 보이고 있다는 점을 감안하면 상황이 개선될 것이라고 전망했다.   또한 닷컴 기업들은 많은 벤처기업들이 전세계적인 첨단기술 몰락의 여파 속에 도산한 이후 비록 속도는 느리지만 매출액을 달성하고 있다.

아울러 네트워크 장비제조업체들은 향후 개월의 전망에 대해 낙관적이다. 주요 네트워크 장비 업체들은 초만원의 시장 상황으로 촉발된 극심한 침체를 견디어 내고 메트로 이더넷과 무선 랜(LAN) 서비스에 의해 가속화된 성장지향의 신 경향에 따라가고자 발 빠르게 움직이고 있다.

분석가들은 첨단기술산업의 반전이 활황세의 주식시장은 물론 굴뚝산업인 제조업부분에 상승 분위기를 넓게 퍼뜨리고 있다고 말했다.   종합주가지수(KOSPI)는 국내 및 세계 경제의 회복에 대한 기대로 지난해 12월 31일 이후 21.53%라는 큰 폭의 상승을 기록했다.   국내 주요 제조업체들은 최소한 내부 목표를 달성하는 전년대비 최고 10%의 PC매출 증진을 기록하는 등 PC산업에 대한 비관적인 견해를 무색케 만들었다.    2000년 1/4분기 첨단기술업계가 최고 절정의 호황기를 누리고 있을 당시 노트북을 포함한 국내 PC시장 규모는 93만대에 이르렀다.

[시사용어]  -  Metro Ethernet: 메트로 이더넷

근거리통신망(LAN)뿐만 아니라 아예 원거리통신망도 고가의 라우터나 전송장비를 이용하지 않고 기가비트 이더넷 스위치나 패스트 이더넷 스위치를 이용, LAN방식으로 연결하는 초고속 통신망 서비스. 고대역 인터넷서비스가 가능함에도 불구하고 요금이 현재 인터넷 전용선 서비스료의 8분의 1에 불과 하는 점이 최대 강점이다. 기가비트 이더넷 장비를 이용하면 최대 1Gbps까지 대역폭을 제공할 수 있으며 최근 장비 발전추세에 따라 1Mbps까지 대역폭을 조정하는 제품도 출시되고 있다. 미국에서는 야입스․코젠트 등 10여개 인터넷 서비스 업체들이 이같은 서비스를 실시하면서 호응을 얻고 있다. 참고로ethernet은 특정구역내 정보통신망인 LAN(local area network)에 사용되는 네트워크의 모델로 IEEE(미국 전기전자기술자협회)가 표준사양으로 채택한 동축케이블 네트워크를 말한다. Ethernet은 1972년부터 개발되었고, 기초개념은 1969년 하와이대학에서 개발한 ALOHA라는 무선 컴퓨터 통신망에서 최초로 구현됐다.

In the afternoon I wanted to go to the seaside village to smell the sweet fragrance of Spring and to watch the beautiful scenery of the endless sea. My family and my mother left for our destination and made an appointment to meet my second brother's family on the way there. When I drove my car for about 30 minutes, we could meet them on the road for cars. We had to go another 30 minutes to reach there. At last we got there. It was 3:20 p.m. We decided to eat fresh raw fish at a fancy restaurant specializing in raw-fish. We had it heartily. It was very delicious and all of us were very pleased. I paid 102,000 won for it. Afterwards we took a walk along the sea-side road. The wind from sea was touching our faces. It was so smooth.

Monday,      March (the) 18th, 2002,                                windy, but fair.

Today's English:I'm in a cold sweat and having a fever.(저는 식은 땀을 흘리고 열이 있습니다.)

*손에 땀을 쥐고:breathlessly , 구슬땀:beads of sweat ,  no sweat - 문제없이, 쉽게

Title: The origin of Teddy Bear, little bear doll

Teddy Bear 곰 인형은 아기 곰 인형으로서 100여 년 전 세상에 선보인 이래 다양하고 귀여운 모습으로 많은 사람들의 사랑을 받아 오고 있습니다. 특히 미국에서 더 많은 인기를 끌고 있는 것을 알 수 있는데 그것은 Teddy Bear란 이름이 바로 미국의 대통령이었던 Theodore Roosevelt 의 애칭인 Teddy에서 나온 말이기 때문이라고 합니다.  그 유래는, 어느 날 곰 사냥에서 곰을 한 마리도 잡지 못한 Roosevelt 대통령에게 보좌관들이 새끼 곰을 산 채로 잡아다가 사냥한 것처럼 총을 쏘라고 했다고 합니다. 그러자 Roosevelt 대통령이 이를 단호히 거절했다는 일화가 신문을 통해 미국 전역에 알려 지면서, 이 이야기를 바탕으로 한 미국 상인이 Teddy Bear를 만들게 되었다고 합니다. 이 상인은 처음에 대통령에게 정중한 편지를 보내 허락을 요청 했으며 대통령으로부터 겸손한 답장을 받았다고 알려져 있습니다.   나중에 Steiff라는 독일의 유명한 인형 회사와의 합작을 통해 Teddy Bear의 명성이 전세계에 알려져 Steiff는 현재 세계에서 가장 유명한 곰 인형 회사가 되었습니다. 처음에 Teddy Bear 아기 곰 인형은 손으로 일일이 작업을 해야 하는 고가품이었기 때문에 귀족의 아이들만 이 인형을 가지고 놀 수 있었다고 합니다. 아이들에게 이 인형을 사 주는 것 자체가 신분을 나타내는 것이었던 것입니다. 현재는 저렴한 가격으로 누구나 이 인형을 가질 수 있게 되었으며, 또 다른 인형의 대명사 Barbie 인형이 여자 애들만 갖고 놀 수 있는 것에 반해 곰 인형은 어른, 아이 누구에게나 인기를 끌고 있습니다.

최근에는 백년에 달하는 역사와 전통을 가진 Teddy Bear인 만큼 오래되고 가치 있는 Teddy Bear를 수집하고자 하는 사람들도 많이 생겨나게 되었습니다. 이러한 곰 인형 수집가들은 인형을 구입하고 난 다음에 상표를 떼지 않는다고 합니다. 그 이유는 각 회사마다 고유의 라벨이 있고, 라벨의 부착 장소에 따라 제작 년도를 알 수 있으며, 라벨의 종류와 보관 상태에 따라 곰 인형의 가격이 달라지기 때문이라고 합니다.

한편 자신만의 인형을 직접 만드는 사람들도 많이 생겨나고 있는데 이를 위해 DIY set을 통해 인형 본을 구입해서 정성스럽게 인형을 만들어서 친구에게 선물하는 경우도 많습니다. 직접 만들어서 주는 선물은 받는 사람에게는 매우 소중한 선물이 될 것입니다. 특히 미국에서는 곰 인형 만들기가 할머니들에게도 좋은 취미생활이 되고 있다고 합니다. 최근에 Teddy Bear 곰 인형은 우리나라에서도 꾸준히 인기를 끌고 있는 것 같습니다. 이렇듯 Teddy Bear는 미국인들에게 시대와 연령 대를 넘어서 많은 사람들에게 사랑을 받아 오고 있습니다.

I admit that I feel that being at the right place at the right time is better than being the smartest person. However, I must add that most people show up at the right place at the right time not by luck but by design. They get what appears to be big luck, but in reality, they worked hard to get to where the big luck comes. Successful people work for their luck. Success is determined more by effort and work than by luck. Luck is the direct result of consistent, organized, enthusiastic effort. Consequently, to succeed in one's life, one must work strenuously.  No pains, no gains.

Tuesday,      March 19 , 2002,                                        windy but fair

Today's English: Nothing is an accident. ( = Nothing happens by accident.)

(우연히 일어나는 것은 아무 것도 없다. = 모든 일에는 이유가 있다.)

Title: A Useful Common Sense (about the flounder's eyes:도다리의 눈에 관하여)

A flounder's  eyes are on the same side of its head. Flounders are not born that way, though. When a flounder hatches, it looks like any other fish. As it grows, however, its body becomes flattened. One side of the fish is white and the other is a sandy color. The flounder lies on its white side on the ocean floor. Its sandy-colored side faces up. This makes the flounder blend in with the sand, so it can't be easily seen. For any other fish, this would cause a problem. One eye would be looking right into the sand. But nature has solved this problem for the flounder. As the fish grows, the eye on the bottom moves to the upper side.     After I read this writing, I thought that nature's power is too great and infinite. Human beings must be the part of the nature. Nature makes us, including me, adapt ourselves to changing circumstances.

Wednesday,     the 20th of March, 2002,                           hard yellow dust.

Today's English: He's far from sensible(reasonable). (그는 분별력이 있는 것과는 거리가 멀다.)

* 지각(감지)할 수 있는: perceivable

* It is far from the truth. (그것은 진실과는 거리가 멀다.)

= It is not the truth at all.  = It is not the truth by any means. = It is by no means the truth.

* 이성에의 호소: an appeal to reason       * 그럴듯한 논리(논법):plausible(specious) reasoning

We often hear that two opposite things attract each other. Right? No. People tend to seek out others who are similar to themselves in appearance and actions. If you doubt this, ask yourself how willing you are to communicate with someone whose behavior is totally different from yours. Or ask yourself how what your first reaction is to people who look strange. Most people find it difficult to deal with the strange or unusual. Therefore, we can safely say,"Birds of a feather flock together."   I agree with the above saying, but, on the other hand, I would like to deny it, for if someone ask me what my first reaction is to the person who looks just like me, my answer must be 'this is quite a terrible and awful thing.' I never want such a thing to happen to my destiny.

Thursday,    March (the) 21st, 2002,                   hard yellow dust phenomenon.

Today's English: There should be a debate in the days ahead.( 앞으로 논쟁이 있겠군요.)

* '앞으로, 향후' : in the days ahead

* There is a bright future ahead of him. :'그의 앞길에는 밝은 미래가 있습니다'

Title:□20 N. Koreans seeking asylum in Beijing□

BEIJING - Twenty North Koreans who said they were fleeing persecution in their hard-line communist country rushed past Chinese guards and sought asylum Thursday at the Spanish Embassy, threatening suicide if they are sent back.

The men, women and youngsters ran through the embassy's front gate, past two armed Chinese guards. One struggled briefly with a guard who grabbed him, but broke free and ran with the others into the main embassy building.

"We are now at the point of such desperation and live in such fear of persecution within North Korea that we have come to the decision to risk our lives for freedom rather than passively await our doom," the group said in a statement distributed to reporters.

Within minutes, dozens of armed green-uniformed Chinese guards converged on the compound. Spanish diplomats came out of the embassy building, talked to some of the guards, and then followed the asylum-seekers into the building. Chinese guards formed a cordon outside the compound, shooing away bystanders with shouts of "sorry, sorry" in Chinese and English.

A man who picked up the telephone at the embassy said no one was available for comment. China's Foreign Ministry also said it had no immediate comment.

The incident presented a dilemma for the Chinese government. China is a close ally of North Korea but has been criticized by human rights and aid groups for refusing to grant refugee status to North Koreans fleeing famine and repression.

China is bound by treaty with North Korea to repatriate fleeing North Koreans. Many have been sent back, but others have been able to live in hiding along China's northeastern border with North Korea.

The group included six families and three individuals, according to a statement distributed by supporters who helped the North Koreans in their asylum bid. It said they totaled 25 people, but reporters saw only about 20.

The statement included a list of names, ages and hometowns, but said many names were pseudonyms to avoid "dangerous repercussions to our loved ones who remain in North Korea."

There was no indication why the refugees chose the Spanish Embassy. But the compound's front gate is usually left open, in contrast to more heavily guarded embassies.

[주요어휘]

1) compound: (건물, 교도소 등의) 울안, 구내      2) cordon: 초병선, 비상경계선

3) shoo: 쉬이하고 쫓다                      4) refugee status: 난민 지위

5) be bound (to): ~ 의무로 되어 있다, 꼭 ~하게 되어 있다   6) repatriate: 본국으로 송환하다

[시사용어] - Refugee : 난민

생활난 및 전쟁이나 천재지변으로 곤궁에 빠진 이재민 또는 인종, 종교 또는 정치적, 사상적 차이로 인한 박해를 피해 외국이나 다른 지방으로 탈출하는 사람들. 20세기에 들어와 난민이 발생한 사례를 보면 러시아혁명 기간에 약 150만의 난민이 러시아를 떠났고, 1934년 독일에 나치정권이 수립되자 반체제 인사들과 유대인을 비롯한 나치의 피해자 약 250만의 난민이 독일을 등지고 각지로 흩어졌다. 또 제2차 세계대전 후에는 1947년 인도의 분열과 팔레스타인 분열, 1948년의 팔레스타인 전쟁, 1975년의 캄보디아와 Laos 및 Vietnam 등지에서 "boat people"로 유출된 Indochina 난민 등이 그 대표적인 예라 할 수 있다. Cambodia․Vietnam․Laos 등지에서 육로를 통하여 불법으로 China․Thai 등지로 유출되는 난민인 □land people□도 이같은 사례이다. 1998년부터 시작된 Kosovo에 대한 Serbia군의 인종청소 때에는 78만에 달하는 주민이 학살을 피해 국외로 탈출한 바 있다. 대표적 난민 구호기관인 The United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees(UNHCR, 유엔난민고등판관실)에 따르면 2000년 1월 현재 전세계 난민 숫자는 약 2천만 명으로 추산되고 있다.

[ 직독직해 ]

Twenty North Koreans / who said / they / were fleeing persecution / in their hard-line communist country / rushed past Chinese guards / and sought asylum / Thursday / at the Spanish Embassy, / threatening suicide / if / they / are sent back.

20명의 북한 주민들은 / 말했다 / 그들은 / 박해에서 도망쳤다 / 그들의 강경노선 공산국에서 / 중국 경비병을 뚫고 돌진했다 / 그리고 망명을 요청했다 / 목요일 / 스페인 대사관에서 / 자살을 위협하며 / 만약 / 그들이 / 보내진다 //       Tips) 박해: persecution / 망명을 구하다(요청하다) : seek asylum

The men, women and youngsters / ran through the embassy's front gate, / past two armed Chinese guards. // One / struggled briefly / with a guard / who grabbed him, / but broke free / and ran / with the others / into the main embassy building. //

남녀 성인과 어린이들은 / 대사관 정문을 통과했다 / 두 명의 중국 무장 경비병을 지나 // 한 명은 / 잠시 실랑이를 벌였다 / 경비병과 / 그를 붙잡았다 / 그러나 뿌리쳤다 / 그리고 달려갔다 / 다른 사람들과 / 대사관 주건물안으로 //  번역) struggle briefly with:~와 잠시 실랑이를 하다 , break free: 자유롭게 되다

"We / are now / at the point of such desperation / and live / in such fear of persecution / within North Korea / that we / have come to the decision / to risk our lives / for freedom / rather than passively await our doom," / the group / said / in a statement / distributed to reporters. //

□우리는 / 현재 있다 / 절박한 순간에 / 그리고 살고 있다 / 매우 두려운 박해 속에서 / 북한 내의 / (그래서) 우리는 / 결정을 하게 되었다 / 우리의 목숨을 걸도록 / 자유를 위해 / 우리의 운명을 수동적으로 기다리기 보다는 차라리□ / 이들 일행은 / 말했다 / 성명서에서 / 기자들에게 배포된 //

* be at the point of: (바야흐로) ~ 순간이다   / such ~ that 구문(너무나~ 해서 that ~ 하다)

Within minutes, / dozens of armed green-uniformed Chinese guards / converged on the compound. // Spanish diplomats / came out of the embassy building, / talked to some of the guards, / and then followed the asylum-seekers / into the building. // Chinese guards / formed a cordon / outside the compound, / shooing away bystanders / with shouts of "sorry, sorry" / in Chinese and English. //

몇 분만에 / 푸른색 복장을 입은 중국의 무장경비병 수십 명은 / 대사관내에 집결했다 // 스페인 외교관들은 / 대사관 건물 밖으로 나왔다 / 경비병 몇 명과 말을 했다 / 그리고 나서 망명 요청자들을 따라갔다 / 건물 안으로 // 중국 경비병들은 / 비상 경계선을 만들었다 / 관내 바깥에 / 구경꾼들을 쫓았다 / □미안하다, 미안하다□라는 소리와 함께 / 중국어와 영어로 //

tips)  converge: 집결하다 / compound: (저택, 공장의) 울안, 구내

A man / who picked up the telephone / at the embassy / said / no one was available / for comment. // China's Foreign Ministry / also said / it / had no immediate comment. //

한 남자는 / 전화를 받은 / 대사관에서 / 말했다 / 아무도 할 수가 없다 / 논평을 // 중국의 외교부는 / 또한 말했다 / 이는 / 즉각적인 논평이 없었다 //

Tips)  pick up the telephone: 전화를 받다  / be available for: ~이 가능하다

The incident / presented a dilemma / for the Chinese government. // China / is a close ally of North Korea / but has been criticized / by human rights and aid groups / for refusing to grant refugee status / to North Koreans / fleeing famine and repression. //

이번 사건은 / 딜레마를 주었다 / 중국 정부에 // 중국은 / 북한의 가까운 우방국 가운데 하나이다 / 그러나 비난을 받아왔다 / 인권 및 구원 단체들에 의해 / 난민 지위를 부여하는 것을 거절한 것에 대해 / 북한 주민들에게 / 기근과 박해를 피해 도망치는 //  * Grant A to B: A에게 B를 주다

China / is bound / by treaty / with North Korea / to repatriate fleeing North Koreans. // Many / have been sent back, / but others / have been able to live in hiding / along China's northeastern border / with North Korea. //

중국은 / ~하기로 되어 있다(~해야만 한다 ) / 조약에 의해 / 북한과의 / 탈북 주민들을 송환하기로 // 상당수는 / 송환되었다 / 그러나 나머지는 / 숨어서 살 수 있었다 / 중국의 동북 접경을 따라 / 북한과의

The group / included six families and three individuals, / according to a statement / distributed by supporters / who helped the North Koreans / in their asylum bid. // It / said / they / totaled 25 people, / but reporters / saw only about 20. //

이들 일행은 / 6가족과 3명의 개인을 포함했다 / 성명서에 따르면 / 지원자들에 의해 배포된 / 이들 북한 주민들을 도왔다 / 망명 시도중인 // 이는 / 밝혔다 / 그들이 총 25명에 이르렀다 / 그러나 기자들은 / 단지 20여명을 보았다 //

The statement / included a list of names, ages and hometowns, / but said / many names / were pseudonyms / to avoid "dangerous repercussions / to our loved ones / who remain / in North Korea." //

성명서는 / 이름, 나이 그리고 고향 목록을 포함하였다 / 그러나 밝혔다 / 대다수 이름은 / 가짜였다 / □위험스런 박해를 피하기 위해 / 우리의 사랑스런 가족들에 대한 / 남아 있는 / 북한에□ //

* pseudonym: 익명, 아호

There was no indication / why / the refugees / chose the Spanish Embassy. // But the compound's front gate / is usually left open, / in contrast to more heavily guarded embassies.

어떠한 표시도 없었다 / 왜 / 이들 난민이 / 스페인 대사관을 선택했는지 // 그러나 대사관의 정문은 / 대개 문이 열려져 있다 / 더 삼엄한 경비가 이뤄진 대사관들과 대조로 //

Tips) leave open: 열려 있다  /  in contrast to+명사상당어구(~와 대조를 이루어, ~와 달리)

This afternoon I was busy studying my teaching materials. Hee-seok, my eldest son, haven't returned home yet and Ji-hun, my youngest son, infant, has been taken good care of by my mother. The latter was sleeping beside her. I was exploring textbooks lying on the electronic mat in the living room, when someone knocked on the door of my house. I answered it and immediately opened the door. A strange, old man, who appears to be about in the mid of 50s, stood in front of it. (Later I could know he was the man who was in charge of managing the apartment complex next to my house.) I wondered why he called at my house and I had to ask him, "what made you come to my house?" He made a complaint of my parking my car in front of my house. (As a matter of fact, I was a long tenant, not the owner of the house.) When I listened to him, I couldn't bear anger and his impoliteness(his rude attitude). Actually, I didn't make any error. It was natural and right that I should park my car in front of my house. It was my proper right. No one could ignore it. Nevertheless, he didn't ask me about parking problem(my clear right), but treated me as unlawful civilian. It was his obvious fault. However, on the contrary, he got mad at me. Though he was a lot senior to me, I couldn't forgive his rudeness. I had a serious quarrel with him for about 10 minutes. Even after his returning to his office, my anger didn't disappear. Now I know why he came to my house. It was due to the inhabitants residing in the apartment complex. They must have urged him to visit my house and tell me about their complaint of my parking. (Frankly speaking, I can have the confidence to say that I didn't make any fault about it.) I would like to blame them for their insolent egoism. By the way, at dark night, a bad guy, drunken man, broke into my house even two times. Without knocking at the door, he entered my house sneakingly and he hit my face with his fist. My wife and I were frightened at the unexpected happening. He ran away. Although I wasn't seriously hurt, it made wrath rise in my heart. I wore training clothes in haste, and went out of my house to catch him. Because he was a drunken guy, I was able to hold him. I stared at his face and I thought he resembled the rude man who called on me this afternoon. I wanted to report the police and accuse him of trespassing my house, but I had no choice but to allow him to go to his way. He was beside himself. Besides, he was young. If such a thing happens to me again, I will never forgive him. It was an unlucky day.

Friday,    March, 22, 2002,                             hard yellow dust phenomenon.

Today's English: You have to spell out your thoughts.(당신은 당신의 생각을 명확히 밝혀야 합니다.)

'생각, 의사, 의견 등을 명확히 밝히다' 라는 표현: spell out

Spell 은 '철자를 말하다, 의미하다, 초래하다, 마법, 잠시'

한편 '명확히 밝히다' 의 다른 표현으로는 articulate 라는 표현을 사용할 수 있습니다.

After I finished my today's work, I met an old friend of mine, Cho Jae-keum, and his friend, my middle school friend, and talked about diverse topics over a drink. When I returned to my home, it was 2:30 a.m., Saturday. I fell asleep beside feet of an angel of a wife and sons. Though fatigue bothered me a bit, it was a pleasant day.

Saturday,      the 23rd of March, 2002,              serious yellow dust from China.

These days I have no classes on Saturdays. It made me stay at home all afternoon long. (In the morning, I, together with my mother, went to take a bath to spa in Ha-dong, visited my late father's land and returned to my house at about 12:30 p.m.) Fortunately, my wife didn't go to her work today, because today was a day-off. In the afternoon, I kept a diary with my computer.(In fact, to my shame, I hadn't kept it for a week.) I need to bear this maxim in mind, "Never put off till tomorrow what I can do today." In the evening I went to watch a play which was to be performed in Culture and Art Center In Chil-am Dong(District). Its title was 'Mad Kiss' and sensual lines and scenes of the play forbade minors(under 18) to watch it. It was performed for one and a half hours. It was so interesting that I made up my mind to watch many plays which would be performed in this city, Jinju. When it was over, it was 9:45 p.m. It took me about 10 minutes to return to my house in my car. As soon as I entered my house, I suggested to my wife that we should go to the restaurant and have soot-roasted pork. I wanted to talk with neighbors, the couple who lives on the first floor in the same building that I am as well as the owner who runs a restaurant, drinking a so-ju. My wife agreed with me after hesitating for a few minutes and we went downstairs holding my two sons who were sleeping in the sitting room.(I carried my eldest son and my wife my youngest one.) We communicated with them for about 2 hours. They, especially husband, told us about his hard old days and difficulties related to his business(restaurant). I thought they were really good people. Now I wish that they will have good luck in their future and make a great fortune.

Sunday,        March (the) 24th, 2002,                      a little windy but warm.

Today's English: Presidential campaign entered the final months.

(대통령 선거 운동기간이 얼마 안 남았습니다.)

A: We will have a presidential election this year. (올해에는 대통령 선거가 있습니다.)

B: When is the election day? (선거일이 언제입니까?)

A: End of October. (10월말입니다.)

B: And then Presidential campaign entered the final months.

*~를 얼마 안 남기다 : enter the final months

* Enter 는 들어가다, 입학하다, 떠오르다, 등장하다 등과 어떤 단계에 이르다 라는 의미로도 사용.

* Presidential campaign 은 대통령 선거를 위한 선거운동 기간.

Today was a very important day to my lovely nephew, Jeong Hyun-woo. He was supposed to take a test to get the second Poom, or Dan(terms for adults), Taekweondo which has long been the martial art of this country, Republic of Korea. I went to watch his activity with my mother and my eldest son. His parents had already been there. We all cheered him and even if he fell down on the floor at the fighting against his opponent(he wasn't hit by his counterpart, but only fell down playing a great stunt.), he did a good job. And, most significantly, he tried his best. He was the best player. I love him. I am sure that he will lead his generation to right and good direction.   In the afternoon my mother and I took my son and my two nieces to the zoo. (Since Hyun-woo was invited to the birthday party for his friend, I couldn't, to my regret, go to the zoo with him.) All of us had a wonderful time. I took their pictures on the background of a variety of animals, such as elephant, donkey, rabbit, and so on. To my son, it was the first visit to the zoo, so he was very pleased. Owing to his loud laughter, my mother and I were very happy. It was a very pleasant day. My son is sleeping now. His eyes appear to catch bad virus. I pray that he will defeat the evil illness and that next morning he will giggle like his bright appearance of this day. Cheer up! My boy! You can do it. You are my son. Therefore, you can make it.

Monday,        March 25, 2002,                                  windy and cold.     Today's English: This picture doesn't do my justice.(이 사진엔 내가 잘 나오지 않았다.)

Title: "'Yellow dust□ to continue through today□(오늘까지도 계속된 황사현상)

A powerful sandstorm, known as "yellow dust," hit Korea yesterday and is expected to continue through today coupled with strong winds, the Korea Meteorological Administration (KMA) said yesterday.    Skies turned ochre in Seoul where the visibility fell to 1.5 km and the wind blew at a speed of 3 km per second.    Although a blanket of yellow dust hung over the peninsula since early yesterday morning, it was particularly thick in the northeast, where the visibility dropped to 0.8 km in Chuncheon and 0.5 km in Gangneung. However, Busan had a visibility of 15 km.

Yesterday's yellow dust storm, the third to hit Korea this year, is the most intense so far, meteorologists said.     They warned that the yellow dust might cause air and soil pollution as well as eye, nose and respiratory illnesses since recent storms contain heavy metallics such as cadmium, aluminum and lead.      KMA officials advised the elderly and children to remain indoors and wear masks if they have to go outside. Experts also recommend that people wash their hands when they return home.     "Yellow dust is expected to occur more often this spring since dry weather and high temperatures will continue in northern China, where the dust originates," a KMA official said.     Dubbed the "gate crasher of spring," the phenomenon happens after yellow sand gathers above the Gobi Desert in northern China. Sandstorms are created, usually during dry spring weather, by the convection of currents of warm and cold air that sweeps soil particles up to high altitudes.     They typically rise to a height of 3 to 5 km before blowing eastward at some 30 meters per second, crossing the West Sea before arriving in Korea.

Several regional airports, including those in Mokpo, Pohang and Sokcho, had to cancel domestic flights due to the sandstorm and heavy fog. International flights, however, were not affected, as visibility in Incheon International Airport was 1 km, officials said.

[주요어휘]

*sandstorm:모래바람  *yellow dust:황사  *the Korea Meteorological Administration (KMA): 기상청

*visibility: 시계   *blanket: 전면을 뒤덮는 것, 담요   *air and soil pollution: 대기 및 토양 오염

*respiratory: 호흡기의   *heavy metallics: 중금속    *gate crasher: 불청객

[시사용어] - Yellow Dust : 황사

중국 북부나 몽고의 Yellow earth region(황토지대)에서 바람에 불려 올라간 누런 모래먼지가 하늘을 뒤덮고 내리는 현상. 우리 나라에는 봄철에 이동성 high and low atmospheric pressure(고기압과 저기압)가 자주 통과하는데, yellow dust(황사) 현상은 이동성 high atmospheric pressure(고기압)가 동쪽으로 이동하는 3～5월에 많이 발생한다. 때로는 상공의 강한 편서풍을 타고 한반도를 거쳐 일본에까지 날아간다. Yellow dust(황사) 현상이 봄에 생기는 것은 동아시아의 봄이 매우 건조하여 바람이 약간만 불어도 yellow earth(황토)가 쉽게 날릴 수 있기 때문이다. Yellow dust(황사)의 발원지는 타클라마칸 사막, 고비 사막, 황하 강 상류, 아라산 사막 등이며 바람을 타고 yellow earth(황토)를 운반한다. Yellow dust(황사) 입자의 크기는 0. 25～0. 5mm 정도로 석영․장석외에 운모․자철석을 포함하고 있다. Yellow dust(황사)현상이 나타나면 태양은 빛이 가려져 심하면 황갈색으로 보이고, visibility range(가시거리)가 1～2km밖에 안 된다. 따라서 항공교통은 물론 지상교통에도 영향을 주며 지면이나 물건 위에 흙먼지가 내려 쌓이는 경우도 있다. 기관지 질환이나 눈병 등을 일으키기도 하고, 미세한 a particle of yellow dust(황사입자) 때문에 정밀 기계가 손상되는 등 건강과 일상 생활에 많은 불편을 준다.

[ 직독직해 ]

A powerful sandstorm, / known as "yellow dust," / hit Korea / yesterday / and is expected to continue / through today / coupled with strong winds, / the Korea Meteorological Administration (KMA) said yesterday. //

맹위를 떨치는 모래바람이 / □황사□로 알려진 / 한반도를 강타했다 / 어제 / 그리고 계속될 전망이다 / 오늘까지도 / 강풍을 동반하면서 / 기상청이 어제 밝혔다 //

영작) ~알려진: known as  /  ~을 동반한: coupled with / 기상청:the Korea Meteorological Administration (KMA)

Skies / turned ochre / in Seoul / where / the visibility / fell to 1.5 km / and the wind / blew / at a speed of 3 km per second. //

하늘은 / 황토색으로 변했다 / 서울에 / 그곳에는 / 시계가 / 1.5km로 떨어졌다 / 그리고 바람이 / 불었다 / 초당 3km의 속도로 //

영작) 황토색의: ochre  /  시계: visibility  /

Although / a blanket of yellow dust / hung over the peninsula / since early yesterday morning, / it was particularly thick / in the northeast, / where / the visibility / dropped to 0.8 km / in Chuncheon / and 0.5 km / in Gangneung. // However, / Busan / had a visibility of 15 km. //

비록 / 온누리를 덮은 황사가 / 한반도 전역에 걸렸다 / 어제 이른 아침부터 / 특히 두꺼웠다 / 동북부 지역에서 / 그곳에서 / 시계는 / 0.8km로 떨어졌다 / 춘천 지역은 / 그리고 0.5km / 강릉지역은 // 그러나 / 부산은 / 15km의 시계를 보였다 //

번역)a blanket of yellow dust: 온누리를 덮은 황사(황사가 ~ 전역에) /hang over: ~에걸리다

Yesterday's yellow dust storm, / the third / to hit Korea this year, / is the most intense so far, / meteorologists said. //

어제의 황사바람은 / 세번째로 / 올들어 우리나라를 강타한 / 이제까지 가장 심한 것이다 / 기상학자들이 밝혔다 //

They / warned / that the yellow dust / might cause air and soil pollution / as well as eye, nose and respiratory illnesses / since / recent storms / contain heavy metallics / such as cadmium, aluminum and lead. //

그들은 / 경고했다 / 황사가 / 대기 및 토양 오염을 초래할 수 있다 / 눈, 코 그리고 호흡기 질환은 물론 / 이기에 / 최근의 바람은 / 중금속을 함유한다 / 카드뮴, 알루미늄, 납 등과 같은 //

KMA officials / advised / the elderly and children / to remain indoors / and wear masks / if / they / have to go outside. // Experts / also recommend / that people / wash their hands / when / they / return home. //

기상청 관계자들은 / 당부했다 / 노인 및 어린이들은 / 실내에 남아 있을 것을 / 그리고 마스크를 착용할 것을 / 만약 / 그들이 / 바깥에 나가야 한다 /  전문가들은 / 또한 당부한다 / 사람들이 / 손을 씻어야 한다 / 때 / 그들이 / 집으로 돌아오다 //

"Yellow dust / is expected to occur / more often / this spring / since / dry weather and high temperatures / will continue / in northern China, / where / the dust originates," / a KMA official said. //

□황사는 / 발생할 것으로 보여진다 / 더 자주 / 올봄에 / 때문에 / 건조한 날씨와 높은 기온이 / 계속될 것이다 / 중국 북부지역에서 / 그곳에는 / 황사가 시작하고 있다" / 고 기상청 관계자는 밝혔다 //

Dubbed the "gate crasher of spring," / the phenomenon / happens / after / yellow sand / gathers / above the Gobi Desert / in northern China. // Sandstorms / are created, / usually during dry spring weather, / by the convection of currents of warm and cold air / that sweeps soil particles / up to high altitudes. //

□봄의 불청객□으로 불리는 /  이 현상은 / 발생한다 / 이후에 / 황사가 / 모인다 / 고비사막 상공에 / 중국 북부에 있는 // 모래바람은 / 만들어진다 / 주로 봄철 건조한 날씨동안 / 난기류와 냉기류의 환류로 인해/이는 토양 입자를 쓸어버린다 /높은 곳으로//

번역) "gate crasher of spring": 봄의 불청객  / dub: ~ 로 명명된(불리는) / convection:환류

They / typically rise to a height of 3 to 5 km / before blowing eastward / at some 30 meters per second, / crossing the West Sea / before arriving in Korea.

이들은 / 통상적으로 3내지 5Km의 높이까지 치솟는다 / 동쪽으로 날리기 전에 / 초속 30미터의 속도로 / 서해를 건너 / 한국에 도달하기 전에 //

*before를 after로 바꿔 해석해도 자연스러움(before 앞뒤 순서도 바꿀 경우)

Several regional airports, / including those / in Mokpo, Pohang and Sokcho, / had to cancel domestic flights / due to the sandstorm and heavy fog. // International flights, / however, / were not affected, / as / visibility / in Incheon International Airport / was 1 km, / officials said. //

일부 지방공항은/ 그것들을 포함해 / 목포, 포항 및 속초에 있는 / 국내선 운항을 취소해야만 했다 / 모래바람과 짚은 안개로 인해 // 국제선은 / 그러나 / 영향을 입지 않았다 / ~하면서 / 시계가 / 인천국제공항의 / 1km였다 / 당국이 밝혔다 //

I didn't keep a diary today. Instead, I copied down a useful material about Yellow dust. Later, this will be helpful to the people, especially my two sons, who will read this writing, my diary.

Tuesday,       the 26th of March, 2002,                              windy and cold.

Today's English: You look fine in this picture.(이 사진에 네가 잘 나왔다.)

Topic: Attorneys' Country, U.S.A

미국에는 우리나라 보다 훨씬 많은 수의 변호사들이 활동하고 있는데 우리나라는 인구 수 만 명 당 변호사 1명 꼴인데 반해 미국에서는 인구 수 백 명당 1명 꼴이므로 오히려 변호사들이 고객을 찾아 다니게 되는 정도로 변호사가 많은 나라입니다. 일반적으로 변호사는 lawyer, attorney, counsel 등으로 부르며 변호사 업무를 가리켜 the Bar 라고 하는데 He went to the bar. 라고 하면 그는 변호사가 되었습니다 라는 표현이 됩니다.

미국에서 변호사 자격을 획득하기 위해서는 Bar Exam 이라 불리는 변호사 시험을 통과해야만 합니다. Bar Exam 은 우리나라의 사법고시처럼 누구나 시험을 볼 수 있는 것이 아니고 일정한 자격을 갖추어야 합니다. 변호사가 되기 위한 가장 일반적 과정으로서 우리의 법과대학에 해당하는 Law School 을 졸업한 후 Juris Doctor라 불리는 JD학위를 취득하면 Bar Exam을 볼 수 있는 자격이 주어집니다. 미국의 법대가 우리와 다른 점은 학부 과정이 아닌 대학원 과정이라는 점입니다.

다음으로 Master of Law라 불리는 LLM 학위를 취득하면 Bar Exam 시험 자격이 주어지는데 LLM은 주로 JD 졸업생들이 관심 분야를 좀 더 공부하기 위해 배우는 과정이지만 외국의 법조인이나 법대 졸업생에게도 입학이 허용됩니다. 이 밖에 Correspondence Law School 이라 하여 1년간 온라인 수업 등을 받은 후 Baby Bar Exam 이라 불리는 시험을 통과하면 Law School에 편입할 수 있는 제도도 있습니다. 한편 California 등 미국의 일부 주에서는 외국에서 이민 온 사람이라도 자국에서 변호사, 판사, 검사 경력이 있는 사람들은 활동 경력을 심사하여 Bar Exam 응시 자격을 부여하고 있습니다. 실제로 미국에서 법학을 공부하지 않았더라도 법조인으로 활동한 경력만으로 주 대법원에서 응시 자격을 인정 받을 수 있는 것입니다.

미국에서 변호사는 우리 나라와 마찬가지로 안정된 생활이 보장되는 인기 있는 직업이기는 하지만 우리나라의 사법고시 처럼 극소수의 인원을 선발하는 시험은 아니고 일정한 수준 이상을 요구하는 자격 시험이므로 많은 수의 변호사들이 배출되어 변호사 업무를 수행하고 있으며, 따라서 변호사 개개인의 능력에 따라 소득의 격차가 천차만별인 경우가 많습니다.

Today will go down the history as one day of my saddest days all my life. For the first time I spank my first son on the calves with the rod made of the twig of the bamboo. It is awfully sad for one to punish his or her own children with the rod, but on the other hand I believe in the proverb, "Spare the rod and spoil the child." As of today, I will help my boys to grow up as a good man and to get their favorite jobs body and soul. (Though I want one of my two sons to be a public prosecutor, when he becomes a grown-up.)

Wednesday,    March (the) 27th, 2002,                                windy and cold.

Today's English: Which is the short cut to the city hall?(시청가는 지름길이 어디죠?)

When I woke up this morning, terrible hangover didn't want to leave my head and stomach. I remembered to give a lecture at 11:00 a.m. But soon I realized that I wouldn't do it. First of all I gave my mother and my second son a ride to her dancing academy where she has been learning sports dancing for about two and a half months. Owing to the exercise, she is much more slender than 3 months ago, which makes me pleased. I hope it will make her happy and healthy for a very long time. On the way from dancing school, I went to my work in order to change my today's class time into tomorrow. The homeroom teacher in charge of the students hoping to enter their longing university by studying hard accepted my offer with pleasure. I returned home in haste and fell asleep on my bed. It is time that I should be careful about my health. If I lose it, I will be an unforgivable sinner to my family, especially my mother and two sons. I never want to do so.

Thursday,    March 28, 2002,                         windy, cold and rainy at night.

Today's English: 1.You have an air of importance.(당신은 잘난 체 하는 군요.)

2.They just had an interview with very little fanfare.

(그들은 소란 떨지 않고 간단한 인터뷰만 가졌습니다.)

*소란 떨지 않고, 특별한 행사 없이 라는 표현 : with very little fanfare

* Fanfare 는 원래 불어로서 허풍쟁이 라는 뜻이며 팡파레, 과시, 선전, 광고 등의 의미

* 팡파레를 울리다 : sound a fanfare 또는 sound a flourish of trumpets

Today's Topic: Easter Day : 부활절

미국에서는 부활절이 기독교의 큰 축제일로서 예수의 부활을 축하하는 날이다. 춘분 후 최초의 만월 다음의 일요일이 부활절이 되며, Easter Day 또는 Easter Sunday라고 부르는데 이날부터 1주일간을 Easter Week, 50일간을 Easter time 이라고 한다.

그런데 이 날엔 기도를 드리는 것이 아니라, 동네 아이들이 마당에 모여 보물찾기 게임을 하고 있는 것이었다. 알고 보니, 옆집 아저씨가 아이들을 위하여 부활절 선물인 장식용 삶은 계란 (Easter egg)에 색칠도 하고, 리본도 달아서 몰래 마당에 숨겨 놓았고, 아이들은 그 숨겨진 보물을 열심히 찾고 있는 것이었다.

아이들은 부활절에 우스운 모양을 한 토끼가 바구니에 알록달록한 Easter eggs를 가득 담고 깡총깡총 뛰어 다니며 여기저기에 Easter eggs를 숨겨놓고 나서 잠을 자는 거라고 믿으며, 그 사이에 달걀들을 찾아내는 그런 게임을 하는 것이었다. 토끼가 잠에서 깨어나면 숨겨놓은 Easter eggs를 바구니에 담아 어디론가 떠나 버린다고 믿는 아이들은 토끼를 깨우지 않으려는 듯 매우 조심스럽게 행동했고, 그러한 아이들의 모습이 너무나 귀여웠다.

보물찾기가 끝난 후 난 옆집 이웃으로부터 Easter Card를 받았다, 카드를 열어 보니 꽃다발, 토끼, 계란 등의 예쁜 그림이 그려있는 카드였다. 이웃에게 들은 그림의 설명은 다음과 같았다.

오래전부터 토끼가 생명의 상징이 된 것은 다산 동물이기 때문이다. 계란은 옛 그리이스나 페르시아에서 봄철 축제의 선물로 쓰던 것. 기독교에서 계란 껍질은 예수가 부활해서 나타난 묘소를 나타내는 것으로 되어 있다.

선물을 주고 받는 행사가 끝난 후, 우리는 햄으로 만든 여러 종류의 음식을 맛 볼 수 있었다. 기독교에서 돼지는 옛부터 행운을 나타내기 때문에 유럽이나 미국에서는 부활절에 햄을 먹는 습관이 있다고 한다.

The Easter Day was 2 days away from today. However, even on the great day, I will not be able to notice Jejus Christ revive, but will be able to observe only my self survive this difficult world.

Friday,     the 29th of March, 2002,                                           rainy.

Today's English: Don't keep company with such people.(그런 사람들과 사귀지 마라.)

I have worked as an english instructor for about 8 years. It must be a long time and since I have tried my best to improve my ability and skill to teach English for such a long time, I deserve to be called an expert to English teaching. I often think my lectures are very good, but once in a while I can‘t but underestimate myself. For instance, this morning I gave my students wonderful lesson but in the evening classes I could never be satisfied with my attitude to deliver my knowledge to my pupils. Of course, I don't look upon them as my customers. I don't sell my knowledge to them, but give a lesson to them in the form of lecture. That's right. I need to realize that I have to study English harder and harder and develop all the better teaching method. If I go on practicing them, it is needless to say that someday I shall be the best master in this field. Teaching is such a tough process that I want to love it. Besides, I have already known how pleasant it is to learn something, particularly anything new. Teaching others, especially young people in fatherland, perfectly is the best method to teach oneself. To my death, I will keep that golden rule in mind. It is the best way to love myself.

Saturday,         March (the) 30th, 2002,                     heavy wind and chilly.

Today's English: He is very punctual.(그는 매우 시간을 잘 지킨다.)

From 2 to 5 p.m. I was supposed to give my special pupil, Lee Su-jeong, a private lesson about English grammar, in particular about all the prepositions, because last Wednesday she asked me for delaying her lesson time and I couldn't turn down her earnest offer. On the next day, Thursday, she took a preliminary exam in her school. She is the 1st grade student in Kyeong-hae girls' high school. That day I only hoped that she would try her best in her test. By the way, at 12:20 this afternoon her mother telephoned me to ask for me about putting off her lesson again. I got more or less mad at it, but I couldn't help it. After I made another appointment to see her next Wednesday, I hang up. All of a sudden I had the feeling of vanity. Strange to say, I thought I had lost my job. It made me obsessed with panic and insecurity. What a confusing experience it was! Every man may be a being wandering in the bog of uncertainty toward reality and toward future. It is sure that I am also the part of the unavoidable law of nature; for I can't escape from the fence of humanity by any means and forever. Anyway regardless of my own will, I had to stay home all day long. It was so boring a day to me.

Sunday,   March, 31, 2002,    Cherry blossoms are in full bloom outside the window.

Today's English: I give you my word for it.(제가 그것을 보증합니다.)

It was early this afternoon when such a heartbreaking thing took place in the living room of my house. None of my family members wanted to go out to expose ourselves to the smooth sunshine. Probably my fucking idleness was to be blamed for this. Insolence(Sloth) must be the worst enemy to living human being. If one don't defeat it, one is as good as a dead body, even though one is alive. On the other hand, if one can beat the vice, one will be able to carry out anything, however hard a process it may be. By the way, the very devil controlled my wife and me. She and I didn't so much as wash our own face until this afternoon. It was fortunate that we had brunch.  My second son, 4months old, was crying loudly because he was hungry.  Just then my first son, only 25 months old, had to go his own way. My wife was struggling to appease him, but he wouldn't submit her continuous persuasion. Such a situation made me annoyed. I hurried to him and spank him on the buttocks. ONE, TWO, THREE, FOUR. I was the worst guy in this world. I was as good as a demon. I made blunder which was unforgivable at all. He wailed and wept. On and on he cried loudly. I was so ashamed of my barbarous behavior that I wanted to hide myself in the hole of mouse. For a moment silence dominated time and space. I embraced him in my chest. He poured his sadness and wrath into my heart. I couldn't think of anything. My consciousness was blank. I didn't know how much time passed. In spite of myself my innocent and pure son fell asleep in my chest. His eyes was swollen. I wanted to have killed myself. I had desired to destroy the satan in my self. Today was one of the most sorrowful and miserable days in my life. I won't forget my worst wrongdoing at all and I will try not to make such a terrible mistake again.

Monday,      the 1st of April, 2002, (April Fool's Day)                  a little hot.

Today's English: She gave it to me for nothing. (그녀는 공자로 그것을 내게 주었다.)

Today was an April Fool's Day. People usually tell a white lie to their intimate friends, family members, or acquaintances without any evil intention. Such lies don't any harm, but have an important role to break the ice among those who are strange surroundings. I did it to mother. However, it was so awkward that she recognized it was a lie and that she smiled at me. I felt a little ashamed of it. It may be necessary that we sometimes tell white lies for the sake of good atmosphere. But I think it is desirable that we don't tell lies. The reason is that though it is white lies, they can hurt others' feeling and, what's worse, they may break trust among people.

Tuesday,    April (the) 2nd, 2002,                                        a little hot.

Today's English: That is a happy feature of a misfortune.(불행 중 다행입니다.)

I translated a Korean poem of my acquaintance's into English one today. She was a poetess as well as an essayist. Her real name was Park In-suk but she wanted to be called 'Habaraki', namely, her pen name, all the better than her real name. I hope she will be satisfied with my translated poem, because I strived for it soul and body.

Landscape

written by Habaraki

On the leaves of bamboos inviting moonlight to their nest

The back yard is brimming with cozy gleam.

On the terrace where jars are placed

As if to listen to the lecture of Heaven

Swelling jars are giving a deep bow grasping their hands on the knees.

Silver ray is falling down over their heads.

Somewhere desolate east wind blows.

All at once river revives fluttering her fins.

Clean and blue sea falls into the jars obsessed with 'Croak. Croak'.

On white sands, as angelic children are stamping their feet,

Raising their cute hands, shouting,"I am here. I can do it."

They have the dew of dawn on their pupils.

I am happy enough not to shut my mouth.

I am hesitating to whom to step up and speak

Applying saliva to the tip of my index finger.

translated by ENARO  2002, 4, 3.

가벼워짐에 대하여 - 1 -

***habaraki*** 지음

댓잎들 사각거리는 뒤올 안에

달빛이 고봉으로 내립니다

장독대 헛배부른 항아리들이 깍지 무릎을 끼고

머리를 조아리고 있습니다

머리통들 위에 은빛살 환합니다

어디서 소슬한 동부새 한 줄금 불어오자

지느러미 파닥이며 살아나는 강물, 항아리들은

맹꽁이 울음을 싣고 그대로 청랑빛 바다입니다

하얀 모랫벌 저요, 저요 발동동 구르는

고사리손들 보입니다

나는 오진 마음에 입 다물지 못하고

어느것에게로 가서 먼저 가만 말 건네볼까

검지손가락 침 묻혀가며 망설이고 있습니다.

Wednesday,    April 3, 2002,                                           a little hot.

Today's English: Now we are through for today. (오늘 일은 이제 끝났다.)

= Let's call it a day(night). = So much for today.

As soon as I returned to my home after a lecture, I hurried to boil water so as to cook an instant noodle(Ramyeon). My mother was expected to eat out together with my second younger brother couple and his mother-in-law, and so I was supposed to take care of my two sons instead of my mother. When I was having lunch, the couple alone came to my house. They didn't accompany his mother-in-law. I asked the reason and my sister-in-law said that her mother didn't want to eat out with my mother, because she had caught a terrible cancer and her appearance had been changed into ugly one, such as thin, and almost bald, because of a cancer medication(radiation therapy). Instead of her, they wanted to eat lunch with me. Though I have already eaten it, it was unavoidable that I accepted their offer. After all I went to the restaurant which is situated in Hap-cheon county. It was well-known for specializing in very fresh beef and pork. We all except my two sons enjoyed lunch there. Outside the windows smooth breezes were blowing and they made white and pink cherry blossoms just like snow flown down on the ground. While we saw the beautiful sight, we ate roast beef very deliciously.  when we reached Jinju, it was almost 4:00 p.m. My two sons needed to be taken to the hospital, because they often coughed hard and both of them had a high fever all over the body. My mother and I made them diagnosed by a doctor who runs the hospital I would take my sons, whenever they had a common cold. My first son was even taken a shot. They have suffered from a serious cold for at least a few days. Their cough made me sad and I was made to feel like my heart being broken by their cry. I hope that they will recover from their illness so soon and smile at my mother, my wife and me. I would like to hear their bright laughter. Besides, I pray that my sister-in-law's mother may come over her ailment.

Thursday,    the 4th of April, 2002,                           windy and a little cold.

Today's English: It will clear up in the afternoon. (오후에는 갤 것이다.)

Today was my mother's 56th birthday. Diverse shapes of clouds were floating here and there in the skies. They looked like flowers congratulating her birthday. My wife cooked a variety of food for her until late last night and even this dawn. Though it was natural for her to do such a thing, I felt so grateful to her for her good behavior. She tried her best in becoming a true daughter-in-law. When my mother was home this morning to look after my two sons, my wife served the delicious dish for her and gave her an allowance(a pocket money, a spending money). It was 100,000 won. Even if it was a small amount, my mother appeared to be pleased with our sincerity. We were happy, too. In the morning, I took care of my two sons in the place of her, because I had no class and my mother wanted to go to the academy for sports dancing. She have done it for her health and it made her weight lost by 8 kg. It was really a good thing to her and me. None of my family members were pleased with the fact. I really hope she may live a long life without any bad illness.

Friday,     April (the) 5, 2002,                                windy and a little cold.

Today's English: We drank success to him. (우리는 그의 성공을 빌며 건배했다.)

Today was an Arbor Day. People in this country were expected to plant trees in the fields or in the mountains, but I didn't do so. Instead, I planted my dream in my mind. I decided to go forward my goal step by step.   An old student of mine asked me a question and I answered her at once. The following is the very answer I gave her.

<student's question>

선생님! 안녕하세요. 서울고시학원에서 수업받던 학생입니다. 지난번에 홈페이지에 글도 한번 올린적 있죠. 기억하실런지 모르겠지만요. 날로날로 발전하는 선생님 홈페이지 정말 보기 좋아요. 저한테 얼마나 도움이 된다구요. 다름이 아니라 선생님께 염치 없는 부탁하나 드릴려구요. 근데, 꼭 들어주셔야해요.

1. May I use your cell phone?

2. Can I use your computer?

3. I'm very thirsty. I want to water. Could I get some water?

이렇게 길거리에서 외국인한테 질문하는 레포트가 있습니다. 길거리 인터뷰 식이죠.

통 외국인을 만날 기회가 없어서요. 아무리 시내 나가봐도 외국인은 안보여요.

선생님이 이런 상황이라면 어떤 답을 해주시겠어요? 단, 선생님은 no란 답을 해 주셔야해요.  어떻게해서 컴퓨터와 핸든폰을 빌려줄수 없는지, 못 사용하는지에대한 이유와 함께 다음 상황까지 설명을 해주세요. 당연히 영어로요. 그리고 목이 마른데 물좀달라는 질문입니다. 역시 선생님은 no란 답을 하시구요, 왜 물을 줄 수 없는지를 설명해 주셔야해요.  바쁘시겠지만 제 부탁좀 들어주세요. 이런 상황에선 어떻게 해야하는지. 몇일 밤을 고민했답니다.  근데, 생각나는건 선생님 밖에 없었어요. 절 도와주실분은 귀천을 좋아하는 선생님뿐...only you...  선생님! 빠른 시일내 답변 부탁드릴께요. 녜?

<My Answer>

1.(상황에 따라 다 표현이 달라질 수 있겠지만, 어느 정도 안면이 있는 사람과의 대화라고 전제한다면)

I am sorry I can't. I didn't get my mobile phone recharged last night, and I don't have it now. I think you may as well ask another person for it as soon as possible.

2.(길거리에서 무조건 컴을 사용해도 좋으냐고 물어볼 수는 없으니까, 한 친구가 나의 집을 방문해서 컴을 빌리고자    하는 상황에서 대답이 no를 요구할 때)

My computer? When I tried to use my computer last night, it didn't work. I thought it had been stricken by a special strain of software virus. Wait a moment, please.

I will see once again if it can work. Well, it still doesn't work. It needs repairing so soon. I am sorry I can't do you a favor. Why don't you go to a near internet cafe?

3. (무더운 날, 야외에서 마실 물을 요구하는 상황에서 no를 얘기해야 할 때)

Oh my! I wish you had asked it a few minutes ago.

I have just given it to a friend of mine, and so it runs out. ... But don't be serious too much. There is a convenience store near here. About 5 minutes' walk will take you there. Hurry up and give your throat happiness.^^

Saturday,   April, 6, 2002,                                          a little hot.

Today's English: He is to blame(to be blamed) for this state of affairs.

(일이 이렇게 된 것은 그의 책임입니다.)

Afternoon on a Hill             ( 삶 )

-Edna st. Vincent Millay (1892 - 1950):An American poetess and playwright

I will be the gladdest thing                    나 태양아래

Under the sun!                                  나의 자유를 맘껏 누리리!

I will touch a hundred flowers                 모든 걸 다 해 보고 싶어

And not pick one.                               하나도 빠짐없이.

I will look at cliffs and clouds                고난의 세월도 나를 찾겠지

With quiet eyes,                                하지만 나는 알아

Watch the wind bow down the grass,        인생은 울며 절다

And the grass rise.                             다시 일어나는 것이라는 걸

And when lights begin to show                어느 듯 세상의 윤곽이 보이고

Up from the town,                              나의 고지도 드러날 때쯤

I will mark which must be mine,              정녕 내가 있어야 할 곳을 향해

And then start down!                          다시 발을 내딛을 거야!

난 태양아래 무엇보다

제일 즐겁게 놀 거야!

오만 가지 꽃 만져 봐야지

한 송이도 꺽진 않을 테야.

그윽한 눈으로

절벽과 구름 바라보고

바람결에 풀이 고개 숙였다

다시 일어서는 걸 지켜볼 테야.

그러다 저 아래 도시에

불 들어오기 시작하면

내 불빛 찾아 마음에 새겨 두고

산을 내려갈 테야!

Today I translated an English poem into the Korean language for the first time. It was written by a famous poetess and playwright, or dramatist of U.S.A. called Edna st. Vincent Millay (1892 - 1950). It was very difficult to do the work, but when I finished translating it, I was so pleased as if I flew over the sky.  From today on, I will try to carry on this kind of work, translating English poems into korean poems, and I want my translated poems to become a very different art works from original English ones. I think it is a real TRANSLATION.

Sunday,       the 7th of April, 2002,                                  a little hot.

Today's English: You look pale.(안색이 좋지 않습니다.)

<the difference between wish, hope, want and desire>

*wish:소원, 소망을 나타냄. 그것의 가능성 여부를 따지지 않고 사용되기도 하지만, 가정법에서 쓸           경우엔 불가능한 것을 바라는 의미가 됨.

(용법)wish to 동.원, wish 명사, wish 명 형, wish 명 명, wish 명 p.p,

wish (that) 가정법(구어체에선 직설법 가능), I wish you a merry christmas.   *hope:실현 가능성이 있다고 생각되는 경우에만 쓰며 불가능하다고 알고 있는 경우에는 쓰지 않음       (EX)I hope to become the best English instructor.(능력도 자격도 있으므로)       *want:(현실적으로 필요가 있으므로) ..하고 싶다, ..을 원하다 (EX) I want to go.

*desire:강한 소원, 소망을 나타내는 말 (EX) I desire to be a good poet.

My youngest brother, my lovely nephew, a treasure of a son and I called at my father's home. To go there, my mother and I prepared beautiful artificial flowers the day before yesterday. When his tomb was decorated with them, it looked like a kind of paradise. I desire to be his loyal follower forever and resemble him thoroughly.

Monday,           April, 8, 2002,                              a terrible yellow dust.

Today's English: You are under the weather.(당신은 날씨탓에 건강이 안 좋군요.)

During last weekend, my two sons and my wife suffered from a terrible influenza. It was a demon of a disease. Whenever they coughed, I felt gloomy. I desire that they recover so soon.

Tuesday,         April (the) ninth, 2002,                       a terrible yellow dust.

Today's English: Your hands are tied.(당신은 아주 바쁘군요.)

Topic: About using the name card in the United States

처음 만나서 명함을 주고 받을 때는 되도록 서서 주고 받는 것이 예의입니다. 명함을 건네면서 자신을 간단히 소개합니다. 보통 명함은 오른손으로 주게 되어 있는데 이것은 오른손은 예의를 표하는 것으로 생각하기 때문입니다. 이 때는 허리를 구부려 가볍게 예를 표하며 주기도 합니다. 이 때 받은 명함은 정중히 다루어야 하며 여기에다가 낙서를 하지 않는 것이 보통입니다.  사업상의 일로 명함을 교환할 때는 자신의 회사와 소속을 분명히 밝히는 것이 좋습니다.  이때 상대방에게 주는 인상이 자기가 추진하는 업무의 성공여부를 판가름할 수도 있습니다.  흔히 할 수 있는 실수로  한 손으로 명함을 받는 것은 상대방에게 거만한 인상을 줄 수 있습니다. 명함을 받은 경우에는 상대방의 명함을 그 자리에서 한 번 보며 확인하는 것이 좋습니다. 혹 철자법이 어려운 경우에는 그냥 넘어가지 말고 읽는 법을 물어 보아도 무방합니다. 미국에는 많은 민족들이 살고 있기 때문에 이름의 철자법이 어려운 경우가 흔하며 읽지 못하는 것보다 모르는 것을 그냥 넘어가는 것이 실례가 됩니다. 즉 명함을 받아서 보지도 않고 바로 집어 넣는 것은 좋지 않습니다. 주의할 점은 자신도 모르게 상대방의 명함을 손에 쥐고 만지는 것은 실례가 될 수 있으며 인사를 마친 후 말도 없이 갑자기 명함을 내미는 것도 예의에 어긋나는 행동이 될 수 있습니다.

명함의 역사는 프랑스의 루이 14세 때 처음 생겨났을 정도로 오랜 역사를 지니고 있다고 하며  특히 미국에는 사교용 명함이라는 것이 있는데 여기에는 간단히 이름만 들어가 있는 것이 보통이며 꽃이나 선물을 보낼 때 파티의 날짜와 시간을 적어 초청장으로 쓸 수도 있고 축하하는 마음을 나타내는 메시지 카드로 사용할 수도 있습니다.

업무용 명함에는 이름, 회사, 소속 등이 적혀 있는데 미국에서는 임원용과 일반 직원용이 다른 것이 보통입니다. 임원용은 명함 가운데에 이름을 넣고 아래에 직위와 회사명을 씁니다. 반면 사원용은 명함의 중앙에 회사명을 쓰고 이름과 부서, 주소 등을 아래에 넣기도 합니다. 우리나라에서는 직급에 따라 명함의 모양이 틀리지는 않는 것 같습니다.  흔한 경우로서 상대방이 명함을 내밀었는데 '죄송하지만 명함이 없습니다.' 라고 하게 되는 일이 없도록 항상 충분한 수량의 명함을 갖고 다녀야 합니다. 명함을 명함지갑에 깨끗이 넣어 다닌다면 보다 깔끔한 인상을 줄 수 있을 것입니다. 이처럼 명함은 자신의 얼굴이며 받은 명함들을 자신의 명함첩에 소중히 보관하고 제대로 활용하는 것이 사업 성공의 첫걸음이 될 수 있습니다.

Wednesday,      the 10th of April, 2002,                      a terrible yellow dust.

Today's English: He went ballistic. (그는 무척 화가 났어요.)

Envoy Lim starts discussions with N.K. officials about Korean peace□

South Korea's special envoy Lim Dong-won started discussions with North Korean officials, aimed at preventing tension on the Korean Peninsula and reviving the stalled Korean reconciliation process, after arriving in Pyongyang yesterday, Seoul officials said.

Lim met Kim Yong-sun, a ruling Workers' Party secretary and close confidant of North Korean leader Kim Jong-il, at the Paekhwawon State Guesthouse, where the envoy and his seven-member delegation are staying, the officials said.

The talks had originally been scheduled to take place at the People's Palace of Culture, but the North changed the plan, according to a Unification Ministry spokesman.

Lim and Kim Yong-sun discussed the revival of a set of stalled inter-Korean cooperation projects, including reunions of families separated by the Korean War and restoration of a severed inter-Korean railway, the officials said.

They said the South Korean envoy also conveyed to Pyongyang concerns on the part of South Korea, the United States, and other foreign countries, about North Korea's nuclear and missile development programs.

Lim also urged the North Koreans to resume dialogue with the United States and Japan.

The Lim-Kim meeting was the first official contact between the two sides since last November. Lim, a confidant of President Kim Dae-jung and a key security aide, arrived at the Sunan Airport near the North's capital on a special presidential plane for a three-day visit.

President Kim, whose term in office expires early next year, dispatched the envoy to the communist country in his bid to revive the lagging peace process on the Korean Peninsula.

Lim's visit to the North comes at a time when the Pyongyang regime is showing signs of restarting talks not only with the South, but also with the United States and Japan.

Lim's itinerary in Pyongyang today was not disclosed. But Seoul officials expect further talks between Lim and Kim Yong-sun, and North Korean leader Kim Jong-il's visit to the Paekhwawon State Guesthouse to meet the South Korean envoy.

[주요어휘]

1) special envoy: 특사      2) stalled: 움직이지 않는

3) confidant: 절친한 친구    4) the People□s Palace of Culture: 인민 문화궁전

5) restoration: 회복, 부활    6) convey: 전달하다

7) dispatch: 파견하다        8) itinerary: 일정, 여정

[ 직독직해 ]

South Korea's special envoy Lim Dong-won / started discussions / with North Korean officials, / aimed at preventing tension / on the Korean Peninsula / and reviving the stalled Korean reconciliation process, / after arriving / in Pyongyang yesterday, / Seoul officials said. //

임동원 남한 특사는 / 대화를 시작했다 / 북한 관리들과 / 긴장 방해(완화)를 목표로 / 한반도에서 / 그리고 진전없는 한반도 화해과정의 재개를 / 도착한 뒤 / 어제  평양에 / 서울 당국자들이 밝혔다

번역) aimed at ~동사원형(ing):  ~을 목표로 한  / reconciliation:화해

Lim / met Kim Yong-sun, / a ruling Workers' Party secretary / and close confidant of North Korean leader Kim Jong-il, / at the Paekhwawon State Guesthouse, / where / the envoy and his seven-member delegation / are staying, / the officials said. //

임특사는 김용순을 만났다 / 집권당인 노동당 비서 / 그리고 김정일 북한지도자의 두터운 신임을 얻고 있는 / 백화원 초대소에서 / 그곳에서 / 특사와 그의 방문단 7명은 / 머무르고 있다 / 당국이 밝혔다 //

The talks / had originally been scheduled / to take place / at the People's Palace of Culture, / but the North / changed the plan, / according to a Unification Ministry spokesman. //

이번 회담은 / 원래 예정되었다 / 이뤄지기로 / 인민문화궁전에서 / 그러나 북한이 / 그 계획을 바꿨다 / 통일부 대변인에 따르면 //

영작) 원래: originally / 이뤄지다, 발생하다: take place

Lim and Kim Yong-sun / discussed the revival of a set of stalled inter-Korean cooperation projects, / including reunions of families / separated by the Korean War / and restoration of a severed inter-Korean railway, / the officials said. //

임특사와 김용순 당비서는 / 일련의 남북협력사업의 재개를 논의했다 / 가족들의 상봉을 포함하여 / 한국전쟁에 의해 헤어진 / 그리고 단절된 남북철도의 복원을 / 당국이 밝혔다 //

reunions of families / separated by the Korean War:한국전쟁에 의해 헤어진 가족들의 재회(한국전쟁에 의한 이산가족 상봉)

They / said / the South Korean envoy / also conveyed / to Pyongyang / concerns / on the part of South Korea, the United States, and other foreign countries, / about North Korea's nuclear and missile development programs. //

그들은 / 말했다 / 남한 특사가 / 또한 전달했다 / 평양측에 / 우려를 / 남한, 미국 그리고 다른 외국의 입장에서 / 북한 핵 및 미사일 개발 계획에 대해 //

번역) they : 당국 / convey concerns to~: ~에 우려를 전달하다

Lim / also urged the North Koreans / to resume dialogue / with the United States and Japan. //

임 특사는 / 또한 / 북한에 촉구했다 / 대화를 재개할 것을 / 미국 및 일본과 //

영작) 촉구하다: urge / 재개하다: resume

The Lim-Kim meeting / was the first official contact / between the two sides / since last November. // Lim, / a confidant of President Kim Dae-jung / and a key security aide, / arrived at the Sunan Airport / near the North's capital / on a special presidential plane / for a three-day visit. //

임 특사와 김서기의 회담은 / 첫번째 공식 접촉이었다 / 양측간에 / 지난홰 11월 이후 // 임은 / 김대중 대통령의 신임을 받고 있는 / 그리고 주요 안보 측근인 / 순안공항에 도착했다 / 평양 근처의 / 대통령 전용기를 타고 / 3일간의 방문일정으로 //

번역) a confident of:와 절친한 관계에 있는 / on a special presidential plane: 대통령 전용기를 타고

President Kim, / whose term in office / expires early next year, / dispatched the envoy / to the communist country / in his bid to revive the lagging peace process / on the Korean Peninsula. //

김 대통령은 / 그의 대통령 임기는 / 내년 초에 끝난다 / 특사를 파견했다 / 공산국가에 / 부진한 평화과정을 재개하고자 / 한반도에서 //

Lim's visit / to the North / comes at a time / when / the Pyongyang regime / is showing signs of restarting talks / not only with the South, / but also with the United States and Japan. //

임특사의 방문은 / 북한에 / 시기에 온다 / 때에 / 평양정권평이 / 대화를 재개할 조짐을 보이고 있다 / 남측뿐 아니라 / 미국 및 일본과도 //

Lim's itinerary / in Pyongyang today / was not disclosed. // But Seoul officials / expect further talks / between Lim and Kim Yong-sun, / and North Korean leader Kim Jong-il's visit / to the Paekhwawon State Guesthouse / to meet the South Korean envoy. //

임특사의 여정은 / 오늘 평양에서 / 공개되지 않았다 // 그러나 남한 당국은 / 추가 회담을 기대하고 있다 / 임 특사와 김용순 서기장간의 / 그리고 북한지도자 김정일의 방문이 / 백화원 영빈관으로 / 남측 특사를 만나기 위한 //

Thursday,         April, 11, 2002,                             windy and a little cold.

Today's English:A policeman caught her red handed.(경찰관이 그녀를 현행범으로 체포했습니다.)

Today I received an e-mail asking for my help in relation to a hard question and at once I sent him my reply mail. Of course, it included the right answer to the question.

[질문] terrific이란 단어에 대해서 궁금한점이..

안녕하세요 선생님! 전 선생님 수업을 듣는 학생인데요..  궁금한점이 있어서.. 질문드립니다..

영어듣기에서.. 가끔 등장하는  terrific이란 단어가...  대단한.. 훌륭하다는 뜻으로

terrible 처럼 무섭다란 뜻이 절대로? 아니니 해석할때 주의해야 한다고 이때까지 배워왔고 참고서에서도 문제를 접한적이 있는거 같은데요..  제가.. 영어사전을 찾아보니깐..  terrific의 단어 뜻에.. 무섭다는 뜻도 있던데..  어찌된 영문인지 모르겠어요  혹시.. 구어체에서만 terrific이란 단어는

대단한 훌륭한 뜻으로 쓰이고 무섭다는 뜻은 없지만,..  문어체에선 가능하다는 것인지요???

답변 부탁드립니다..

<ANSWER>

About the similarity and the difference between terrific and terrible:

terrific과terrible 의 유사점과 차이점에 대하여

1.Similarity : Both terrific and terrible can be used in the meaning of                    'dreadful, causing fear, or causing terror' in written                         English.

유사점 : 두 단어 다 문어체 영어에서는 '두려운, 무시무시한'의 공통된 의미를 가진 것으로 사용될 수 있습니다.

2.Difference : While 'terrific' is used to signify 'amazingly good' in                         colloquial English, 'terrible' is used to mean 'very bad'                     in spoken English.

차이점: terrific은 구어체에서 '굉장히 훌륭한, 깜짝 놀랄정도로 좋은'의 의미로 사용되어지는 반면에,

terrible은 역시 구어체에서 '아주 나쁜, 형편없는'의 뜻으로 사용됩니다.

만약 문제에서 두 단어를 다르게 배웠다면, 그것은 틀림없이 '회화'문제였을 겁니다. 그리고 두 단어의 철자가 비슷하면서 구어체에서는 뜻이 상반되기 때문에 회화 문제에서 종종 보이는 경향이 있습니다. 이번 기회로 필히 자신의 것으로 할 수 있기를 바랍니다. 아울러 공부하시다 또 모르는 게 있으면 질문주십시요, 그러면, 최선을 다해 정확한 지식을 전달해 드리도록 노력하겠습니다. 참고로 저의 홈페이지 주소는 myhome.naver.com/jbh0072/입니다. 그리고 조만간 홈이 더욱 편리하고 근사하게 바뀔 예정이고, 개축홈에는 "Q & A"난을 둘 예정이오니 많이 이용하셔서 알찬 실력 다져 나가시길 바랍니다.

Friday,          April (the) twelfth, 2002,                 consecutive yellow dust.

Today's English: The thermometer stands at 30 degrees. (온도가 섭씨 30도이다.)

Title:Reconsider the fighter selection□

F-15K of Boeing Co. of the United States has virtually been picked as Air Force□s next-generation fighter jet amidst a raging controversy.

The defense authorities will reportedly enter a second-phase evaluation after the top two contenders, Boeing□s F-15K and Rafale of France□s Dassault Aviation, have failed, as rumors say, to beat each other by more than three percentage points in the first round that focused on life-cycle costs and combat capability.

Political considerations including the Korea-U.S. military alliance will work as decisive factors in the second-phase appraisal that will begin in mid-April.

The Defense Ministry is supposed to report on its choice to president Kim for his final approval for implementation of the project. But the ministry already seems to have reached its conclusion.

In spite of the Defense Ministry□s claim on its impartial stance, the arms procurement program will entail considerable aftereffects in view of constant allegations of pressure from the United States.

Critics have raised doubts about fairness of the selection process that they insist regards too lightly of technology transfer and contract terms where the U.S. bidder is offering less favorable conditions.

They also suspect attempts to support a specific contender in light of the narrow difference of a mere three percentage points in the marks of the top two contenders as a condition for a second-stage assessment.

There has been speculation that the selection of the winning fighter may be delayed due to the growing concerns about diplomatic friction.

Apparently behind the Defense Ministry□s decision to push ahead with the project, however, is the pressure derived from the nation□s military subordination to the United States.

By choosing next-generation fighters under political pressure rather than in respect of the needs of the Air Force or public opinion, the government will not only place the people under the burden of an ill-oriented decision but also face difficulties in Air Force operations in the decades to come.

President Kim, who has the final say, must not approve such a trouble-ridden fighter project as it is.

[주요어휘]

1) Air Force□s next generation fighter jet: 공군의 차세대 전투기

2) raging: 격렬한, 맹위를 떨치는                3) life-cycle: 수명주기

4) combat capability: 전투능력               5) appraisal: 사정, 평가, 감정

6) arms procurement program: 무기 조달 사업     7) aftereffect: 여파, 후유증

8) diplomatic friction: 외교적 마찰   9) push ahead with: 추진하다, 밀고 나아가다

10) subordination: 종속, 복종

[시사용어] F-15K: F-15K

오는 2009년까지 4조원 이상을 투입, 40대를 도입예정인 우리나라의 F-X(차기 전투기)사업기종으로 유력시되고 있는 미국 Boeing사가 개발한 F-15E(일명 Strike Eagle)의 최신 버전. 1974년 구 소련의 Mach 3급 전투기인 MIG-25기에 대응하기 위해 제작된 F-15E는 현재 미 공군의 주력 기종으로 주촵야간 장거리 작전 및 공대공전투능력이 뛰어나다. 우리나라에 납품된다는 의미로 □K□가 붙은 F-15K는 최신 radar와 조종석 기능을 일부 개량하였으며 1회 연료주입으로 1,800㎞ 이상의 전투 반경에서 임무수행은 물론, 최신 작전 radar와 지상 이동 목표물 추적장치로 원거리 목표물 인지가 가능하다. 또한 주파수를 신속히 변경, 적기추적을 따돌리는 Stealth기능이 추가될 예정이며 B-57촵61 등 핵폭탄 적재도 가능하다. 프랑스 Dassault 사의 Rafale과 미국 Boeing사의 F-15K로 압축된 F-X사업 최종 기종 결정은 오는 2002년 4월 발표된다.

[ 직독직해 ]

F-15K of Boeing Co. of the United States / has virtually been picked / as Air Force□s next-generation fighter jet / amidst a raging controversy. //

미국 보잉사의 F-15K가 / 사실상 선정되었다 / 우리 공군의 차세대 전투기종으로 / 거센 논란이 한창인 가운데 //

The defense authorities / will reportedly enter a second-phase evaluation / after / the top two contenders, / Boeing□s F-15K and Rafale of France□s Dassault Aviation, / have failed, / as rumors say, / to beat each other / by more than three percentage points / in the first round / that focused on life-cycle costs and combat capability. //

국방부는 / 전하는 바에 따르면 2단계 평가에 들어가게 될 것이다 / 뒤에 / 상위 2개 경쟁기종인 / 보잉사의 F-15K와 프랑스 다소사의 라팔이 /  실패했다 / 소문대로 / 서로를 물리치기를 / 3% 포인트 이상으로 / 1단계에서 / 이는 수명주기 및 전투능력에 초점이 맞춰졌다 //

번역) as rumors say: 소문대로 /  combat capability: 전투능력

Political considerations / including the Korea-U.S. military alliance / will work as decisive factors / in the second-phase appraisal / that will begin / in mid-April. //

정치적인 고려가 / 한미간 군사동맹을 포함해 / 결정적 요소로 작용할 것이다 / 2단계 평가에서는 / 이는 오는 4월 중순부터 시작될 것이다 //

영작) 군사동맹: military alliance / 로서 작용하다: work as

The Defense Ministry / is supposed to report on its choice / to president Kim / for his final approval / for implementation of the project. // But the ministry / already seems to have reached its conclusion. //

국방부는 / 그 선정을 보고할 예정이다 / 김 대통령에게 / 그의 마지막 승인을 얻기 위해 / 이번 사업의 이행을 위한 // 그러나 국방부는 / 이미 결론에 도달한 것으로 보인다 //

In spite of the Defense Ministry□s claim / on its impartial stance, / the arms procurement program / will entail considerable aftereffects / in view of constant allegations of pressure / from the United States. //

국방부의 주장에도 불구하고 / 공평하지 못한 태도에 관한 / 이번 무기조달 사업은 / 엄청난 후유증을 낳을 것이다 / 압박설이 지속적으로 제기돼왔다는 점에서 / 미국측의 //

번역) 상당한(엄청난) 후유증을 남기다: entail considerable aftereffects

Critics / have raised doubts / about fairness of the selection process / that / they insist / regards too lightly of technology transfer and contract terms / where / the U.S. bidder / is offering less favorable conditions. //

비판측은 / 의심했다 / 선정과정의 공정성에 대해 / 이는 / 그들은 주장한다 / 기술 이전과 계약 조건을 너무 경시하고 있다 / 거기에서는 / 미국 입찰업체가 / 더 좋지 않는 조건을 제시하고 있다 //

번역)raise doubts: 의심을 제기하다(의심하다)  / they insist는 삽입절로 보시오

They / also suspect attempts / to support a specific contender / in light of the narrow difference of a mere three percentage points / in the marks of the top two contenders / as a condition / for a second-stage assessment. //

그들은 / 또한 시도를 의심하고 있다 / 특정 업체를 지원하기 위한 / 불과 3%포인트의 좁은 차이를 미뤄 / 두 상위 입찰 업체의 점수에서 / 조건으로서 / 2단계 평가를 위한 //

번역)  in light of: ~을 미루어 보아

There has been speculation / that the selection of the winning fighter / may be delayed / due to the growing concerns / about diplomatic friction. //

추측이 있었다 / 기종의 최종 선정은 / 연기될 지도 모른다 / 우려 증가로 인해 / 외교적 마찰에 대한

Apparently behind the Defense Ministry□s decision / to push ahead with the project, / however, / is the pressure / derived from the nation□s military subordination / to the United States. //

명백히 국방부의 결정 뒤에는 / 이 사업을 추진하는 / 그러나 / 압력이 있다 / 우리나라의 군사적 종속에서 오는 / 미국에 대한 //

By choosing next-generation fighters / under political pressure / rather than in respect of the needs of the Air Force or public opinion, / the government / will not only place the people / under the burden of an ill-oriented decision / but also face difficulties / in Air Force operations / in the decades to come. //

차세대 전투기를 선정함으로써 / 정치적 압력에 의해 / 공군의 필요와 여론을 존중하기 보다는 / 정부는 / 국민을 놓이게 할  뿐 아니라 / 그릇된 방향의 결정에 따른 부담아래 / 또한 어려움에 직면 할 것이다 / 공군 운용에 있어 / 앞으로 수십년 내에 //

번역) ill-oriented decision: 그릇된 방향의 결정

President Kim, / who has the final say, / must not approve such a trouble-ridden fighter project / as it is. //

김 대통령은 / 최종 결정권자인 / 그러한 문제투성이의 전투기 사업을 승인해선 안된다 /  현재 그대로 번역)Trouble-ridden: 문제가 득실거리는(문제 투성이의)

Saturday,       the 13th of April, 2002,                    windy but warm.           Today's English: My watch keeps good(bad) time.(나의 시계는 시간이 잘 맞(지않)는다.)

From next month, my second brother's wife is to run clothing store dealing with various kinds of clothes for babies and children. It will cost her 70,000,000 won, but she and my brother don't have that large amount of money in their hands. They had to get loan from bank. They needed the person to guarantee their credit. They demanded that I should be responsible for their credit. I couldn't refuse their offer at all. This morning I went to the bank to help them get the loan by mortgaging my house. It was a very serious event to me. Now I only hope that they will succeed in their business and always have it in mind that 'heaven helps those who help themselves'.

Sunday,         April, 14, 2002,                         cool and smooth spring wind.

Today's English: You are wanted on the phone. (전화 왔습니다.)

There was a once a hare who was proud of having many friends. She thought she was the most popular animal in the world. But her mother always told her that it's too difficult to have true friends.

One day the hare heard some hounds barking far away. Usually, she hurried away at the first sound of the baring dog, but this time she asked herself, "Why should I have to run for my life every time I hear a dog?" She thought her friends could help. She would ask one of them to carry her to safety.

The hare asked the horse, "Please, dear friend, will you carry me away from the bounds?" The horse answered, "I wish I could assist you, but I have work to do for my owner." Next the hare asked the cow for help. The cow answered, "I wish I could help you, but it's almost milking time."

The goat was busy, too. So were the sheep and the pig. Every animal the hare asked for help seemed to be busy. Even the calf had no time for her. Each one said, "I wish I could help you." But all of them had some excuse that prevented them from helping her. By this time, the hounds were getting closer. She was forced to run for her life, regretting not taking her mother's advice seriously.

Monday,      April (the) 15th, 2002,                                            rainy.

Today's English: This tie doesn't go with your suit.(이 타이는 당신 옷에 어울리지 않는다.)

Title: When it comes to marriage, we should be realistic.(?)

It is natural to marry when we are in love. But I don't think love is everything in a marriage. We have many loves throughout our lives, but usually one marriage. What does that mean? That love alone is not sufficient for marriage. When we date, love may be everything. But we should know that marriage needs something more than love. If not, we can't get over how fantastic being in love feels, and we are likely to be disappointed.

Tuesday,     the 16th of April, 2002,                                windy and rainy.

Today's English: The climate here doesn't agree with me.(여기 기후는 내게 맞지 않는다.)

Title:We parents should offer safe and sound education surroundings to our children.

In educating our children, we should pay attention to their surroundings. We should consider whether the place they live is an ideal one. First, children should be given the freedom from fear. They should be offered a non-threatening environment, in which they can study and play without worrying about their safety. Strict law should be enforced to protect them from being attacked, or even kidnapped. Second, a healthy environment is essential. Children who are exposed to social evils may become greedy.

Wednesday,   April, 17, 2002,                                      windy but warm.

Today's English: This fountain pen won't do.(이 만년필은 못 쓰겠다.)

Title: The Function of Law

It would be difficult for men to live at peace with one another if there were no law to regulate the rights that each of us has. The presence of law makes us respect each other's property and lay down rules of how we should behave towards each other. It is what enables us to be sure that no one will take away what is rightfully ours and allows us to go anywhere we want to without fearing that something will happen to us. It is the presence of the law which ensures that a man takes care of his family and gives his children education.

Thursday,       April (the) 18th, 2002,                               windy but warm.

Today's English: There is no time to lose.(꾸물거릴 시간이 없다.)

Title: An English Poem

Break, Break, Break

- Alfred, Lord Tennyson (1809 - 1892):English poet-

Break, break, break,       부서져라, 부서져라, 부서져라,

On thy cold gray stones, O sea!  네 차디찬 잿빛 바위에, 오 바다여!

And I would  that my tongue could utter 그리고 나도 내 혀가 심중에 솟아오르는

The thoughts that arise in me. 생각을 표현할 수 있으면 좋으련만.

O, well for the fisherman's boy,  오, 어부의 아들은 좋겠구나,

That he shouts with his sister at play!  누이와 고함지르며 놀고 있네!

O, well for the sailor lad,          오, 젊은 뱃사람은 좋겠구나,

That he sings in his boat on the bay!  포구에 배 띄우고 노래 부르네!

And the stately ships go on 우아한 기선들도 갈 길을 가는구나,

To their haven under the hill; 언덕 아래 항구를 향해

But O for the touch of a vanished hand, 오, 그리워라, 사라진 손길의 감촉이여,

And the sound of a voice that is still!  소리없는 목소리여!

Break, break, break,    부서져라, 부서져라, 부서져라,

At the foot of thy crags, O Sea!  네 벼랑 기슭에, 오 바다여!

But the tender grace of a day that is dead 하지만 가버린 날의 다정한 행복은

Will never come back to me.                    내게 다시는 돌아오지 않으리.

<Notes>

*break:(파도가 해안에서)부서지다 (여기에서는 명령법)

*I would that = I wish that

*well for the fisherman's boy:어부의 아들은 좋겠다

*That-;-이므로, -인 까닭에         *at play:장난하면서

*O for - :-이 있었으면 좋겠구나/ 아아, -을 갖고 싶다

(cf.) Oh, for a cold drink. (아, 찬물을 마시고 싶다.)

*a vanished hand:사라진 손<시인의 죽은 친구의 손길을 암시함>

Friday,       the 19th of April, 2002,                                   warm.

Today's English: What has become of him?(그가 어떻게 됐느냐?)

Title: A writer should choose good words.

Have you ever watched a clumsy man hammering a nail into a box? He hits it first to one end, then to another, perhaps knocking it over completely, so that in the end he only gets half of it into the wood. A skillful carpenter, on the other hand, will drive home the nail with a few firm blows, hitting it each time directly on the head. So with language : a good writer will choose words that drive home his point firmly and exactly. He will always try to get the word that is completely right for his purpose.

Saturday,    April, 20, 2002,                                           cloudy.

Today's English: Would you like some coffee? (커피 좀 드시겠습니까?)

I had no classes all day long, and, what's better, my wife didn't go to her work. Therefore, my mother didn't need to come to my home so as to take care of my sons. In the afternoon, all of a sudden I said to my wife, "Let's go to Mr' Park's house in Ha-dong." At first she objected to my offer. But, fortunately on the way there she seemed to escape from such an unpleasant mood. We arrived there at about 5 p.m. His family welcomed us with all their hearts. All of us wanted to enjoy good mood and help ourselves to fresh raw fish. We headed for Nam-hae Great Bridge. There was a nice restaurant he often went to. We all ate it with joy over So-ju. Mr. Park, my respectable senior, was sober but I couldn't get myself in the right spirit. All night long I suffered from terrible hangover. My wife didn't get a wink because she had to attend on me. I made time for good reunion a nightmare of a night. It was a very regretful night. Nevertheless, even now I don't know why I got drunk. I didn't drink like a fish. I only guess I am in a bad health. It was a sad and miserable day.

In the evening Korean soccer team had a game against that of Costarica and won 2:0. It was a great event to Korean people. I with great sincerity hope such good things will happen to our team on the forthcoming World Cup Championship. Korea! Way to go!

Sunday,     April (the) 21st, 2002,                                  breezy but sunny.

Today's English: What grade are you in? (당신은 몇 학년입니까?)

Unlike yesterday the weather was very good. A smooth breeze often tickled our cheeks, which made us happy. Though I was freed from that tremendous hangover only after noon, I was able to feel beauty of nature. Lying on the room, I looked at various kinds of vegetable flowers, namely white, yellow, pink ones. Many sorts of insects were flying round beautiful flowers. That was such a fantastic scene that I thought that I was in UTOPIA where good gods live. What's better, I could watch sea and islands at a distance when I got up and sat on the room floor. Simultaneously I could hear songs of birds. 'If time should stop now, how happy I would be.' I wish I could stay here forever. Life often seems to enjoy bothering and not agreeing with its own master. My family had no alternative to leave there because it was getting darker and darker. My wife and I were conscious of my two sons being in good shape. In addition, we two had to go to our own work from tomorrow. Saying good-bye to the Parks, we headed for Jin-ju. It was 7 p.m. when we reached our home.

Monday,    the 22nd of April, 2002,                                 windy and rainy.

Today's English: My son writes a good hand.(나의 아들은 필체가 좋다.)

He has a lot of nerve.(그는 배짱이 좋다.)

He is everybody's friend.(그는 팔방미인이다.)

Title: Never judge a book by its cover.

A young man with a gift in creative writing may find himself speechless in the presence of a pretty girl. He fumbles for words and talks in a halting manner. But don't make the mistake of thinking him stupid. With a pen and paper, he can express himself eloquently. On the other hand, a student who listens attentively and takes notes in class is bound to make a favorable impression on his teachers. But when it comes to exams, he may score near the bottom of the class. Therefore, we shouldn't judge a person by his appearance.

Tuesday,        April 23, 2002,                                                 rainy.

Today's English: I'm missing you.(당신이 그리워요. 당신이 없어 섭섭합니다.)

Title: Everyone has his or her own problems in his or her life.

We look at other people who, from a distance, seem to be on easy street, but they're dealing with their own problems. Mr. kim appears to be cruising. He retires on a healthy pension - the house is paid off, and he drives a nice car, eats in fine restaurants, takes overseas vacations, and plays some golf. what we don't know is that he's suing his insurance company, the roof is leaking, his son is a troublemaker, and some burglar will have his video recorder by this time tomorrow. All of us are constantly challenged.

Wednesday,     April (the) 24th, 2002,                                windy and cold.

Today's English: The train leaves every 15 minutes(15th minute).

Title: Where there is a will, there is a way.

An excellent student who has no determination to work hard and do well in his examination seldom gets good grades. On the other hand, if a normal student has an ambition in life and there is a strong will in him to realize it, this urge enables him to make up his mind to work hard and reach the goal. Similarly, people involved in sports who have no determination to win seldom shine in contests. It is those who, with determination to win, regularly practice and follow a disciplined path that come to the top in the field of sports. Thus, everything rests on his determination and efforts.

Thursday,     the 25th of April, 2002,                             windy and cold.

Today's English: My office is next door to the bank.(내 사무실은 그 은행 바로 옆이다.)

<미국기업의 직급 체계>

1.사장: President, CEO                  2.부사장:General Manager, Director

3.전무:General Manager, Director       4.상무:General Manager, Executive

5.부장:Manager, Consulting Specialist  6.차장:Manager, Senior Specialist

7.과장:Manager, Advisory Specialist    8.사원:Specialist, Professional

(cf)Vice President:우리나라말로 부사장의 의미지만 외국기업에는 종류가 많아           (Executive VP, Senior VP, VP), 꼭 회사의 2인자를 지칭하는 것은 아니다.

Friday,      April, 26, 2002,                                       windy and cold.

Today's English:1.A child's life is a piece of paper on which every person                        leaves a mark.

2.A celebrity is someone who works hard all his life to                           become known and then wears dark glasses to avoid being                      recognized.

Today I got paid my monthly salary. But I am gloomy. I don‘t know why I feel so. Suddenly I think I am too old to study English again. The day before yesterday I found a treasure of a site while surfing the internet with my computer. It was a really great site. Through the site, I am to study English again and become a true English teacher working in private institute. To teach someone something is an important thing, but more important thing is to teach right things.

My youngest brother came here, Jinju, to visit his mother and his other family. I will help him to spend a pleasant weekend.

Saturday,   April (the) 27th, 2002,                                               fair.

Today's English:Are you free on Saturday afternoons?(토요일 오후는 한가합니까?)

Because my youngest brother, Jeong Myeong-hyeon, came here, Jinju, I wanted to meet and talk with him, and so I went to her house after lectures. I communicated with him for about 3 hours and not until 2 this morning I returned to my home. Though it was too late, I didn't want to go to bed. I switched on the computer, kept a diary sitting in the chair in front of it and I entered the site called 'www.mosit.com', which is for English learners. It was the site I had really wanted to surf. It was such a great site that I couldn't but be satisfied with it. I spent more than 4 hours in looking through the contents in it and after that I made up my mind to read and study the important and precious materials in every bit every day. After all I didn't get a wink. That is to say, I stay up all night enjoying the wonders of the site. Exhausted as my body was, my mind was in a kind of enormous rapture. Probably I will go on being busy scrutinizing that treasure of a material. It is likely to take for me to complete it. I will necessarily fulfill it and make such great knowledge belong to me. In the afternoon I met my nephew, Hyeon-woo, in front of a fast food restaurant called Lotteria and congratulated him on his birthday. When I noticed his many friends, exactly 15, attend his birthday party, I was so happy. I gave him a 10,000 bill as a birthday present. Since he wanted to play with his friends, my mother, my brother, my two nieces and my two sons went to a restaurant to have lunch. All of us were hungry. After we hurried to eat lunch, we headed for my father's country. On the way there, I stopped by the bookstore named Jinju Bookstore and bought 4 books. Two were English-English Dictionaries and the others were culture books. One was the book about famous poets and their poems titled with "In Search of Poets" and the other was a diary written by Kim-ku, who is the permanent master of our tribe, whose title was "Baekbeom Diary". I had wanted to read the former and I intended to give the latter to my youngest brother, because I had already read it. Besides, I had wanted to get those English dictionaries for a long time. I was so happy that I purchased them. One was a "LONGMAN DICTIONARY OF ENGLISH LANGUAGE AND CULTURE" and the other was a "The New Oxford Dictionary of English". I made a promise with myself that I would keep them very carefully, master English with them and then hand them over to my sons as my heritages with my others. The route I went to meet my father was smooth and beautiful like my mind. In the evening I took a walk along the river with my mother and my youngest brother. Today was a very fantastic day, I was a little tired from of the lack of sleep.

Sunday,     the 28th of April, 2002,                                        cloudy.    Today's English: May I take the afternoon off?(오후는 쉬어도 되겠습니까?)

As I didn't take an enough sleep last night, I didn't get up until late this morning. It was saying 10 to 12 when I awoke. My wife fixed brunch and I ate it with joy. My wife wanted to take a bath with Ji-hun, our second son, in the bathtub of my house and so I went to my mother's house with my first son, Hui-seok. On the way there we dropped by a wholesale store and bought various kinds of snacks. When we entered my mother's house, she welcomed us with all her heart. My son was so pleased with seeing her. He said to her, "Loyalty!" and saluted simultaneously. She took good care of him, while I took a nap. To her, I was a child forever and I wanted to be treated as such. Probably it is true of every child in this world.

Monday,    April, 29, 2002,                                                  rainy.

Today's English: It looks like rain, doesn't it?(비가 올 듯하죠?)

Today a sister-in-law of mine, my second brother's wife, opened a clothing store. It was the store which deals with clothes mainly for infants, toddlers, and children under 15. I went to the store with my mother and two sons to congratulate her on opening her first business. She seemed to be energetic like her husband, my brother. I bought several kinds of kid clothes for my sons. It cost me 90,000 won, but my mother and I were pleased to see my two sons feel good at the clothes. Now I hope they will carry on their business like the first day. It has been raining since this dawn. Rain must mean 'luck'.  Title: About the Nuptial(Wedding) Ceremony in America

미국에는 우리처럼 결혼만을 전문으로 하는 예식장은 보기 힘들다. 주로 교회나 연회장 같은 곳에서 결혼식을 치르는 것이 보통이다.

한국의 결혼식과는 좀 다른 점들이 있다. 우선은 거의 대부분의 경우 신랑, 신부의 들러리(bridesman, bridesmaid)가 있다. 주로 들러리는 신랑, 신부의 친한 친구들이 하게 되는데 모두 정장, 드레스를 차려 입고 신랑, 신부보다 먼저 입장하여 신랑, 신부 자리 양옆으로 선다.

식이 끝나고 피로연이 열리는데, 대개는 같은 장소 혹은 주변의 연회장 등에서 치뤄 지는데, 신랑, 신부와 들러리들이 중앙의 상석 테이블에 앉는다. 그리고 우리가 영화에서 보는 것처럼 신랑이 신부와 춤을 추고, 그리고 신부가 아버지와 춤을 추기도 한다.

이 피로연에 재미있는 풍습이 있다. 하객들이 보는 앞에서 신랑이 신부의 드레스 속으로 들어가 손을 사용하지 않고 입으로 신부의 스타킹 밴드를 벗겨서 신랑의 미혼인 친구들을 향해 던지는 것이다. 결혼을 안 한 신랑 친구들에게 여자를 만날 수 있는 기회를 주기 위함이었다.

신부의 스타킹 밴드를 받은 남자는 신부의 부케를 받은 신부 친구와 함께 피로연장의 중앙에 마련된 의자에 앉는다. 하객들의 시선이 일제히 부케를 받은 여성에게 집중이 되고 신부의 밴드를 받은 행운의 남성은 부케를 받은 여성에게 다가가 스타킹을 다시 신겨준다. 어색하게 스타킹을 신기는 남자나 쑥스럽게 앉아있는 여성을 보며 하객들은 폭소를 터뜨린다. 처음 보는 나에게는 매우 재미있고 신기한 풍습이었다.

Tuesday,   April (the) 30, 2002,                                             rainy.

Today's English: I'll come back in ten days or so.(열흘 안팎으로 돌아오겠다.)

Title:□Hackers exploit Korea as entry point to attack global systems□

Hackers are increasingly using South Korea as an entry point to attack computer systems in other countries, a serious situation that could undermine the country's image ahead of the World Cup finals, experts and industry sources said yesterday.

Major international studies show that a large percentage of computer attacks can be traced to Korea, suggesting that the country's cyber security system needs an urgent upgrade or overhaul.

According to New York-based Predictive Systems Inc., Pacific Rim countries were involved in 91 percent of attacks that weren't traced to the U.S., which continued to be the leading source of attacks and target for them. Korea accounted for 34 percent, followed by 29 percent for China, 10 percent for Japan and 7 percent for Taiwan.

The National Policy Agency's Cyber Center said the number of hacking incidents is rising steadily with the World Cup just around the corner.

Some foreign servers block access attempts whose origins are traced to Korea, implying that the country's leadership in the broadband Internet business may be marred by its negligence in upgrading lame security protection systems, the center said.

The center, in charge of cracking down on cyber crime and hacker attacks, estimated that 22 international hackers broke into 11,222 server systems around the world between August last year and March this year. Of 6,287 sites with identifiable origins, 39 percent were traced to Korea, the center said.

It said about 4,376 systems in Korea have been the targets of hacking attempts during the period and the actual damage might have affected more than 40,000 systems nationwide.

The police cyber center said Korea was most vulnerable to hacker attacks, followed by the United States, China, Taiwan, Romania and India.

The victims ranged from a major Internet portals to state-run research agencies to security solutions providers.

Even a government organization armed with the latest security solutions was a victim of an attack by sophisticated foreign hackers, police said.

According to the center, the average number of hacking incidents in the year to March was 614, up 20.2 percent from the year-earlier period. More importantly, a large number of victims did not know their systems had been attacked.

[주요어휘]

1)overhaul: 분해 검사, 대대적 개편       2)the National Policy Agency: 경찰청

3)crack down on: 단속하다                4)cyber crime: 사이버 범죄

8)Internet portals:인터넷 포털(업체)들  9)sophisticated:복잡한, 몹시 기교적인,

<시사용어 - hacker : 해커>

뛰어난 computer skill을 이용, 타인의 computer에 불법 침입해 자료를 훔치거나 파괴하는 사람. 진정한 의미의 hacker는 시대별로 구분해야 한다. 대형기종이 전부였던 1970년대 후반까지만 해도 computer는 그리 대중화되지 않았고 가격도 매우 비쌌다. 당시 hacker들은 자신들이 직접 computer를 만들고 모든 것을 직접 실행하면서 오늘날 personal computer가 있도록 만든 장본인들이다. 그러나 80년대에 넘어와 personal computer가 많이 보급되고 네트워킹이 급속히 진행되면서 이 같은 본래 의미는 퇴색하고 타인의 computer에 무단 침입해 범죄를 저지르는 인물들이 등장하면서 hacker는 computer network을 이용한 첨단 도둑의 다른 이름으로 인식되기에 이르렀다. 사람에 따라서 후자를 본래 의미의 hacker와 구별해 cracker라고 부르기도 한다.

[ 직독직해 ]

Hackers / are increasingly using South Korea / as an entry point / to attack computer systems / in other countries, / a serious situation / that could undermine the country's image / ahead of the World Cup finals, / experts and industry sources said yesterday. //

해커들이 / 점점 더 한국을 이용하고 있다 / 진입 지점으로 / 컴퓨터 시스템을 공격하기 위한 / 다른 나라에 있는 / 심각한 상황 / 우리나라의 이미지를 해칠 수 있는 / 월드컵 본선을 앞둔 / 전문가 및 업계 전문가들이 어제 밝혔다 //

번역) an entry point: 진입 경로(진입지점)  / undermine: 손상시키다, 해치다(mar)

Major international studies / show / that a large percentage of computer attacks / can be traced to Korea, / suggesting / that the country's cyber security system / needs an urgent upgrade or overhaul. //

주요 국제 연구는 / 보여준다 / 컴퓨터 공격 중 상당 수가 / 한국까지 (그 소재지를) 추적 할 수 있다 / 시사한다 / 우리나라의 사이버 보안시스템이 / 신속한 개선이나 개편이 요구된다 는 것을 //

Suggesting that:~을 시사하다, 암시하다(의미상 주어는 International studies)  / be traced to Korea:(소재지를 한국까지 추적할 수 있다-소재가 한국으로 파악되다)

According to New York-based Predictive Systems Inc., / Pacific Rim countries / were involved in 91 percent of attacks / that weren't traced to the U.S., / which / continued to be the leading source of attacks / and target for them. // Korea / accounted for 34 percent, / followed by 29 percent for China, / 10 percent for Japan / and 7 percent for Taiwan. //

뉴욕 소재 프리딕티브 시스템즈사에 따르면 / 환태평양 국가들이 / 공격 중 91%에 관련되었다 / 이는 미국에서 (그 소재지가) 파악되지 않았다 / 이는 / 계속 공격의 주요 원천이 되고 있었다 / 그리고 공격의 목표가 // 한국은 / 34%를 차지했다 / 29%의 중국이 그 뒤를 이었다 / 10%인 일본 / 그리고 7%인 대만이 //

Which는 계속적 용법으로 앞 문장 전체(According ~ to the U.S.) 를 선행사로 받음.

The National Policy Agency's Cyber Center / said / the number of hacking incidents / is rising steadily / with the World Cup just around the corner. //

경찰청 사이버테러대응센터는 /  밝혔다 / 해킹 사고의 건수가 / 서서히 증가하고 있다 / 월드컵 대회의 임박으로 //

영작) 월드컵 대회를 임박하고: with the World Cup just around the corner  cf. around the corner: 임박하여

Some foreign servers / block access attempts / whose origins are traced to Korea, / implying / that the country's leadership / in the broadband Internet business / may be marred / by its negligence / in upgrading lame security protection systems, / the center said. //

일부 해외 서버는 / 접속 시도를  차단한다 / 그의 출처가 한국으로 파악된 / 의미한다 / 우리나라의 지도적 위치가 / 광대역 인터넷 사업 분야에서 / 손상될 수 있다 / 태만으로 인해 / 불완전한 보안 보호 시스템의 업그레이드에 있어 / 이 센터는 밝혔다 //

번역) imply: 의미하다, 넌지시 비추다(suggest) / may be marred: 손상될 수도 있다

The center, / in charge of cracking down on cyber crime and hacker attacks, / estimated / that 22 international hackers / broke into 11,222 server systems / around the world / between August last year and March this year. // Of 6,287 sites / with identifiable origins, / 39 percent / were traced to Korea, / the center said. //

이 센터는 / 사이버 범죄 및 해커 공격을 단속하는 업무를 맡고 있는 / 추산했다 / 22명의 국제 해커들이 / 11,222개의 서버 시스템을 침입했다고 / 전세계에 / 지난해 8월부터 올해 3월 사이 // 6,287개 사이트가운데  / 소재지가 확인된 / 39%는 / 한국에서 그 소재가 파악되었다 / 이 센터는 밝혔다 //

번역) crack down on: 단속하다 / identifiable origins: 확인할 수 있는 출처

It / said / about 4,376 systems / in Korea / have been the targets of hacking attempts / during the period / and the actual damage / might have affected more than 40,000 systems / nationwide. //

이는 / 밝혔다 / 약 4,376개의 시스템이 / 한국에 있는 / 해킹 시도의 목표가 되었다 / 이 기간동안 / 그리고 실제 피해는 / 4만개이상의 시스템에 영향을 주었을 것이다 / 전국적으로 //

영작) it는 센터(the center) / might have + p.p.: 과거 사실에 반대되는 추측의 귀결절 /  nationwide: 전국적으로 (후미에 위치함에 유의)

The police cyber center / said / Korea / was most vulnerable / to hacker attacks, / followed by the United States, China, Taiwan, Romania and India. //

경찰 사이버테러대응센터는 /  밝혔다 / 한국은 / 가장 취약했다 / 해커 공격에 / 미국, 중국,대만, 루마니아 그리고 인도가 뒤를 따랐다 //

영작) vulnerable to: ~에 상처 받기 쉬운, 공격 받기 쉬운  (which was) followed by ~: ~에 의해 뒤따랐다(~가 그 뒤를 이었다)

The victims / ranged from a major Internet portals to state-run research agencies to security solutions providers. //

피해를 입은 곳은 / 주요 인터넷 포털 사이트에서 국영 연구 기관 및 보안 솔루션 업체에 이르기까지 다양했다

Even a government organization / armed with the latest security solutions / was a victim of an attack / by sophisticated foreign hackers, / police said.

심지어 정부 기관조차 / 최신 보안 솔루션을 설치한 / 공격에 희생되었다 / 고도의 해외 해커들에 의해 / 고 경찰은 밝혔다 //

(which is) armed with: ~으로 무장한, ~을 설치한

According to the center, / the average number of hacking incidents / in the year to March / was 614, / up 20.2 percent from the year-earlier period. // More importantly, / a large number of victims / did not know / their systems had been attacked. //

사이버 센터에 따르면 / 해킹 사고 평균 건수는 / 올 3월까지 / 614건이었다 / 전년 동기에 비해 20.2%가 늘어난 // 더욱 중요한 것은 / 상당수 피해 업체들이 / 몰랐다 / 그들의 시스템이 해킹되었다는 것을

in the year to March: 1월부터 3월까지 ; 올 3월까지

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